#documentation of my descent into madness

[worrysomegus]

HUGE throbbing wip

I am going to kill the idiot who thought it was a good idea to give this character a big mane with huge floppy ears what a horrible person that deserves to die

anyway things I'm gonna change are the tail I hate how it looks in general the rig is barely functional, I need to give them their sword and a holster I guess, also making the mouth more visible, make the ears look less shit and try rebdering it in cycles ALSO I should try save the eevee shader

heres an older wip I hate how hard it is to get a rimligjht with fur in eevee GOD theres this person in my class who can run cycles in pretty much realtime and I'm so jealous at least thgey make sick models though

why did youy read this

#wip #documentation of my descent into madness #I guess

[arthurtaylorlester]

me, joining different podcast fandom because they have quality content and little to no drama/problematic people: :D

The Penumbra Podcast Community: here! have some twitter threads about their new problematic so artist :)

#why cant i have nice things #today ill start hello from the hallowoods! #tpp #the penumbra fandom #the penumbra podcast #also saw someone say that tpp wasnt racially diverse and it was never brought up that juno was black/peter being asian #and like as a poc person im glad a little #because media is an escape for me so like i rather not hear about queer/poc/disabled issues in every single piece of content #ofc rep matters #but like you can't expect to find people talking about issues everywhere #casual rep is very important as well #also they live on mars god knows how far in the future chances are evryone is either mixed or vaguely non-white #technically not on mars anymore vut you get it ig #all on tiktok btw #i hate titkok #my screentime on tiktok was #6 hours #documentation of my descent into madness

[prince-kallisto]

Just learned today that a group of ravens is called an “unkindness of ravens” or “treachery of ravens” or “CONSPIRACY OF RAVENS”

THATS IT. YANA IS MAKING FUN OF ME 🧎🧎🧎

Because Dire Crowley Crowley “I am so kind” are you actually lying to me 🧎🧎🧎

No but “treachery” is killing me because Crowley legit has a deceptive nature 😭😭😭 He’s betrayed our trust so many times and I know it’s going to get worse. Even his NAME is a deception, with “Dire” being pronounced as “Dear.”

HELPPPP 🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛

(They can also be referred to as a “Rave of ravens.” Not as in the party rave lmaoo, but raving as in talking when your delirious or ‘insane.’ Which is. Um. Suspicious 👀)

#do I even write theories anymore #or am I just documenting my descent into TWST madness #twst theory #twst dire Crowley #twst Crowley #dire Crowley #twisted wonderland #KallistoPost

[skullhaver]

have officially reached critical blorbo. woke up weeping in the middle of the night after a dream about my own oc. just finished furiously typing notes into a google doc drafting a fix-it canon resolution about a guy that i made with my own mind

#there is no reason for me to put myself on blast like this but i guess i'm just documenting my own descent into madness at this point

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

Thanks to this post on Reddit, I realized when one (1) unreliable narrator Jason Peter Todd was born. Is it any surprise that it was when he died :)))))))))

Your whole life??? I can count on one hand the number of times you got angry. Right now you’re hoping Sheila will make it to Heaven after she got you killed,

And you still consider her your mom. You lived and died an angel.

You had no clue what was going to happen. You were a child who never should have been left alone by his parent.

You and me both, Boston.

Deadman: Dead Again issue #2

#I can see now this blog is just documenting my descent into madness #by issue 5 Jason Hal and the others are set free and it’s confirmed later in green arrow v3 issue 7 that Jason made it to Heaven #as far as I know Jason and Deadman only have a total of 3 interactions (2 technically since Gotham county line was Bruce’s hallucination) #but they absolutely should have more #jason todd #robin jason #boston brand #deadman #dc #comic panels #my post #there’s that popular theory that the clothes you die in become your ghost outfit #but in my mind Jason’s ghost is dressed as robin because it gave him magic and it truly made him so happy to be able to help/save people #because I like being miserable and going insane #it also fits with what he was doing in green arrow (just a tiny baby boy happily swinging around Heaven going ‘wahoo!’) #the world didn’t deserve Jason Todd but he came back anyway #in regards to the last few posts abt batkids and anger #this here is also why I think comparing anyone to Jason is holding the other to an impossible standard

[clove-pinks]

War of 1812 Brain: Terminal Stage is when you see a headline starting with "French town," referring to a town in France, but your mind immediately goes to Frenchtown, Michigan Territory and the Battle of the River Raisin.

#this doesn't even have a funny punchline i'm just documenting my descent into madness #too many lee murdock songs in rotation #shaun talks #war of 1812

[anachronistic-falsehood]

Whiskey, you need help/j, I can't even reblog your "missing cellbit post" anymore, it's keep crashing my tumblr lmao

THAT IS INSANE if ur using mobile maybe u can do it on browser but that's so funny 2 me either way. i miss qcellbit so much it broke tumblr <3

#whiskey yelling into the void #i could start a new missing cellbit post but this one has documented my entire descent into madness #so i feel i must continue it #for the bit

[blueminuet]

Idk if I really mentioned this much on tumbles, but I’ve been obsessed with the kamen rider vital bracelet recently. I only have the Build/Rogue set right now, but I have Ex-Aid and OOO on order.

Anyway, I have mostly finished customizing the bracelet to match my horrible little meow meow goal. 3D printed watch adapters, stretchy band, and painted buttons. I’m really happy with how it came out.

Anyway, that’s all. Planet has ruined my life with Kamen Rider, etc, and I am making it everyone else’s problem.

#kamens your riders #anyway just documenting my descent into madness

[makeadealwithdean]

pictures from my camera roll that live rent free in my mind 1/?

literally this is just me documenting my descent into madness, don’t mind me

#these aren’t mine but holy shit #i just wanna document what my camera roll looks like during this hyperfixation #my st descent into madness #stranger things #stranger things cast #billy hargrove #eddie munson #steve harrington #joe keery #joseph quinn #dacre montgomery #st cast

[blackberryhexee]

Right now my most toxic trait is wanting to meet someone exactly like Ichiro Irabu (specifically the one with glasses on the anime) And to think that relationship will ends well (clearly I wouldn't but I like to suffer)

#I'm documenting my descent into madness help #IT'S A JOKE #ichiro irabu

[theroyalsavage]

cried so hard over robin's backstory episodes that my eyes hurt now

#keeping track of the times i've cried over one piece. mostly as a way of humbly documenting my descent into madness #this was number 7. first time was that fuckass white dog from like episode 6 #that was so sick and twisted #oda you will pay for your sins (making little dog sad)

[nastytransmasc]

I think I’ve realized that if you get sober enough for long enough, you just end up remembering why you said yes to drugs in the first place

#me posting #I don’t recognize pictures of myself anymore rn and looking at them makes me feel deeply uncomfortable #kinda want to delete my face off of other social medias #I just feel like I’ve gone back so far. it’s just fucking disheartening man #like I know I’ll be okay again but being here fucking sucks #also shoutout to the gay people in my phone watching me document what feels like a descent into madness #I hate the word crazy but I FEEL fucking crazy #sobriety…ish lol

[itsflappletimeyippee]

silly

#ace markey #drdt #documenting my descent into madness

[cookinguptales]

the thing about stardew valley is when you reach the point where you're just trying to get enough money for that fucking clock, you start doing increasingly insane things.

like for instance rn I will not rest until all of my sea urchins have magic cowboy hats.

#stardew valley #yes I tweeted it AND I'm posting it here #bc I need to document my slow descent into madness I guess

[humanveil]

successoon season well and truly kicking off SO a reminder that you can find the worst of my succ posting at @romulussy <333

#that blog has my descent to madnesses documented in real time

[imwritesometimes]

*shakes pill bottle vigorously* come onnnnnnnnn, mama needs mental stability and a renewed will to live

#guess what came and I'm starting on a half-dose this week........... #so far. little sleepy. little sluggish. but. the pamphlet said that could happen so. I'm still trying to be cautiously optimistic abt this. #I KNOW I cannot continue to linger on in the state I've been in for honestly the last 8-12 months #it has been hell. and tbh I'm really proud that I survived it. but that's also really scary #I want to have a little more than just white knuckling it through life #I'll probs create a new tag for my posts abt this whole journey into going back on meds idk #I know I probably shouldn't post abt it at all but at the same time 🤷‍♀️ #my blog 🤷‍♀️ I've documented my descent into madness so whh mot my journey with meds (again) #erin explains it all