Chatting with one of my favorite mutuals who’s known me too long and knows me far too well. I really need to focus on work and big girl things before I leave for an upcoming trip but I can’t stop thinking with my cunt. I want to be a useful little fuckdoll and be used in the most painful and disgusting ways, simply so that I can be entertaining. I want to spend my days edging and getting so high that I’d do just about anything I’m told. I want to fall back into my eating disordered ways and entertain bad influences who encourage me to starve and hurt myself and get more and more fucked up until I finally fully spiral down and become a good girl whose life revolves solely around being a broken depraved whore.
But noooooo…instead I have to join Teams calls and work on spreadsheets and do math and be boring and healthy. That said, once I am back, you can expect me to be worse/better than ever.
I need to be dressed up as a cute little doll: Slowly dress me with cute pink outfits and shoes. Wash me and braid my hair to make me look like you want me to.
Play with me, use me however you please, just like you would with a toy. Make me unable to think and do things for myself.