#don’t listen to me i’m lying

[vibingandsimping]

sToP BEInG NiCe tO mE, iT mAKes mE wAnt tO bE NicE bAcK

No. Take our love. You beautiful cupcake sprinkle.

“Beautiful cupcake sprinkle”… How dare you call me that. Am I not a mean, intimidating tumblr blog??? NEVER CALL ME BEAUTIFUL CUPCAKE SPRINKLE!!!

#anon asks #asks #don’t listen to me i’m lying #I am definitely a cupcake sprinkle

[turquoise-skyyyy]

hmmmm. what if i started using tumblr again. wh. what if

#don’t listen to me i’m lying #i do this far too often DONT LISTEN #or maybe listen. who knows #i don’t even remember how to use tumblr to be honest it’s been way over a year #do people still use tumblr????/!1 idk man

[itspileofgoodthings]

so many people have said that as you approach your 30’s things start to fall into place but I don’t feel that at all. the closer I get the more it feels that everything is dissolving and falling apart

#it’s not all in a bad way! #I’m hoping Wendell Berry is right and it may in fact be that when we have lost our way our real journey begins #and there is something where in the dissolution of certainty God enters and directs us the way He wants us to go #and reminds us that we’re not strong and independent from Him but children in His hands #but I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss the certainty of 2018/22/younger Maria #I don’t quite know this new self #except for teaching everything is uncertain and I sort of daren’t pick up the colored pencils of life to do anything with them #I guess that’s what makes me really grateful for teaching #it’s firm and sure contact between me and the outside world #but everything else is just drifting and I am at sea! #anyways I am so sorry for putting personal self-reflection and analysis on your dash on this Easter morning #ewww ugh disgusting blegh I’m sorry #but trying to gain some clarity through words #Happy Easter! thank you for listening!! praying for you all

[seveneyesoup]

me when i remember that the sequel to the batman (2022) isn’t going to be the secret good version that exists in my head

#IT NEEDS TO HAVE HARVEY DENT #listen to me listen then you can have dick grayson also #Give Battinson A Child please #and i KNOW it won’t happen bc a lot of the first movie borrows from long halloween #which is Exactly why the second movie should have harvey dent in it #anyway also i want loser dad bruce wayne from the batman (2022) #‘do they make my chemical romance shirts for nine year olds’ type beat #also they should put bruce in a cute little pink bathrobe. he deserves it but i don’t really care about that #i have two demands they are harvey dent and dick grayson and i fear i may get neither #whatever. i don’t even care (<- lying) #i’m gonna go. uh. watch btas and by that i mean listen to micheal romance and draw my little dress up doll #OH I FORGOT MY OTHER DEMAND mcr on the soundtrack #please #new song please mr chemicals romance i am begging you on my knees new music new music

[sparklyseblos]

i want to talk about the second category of nini solos in hsmtmts:

there’s the first category which are the songs written by the queen olivia rodrigo (all i want & the rose song)

and then there’s the other category which is the holy trinity of songs about nini’s future/self-discovery/dreams/idek which are out of the old, granted & you never know.

something non-negotiable for me with this category is that:

- out of the old is the curious younger sister

- granted is the underrated middle child

- you never know is the scared but brave oldest

i don’t make the rules.

#hsmtmts #nini salazar roberts #anyone else skip you never know sometimes? like i get so emotional every time it pops up that sometimes i physically cannot listen to it #i think it’s bc it was nini’s last song & it’s also probably the most relatable for me #also anyone who got to hear all i want live at sour tour is SO LUCKY (but anyone who got to hear olivia live full stop is so lucky #i’m so sad i didn’t get tickets for sour tour like what i would giveee i don’t even have guts tickets either 😭 #praying i get guts tickets closer to the date or something #rant over but anyways stream granted bc i was not lying when i said it was the underrated middle child

[crossbackpoke-check]

56 and any Yamo pairing! 🫶

i just wheezed so hard when i saw what the song was i almost snorted coffee out of my nose i am so sorry for this one

#56 - kyoto phoebe bridgers + yamo

the story of how this song ended up on my wrapped is too long so it’s going in the tags but. let me set the scene for you.

2026 NHL GLOBAL SERIES™️ JAPAN - Presented by YPPI

November 13 & 14, 2026: Dallas Stars, Montreal Canadiens, Seattle Kraken, Vancouver Canucks

Saitama Super Arena, Saitama, Japan

It’s a pitiful excuse of a consolation prize for not being able to go to the Olympics, but Kailer’s not going to look a vacation horse in the mouth. The arena’s cool. It’s huge. The people are cool. There’s so many more of them than he thought there’d be with jerseys that have his name on the back, and a lot more that have the familiar orange and blue. He takes a picture of the fifth Oilers Yamamoto jersey he signs—this one’s the good Reverse Retro—and texts it to Connor, says,

no one here has even heard of mcjesus

and gets a moon face emoji in response. Leon’s influence. Kailer’s still never really deciphered what that one means, and he doesn’t think Connor knows either.

They don’t have a lot of time off between games, but Kailer’s trying to be a good tourist. His dad had been so happy when Kailer had told him about the series that Kailer’d had to stop him from trying to book a flight a year in advance, and his mom’s been just as bad, sending him every article she sees about Best New Spot in Tokyo! Cool Restaurant! Have You Seen This Japanese Cat Café? that she scrolls across on Facebook since June. Suzy’s in the same boat, so they’ve been crossing off their compiled travel-guide list together, looping in as many guys as they can. Everyone’s been pretty game. All the teams are crammed into close quarters at the same hotel, which means everyone wants to spend as much time as possible outside of it, and it helps that Kailer’s gotten pretty close with all the other guys that the NHL picked up as Global Series figureheads. Robo’s memes? Absolutely fire. The groupchat loves them.

For every item he crosses off the list, Kailer takes a picture and keeps it tucked in his phone notes. It’s like speed-running a scavenger hunt—they’re only here for four days—but he’s doing a pretty good job. His favorite so far has been all the gardens. They’re stunning, trees shining bright red and yellow, and every vendor has been selling maple candies, maple cakes, and even fried maple, though the official maple festival doesn’t start until next week. The second garden he visits, he does it on his own after practice, buying two cakes from a cart near the gate and walking until he loses the bustle outside. It’s easy to get lost in the winding pathways, heading deeper into the quiet, and there’s dozens of benches underneath the burnished leaves where young couples are tucked away on dates, or old friends are laughing and catching up. In some of the little clearings, there’s small shrines where people leave offerings, a prayer for good luck or good fortune.

Kailer stops at one without any people and sets the second maple cake on top of it, then sits and scrolls through all the texts that he’s missed. His mom gets replied to with a picture of him outside the garden gate, grinning and surrounded by other travelers. He sends his brother a picture of a trashy graphic I Love Japan t-shirt with the threat that he’ll buy one for him, and Kailer’s dad gets a picture of the meticulously arranged and cut bonsai that are across from the bench where he’s sitting. The Seattle groupchat gets a recycled meme from Robo, and he gets two thumbs up and an “LMAO” before he can even exit the thread. Finally, Kailer takes a picture of the half-eaten maple cake in his hand, holding it next to a fallen maple leaf on the bench, and gets halfway through typing another message before he thinks better of it.

(On the plane over, Drieds was reading them a story about how when they first introduced the high-speed railway, people were afraid to use it because they thought it would be too fast for their souls to keep up.

“Bro, if that were true, you just left your soul in the middle of the Pacific,” Ebs had laughed. “Planes are faster than trains.”

“Are they?” Matty asked. “Isn’t the train in Japan the fastest in the world?”

Drieds couldn’t make it through the rest of the story over the sound of everyone ripping Matty to shreds, so Kailer didn’t get to ask whether or not they found out anything about planes. Kailer’s not worried about his soul, but the logic makes a strange kind of sense; after all, he traveled 429 miles in five and a half hours once, and that was a little too fast for his heart to keep up.)

Fuck it. Kailer’s been trying to write a response for the past ten days, and he’s sick of swiping in and out of the message, staring at the keyboard so long he starts to see swirls in his vision.

Kailer drafts the text again and sends it, no context, no caption. A text travels faster than a high-speed train or a jet. Maybe it’ll pick his heart back up on the way.

#I don’t know how this song ended up on my Spotify wrapped because phoebe bridgers is too emotionally damaging for me to listen to like. #at all unless i am In It HOWEVER. there is this one silly video that brings me so much joy and made me feel semi-reasonable about listening #to kyoto & it’s the one video of the two painter guys painting the room & the lil guy is being a menace & the other guy just looks at him s #fondly & so lovingly & is that not the thesis of kailer yamamoto. be small be a menace be beloved by everyone. ANYWAY #liv in the replies #look this was going to be such a different thing and then. my brain went HEY BUDDY GUESS THE FUCK WHAT kyoto is a city in Japan. #day off in kyoto. guess who’s Japanese. guess what the nhl loves to do as HIFE publicity. also growing the AAPI audience is HUGE and i thin #they should. like originally i had NO idea what this was going to be (i’m so lying. the line ‘i’m gonna kill you’ but incredibly fond a la #the two painters video kept replaying in my head and i was like l m a o. klimmer & kailer. no plot all vibes it’s klimmer & Kailer that’s i #there is no real plot there is no actual idea the amount of googling that i did to write just this is UNREASONABLE i would love to be norma #about anything ever but i ALSO invented so much backstory to this that has no way of appearing in the actual fic and also jokes for ME #for instance. YPPI is the american manufacturer for yamaha motorcycles and. suzuki. yamamoto. (it’s not my brainworms it’s due to a fancam) #respectfully also i cannot write this fic. i have never been to japan and i think it would take me eight years to google enough #to be relatively comfortable like y’all have never seen the extensive research i put in to fucking phiLLY and a whole other COUNTRY??? #where the premise of the fic is learning how to be a tourist in your life and sometimes you have to grow out of things? #yeah i AM going to make something with the idea of Momijigari and life is ephemeral. is that a plot? no it’s vibes. #kailer goes to japan in the fall and realizes he’s a liar. who lies. (he misses [redacted]) (the redacted is because i haven’t decided) #also also. the garden reference is because a) i spent WAY TOO MUCH TIME ON GOOGLE and found out things to do in saitama and also that #kailer’s grandpa had a meticulous garden and i just think that’s neat #hiding-from-reality-56 #random ficlet is unbeta’d un-anything’d i don’t know WHERE this came from or the real plot of it at all. ok thanks byeeeee

[pebblezone]

this Tylenol ain’t shit w

#talkingcore #emotions. man. #there’s so much music that I just haven’t listened to in a bit and it’s making me feel things it’s not even like sad things I’m like damn #how long has it been since I’ve listened to beautiful stranger by Madonna as featured in Austin powers international man of mystery #but also something in my brain feels like it needs to cry like I don’t feel like I physically can but something needs to be released #so do I go pet sounds? smile? falsettos? I feel like I need to be in a sleeping bag and Contemplate #fun fact! Kendra Morris has an absolutely stunning cover of don’t talk (put your head on my shoulders) #I’m pretty neutral on beach boys covers tbh I’m never crazy about them since like they really never measure up #how many mid covers of god only knows can I take? not many. but like she & him have their little Brian Wilson tribute I like that. #the covers are a lot better when they don’t try to perfectly replicate whatever the fuck Brian Wilson was doing they aren’t him #brain wants to go melancholy mode but I’ve no clue over what. girl just tell me what I’m supposed to be sad over I’ll commit to the bit #need to keep listening to new stuff but also need old stuff Maybe that’s it maybe I just need old stuff again? like routine?? shit idk #also like at 5 am I woke up and remembered how in choir people kept comparing me to the director they had the year before me #and the thing is she had the same name as someone else in choir that was student teaching my first semester so I kept thinking they were #referring to her Id be in my choir fit my silly suit my proud butch uniform and they’d be like oh this is so ‘insert name’! #and it kept throwing me off because the student teacher was like. not like me at all so I was like fuck #what kind of girl core energies am I accidentally emitting this is Bad. so anyway 5 am I’m like fuck it I need to research this person #I search. find her. she’s butch. I’m blessed. they weren’t lying like man we do such a good job at being generic! yay! #butch And in choir! love to see it! keep thinking how I am destined to be like in my 40s doing mundane tasks #I’m gonna be soooooo good at watering plants and putting salt on the sidewalk before it snows and cleaning drains #need to be a dad mom so fucking bad you don’t get it I need to drive carpool and take off work for dentist trips and watch hgtv #AHHHH i think that got rid of some of the sad lfg💥💥💥💥this must be super long god damn sorry

[monitorkernelaccess]

sometimes I remember that preston max allen tweet that’s like “well at least in MY musical, the teenager actually faces consequences for her actions” (vagueing dear evan hansen) and it’s like. well yeah riley did kill two people so

#original post #dear evan hansen #we are the tigers #don’t ask me why I’m in my defending deh arc again. i don’t know #(to be clear when I say ‘defending’ I don’t mean ‘I think it’s the best ever and has no flaws and doesn’t ever do harm’) #(I mean ‘I think most criticisms of this musical have to do with people not really understanding what the creators wanted to convey and #what Evan’s intentions were.’ or ‘most people who hate it don’t know it very well’) #anyway I don’t remember the part of deh where Evan literally murdered two people. premeditated and everything #though now that I think about it #i feel like Evan’s actions would be more comparable to Cairo’s? instead of riley’s? #cause both constructed false narratives that harmed others (even if they didn’t directly intend to cause harm) #and they did it for selfish reasons #like Cairo framing maddy (is that her name??? i forget sorry) #and Evan lying about being Connor’s friend #still two completely different situations but like I feel like the crime is comparable? the crime being. well lying #and iirc…Cairo didn’t face consequences? she kinda got rewarded? #cause she became the next cheer captain right? #anyway. this post brought to you by [censored reasons why im in my hater arc] #and the fact that I like to listen to my Spotify liked songs on shuffle and watt songs keep coming up lol

[blenderhemmings]

i love how minors literally ignore straight forward requests from adults. especially in an online environment.

#how hard is it to listen #i have minors dni on my profile for a reason #i’m 22 i don’t wanna talk or interact with someone that’s my sisters age #and stop fucking lying about your age online #it’s not cute and it’s not funny #your safety is at stake when you lie #this is a broad statement #but also at specific people #@ the 15 year old who pretended they were 18 to talk to me ☻

[lewdo]

i like george and he's obviously not an engineer so this is more "wtf merc" than anti-george but every time i see that quote of his about merc thinking they had fixed their car just because of that brazil (extremely unique, specific track) 1-2, i have to sit there for a moment like wtf, why would you center your development around a guy new to the team who has been driving backmarkers thus far in his career and probably doesn't even know what a truly dominant car would drive like versus listening to the feedback of the guy who has more championships than his teammate has years of experience in f1. it does not make sense.

rumour has it mercedes employees are actually being payed by people at red bull to sabotage the team which is why they’re doing so bad this season and last

#guys i’m lying don’t listen to me #i wouldn’t be surprised if true tho #ask #anon

[wrenhyperfixates]

my mother: *openly says she does not like or love my father anymore*

also my mother: *uses father’s day as an excuse to guilt trip my brother and i*

#like hun #babe #who do you think that’s working? #3/4 of our conversations are venting about my father yk we don’t like him either #and why we don’t for that matter #“it makes me sad you don’t like him” #ok cry me a river then #and then and then #she goes “maybe when you’re older you’ll have more perspective how much we sacrificed for you” #like listen I get it #you financially provided for us #(aka bare minimum) #and literally refused to travel anywhere because you were too worried to leave us alone #(that’s really on you) #but you also kinda like. emotionally abused us #so 🤷‍♀️ #and she likes to belittle herself and then when we argue the opposite she says we’re lying and don’t actually feel that way #“I’m the worst mother ever. i’m worthless” “no you’re not you’re a good mother!” “you don’t mean that. if you did you’d spend time with me” #k guess literally inviting you out to do stuff doesn’t count #and then for whatever fucked up family dynamic my mother wants #my father is entirely emotionally detached #the longest “conversations” we have is when he lectures me about whatever god-forsaken topic he’s picked that day #so yea excuse us if we’re done trying #i literally just stood in my brother’s room after she was done guilt tripping us and we just shared a look of solidarity #anyway I love my brother so much #why is there not a brother’s day??? #he’d deserve one #bc despite my mother thinking I should love her more than anyone else in the universe #i love my brother more #which I could go on a whole separate rant about but yea he’s the best

[arthur-r]

also!! i think i’m gonna go to a brennan wedl concert next week and i’m so excited

#they’re from dazey and the scouts but they do (to quote the scouts bio) obscenely good folk as a solo project #anyway brennan is from minnesota but lives in nashville but is coming back here and playing a show at the 7th street entry of first avenue #and i really want to go. and i think i’m going to!! the problem is it’s 18+ so i have to get my mom to take me. but it is her kind of music #and she likes concerts so i’m hopeful. and tickets are pretty cheap as far as concerts go. so i think it will work out?? #anyway i’ve been listening to their album holy water branch on repeat for a few weeks but i don’t know their new EP #so i should listen to that so i know everything. but anyway it’s really good music and i really want to go #so i hope it works out. i recommend the entire holy water branch album though #it’s really good and not very long at all. if i have to pick one song though maybe traveler?? but it’s all really good #their voice is just. extremely good. and i would really like to see them live #so wish me luck. and either way i highly recommend #and i should probably listen to the new EP instead of this. but whatever. all in good time #(there’s like ten minutes left on the album. i’ll get to it soon enough shdhdf) #but you should really check them out!! very small on spotify all things considered but really good and should be more listened to #anyway i’m here and around. just listening to songs and maybe doing more shopping and such #(doing my best to be normal about it. i am in need of clothing) #i’m not a matador but i’ll make do i’ll wear red for you /ly #ok shdhdf i’m done #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[crossbackpoke-check]

V random but I’m in my Brockpetey feels could I listen to your 46 60 playlist!!

of course!! the first playlist i mentioned in the tags is actually not mine—it belongs to ash @notthequiettype and is a soundtrack to their wonderful fic Lake Rules (go read it if you haven’t already!!! highly recommend!!!)

annnd this one is my personal brockpetey vibes playlist

happy listening!!!

#liv in the replies #sadcanucksfan #also!! ash if you want me to unlink/untag please let me know and i will!!! #this one got bumped up because it’s currently relevant (i just posted brockpetey content) the rest of them will be scheduled in the queue 🫡 #if i don’t do it now i will lose all links and ability to find things #as for my brockpetey i have zero reasons for any of the songs besides minnesota. it’s all vibes no thoughts. #minnesota to me is the quintessential brock petey song topped only (but really equaled) by charm you (also by samia) #like minnesota i would love to say is a joke but i really heard that song for the first time YEARS ago and went oh my fucking god. #i’m going back to minnesota huh #and then CHARM YOU??? AN ACT OF VIOLENCE AGAINST ME PERSONALLY???? #you’re telling me there’s the lyrics ‘kissin you would be like kissin on the USA’ & ‘flying while i’m lying that i hate LA’ & it’s not 406? #(addition that i wasn’t gonna tell you but i have to tell y’all because it’s relevant to Me. samia is so so so so good live.) #(also i haven’t added it to the playlist because it’s sad but kill her freak out has narrative potential as brockpetey. also???? #they’re all somehow petey pov to me. sometimes people just get assigned bands in my head for no reason & i think samia is petey’s vibe band. #BESIDES bbno$ which is canon lmao. spiritually petey is a samia song to me i guess idk why either sorry but kill her freak out #is a (seemingly you know how i am) unrequited brock/petey for when brock got his gf. thank u for your time i hate it too just listen to it) #also no statements about my music taste i will cry. if you hate it don’t tell me if you have recs do tell me #although i do have a joke playlist compiled of all the songs brock has been screencapped listening to because. why not. it’s fun and also #has that man ever listened to a single lyric in his life. what the FUCK is up with your chill playlist bud none of those songs are chill. #lovingly. ripping my hair out. the amount of times he listens to fast car like???? girl are you okay. #anyway this is ur reminder i miss stalking people on spotify let me see your music taste cowards. #ALSO #IF I THINK TOO LONG ABOUT PETEY IN MINNESOTA I WILL LOSE MY SHIT SO I AM NOT JUST KNOW THAT I CLICKED THE FIC & SKRTED I CAN’T HAVE EMOTIONS #if i did not have someplace to be at precisely 7:50AM i would be having a full breakdown please believe me. #oh also ALSO bonus points if you figure out what the numbers in the name are :)

[vampstel]

Obligatory life update post: I’m good!! I just feel drained socially and art wise. My motivation for gaming and writing has skyrocketed though. Been writing a lot about my OCs, Rei and Lawrence especially. So much so that I could probably spam the dashboard with a crap ton of infodumps if anyone wants that lol

#꒰ v’s rambling ꒱ #I am too lazy to answer my inbox btw sorry .w. #if you ask me something about my ocs though I’d answer in a heartbeat #and that probably sounds bad but I just. don’t have any motivation to talk unless it’s about my interests #like I love listening and reading what people have to say but right now I’m too drained to do that #Been going thru a lot is all. but I do feel good #I’m not lying I swear. It’s just hard to explain ^^;

[sing-me-to-sleep-tonight]

sometimes gaslight myself. i’ll be thinking about something i told someone and start to cringe to myself a bit and ask myself how i know what i said was true. but like … it’s shit like events that happened or media i consume or whatever. more or less objective stuff

#i was talking to my teacher abt how i made the fb page for my graduating class #n just now i’m recalling that n how i felt like i got some brownie points but then She was like ‘yeah but did you tho’ #‘are you sure that was you’ #like babe yes i’m the admin i’m the only one that posts #idk #i told my robert i bought jeanette mccurdys book and She was like ‘i dunno about that sounds like you’re lying’ #i’m high tho i’m toasted #don’t listen to me

[limewatt]

video games my love, why must you hurt me

#i hate playing video game so much (lying) #i exist in a constant state of liking playing games and also dislikingbit #it’s really mean and unfair that you gotta play video gamex to play video games #the screen of my laptop hurts my eyes so much and my vision sucks so bad that i have to wear my glasses to be able to see anything #there’s settings to adjust the brightness but it shoots the colors to shit and the dark point gets too high to make anything out #(settings beyond the default buttons i mean) #playing games gives me headaches if i play too long but i tend to play in 2-8 hour chunks because adhd #especially older games like anything with low res textures and low(er) poly models make me wanna slam my head against my keyboard #games make me feel bad while also being fun and for that they should pay #this all compounds on the fact that i am bad and slow at most kinds of games #and since i’m slow at games the music loops so many times and while i really love a lot of game music it gets annoying when it loops in-game #none of this has been too much of an issue cause modern good-looking games and handheld switch games stem most of my problems #but i’ve been playing shadow the hedgehog and god the game is fun and enjoyable but i am bad and slow at it and it hurts me #my laptop screen is killing me and the audio in this game is a bit whack and god i really fucking suck at this game which it frustrating! #and i’ve spent way more time than i’d like staring at my painful screen listening to good but maddening music #with controls i don’t quite grasp dying to the same boss over and over again YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY THE MORE THE MERRIER FUCK YOU EGG CRACKE #remembering funny lines from the fandub makes it a bit better though. and i do genuinely like the game. i’m just a bit frustrated :/ #sometimes i think about the many ways in which life is tortuous. and the ways which the things i enjoy turn agonizing. it makes me mad #but life is not always tortuous. there are ways around and through the things that bring me pain. it just doesn’t feel like it sometimes #i know this to be true #trying to not feel bad about everything is hard when i already feel bad i think #i guess i’m not really having a great time in general :/ #i feel like i’ve been rambling/venting in tags a lot recently? sorryyyyyyy