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impossiblesuitcase · 8 months

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Cinder is jealous. She's jealous of her step-sisters. They have pretty clothes and soft hands and a doting mother. She has none of which. Her sister Peony is her only human friend and even seeing her in a ballgown sparks "envy" in Cinder, because Peony gets a dress and can go to the ball. Cinder can't.

She doesn't believe she could be pretty. She's too clunky, she's not curvy. She pins it down to being cyborg or just naturally inadequate. Cinder doesn't have nice clothes or fancy things. Kai gives her gloves and they are "the most beautiful thing she had ever owned." And then they are ruined, like all the pretty things in her life. She has to survive, endure, and with that she doesn't have time for prettiness.

But Kai's first impression of her is that she's "cute" and "pretty." He calls her pretty in public, and he calls her pretty in his private thoughts. "Your pretty new mechanic in the lobby", "the pretty young mechanic at the market." He finds her gorgeous with her glamour, and his "knees threatened to buckle" in her beauty. Everyone else thought she was gorgeous, but no one was swooning the way he was. The glamour had amplified the attraction he'd already had towards her.

Thorne, upon seeing a cyborg stumble into his jail cell, has the first instinct to flirt with her. Not recoil, because of her metal and skin, but flirt because she's a girl and that's his favourite pastime. And what distinguished her from the many other pretty girls he normally flirted with? To him, "her irritation made her prettier". Her disgruntled personality, who she is, is her prettiness.

Adri tells Cinder that if she can't cry, she can't feel love. She does love, she loves so much, but she doesn't have time to grieve her sister or her anonymity or her freedom when she has a revolution to start. She has to tough it out.

When she's bound up in Kai's arms she feels safe, delicate, "almost like a princess."

Cinder pretends she doesn't have a crush on Kai because having a crush on a celebrity is "preadolescent," the trademark of immature, lovesick teenage girls. How can she be girly when she's a grimy mechanic? She "doesn't know the first thing about makeup", because do you think Adri would have ever let her buy some to try? Would Cinder have even bothered, believing nothing could improve a cyborg?

She dreams of "going to the ball and dancing with the prince." And when Iko teases her, Cinder says, "we all have our weaknesses". It is a weakness to be in love, because someone like Kai couldn't love her. She imagines being at the ball, "jealous of the girls who swooned to catch Prince Kai's attention." Jealous that they can be open with their attraction, jealous that he would pick them over her.

But he loves her. And when he does, she can't process the feeling "of being desired". She wants to carve 'C + K' into a wall, then berates herself for such "whimsy." Because deep down, she's always wanted to be wanted, and that truth is her weakness. But war doesn't last forever, and soon, she has no reason to hide that. There's no reason it would be a weakness.

Cinder is comfortable in baggy cargo pants and messy hair but she also dreams of wearing a beautiful ballgown. She loves her coronation dress. She calls the empress crown 'stunning.'

She never becomes obsessed with frills or glitter, but she slowly leans into soft, pretty things. She has a necklace from Kai and her engagement ring. It's sparkly and yet, Cinder, the so-called 'tough, aloof tomboy' thinks it makes her metal hand look "elegant". Maybe she starts wearing bracelets and earrings because they don't bother her when she isn't working on something mechanical. She doesn't even notice until Thorne jokes that she wears more metal in jewellery than the whole metal of her hand.

Maybe she buys herself a new set of tools with pink and blue iridescent handles simply because finds them pretty. Maybe when her friends tease her about how in love she is, she starts to acknowledge it.

Cinder is not some stereotype of a leading female character who is strong and as such cannot be feminine or soft or emotional. Was she given the chance to be?

Let her be soft. Let her be delicate. Let her pretty.

#tlc #the lunar chronicles #lunar chronicles #linh cinder #selene blackburn #emperor kai #kaider #carswell thorne #ive had this sitting in my drafts for years #dont know why i never finished #i clearly had too much to say

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nonpoppie · 1 year

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played the space train anime game . guess who i fixated on

#sampo koski #honkai star rail #star rail fanart #my art dump #wow i hate all their clothes why r they so hard to draw #HE'S SO [incomprehensible hand gestures]#pathetic and silly and highly suspicious. My god #i hesitate to say evil bc i just dont know !! bro is speaking lies !!#im kind of obsessed with him highkey #also LMAO im trying to get back into the vibe for drawing so bad its so bad for me rn #now i have a game to hyperfixate on too. Will i never function properly again #im FINISHING THINGS . he cant keep doing this to me

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jestroer · 2 years

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When i saw day 14 and 15 on @ink-ghoul‘s Hermittober + Double life thingie i immediately thought about Team Rancher and could not take them out of my mind so there they are! Not exactly on theme but its what my brain gave me on those promts so it is what it is

Days 14+15 Warmth + Farm = Team Rancher!

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llumimoon · 6 months

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Hi!! :D I'm thinking of making some double sided dndads characters charms BUT I first gotta know roughly how many people would even wanna buy them before I make em! I would appreciate it a lot if you could lmk your thoughts <33

close ups are under the cut :]

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads s2 #dungeons and daddies season 2 #normal oak #scary marlowe #lincoln li wilson #taylor swift dndads #hermie unworthy #cal draws #THE CHARM DESIGNS ARE DONEEEE VICTORYYYYYYYY ‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥 LMAOOOO #let me kmow which design is ur favorite!!! :D #shoutout to babs trav cookies and all the other server members for helping me out 🥺#I STRUGGLED SO HARD ON NORMAL. I DONT KNOW WHY #I DRAW MY BOY ALL THE TIME BUT FOR SOME REASON. FOR SOME REASON. HE WAS SO DIFFICULT EIEHWIAJDJF #i swear to god i edited him like five times after i finished the lineart bc i was just never happy. sigh #im scheduling this for the morning when more ppl are up im knocking the fuck OUT now

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starjunkyard · 6 days

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"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.

#house md #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #johan being crazy about yaoi md #johan's mindpalace #Im crazy #like im tearing up #this scene is so romantic it genuinely makes me nauseous #the lowlight setting the lingering stares the soft little smile a dam thats finally broken #I need a 12 gauge bullet in the thigh #Please watch this scene screencaps do not do it near enough justice #do you know whats so genuinely actually sickening #its been months since i finished house md #and i have not watched a single show that has managed to fill even a quarter of the gaping bleeding hilson shaped hole in my heart #shows that have actual gay people actual representation and not a single one has managed to alter my brain chemistry the way hilson has #since day 1 episode 1 #Like its actually nauseating a little its so over for me for the rest of my life #Like im actually never recovering #people say “they dont make xyz like they used to haha” But Guys they Genuinely dont #Im going through withdrawls #I need my yaoi cocaine so bad but my plug died 12 years ago and i cant fucking Move #House md capital of fatphobia homophobia transphobia early 2000s edgy humour outshining modern shows with actual rep like im sick #Its not even because i want to like i feel like there are worms in my brain. I feel like ratatoullie if the rat was evil #This is not what the stonewall riots were for #I feel like so nausous why couldnt i be crazy about an actual gay pairing like a normal gay person. Im gonna throwup #Why couldnt i like music and girls #Its not even that house md is objectively logically better than these shows like no. Im just crazy #Im so sick they make me so sick i feel like there are worms in my head. My head #Dont know when i will ever be onorlmal again. Sorr

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opikiquu · 27 days

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.Aventurine. Aventurine. Boy wh y

#★ arin rambles #★ my art #my best friend finished aventurines boss in 1 try #(i was stuck so i never knew what happened after)#wish she never did #im filled with so much sorrow #THE NOTE. THE NOTE THE NOTE THE NOTE #HE. CARES HE CARES SO M #IM DOOMED #IM TOO LITTLE FOR ALL THIS SADNESS #SO MUCH . TEARS . TOO MANY SAD. WHY. WHYYY MEEEE #The note……… Im never ever gonna drop this ever #Aventurine’s story will haunt me forever #(affectionately)#so good….. but like in a painful way. Like ive been crying for 3 days now #today was the worst offense. MY HEAD HURTS STILL #SAVE ME FROM THIS NIGHTMARE CALLED escape penacony obby!#ill stop rambling now . I need . Rest. Or a ratiorine overdose whichever i find first #i hope my best friends dont see these tags they’ll think im pathetic #And i am. But nobody has to know that #THE NOTE— Okay fine ill stop ILL STOP #hsr penacony spoilers #hsr penacony #penacony #dr ratio x aventurine #dr ratio #aventurine x dr ratio #aventio #ratiorine #hsr aventurine

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freckled-paints · 3 months

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Lottielee weekend day 1: afterlife!!!

Heavily inspired by this post, it emotionally destroyed me so I had to make it into art

inspo under the cut!

#lottieleeweekend #lottielee weekend #im am completely normal and sane about them #<- the furtherest thing from the truth #THEY ONLY WANTED TO STAY TOGETHER #WHY DO GAY PPL HAVE TO BE SO TRAGIC #yellowjackets #lottielee #yellowjackets fanart #laura lee #lottie mathews #'but i -i just got here - i dont wanna leave you'#I WILL NEVER KNOW PEACE!!!#anyway #first lottielee art i have finished YIPPE #have like 7 WIPs of them and counting so far #i am so normal

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spacemaverick · 3 months

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overcome with sudden need to draw ranboo with exactly one reference image

@aenor-llelo

#fanart #orphan's path #ranboo #i dont think ive ever drawn him digitally actually. theres one single sketch i never finished #ive drawn him a few times in my sketchbook but i really dont have a grasp on this enderman design's anatomy lol. have a scarbled boy #< dotn know why i had to make up the word scarbled about it but it feels correct #id in alt

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heynhay · 10 months

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whats so funny is that you guys have no idea that in a week or two its quite likely ill drop off the face of the earth again. maybe even delete my whole blog. like all the great klance artists.

#chartron. iwmys. 214b.#(maybe if my name were also more nonsense i would be better?)#i have a theory that once you serve your time in the klance war they take you out back and shoot you #thats why all the hard hitters are never heard from again #dont worry. i will go gently into my good fate.#anyway dont freak out its just that this burst of motivation is very foreign and i can feel a bit of burnout coming on #my own fault for churning out klance art 24/7 for two weeks #(i say like i didnt just now finish another piece)#but still #hyperfixation is hyperfixating. who knows where the winds will shift next.

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quinn-pop · 9 months

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sorry for the metadede flood lately um. anyway i think dedede officiates waddle weddings. if they even have them lol. it’d be funny and cute

#reason for the flood: thinking abt one idea means i get 50 more #one of these were drawn with the old pen! and my god it shows #one is also two sketches fused together (which ive had to do a lot lately) and…okay actually it’s still easy to tell but not bc of that #i am mad with power #meta knight #king dedede #kirbyposting #my art or something #i think my art ideas are probably very weird lol #but you know me i love a good shenanigan #if it’s any condolence i swear ive been working on less self indulgent stuff too lol #not…NOT self indulgent because it’s me and i like having fun #it’s my blog i do what i want or something #im juggling like 7-9 projects right now (and most of the time) so my progress on each is very random #i thrive off of goofiness #but yes that is why i do this stuff. and then the Big Serious Projects never get finished #half kidding. i have a lot of stuff at abt 80% rn #metadede #because i forgot if i need to tag when it’s already in the post lol #id probably save this for a few weeks out but i dont have anything else done and yeah im procrastinating on sleeping #wow i really do write an essay in every tag

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luneariann · 9 months

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hey. hey what if the vampire thing gets undone and chuuya realizes dazai is another body on his ever growing kill count. He gets flashbacks to The Flags. He can say The Flags weren't his fault but Dazai? He killed Dazai with his own hands. What will the reaction be pooks

HEY. HEY NO. STOP THAT BECAUSE I WILL ACTUALLY START CRYIBF WHAT THE FUCK.

#no but this is so intresting to think abt tho #honestly idk why i didnt think of the flags auwgsh #god tjats so painful tho im 😭#i couldnt tell you how hed react just cuz i honestly dont know enough abt his relationship w the flags to say #(sweats in never finished stormbringer)

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zoluna · 1 year

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unfinished stuff

#zolu #luffy #perobin #perona #nico robin #zoro #one piece #its the way the first 2 are anon requests that i forgot to finizh #sorry i dont even know why i ask for requests i never finish them lmao 😭😭#namivivi #ill finish the namivivi one tho

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silenthillbunni · 3 days

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🐰🌧️

#so on my way home..#i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :)#you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :)#you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!!#you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u!#whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️#god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it.#or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!!#not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭#my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

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scribbling-dragon · 6 months

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just a small notice (maybe not small, but it feels silly to call this an announcement, because that feels awfully dramatic)

essentially, I'm going to be putting crown of antlers on hiatus for now. I apologise to anyone this might disappoint, but I've lost quite a bit of motivation for the project at the moment, and have been feeling increasingly guilty over not updating the fic, to the point where i feel bad for writing things that are not coa.

some of you may have noticed my recent lack of updates, and that has been partially due to the workload I currently have (bio and chem is No Joke), but it is also partially due to this anxiety.

again, i apologise for anyone this might disappoint, but I hope you can understand my reasoning behind this hiatus and enjoy the fics I will (hopefully) be writing in the future <3

#this is not me saying that coa is never going to be finished btw #i wont say that wont happen. because motivation and inspiration can be fickle creatures at times #but i hope to finish it one day. i just dont believe i can do it justice at the moment #and its also beginning to have a negative effect on Me #and i felt it would be best to distance myself from it slightly in the hopes that i can return to it again #and i also wanted to give everyone an update! because i dont want to leave it sitting around and gathering dust. with noone knowing why #anyways. hope everyone understands <3 #juno.talks #crown of antlers au

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skaluli · 6 months

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wasnt gonna post this until i was happy with it but that was weeks ago and its either i post it now or medic dies in the files

#artluli #tf2 #team fortress 2 #yeah i had no idea what to do for the background which was one of the factors of why i never finished it #actually wanted to do a “finished piece” for once but it just never happened #another factor was the fact i dont know how to really draw medic yet #wanna do him justice before i post him “”“”officially“”“” but i dont know when ill actually get good at drawing in general and him #the shading is very random #i didnt know what to do with it either so i kinda just threw paint on a wall hoping something would work but it didnt #i dont know #i dont like this that much and wish i could somehow fix it but i cant and im very tired #still sorry for no new art #like i said previously i havent drawn in weeks #life is life #hopefully when i post art again its worth your time lul

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miisart · 1 year

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It’s not your fault, you stupid girl.

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