#early spn is actually kinda good tho

[incarnateirony]

Big ball of trans issues inside

Been doing a lot of meditating. Maybe it's the time of year. Maybe it's the fresh catalyst. But I'd been considering personal life issues, relationship life issues, and the irony of "I don't have dysphoria tho" and then getting fucking hit with my own invisible baseball bat relentlessly from the blue suddenly. Oh, there it is. Nevermind. THERE IT IS I FOUND IT

So I almost didn't post this and didn't know where to start it, but figured it might help someone else. Warning, there's going to be adult content in here. Not like, porn, but I mean, I'm not gonna pull punches.

So anyway, first note is: SPN fandom is actually the only place anyone gendered me *female* in online as a default. Maybe it's just because it's generally assumed around here. Maybe it's because I was doxxed like a week into fandom the first time. I don't know.

But in days old, when I ran a famous giant early 2000s server, at best, "who the fuck is Minerva? Minerva is black crest? Minerva is Ave? So Minerva is a dude. Who the fuck is Minerva I've seen 20 Minervas and I've never met her. Him." since I've ALWAYS been the ghost in the matrix.

But those were the names I generally got known on individually--masc characters, couldn't write women for shit. Did I manwhore as a top Asmodeus in my teen years? Absolutely. To say I explored my sexuality through a masc mindset is an understatement.

So yeah, you have a few late teens/early 20s girlfriends/fuckbuddies/whatever. Then I got dragged into my life survival shit. You've heard it. From human trafficking to escape to domestic incidents I've been doxxed over about before there too. Then I went back to one ex-girlfriend in the mess that became a wife and finally settled down from bouncing around.

I mean it when I say staying still is weird for me. I still kind of want to get an RV and disappear. Again. But right this time. But I need a copilot, that's how this works, that's the whole thing.

But in that time, my wife and I started hot again and went cold again. Cuz turns out, I'm a great bang your brains out at the bar or hiking trail or bathroom flash in the pan, but not something your average Middle Class Woman who Wants To Explore The Lesbian Facet Of Her Bisexuality had in her head, I guess.

I spent a good deal of time getting bitched at for literally sounding/moving masc during intercourse and she wasn't even big on what one could call complimentary toys to that. And over time, we just kind of fell apart, sat in different rooms, and she got hostile to even talk to or sit in the room of long before the split. Anything above handling her like a vase in lesbian porn was Being Too Rough. And like yes I will worship you i will do so many things to that vase but after a certain point, I'm sorry, I'm invisible balls deep and I'm fucking the shit out of you, and you generally don't complain when you're yodeling as yall do.

So anyway, why talking about this old stuff? Because coming out was basically the catalyst point for everything else. The split/divorce, moving, me having to expedite a certain project I was sending before I lost it all in the chaos, trying to rebuild my life even before the health crash while letting her keep everything.

So my trans journey and consideration started quietly in those closed off rooms, and got shut out when I even hinted about it, or just waved it off and said don't worry about it, but that's like when the light switch hit, and she ran and got a job and tried to kick me out of the house I'd been paying for, for years, with her first check.

So you can get a bearing on like, I've sat alone, happily single, in my lil covid safe disability box, with occasional special friend visits. I mean, Discord keeps me in contact even with real life friends, and their lives are busy.

I kinda put in my head I'd just be a bachelor forever and had generally assumed I was, I don't know, ace? I put my horny jail so securely in a closed off box it's like I turned off the animal side of me and became the hyper-cerebral asshole everybody knows.

And then I dunno. A switch got hit. And I can't turn it off. And I realize I've truly always been like this, from my early jackoffs to my first fantasies I always sat from the "wrong" perspective. It even made porn uncomfortable because I didn't know how to sit and look at it and so on. My wife already shut down that part of me a LONG time ago. But it's because that part was there.

Like oh I'm not ace, I just completely hid from anything that activated that element of my persona. I see. How do I turn it off now. Because the second they flirt back or idk even joke about nudes it's like running back into that box, because no, what can I even send?

I never even thought about "properly" transitioning, because nobody was really gonna perceive me but me and my closest friends. But damn what the fuck it's there so bad now that's hanging there on the plate. And people say Do It For Yourself or whatever, and that's true. But when I'm safely alone in my box, Myself doesn't need that. but it takes even connecting these pieces to really get it. Like oh that explains literally everything about me and my relationships, neat. So doing it for myself still apparently has an element of Someone To Do It For that makes the switch get stuck on running up the horny dysphoric light bill. Rent free. All the time.

And when you're, in that case, the hopeless simp throwing through the shop window at something entirely out of your league that gets REAL AWKWARD. So I'm currently sorting through if this really is going to become a goal in the next few years. I mentioned thinking about it when my legs started going out. It's still there on the brain.

So idk, maybe this is an experience someone else has been smashing their head off the wall on themselves that might help.

And most of all if you're like me and get hit with some weird need to cry through it, don't fight it just go through that, once you let yourself have that it gets better I guess. It doesn't go away but gets better. I don't know how else to describe it. That's at least when I guess I let myself really own it.

[caswlw]

In this alt Jess Au would BobbyEllen be a thing because honestly they were so cute! Because that’s how you could have Dean & Co interact because like maybe Bobby adopted them or something bc we getting rid of J*hn! And like imagine if Jo is actually John Winchester’s kid so like she could fill the Sam role and Jess is somehow Micheal’s vessel (as a fun spin on things!) and like you could maybe have JessAnna to parallel DeanCas and maybe JoCassie (and like Jo met her on a Case in Athens?)

Maybe Cas could be the new Anna and like fell and ripped out his grace but…but he fell in love with Dean and fell again because he loved him? Idk what to do with Sam…maybe he’s still law boy but he just kinda helps around the roadhouse and is kinda like ash but with lawyering?

I love this au! 🥺✨👏🏻

AHHH THIS IS ALL SO GOOD!!! and yes assume bobbyellen is canon in every good spn i make they are chefs kiss (tho i Do love the brem polycule)

and making jo STILL be dean and sam’s younger sister !! having jessanna parallel deancas !! honestly what does this mean for samjess omg AND sam in an ash like position ? peak. also more ash in general ? does this mean sam is more like. a victor (on the outside but close to the boys (or in this case the girls)) or is he more of a garth (hunter adjacent)? anna as cas and cas as anna but staying alive and human with dean !! does this mean tfw is jo, cassie, jess from the early start and anna comes in like cas later (so it’s like a merge of my jo verse and the jess lives au !!) omg there’s SO much to consider here

#and it’s all so delicious #anon #alt jess lives au

[poppythewitcher]

SPN hell binge Episode 1

Yippe kayay Mother Fuckers, Let’s do this! (edited in the morning or grammar)

Should I watch the recap?

Is that cheating?

I mean It’ll set up the season?

But it it cheating?

Like I’m supposed to get context like when you start a comic half way through

I’m gonna watch the recap just cause I know I won’t even understand that

Aw the cw logo, lets you know you’re getting into some shit

oooo decapitations

what how many of them are there

their voices don’t sound like I imagined

Fuck i kinda forgot Jeffery Dean Morgan was in this

You expect me to take these fuckers seriously where their father, the root of their daddy issues, is Denny fucking Duquette

I’m still confused who the fuck is Jack

I think he’s the antichrist

Listen the practical FXs tho

why is half the recap just a zombie fight

is this the beginning of the this episode or like the end of the last?

oh wait it was the last

listen I get continuity but the fucking font the credits are in makes me want to die

Gay angel can commune with the dead that’s nice

Why did they think that flimsy ass thing will hold the door

“He said welcome to the end what does that mean” the network is finally pulling the plug on this shit show

i love the casual discussion of smiting

I relate to dean in that I too have daddy issues and hate sky-daddy

Is Sam the only function one on this show?

Nope he let the zombies into the crypt

oooops the antichrist is awake

oh its a demon not the antichrist

demon with fashion sense

a demon talking about being a demon the way I talk about working at Starbucks

I like how Sam’s like yeah Cas, give your blood to the minimum wage demon who just met that is currently inhabiting the body of some kid we all really cared about

Nothing could go wrong with that

wait what that fucking worked

how did the minimum wage demon fix God’s mess

okay random teens because horror tropes of violence against young “stupid” women who are just enjoying their lives because it’s easier to enjoy the thing when the male gaze and patriarchal culture not only fetishizes violence against women but it makes the horror easier to watch because it’s not as scary when the victim is a vapid and brainless teenage girl, thus making the male viewer feel secure because his ego tells him that he is stronger and smarter than these weak female and therefore would not fall victim to the monster even though that makes no sense in this context when their main demographic is gen-z girls,gay and theys.

also who gave the camera to the guy with hand tremor what was that shaking

When you have to kill a character but the actor still needs to pay the bills

are they literally just gonna spend the whole season tracking down runaway ghosts this is gonna be worse than I thought

Like is that really Jensen Ackles’s voice is doesn’t sound real

ooo spooky car crash

Wait woman in white wasn’t that the fucking pilot i watched that

oh god really all the fucking monsters of the week are back fuck me what have I gotten myself into

Why is this show trying to be a fucking 80s horror movie now we have a poor housewife and her daughter being haunted by ghosts really

and its not just that its the cinematography and the lighting like the whole fucking mise en scen

its a fun aesthteic but goddamn did they really milk 15 season out of this shit? did anyone actually watch after season 12?

motherfucker a killer clown wow

Like I feel like they’re making they’re voices deeper on purpose

I’m sorry what in the living fuck is this dumb ass FBI shirt that Sam is wearing that does not look real you are not fooling anyone honey has this really been your shtick for 15 fucking years and you look like THAT holy fucking hell it genuinely looks like the costume department is barely trying

Mr. Trench coat honestly looks more believable

wait is minimum wage demon a neanderthal

And he;s hitting on one half or the queer baiting wonder twins great

Minimum wage demon: “who was he”

me: “wouldn’t we all like to know”

I mean me. I would like to know thank you minimum wage demon for getting me this info

So he’s they’re kid that’s nice

Wait

So the queer baiting wonder twins had a FUCKING CHILD TOGETHER

holy fuck they weren’t kidding this really is hell

the blood stains are really good like a little bright for being old dried blood but still the practical FX slaps and I’m already starting to think that’s the show’s one redeeming quality

That child is defffffff possessed

This thing is giving me flashbacks to early quarantine when my ex made me watch killer klowns for outer space on Netflix party would not reccomend

I mean I wouldn’t reccomend this either but

Who’s Rowena

Why is the angle that low and harsh on the minimum wage demon being a fan boy like really why

Why is it a dutch too

I just want to talk to the cinematographer and see if he’s okay

Like It went to a stand eye level over the shoulder and then nack to the super harsh low dutch what’s going on

Also Who’s Micheal

Like Micheal the angel?

Is Micheal an angel? idk

why does Cas readily hand out the info that he’s an angel

Sam shot god and honestly fucking mood

is it just Sam or does every one get fucked up if they try to hurt sky-daddy cause that’s kind of a dick move

I feel like I’m supposed to recognize the MILF in white but I haven’t seen the show so IDK

What’s with the whole human sacrifice heart thing like is that standard here

I thought they were going door to door they literally only went to the one house

the killer klown from outer space is back and he has friends

I love how Cas is just like offend and exasperated over being shot

and then just fucking La Llorona makes an appearance

are the spell in fucking Latin on this show

this is why I’m a Witcher stan like at least Sapkowski’s creative an used a different dying language

why does Sam have to stay be hind like in theory they could just sprint

and he picked up the kid he’s like the one functional one here

Sam just told the killer klown from outer space to shut up and honestly same

I have 5 minutes left and it feel like it’s been an eternity

how many times have they been uncomfortably thanked by a little girl on this show cause I feel like the answer is too many

Why is the pie man such a bitch to his husband like way to press against the whole queer baiting wonder twins thing we get it you’re uncomfortable with your character’s repressed bisexuality please maybe chill you made the gay angel sad

even the minimum wage demon gets it

that looks infected

oh yeah dean’s oldest daughter syndrome is back that’s nice

I feel like I see the appeal of this show and how it could be good but then it went to hell

Wait are they actually god now what the fuck

like is this whole season just some Nietzsche bullshit okay

why does dean say just you and me? You also have a gay angel and a minimum wage demon

Final thoughts: I’m going to bed. I’ll do more tomorrow. This really is a dumpster fire. What have I gotten myself into

#Supernatural Hell Binge #dean winchester #sam winchester #castiel #destiel #supernatural #spn #spn 15x01 #oh my god what have I done #winchesters #dean #sam #cas #why'd you make the gay angel cry

[deanspatroclvs]

ah yes here we go, 1,2,4,8,19 and 29

1. What's an unpopular ship you like? wincest is weird. anna and dean is weird. samuel sr. and mary is weird.  why are ppl shipping these things.

2. What's a character that you dislike? PHEW that’s a tough question but I’d say early-seasons-blonde-meg idk I like meg so much more after she was played by rachel   oh and TPTB if they were characters 4. What spinoff would you have liked from the show? apart from the fact that Chad Lindbergh is already delivering us some sort of spin-off on twitter about the Harvelle’s in heaven, I really would’ve liked to see what happens after 15x18  yes I’m still in denial or   w a y w a r d s i s t e r s   pls 8. Season rankings and ratings

 BEAN WHY ARE YOU TORTURING ME-  1. S16 - 10/10 - there’s no peace for us 2. S4 - bc they decided to introduce cas which is like - a VERY GOOD DECISION 3. S15 - duh. it was THE dean cas season 4. S5 - apocalypse sam hello 5. S13 - tombstone tombstone tombstone 6. S8 - nice peach fuzz 7. S6 - godstiel is kinda hot 8. S11 - release the tapes jensen 9. S7 - hippie cas? the sorry game? EXCUSE ME 10. S14 - all the softness with jack ok 11. S10 - excuse me but demon dean was hot af 12. S9 - or was that the demon dean season  - ok I lost count is that enough 19. Best Cas/Dean, Cas/Sam, Cas/Jack scene? Cas/Dean: THERE ARE SO MANY WHY (EVERY SCENE OK LETS JUST SAY THAT) the prayer in purgatory tho Cas/Sam:  -the awkward moment where cas wanted to hug sam but moose said no - actually everytime they’re without dean  because they’re always up to bullshit when dean’s not around  - There’s seriously SO FEW SOFT MOMENTS BETWEEN THEM BECAUSE THEY USUALLY TRY TO SACRIFICE EACH OTHERS LIMBS OR SMTH Cas/Jack: the moment they first meet and when Cas finds Jack in heaven with Kelly and sacrifices his life for jack 29. Worst thing about spn? party city wigs & rusty nails and the fact they didn’t mention their third family member they’ve been with for TWELVE FRIGGIN YEARS in the thing I’m still in denial about

#spn #ask #my stuff #mywaywarddeancas

[lliaq]

I’ve been thinking about this for a while and I guess it’s finally time to make some changes.

TL;DR: not purely a SPN blog anymore, ‘not spn’ tag goes away, not going to turn multifandom but you might see more animals, nature pictures and random shitposts (basically what it’s already been for a little while now), gonna be cleaning up my dash and unfollowing some people (nothing personal)

horribly long winded explanation below

A few weeks ago I opened tumblr, as one does, and scrolled for a bit and saw some spn related news and the only thing crossing my mind was “huh I really don’t care anymore” and that was kind of a bittersweet realization.

This show has been with me for literally half of my life. I started watching when I was 12 and I’m 24 now. That’ actually crazy to think about. Without getting too personal, my teenage years were pretty turbulent and SPN was the one thing that was always there, the only solid, steady thing that didn’t change - and I honestly don’t know where I would be today without it, or if I would be here at all.

You know, looking at it now it’s hilarious, but I was actually a Sam!girl in the beginning - how the times have changed. I mean I was 12 and thought he was cute lmao, but then I get older and more observant and I started seeing myself in Dean a lot more, and he’s always going to have a special place in my heart. I mean, personal feelings aside, he’s such a great and multi-faceted character. For someone who loves stories that’s always something I’m going to be drawn to.

Supernatural also taught me English. Obviously, I didn’t learn only through SPN, but it did help a great deal. I actually remember, 4x05 was the first time ever I watched something in english without german subtitles and I was so confused. I could barely keep up lol But I stuck with it and eventually got to the point where I could just watch the episodes as they aired, instead of waiting for dubs and being like 2 years behind - so hooray for that

It also led me to video editing back in the day (good ol’ windows movie maker days), and then again many years later. It inspired me to learn how to make graphics and gifs and draw. It’s given me a way to express myself through a variety of mediums, something that I’ll always be grateful for.

I actually kind of stopped watching once. Like, I was still watching, but it was more of a “it’s running in the background while I’m doing other stuff” kinda thing, you know. So I just missed a lot, but it was still there in my life, still present. I don’t remember exactly when this was, but I think it was somewhere around the end of S7/beginning of S8, and I didn’t get really back into it until early S11. I was going through a rough patch - and guess who was there, just like all the times before? Yup, SPN. So I rewatched everything from S1 and then I binge-watched convention panels and that was the first time I’d laughed in months.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to properly put into words how important this show has been for me throughout such formative years of my life, and later when I was struggling. The way I used to watch Baby when I was feeling anxious because the way it was shot made me feel like I was there in the car and it made me feel safe during a time when I didn’t even feel safe in my own home, or the way Carry on My Wayward Son hits me with a full blast of over a decade worth of emotions every time I hear the opening chords. It’s a lot of little things like that that have accumulated over the years into something beyond words.

But - things change, they always do. And look, I don’t want this getting into wank territory, but I also want to be honset. The direction that Dabb has taken the show is too far removed from what it used to be. I think he’s an okay writer, and I think he’s a bad showrunner. Those are two completely different pairs of shoes and I don’t think the second one is right for him. But that is just my opinion. At the end of the day, it is what it is, and whatever Dabb is doing - it just isn’t for me. So I’m taking a step back, maybe two.

Keeping up a blog solely dedicated to something that I’m barely interested in anymore just seems like a collosal waste of time and energy and I just don’t want to do it anymore.

As a result, I’ll no longer be tagging things as “not spn”. I will still tag other shows/movies accordingly, altough I don’t think you’ll be seeing that much of those anyway - I’m not really active in that many other fandoms. Most likely it’ll just be less Supernatural and more pictures of cute animals and scenery, shitposts and some other odd things here and there. Basically, I’m going back to what this was before SPN took over. Either way tho - if that is not your cup of tea, or if the tag change is an issue for you, feel free to unfollow me, no hard feelings And speaking of unfollowing: I’ll be doing that as well, because I just want less SPN on my dash (especially stuff that isn’t Dean). So if we’re mutuals and I unfollowed you: it’s nothing personal. I just want to be happy with the content on my dashboard again. As far as content creation goes, I’m not sure yet. Frankly, SPN has been the very opposite of inspiring for me for a while now, but we’ll see what S14 brings, I guess.

Okay, this got way longer than I intended (not that I’m surprised) but I guess it was nice to just say this all before I move on.

It’s been a wild ride, Supernatural, and you’ll always have a place in my heart, but it’s time. Thank you for everything

#me: just make a short post #my brain: okay so a 12 page essay right? #me: ... #anyways #I'll keep the name (for now) #maybe I'll change the cosmetics when I have time #but I thought it was time for a PSA so people can get out if they want lol

[hopefullyababe]

i rewatched the spn pilot bc i was nostalgic and

ok so like the supernatural pilot is kinda bad but genuinely there is so much goddamn potential. sam is likeable enough and the premise is very appearantly intriguing, as it spawned a 15 year long run.

specifically tho! i forgot how fucking charismatic dean was in the early seasons. hes a really fun character and i miss him. that scene where they stop by the crime scene and inpersonate marshals dean is just hopping around and throwing out quick lines that mostly miss the mark, but there are a few that really get u. theres a couple moments where him and sam have some really fun chemistry and you really buy that theyre estranged siblings.

mostly there are little gems of good performance or good writing or good acting choices in a fucking sea of bad editing and bad writing and boring line reads. so if like. the whole show was those gems it would be awesome.

also i notice that the whole episode feels really rushed. the pacing is very quick cuz they have to fit in everything. feels like they tried to jam a 3 episode arc into 1 kinda sub par pilot.

anyway dude jensen ackles can act pretty good when given the chance. and supernatural is bad actually but im gonna use the little pieces i like to build a secret good version in my head anyway goodnight

#daphnes talking again

[mycasandstarrs]

SPN 3x12: “Jus in Bello”

Hoo freaking boy.

Just how many wigs did Bela own?

“You understand how many people are gonna die if you do this?” The answer is approximately 30.

“You know nothing about me.” Gee, it’s like you’ve told them nothing about you and they’re only going off their ow personal experiences with you, which are currently “kinda” shitty.

And then she adds salt to the wound...son of a bitch.

Hello, Henriksen.

Dude, chill out.

“Hey! Hey! Watch the merchandise!”

The boys being chained together like that must’ve caused some funny shenanigans as they had to move together.

Like right freaking now.

I’m just now realizing that the BMOL are currently keeping an eye on this shit going down and aren’t raising a finger to do anything about it.

Henriksen has to go through his own b.s.

“I got a lot to celebrate. I mean, after all, seeing you two in chains...”

“You kinky son of a bitch. We don’t swing that way.” lmao. 

“Take a good look at Sam. You two will never see each other again.”

WHOA WHOA WHOA. PUMP THE BREAKS HENRIKSEN.

What a dick. He kinda has to be, so I get why...but srsly chill out.

See, like right there. He goes in for a handshake and gets handed paperwork instead and treated like an inferior. I was pissed at Henriksen less than 10 seconds ago yet when someone treats him poorly, I’m outraged.

Deputy Director Steven Groves.

OOH SHIT HE SHOT DEAN HOW DID I NOT SEE THAT COMING

Sam memorized his exorcism!

But doesn’t complete it, the demon makes an early exit.

RIP Deputy Director Steven Groves

Poor Dean bleeding out. Jeez, give him medical attention!

RIP All these people.

RIP Reidy

Henriksen and the Winchesters all keeping their cool.

See, that’s the Henriksen I like!

Sam and his powers of convincing.

SAM THAT IS REALLY JOLTING, JEEZ.

Nice work, Sam.

“Would it kill these cops to bring us a snack?!” They’re the target of a major demon attack and Dean’s major concern is that he’s hungry, lmao.

“It’s like we got a contract on us. Think it’s because we’re so awesome? I think it’s ‘cause we’re so awesome.” LMAO, shut up Dean. 

One of these two is possessed AND IT WAS HENRIKSEN.

RIP Sheriff.

Good job Sam!

Nothing like a good ol’ exorcism to convince people that the supernatural exists.

“I shot the sheriff.”

“But you didn’t shoot the deputy.”

 I made the exact joke when I first watched this right before Dean did. I’m telling you, me and Dean? Connected.

Sam’s ultimate bitchface, hahahaha.

(x)

Aaayyyy. The alliance has been forged.

Both Henriksen and Dean ask Nancy how she’s doing.

“When I was little, I would come home from the church and start to talk about the devil. And my parents would tell me to stop being so literal. I guess I showed them, huh?” She’s got a great sense of humor.

Dean risks his ass to get more weapons.

Shame they don’t have the freakin’ Colt....

Get back inside Dean!!!

Was Sam unaware of Dean leaving?

Guess not.

Well, that was something.

Anti possession charms.

AAYYY THEIR TATTOOS!

Henriksen laments over his kill.

OH NO DUDE.

Henriksen gets “the talk”.

Would Henriksen have become a hunter? He would’ve been a pretty good one. Him, Jody, and Donna: cops turned part time hunters.

God, Henriksen had personality.

Fucking Ruby.

Sam, without question, frees Ruby from the trap. I’m about as frustrated as Dean right now.

30 demons.

Sam kept quiet about Lilith? Son of a bitch, Sam. And I know this shit is gonna continue into S4....

Again, had BELA not interfered and stolen the Colt, they wouldn’t be getting ripped a new one by Ruby. 

Tho Dean is somewhat enjoying watching Sam fumble his way through an explanation. Payback for keeping secrets from him.

Damn it, the Colt being gone means that Ruby has to perform a spell that would kill even her. We missed out on an early Ruby death, fucking hell.

(But this is reminding me of when Cas almost killed himself when he carved an angel banishing sigil on his chest to get rid of 5 angels. Cas and Ruby, both willing to kill themselves to help out the Winchesters, except the former actually went through with his plan...)

The spell calls for a virgin...Nancy steps forward.

Unfortunately, it calls for Nancy’s heart to get cut out of her chest.

Nancy is noble af. She deserves better.

“Nobody kill any virgins!” Kinda funny out of context.

Dean’s got a plan.

Dean’s plan wins.

Oh boo freaking hoo Ruby.

Also, I’m just realizing that Sam considered going through with Ruby’s plan because it would save the people outside...when she already killed a good number of them just to get to them. Dude...where is your logic.

8 minutes left. Here we go lads.

Dean and Henriksen working together! Fucking A!

“When this is over, I’m gonna have so much sex...but not with you.” Nancy...you’re awesome.

A mass exorcism! Dean’s plan was so great.

But one demon gets away....

How cool was that???

“Rest in peace, guys.”

Oh, Henriksen....goddamn it, I’m about to be sooo fucking sad.

no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no

RIP Henriksen, Nancy, and all the others. They deserved so much better.

I hate when Ruby’s right. I hate admitting when she’s got a point, fuck man.

Don’t let her get you down,boys. Y’all did the best you could...which is often the greatest tragedy: doing everything correctly, giving it your all, and still coming up short. 

(Allow me to scream into the void.)

#supernatural #spn summer rewatch #spn liveblog #spn 3x12

[themanicgalaxy]

SPN 4X4 Metamorphosis

aight I’m making ~pie! 

ooo I kinda want to make hot chocolate

I am begging both of you to stop lying to each other I SWEAR

I mean...Sam did...tell him

Dean: OWO

hey no more headaches is interesting

just...instant Ruby murder 

I miss Katie Cassidy tho

JUST P U N C H SAM IN THE FACE

DEAN WHAT IS YOUR DAMAGE

oho the “why did you lie”

just bring god into this why don’t you

hey why does Jack Montogmery sound familiar

ooo bones cracking that’s always Fun

ah and Dean tells the story of their parents Before

heh the demon blood thing

why the fuck do neither of you communicate

hey DEAN DO YOU REMEMBER YOUR DAMAGE ABOUT HELL DO YOU REMEM-

they really had like....four sets to go off of 

WHY IS THIS SHOT SO CLOSE TO HIM

whelp. he’s gone feral

aw they both know Travis

We’Re ThiIck aS thIeVes oof

“some kind of metamorphosis” ROLL CREDITS

mmm lovely human blood

great so his dad too, that’s fun

ah good some woman is also getting harassed

AND HE JUST BROKE THAT GUY’S HAND

Ah and Sam wants to save him something something projection

Dean’s so excited to use a new word “long pig”

“you ever been ‘I haven’t eaten in days’ hungry” Dean: yeah

..JOHN I JUST WANT TO TALK

~I’ve changed

oh no NOT THE WIFE

wheee there’s the bite

I take a brief pie break and it turns out lindsay ellis gets cancelled on twitter what

wait Sam has a point! he can’t get rid of this, and he’s trying to make the most out of it

and Dean IS overbearing

I mean like...once, this plot makes sense, but not all the time

Idk man I like the “I got fucked up so I gotta make the best of this and you kinda suck to talk to” ok 

like I’m not a samgirl but....

ah and he doesn’t take it well

the STORM IN IS SO FUNNY THOUGH

he gets kidnapped?

oh. Travis. damn I forgot about him

:( I called it

..is she pregnant 

of course

fRIDGE YOUR WIVES! WE CAN’T LET PEOPLE KNOW WE HAVE VULNERABILITY

oh goD TRAVIS’S ARM

OH MY GOD TRAVIS

WHATTHEFUCKGROSGROSSGROSSGROSS

I mean species wise it makes sense, right? like you get in with the humans, wait till you pass on ur genes and THEN go apeshit, like it makes sense

worst pregnancy test ever 

ah yes the jump scares

Jack holding Sam hostage is cool though

ah shit so he doesn't say his wife is pregnant so they don’t know oops

maybe it’s cuz I was watching the dark knight but BOY does this remind me of the joker

Ok LISTEN Sam saying “it doesn’t matter what you are, only what you do” COOL SHIT, I WISH THEY’D DONE MORE WITH THAT

OH GOOD JUST TORCH JACK

look to Dean’s credit, he is...trying

gOD dAMMIT SAM

“I’m not doing it for you” oh?

“this is my choice” OH??

wrap up:

1. oh my GOD SAM’S GETTING A COOL ARC WITH HIS POWERS! SOUND THE ALARMS! HOLY C R A P! I WISH THEY’D DONE MORE SHIT WITH THIS! 

ALSO FUCK HEAVEN SAM THEY’RE MAGIC POWERS GO FUCKING USE THEM, GO APESHIT JUST GO FERAL PLEASE IT WOULD BE SO COOL

GOD D A M N I ACTUALLY LIKE THIS PLOTLINE

2. Remarkably horrible horror here. Guys I was Actively Terrified that was Not The Move

3. no I’m sorry, the powers thing is so cool? like Sam’s getting an actual arc that’s similar to the early seasons but it ACTUALLY works now? AAAAA

idk man I liked the Sam Power thing, but not the monster of the week so yeah

#pawswatchesspn #4x4 metamorphosis #look I like magic powers #that's not a surprise here #I like the arc too #it's COOL

[taahko]

hey could you elaborate on what you call the 'escalation problem' of spn bc that sounds rly interesting

oh yeah this is gonna be kind of surface level bc i havent watched the show seriously in about 4 yrs but uhhhhh ok so basically...s*pernatural doesnt know how to gradually escalate its stakes anymore and it hasnt since season 5

(i only watched up to season 8 btw and my memory is hazy but im doing the best i can)

basically the first 5 seasons of s*pernatural had pretty good pacing because the show was supposed to end for good with swan song, the s5 finale, where the devil (and s@m) fall back into hell and de@n picks up his life and starts to move on. that’s fine pacing imo. that it took them five yrs to build up their villains until they got to the actual devil himself (very christian interpretation of ultimate evil but still an ultimate evil nonetheless) is pretty solid. its not too fast, not too slow. 

its like a video game kinda? they start with low level monsters (ghosts and ‘common’ monsters that they still whip out in later seasons for bottle episodes) and then move on to their first demon (yellow eyed guy who killed their mom) and then eventually start dealing largely in powerful demons and other higher level entities and finally confront (and defeat) the devil. thats it! shows over folks! go home! except dont because they got renewed after that and THATS when the escalation problem started

because they already fought the devil. they already did that. where do you go from there? how do you level up past the final boss? you cant. so you have to bullshit it a LOT. i cant remember all the things they did but i remember a lot of it had to do with making s@m more powerful, introducing other supposedly ‘stronger’ demons (cr0.wley comes to mind?), fucking around with c@s’ powers to make HIM scarier / more powerful, and bringing in the metatron as an antagonist at one point (supposedly stronger than god? which doesnt make sense).

basically they hit their peak at the right time if it were a five season show, and absolutely WAY too early given that its now a 13 season show because they literally hit the ceiling of powerful antagonists and now theyre just bouncing around, unsure of what do next. the show shld have ended in s5 and thats just all there is to it

escalation problem. idk if i explained it well tho

#it is a mystery #aggie got an ask