#everything is leo and everything hurts

[turtleblogatlast]

Fun little silly thought I had about the Lair Games and specifically Leo deliberately losing is all the reasons he could have for doing so.

My favorite headcanon for his main motivation is that Splinter wasn’t proud of him anymore.

I imagine that, in the beginning, winning the Lair Games was Leo’s opportunity to shine. He wasn’t artistic or the baby of the family like Mikey, wasn’t a tech genius who created amazing inventions like Donnie, wasn’t the eldest who was insanely strong and dependable like Raph. So he had to shine somewhere else- anywhere else- and what better way to get attention than to be a winner? A champion?

And then he won too much. And it wasn’t special anymore. He got too big headed, too cocky, he knew this was his element and he ran with it.

Splinter’s words of congratulations slowly petered out. Suddenly, there was no real reason to win.

Winning feels empty when the only one cheering you on is yourself.

So- Leo schemed. And he’s a great schemer, fooling his whole family (and Donnie did deserve a win- people were way happier when he won.)

He even gave up his prized possession! His room!

Though he knows his brothers probably think it’s a bad prize. A terrible one, even.

Leo doesn’t sleep much as is, though. So Dad’s snores were more comforting than anything. It was reassuring to hear him so clearly alive and close by.

Even if the distance between them was larger than Leo’d like.

He’d just have to find something else, something more to show his dad that Leo was someone to trust, to be proud of, to love.

He gets his chance soon after, when he needs to pull off a plan against Big Mama at his dad’s side. Leo can only hope this victory is one that has a lasting effect when his father looks at him with pride once more.

Victory, for Leo, is a pretty loaded term.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #everything Leos do almost always ties back to Splinter send tweet #anyway imo if I was Leo winning every lair game I would be bored as hell #and add on to my own dad joining in with my brothers on being disappointed when I do well? #yeeaaah id be my own biggest fan too #tbh Leo’s big brain plays both in Lair Games and Many Unhappy Returns are his real victories #I will say I was proud of Donnie for doing so well! #he deserves a win definitely #but looking at this from Leo’s perspective and realizing this is JUST before the ‘why don’t any of you trust me’ line hurts #wanna make this hurt more? #how about Leo purposefully wanting to lose…but he was a bit miffed that DONNIE out of anyone won #why? #because Leo makes jokes all the time but Splinter says DONNIE is the funny one #because althroughout Many Unhappy Returns Splinter says how he’d prefer if DONNIE were there instead of Leo #makes me wonder y’know? if there’s any scratchy feelings there #nothing that Leo has against Donnie so much as the assumption that Splinter would prefer him over Leo #which if I was Leo…I’d definitely think so even if Splinter absolutely loves his sons equally #just as Donnie probably assumes the opposite as well #splinter bro plz talk to your sons #but yeah victory for Leo imo is equivalent to acknowledgement #just *seeing* him #so he very easily gets wrapped up in the obsession for being the champion #*lou jitsu* always wins and Splinter wants them more like Lou Jitsu so LEO has to always win or… #or…

[lesbianleonardo]

sooo normal about this (lying)

#idw is constantly Kiling It with the turtle characterizations but man what they are doing with raph is so special #he was alone for a Year at the very start and then finally found his family #he’s familiar with how to survive but now he has a support system! a family! #and then bit by bit everything gets more dangerous #casey gets hurt Badly. leo is kidnapped and brainwashed. donnie almost dies. splinter’s desperate to kill shredder and succeeds #and then mikey leaves bc he sees the path splinter is on and he can’t be a part of that #raph’s family keeps getting hurt or they leave and he’s trying so hard to protect and keep them together #god the talk raph has with mikey absolutely rips me apart bc it’s literally right before splinter sets up harold as bait #we all know raph is the fighter and the protector but i really like how idw showcases it #he’s terrified but he can’t stop fighting or else something else will happen to his family and they will possibly get killed #sorry i’m insane about him #tmnt idw #tmnt #idw #idw raph #idw leo #idw donnie #idw mikey #teenage mutant ninja turtles #turtle talks

[itzzaira]

Bdkzhakana I did something I did something

There will be a digital version of this, probably by tomorrow, but I've spent too much time on Mikey's eyes and arm and have lost my will to live because of it qwq so tomorrow✨️

I actually wanted to go over this with black pencil or create the Hamato symbol but I'm afraid of ruining it :,D

A scene out of the last chapter of my story, The Wrong Side of the Portal!

~~~~~~~

Leo blinked.

Mikey stared back.

"...Mikey?"

"...Hm." he groaned, shifting just a little to get more comfortable, unable to do so properly because Leo was sitting on his legs. "...Wha...? Leo...?" He winced. His voice sounded rough.

The older one blinked again.

...Mikey.

Woke up.

Just like that.

His baby brother. Who had been in a coma two seconds earlier, had woken up.

But why did-

Mikey had always been a family person.

"..." Leo looked down at his ninpo. Then at Mikey's.

...Oh.

Ooooh.

Leo snorted- because even if he still couldn't feel Donnie, he could finally feel the youngest- his ninpo expressing the concern, care, and love he had trouble showing as the box turtle was trying to figure out what the heck was going on, squinting his eyes and smacking his lips. Then he looked down at their hands. At their pinkies.

The four, beautiful dots in front of him. And smiled with relief. He made no effort to remove his hand as he slumped back.

Seems like Leo's theory had been right after all. He giggled, then burst out laughing.

But then that smile fell. The laughs turned into shuddering breaths as he covered his mouth. Not those heartbreaking sobs from before, but silent tears of relief.

Leave it to Mikey to wake up because of fucking family magic or whatever the heck their ninpo was.

Stuttery hands reached for his own- Leo noted the scars had responded to his ninpo as well- allowing Mikey to see the absolute mess he was in. "Why you cryin'...?" He slurred, attempting to brush the tears away. Before he gave up. And instead let his hand rest on Leo's. "Whas... what's wrong?"

"You-" he laughed wetly because the fact the nunchuck-wielder was worried about Leo after waking up from a fucking coma was so Mikey-like the slider could weep again. Though maybe he shouldn't, he was acting like a crybaby.

Well. This time he had a good excuse.

"Nothing, Michael." He murmured with a smile, putting Mikey's hands down and cupping his face lovingly, then reaching down to gently bump their heads together with a soft churr. "Nothing at all."

#rottmnt #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt fanart #rottmnt leonardo #rottmnt leo #rottmnt michelangelo #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt fanfiction #rottmnt fanart #rise of the tmnt #my art #hurt/comfort #mystic mikey #tmnt crossover #EVERYTHING IN HERE IS PLATONIC #no romantic relationships #the wrong side of the portal

[h-worksrambles]

“Chase, you all left and it was never the same.” Ten months ago now, I downloaded Echo and started Leo’s route. I was not prepared for how much it would utterly break me and how much this game would remain lodged in my brain ever since. So it was only a matter of time before I drew the troubled wolf boi himself, Leo Alvarez. 

#everything about leo's story as a character physically hurts me #leo alvarez #the embrace #echo vn #echo project #my art

[primussavethesemechs]

One of my favorite things to do while watching the rottmnt movie is spot all the times Leo weighs his options, goes for it, and regrets it- like this

Thinks about it

Goes for it

Regret

Thinks about it

Goes for it

Regret

Thinks about it

Goes for it

No Regrets

No wonder he doubts himself and thinks they’d be okay/better without him- most decisions he makes in the movie end in setbacks at best, and his brothers being hurt/the world ending at worst! I know they ALL need extensive therapy after all this but like…. DAMN Leo’s gonna some serious self worth issues after this (if he didn’t already)

Someone on tiktok said it best, “imagine never being able to live up to the version of yourself that ended the world” - that line haunts me to this day, you KNOW that’s how Leo looks at himself now- the guy that came in second place to a version of himself that ended the world and got his brothers killed.

I still have 2 more prominent examples but tumblr only allows 10 pics per post so I’ll have to reblog it.

#I’d probably sacrifice myself too if everything i did caused my family to be hurt or ended in disaster #jesus this poor kid #he’s trying his best pLEASEgive him a win #he needs it #Leo has officially become a poor little meow meow character #Leo kinnies how are y’all doing in these tough times?🎤 #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt movie spoilers #rise of tmnt #rottmnt movie #tmnt

[xitty]

Checkmate today: pain. just pain everywhere.

#everything hurts #ensemble stars #checkmate anime #leo tsukinaga #izumi sena #eichi tenshouin #madara mikejima

[misteria247]

Hey y'all I was recommended a video on Leo and as I was watching it and it came to this one scene from the 2012 series where the boys were cornering Stockman and Leo said:

"Halt villain-!"

In this cheesy superhero kind of way and it like hit me how actually young and carefree he was and then tHE TRAUMATIC EVENTS OF HIS LIFE HAPPENED AND HE NEVER DID STUFF LIKE THAT ANYMORE AND HIS BROTHERS PROBABLY MISS THOSE DORKY MOMENTS AND HIS INNOCENCE BASICALLY DIED AND I'M NOW OFFICIALLY SOBBING FUCK-

#oli talks #ooc #muns ramblings #mindless ramblings of a madman #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #rottmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt leo #tmnt raph #tmnt donnie #tmnt mikey #Leonardo Hamato #Raphael Hamato #Donatello Hamato #Michelangelo Hamato #I'M SO DONE WITH LIFE AND EVERYTHING HURTS #all aboard the feels train

[procrastiel]

GUTEN MORGEN! (einfach so)

HI HELLO HOW ARE YA

#EVERYONE LOOK ITS MY BESTIE #Leo’s Q&A #HOW HAVE YOU BEEN #AAAAH #oh also #I aziracrow’ded this post on purpose #heh #crowzi #yin and yang #angel and demon #guess who’s who #😈 #😇 #everything is good omens and nothing hurts #yet

[emile-hides]

This took me literally all day but I feel very correct in my takes so at least that’s something.

#Fairy Tail #Queer #I like hand drawing flags other than the Transmace/femme and the mlm flag those all got copy/pasted after the first time #I'm so sorry to Makarov Cana and Guildarts I love you three but cannot for the life of me pick up on your vibes #None of the Celestial Spirits are Cis half of them don't have gender to begin with #Leo He/Him Lesbian and copycat Scorpio who came out as a He/Him Lesbian literally a week after Leo #Brothers #T4T Taurus/Lucy is my everything I need you all to understand this #I couldn't decide if Capricorn was Aro/Ace or Aro/Gay I settled on Aro/Gay but it's still very much in the air #Lucy/Natsu queer plantonics #Lily/Gajeel/Levy Polycule #I'm going insane I need you to understand #Elfman a bi man with a huge preferance for other men so excited to meet a man and have a manly wedding and grow into old men together #Falls in love with Evergreen and is mad about it for the rest of his life #You can pry Transfem/Femboy Queer Grey from my cold dead hands #That Lucy looking fit he wore in at the end of the Magic Games opened my eyes #Long skirt not shirt kinda gal I love her #I'm so tired I've got a little fever and my arms hurt but I did the thing I wanted to do today #Woo! #Neoprounoun Autigender Laxus.... I gotta write that Autistic Laxus essay man

[ilivelikeimtrying]

ROTTMNT Fic idea:

Mikey likes drawing/crafting things for his brothers, but doesn't know that they keep them until he sees Raph neatly fold his and put it in one of the drawers in his room that's filled with old drawings, and finds a HUGE secret board where Donnie has hung them up (he's sworn under secrecy to never tell the others, especially Leo), but no matter what he never sees Leo with any of them, either hung up or in a drawer, but continues searching until he gives up, thinking that he must've just thrown them away then.

And he won't lie and say that that didn't sting, even a little bit.

But that couldn't be further away from the truth.

#rottmnt #tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles #my idea for this is that Mikey starts acting all weird and everything the next day and only makes drawings for Donnie and Raph- #(he's being petty- he knows- and it's not like he expected his brothers to keep everything he made- of course not- but still) #Leo's a bit hurt by this but laughs it off as usual and decides that he probably did something to make Mikey mad so he gives him space #it's just levels of misunderstanding- #Mikey thinking Leo doesn't care about his art- Leo thinking up the wrong different reasons why his favourite little brother #until Leo corners Mikey (literally) and asks him what's up- why's he been distant #and Mikey begrudgingly tells him the reason (though now that he says it out loud it sounds pretty childish)- and asks Leo: #'Why didn't you keep the things I made you? I worked hard on all of them just for you.' *tears* #and instead of making fun of him like Mikey kind of expected him to Leo Just smiles and ushers him to his room- #where he reveals a really big trunk from under his bed and opens it to reveal- #everything. #every little thing that Mikey has ever made him- ever- is right there- and he doesn't know what to say #but anyways that kinda my idea with it but if y'all wanma go a different route with it go ahead

[thejadecount]

If anyone couldn’t tell by my frantic reblogging I’ve been reading and have finished @eternalglitch ‘s Like Father Like Son and let me tell you I AM IN SHAMBLES

#I’M CRYING MAN #OH GOD ITS SO GOOD #AND IT HURTS SO WELL #AHHHHHHH #fanfic #rottmnt #rise tmnt #rise leo #rottmnt leo #man I am riding on Rise Angst fics lately #AND THIS MIGHT BE THE WINNER BECAUSE OH GOD ITS SAD #it’s like really good #like really good #like father like son #rottmnt lfls #I mean it has its own tumblr tag that tells you everything

[almoststedytimetravel]

I should make Niles/Selena content. I must feed myself

#They're everything to me #just such an excellent couple #Selena/Subaki is funnier I will admit #but Niles/Selena is just sooooo #I can't even describe it #just two people who have lost so much that they cling desperatly to what they have left #and their S-support... #Selena knows she will have to make Niles choose between her and Leo #she doesn’t want him to chose Leo but she knows how important Leo is too Niles and she doesn’t want to be hurt by it #also bi4bi #but that's incidental #fire emblem #fe14 #fire emblem fates #Selena fe #Niles fe

[mystic-mikey]

Send adks if you want 💕 concussed answers 😘

#rottmnt #save rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #save rise of the tmnt #mikey rise #mikey rottmnt #rise mikey #unpause rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #save rottmnt #unpause rottmnt #I'm having a mental breakdown I'm fucking terrified how are we supposed to help raph in this state I'm fucking concussed and haven't left #bed in a day now. ive been sleeping so much while raph is ffucking suffering. my head still hurts so much and my body aches and i cant open #one of my eyes at this point. literally what the fuck am i supposed to do anymore? im so tired and scared and I can't even do anything #about it and now im fucking venting in the back of the tabs as a pathetic cry for help. god i hope nobody presses read kore for the tags #and sees this shit. im just glad leo is resting for the time being. im so scared and tired and everything hurts.

[anxietyrobot]

thinking how ron (i think?) said that draxum would be accepted as part of the family once the boys saw splinter accept him and that’s making me think of splinter lowkey advocating for draxum to be included in family events im gonna CRY AUGH

#tbh I think everyone assumed he’d hold the longest grudge along with leo bc of how draxum like directly hurt them #but splinter still has some positive feelings for big mama despite everything and she’s not even sorry #so i think he’d probably forgive draxum after a while bc that’s just who he is #obvs draxum would need to PROPERLY apologize but dhwkhdjs

[stars-by-coincidence]

Do you ever think Leo ever bitched nonstop when they first started training? I sure fucking do. Those boys must’ve been sore for DAYS

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt leo #insipired by the fact my everything aches #working out fucking HURTS

[sharkie-stay]

Can someone kill me please?!?

#everything hurts outside and inside #i just want it to stop #leo adventures