#experience at your own risk

[rebornofstars]

Here's a Linked Universe uquiz, main cast only! I have been informed that it is very surprising, and also very pretty.

#uquiz #linked universe #lu #lu uquiz #lu quiz #okay honestly: you probably will not get your blorbo #but i think its fun anyways #GIVE IT A SHOT I DARE U #TELL ME IN THE TAGS WHAT U GOT #warning: contains flowery language #metaphors and imagery #experience at your own risk

[uncanny-tranny]

Social transition being seen (by some) as this super easy thing that isn't as hard as real transitioning (medical) is bullshit. Be critical of the idea that there are some trans people who just "have it easy" because they are trans or because they are trans in ways you may not be.

Social transition is just as difficult, hard, and rewarding as medical transition. Maybe it is not as hard for some, sure, but that is not the same as thinking that social transition is inherently easier or lesser. If you're socially transitioning, your voice still matters.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #not to mention that so many people DO want to medically transition but *can't* #so it can be even harder for some when they feel social transition is their only option when they don't want it to be #but social transition carries its own risks and challenges and again rewards #and i've seen this idea plenty where it's like 'oh you don't GET my struggles because you're SOCIALLY transitioning' #and while yes i am different than some trans people to say i'm struggling *more* if i'm the only one medically transitioning is??? huh???? #i don't buy into this idea that social transition is never scary because you don't have the boot of the medical system on your back #(though non-med or pre-med transitioning people still face issues in medical settings so even THEN we aren't seperate) #like there's very few ways you can separate my issues as a medically-transitioning person and the issues of somebody who isn't... #...and by that i mean there's few ways you can separate our issues so that mine trumps theirs or that i'm seen as like... trans but More #does that make sense? #medical transitioning is important but that doesn't mean it is *more* important or that only *it* is important #you can support us who are medically transitioning without erasing the experiences and struggles of other trans people #and plus... so many of us who are medically transitioning NOW are the people who socially transitioned THEN #and dare i say i despised social transition more because of how hard it was? medical transition has been (more or less) easier... #...in that i can just *be* now

[puppyeared]

When you backread through a fun conversation you had with someone for hours an angel gets its wings

#I was talking to my brother about Norman doors and I had fun in my UX class and he was telling me about demon cores and the trolley problem #in his class. AND I remembered to take my meds today so I can feel every cell in my body. i can feel the neurons rubbing together #and yesterday I infodumped about the specialists bullseye chart to crow and how it ties with witch hat atelier #WHICH I MANAGED TOGET THEM TK READ IM SO HAPPY. I MAKE SQUEALING GUINEA PIG NOISES EVERY TIME THEY TELL ME WHAT THEYVE READ SO FAR. AHH #i might not even be scratching the surface with witch hat there are so many themes i could not possibly fathom or go over my heasd #and thats what makes it so exciting there are so many spaces in between that you can fill with your thoughts and i. i #waves my hands around manically #for anyone interested in my insane ramblings. the bullseye chart is from are we all scientific experts now by harry collins #in my own words its basically saying everything we know about anything is a game of broken telephone #and it discusses how information gets lost in translation between experts and laymen including things that arent in control #one of the main points was how things that happen between experts are complicated including debates and findings #that you can only really understand thru research and experience in that field and cant be smoothly shared without it being reworded #and risking some of those key points. or even concepts that are hard to understand that cant be shared at all #like if you tried to tell me about how DNA works using words scientists are familiar with but i am NOT- i risk missing concepts that i need #to understand to know how it works on the level you understand. or i risk having it reworded and understanding it but not on that level #AND IT DOES TIE TO WITCH HAT THE WITCH AND NORMAL FOLK COMMUNITIES I PROMISE. ITS SO INTERESTING #anyway i spent hours reading back thru that conversation and i might as well admit it goes for almost every fun conversation i have #and it might be the 20mg of adderall in my body but i am in such a state of peace and love i have to verbalize it. ahh #yapping

[lhrry]

harry styles really wrote an album about long-term relationship which is overflowing with love in all its diverse forms, with domesticity, with assurance, with softness, and with profound emotions including a declaration of the deepest lifelong love, steady through the good and the bad, always choosing to keep going (driving), he really did that

#first of all from the pov of me ten years ago.. wild #also now these tags are going to be a bit of an emotional rollercoaster read at your own risk #but GOD this album does things to me making me feel so much and reminding me that art is what I want to do in life nothing else #even reading other’s reactions and stuff (and I experience this a lot with seeing people’s reactions to music #movies or literature #just in general when something excites people #I want to do that for people make them feel something and feel good and entertained and i feel i really understand harry on that level ahah #anyway it’s just so important to me to be able to create something that awakes feeling and thoughts and Harry’s house is such a perfect #example of that I am so in love with the album #and as someone whose mother tongue is not English although I now consider it my first language in a weird way #I’m getting two pieces of prose published in American journals soon and !!!! I truly cannot believe that and #this is leading absolutely nowhere #but the album is really making me thing about what I want to do in life and it’s this #might write a song or two next time I write ahaha

[beetlevsboy]

I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)

#dead boy detectives #edwin payne #the cat king #i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their #Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me #Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under #Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy #even if he doesn’t return those feelings #The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite #Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin #Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand #He’s a older secretly insecure character #Edwin is the younger #genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants #It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting #Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel. #And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need #you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people #I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of #The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by #Healing those traumas #Something the cat king learns and accepts #Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because #Yes; Edwin is 86 #but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while #The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami #Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man

[angryisokay]

My biggest beef with free market stuff is the recurring idea of everyone being educated, intelligent, and acting rationally all the time.

People, straight up, do not act rationally. Even educated, intelligent people will do the dumbest, most irrational shit sometimes. You have to account for the irrational behavior, and if you don’t then you’re being just as much of a fantastical utopian as hardline socialists and communists are.

If your economic theory doesn’t acknowledge that people are dumb as fuck more often than not, then the theory is garbage and you should start over and try again.

#the great depression is also their favorite playground and i dislike how they approach worker's reactions to the situation #always saying that workers acted against their own interests by refusing pay cuts during the depression #but that ain't so and you'd know it if you looked at the situation from their perspective instead of from the business perspective #the workers had gone through recessions and depressions and so had their fathers and grandfathers #they had generations of experience with the Hard Times Pay Cut - and they knew it was a crock of shit #the boss cries for you to take a pay cut in hard times but when good times come around he's deaf to your requests to get a raise #until you walk out on strike and risk everything on the gamble that it'll be effective #refusing a paycut was in their best interests and because getting those lost wages back was a uphill fight they didn't always win

[lord-squiggletits]

Something else that makes me sympathetic to Pharma's situation is like. Idk if there's an actual term for this or if someone smarter and more academic wrote it about some real life context that actually matters.

But, so we've already established among Pharma stans that the circumstances at Delphi were blackmail/torture with no real way out that wouldn't involve Pharma being responsible for people getting killed (either killing patients for the deal or having everyone die bc he failed his end of the deal).

And I feel like while "he's still in the wrong because he killed people" is part of it, another sort of implicit part is the idea that Pharma should've been willing to take more personal risk, maybe even risk dying? I mean, Ratchet does ask "why didn't you just detonate it near the DJD" (to which Pharma responds that he did try to get Sonic and Boom to do it, but they refused) so like

Idk I feel like we do have this social notion of martyrs as a very romantic ideal, people you can praise for being so brave and strong and righteous that they ended their own lives for their cause, while you can also coo about how sad and tragic it is that dying is what it took for them to do the right thing. But at the same time I feel like in reality, having an expectation that people become martyrs is kind of a toxic social norm bc like. It's very easy to demand that others sacrifice their lives for some Ultimate Moral Good when you yourself aren't experiencing the same hardships as they are. And ultimately it is kind of fucked up to tell someone "the moral thing you should've done was risk your life/kill yourself" because asking someone to pay their life to do the right thing is no small request. And sure, the typical response would be to call them a "coward" for caring more about saving their own skin instead of doing the right thing... but again, death is a really scary thing and self-preservation is a really strong instinct, so it kind of feels like having this binary view of "you're either a Brave Hero who sacrifices your life for everyone else or a Dirty Coward who's too scared of dying to do what's right" is kind of fucked up?

I guess the best way to describe it is that if someone willingly gives up their life as a sacrifice to others, it can be a noble thing because it's a choice they made willingly, but if it becomes a Moral Standard that in order to be a Good Person you have to be unafraid of throwing your life away and if you aren't willing to die you're a Cowardly Bad Person, that's when it becomes toxic.

Idk, I guess how this ties back to Pharma is that he was never in a position where he expected to make these kinds of moral decisions/ultimatums. He's a doctor who doesn't even get into combat, his job is to heal and not to kill, he's behind the front lines in a hospital that's supposed to be a safe, neutral place for him to heal people. So in the face of suddenly having a "murder people on behalf of me, or I murder everyone you swore to protect" ultimatum thrust upon him, I understand why Pharma wasn't """"""""""brave enough"""""""""" to "do the right thing" (whatever that would've been in the case of Delphi). You could argue that maybe a frontliner soldier accepted the burden of possibly dying for their cause and they've become used to it as someone who lives that reality every single day, but I feel like for Pharma, who's a doctor and a protected non-combatant (from what we can tell), that sort of risking of his life/living with the fact his life could be snuffed out any day isn't something he would've been prepared for at all.

And for me personally, from an outsider's perspective, it strikes me as kind of unethical to go "oh well he should've just detonated the bomb himself even if it killed him" bc again, there's a difference between witnessing a moral conundrum as a bystander versus being the person living with it and being under time pressure where it's do-or-die. Just as part of my personal standards, I feel like death is such a huge consequence/burden of someone's actions (literally you are no longer alive, any potential you had left is cut short, you cease to exist on this plane) that it feels rather callous to go "Well you should've just been willing to die for your beliefs if you really cared that much!!!"

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #this is only like tangentially related to pharma honestly #not to compare blorbos to real life but like. it reminds me of this phenomenon where privileged ppl in privileged countries #will tell ppl living in zones of war and strife 'oh well if you don't like your gov so bad just revolt against them' #like oh yes tell me how easy it is to stand up against the threats of torture and death #surely the only reason people would want to avoid that is bc they're cowards or don't want to stand up for their beliefs #contrary to what nationalism would have ppl believe. 'wanting to not die' isn't a moral position #everyone wants to live. no one wants to die. it doesnt make you a bad person to be scared of dying #esp (going back to blorbo's) in a situation like pharma's where every option he had ended in death #the death of his patients or the death of everyone at delphi or his death personally #on top of the fact he's a noncombatant who hasn't been desensitized to violence/risking his own life #and is dealing with a trained group of killers that he can't possibly match on physical terms #so yeah actually i don't blame pharma for what he did #he made shitty decisions in a shitty situation but was ultimately a victim #also if you want to view the blackmail deal from a framework of abuse #it is also fucked up to basically tell someone they werent brave enough to just kill their accuser or ask for help #isnt the entire point of such situations that the victim is both powerless to stop the abuse #and too afraid of asking for help/thinks they cant ask for help. and thats why they dont just get out #idk sometimes the best moral judgement is to forgive someone or view it as 'complicated' #sometimes regardless of the good or evilness of their actions the best choice is to not make a judgement #or to err in favor of a forgiving/'i cant speak for your experience' judgement #anyways the fact is that the rosy fantasy of being a brave noble soldier who sacrifices for the cause #rarely stands up to reality where youre just terrified and powerless and dont know what to do #and suddenly the rosy glow of The Noble Cause isnt comforting in the prospect of horrible torturous death

[surpirate]

at movies or your mom’s apartment, only when you say you want it!

#ocs #facade #yeah its facade theyre just a human guy #foxgloves #the charms are for the other 2 #jorts #the song for this one is bathroom bitch holychild #SUPER wxplicit song though so uhhhh listen at your own risk #banger though #anyways i haven’t drawn in a really long time so this was mostly me experimenting

[emiliosandozsequence]

"yes," emilio said softly, with a smile that left his eyes untouched. "to help find the truth. to make me talk."

i'm going to throw up.

#when i was 16 i went to the police about my parents abusing me #nothing was done and i was sent back to my parents after 2 weeks in a shelter bc they couldn't find the right kind of evidence to convict #when i went back it literally was EXACTLY like what emilio experiences when he returns from rakhat except it was my own family #i had my mother tell so many therapists that i was liar and that she wanted to know why i did this #(she refused to accept i might be telling the truth lmao; she still refuses to accept that) #this line makes me physically ill bc it reminds me of this one therapist that told me 'we're going to talk about why you lied about this' #i didn't want to fucking talk about it bc it sucks and i knew no one was going to believe what i had to say in the first place #and i wasn't lying. Ever. but everyone in my life who could help me in any way whatsoever assumed i was #bc that's what my parents made me say to them; like my mother literally made me introduce myself to people that way #so i had to behave like that was the truth or risk further abuse #(even now i'm Much smaller than both of my parents; they could easily overpower me so imagine how much smaller i was at 16) #'next time you come here we're going to talk about why you lied about your father. i'm here to talk to you about this.' #'yes. to help find the truth. to make me talk.' #emilio.txt

[sweetdreamspootypie]

i have once again regained the motivation to do All the Things

Just in time to be 2 hours last bedtime

And starting night shifts again tomorrow

Woo

Living that eat, sleep, work, repeat dream

(did actually do a social today though - brunch x2 takes all day)

#That quote about motivation being fickle and what you need is diligence #But man am I still early days in establishing that muscle memory #And in the meantime #I am le tired #And still having work flashbacks bc had to do an adrenaline MET call yesterday #This dude had the audacity to go into septic shock when I hadn't eaten all day and we were on hour 9 of the shift #And the next shift were taking way too long in a meeting before coming to take over #Please schedule your medical emergencies for when I have had a snack please and thank you #My life #My posts #Also it was such a hectic day and I could just feel that the juggling act meant there was a risk of things being missed #And then as I was leaving I looked over someone else's work and realized there was something I need to talk to the boss about #And now I can't relax until I do that #Conveying calm reassurance and explanation while feeling my own adrenaline hit was an Experience

[pochapal]

Oh yeah, remember to do the Tea Parties and ??? chapters after each episode, they're important.

i have no clue what these things are so instead of thinking about this i will pretend that this information does not exist until the time when i would learn about it naturally. (not trying to be mean or anything but this is skirting very much into spoiler territory! things are more fun when i figure things out/approach them at my own pace and in my own time!)

#cheyj05 #i'm glad you're enthusiastic about my liveblog but please remember to not discuss things with me until i learn of them myself! #general reminder that if you as a fan of my liveblog are burning to talk about my liveblogging in relation to things i don't know of yet #i am sure that several people who are also following this blog could point you to a place to talk about this kind of stuff #so you don't run the risk of affecting my experience in your excitement #this is a very no context/meaningless spoiler to me as of right now but this is still giving me information ahead of time #so please keep in mind where i am/what i know when sending me asks! i'll get to know these things eventually on my own #i don't want to put my foot down but do be mindful of what you discuss with me #i enjoy the discussion with people and i don't want to have to limit it in order to preserve my reading experience #i really don't mean to be mean or cruel by saying this but i want this liveblog to be enjoyable for both me and everyone #so no spoilers/hints/anything that indicates anything about the story i don't already know as fact! <3

[perenlop]

Yeah logically Flamberge probably would have been a terrible parent had they taken and raised Valerie as planned, I feel like the assassin who historically has not genuinely gotten close to anyone since childhood wouldn't have been the best role model, but like.... I'm fond of the "evil person but great parent" trope so yeah

#had they gotten to raise valerie i imagine it wouldve been similar to felicity's upbringing. where like its not a great living situation #your parent is on the run and youre exposed to their violent lifestyle and youre inherently at risk and you pick up unsavory traits #but the parent ultimately becomes a better person through the experience their child gave them #valerie is like. kind in nature. no matter what she was gonna be very sensitive and sweet #and someone like that that berge has to raise and guide and confront their own beliefs and values and actions over #its like having a bucket of cold water splashed on their head. like ''what am i DOING with my life? why am i doing these things?'' #''i used to be so similar to this kid. what happened?'' #flamberge and valerie won't have this exact dynamic to a T cause well. marlow raised her. hes her parent not them #they never even got to see her hatch. plus again this is happening with felicity anyways #but i do think that when they meet again that flamberge is. conflicted to say the least #... lord garmadon continues to infect my writing and my brain #echoed voice

[thesealfriend]

being a traumatised autistic means just trying to have a small scream in a vent channel about a shitty thing that happened to me, but it turning into a several-paragraph ramble because I've been trained that I'm not allowed to express hurt at someone's actions without being able to justify how every single circumstance or contributing factor plays into my reaction, else *I'm* the bad guy for unjustifiably attacking them

#i say ''trained'' because nobody has ever sctually told/taught me this but lived experience has proved it is the case #the place i was venting is a safe one with people i love and I'm sure i *could* post just the brief upset rant & they'd get it #but the trauma tells me that this is false and the consequences of getting it wrong are too great to risk it #and the autism tells me i have to go into intricate detail in order for my justifications to be worth it #and oh look im doing it again! #being a traumatised autistic is overexplaining in your own tags that i Know my friends love me and won't hurt me #but i am still stressed by the understanding that they Could

[ladyluscinia]

Honestly I know "think of the poor minors in fandom" is usually a red flag but this time it's annoyingly incoherent

Someone who was not posting about the problematic fic they got called out for is harming minors how? The two "what they should have done" takes I've seen offered are either 1- blocking all minors who tried to interact with their unrelated blog content because they should have known their vibes were unsafe for children, or 2- actually post about their darkfic kinks and reading history in detail to provide "transparency" FOR said minors so they could choose not to interact. With content that wasn't there unless they had done this. What the actual fuck

So end result of this is putting problematic content all over minor's dashes as "a PSA warning", telling any minors who followed this person that they can block and are now "safe" from this "evil predator in disguise" (who they seemingly never had a problem with before), and generally contributing to an online culture telling minors that anyone they follow could be secretly evil and unsafe AND that it's ok because if there is the slightest sliver of evidence it will eventually be found and aired so that the sinner can be ostracized (btw obviously we know none of you have ever left a comment on a wrong fic... or else 🙃)

Maybe just... don't do this?

#personal blog psa: my approach to minors is 'minors at your own risk' and that is IT #you are crazy if you think i'm trying to verify all your easily faked ages before making a joke #you are responsible for your own experience online #fandom culture

[snekdood]

You fucking idiots dont fucking get it. ive been taking care of plants since i was 14. Ive tried FUCKING EVERYTHING. Fungus gnats are just apparently gonna exist around me no matter what i do or try, apparently just like these yerfs who also seem to be breeding like maggots.

#please! non plant experts stfu forever. #please! if you dont take care of a grden or live by a heavily wooded areas and dont have any plants inside too that arent succs- #shut the fuck up forever!! #whatever you're about to suggest! ive fucking tried it!!! #but of course. like the yerfs you are you cant ever take me at my word for my own experiences. its always that yall know whats right always #and never that im actually fucking correct about the shit i talk about. like maybe its just really fucking hard to control their population #did you ever consider that sometimes you have to make sacrifices if you want to take care of something like plants? i have to wake up at 6 #in the morning now JUST to keep the squirrels scared away from my planters. bc if i sleep in at all i risk letting my plants die bc of #their bs. unfortunately theres just shit that comes with plants that you have to decide whether or not your love for plants is greater than #whatever bs you might encounter while you take care of them. and unfortunately one of those sacrifices is having to deal with fungus gnats #and bugs in general. yall think its so easy to control bugs in my apartment. im poor. nothing is sealed here. #i had a fucking mosquito infestation. how does that even happen? i dont fucking know! but it did. #ive had a meal moth infestation. how did they get in? they were breeding in a little bag of old food i had for my hermit crabs. #how did they get in and somehow get to that bag all the way in my room? WHO FUCKIN KNOWS! I SUSPECT THOUGH ITS BC IM FUCKIN POOR #AND THIS SHIT AINT SEALED IN HERE WELL ENOUGH. i have bug problems all the time. #and you're gonna tell me its just suddenly so easy to get rid of gnats. #this is why ik none of yall *actually* take care of plants. like actually truly. outside of what. your succulents and the one palm you have #im really happy that you have plants you can deprive of water for a few days but i have marsh plants! i have swamp plants! I CANT deprive #them of moisture acrually! so its really not that fucking easy to get eid of the fucking gnats! i feel like i should have to fucking #explain this. if you actually took care of plants forreal forreal you would know they are just not fucking easy to get rid of. #but naw. im trans. so that means i never know what im talking about about anything or whatever and yall gotta act paternalistic about #everything i do. meanwhile im sitting over here ripping out my hair about how dumb and juvenile YALL are bc ik for a gotdamn fact if any of #yall ugly fucks ACTUALLY took care of plants outside of the ornamental ones you have this wouldnt be a discussion. #but naw ya saw a jokey post of mine about how i felt defeated in my ability to get rid of the gnats and decided i wasnt actually trying #bc for some reason yall gotta assume that no trans person actually just knows wtf theyre talking about literally on anything. #anyways i hope yall get plagued by gnats forever and all your planrs die from them devouring the roots. #its like yall are new souls coming in acting like you're an old soul and im the actual old soul tryna tell you what it is but yall are just #*so convinced* you're right because everyone says im the crazy old man on the corner so that means i dont know anything or some #dumb reasoning like that. like idk maybe this old man has seen some shit and knows some shit but sure im sure yall little asses know wrf #ur talking about. totally.

[yugiohz]

What book are you reading?? With Wilhelm and Laurence and Emma!! I’m looking for book recs rn so your post was interesting to me!! Thank you!!

#i am not responsible for your experience proceed at your own risk etc etc #this is an old book #asks