#getting to not live with my parents anymore: :)))! not living with my sister anymore: :(((

[coolprettyleo]

my soul has changed? - will smith au

wc: 1.4k

tw: depression, suggestion of an ED, awkwardness? mean girl.

will smith x oc celebrini sister!

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april celebrini was in a point of her life where everything felt still. she was pretty sure she was suffering from depression and it was a cycle she didn't know how to get out of.

she would wake up, go to school, go to work, and then sleep. she was lucky if she fitted a meal in between that meant she had lost tons of weight.

she had been a pretty healthy teen, she played hockey up until high school alongside her brothers; but when the time came to play college hockey, she got no offers. contributing to her depression.

it was a sport she held so much love and dedication, she couldn't understand why she hadn't been good enough? I mean her brothers were good enough, they got college offers. macklin was even projected to go first overall, so why couldn't she?

those were thoughts that were constantly haunting her mind. if she found something to forget them they would flood back in, like if they wanted her to be a lifeless doll she had been feeling like.

her family had been really worried for her. she had finally seen her brothers after a year, at the NCCAA playoffs and it only caused them to worry more.

flashbacks

april knew that macklin and aiden were gonna bombard her with questions as soon as they were alone. they could hardly recognize her. growing up she was always a smiling person with a big personality and now she was about forty pounds lighter and was a ghost of the person she used to be.

"april what's going on" macklin said shutting the door behind him.

"what do you mean"

"cut the bullshit. I know your not okay, you barley answer my text anymore, what's wrong"

"it's nothing mack-"

"no it's not nothing, maybe I can fix it-

"you cant 'fix' it"

"and why not-"

"because I don't know what wrong with me!"

that had been about two weeks ago. she just didn't know what to tell her family. she really didn't understand why she had been feeling that way.

she was currently at work where she was a barista in a cute coffee shop. she honestly loved working there, she had got the job when she was in high school and had kept it till college. seeing as she didn’t move far away for college, choosing to stay close to her parents.

she often wondered if she might be happier if she moved away just like everyone else did, just like her brothers did. but it would always end in her telling herself; that it's not worth dwelling on.

it was currently six am and at this time of day there weren’t many customers. the cafe was always busy mid day when people were looking to find somewhere to study.

so she was surprised when she turned the open side around, to find a boy waiting outside to come in. a boy who looked a lot like will smith.

april wasn’t an idiot to hockey, she kept up with it a fairly good amount, so she would have to be living under a rock to not know the guy who dominated the ice at her brothers rivalry school.

that didn’t mean she wasn’t going to act like she didn’t know him.

he reached for the handle and took a look at her before turning as red as a tomato and blushing,

“hey, are you guys open?” he asked nervously, mentally slapping himself because he just saw her turn the sign around, to ‘open’

“uhm yeah I’ll be with you in a sec” she told him.

will couldn’t help but think her voice was cute. she had a rasp to it that made him want to give her everything she’s ever wanted.

april finished up, putting the coffee too brew and turned to the counter.

“okay! order when your ready”

“uhm. i actually never been here before… any recs?” he asked after a moment nervously scratching his neck.

“well I get a dirty chai, but considering my brothers hate it, you might hate it too… I guess you might like a frap?” she told him, a little too monotone.

“yeah okay” he told her again nervously. he found her to be breathtakingly beautiful.

he paid and stood back as she got to making the drink.

“you from here?” will asked hoping to make small talk.

“uhm kinda. I was born in Vancouver but moved here when my dad got a job”

will panicked. oh god was she still in highschool

april must of saw the worry on his face because she added,

“that was a couple years ago, im eighteen now” she said smiling at his face. something she didn’t do often anymore.

“oh, i’m eighteen too”

“oh yeah, what brings you to san jose, school?” she said innocently knowing very well he was drafted here and was most likely here to work on development.

“no. I”m came to meet with some people here. I go to boston college” he answered. april starting to not feel so bad because she saw he didn’t want to right away say he was a hockey player.

“far from home huh”

“yeah, i’m literally across the country from everything and everybody i’ve ever known” he told her wanting to slap himself. did she need to know that!?!

“i’m sorry. it’ll get easier” she said remembering her brother had been homesick too but utimatly started feeling better after some time-- as she handing him his drinks and gave him a sympathetic face.

“yeah i hope so, i should be moving here soon, if everything goes right” he said as he took a sip.

“hey this is good!” he said taking another sip as april smiled. something that will thought looked amazing on her.

april smiled at him remembering the fact her brothers liked that drink. boys were so typical

“i’m glad… and hey— if you ever need a friend in town my names april” she told him as she held her hand out to him to shake.

will starred at it for a moment before he quickly met her hand.

“will” he told the girl with a smile.

they were cut out of there moment when two customers walked in.

“I should get back to work. i’ll see you around will” she told him as he smiled a nodded and walked right out.

say something! ask for my number! do anything!

april felt really dumb after she basically just presented herself in a silver platter to the boy and he didn’t finish his part in asking for her number. he had definitely rejected her in the nicest way someone possibly could.

meanwhile will got into the Uber with a gitty feeling. she seemed really cool and having someone to hang out with other than his teammates was going to be so nice.

he was midway into the meeting with some general managers when he realized he didn’t even ask for her number.

“oh my god” he mumbled as he came to the realization

"i'm sorry?" one of the GM's said confused.

“uhh— I said I was excited to join the franchise!” he covered up, feeling like an idiot.

hopefully she was still there after the meeting.

the meeting had gone a little to long for his liking and as he raced down to the coffee shop he hoped she was working a long shift.

he opened the door to see a blonde girl who looked old but yet looked young, and a taller boy with curly hair working behind the counter.

“hi. is april working today?” he said breathlessly

the blonde eyed him for a moment before smirking,

“I don't recall an april ever working here...my name samantha though” she said with a face that will knew was a face of someone who was lying.

“yes there is, she helped me earlier-"

“if your here to file a complaint against her, I can totally help you then,” she said

“no she was great— wait, you said you didn’t know an april-“

“your looking for april” the other barista cut in

“yeah she was here earlier, i was hoping she was still here”

“she got off like two hours ago but i can give you her number!” the curly haired boy told will. he was one of aprils friends and he wasn’t going to ruin this opportunity for her.

“you totally can’t do that!” the blonde girl said in a nasally voice.

“shutup samantha. go take candy from a baby or something” he sassily told her.

she rolled her eyes before walking away to wipe a table down.

“sorry about her, here’s her number— good luck!”

“thankyou so much” he told him as he thought about what exactly to text the pretty girl.

both april and will not knowing the epic love story they were about embark on.

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hi guys! i hope this is kinda good, dont feel shy to send in ask and au thoughts… i like never get any but im so open to it!!

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[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA/WIBTA to remain friends with people who agreed not to move out with me?

☘️💮🏡💸🏝️🎏🥪 < 4 me

For a while, I wanted to move out of my parents' home and rent a place with B and T. We're all in our early 20s.

To make a long story short: B and T were my roommates freshman year of college. We got off on the wrong foot but reconnected and apologized to each other junior year. From there, I got to know them a lot better and slowly regained my trust in them. We got to talking about moving out together around this time as well.

however, I notice some issues in our friendship. After graduation, I moved back with my parents while they both stayed in an apartment with B's older sister. Anytime I visit, I barely get to talk with T, who is usually in their room talking to online friends or doing homework (has 1 yr of school left). The last time I visited, I bought everyone food and T came out to thank me. Me and B wanted to play a board game with them, and T promised they would join in later that night. They never came out of their room, even when I left the next day. This is on top of the few texts I get from both of them ever since I moved back home. But to be fair, I was always aware of B being a dry texter, and I know T needs to focus on her education. We're all introverted ppl here, but I'd appreciate it if they talked to me a bit more, yknow?

Now the housing situation: B recently brought up a place we could rent and told me we'll sign up for the waitlist IF I am financially stable to move out this year. If not, then they might be able to move out again into a bigger place when I am ready in about a year/year in a half. I agreed and said I'd give them an answer by the next week.

Next week comes along, and I just lost my job. I text the group chat about my situation and they asked if I wouldn't be able to move, to which I said no, it wouldn't be happening this year, but next year I should be ready and let them know when I could move ahead of time. B then says that they actually have no idea when they'd be able to move again and make room for me, and T adds that after a few yrs they will move out to live with their partner. I don't remember this change of plans happening so quickly, but I just reply wishing them the best of luck in finding a new place without me. I talked to my best friend about this whole situation with them and he's suggesting I definitely need to rethink the friendship if they keep changing their minds and not communicating with me, even if I gave them a second chance to be their friend.

Next time I visit them in person, I'm going to be honest about the issues in our friendship and how I feel a little hurt about how quickly they changed plans/don't talk to me as much anymore. I hate confrontation, but I don't want this friendship to be ruined a 2nd time and continue bottling up my feelings.

#aita #am i the asshole

[g1rlr0b1n]

Does anyone else ever think about how Damian might have had a semblance of a normal childhood if Dick had just like chosen not to relinquish guardianship of him? Because, I think about it a lot actually.

Like I know why he did but what if he didn't? Like what if Dick and Barbara raised him together? Like what then? Sure, it would be awkward because your bio-dad would also technically be your granddad and your father would also be your brother, but overall I think it would have been better for Damian.

I'm sure there are fics about this, drop them in the comments for me, will ya?

#He would get all the hugs and positive feedback from two not emotionally constipated parents #Lets not pretend Bruce is actually raising him anyway #Maybe in this timeline Bruce stayed dead or just decided parenting wasnt for him so now they are raising Tim and Cass too #Tim and Cass would get all the affection too #Damian trying to explain his family: My father sucked and being a dad so now hes my grandfather #Damian: my brother and sister are still my brother and sister though #Damian: Except for my brother Jason. Hes now my uncle #Jason: Thats uncle brother Jason to you twirp #Anyone trying to comprehend it: What in the sweet home Alabama?! #Dick and Babs could do it as a romantic couple or even just platonically #he could be like that kid whose parents are divorced #but they live together because they still love each other they just arent in love anymore #Babs: Hey kiddo its just you and me tonight dad has a hot date #Damian: Tt gross #If it doesnt exist maybe I have to write it! #batfamily #dick grayson #barbara gordon #damian wayne #bruce wayne #tim drake #jason todd #cassandra cain #I tagged them because I mentioned them in the tags

[stupid-dyke]

I can tell i am now experienceing actual real sleep deprivation and not just the omnipresent idiopathic hypersomnia fake sleepiness that my stupid lying body never shuts up about. I can tell because I am fallijng asleep in class regardless if I take my medication and I feel like everything is so, incredibly stupid and horrible, and everyone giving me homework or telling me to do anything is attacking me. And I can;t hold a conversation. And people are noticing my strange manner and pointing out that I seem wrong. And yet here we are AGAIN I have AGAIN stayed up late AND not gotten any work done. And on top of that I broke my fucking glasses tonight because I left them sitting on my fucking bed. And I'm freaking my parents out by crying over the phone and also I think I actually injured my shoulder last week its been hurting for four days now. and I'm so sad and mad at myself for not sleeping and not working but I can't work because I havent slept and I cant sleep because I havent worked. And every single time I get in a bad time like this my dad worries im going to die because i was suicidal for like a week in 2019 and then he gets mad at me for worrying him and I feel so so so guilty. Im so so sad.

#and I dont want to fuckign sleep even though i really need to and I spend every fucking seconf of every fucking day being sleepy #because even when I get enough sleep im still FUCKING sleepy so what is the FUCKING point. Why not just NOT FUCKING SLEEP. #Im so fucking sick of myself and my body and my pain and my stupidity. #AND ITS SO STUPID BECAUSE HERE I AM MISSING ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS SCARING MY FAMILY WEIRDING OUT OTHER STUDENTS AND MAKING MY PROFS HATE ME #BECAUSE IM FUCKING SLEEPY. stupidest fucking sounding reason on earth to have a fucking crisis. #no one ever hears me say im sleepy and thinks oh thats really serious i really want to help you now its literally just annoying to ppl #haha wait til you have kids or get older or a full time job ha ha #cool I am fuckign terrified of the future because I know how mad everyone gets at me when im too disabled to do what im supposed to #and I know its going to get to a point where I can't and there will probably be no one left to help me. I'm almost certainly going to outli #outlive my parents and my sister and even if i ever get married ill probably also get divorced so I'll be all alone #friendships aren't safe becuase you can love someone so much for 5 years and she just tells you one day she doesn't want to be burdened #by you anymore and you never hear from her again #its a dark scary fucking world and you want me to be passionate about a field of study or something?? jesus christ can you all just fuck of #I dont want to go to grad school i dont want to work i dont want to live alone i dont want to live with my parents forever #my head hurts so much goodnight guys sorry for ranting its literally fine im literally just really sleepy sorry for being melodramatic

[tvrningout]

i see or hear alternative/punk rock content and arata screams at the top of his lungs to let him out

#sorry to be talking about yet another muse but i won't lie!! arata pops into my brain kinda often!! #i'm in my creating/revamping oc's era rn i guess asdf #bc maybe i could just kinda?? scratch all his original stuff and maybe the original stuff for all his bandmates too #refocus him a bit somehow #i'll always be attached to stand out!!'s original dynamic but i also think it'd be nice if i maybe left some of those connections open #for others to take? like you have a muse who would be the front man of a band?? or the drummer?? lead guitarist?? #cool bc arata's a bassist!! play with him!! be his bandmate!! #also just thinking about him being the driving force behind the band -- he's the reason they get together #which was partially the concept before but not completely #i think this time i would want to focus more on the idea that arata pretty much loses stability at home once his parents divorce #his sister doesn't live with him anymore #so he's determined to build a new family even though he doesn't realize that's what he's doing #this band becomes his world not just bc he loves music but bc it's all that he feels he really has -- it keeps him sane #i dunno y'all asdfg i like the idea but should i bring our silly lil bassist back to bug everyone? am i doing too much :' ) #also i'm back!! gonna try to get some things done now that it's quiet <3 #get ready to ramble | ooc

[countess-of-edessa]

baked a cake from scratch, fed the dogs and the father, cleaned the kitchen, wrapped christmas presents. wearing a beige sweaterdress and black ballet flats, hair in bun. reading a profile on hilaria baldwin…the cottagecore tradwife in me is winning i fear

#im being sarcastic but honestly though i keep having the creeping and uncharitable thought of like. i don’t think this is quite as hard as #my mother has always made it seem. and my father is literally zero help and she works really hard but also there was always the not-always- #unspoken implication that the reason the house was always kind of messy and disorganized and everything was kind of chaotic and accompanied #by a distinct sense of overwhelm was because of my sister and I #either our stuff or our actions or the fact that taking care of us took up too much time she could devote to other stuff #but neither my sister nor i live at home full time anymore and when we do at least i am objectively more helpful than anything else #so im like okay well that wasn’t it then #and like i also get that everyone thinks they could do better until THEY get married and have kids and then you see #but the backlash against the pressure for everything to be picture perfect has turned into (imo) a general “relatable” idea that #adulthood and especially marriage and parenthood is nothing but a slide into complacency and chaos forever and like. i just don’t agree wit #that. obviously you cannot live as you did as a single person or a non parent but the prevailing image of parenthood i see advertised as #“realistic” is one where everyone is constantly exhausted unhappy and living in filth #i See a question from a woman asking how to SURVIVE nine whole days of winter break with her children. SURVIVE? wtf? #i do think parents of today spend too much time with their children and that’s part of the issue but also like. i cannot believe that #everything is as thoroughly and completely awful as it is pretty much always portrayed nowadays #and how i see it reflected at me. and this isn’t like a housewives don’t work aaaa thing because no. #but like. when i see people being like you can’t expect your sahm to get the laundry done OR dinner made OR the house clean on a consistent #basis EVER i am kind of like…..but literally what are you doing then if none of those things?? #cause unless you homeschool or have literal infants (whole different ballgame) then like…what are you doing #maybe an unpopular opinion but I think a lot of women are bad at being housewives. because it is a skill that women used to study and learn #and now it’s not but it’s still the most important job in society #so we took away all the instruction manuals for the backbone of society and now who comes the closest to approximating an educational resou #? influencers. which is horrible because any person you are taking advice from on Instagram is someone with a public Instagram account #which automatically makes them odd and untrustworthy and not someone at least I would want to emulate. #my mother doesn’t apply to this she is a great homemaker her issues are (1) time management (2) fatigue (3) starts too many projects #but i digress #i suppose i shouldn’t say that I reject the idea children turn your life to chaos because I don’t. but I do reject the idea that #the chaos of parenthood sentences everyone to a perpetual state of overwhelm and reactivity #that simply has never been the case for people in any time period before now even when raising children and the daily business of living wa #far more labor intensive

[chiropteracupola]

Goodfellow thoughts you say? (I don’t know much about him, so I don’t have specific questions, but I’d be interested to hear more!)

fun goodfellow fact of the day! He's Got Siblings!

#em draws stuff #oc time again hehe #moth and compass #the lieutenant: chadwick goodfellow #it's me again with the sir-not-appearing-in-this-moth-and-compass characters #this would be set about a year after chad's death so here cordelia is around seventeen and annis is twelve #they're both significantly younger than goodfellow so since he was off at sea for most of their lives he never knew them very well #but he's remembered fondly enough #which is what brings us to the original thoughts I was having - this guy has so many nicknames #he was chadwick to his parents and bobby to his sisters (both of those don't get used much anymore) #chad to his navy friends and robin to matthew and in the end primarily just goodfellow to luna and moth #and then luna has got a variety of diminutives and endearments for him as well #this art style is definitely the result of having started my wintertime joan aiken rereads and I hope it sticks around #...hm I should draw some joan aiken characters whilst I'm in that mood #maybe dr talisman this time... she's got such a gender... #or also I really couldn't go wrong with dido and multiple again. dido and multiple my best beloveds...

[intraosseous]

it is actually unreal how much i hate going to my parents’ home

#rant in tags #every fucking time it’s horrible at the beginning and then looks like it might be okay and then one or both of my parents corners me #and start being so fucking awful #going makes me feel paranoid and crazy and i am so fucking tired of it all #well. that’s probably just the constant gaslighting and manipulation actually #it’s not even that i get my hopes up or anything anymore #i just try to be slippery enough that they can’t sink their claws in while i hang out with my sisters #but in other news ! i’m living in constant sin by essence of my existence and also an idiot and a heretic #if anyone was wondering #literally the only thing i have to show for this visit is my new fucking bloody knuckles and memory of my sisters’ smiles #i am so drained and it’s not even 8 am. however have been dealing with this since eleven o’clock last night #my head hurts my hands hurt my body hurts #i just want to die #personal / #dont rb #delete later

[tortoisebore]

there’s so much siblings content on the feed so indulge me for a min

do u have siblings? how many? are u the oldest, middle, or youngest? are u close with them?

#i’m the oldest of four #we are all weirdly close considering i’m not close w my parents anymore #my siblings range from 21-7 #one brother in the middle & two sisters #my brother is my precious angel baby & my favorite #he is so evil and mean but he is also my sweetest baby i love him sm #and i live with my oldest younger sister #she’s a capricorn so we get along great #my youngest sister is also a capricorn #their bdays are a week apart #and my brother is the most virgo man you’ve ever seen #i am the only water sun in my family rip

[chrismcshell]

hi if u have a minute, pls send ur prayers to any higher power of your choosing & ask them to please let me get this job i just applied to AND for it to actually be as good as it sounds.... it's a permanent position that pays fairly well but it's part-time and flexible/hybrid-remote?? it sounds a bit too good to be true tbh!! but oh boy i would like for it to be true

#ray speaks #work stuff #as of today my sister and i officially co-own a small condo :') i'm moving there in 2 days holy shit #so uh. im gonna need Money lol. not gonna be living w my parents anymore. gotta pay bills. aaaaaaaaaa. #so it would be very very nice if i could get this job that would pay me a decent living wage for part-time hours #most jobs that ive applied for pay that much for 35 to 40 hours/week. this one is 22.5 hours #please please please pl

[fukozawa]

What kinda person leaves a bunch of thick bubble wrap in front of an autistic persons door for them to step on in the middle of the night on their way to the bathroom

#my dad that’s who #sent me into a full blown meltdown #that i now have to recover from #that i was doing my best to delay bc i could feel it coming on and was doing my best to mitigate it #god i hate living here #i know he’ll say it was just a joke and make it out to not be a big deal #when he should know how much loud shocking sounds are incredibly distressing #not just to me but also my sister whos also autistic #hes really bullies his kids specifically targeted at our autistic traits and finds it funny #and thats just scratching the surface of how much of a joke he is as a father let alone a parent #both parents are so fucked in the head i cant wait to be free of them #sad thing is idk when ill be able to support myself financially enough to get tf out of this household and not have to rely on them anymore

[urfaveopossum]

hey is it normal for your parents to threaten your pets lives if you make them upset?

#i honestly dont know anymore my parents keep telling me thats normal and that my dad was just mad is all and he wouldn't actually do that #but latly(the past 4 months) i have not felt safe at home and am scard for mine my family and animals lives everyday #im so scared all the time and i dont know what to do #i honestly think that killing myself is the only way i can get away from him #but if i do that my dad will take out his emotions on my little brother and sister instead #i dont know what to do but im very close to killing myself #and its not the usual there for a minute suicidal thoughts its if i dont fucking go to the hospital ill do something drastic #i just want my dad to go to therapy #maybe he wouldn't be like this anymore #because odly enough i still live him #i love him and so i feel terrible that im scared of him #anyway ya #rant in the tags ig

[everyothermouse]

Luke's jacket is from his old school, but he hasn't grown that much since then, he's not short short but he definitely isn't tall. Jake likes taking a lot of pictures, but Luke has photo issues cus some witness protection stuff means hes not been supposed to be to be in publicly posted photos for his most of his life. Makes an odd combo for friendship, but Jake doesn't mind that much

#luke #emory #vanessa #jake #boiling over #artinevee #the photo thing honestly isnt that big a deal anymore cus hes aged a bit so hes less recognizable as the same kid #cus he was like 8 at the time they moved him away #hes got photo anxiety but at the same time like the constant secret hope to be photoed and found again yknow #like that sort of 'i was being abused but it was my childhood and it feels more like home than whatever this is' feel. #better to grow up outside of the mafia than in it but it doesnt always feel that way when your life stays a trainwreck after u leave #for the record no he didnt join the mafia at 8 he just happened to coincidentally get thrown in the middle of some shit with it #and when i say abuse i dont mean physical abuse i mean repeated exposure to intense and stressful situations involving violence against #others in front of him at a young age. #i feel like i generally mention lukes past of bad people but i dont know if ive listed it out directly before #his parents are also divorced if i havent mentioned that. his dad lives with a dog and luke lives with his mom. theyre both kind of #neglectful in general #hes moved the second most times of the main boiling over characters. the most id cayanne (career stuff + childhood moves) #kath vanilla and emory have all never moved. vanessa and jake have both moved once (vanessa and emorys parents marriage led to her moving #into emorys fams house- jakes mom had to move house to make room for his baby sister) #marshall has also moved once as in just moving into his apartment with cayanne #luke moved once for witness protection then again for divorce then again to move schools i believe? i might be forgetting a move but i thin #k thats it. #cayanne moved a fuck ton in childhood (his parents are bikers and practically lived on the road) #and then as an adult hes lived where his baseball team goes basically until he actually settled down with marshall for in between times #instead of just staying with his parents or jumping between motels

[first-flower-of-my-house]

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#I can’t do this anymore #I just can’t #no one seems to understand how little I enjoy anything and how I am literally living from preorder to preorder rn #I just wish I didn’t exist #my parents don’t understand how suicidal I am #my sister actively encourages me to commit suicide #I have 1 irl friend who gets it and that’s fucking it

[shirehobbit]

the absolute STRESS the past two weeks have been is insane I never want to do that again

#my parents got covid #already a bit stressy #we don’t have close contact iso rules anymore so I still worked the whole time #wearing a mask and getting tested everyday tho #my sister was booked to go away this weekend for her bday #as of last Friday she was no longer able to test positive to covid and still be able to go away #this trip could not be post poned at all #WE LIVE IN A VERY TINY HOUSE #WE HAD TO ISOLATE FROM THEM IN THIS VRRY TINYHOUSE #AAAAAH #NEVER AGAIN #I’d rather just get covid and go through my seven days in iso #but we made it #she has made it to her bday weekend #she’ll probs come home and still complain about something tho

[piplupod]

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#i gotta get out of this fucking house lmfao #my sister just informed me that she might move down here over the summer #bitch!!! i hope u split the rent w me then!!!! idk why i get no say in this lmfao! #also one of my brothers wants to move in too and mum told me I would have to move all my shit to a different room #so he could have this rec room #and then i would move my stuff into the fucking laundry room #i need to get out of here bc i am being shoved around and disregarded and just stepped all over #i cant fucking do this lmfao i dislike all of my family except for dad and the brother who ISNT wanting to move in #i also cannot stand living Literally Under my parents anymore!!! i am on edge and paranoid constantly! #fucking exhausted!!! #sister had a party last night that went til 12 directly next to my bedroom on the deck outside so #i didnt get to fall asleep around 3 bc of fucking anxiety #and i usually go to sleep at 10 so! i am half alive today #anyways. sorry. i just. i cant do this lmfao. im screaming into the void bc i am going to explode otherwise #i wish i had A Single friend in this entire goddamn country. i am so fucking isolated and i hate it here #i wish i was american lmfao yall actually can travel and visit each other. fucking tired of this isolation #mother mention #father mention #brother mention #sister mention #abuse tw #idk if i need anything else esp since its jujudt in the tags but lmk