#going FERAL about these two again actually

[fandomfluffandfuck]

It’s been a bit since I wrote about feral!Bucky but I genuinely cannot put into words how much Steve (and me) loves him

Bucky now associates physical touch with pain, with torture. He hides from visitors, scampers away from touch, and never lets anyone get close to him. Nevertheless, Steve wakes up from a nap one day with Bucky curled into his side, and Steve is pretty sure that if he could, Bucky would be purring like a kitten. 

“Bucky?” Steve asks tentatively, trying not to spook him. Bucky doesn’t seem to be upset by Steve sudden consciousness, instead just making a small noise and wrapping his arms around Steve’s chest possessively. He mumbles something that sounds like “Stevie”. 

“You alright, angel?” Steve asks with a grin, confused but pleased with the change in Bucky’s demeanor. He knew Bucky had always been closer with Steve, trusting him more than others, but this was still new territory. He slides his arms around Bucky, which causes Bucky to make a happy noise that Steve hasn’t heard in years. 

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Also, maybe Bucky’s a bit territorial now that he’s been given more freedom. The poor thing doesn’t know what to do with himself. However, after consulting a bunch of psychiatrists and Dr. Banner, Steve knows what he needs to do. He empties out an old walk in closet, and fits it with as many soft things as he can find. He buys as many plushies as he can afford, and stuffs the closet with them. He remembers how much Bucky hates harsh lights now and decides to buy those pretty string lights that Peter has in his room at the tower. He shows it to Bucky when it’s finished and they’ve both had a good day. 

“It’s all your own space, Buck. I’m never going to come in here without your permission. I swear it.” Steve says, holding Bucky’s hand, which lately Bucky won’t let go of. 

“It’s… mine?” Bucky says, slowly, tentatively. He’s scared that all of this will be taken away. 

“Yeah, Buck. Yours.” Steve says, as comforting and securely as I can, trying to make his confidence transfer to Bucky. 

Steve is tackled in a hug, and there are tears wetting his shirt. He hugs Bucky back, pressing a kiss to the top of his head. 

“Thank you.” The whisper is so soft, so small, that it’s almost imperceptible. But Steve hears it. He’ll always hear Bucky. 

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Then, of course, there’s the moment when Steve’s telling Bucky about life back in Brooklyn, a topic that Bucky is very interested in. He’s going on about something that they did to piss off Becca (“we were teenagers, Buck. The best entertainment we had was making that poor girl mad.”) when Bucky stops him. 

“I remember.”

Steve drops the pencil he’s holding. “You… You do?” There’s so much hope in his voice. There’s unshed tears in Bucky’s eyes, and a small smile on his face. 

“Yes. Rebecca. My Becca.” Bucky’s smile gets bigger, as does Steve. Steve rushes to his side, hugging him. Bucky’s crying, and Steve’s not far behind him. Bucky laughs, and it is the best goddamn sound Steve Rogers has ever heard. “She was so mad. I can’t believe we did that.” He giggles, and it makes Steve feel like maybe everything will be okay. 

previous feral!Bucky

Me too! I am such a fucking sucker for feral Bucky

I am beside myself thinking about Bucky being so touch adverse only for Steve to wake up and find him tucked into his side 😫 and there's something so special, too, about Bucky having moments in recovery where he's so suddenly more himself. It makes it so much more painful to see the rapid realignment. It's as if he's found two loose ends and knotted them together as quickly as his fingers would allow to ensure that he doesn't misplace them again. Gah! It's so just 🤌🏻ouch🤌🏻

Oh my god!! The territorial thing, yes! I've had this in my notes for actual years, waiting for me to come back to it and do something with it:

Sometimes, during Bucky's recovery, he latches onto things with this ferocity, holding until his fingers hurt, distraught when he accidentally breaks it, if the object of desire is fragile, claiming "mine." He won't let anyone touch it, not unless it's over his dead body. Steve has genuinely never been so distraught and proud of someone for grabbing a mug and declaring it as their own. Bucky deserves to have his own things.

Same wavelength, lmao

That's so fucking sweet, though! I love the idea of Bucky having his own space. (And I love the idea of Peter's room in the tower having fairy lights. Fuck yeah.)

Ah! That last part is the fucking best. Steve will never be as eager to be interrupted as he is when he's in the middle of a story, and Bucky stops him because he remembers. He doesn't need to tell him again, he remembers. Steve could fucking kiss him. Steve will kiss him. Steve will pick him up and spin him around, clutching his waist all the while, a huge grin on his face.

In conclusion:

Thank you so, so much for this!!

#asks #sillysickly #anon provided writing #bucky barnes #steve rogers #stucky #hurt/comfort

[thenegoteator]

—Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident the art of losing's not too hard to master though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

-- 'One Art' by Elizabeth Bishop

you ever think about how after everything Ahsoka told Vader "I'm not leaving you" and it wasn't enough

#ahsoka #star wars #anakin skywalker #darth vader #swr #tcw #xuserann #my art #going FERAL about these two again actually #and about poetry. #something something about losing. and leaving. and being left. and coming back too late. #imagine ahsoka hearing how vader died. #padme and luke both said 'there's still good in him' and ahsoka KNEW that and yet he would not show it to her. #i'm chewing drywall

[paigemathews]

abi’s three hundred one hundred follower celebration: choose your three favorite charmed ships | chris halliwell & bianca atwood

the absolutely chokehold these two have on me. enemies to lovers. changing sides and becoming a better person. finding love when you didn’t think yourself worthy of it. finding this one piece of happiness is a world destroyed and having to sacrifice it to the save the world that never did anything for you. risking your love on the hope that you’ll meet again in a new world.

#charmed #chris halliwell #bianca #chris x bianca #abis100fc #aesthetics #charmed edits #ogwork #usermargaret #hi! sorry i know i didn't ask before tagging you but i saw you going feral (affectionate) over chris and bianca #and you're the one who initially requested my three favorite ships like. two years (oops) ago so uhhh yeah #hopefully that's okay! okay cool yeah #fun fact here is my initial tags from like. two years ago when i fucking finished this bitch (current thots in pararentheses) #i spent eight hours on this on accident without moving #it's now 1:30 (i am queueing this for context) #the middle shippy bit isn't my favorite but i spent about four hours legitimately just trying to find aesthetics for them #and like i got a fair amount of quotes and stuff but actual aesthetic pictures? nope #which is why i ended up with the two edited screenshots in there #so if the middle bit looks bad: pretend it doesnt #the other two will. not be this detailed bc again EIGHT HOURS #(current me note: ha ha ha ha YOU DUMB BITCH) #i need to eat. and pee. and go to bed i have ignored literally every part of being a person for the last eight hours on accident.

[essektheylyss]

I want to WRITE but nothing is HAPPENING I am frothing at the fucking MOUTH

#I'm fine and normal this is fine!!! #it really is fine (not rn but in the long run) so i am not seeking advice just venting #i do really start to go feral when i dont write for a bit but I will get over it (by writing) #tbh i am actually reaching critical mass of feral vibes plus building up Stuff To Write again which is really just like what has to happen #it's about how it went for two months after i finished luminous worlds #and i am not really surprised it's been like four months of this given i finished both tiefling fic and also semi-finished a book draft #so it'll be fine soon and then i will be chilling 😎

[birdmenmanga]

LAUGHTER IN THE END OF THE WORLD IS SOOOO GOOD I CRIED BC IT WAS JUST A ONE SHOT IN MY HEART IT SHOULDVE BEEN LIKE . IT SHOULDVE HAD THE PLACE AND LOVE DEMON SLAYER HAS. IT TRULY FEELS LIKE IT HAD THE POTENTIAL FOR THAT. SORRY FOR THE CAPS LOCK

LMAOOOO LITERALLY... one shot in my heart as well... I KNOW it was 5 chapter I KNOW it was a whole ass volume but it just FELT like a oneshot you know?? like it was only the tiniest glimpse inside this huge huge world...

It's not even like it was a self-contained story that had no more story left in it either. There was a CLEAR thing that the narrative would have eventually built up to, which is that if their way of living is hunting down the demons they'd eventually collect all the mouths... and then what? it really begs the question y'know???? the demon's coming back?? what's going 2 happen to haru and luca?

I have never watched or read demon slayer so idk how the two measure up but yeah. where I live anyways demons slayer has so much hype. it genuinely sucks (to ME) that miss tanabe's works are always so underrated </3

#asks #anonymous #laughter in the end of the world #I guess they both have guys with a little sister who's cursed in some way? #I will say that just based on my impressions haru seems to have much more agency than that other girl. nezuko? #like just in fanarts it seems like she's either depicted as 'girl who is seen but not heard' #or 'going feral and losing control of herself entirely' #I have so many feelings about haru specifically. I think it she really began the age of completely unfuckable girls for miss tanabe #good for her #like it is SUCH a good subversion of the 'girl who looks young but is much older than she seems' #because like. genuinely. her character design is unsexy. it veers so hard into abstract symbolism there's nothing there to sexualize #and like I think it's such a good depiction of kids too #like you know she's acting but these 'old but younglooking girls' often act childish in a cute way you know!! #but haru's like childish in a 'I have not yet learned self-control and I am going to pull your hair out for saying mean things :(((' #which again. completely unfuckable. it's so great #but also the setup between the siblings is so crazy... they're literally built to be codependent #they actually can't live without the other and they will never be able to form longterm meaningful relationships with other people either #just the two of us we can make it if we try type beat #like haru will look like a kid forever. she will literally never be respected and will always need a chaperone in regular society #and then luca committed so hard to the bit that he also can't just... go back to being a normal person either #in my mind if it became a longer series I imagine it'd be a bit like mushi/shi... like standalone stories of a wanderer

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

that lyric in athena by greyson chance where he goes "I don’t want to be the man I was / I want to jump into the innocence of your touch / fall into your ocean hands / pick me like a cherry blossom in Japan" is lonancore btw

#i'm trying to see if I can fudge a couple hours today to work on a flowery portrait of this man lol #ALSO because I'm like very focused on hallowed bodies rn #a realization dawned on me that I can actually write both it and body back #at the same time LMAO #sooooo maybe we'll get some lonan excerpts #what i love about that project also though is that it's not just about harrison HAHA #it's not JUST about a romance (or failed romance) #(lonan is a bit more diverse in his thinking than harrison LOL) #(sarah was talking to me while reading SV and she went 'oh it's been TWO years and harrison hasn't moved on at all from this man???') #HAHA yeah no all he thinks about is lonan #but Lonan on the other hand has a LOT more to deal with #a BIG one is his sister #I'M FERAL TO WRITE LONAN FEELING LIKE A BROTHER AGAIN #i've said this before but the only reason he goes to new york city in FH is because reeve calls him & is like #'hey so I need your help come find me' #but she lies and sends him to harrison (QUEEN SHIT) #and while HB happens before he even knows about that #his sister is GONE & i actually get to #play with the OG idea for HWT which was that he was going to find her #hold on there's this great HWT excerpt I have to share if I can find it #anyway i'm just like extremely excited to see lonan as a person again and not a cringe loser #cuz he's been the definition of cringe loser in my head for about 3 years #RECLAIM YOUR THRONE AS RACHEL'S FAVOURITE CHARACTER BABE I BELIEVE IN YOU #DETHRONE YOUR BOYFRIEND COME ON!!

[holydramon]

you ever have a ship you’re insane about but it’s based off an au so 1) rarely anyone ships it and 2) those that do don’t ship it in your particular flavor

#and like the two characters already have love interests and you like those love interests and those relationships but you thought too hard #about those characters together and just…. now you’re like this #anyway I am going feral about fatal exception error again debating just talking about it since I’m unsure I’ll ever actually. make a fic of #it. as much as I want to. #dramon thoughts

[crossbackpoke-check]

do u ever speak too soon & immediately regret it.

#yes this is about the trade that just happened three minutes ago #clown shoes of prophecy in the tumblr tags #no i am not Doing Well #I THOUGHT I WAS GODDAMN SAFE FROM THE BRUINS #to be deleted but i am literally resisting the urge to screech like a feral animal in the gym right now i am being soooooo normal #WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME PERSONALLY SPECIFICALLY I’M GOING TO CRY INTO A HOLE I CAN’T DO THIS NARRATIVE IT’S ONLY DYLAN LEFT YOU TOOK HIM #i have to pretend to be normal :) i have to take an exam :) and function as a human being :) instead of crouching like a bug on the floor #and then i will come home and open up the notes app i made two (?) years ago that says ‘if tyler bertuzzi ever gets traded it’s-’ #& everyone will be suffering with me. sorry not sorry for the influx of sad bertuzzi posts that are coming like i have Such a relationship #with him as a player &i know he’s the worst but also it really sucks to watch every guy you thought was the core of ur team get traded away #purely narratively speaking in all bemoaning etc etc etc except for the part where we don’t have a gritty net front presence now & #who’s gonna be larks & lucas’ winger & i just cried about tyler in a fight the other day because mickey said ‘i’m sure he wants to protect #those hands but sometimes you can’t you gotta do it for the boys’ & i think mickey said ‘they’ as in the team wants him to not hurt his hand #again but he has to fight & if that isn’t also v much a part of the old gods detroit it was always tyler champion of blood & guts & giving #& regardless of hockey (EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT IT WAS FOR DRAFT PICKS I HATE DRAFT PICKS WHAT ARE U GONNA DO WITH THOSE like at least if #it’s for a guy i could maybe learn to love him but you never remember who you traded to get those draft picks unless it’s narratively r #relevant later but right now it feels like it’s for nothing & i don’t want to learn to love some new guy in five years i miss tyler already) #anyway. ik full well this won’t cause me to actually finish tyler borzoituzzi bc i haven’t even properly started it but i can dream of spite

[raeathnos]

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#so Sky-Shifter is my sona and has been since I was 12 #so you know for 20 ducking years and that’s never changing #but about two years ago I started working on the idea for an actual furry fursona #I’ve kinda had conflicted feelings about whether I wanted them to be another sona or just another character #cause I love Sky and she’s perfect #but idk I really want to have like an actual sparkledog fursona too #been looking on da and hit with so much inspiration again #I have a weekend off for once and aside from running to dunkin and the bookstore I’m free #so I’m thinking I’m diving in with finalizing her design today #I was looking at like rave clothing and I have so much inspiration and I’m like 90% sure I know what I want her outfit to look like #she’s gonna have a feral form too and I kinda have an idea for markings and stuff #also stuck on a name #anyways I guess she’s technically a sparklegloom #she’s a canine/fox-sort of thing with a skull for a head #I think she’s mostly black with a striped tail and colorful tipped ears and colorful markings #can’t decide if I want her to be black/neon pink or black/neon turquoise #going with a black/neon pink/neon orange with a bit of neon turquoise for her outfit colors #debating about names still but kinda leaning towards like Jinx or Hex #she a witchy raver #I’m excited to draw her c: #been trying to draw more lately and it’s been going good #trying to force myself out of my comfort zone which has worked- I needed a change of pace #also trying embrace the whole ‘I am cringe but I am free’ thing XD

[allylikethecat]

I did it!! I finished the next chapter of You Know Where the City Is! I'm going to do another read through and post it tomorrow 🥰 Thank you so much for everyones patience!

#allylikethecat #fanfiction #you know where the city is #matty x taylor fake dating fic #matty x taylor #the updates that only i care about #but they're fun for me so im posting them anyway #i ended up having to stay an extra THREE HOURS at work #after waking up at 4am this morning to go ride the feral creature i call my horse #so i was like i am going home and refusing to leave it tonight #and now im going to bed again because wow i am tired #im actually really happy he was a lil feral today though #after he tried to die on me on monday its super nice to have him back to his semi psychotic self #like his two settings are perfect angel boy i would trust with my mother who is scared of horses #and feral demon that i constantly threaten to send to the glue factory #today he was a demon pony because taytay went past super fast on the golf cart and he decided to use that as an excuse to be naughty #as if that wasn't something he sees every day of his life and usually doesnt care about- but today it was HORRIFYING #he finished up really good though and got all his lead changes... where they were SUPPOSED to be instead of just randomly added for ~flair~

[edgydadster]

I'm drawing other things but the fucking URGE to redraw scenes of Jessie and James with Cassandra and Cyril...

#theeggspeaks #fucking shaking rn they remind me so much of them #even though cyril isn't as flamboyant as james team rocket gives off SO much THEM energy #it's driving me INSANE #the amount of incorrect quotes i put in my discord server... holy... #getting hyperfixated again ahhdjs #i wanna bite someone #going feral over these two<3 #actually these four i'm obsessing over jessie james (meowth) cassy cy #i want what team rocket has. i need that #on my knees begging for a jessie in my life #i mean i kinda do thinking about it #but yea #i gotta finish this current thing so i can shitpost my heart and soul out

[ayakinari]

every once in a while i listen to yakimochi no kotae again and go ohhhhh this is how my brain has been rewired beyond repair

#honeyworks #duck rants about something #this song means the world to me sometimes i forget abt it but its really. just a song isnt it. #if i hadnt autoplayed on accident that one time idk where id be its a core part of my life now #it has such a fun melody!!! the pining and the yearning!!! im just msnfjsjgskahdjdhwuhdhfhfjf #idk anything abt mochita's seiyuu other than he is apparently really popular but i love his vocals he brings him to life so fecking well #but that goes for p much every other hw chara too tbh #when boku ga namae wo yobu hi came out though i went absolutely feral i didnt think theyd ever get closure and yet #both are the songs of all time #i could go all day but to sum it up mochiaka the world i need to draw them again sometime #wait no i lied im gonna keep going #mochita where do i even start hes such a silly guy. internally monologues abt his crush on a regular basis and is so smitten w her that hes #constantly on the brink of death whenever she does something remotely endearing #which tbf makes sense akari is the cutest thing in the world i love her #akari demi icon too actually seeing her slowly fall is adorable as hell watashi ga koi wo shiru hi gets me each fecking time #when the last chorus comes on. ohhhh god my heart #wanting mochita to call her by name and teasing him afterwards. i could die #AND IN THE HANIPRE TALK LIVES when she told him she wouldve been happy of he had sent that ''i love you'' over text before he fell asleep #these two r tbe epitome of tooth rotting fluff im in shambles #anywyas. yeah

[kennabeth]

I'm so invested in the folcharts as a couple when resa's talking then mo immediately lies to and excludes her for no reason. she's the only reason your dumb ass is even alive and you haven't treated her like an adult and your partner in months fuck is wrong with you

and then he tells her he doesn't care if she goes back home without him lmfao men ain't shit

#inkdeath is so hard to read because I HATE watching resa become isolated #she doesnt want to ruin her marriage by confronting mo that she knows he's lying and murdering people #(babygirl YOU would not be the one ruining your marriage if he freaked out over that conversation but ppl dont make sense) #she cant confide in meggie bc she doesnt want meggie to know mo's out endangering himself and staining his soul red #plus she knows damn well meggie takes mo's side on EVERYTHING mo can do no wrong when asked to choose between her parents #again. no matter how deranged mo is acting #cant talk to roxane bc she feels insensitive bc at least she still has a husband even tho he sucks rn #the prince is busy and doing the same thing as mo #from her perspective inkdeath is lowkey the yellow wallpaper miss girl's just going fucking insane #and the two people she should trust the most are telling/would tell her she's absolutely right to think she's crazy #actually the more i think about this the more feral i get i want to talk about how mortola's always calling resa #a mute little bird or w/e #and not just in reference to actually being mute but in being stripped of her autonomy bc birds cant sign #birds that cant sing have no way of communicating with other birds heyre trapped in isolation #and her own fucking HUSBAND treats her like that! like she's inherently incapable of taking care of herself #or speaking for herself and her children and her marriage #and he finally vaguely concedes to let her at least take the kids out of Rape Is Legal World without a fight #but he's like 'we're over if you do lol' #i sound very mean to mo all the time i think but im SO fascinated by him #i love the negative character development that cant be completely attributed to the bluejay songs #but fuck he needs to get on his knees in front of resa and beg her forgiveness idcidc he didnt do one thing to deserve her in inkdeath #sorry this is incoherent it's 4am im in migraine hell #collapsed earlier today although i think that was less the migraine and more the lights were flickering #cant sleep havent eaten extremely nauseous but yk #inkheart derangement syndrome attacks me at all hours of the day #if you see me elaborate on these tags later in a better post without mentioning that im stealing from myself do NOT call me out #inkheart #says kenna #'i want this baby to grow up with a father' - 'and i want to kill people so looks like it's a tie' afhlfsjkkfds MORTIMER

[noxtivagus]

ffxiv w the ffiv references please take my heart my everything is yours

#tag later #FF4!!!!!!! THE MUSIC THE TWO MOONS #the two moons.. sob.. ill cry #what if. theme of love has an ffxiv version is that too much hopium 🥹 #i love you final fantasy xiv you are my favorite distraction my favorite escape my everything #i'm bout to make ffxiv my entire personality JUST YOU WATCH #i'm actually gna go insane it's probably a Bit (perhaps that is an understatement) unhealthy using ffxiv as a distraction like this #every time the night comes i fight the urge to do the same thing i did nights before but uh we don't talk about that <33 #i shouldn't have wrote about that fuck #i was doing well just a moment ago but that specific memory just #nooooooooo i'm fine i'm fine i'm watching (listening) to the live stream rn <3 #i do not understand jpn but i am multitasking sm rn i'll just look at translations later uh #i just started laughing at this one tweet i saw from my favorite feral zero liker on the tl #top.. 💀 I HAVE MY LAUGHS ON A VOICE RECORDING IM GNA LAUGH SM WHEN I REWATCH THAT #ARGHDLFKAJFLKSDJ FERAL FOR ZERO I LOVE YOU ZERO PLEASE TAKE EVERYTHING FROM ME ZERO???? #YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO ME ZERO MY ONE N ONLY IM #OKAY. #NO. #im so sorry when i find my mind drifting a bit from fiction like idk ffxiv or wtvr i find that i'm srs in a constant battle with my mind #BUT AS LONG AS I DON'T DO THAT AGAIN.. #NO THIS IS A CYCLE 😭 that damned memory at least the. Thing on my hand i will not say the word #at least it's healing but i still haven't thrown the.. the yeah away n i'm afraid of what i might do if #i was. gna do it again last night but reading old stuff comforted me but then when tomorrow comes i find my mind torn once more n #i'm rambling T_T but i'm fine i think i'm just a mess right now i will just hold unto ffxiv.

[feydfuckernation]

1am list of aus on my mind that i need to get out of my system eventually (aka to do list)

- professor butler au (i am actively working on this one) - ballroom dancer/dance au - pirate au - werewolf/red riding hood au - beauty and the beast au - vampire/true blood au - murder mystery au (this one is actively haunting me rn)

#me who has barely written any fic: what if i just [brain starts screaming and doesn't stop] #lion.txt #i have no idea what to tag this other than like #to do list #idk it's after 1am and i'm manic #a list of things to come? perhaps #god i have so many things i want to do and only so much time/energy....... #fr going mental about professor butler tho #i've actually been writing out those hcs and i'm FERAL #i also have a oneshot in the works for that so 👀 #literally no promises whatsoever bUT. i still have two days left on my chrizzy break so #again i say: perhaPs

[rafayelism]

dating the love and deepspace boys | domestic moments

featuring: rafayel, xavier, and zayne x gn!reader

(´• ω •`) ♡ modern au! can you guys tell raf is my favorite..?

rafayel

a year younger than you. lies to everyone (including you) that he’s actually two years your senior. you only found out he was younger than you when you met his parents, who have his birth certificate framed. 

hates cats. despises them. they fill him with rage (fear). says he’s allergic (he’s lying).

“oh shit raf, this sucks! i guess you can’t move in with me.. i have cats”

“...you have cats?”

“yeah. 3.”

“i’m not allergic. i can move in tonight.”

chronically online. minoring in marine biology and majoring in annoying you. texts you over 200 times a day and if you don’t respond, he’s faking a horrible chronic illness. again. it’s amnesia on wednesdays, appendicitis on thursdays, chronic migraines on fridays… etc..

he has 2 followers on his private twitter. you and thomas. 

over 700k followers on instagram for some reason? he sells paintings on depop (he says it's depop but you’re convinced he sells them for heinous prices on the black market) 

cooks on occasion? has an apron that says kiss me im irish (he's not irish?) made you a tuna cupcake once?? 

pescatarian. not in the vegan/vegetarian way where he refuses to eat red meat but because he’s absolutely feral over fish. (is this cannibalism? he says its not)

lives in a 2 bedroom apartment with you but doesn’t use his bedroom. says your bed is comfier. turned his bedroom into a painting studio (IT’S for the black market you say!!) and sleeps with you. 

“raf,” you sigh. “don’t you have.. homework or something?” 

he sits between your legs, back against your chest as he scrolls through his phone. 

“yeah,” he says. you flick the back of his head because you know he’s smirking. “it’s called assignment: you. due in two minutes.” 

with his free hand, he reaches back mindlessly to grab yours. you sigh, fingers intertwining with his, a reflex as he leans his head back. his eyes meet yours and you can’t help but laugh. 

“well?” you ask, brushing his hair out of his eyes as he squeezes your hand. “what are the assignment details?” 

he chews on the bottom of his lip as he thinks, humming while his eyes wander across your face. he swings your interlocked hands in circles. it’s raining outside, the heater is on, and rafayel is warm like hot chocolate. 

“what?” he says, his cheeks a tinge pink. “you’re looking at me like that again.” a pause. he turns, his head now buried in your chest.

“just studying my homework.” you say, hands instinctively wrapping around his back. the laundry machine is running in the background, rain is falling against the window, and you faintly hear your rice cooker dinging in the kitchen. home, you think, is with rafayel.

“i can hear your heartbeat.” he says, voice muffled. “it’s super fast. you like me or something?” 

“i really like you.” you say, without skipping a beat. rafayel groans into your chest, sighing in discontent. 

“no fair. i’m supposed to be the flirter.” 

you press a kiss onto the top of his head and you feel his body melt into yours. the two of you fall into a warm silence, his breath steady as he traces paintings into your neck. 

“raf?” you mumble, eyes drooping. he hums in response. “did you pass your assignment?” 

he smiles. “with flying colors.” 

xavier

chronic napper. (yapper?) 

has 100 late assignments. failing all of his classes yet got into the top university in your country because he got a perfect score on his entrance exams. you thought he was a nepo baby (turns out he’s just.. smart?)

his procrastination rubs off on you… he is the WORST distraction and he knows it. so smug about it and uses it to his own advantage. will perch on top of you when you’re studying and kiss down your neck until you go to sleep with him. 

lives in the apartment on top of yours but is at your house most days, if not all. you ask him to move in.

“am i not already.. living with you?” 

“don’t you still have your apartment, though?”

“yeah..?”

 is that good for the economy?? is it financially smart? not at all, but he’s too lazy to move out and put his apartment up for lease. 

xavier sleeps with his legs entangled with yours and his arms wrapped tightly around your chest. the air conditioning hums in the background as you scroll mindlessly on your phone, dimming the brightness as you hear xavier stir. 

“sorry xav, did i wake you up?” you ask. he doesn’t respond, blinking the sleep out of his eyes as he glares at your phone. 

“xavier?” you question, swallowing a laugh at his ruffled hair and disheveled clothes. 

“phone down.” he says, voice raspy with sleep and an octave lower than usual. you raise an eyebrow at him. 

“can i get a pretty please in this economy?” 

xavier’s eyes narrow as he snatches your phone away, snoozing the device and placing it on the nightstand next to you. his lips ghost your neck, pressing kisses against your skin as he mumbles incoherently in the dark of your bedroom. 

“xavier-” you breathe, giggling at the sensation. “that tickles!” 

he nips at your neck. 

“bedtime. now.” 

zayne

3 years older than you 

he literally has his whole life together at 27 which scares you so much

“my credit card is your credit card” typa boyfriend

cooks. cleans. has a 9-5. you’re interning at the hospital that he works at (he’s head doctor!!)

you’re just a sweet little intern and zayne is the big bad monster!! everyone at work thinks he hates you because he’s extra strict on you. doesn’t give you any special treatment, ‘ignores’ you most days (but also slips meals into your locker and hands you heat packs on cold days in the hospital)

no one knows he’s dating you until one day someone sees you leaving in zaynes car. 

“oh, you carpool with doctor zayne?”

“huh? no, we live together.”

“you WHAT???”

he’s a virgo……. erm……

the two of you get ready together in the morning. his guard is down when he’s sleepy and he’ll cling to you as he brushes his teeth and does his hair.

you wake up to the cold night breeze, blinking the sleep out of your eyes and shivering as you scan your surroundings. you yelp as you meet the attentive gaze of your boyfriend. 

“huh? whuh? huh?” you splutter, squirming as zayne holds you tighter. he’s carrying you bridal style in his arms, his jacket around your shoulders as the two of you walk to his car. you see the bright lights of akso hospital fading away behind the two of you. 

“it’s two am,” he says calmly, placing you down gently as he opens your car door for you. “you waited for my shift to end. again.” 

you smile bashfully, rubbing the back of your head. “well, i didn’t wanna just leave you!” 

zayne clicks his tongue against the roof of his mouth, eyebrows furrowed but gaze warm. he guides you into your seat, clicking your seatbelt in place. 

“you can nap on the way home,” he says, closing the door and sliding into his side of the car. 

the heater’s on already- courtesy of his super expensive electric car. he fastens his own seatbelt and hands you a hot tea and bread from the hospital vending machine. 

“drink up. doctor’s orders.” 

you grin before he leans over to press a kiss on your lips. 

“thank you for waiting for me.”

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