#gs rambling again

[ridiculously-over-obsessed]

Been having a lot of thoughts and feelings on Gender and identity and all that complicated stuff lately (it is Pride Month after all), and it's lead me to some big realisations about me and who I am and why I feel the way I do.

So let me reintroduce myself:

Hi, my name's Max, I'm transmasc and I use he/they pronouns 😎✌🏻

Big love to my weird and wonderful little found family whose unconditional support and love is the reason I feel comfortable and confident enough to explore and learn these things about myself, I love you guys a lot 🥰💖

#gs rambling again #last time we're using that tag 🥹🥹 #we're switching to #max rambles a lot #from now on #transmasc #transmasculine

[socksandbuttons]

Notbme staring at my inktover knd 2019 drawings and going Damn

I need to practice inking agaib

#THE POSES WERE MOSTLY GOOD TOO AND THE STUFF WITH SILHOITTES #some thi gs look wonky but like yeah thats expected but most of it holds up really well #love teen rqchel and georgette the gorls #also the 23 qnd 78 one??? amazing i still love that one #i can no longer do month long challenges but sigh i want to try again #maymay didnt get too far this year but genuiney thats alrigth i still drew her and even have an attempted ask blog update #ITS COLORED IT JUST NEEDS BACKGROUNDS WHICH.... *LOOKS AT THE ONES ON THE BLOG* #ill figure it out #some of it was using mosaic on the screenshots i had and some were painted #like some fool i was #but once i get into it it shpuld be fine #ITS JUST STARTING #i continue to ramble in my tags but thats for future me #im just trying to look for a sticker here #i know i put it in one of my sketchbooks #my fusionfall art continues to be loved by me #damn i could try drawing them again see where my coloring stands now #cant top my past self it seems #but i have more gel pens

[sharowolet]

fe: engage(ment)

i did it, i finished the main story after continuously putting it off (still haven’t done fell xenologue)

(spoiler images beware)

you don’t understand i ruined so many important moments in the game because of situations like THIS

personal favorite babygirl moment, throwback to ch 11

i couldn’t take the game incredibly seriously but that’s partly my fault for naming alear “babygirl” fkdlsagk;lds but i had a lot of fun because of that though!

i left off on ch 23 and made it a goal to finish it today, and i did! and i saw and learned a lot of things, like how i got to meet evil babygirl before he learned the power of friendship :D

i said this as a joke but now im wondering if sommie is actually the zero emblem and sombron was looking for the crystal shitter living in the sky all along

the photos during the staff credit were so pretty :( the group photo at the end was super cute too... aaa...

#sharo rambles #sharo plays fe #and then the emotional whiplash i had when the new units in fe heroes dropped and i was in the middle of finishing this game #what a wild night fdsjkal;gs #once again sorry to ani and kylee for subjecting them to my ramblings

[sherylmeyer]

series 5 color code theory time commence

(i'm under the assumption they're doing the "series becomes a rainbow" thing and not pulling a s2)

FP - Flamingo Pink

NO - ??? Orange

AG - Amber Gradient??

OG - Olive Green

CB - Cornflower/Cadet Blue

NG - Night Gradient??

#rainbow high #sheryl's ramblings #maybe they're gonna try neon orange again #don't see that though #gradient dolls would be cool asf so i'm hoping i'm right on those #the constant gs could be glitter too #that'd be dope

[greeksprings]

One of my goals this year was to play more video games. So far this year I’ve beaten 5 games already. I don’t recognize myself tbh.

#gs personal #for context over the last few years I slowly decreased playing games and at one point I would start a game #stop playing it #start another game and again not finish it #I was in this cycle of starting games and not finishing them #and I just got tired of doing that and not playing video games #I love video games they bring me so much joy and it was sad because also at one point I didn’t want to play a single thing #I told myself that this year I would play and beat 1-2 games a month #the fact that I’ve beaten 5 to me feels like such a great accomplishment #and just makes me happy you know? #my work life isn’t great and it’s unfortunately a majority of my life I feel like #so video games and D&D have been my saving grace tbh #without them I really don’t want to think of what my life or what I would be like at the moment #but here’s a hint: I’d be miserable without them #if you read all this hi and sorry for the rambling but also ily

[angryborzois]

wheres the panel with toge holding a megaphone i have to redraw eve in that

#my eve hyperfixation is back #angryborzois rambles #you can expect fanarts again #bro last night when i went back to watch the live video while it was still up #i recorded my fav parts #and now i get to rewatch them whenever i want and BVNFN #his songs are so amazing #thinking about it all day #my head is filled with eve so gs #so gs #SONGS

[emma-radfemcanu]

I am once again begging Novak Djokovic to retire from tennis

I mean I was kind of rooting for him today, once we got to semi final stage I was in the camp of ‘anyone but Zverev but I’d rather it wasn’t Alcaraz’ and so I got the final I wanted out of the available options. I actually like Casper but the petty part of me does not want him winning a slam before Stef does, so I wouldn’t have been heartbroken if he did win but I’m sort of glad he didn’t (sorry Casper)

But it was also for the greater good- Djok is getting on a bit and his ego is huge, I cannot see him being one of those who fades away, it wouldn’t surprise me if he decides to go on a high some day. He’s now ahead in the slam race (nobody needs 23 it’s selfish smh) and Nadal is most likely retiring next year, so if he wins a couple more he’ll be comfortably ahead- he’s said recently that he’s thought about the end with Rafa’s news and Federer retiring last year, so hopefully this means he’ll go away and stop terrorising us soon

It’s crazy really- the vast vast majority of players won’t be that successful, even winning one slam is a huge deal, 23 is objectively insane. And yet at this point I think ‘ok whatever’ bc I am bored of seeing him. I’m bored of Rafa too tbh but at least he isn’t horribly unlikeable lol

#and yes I am bitter that stef and matteo would be gs winners #maybe denis too #if if if doesn't exist but if they'd had different opponents :( #rambling about tennis again

[7000f1]

hey good news: I finished the monhun! Jyushi chibi

bad news: I have to draw a sword

#*deep breath* FUCK #I am changing ideas once again and give him a somnacanth gs instead of chamaleos #cause it looks more edgy #and it was the first one I had in mind but changed because it's TOO HARD to draw #but also. #fuck it we ball #so yea new art soon #I think #probably #depends on how much time I spend complaining instead of drawing www #ramblings #anyway I know I've barely been active today but good night #(⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)⁠♥

[steamberrystudio]

13/08/2023 Devlog

Hallo! It is time for the bi-weekly Tumblr update once again

Summary:

Sprite art finished and imported (all sprites are now in the game)

All CG art completed

50% of CGs coded

The Ramble:

So here is the quick ramble for Gilded Shadows.

I finished all the remaining sprite art and got that imported into the game. 

And I finished all the CG art. I have not finished coding the CGs as some of them take a bit longer due to Morgan. So I have a few more of those left to do.

I really did not expect to be finished with the CGs by this point but somehow managed to finish them by the end of Friday without killing my hand.

I've definitely been...uh...feeling it the past couple of days though. Ha ha. 

Fortunately the art is done now so my hand will have plenty of time to rest through beta testing! 

Upcoming Weeks:

Beta testing! 

I have a few more things to wrap up, including coding the rest of the CGs and then Yuu's route will move into the beta testing stage which will last a few weeks; but I'm not sure how long.

So yeah. We're nearly to the final release for Gilded Shadows. 

Even after release, I still have some KS related loose ends to tie up but the game is kind of the main thing to complete and we are nearly there.

=o

Anyway, that's all for now on Gilded Shadows. By next update we should be mid-beta testing and I'll probably be working on some of the KS loose ends while waiting for feedback.

When Stars Collide:

For those following updates on this project:

I have received one new background since last time and a new sketch.

I have also done a fair bit of writing but since this is just my side project I've actually been tracking my word count progress a little less meticulously than usual. I don't know how many words it was at my last update so I don't know how much progress I've made since then. LoL!

I have one more short scene for Yren chapter 5 left but I also worked on the new chapter 3, which I had planned out but not started last time. So it looks like I wrote right at 10,000 words based on how long the scenes I know I wrote are. 💪

I also wrote Kav's first actual scene and appearance (well, it's part of the new chapter 3, not a separate scene.)

I've done a few other small things - worked on potentially re-designing the flowchart screens, changed up some character lore for a few characters. Changed a few character name spellings too (there are reasons for this; it wasn't just a whim. LoL)

And a few other minor things.

I also improved my WSC word count spreadsheet.

Keeping a detailed spreadsheet of my progress - including a specific goal system and progress tracker really helps keep me focused so that my forward momentum stays at a steady pace.

I'm not a naturally organised person - in fact, my natural state as a writer is quite chaotic and disorganised. But I have learned during Changeling that chaos does not serve me well in the development process and that I do better if I make myself use organisational tools to stay on track.

I haven't been meticulous with writing spreadsheets for WSC since it has been my side project until now. But as GS wraps up, it will become more of my focus so I want to be sure I have the tools in place to stay focused.

Hence...better spreadsheets. 💪💪

Side note. But did you lens flares are actually required when something is set in space? That is how you know it's sci-fi.

I don't make the rules.

#gilded shadows #otome games #english otome games #when stars collide #amare game #updates #that's a nice flare

[lunartearrose]

Oc kiss 2024 day 3 - Sunrise!

Ocs: (from right to left), Azure, Hayune, and Rust!

World: pokespe

Drabble below! Happy Valentines' Day!

Today, the sun rose on a new day.

In fact, it was the first day of summer - the first summer Hayune experienced in a long time. Of course, Hayune wouldn't dare miss it's rising.

As always, with each passing day, a fear lingered in him - of new problems arising, of having to hit the reset button one more time - and of course, no longer having the ability to do so.

But he promised Celebi - on the summer solstice, he would set them free. This was that time.

So, he pulled the GS ball from his hiding place, and after a deep breath… he hit the release.

Celebi sprung out, stretching arms to the sky, trilling happily with a stretch. It turned around, looking at Hayune with their head tilted.

He dropped the ball on the ground, and after a moment of hesitation, crushed it under his heel. “There. Free forever. I hope you never need me to fix fate. Ever again. But… I'll be happy to have some lunch with you in some years, if you want.” he rambled softly.

The little mythical squealed happily, throwing her arms around Hayune's neck. One last time, the little celebi spoke telepathically to him.

“Thank you! Goodbye!”

Gently, he hugged the little pokemon back. “Goodbye.” He replied.

With that, the little green pokemon flew off. And slowly, as it danced in the sunrise, Celebi's colors gradually changed.

Slowly, the green body faded pink - a symbol that they had finally gotten quite old. Many times before, it was a sign of their wilting. But this time, the change was not brought on by exhaust drying them up. It was brought on naturally.

After all, today was their birthday. This Celebi's, at least.

He watched for a while, and eventually, he heard footsteps.

“There you are.” Rust spoke, “didn't think you'd do it so… quick.”

“Are you going to be okay?” Azure asked.

Hayune shrugged. “I promised them I'd let them go. Better to rip the bandaid off, right? I just… hope we'll see each other again, someday. When we're both all healed up.”

“I'm sure you will!” Azure replied, doing their best to comfort him, “We'll be right by your side as much as you need us.”

“Yep.” Rust agreed, “No gettin’ rid of us.”

Hayune smiled a bit. “Thanks, guys.” He turned away from the bright sun's rays, sighing softly. “I'm happy for them. I just… can't shake the nervousness. You know how it is…”

At that time, Rust and Azure glanced at each other as Hayune moved away slightly. A quiet agreement was met between them, as they had discussed the ways to lift their partner up before meeting here. Rust was very embarrassed about it, but just about as determined as Azure was, reassured by her mischievous smile.

They nod to each other, and then move.

Rust grabbed Hayune, hand landing clumsily on his chest, while Azure tugged at his arm.

“Huh? Guys, whats-” Hayune began, only to be cut off as the two leaned in.

Rust had to lean down, and Azure had to stretch up a bit, but they each planted a kiss on Hayune's cheeks at the same time.

The result? Hayune's brain screeched to a halt, his face flushed red. His worried thoughts drowned in happy static.

After some moments, the two pulled away. Rust was bright red, while Azure was more composed.

“Sorry if you didn't like that.” Rust muttered, flipping his hood up. “It was Azy's idea to surprise attack ya.”

“Says the guy that immediately agreed to it with no hesitation.” Azure smirked. “You're so silly! You have no problem flirting, but you're all hot and bothered over doin’ somethin’ so tame!”

“Well-! I-! It's just-!” Rust stammered, getting redder as his voice cracked, “Different! FUCK-”

At that, Hayune's brain finally rebooted in full. Smiling blissfully, he said, “Can I have another?”

“Oh- sure, sweetheart!”

“I'm gonna croak, but… s-sure, fine.”

#ockiss24 #oc kiss week #pokespe fankids #pokespe #hayune (oc) #azure (oc) #rust (oc) #celebi #shiny celebi #pokemon #artists on tumblr

[killing-myself-slowly]

Hey everyone, I’m remi

I was active a lot in 2020-2022. Not sure if you’ll remember me, but I’ve always been a form of “killing myself slowly” finally got the username without any numbers so rip to whoever had it before me lol

I’m 18, turning 19 in March. I have a lot of mental illnesses: CPTSD, some sort of dissociative disorder, bpd, delusional parasitosis, schizoaffective, and a fuck ton of phobias lmao

I was diagnosed with an0rexia in 2019-2021, now I’m diagnosed with ednos or osfed or whatever it’s called now. I’ve been in “recovery” since 2022 so I was forced to leave this side of tumblr. But I don’t give a fuck anymore abt anything. So I’m backkkkk

I’m fat af now, birth control really fucked me up, but I’m off it now so this bitch is gonna be ✨skinni✨again.

I recently r*lasped in sh after being clean for 7 months. Idrc anymore I’m gonna do it and I don’t care what my therapist says

I’m a huge nic fiend haha

I hope to get down to 125 lbs by the end of the year but idk if that’s doable. Im definitely more than 140 lbs rn but idk how much exactly

I hope this blog doesn’t get snapped like my old ones did 😭 I had a pretty large th*nspo blog in 2021 but it got termed. This is prob my 8th or 9th blog since 2020

Anyways I’m just rambling at this point. If you come across my blog just be warned that I talk abt dr*gs, heartbreak and obsession, dysphoria, and Ed topics a lot. If you don’t like it then block me, I don’t want to lose my safe space so please please don’t report me

Stay safe everyone! <3

Also sorry for the censorship, I don’t wanna get snapped

#@n0r3xia #ana trigger #ana rant #anxiety disorder #intrusive thoughts #tw ana diary #ana meal #ana bllog #ana male #ana tricks #anorexcya #anorexies #anoreksik #pro a4a #pro for me not for thee #tw mia #tw ed diet #tw disordered eating #tw restrictive ed #tw ed sheeran #tw ana trigger

[ridiculously-over-obsessed]

RIGHT, I’m watching Rizzoli and Isles and FUCK ME are they the two gayest simps for each other I ever did see???? I’m like... halfway through the final season?? and I have yet to see evidence that convinces me they’re not wives I cannot deal with this, BEST FRIENDS DON’T LOOK AT EACH OTHER LIKE THIS 

#gs rambling again #rizzoli and isles #rizzles #(side note??? love that ship name kldfjlkjfgdf it's so fun) #anyway it's super fucking gay and i cannot with this #queerbaiting at its finest tbh but i'm enjoying it anyway #can't wait to write a r&i au for bechloe and also maybe write a rizzles fic here and there??? would y'all be super mad??? #i still might do it anyway but dlfjgdfkjd

[its-vannah]

Confessions | Part Five | Theseus Scamander x Reader

A/N: This is it, loves! Honestly, this series was so fun to write. It was short and sweet, and that's how I had envisioned it. I hope you all enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Key:

Y/es/n - Your eldest son's name

Y/ys/n - Your youngest son's name

Y/d/n - Your daughter's name

Y/gs/n - Your grandson's name

Y/gd/n - Your granddaughter's name

S/w/n - Son's wife's name

Confessions: Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four |

You and Theseus approached the maternity wing in St. Mungo's, eager to see your firstborn grandchild.

Your oldest son, y/s/n, led to you his wife's room, eager for you to meet his baby. Or rather, babies.

It was a shock to both you and Theseus when y/s/n had chosen to elope with his wife instead of have a traditional wedding. It was even more of a shock when three years later, they shared they were expecting a baby. Who was due in two and a half months.

Although Theseus was initially upset that they kept the pregnancy from the two of you for so long, you managed to calm him down with biscuits and tea, reminding him that they were grown adults who made their own decisions.

So when Theseus walked in and laid eyes on his grandchildren, a bit and a girl, he couldn't hold back the tears.

"They're going to be just as strong as their mum and dad, aren't they?" He cooed as he took his granddaughter into his arms, rocking her gently back and forth while you cradled your grandson.

Your son's wife, s/w/n, smiled as she watched the two of you with them, "They favor the two of you quite a bit, don't they? Then again, y/s/n is a pretty even mix of the both of you. Or at least I think so. Which is why we've decided to incorporate you guys into their names."

Theseus shot his head up, "I don't understand..."

"My parents died when I was very young, and you guys practically raised me when I was a child. Without you guys, I wouldn't have met this fool," She teased, looking up at your oldest son, then back at the twins, "Guys, this is y/gs/n Theseus Scamander and y/gd/n y/n Scamander."

Your heart melted upon hearing their names, and you smiled down at the twins, "Oh, s/w/n... You've made my whole year."

Theseus tried to control his tears, but it was useless, "I'm honored, truly. Thank you."

They nodded and you all enjoyed it the silence for a moment until the door burst open, your second born son and daughter bursting in wearing large grins.

Y/e/s/n glared at them, "Quiet down you two, they're asleep."

Y/d/n's jaw dropped, "They?"

As your children started rambling about the secrecy of the pregnancy, you rest your head against Theseus's shoulder.

"Darling, I think it's my turn to confess." You said in a hushed tone as he met your gaze, "I just fell in love all over again."

Pressing a kiss to your head, you and Theseus nestled into each other, smiling at your children, and now, grandchildren.

#harry potter #harry potter fanfiction #fanfiction #harry potter imagines #theseus scamander x reader #theseus scamander #theseus scamander x y/n #theseus x reader #theseus-scamander #theseus scamander one shot #theseus scamander x you #theseusscamander #fbsod #fbwtft #fbcog #fbatcog #fantastic beasts fic #fantastic beasts oneshots #fantastic beasts imagines #fantastic beasts #callum turner

[psychewritesbs]

Right.

So... apparently there’s fans who believe that Athrun loved Lacus and that is why the memes about Kira stealing girlfriends exist. But I must admit I never got the impression that Athrun ever saw his engagement to Lacus as anything more than a political alliance that was in everybody’s best interest.

And watching GS again I have to say I am doubling down on my headcanon because... well...

Their dynamic is so...

Basically Athrun is so not emotionally available to Lacus... like at all. 

It’s so Scorpio of him to put up emotional barriers any time she tries to get close. Like in the screencap above where he actually refuses her touch and walks away from her.

And I get the sense that in the early episodes of GS Athrun didn’t understand what it meant for him to want to open up to someone and to actually want to be  present in a dynamic with someone. 

His dynamic with Lacus was something that was an expectation set by others after all. So there’s an element of forced interaction between the two of them.

Yes, there’s all the haros he’s given her, so there is definitely a sense of Athrun expressing something about his inner self through the creation of objects that he then gives her. 

It’s just that given the current state of their interactions early on in GS + the fact that their engagement is very likely the result of a desirable political alliance because of their respective fathers, there’s an element of “doing what a good fiancé would do.”

I’ll not deny that he very likely cares for Lacus. I think it’s completely undeniable actually--the haros being evidence of it.

It’s just that in a situation such as theirs where they are initially forced to interact with one another because they are to be married someday, I imagine both Athrun and Lacus came into this engagement thinking “ok this is who I am supposed to marry” instead of “ok this is who I want to marry.”

And so the basis for their dynamic is this forced interaction that they both have to make work because other people have told them it needs to work. Both Athrun and Lacus then brought their own personalities into the dynamic in an attempt to meet this external expectation.

I also have to say that as a fellow water sign, I can’t imagine that Athrun found it satisfying to not feel an emotional resonance to Lacus. I say that because if he felt that emotional resonance, his attitude towards her would be different.

Instead, he appears to be annoyed by her...

Hell, he didn't even seem to want to go on a rescue mission to find her when she disappeared and was picked up by the Archangel.

And even if the marriage wasn’t arranged by their parents (I don’t remember honestly) and Athrun and Lacus are childhood friends and he proposed to her...

He’s kind of a cranky and mean fiancé to her if I’m honest...

I love Athrun but that was a dick thing to say, Lacus was worried about him and he turns his back on her and gives her a nasty answer. 

It doesn’t surprise me that Lacus ended with Kira because, unlike Athrun, Kira was able to meet her emotionally where she was at.

So I think that’s why later on in the story Athrun says that Lacus is his ex-fiancé because he was an idiot. He simply had not realized what he wanted because he was doing what was expected of him.

Living to fulfill other’s expectations without looking into one’s heart is always a recipe for disaster and unhappiness.

I think this is my third time watching GS (I swear just how I only read Soul Eater for Soul and Maka, I only watch GS for Athrun and for asucaga) and it’s really cool to be able to discern Athrun’s character arc at its early stages because part of his growth revolves around overcoming his daddy issues so that he can open up emotionally.

Ah, of course, I have to say that this ramble is inspired and influenced by this fantastic analysis that I found on the topic by someone else who agrees that Athrun cared for Lacus but didn’t love her in the romantic sense.

I have to admit that seeing how Athrun behaves with Lacus and comparing that to how he behaves with Cagalli is a dead giveaway of the state of his relationship with Lacus.

Anyways. 

Is there anyone out there in this fandom that still nerds out about this stuff?!!!!!!!!!

#athrun zala #gundam seed #that's it #I'm a mega nerd #writing essays to justify my otp by nitpicking at tiny little details

[avelera]

My dreamling fic writer flaw is that I'm always gonna have Hob be going by his original name of Robert Gadling in the current lifetime I'm writing, no matter how unrealistic it would be.

(My ADHD-brain felt the need to over-explain this beneath the cut, but the point above stands!)

It does not matter to me if he used it in the previous lifetime or in the previous story I wrote.

Realistically, actually, enough people have the same name and Robert Gadling is common enough that I honestly believe he could just move to another town and get away with it, people really don't notice similar names or assume this person who looks like a younger version of the person they knew is the same person. That's a logical fallacy made up in our monkey brains from the fact we're at the center of our own lives, everyone knows us in them, and our monkey brains can really only conceive of 400 people in our immediate community and everyone beyond that is mostly "other", hence why people have statistically bonkers beliefs about their likelihood of winning the lottery and stuff y'all, 1/1,000,000 is so inconceivably vast but our brains can really only handle the idea of 1/400 other people being out there ANYWAY.

... But regardless, I just do not have the creativity or rather the creative interest in coming up with another "Robert Gadling"-sounding name likely Bob Gadler or whatever, except in passing as something he once used in the past and EVEN THEN I feel dumb trying to come up with new variations .

More to the point, from a Doylist perspective, all the audience has on the page is the character's name and pronouns to visualize them. When I say "Hob opened the door" you have a mental image. When I say "Robbie Gadler opened the door" you will probably have a different mental image. Given that writing characters as in-character as possible and having my prose be visual for the readers is a major priority for me, the last thing I need is for a different mental image to pop into the reader's head because I gave a named character a different name, even if he would realistically have a different name at that point.

It's also one reason I didn't switch Dream's pronouns or give him a wildly different name in "Come live with me". The minute I write "Dream looked around and then she opened the door" I have an allergic reaction. It doesn't feel like Dream anymore, even to write him that way. Heck, I have trouble visualizing the character and staying in his head and aligning his actions with stuff he would do when I switch even something as small as pronouns. It's why Dream is referred to as Morfea only sparingly when the characters speak aloud, or to remind readers what Dream currently looks like, which is the "Morfea" identity who uses "she/her" pronouns because that character does and should feel slightly off center from what the true "Dream" feels like because it's not his identity, it's not how he would choose to present himself if he could avoid it, and it disturbs Hob too because he struggles with recognizing Morfea as Dream when look at "her" as much as I feel like I and if I do it right the reader should fee like Morfea isn't "quite" Dream, the word isn't quite Dream's name when reading it and visualizing it from the page.

ANYWAY, writerly ramblings aside, yeah. "This Rough Magic" "Come live with me" and "Giving Sanctuary" all give reasons why Hob is currently going with the name Robert Gadling in his present life (GS doesn't really bother because as a vagrant, no one was really asking Hob anyway, but...) and if I set a longer fic in 2022 you'd miraculously discover that Hob has cycled back to using Robert Gadling again just in time for the story to take place because I just point blank simply refuse to fuck around with that shit lol

#maggie's writing progress #giving sanctuary bts #arranged marriage au dreamling #occultist hob fic #1689 fic

[mareenavee]

For the ask game (if you haven't received these already) 💖

7. A popular fandom opinion that you agree with

16. One of your favourite tropes 

18. Something you initially did not like but came around to

Hello, hello! :D AH Thank you for being here!! And for these lovely questions.

Fandom Positivity asks from this game here.

7. A popular fandom opinion that you agree with.

Let's talk about something that, in some circles, may not be actually a popular opinion LOL because like, in the tag, some people certainly have problems with this situation. BUT. But. Art has always pulled forward things like this.

Let's talk about

✨Messy People Being Messy People ✨

Or, nuance in reading characters in TES.

I am not a fan of hard good vs evil in reads of media so when I see a large section of a fandom discussing nuance, my little heart is just so happy. It's because as a writer, I find the best kinds of heroes are often the ones that make all kinds of terrible mistakes and have to resolve them. And the best kinds of villains are the ones who are doing what they're doing because it is, to them, the only way forward.

Not everything has to be cut and dry, right? And I think TES does a fantastic job in a lot of ways throughout the series of showing that kind of nuance.

Just for an example...hmm. Yes, okay! Morrowind gives us Divayth Fyr. He's QUESTIONABLE on a good day, but how many good days are there really in Morrowind? Not many. Not many at all tbh. He helps the main character, sure, but there is just so much fucked up shit happening in that tower and in House Telvanni to begin with. So nuance. Nuance. And the fact that not everything has to be surface level.

Depth of character is important, both in the source material and in what we, as fanfiction writers, bring to the table in our own work. How do we show these mistakes? How do we redeem characters who need it? How does one come back from certain kinds of mistakes? Can they ever? Why or why not?

I think there's a certain kind of catharsis in analyzing text in this fashion and/or reading more deeply and so...people who are as in love with the nuance of TES's characters and worldbuilding as I am are always welcome here.

16. One of your favourite tropes.

ooooh. I love this question! Mostly because tropes can be such good tools! Hmm. It's difficult to pin down one favorite. But I think...

Yes let me ramble on about @paraparadigm's Always Read the Fine Print for two tropes I quite enjoy her hot take on.

The first is Modern Girl In Skyrim / Isekai. I haven't really dove into the deep end of the trope, but the way Para has accomplished worldbuilding for Vera on TWO SIDES is fucking phenomenal. I am as invested in Vee's difficulties in Tamriel as I am in her past, her version of earth and the absolute t r a g e d y it was. Like. I don't want to give away any spoilers but holy hell, was it amazing. I'm rereading it now for the past timelines for ~clues~ in her sequel.

Next is Enemies to Friends to Lovers. This is specifically interesting to me because I don't usually see all three stages in full, or that slow change from each stage. And as it carries into GS, the nature of their relationship is just so fricken nuanced (that word again lol) and I just. I love reading it. I loved to see the entire progression so far. I can't say it enough.

18. Something you initially did not like but came around to.

Something, or someone?

Ulfric Stormcloak was one of my least favorite characters in Skyrim LOL. I think part of it was just the whole situation in Windhelm. The entire situation. He's supposed to be running the place and from the get go we get hella BS, we get a murder mystery with a serial killer on the loose and the guards just...what are they doing?? We get racisms said guards look away from, we get dilapidated slums in which they store actual people out of sight out of mind, and Ulfric is spending all the coin for ... a war? When his people are very clearly suffering? (Granted I do understand some of his point about the war. But the entire situation with the civil war is fucked tbh.)

That is but one read of this man, tbh. And I do, also, write him as a villain in World.

But you know who doesn't? And who shows a whole other facet to this particular character? @thequeenofthewinter. Oh here we go with more nuance :> I love it, I love it. Let me, for a second, plug her fic By the Light of the Moon, which is some of the first exposure I had to her work outside of WIP posts!

Here's a bit I loved about this piece:

If the Jarl is honest with himself, he has been awake more than he would like to be at this strange, in-between hour, and he has grown to both love and loathe its coming and going. On one hand, it is quiet, and it brings with it a type of clarity which helps him conduct his responsibilities in peace, away from the daily bother of the far too fast-paced cadence of his life. And on the other, well, he is tired, both physically and mentally. But this is his job. This is his duty. This is what is required of him in order to keep the people of the land he loves so fervently happy. He puts them and their needs first. His needs are always second because there is no time for Ulfric Stormcloak to be happy. It is very rarely that he indulges himself in thinking about his own happiness. I don’t deserve it, so why would I dare to dream? These types of wishes are for those who have more time on their hands and much less responsibility. When have I ever been allowed to be happy? He turns his head to look at the sleeping form behind him. If there was one thing— Ulfric shakes his head, chasing away the thought as he swirls a glass whiskey and drains it. He has no time for these types of thoughts right now. He has work to do. He turns back to the paperwork on his desk, watching the dark ink of his quill moving fluidly over the parchment he is currently looking over, a request for more supplies to be sent to the Snow Quarter. Ulfric sighs.

I just really love seeing the way things drift through this man's head. I love to see the anxiety. I love this sort of valor, of wanting to do better but already doing the best he can. It's so different from the main source material. But it's also possible. It's also possible. And that's the sort of nuance I do love, that he can be read in so many different ways. I used to dislike him. Hate him even for a myriad reasons. But now I find him relatively sad, except when I read Winter's work. Then I love him lol.

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