#guess i need to write some myself but honestly i dont have any ideas

[twomennakedinahottub]

why is it that bunny is such a universally beloved ship and yet it's so hard to find any really good fics where they're the main focus?

like there's a handful of them sure but for the most part the best fics are all style or creek and just have bunny as a bg couple

#guess i need to write some myself but honestly i dont have any ideas #im just kinda tired of using the filters to get what i want in a bunny fic and seeing something that should be a perfect fit #except the main ship is style or creek #like i love style and creek dont get me wrong #but im here for the bunny #*cue mr nezzer's bunny song*

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

diiary 2/25/2023

okayyy i been needing to write a longform post for a while! just to chronicle some thoughts in a cohesive way. & getting straight to the point: i'm realizing there is very little, if ANY payoff, to being an artist online. i'm not talking about money. im talking about the way it's like, the more ppl start to see you as an "artist", the more they feel like ur some kind of public figure they can lash out at w no repercussions. ur humanity is just wiped from their minds. i don't have some huge following by any means but for ME its gotten big since in the past i've been a serial deleter. usually at 800 followers im gone.

i love being creative & sharing for the sake of sharing but i deeply fear any kind of spotlight. since i came back onto tumblr i made the pledge to myself not to delete my account if it started growing but now im having second thoughts!! well i'll never delete this account cus im too sentimental but part of me just wants to stop posting in the ways i tend to do. like maube im too forthcoming & need to slink back into the shadows a bit. because i don't want to stop contributing art & music to the world but idk how to protect my heart.

like it's so crazy to me that artists are expected to b these idealistic icons of everything the viewer represents & if they make a single mistake its like fuck we better launch a pUBLIC HARASSMENT CAMPAIGN!! genuinely like, how are people supposed to want to put themselves out there when the climate is so hostile? it has got me feelin rly nihilistic i must admit. trying to put nice stuff into the world shld not be generating drama for me, especially when it's just my hobby & not even my "career".

for a while ive had no idea what to do for work or how to generate income in a way that works for me but honestly? im gonna bite the bullet & do some coding bootcamps so i can try n get a remote job doing some tech shit & making a fat salary. i guess i never rly considerd it before cus all the silicon valley stuff susses me out but idk. im naturally really good at code + my only real dream in life is to be able to support others & redistribute wealth. like ive never had anything of my own to share but if i could actually do this & become the secure+charitable person i wish to be, i think i cld finally have some inner peace/sense of fulfillment. plus i cld still be a recluse ^_^

ok well i guess that my diary entry for now. im rly grateful to everyone on this site who is genuine & respectful towards me. i am really enjoying all my creative projects right now & i just dont want it to ever stop being fun just because the internet doesnt want it to be fun for me. i seriously wonder why artists are the number one targets right now, i mean not to get too conspiratorial but like, this is exactly what the CIA wants :/ wahtever....i have no agenda other than plur. but yeah, i might just start to distance myself more from posting anything other than my work. we'll see. just kno that i dnt want it to b this way. ilu guys

[socialbunny]

15 questions for 15 mutuals :3

i was tagged by @annieshowell, @obsoletepixels, @goatskickin, @shitysimp, @sicksadsim and @jsasimmer <3333333333 thanks guys ily >:3

are you named after anyone? no, my mom had two names she wanted to pick for me and she and my dad settled on the one i have. but she was alsoo watching this movie in the hospital and one of the characters has my exact birth name so i think that cemented the name lol. and my name dirk, i named myself after dirk dreamer bc he's so me fr

when was the last time you cried? can't remember exactly

do you have kids? No I don't need that that in my life rn

do you use sarcasm a lot? I dooo, never in a mean way tho bc i feel like using sarcasm to mask how u feel abt some1 is pussy fr. i love joking around and poking fun and just being silly and weird and chillin like? irl personality is hit or miss with people. ive been told i talk back too much or always have something to say like? 😭

what sports do you play/have you played? when i was in elementary school i was in a dance group (terrible at it i have no rhythm at all it's honestly embarrassing) and when i was in high school i was in a tennis class (which was a PE alternative where we honestly never did shit tbh, towards the end of the school year we'd just be in the computer lab most of the time) and i considered joining the actual team but i also sucked at it 😭 and i really don't like doing team shit esp sports bc people start acting weird and i start getting real agitated.

what's the first thing you notice about other people? like physical i guess their outfit and hair and other shit i wear my glasses forr but shittttt, like just talking to someone i can catch their vibe really quick. just the way someone talks can tell you a lot abt them

eye color? Brown

scary movies or happy endings? it really depends on what the movie is

any special talents? nothing in particular i can think of. i think anything i do i'm really good at but not especially good at you know. i used to be told i'm really good at drawing but i was told this by the type of ppl who say they cant draw a stick figure so. take that as u will

where were you born? Texas 🤠

what are your hobbies? I love drawing and writing and reading and all the shit in that sphere of hobbies in theory 😭 been in a slump lately and doing shit seems harder than it needs to be. I love watching animation analysis and critiques, and listening to those 3hr vids of ppl talking abt shit i will never watch or care about while i do other bullshit. i really like making renders right now it gives me something to do without getting distracted too much. i also love playing really old shitty video games that have pages of cut content on tcrf

do you have any pets? No :( never had any pets when i was a kid either bc my mom had a whole bunch of dogs as a child and she didnt fw the idea of having any more animals in her house

how tall are you? 5'4 :)

fave subject in school? I love English (predictably I guess 😭)

dream job? i'd love to work in the animation industry in any way possible <3 or work in tv in general. probably have my own cartoon some day but thats such a stretchhhhhhhh i cant even work on my sims fanfiction or any oc shit LMAO. if not then i'd accept nothing less than a job where i don't have to talk to a lot of people and get payed billions of dollars to do bullshit

i dont have 15 ppl to tag since i do ask games so slowlyyyyy but i'll tag @despairoftheendless, @junkskoer, @faghotline and @hyperthinks !!! <3

#chat

[loveyourownsmiilee]

see i just dont understand why people are so upset with this ep? we got such amazing content all throughout and honestly.. i think they made it very clear since the beginning of the season that both boys need to work on themselves before anything happens... which is Exactly what they're doing!! buck hasn't been apart of any of chris' big milestones and thats totally fine because he's still There. they're all still a family and still as close as ever and imo it made sense to end this ep with buck joining hen and denny because of how much closer they've grown throughout 6a! buddie is coming and i am so so sure of it.. we just need to be patient

You know I’m just gonna answer this bc I agree and I have a few things to say myself. Buck and Eddie are going on separate journeys this season that are somehow paralleling each other. The journeys aren’t necessarily going to cross anytime. But it’s there and it’s needed. Both men are not in any mind space to get into a relationship at this time. Eddie is doing better sure, but I don’t think he’s fully grasped the idea of having feelings for his best friend. He has had years of repression that he may have to uncover eventually. There’s a reason everything about today was so pointed and so honed in on fantasies and realities bla bla. Buck also needs to go through this journey and somehow come out stronger on the other side. I don’t know the reason for the sperm donor storyline but I am choosing to believe it’s needed to be a part of a bigger story. I have been patient for years and I will choose to stay that way. There’s A LOT there that indicates Buck and Eddie getting together is an inevitability. Yes we’re seeing distance this season and yes it’s upsetting a lot of us. But I think there’s gotta be some reason as to why it’s being deliberately done all season so far. Now perhaps they’re gonna bring them back stronger than ever second half of the season. Idk I don’t write for the show. All I do know is even in tonight’s episode, it was such a CHOICE for Buck to react the way he did to Christopher having his first crush. That isn’t the same way Hen or Chim reacted. So the deliberate difference in his reaction is very telling imo. Others may not see it how I see it, but no regular “friend of a parent” would react that way upon finding out said friends child had a crush. That’s very much how a parent would. So like I know we gotta be patient but just so many ppl are losing faith and giving up bc of the lack of buddie interactions. I guess I’m just looking at things in a different lens but it is what it is. I’m choosing to have patience and hope for the time being, even if some are over it. Which is totally fine but that’s what I’m choosing to do.

#juju answers #anon asks #buddie #911 spoilers

[wifegideonnav]

VASKA. i need to know your opinions of her

VISPA 🥰

First impression

ok so going in i pretty much knew i was gonna have Opinions on her due to 1) the comparisons to ianthe and 2) her general notoriety. so i kinda tried to hold off on forming an impression until i got more info. honestly i think my biggest first impression was "that is NOT how i thought she would talk" lmaooo

obviously the way she's introduced you kinda go "well she sucks" but i love girls who suck so i was like theres gotta be more here. and i was right.

Impression now

babygirl. lmao. i mean i could literally go on for thousands of words with what i think about her but short version is that she is one of the best written hs characters and an incredible portrayal of a mentally ill teenage girl with an extensive history of being abused. she's my morally grey queen. my "god forbid women do anything" champ. failwoman of all time. yeah!!!!!!!!

Favorite moment

the vriska/(vriska) convo because i love pain. but i also love the entire saga of her going god-tier because lets be honest: letting an old enemy beat you almost to death with her bare robofists and then communicating with your "it's complicated" by mind-controlling him to write messages with your blood, begging him to finish the job is. cool as fuck. also terezi: remem8er. :(

Idea for a story

ok i made a like 3 note post saying this ages ago and never actually expanded on it but: vriska <> rose. i have put SO much thought into this. short version, they have both a lot in common and some pretty interesting foiling. on the surface, they're both fairly rash and destructive which would typically suggest that they would not be good moirails. BUT the ways in which they're destructive etc are fairly opposite: rose simmers, fumes, withdraws, over-intellectualizes, etc, whereas vriska is explosive, up-front, lashing outwards, acting without thinking. so rose pulls vriska back, makes her think, forces her to be introspective, and vriska spurs rose forward, prevents her from getting caught up in her own thoughts, makes her actually act.

i think rose would be very drawn to vriska from a psychology goldmine perspective, and i truly believe that vriska would benefit from having someone to talked to who did not grow up in alternian society, who can validate/explain how fucked up everything was, and especially someone she doesn't have history with, who's also strong enough to see the darkness in her without flinching.

also in the retcon timeline its as canon as anything retcon!meteorstuck that vriska is the reason rose is able to fix her drinking problem. which im fairly sure is something that any troll would view as being pale as fuck. anyway i could go on and on about this but this is already so long and i did say short version 💀

so i just think a meteorstuck fic where all 6 of the crew are forced to go through some actual on-page character development with vriska and rose at the center would be. good.

Unpopular opinion

honestly i dont think i have any super unpopular opinions about her? liking her is already unpopular enough lmao. so i guess i'll go with: shes a lesbian <3

Favorite relationship

vrisrezi. also my favorite relationship of the comic in general. something something soulmates. physically restraining myself from going off about this.

Favorite headcanon

im not sure this entirely counts as a headcanon but i love the idea of her slowly abandoning her spider/8 theme as she gets older and heals. like if you think about it it's pretty fucked up that her entire brand is based on 1) the guardian who would've killed her at any point in her childhood if she didn't do enough murder to satisfy her and/or 2) just the general role she was forced into based on her horrific society

#thanks for sending this omfg #i love the internet you get obsessed with something/a character and people go yes queen tell us more #op #asks #hs

[ihavetheblues96]

I woke up deciding to better myself for the trillionth time :)

So I woke up today deciding I'll better myself for the trillionth time. Now before you think this is some enlightening post of hope and self recreation. Do not. You'll be completely disappointed. Sorry because I have no fucking idea what I'm doing. I have all the reasons and some motivation I just don't know where to go from here and I need an outlet. So maybe we can figure this out together or most likely I'll be here writing to myself and that's fine too. I always wanted to be a writer but that didn't happen, I also wanted to be a marine biologist but being honest with myself sounds like a good step in this. so today my thing is honesty? or self-honesty. I hate complicated things I'm completely forgetful and honestly wouldn't have made it through college or afforded it and most likely would be burnout. I want a lot of things and dream about the things I want to, see, and do, and have fantasies of made-up colors and adventure scenes in my head but what's real, and what is an attempt from my mind trying to distract me from my depression? I have no reason to be completely depressed. I am clinically diagnosed not that anyone knows. well, now you know. I hate medicines that make me feel fogged up I can't think like that maybe that is the point though. I've made it these 20something years so I'm sure I don't need them too badly. By the way, I am clinically diagnosed not just whining. I feel like I need to clarify so I don't get chewed out. But why is my head like this? my life is not terrible I have 3 loving kids that keep me going a husband I love and 2 real friends. My family is pretty fucked up and complicated but I can't blame that for myself or my brain structure. I guess I'm just fucked up and that's the fine cause aren't we all in some way or form? My actions and thought are completley diffrent from each other. im overly sensitive and my biggest critic as well as my biggest bully. Do i hate myself or do i hate everything i dont let myself become? i want to be better and become better. to be happy. I guess this a self introduction I am code name:Blues. objective to be happy. lets see if i can and lets see if i can do any of my goals today. Be productive. Clean. Play with my 1yr old. Do something for yourself. Its 8:01AM wish me luck

#what is our mission? #idk what to tag this as #what am i doin with my life #who am i #self improvement #can I be better? #mental health

[banana-milk-enthusiast]

beat Forspoken, and while I probably will write an in-depth review down the line cuz i have many thoughts, I'm just going to pointform my basic thoughts while it's still fresh.

PROS

Great designs all around, the Tantas look so breathtaking with their extravagant designs and yet it doesn't take away from their world, it fits just right in. Absolutely love it.

Good world building most questions i had were answered either through the main story or extra archive stuff. Nothing felt too weird yknow

Gameplay gameplay gameplay. The magic system is literally amazing. I dont think I've had this much fun fighting in an rpg in a long time. Theres so much fun variety so you can focus on whats comfortable for you while also looking sick as fuck. Have i mentioned how good the battle system is cuz i avoid playing mage in every game because its such a slog but here its so fast paced and hits hard. Perfect for me.

The music is soooo good, I love the main theme and find myself humming it literally all the time.

Great graphics but maybe a lil too many particle effects but otherwise really pretty.

The story is technically a pro. Like its good, not bad, not great, just good. Basically something you'd find in the YA Fantasy section, thats the kinda quality it was. Which isn't a insult I did enjoy the story and characters. It just needed polish, fix up the dialogue and trim some of the story fat and i wouldn't have any complaints tbh. Probably would do better as a book series tho ngl, not sure what game format would have saved it.

Shoutout to the accessibility options. I'm glad more games are including these. I'll never understand complaints about them though, like just dont use them if you dont want/need to thats it.

ALMOST FORGOT THE COOLEST THING. THE NAILS. I'm sorry but the idea of using nail art to inscribe magic runes to give you buffs is the coolest fucking idea ever, why has this concept not been used till now. We always see rune tatoos or written on gear and stuff im fantasy media but this is such a neat ideaaaa and im forever thankful for it. Her capes are cool too I guess, with there was more variety rather than recolors tho. Kinda wish we could also get different outfits for her tho. Those jeans probably chafe.

CONS

THE OPEN WORLD IS SO BIG FOR NO GODDAMN REASON. I honestly wish this wasn't an open world game tbh, its so unnecessary. Halfway through the game, i got so frustrated and ignored everything that wasn't story points cuz getting everywhere takes so damn long, especially early on when you dont have fancy parkour or stamina. Easily its biggest fault for me.

I understand they thought it'd do way better than what happened but planning out a story as a trilogy in the gaming industry is not a smart move. I've yet to play the dlc so idk if we get closure but the loose ends werent a great way for the game to end.

Oh, the dialogue. Its easily one of the gamest weakest points. Like the type of dialogue i was writing in my original stories when i was 13 (not that ive gotten any better tbh). Basically, it's not what you expect from such a vaunted company. Frey is great when shes excited or angry, which is most of the time, but occasionally, they'll hit me with the cheesiest line I've heard in years, and idk how to handle it. Like the stuff she says in the final chapter is honestly so robotic, there is no natural flow present. Which is a pity cuz the actress was killing it tbh, like she definitely carried the lines with her emotion. Unfortunately, it couldn't save them. Like if it was something they dropped on ps3 or wii, it honestly would have done fine. What i mean to say is the dialogue is very outdated in this age of gaming. im actually surprised how out of touch it feels. Especially since otherwise its a solid game all around. Regarding Cuff and Frey banter you do have the option to make it less frequent or just turn it off but i never really found them annoying regardless.

Maybe its just me but the control scheme feels so weird, the games makes you feel like you should be gliding most of the time but holding O while spaming all those trigger buttons feels so awkward to me. But then again I also didnt care enough to change the control scheme so.

#migght come back and edit this as i think of stuff #can genuinely say i like the game though absolutely worth the 30 dollars i got it on sale for any more is a robbery #will probably come back to this when i finish the dlc to see if my mind changed on anything #forspoken #forspoken spoilers #long post #cannot post break on mobile so sorry to ya'll timeline

[peri]

So i have a question about polyamory. To preface ive def considered it and have wished that i could be secure and comfortable enough to try it at least once. I always thought i could bc when i was a teen i used to write myself in a poly relationship where i (a girl) dated a girl and she also dated another partner, and i always liked that, but nowadays with my current partner, we've talked about it and i know she wants to maybe try it, but everytime i think about her so much as going on a date with/kissing someone else i realize im too jealous of a person. I guess my question in all this is; is there any way to warm myself up to polyamory and can i learn to be ok with it, or are some people just naturally poly/monogamous like how people are naturally gay/straight?

honestly, my fiancee felt the same way when i first brought up that i was polyam / wanted to try polyamory. she always thought she was too jealous of a person, which is a completely valid feeling. but what got us through that was constant communication and reassurance when needed.

what i mean by that is; constant communication: anytime you start feeling jealous, talk it out with your partner. bottling it up isnt a good idea, and itll cause a strain on your relationship, so dont try that. reassurance: ask her whatever you need to feel better. ask for reassurance that she wouldnt find a new person better than you, that she'd end up leaving you for them, etc. whatever's making you insecure, try getting reassurance from her about it.

but really, the best you can warm up to it is experience, unfortunately. my fiancee was still pretty insecure throughout my first second partner, but she found it helpful that id always reassure her when she needed it and i always communicated with her and gave her just as much if not more affection than usual. understanding and patience is key. nowadays she doesnt really get jealous anymore with new partners coz she knows she can feel secure with me, through experience.

also im not sure if some people are naturally either poly or monogamous (ive always felt it naturally but thats just me), but i know people can learn to be ok with it.

wishing u luck <3 if u need anything else, feel free to ask and ill do my best to help!

#peri talks to gems #unidentified gem #im not sure if this is clear coz im having some brain fog but i hope it helps even a little #to know people Can learn to be ok with it even if they themselves arent polyam

[twiixr4kidz]

could you possibly give out some writing advice? Cause im tyring to write a fanfic and i dont know how to start it and when i do start it i second guess myself.. so any writing tips would be helpful (: thanks <33 - a super cool anonymous person

i would love to!

writing is hard sometimes. it's easy to get burnt out, to lose inspiration, and to get writers block. try not to stress yourself out about it; it genuinely happens to the best of us

if you need inspiration, read something. DON'T PLAGIARIZE PLAGIARISM IS BAD but definitely look through fics and books and prompts to get a better idea of what you want to write about

CHARACTER WIKIS. they are my saving grace. i often read through them while writing about characters i either don't know much about or haven't written for them in a while

second guessing is honestly gonna get you nowhere. when i first started writing fics, i would sit there and write and re-write everything and nothing ever sounded right. just remember that it's not going to be perfect. take a deep breath, write your heart out, and THEN read through what you have when you're finished and tweak what you don't like!

ask other people to read your writing for you (if you're comfortable with that). 9 times outta 10, the other person will be able to spot things like spelling errors, wonky punctuation, etc. that you missed

good grammar is super important. i know that might sound obvious, but if people are reading your writing and you have a bunch of spell errors, commas in places they don't belong, misuing other punctuation, etc. it's a big turn off to people. you can have an amazing storyline, but people won't wanna read it because the grammar isn't good. that doesn't go to say that occasional spelling errors and other minor mistakes are a bad thing (because honestly, i make spelling mistakes all the time) but just be wary!

thesaurus.com can be your best friend and your worst enemy. sometimes when you're writing, you accidentally use the same word like 20 bajillion times. and then you can't think of another word, so you resort to thesaurus.com. you're either going to get a really good word, or something that just does not make sense in the context so be careful

DESCRIPTION AND DIALOGUE. two of the most important pieces of any writing in my opinion. descriptions help to set the scene. it paints a picture in your brain of the sounds, the sights, the textures, the tastes, and the smells. it gives your writing depth. as for dialogue, it is like THE most significant part. interactions between the characters you're writing about, the characters and the reader, etc. is so significant to fics (and other bigger pieces of writing in general).

this kinda goes off of the character wiki tip, but make sure the character you're writing for is a character you know well. you don't want them to be OOC.

you're going to develop a style. like specific things about your writing that people notice. make sure it's something fun an individual! it could be the good descriptions, funny dialogue, prevalent use of semi-colons or hyphens or parentheses, some kind of rhetorical device like similes or metaphors or whatever. tiny things like that can make your writing an even better experience for the reader. just don't force it, yknow!

don't make things go to fast. i've seen fics where it went from the characters meeting to them doing the dirty, having kids, and getting married within three paragraphs. taking things too slow can make them boring, so you're going to have to find a happy medium.

i think this is all i have for specific tips as of right now, so i hope they help!! good luck writing :)

#writing tips

[crownshattered-moved]

|| A little break from Kira, since if I’m going to write Al Haitham, I need to talk about a few things/thoughts about him and how I will write him...I haven’t finished the quest yet (to avoid spoilers, I’ll be as vague as possible as I say I’m on my way to see Nahida) and I won’t include any spoilers just in case!! But yeah, so I’m not completely caught up, so things are subject to change!!

First off, I can already tell his muse will be VERY finicky. I will be VERY selective in writing him. I don’t have any tertiary muses, but if I did, he would be one of them XDD I think my confidence and ability in writing him will grow over time, but for now, his muse is VERY weak. This also means I may take him off the blog after writing him some if I just don’t feel it..!! I doubt this will happen, but be aware of this!!

He is SUPER smart, smarter than even Kira, and in some cases I will have to metagame with him!! I will always talk to you about it first, but don’t be surprised if he easily finds out a lot of details about your muse. Also, any threads will need a LOT of plotting since he will figure out what to do very fast. I need to know all of the details, even in threads that involve a mystery, bc he will definitively figure it all out quickly. 

There are SO many theories around this man, and I’m picking and choosing which ones to use. For instance, I WILL write him as the reincarnation of the Scarlet King. I honestly love that headcanon uwu.... However, I’m also writing him as an otherwise normal human being. He isn’t some other creature (but i MAY change my mind) and has the normal lifespan of a human as well. He’s in his mid twenties.

I’m debating on whether or not he knew Nahida before or not... But I doubt it. I LOVE the idea of him being kind of like her familiar, but my portrayal won’t be that clear cut. Idk what happens after this storyline, but I’m guessing Nahida will be free. At that point, he will most likely take care of her. But he isn’t a familiar like Yae Miko--he only recently met her. However, I will headcanon that they have a VERY strong bond even upon first meeting bc, like I said, I accept the Scarlet King reincarnation theory~

That’s it for now, but I may add more things later!!

Also... If you guys know where to get any Al Haitham icons, PLEASE TELL ME!! I DONT WANT TO DO ALL THE ICONING MYSELF....

#| ᶦ’ᵛᵉ ᶠᶦⁿᵃˡˡʸ ᶠᵒᵘⁿᵈ ᵃ ᵖˡᵃᶜᵉ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ʰᵉᵃᵛᵉⁿ ʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᶦ’ᵐ ˢᵃᶠᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵒᵘⁿᵈ [ooc] |

[juneviews]

youtube anon here!! omg thank you!! sorry im so late with this i was busy bc deepavali + wanted to make sure id thought of everything to ask ahsjdjdkf and ofc if you decide not to reply to this i understand as well, so really no pressure at all, okay? 😊 what software do you use to edit your videos? what made you decide to start making videos? do your videos get taken down bc of copyright? how do you deal if/when that happens? what are some of your favourite kinds of videos to make, and why? how long do you usually spend on a video (idea conception, filming, editing etc)? and since i know you from this blog, even before you started making videos: do you have any advice about putting out content in fandom? bc you make gifs + write + make videos and like. idk im just wondering if you ever feel shy about posting? (not that you should bc for real everything you put out is great- including all the off pictures you keep posting… thank you for that btw i dont have social media so thats the only way i get to see his beautiful face) i guess it sounds stupid but IM really really shy and the thought of putting anything out there for anyone at all to see makes me want to hide forever sdjfhskjg but like. i kinda want to make video edits too. mostly for myself as like a visual journal thing? like its a personal project. but i thought okay since im putting in so much effort why not share it with other people too? and id love if people discovered new music + shows bc of me yknow? but yeah anyway like. how do you deal with it if you ever feel that way? thats all i can think of for now, wow this got LONG. i hope its not too much rip. and again thank you for letting me ask you these questions ❤️

hi, OOF you really had QUESTIONS lmaooooo

I use the free software shortcut to edit my videos. I hate it & it's very slow which makes my already least favorite part of the video making, editing, even worse (:

I decided to start making videos bc 1) I saw a gap in the youtube market where people who talked about bl either did reactions or short analyses without showing their faces. 2) there were many topics that were easier to tackle in a longer video than a blog post. 3) if I were to be able to make a living off of youtube (which will not happen but wish I had known that then lol) it would solve most of my problems & allow me to combine pretty much all of my interests at once.

my videos ABSOLUTELY get taken down bc of copyright, if you look through my community page I've talked about that many times.

when that happens, I always appeal but most of the time it doesn't work, which means I spent 30+ hours MINIMUM on something that will never see the light of day (: it's in big part why I'm switching to thailand focused content instead of thai series content tbh, it was very heavy on my mental health for a hobby that takes so many hours out of me every week. not worth it.

my favorite kinds of videos to film are definitely my ranking ones or reaction ones bc they demand very little preparation & scripting and are just about me rambling for 2 hours, but my ranking ones take FOREVER to edit so on that part any non scripted video is the worst haha

the time spent on a video really depends, but usually the writing of a video takes me between 3 to 6 hours, the filming takes me 2 hours & the editing takes me a good 20 hours (funny bc I hate editing so much lmaooooo.) but some videos have only taken me 10 hours (short reactions), while others have taken me well above 50 (longer commentary ones.)

about putting out content in fandom, you're right in saying that I've basically done every kind of content LMAO. honestly the faceless one like giffing, writing fics, making fanvids, etc. is easy? like it needs to come from a drive of wanting to do it but bc your personal image isn't really attached to it, I feel like the trial & error is easier? if you wanna stop tomorrow no one will really care? but when I started making videos that demand significantly more time & that have my face clearly attached to it, that's when the doubts started creeping in. I never feel shy bc I just haven't been shy in a while, but I do feel ashamed to talk to irl people about my videos bc they aren't successful & I've invested over 2 years of my life in them so it's just kinda pathetic LMAO. but about you being shy, you can focus on the fact that it's the internet? like if you really don't want anyone to know it's your fanvids, create a new username & post them under it, bc then literally NO ONE will know it's you. to be honest it's taken me years but I've gotten rid of the notion of "cringe" and "embarrassment" out of my vocabulary. just do what makes you happy bc people will hate on you no matter what. I just know I personally want to live my life authentically & not filter it just so MAYBE I'm not as hated. so yeah, I hope you DO get to create the fanvids you want & good luck with that! thanks for the support as well, it means a lot <3

xxx

#answers #video making #those were really good questions #you should've been there for my q&a haha

[lostacelonnie]

Truly. School festival? Wild i dont think ive ever been to one of those. Not sure mine ever had them but im glad you had so much fun! Its not completely finished yet i get that done next week but its very cool i love it. I have like. 12 piercings now with still more i want. They were a slippery slope from getting two to all the ones i have & want but i hope you're able to get some in the future. I think i like my eyebrow & lip piercings best. Thats a wild difference damn. Its been sunny mostly cool days right now but we keep going from warmer days to rain/snow warnings here. Oh hell yeah congrats! Strange but positive is the best combination to have honestly. Id also love to check out carnivale if that still happens in italy or mardi gras over here down in louisiana if i had time. Just love the idea of big celebration with cool stuff. Oh sparkle is quantum support with action advance & crit damage (?) boost. She's real good for seele or many teams really. I got archeron! Just need to get her light cone but damn was she cool in the 2.1 story. Not gonna spoil if you havent played through yet. Congrats on your archeron pulls! I think i might save for topaz now & get adventurine later? I do like how he plays but ill grab him later i don't think i have use for him yet. Swarm is so annoying i gave up on it for now terrible fuckin enemies. Mood what set are you usin on archeron? I love her talent too just. Insta enemy kill what a time saver. Really did give her a great & interesting kit. Hm ill have to continue & see how complex she is. Been busy with other games & like. Cosmodyssey & the bartender event in star rail. Oh thats fun i love it keep doin that. Ohh congrats on the writing energy!

yeah school festivals are also pretty rare over here but [thanks to a complete coincidence, i didnt even Know we had those] i ended up in a school that actually organizes one JSDKFJG. would tell you what it is but i feel doxxing my school on tumblr.com is not a terribly good idea. AND HEY THATS AWESOME!!! also yeah i heard it Really Is Like That with piercings shdjfg all my friends said so at least. tbh the only reason i dont have any yet is bc when i was the age when everyone gets their first one [around 8-9 among my peers] i was very physically active and didnt wanna deal with the whole healing process while trying to not get the shit beaten out of me in aikido. so thanks!!! i REAAALLLY wanna get snake bites theyre So cool. AND FOR REAL LIKE???? can the weather Please decide what it wants to do with its life. it was literally raining the whole day today and yesterday i cannot keep dealing with this. esp since today was my first day back to school after the easter break so waiting for my bus was just. miserable. And my classbestie didnt come to school today so i guess i cant have nice things. Oh Well. and for real for real im actually so glad my school doesnt seem to have a single normal person in it because everything is just so much more. chill. and the gossip is Insane i tell you. ever since this year i befriended a bunch of cool alt girls my life had been so much more interesting because they know like everything about everyone. and oh good luck with all that!! i totally agree, tho i definitely have to be mentally prepared for such occasions. Due To The Autism. but yeah theyre SO fun. and oh that sounds like. a very good kit actually. might get her in the future but ahh i still cant quite decide who im gonna pull for next..... only time can tell i suppose. CONGRATS ON GETTING MEI #3!!!!! i maxed out her talents already [thank god for how little time that calyx takes] so i just need to get relics for her now. Auugghhhg. but i decided im just gonna wait for the triple drop event to save myself some sanity and am currently focusing on ruan mei's talents rn since i run her with acheron <- guy who has no welt and his pela is lvl 50 not built. ah thats understandable!!! i was initially Completely uninterested in aventurine but used his trial as a march replacement in my clara team and it all fits together so nicely. speaking of which i literally got clara TWICE yesterday, one pull apart, without pity on standard. the universe loves me i guess. so shes e4 now. FOR FUCKING REAL but at least using acheron in sim uni lets one skip the non boss battles so thats a massive timesaver and also makes dealing with the swarm a lot less problematic. since you only have to deal with the big guy at the end and not trouble yourself with the occasional encounter on the way. seriously tho acheron is so cracked in sim uni. she let me get the achievement for finishing every battle with all allies at 100% hp. im currently using band of sizzling thunder + inert salsotto [LOL] on her!!! as i said. scuffed but does the job for now. but im gonna get her pioneer diver of dead waters + izumo gensei and takama divine realm since i heard thats whats best on her. and yeah her kit is super fun!! and have fun with that!! honestly fair, tho im just stuck in my holy trinity of hi3 - hsr - noita. also i love the bartender event a lot both story and gameplay wise. very very cool. and thankies!!!!!!!

#me? answering in under two weeks? equilibrium has been restored #asks #pen pals

[krakrac]

hiiii time for an OC rant because thoughts have been thought and i need to scream about them into the void 💥💥

i have been thinking for some time now, about yrsk and the fact that he could be read as a DID system; with an emphasis on "could" since i never planned on writing him as a system and i myself dont view him as one and i probably never will (but who knows, he has already changed A LOT since he came into existence).

(had to add read more because god DAMN i will NOT shut UP)

to show what the hell i mean by that: first thing, he goes/went by at least three different names (it used to be just two but some development with the story has been made) and he treats each one of these names as a separate personality of sorts that acts in a certain way. they don't exist simultaneously – two of them are of the past and the third is his current one which would be named "yrsk". sometimes, yrsk does or says things (be they morally questionable or not) that remind him of the way he used to act when he still called himself one of the past names and he tries to avoid responsibility by attributing the "bad" things to one of the past names. basically saying "oh that wasn't me that was this fucking guy" to himself. also he does this more or less subconsciously and only in his mind, he never speaks about this with anyone (this might change as i write more chapters tbh, i can see him talking about it with nyr at some point in a distant future). of course each of these personalities behind the names is still him, the same person, and he is aware of it.

the second thing is how quickly his attitude can change. he could be all chatty and content one second, and harsh, tense and often emotionless the other. which could evoke switching between alters but it's actually just him switching into survival mode. "oh fuck there is danger, enough of shits and giggles i gotta concentrate on keeping my ass alive" kinda deal. since he has been dealing with danger (both short- and long-term) too often, he had to create a defense mechanism for himself at some point to not lose his mind out of sheer fear and stress, which was even reinforced by his mentor as some form of self-control was required by the martial arts he has been teaching yrsk. if you asked nyr, he would definitely agree that yrsk on the run or during a fight feels like a different person and that he could even notice a slight change in his voice.

also, there is this third thing going on with him, which could be a combination of the two points above, or you could very well view it as an actual alter switch (and i honestly wouldn't even be against making it canon because i actually have no idea what da hell was that): yrsk gained an opportunity to finally exact revenge on an enemy who has more or less destroyed a huge part of his life and he took this opportunity without hesitation. in that moment, he was in the survival mode but at the same time one of the "personalities" behind the past names sort of emerged (or possibly both tbh) – the one that wouldn't bat an eye at torture because that was exactly what he did to the enemy. he snapped out of it after the deed was done and needless to say he was horrified by it and infinitely disgusted by himself; it really fucked him up subsequently. hard to say if it was because he was aware it was him doing it, or because he wasn't aware of it.

ik in this case there is this stereotypical "bad and EVIL alter that KILLS people and is VERY fucked up" thing but again it wasnt written with DID in mind.

anyways rant over i guess 🫡🫡 i might've wanted to talk about more stuff but it's almost 3am and im starting to feel tired so i forgor what it was

also im not much more knowledgeable in DID than an average person so i will gladly welcome any thoughts on this rant, if anyone actually read allat lmao

#kélas #oc: yrsk #good lord never ask me about ocs because we are gonna end up like this (im lying i NEED TO TALK MORE) #also yes i purposefully didnt reveal the two past names #because friends who actually read the book follow me and i dont wanna spoil #oc #ocs #original characters #original character

[seeingteacupsindragons]

@itsjustalark I hope you don't mind me breaking that ask up into smaller chunks to respond to instead of actually answering the ask in my inbox. Sometimes people send me really long things, and then I know having it on my blog and then having to read my probably accordingly long answer is not going to happen, and I just. Feel bad about it.

I have a couple longer essay-type things in my ask box I feel bad that I don't know how to respond to, and I wish people would post them on their blog and then maybe send me a link or something if they want my comments on it; I think it would just be easier.

Anywho.

I love readin your writing stuff as a fellk writer it really inspires me to write too. And I am mostly so intrigued by your stories because i honestly love the idea of exploration of the relationship between two boys set in a fantasy world. And also the fantasy worldbuilding just gets me. Im a big fan of character focused fantasy which are also kinda plot heavy and set in a rich world cause i think that only enriches and enhances the whole thing.  I dont know if im making sense. Lol. The point is the snippets of ur stories i have gotten kinda give me thpse vibes. Including your short story which world builds so well with so few words. And im gonna stop myself now cause thats gonna be a whole different post.

Tiadane's not actually a boy; this is made clear relatively early on, and he's not picky about pronouns because his home doesn't have a good concept of things like "gender" and "lots of gendered pronouns." I tend to alternate what I use for him when not in the book, and even in the book he shrugs off a couple "she's." And there's actually not any romance in that one; Tiadane and my deuteragonist's relationship is platonically weird in that one. I don't always like writing romance, but I usually have a deuteragonist running around because I just like paired character dynamics a lot.

I'm actually not super great at worldbuilding, either. I tend to do it as little as possible and only when I need to; a lot of my current revisions are fleshing the worldbuilding out. And now that I'm focusing on, a lot of the results are good, but it's often just sort of not really the most fun focus for me.

This kinda applies for both books and is a question actually: how did you come up for the names of youre mc's? Is there a meaning theind them or is it kinda like what gave the right vibes?

Tiadane's name is made up letters that sounded good to me. Cian's name went through lot of iterations and he had some very bad placeholder names before I settled on his full name (which isn't actually Cian). However, all of the wizards in that book have related names just For Because, I guess. It's sort of tied to some of the themes there.

Since Avel's book is contemp fantasy, I just went to Behind the Name and hit random name generator until I liked something enough to use for the random starter name.

The plot sypnosis sounds really interestings. The way you've written it makes the world seem really fleshed out and its own thing. I also adore the idea exploring heritage and culture of a lost civilization. But whatexictes me the most is the rebuilding part and how the mcs' would go about it. I also am very intrigued about how these revelations would effect their relationship.

What I shared was actually the query; queries and synopses are different in the publishing word. Basically, my query is supposed to sell people on making it sound interesting, so I'm glad it's working for those functions for now. It still needs to be edited some more later.

Thoughts on Avel's book: Ngl reading the sypnosis of this book is is what convinced me to send the first text. The writing of the scenes is something i really like cause good writing can make or break a story really. I can hear Avel's narrative voice as i read which is always a plus. The discription youve given for him got me excited enough to fan cast him in my head. I love when male characters accessorize, i feel it gives them personality. I'm very excited to see how you explore the being an artist with disability thing, especially how it affects mental state and the relationship with the ml. These kind of things really get me excited. Ive read so little and i already like the characters and want to get to know them better.

Thank you! I work very hard on narrative voice.

And i love how you focus on character design. As a frequent manga/manhwa reader imagery reallly matters to me and expecially the character design cause its such a good rool to indicate subtle things about the character whichadd another layer of depth.

Lmao. I actually don't. The bits with Avel in there aren't even the latest material, just the most recent parts I read because I went back and added it. But I was having fun with giving Avel a personality and interests beyond his violin and his medical things and other Plot Relevant necessities, so it was fun to make him vaguely queer emo punk silliness whatever he's doing.

TL;DR: You should be proud of these works. Its really good stuff. Never stop writing please!

Oh, I never intend to. Thank you.

Some other questions:

Do you have any specific inspirations for these two stories? Are you a fan of worldbuilding and what role do you want it to play in your stories? Is youre story more character focused or plot focused? Do youre worlds have a magic system? I have so many more tuestions but there are good starters ig.

I get told a lot that I inspire people to write, and I...never quite understand why, to be honest.

Tiadane's book originally came from playing too much Smash Bros and staring at Pit for too many hours in a row. And then I just typed some random shit to get some words out when I was stuck revising something and not having fun, and started writing this introduction to his world.

Avel's came from "I really want to find a new book" and writing something until I had a thousand words and then it warped entirely on me and I have to reconstruct it from scratch. I think by writing a lot, and this is a good example, Yikes. But I work in the pharmaceutical industry and read a lot about demyelinating diseases and rare disorders a lot, so a lot of that, plus my own love of creative endeavors and some medical trauma got wrapped up into whatever's going on with him.

I already sorta answered this, but no, worldbuilding's not my favorite part of writing, but it's gotta get done because of the kind of stories I write. I really do love stories where the world feels more expansive than we ever get to explore, but I'm not sure I'll ever write something that feels that way myself.

I am a very character-focused writer and have had recurring problems with getting a plot to attach correctly over the years. I think Tiadane's book is the first time I didn't have (too) many issues with one by the time I sent to to a CP, and I'm still ripping a lot out to replace it with something better.

Each of my fantasy worlds (I also write sci-fi sometimes, and some stuff just...set in our world) has its own magic system. I don't know how writers just have The One for tons of stories. Large universes to play in can be fun, but so is making up new stuff every time.

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[arlecchno]

SHSJDJSK OH MY GOD HI ITS ME JELLYFISH (silly text coloring is very fun to me) AGAIN HAHAH - okay so one , oh my god youre so nice WTF AAAH two , i dont have a board in real life because goodness the amount of printer ink id use to make little pictures for it …. the google slide i made was an absolute shitpost (because thats pretty much just how i think LMAO) im really into genshin lore itself and have a handful of “original” (as in ive never seen anyone else talk about em) theories (ive made a slideshow for one of them too —though i must admit it needs a lot of revision— and another is currently in progress) so i have a bit of a knack for “narrative detective work” as i call it LOL . little fun fact here (because im a total a show - off) i actually started seeing yunjin as a suspect around the ball arc ! (official documentation of my suspicion was the 5th of december between chapters 21 - 23 , if i recall correctly) the suspicious bolded texts about their relationship and viktors lie when asked about yunjins whereabouts /REALLY/ set off some alarm bells in my head , among other things . admittedly i never solved these cases a really long time before the main cast finds out , but i think its still a win , yeah ? honestly it was a bit of a shocker to me when it was revealed yunjin was “playing as” viktor , i never really considered that possibility in my head at the time ! kudos to you my friend , youve successfully plot - twisted the detective ! (haha) id totally log onto my actual tumblr account to send you the silly theoryboard i made for another fic because i think its funny to show people but its SO unprofessional and weird so idk tell me if youd like to see it i guess - i hope my unfiltered ranting doesnt bother you lmao , ALSOBEFOREIFORGET ILY2 <3 <3 (/p) BUT IT IS LIKE 2AM RIGHT NOW SO I WILL ONCE AGAIN SIGN OFF !! (note: please dont mind any spelling or grammar mistakes because i inevitably get a little braindead when its so late at night -)

yours truly ,

- jellyfish

HI JELLYFISH NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN!!!

i should've mentioned the google slides board instead of just board because i knew what you meant haha! 😭 and about the running out of ink thing is so true i think if i had an irl corkboard where i solve out a case it's gonna be one hell of a mess...

and wow!!! i like genshin lore a lot but never really have the time to invest in everything since well, there's a whole lot of 'em 😔 it's actually so cool that you write up these digital boards and solve out stuff!! so interesting to see new kinds of ways to spend your free time~

i'm glad you caught on that yun jin was the serial killer around those chapters! i actually did purposely plan to start making her suspicious around the grad ball arc since it was one of the breaking points of y/n and kuni's relationship, so her having a big role in it makes everything more conflicted and wicked. it's a really nice addition to her character lmao

yun jin playing as viktor was something i myself hadn't expected to do ngl. i have no idea how i managed to execute that perfectly but i'm glad i did, seeing everyone's reactions to it is really comical and enjoyable! i love making people squirm! /hj

if you're comfortable with it, then sure! feel free to share that board with your theories on that fic you're talking about~ it'd be nice to see what goes on inside your head (I SWEAR THIS IS MEANT IN A NICE WAY!!!)

also, you never bother me!!! i like getting my inbox full with people interacting with me, so if anyone here who reads this wants to hit me up, then feel free to do so! i'm always open to new anons and friends :D

have a very nice day jellyfish and happy new year's eve / new year's! have a splendid 2023 up ahead 🫶

#h answers #jellyfish <3

[aquagustd]

hey yus! just wanted to send u smth, u dont need to post it at all!! but really did want to just say a little smth, im never and i mean NEVER one to ever send an ask or msg to any author just bc of how much of an introvert and silent on-looker i am. but i guess i’ve made my first exception

im a new follower and honestly so frustrated i didn’t discover u sooner

when i was around 8-9 years old, i always loved reading, truly, and along the years my passion progressively simmered down, as i got older and around my ending days of highschool and the sense of curiosity that kept me up at night reading one direction smut, i just lost the passion for reading, there wasn’t much i felt could b done to ever relight that spark, i truly had thought my reading days were over

up until recently, i’ve been able to read some of your works and need to look into blue-light lenses to protect my eyes from the addicting stories you write that whirl me into this cycle of emotions at 2am. in other words, i am obsessed with your works, and your writing style that never fails to throw me into another dimension where your works become reality, and im watching this all unravel before my very own eyes. i feel the effort and passion you have when you write, and how much of yourself you’ve put into this.

being able to read the worlds and characters you’re able to create and bring value to, i find myself exploring and learning much more about my own writing style and the refreshing aura you give and being open to the theories people come up with, allows them to create their own stories that started with urs, and they’re able to engage in creativity and be inspired, just truly makes me look up to u as a writer.

so in other words, sorry for the reallyyy long story just thought i would share bc of how much i adore and appreciate ur work and truly hope u have a good day!!

i honestly don’t know what to say right now 🥺 wow. thank you so so much. you have no idea how much this means to me. I guess I just always wanted my writing to be immersive & to have the reader step away from reality for a bit and fully experience what’s going on in the story — so to hear you say all this just … warms my heart.

truly thank you so much. you have no idea how much i appreciate this <3 just know that the younger me and present me ofc is so happy right now because that’s my goal when it comes to writing.

pls 🥺 don’t apologize this truly made my whole year & i will never forget your words. i hope my stories can continue to make you feel safe & inspired yourself whenever you read them 🤍

#i will cry #squishies #yus’ for blue days