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You’ll always be my brother mine; Queen x reader

*Author's note*

Okay get the tissues out my fellow readers because this one WILL make you cry. For this is the LAST chapter with John Deacon in the Rock Angel's life. After this, Deacy will only be lovingly mentioned but will not have another physical appearance. I also want ALL of you to listen to the music choices down below as well as watch the music video above (cause it will REALLY pull your heartstrings and set the mood for this chapter). Up next we're gonna make quite a huge time leap cause next chapter were gonna get into some current events that has happened with Queen/Rock Angel. So be prepared for the next chapter(s).

MUSIC VIDEO HERE

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*Nov. 28th, 1997. Deacy's POV*

I had only agreed to come here to do this one last thing. My last music video that I would ever do with Queen, I had already completed my last live performance with Brian and Roger along with Elton back in Paris but without Freddie it just wasn't the same. Now we were making the music video for a song that Brian had written years ago just shortly after Freddie died.

I was sitting by myself along Roger's bar area (we had assembled at his place to do a mock rehearsal of the song before recording tomorrow) with my bass guitar resting on my lap when Roger came in and said.

"You doing okay?"

"Define okay." I told him.

"You're right. Dumb question. But—in all seriousness John, it really means a lot to us that you agreed to do this video."

"All I keep hearing is Freddie telling me 'darling if you don't get in front of that camera, I'll kick your arse from here to Glasgow'." The two of us chuckled softly.

"Well the team's already to go for tomorrow guys, we'll start filming at 9am sharp. We feel good about this?" Brian came up to us and asked.

"Actually, we can't do this video just yet." I told them.

"Why not?" asked Brian. "It's not much like any of our previous videos have been. We're in the perfect location and we're willing to perform this live instead of going through playback."

"It's not about missing something Brian, it's—someone."

"Look Deacy. We all miss him, but he'd still want—"

"I'm not talking about Freddie, Brian." I snapped before taking a deep breath and calming myself down.

"John I don't even know if she'd be interested in wanting to return to work. After the trail she's been—" Roger said softly before exhaling deeply. "But I can give Jack a call and see."

"No need. I booked a flight to Montreux, if I can convince her, we should be back tonight. Late." The two of them looked at each other and Brian said.

"Alright Deacy, we'll let you go get her. But don't get your hopes too high if she says no."

"Believe me, I know what she's going through. I almost didn't want to do this either. It feels wrong even continuing without Freddie, but—with this being the very last time I'll ever perform for Queen. I need at least one more performance with the Rock Angel. You guys need to give me this."

"We are. Bring our angel home." Roger said as he clasped his hand on my shoulder. I nodded before packing my bass up and headed off for the airport.

After a 2 hour flight, I arrived in Montreux airport and got a cab to take me to the Kline vacation home. It was another hour, hour and a half drive but finally the driver pulled up along the driveway. It was completely silence in the front yard, almost like a graveyard.

I got out of the car and walked up the gravel road, up onto the sidewalk and finally up the few stairs before finally standing before the door. Taking a deep breath I knocked on the door and waited for a couple of minutes. Soon enough a young girl opened the door, she had long (h/c) and familiar (e/c) that she inherited from her mother.

"Uncle Deacy?"

"Hello Kelly." I greeted with a warm smile. She smiled at me and hugged me.

God she had gotten so big since I last saw her. She was really starting to look more and more like her mother each and every day.

"My dear Kelly, look at you." she looked up at me and said.

"What are you doing here?"

"I was wondering if I could speak to your mum?"

"Yeah, of course. She's down in the basement with the boys." Kelly allowed me to enter inside and the first thing I see as I walk through the door was old Sammy, the Kline family's golden retriever. Already he was showing signs of aging around his nose and eyes. But when he saw me, he raised his head up and I saw his tail wag.

"Hello Sammy. Long time ehh boy?" he stood up and walked towards me and nuzzled against my hand. I stroked down his head when Kelly said.

"That's the first time I've seen him move so much since Bucky died." I turned to her in shock. "Brain tumor. We had to put him down last month and it was hard for all of us, Sammy especially." I looked down at Sammy and he looked up at me with those sad brown eyes of his as he let out a sad, soft whimper.

I scratched through his head as I walked over toward the basement stairs. I opened the door and walked down the U-shaped half-pace staircase. All the while I could hear some orchestra music playing and the sound of some creature bellowing before finally hearing someone say.

"How fast are they?"

"Well we clocked the T-Rex at 32 mph." As I came down to the bottom of the stairs, there at a desk surrounded by books and wearing prescription glasses was my sister dear while on the leather couch playing on the big TV was a movie that I wasn't quite too familiar with.

"T-T-Rex? You said you got a T-Rex?" Georgie quoted alone with the woman on screen while the old man nodded.

"Say again?" Jackson quoted along with the actor on screen.

"We have a T-Rex." The old man repeated. The actor on screen then started acting faint while the woman tried to get him steady and that's when the old man said.

"Dr. Grant, my dear Dr. Sattler."

"Welcome—to Jurassic Park." The twins quoted along with the old man on screen. Then soon enough dinosaurs were shown on the screen and I'll admit it was quite a sight to behold.

Never have I seen practical effects like that when it came to dinosaur films. Whatever film this is, I'll have to check it out for myself.

When I turned towards (y/n) I noticed that she turned her head away from her books and paper just to watch the television. I shook my head at her. Some things never change. I even saw her mouth out the next quote that was spoken on screen.

"Some things never change with you sister dear." She turned around to face me, as did the boys and they raced towards me exclaiming.

"Uncle John! Uncle John!" soon I was tackled down to the ground by these big boys. I smiled down at them as the two of them talked over each other trying to speak to me.

"Well, well, well. Look what the cat threw up. And I see you finally cut that raggedy mullet of yours." My sister teased.

"Haha, very funny." I mocked up at her.

"What brings you around here?" she asked me.

"A brother figure can't see his surrogate sister anymore?" I asked as I stood back up with the twins still clinging onto my sides.

"Not that I'm complaining but, you haven't really came around since......" she looked away before grabbing the remote and turning the movie off.

"Awww mum! We wanted to keep watching the film!" the twins whined.

"Georgie, Jackson you both have seen the film over a million times. Besides you two got chores to do that you both forgot to do yesterday."

"But, but, but....."

"Now boys. You mind your mother and don't argue back with her." I lectured them giving them my father eye.

"Yes Uncle John." They both said glumly before they walked up the stairs.

"I swear they both got their father's handsome looks but their uncle Jensen's laziness." (y/n) complained which made me softly chuckle.

"They're little boys. And believe me it'll get worse, cause they're what seven now?" she nodded. "So yeah get ready. Ten is probably the age they'll really push your buttons."

"Well thanks for the heads up."

*My POV*

Now don't get me wrong, I love Deacy and I'm always happy to see him (on the rare occasions that he does come around) but this visit has something else written all over it.

"What film was that exactly?" he asked me.

"A Steven Spielberg masterpiece, Jurassic Park. Since it gets scary at around the middle part I don't allow the boys to watch this film alone without either me or Jack in the room."

"And what's with all the books? I haven't seen you this swamped since your first days as Miami's intern."

"Well—believe it or not. I'm finishing college."

"Really?"

"Uh-huh. You see since I left college once I became the Rock Angel, and with me taking a step back from the spotlight for a while. I enrolled at a University here about to graduate with an English degree."

"I'm proud of you (y/n). Really I am. And—I know he would be too if he heard that." See there it was. The reason behind his sadness. Sometimes Deacy couldn't even say his name without feeling such agonizing heartache. His eyes that were once filled with light had diminished and rarely sparked up anymore.

"What about you? How are you and the other two aging Queens getting along?" I asked as I took off my reading glasses.

"We're getting by. Day by day. We're—actually about to do a video for a song Brian's made." Okay, I think I know where this is going.

"Deacy—I appreciate the offer but I just.....don't think I'm ready to get back into the limelight just yet. Plus I got school to finish up. And then there are the kids and Jack. The press made my life hell throughout the trial and I refuse to go through that again. So you can tell Roger that I'm not interested."

"Actually it wasn't Roger's idea for me to come down here and have you work with us again. Nor was it Brian's." I looked at him in shock.

"You mean you want me to be a part of this video you're doing?"

"Yes. They told me you might not want to but please, sister dear, for old time's sake. You wouldn't want to break an old man's heart now would you?" he proceeded with the puppy dog eyes and with that greying hair on his head it just made him look like a sad old puppy dog.

"Why must you always get your way?"

"Because I'm your brother and you fall for it every time." I sighed heavily and said.

"Let me get a hold of Jack at the hospital and see what he says." I stood up as Deacy came behind me and said in an alarmed tone.

"Wait? What happened to Jack? Is he alright? He didn't do anything stupid did he?"

"Deacy, Deacy relax. Jack's fine he's with our son."

"Wait you're....." it was then he finally noticed my body shape. The post-pregnant belly and weight gain.

"Was. Yeah. Just 2 weeks ago we had our new baby boy."

"Oh (y/n). Congratulations. But—then why is he......"

"The thing is, he wasn't supposed to come till next January. I gave birth to him prematurely by 2 months." I said sadly as I finally arrived at the phone and touched it.

"I'm so sorry poppet. Had I known I would've never—"

"No need for apologizes or sympathy Deacy. Like I told you once a long time ago about my parents. I didn't tell you so you have no reason to feel sorry for me. Besides our boy's strong. He's shown great improvement. Doctor says we could possibly bring him home come this weekend."

"That's good. But knowing Roger and Brian, they'll be wanting pictures of him shortly."

"And what about you? Don't you want to see a picture of your new nephew?"

"Of course I do." There was a bit of hesitation to the way he responded but I set it aside for now as he asked me, "What's the lad's name?" After he said that, it was my turn to hesitate cause I didn't want Deacy to grow sad again.

"You promise me you won't get too heartbroken when I tell you?"

"So long as you didn't name him Adam, Paul or Steve I think we'll be good." I turned to face my brother and I said.

"It was no difficult decision, Jack and I agreed that this name just suited him perfectly and we—we knew he would've loved it too. Our last and newborn baby's name is Freddie Mercury Kline." I immediately picked up the phone and rang the hospital for Jack.

After awhile of Jack and I talking back and forth between one another, he agreed that he could handle the kids for a couple of days, man down the house, and even look over my final paper that I have to turn in in a couple of weeks for a class.

"Thanks babe. How's our boy doing?"

'Ahh (y/n) you should see him, he's glowing like the sun right now. Maybe when we do get to take him home, we can even get the rest of the Queen family to see him.'

"We don't want to overwhelm him so much." I lectured.

'I know. But I think it's time we told the rest of Queen didn't we? Especially after who we named him after.'

"Well half the job is done. Only Brian and Roger need to know."

'Yeah. Hey can you give me regards to Deacy?'

"Sure thing love. We'll stay here till you get home."

'Baby you know Kelly's old enough to keep the boys under control till I come back.'

"I don't know Jack, I mean yeah she's a pre-teen but I don't....."

'Trust me (y/n). She's clever just like her mom. She knows right from wrong. The kids will be fine. But if it makes you feel any better, I'll head home right now so that way she won't have to be responsible for too long.' I rolled my eyes and said.

"Thank you Jack. I'll be back on Monday, I promise."

'Take as much time as you need. Besides, you need to catch up with the guys.'

"You're right love. I love you Jack, give my baby a kiss for me before you leave."

'Will do mama lion. Give the guys my love for me when you see them.'

"I will." We then said bye to each other before I hung up the phone. "Alright, Jack's on his way from the hospital, he said Kelly can watch the twins until he comes back."

"She's responsible that girl of yours. Reminds me of you when we first met. You made sure everything got organized and planned out accordingly. Hell you managed to keep the four of us in line." I smiled and gathered up my school stuff to take into the study room.

After turning the TV, off and putting my books away I called the kids into the master bedroom while I packed a weekend night bag.

"Okay now listen you three, mum's going away for the weekend with your uncle Deacy to see your other uncle as well as your godfather to do some work. Your father is on his way home from seeing your brother, and until he gets back you're in charge Kelly."

"What!?" the twins proclaimed.

"You heard her." Kelly sassed down at her younger brothers.

"Now you all know the rules, stay inside, no trashing the house, no answering the phone for any reason at all unless the caller ID says its your father or another family member. And absolutely; No one. Sets. Foot. In my study or studio or else." I firmly stated to them, especially the last part.

"We promise mum." They all choired out.

"Good. Now stay safe, and listen to your sister boys. I'll be back on Monday. Now come on kisses and cuddles." I knelt down and got a hug from my three big kids.

I even told them to give their uncle Deacy cuddles and kisses, which he happily accepted, before the two of us headed out back for the taxi car to take us back to the airport.

After a few hours in the air, Deacy and I arrived into London by about 7pm and this time I paid a cabbie to take us over to Roger's place. God all this traveling is really making me jet lagged right now. I only hope I have enough energy to record tomorrow.

The next day we were all in the recording studio to film the music video of Brian's song. I was sitting at the piano with Brian who was giving me the rundown on how to play the tune when it came for my appearance in the video.

"So—how have things been for you lately?" asked Brian. I looked up at him, "I mean it's just—you went underground after the trail and we—got worried."

"I'm sorry I worried you guys. I just......needed some time to myself and my family, that's all."

"No, no we understand. God what—what happened that day was extremely traumatic for you and—"

"Brian. Can.....can we not discuss anything regarding him. Please?"

"Sure, sure, absolutely." God sometimes I hate it when Brian wakes eggshells around me.

"I'm finishing up school."

"Really?" I nodded.

"I'm studying Creative writing. By next spring I'll graduate from college and finally get my diploma."

"That's wonderful news (y/n). I'm so proud of you." he wrapped an arm around me and gave me a one armed hug and kissed the top of my head.

"Also—there's.....a new Kline in the household." He looked down at me surprised.

"You mean—"

"Had him two weeks ago. Prematurely though." His brows knitted in that familiar sympathetic way.

"Oh (y/n), I'm so sorry. Are they....."

"He is doing just fine. Even for being born 2 months early, he's already got the Kline lion strength."

"I'm sure he does. What's the lads name?" I took out my wallet from my inner coat pocket and took out a picture of him from his incubator.

"Jack and I both agreed on the name together. Bri, meet your newest nephew. Freddie Mercury Kline." His eyes looked right at mine, with awe but also a hint of sadness. But a wide smile spread across his face as he softly laughed out.

"God what he would've said knowing that he got one of us to finally name our next kid after him."

"Probably something like 'about fucking time darling. I was beginning to think I'd been neglected.'" We both chuckled softly.

"That is something he would say. Oh and I bet he would've doted on this little chap, just as he had with all of your other kids." I nodded solemnly.

"God I wish he were still here." He placed a comforting hand on my shoulder and lay his head down on top of mine, his curls gingerly stroking my forehead and nose.

"We all do poppet. We all do." I sniffled softly but pushed back the tears.

"Alright, enough of this chatter. Now for this part of the song it goes like this right?" I said shrugging him off before playing the chords he had taught me at the butt-crack of dawn before we even came to the studio.

Finally we were ready to film the video. First Brian, Rog and Deacy got into position with Bri at the piano, Deacy on a stool with a bass guitar, and Roger in the back with his drumkit.

I couldn't help but be touched at the reminder of cups full of beer and a champagne glass sitting right along the piano's edge. It was—a nice little touch that Freddie would've appreciated.

This music video......I'll admit that this is probably my favorite out of all the Queen music videos. Because now people will get to see what it was like on a daily basis with us. Almost like they are a familiar face stepping into the recording studio.

The director called for quiet on the set and I stayed back for awhile until it would be my time to go up there and soon the director called out action! The camera's rolled and I watched as a camera crane came down from the ceiling at a slow pace.

I then saw at men on the mobile camera slowly moved closer across the studio to really give that first person POV as Brian sang the first verse and played the piano. Already hearing him sing this song made my heart .

*Brian*

A hand above the water An angel reaching for the sky Is it raining in heaven Do you want us to cry?

And everywhere the broken-hearted On every lonely avenue No one could reach them No one but you

One by one Only the good die young They're only flyin' too close to the sun And life goes on Without you

Next up was Roger. The cameras slowly came towards him as he played the simple drumbeat and he took over the vocals of the second verse. By that time, Brian had switched over to his Red Special and stood a few feet away from Deacy while I took over at the piano.

But to surprise the fans; I had a hoodie to cover my entire face as I now took over playing the piano.

*Roger*

Another tricky situation I get to drownin' in the blues And I find myself thinkin' Well, what would you do?

Yes, it was such an operation Forever paying every due Hell, you made a sensation (sensation) You found a way through (found a way through)

*All*

One by one Only the good die young They're only flyin' too close to the sun *Roger*

We'll remember Forever

When it was finally my turn, I took the hoodie off and proceeded to play the piano as I sung the third voice. My heart was heavy and my throat felt like clenching up but I kept my sorrow at bay in order to get this done in one take.

Cause I knew if I didn't, then there's probably no way I could keep my composure after three takes of singing this verse. Because all that came through my mind were the good memories of Freddie, and how I couldn't even believe that he was really gone. Even though almost 6 years have passed.

*Me*

And now the party must be over I guess we'll never understand The sense of your leaving Was it the way it was planned?

And so we grace another table And raise our glasses one more time There's a face at the window And I ain't never, never sayin' goodbye

By the end of it all, the video would show Queen and the Rock Angel singing the song with such sorrow but passion as we sung it in honor of our beloved Freddie.

Soon all four of us were gathered around the piano, Deacy still sitting on his stool, but Brian, Roger and I were gathered close together with music sheets in our hands. I stood by Roger and would sing the first line before finding myself unconsciously leaning against him for support.

Thankfully he didn't see anything wrong with it as he wrapped an arm around me and took the next part before Brian would be the one to finish it since he was the one to start it.

*All*

One by one Only the good die young They're only flyin' too close to the sun *Me*

Cryin' for nothing *Roger*

Cryin' for no one *Brian*

No one but you

The video would then close off as the camera would rise up over the four of us gathered around the piano. The lights shutting off and us acting like we were now leaving the studio after a hard day's work.

"Cut! Okay Brian, come and see what you like and what we need to reshoot." The director called out and both he and Brian began speaking to each other as Bri reviewed the footage.

As I watched Bri talk to the director, I felt a slight nudge at my shoulder and I looked up to see Deacy. His eyes were sad but the smile across his face held some warmth to it. I leaned my head against his chest and I felt his hand rest on top of my head, gently scratching my scalp.

"You still got it poppet."

"Singing to the kids still keeps my pipes in check." I felt him gently kiss the top of my head when the director called out.

"Alright Mrs. Kline. We're gonna runback from your verse, your hair got in the way of your face too much." I nodded and soon someone from the hair department came and brushed my hair back out of my face. As well as take a couple of hairpins to make sure the strands didn't get in my face again.

Deacy walked back towards his stool and Brian went to grab his guitar once again while Rog twirled his sticks.

"Okay playback from the third verse." The music picked back up and the cameras rolled and I sung the third verse once again, this time I could feel myself choking up as I sang the verse again.

This continued to go on with reshoots, trying to make this video even better. By the fifth time singing it, I needed to step out and take a breather because at this point I was just about to breakdown crying. Luckily for me, Deacy was right there for me the whole time till I calmed down and was ready to go back to recording.

Four hours later, the video was complete. Once the director as well as the boys were satisfied with the results, it was time to head home. Roger insisted that I stay with him the next couple of days (because he wanted to know more about his new godson) as well as catch up with one another. As I placed my coat back on over me, I heard Deacy's voice say my name softly.

"What is it Deacy?"

"Can I—can I talk to you for a moment? Privately." The look in his eyes were full of regret, almost like he didn't even want to tell me whatever it was he wanted to say.

"Sure Deacy, let me just tell dad to wait up for me." He nodded while I raced off towards Roger and told him that I needed to talk with Deacy.

From behind his new circular prescription shades (kinda similar to what ole Ozzy has), I could see that he must've known what Deacy wanted to tell me.

I walked back towards Deacy who took my hand and led me out of the studio and out into the abandoned hallways. No one was there but us two.

"Alright John Deacon, what's really going on?" he refused to look me in the eye.

"I—the reason why I wanted you to be a part of this music video was because I......I wanted to work with you. One last time." My heart slowly sunk. "Freddie he—he was what made Queen the way it was from the beginning. Without him there......th-there just isn't any need for Queen to continue on."

I remained silent as John confessed his heartbreaking news. I could see the redness of tears at the corner of his eyes.

"I just can't continue with all this. Not without him. This—was my last contribution to Queen. And—I wanted it to also be the last time I worked alongside the Rock Angel as well." He went silent again. "I'm sorry love." He sniffled.

I reached out and softly took his hands in mine. When he felt my touch, his eyes finally looked right at me. I looked at him with pure empathy before walking closer to him till I finally embraced him.

Play video

Oh my poor brother, I felt him tense up underneath my touch. It was almost like he was expecting me to go full on hysterical about him retiring from music forever.

"I was a fan before I met you guys. I've read every interview you guys ever did, seen all the concerts. And never have I seen a band be so involved with each other as Queen has. Like me, Freddie took you under his wing and allowed you to soar. You never just became the 'bass player', or the 'quiet guy in the corner'. No you, John Richard Deacon, are the most vital and important piece that was needed for Queen to finally rise to the top. And Fred saw that in you."

I cupped his face in my hands as I continued,

"If this is what will bring you peace, I'll understand."

"You knew my reason all along, didn't you?" he said. I only gave him a soft smile before I embraced him.

"You will always be my brother mine." He slowly raised his arms and wrapped them around my back and he whispered his last words to me.

"And you'll forever be my sister dear." We remained there in each other's arms. Embracing each other as tightly as we could, inhaling each other's scents, remembering each other's touch.

Because I knew that once we let go, this would be the last time we would ever see each other again.

Finally I forced myself to release him from my embrace. I looked down sadly trying not to cry in front of him. I felt his hand cup the side of my face and his forehead press up against mine.

Our noses softly grazing one another's until I finally felt him give me one final kiss on the cheek.

When I opened my eyes, I only saw his back and heard as his shoes clicked along the hallway. That image would forever be imprinted into my brain for as long as I live.

"Goodbye......my sweet, sweet John Deacon." I whispered softly. The tears then softly fell down my face as he finally turned left and disappeared from my sights, leaving me all alone in the hallway.

After a while I finally left the studio and met Roger at his car. The hidden tearstains still glistening on my face and the occasional sniffle coming out. He didn't say a word as he looked at me knowingly, I looked up at him and ran into his chest and softly wept into his shoulder.

His father instincts toward me immediately kicked in as he wrapped his arms around me and tried his best to comfort me. God I tried so badly to not let this affect me. I knew where Deacy was coming from and I do respect his decision, I truly do, but—I just can't believe that even after this I'll never get to see my brother mine again.

It was like losing my parents all over again, except this was much, much worse. This time he'll be so close yet so far away.

*FF to May 14th, 1998*

I had done it. I was a college graduate at last. Earlier today I had finally done the famed college graduation walk that all my previous friends in college got to do all those years ago, and I was an official college graduate.

(Y/n) Kline, Bachelor's degree in English with a concentration in Creative Writing.

It was late afternoon and I was sitting up along the balcony of the vacation home with a glass of wine in hand. We all had just gotten back from a family dinner in celebration of my graduation, now I wanted to be at peace and watch the sunset.

Because starting tomorrow, I decided that it was time to head back to our home in London and I wanted to get back to work.

"Thought I'd find you up here." I heard Jack's voice say. I smiled as I turned towards him.

"I was wondering if you'd be joining me."

"Well you know as well as I do that if those twins of ours are left unattended during their bath, they'll drown the entire bathroom in soap again."

"God that was such a nightmare to clean up." I laughed as he came up and sat down close beside me on my lawn chair. I noticed in his hands he held some mail. "What all did we get?"

"Well some bills, junk mail, some congratulation cards from the family back home in America, as well as from Brian and Roger, and.....that's it." I extended my hand out and he handed me the mail and I began sorting out the business mail from the personal one.

It was then I came across an interesting letter. One I never though I'd expect to see.

"What's this?" I turned the letter towards him and that's when Jack's face went pale. For you see the letter was addressed to Jack but the place it was from is what had me curious. The letter was from the London Police Academy.

"Oh shit." He muttered.

"C'mon Jack spill it, what is this?"

"I really didn't want to make a big deal out of this, especially since these past few months were all about you."

"Jack." I warned him since he was getting off the subject. He sighed heavily before he took the letter from my hands and said.

"Okay. Do you remember when I had gone up to London, and I told you that I was just going up there to check on the house?" I nodded. "Well, I lied. The truth is—I went to apply for the London Police Academy because—I want to become a police officer, and eventually a criminal detective."

"Jack."

"I know I must sound crazy but, this was my decision. After what happened to us with—you know. For the past year and a half and then....dealing with the trail. It put all of us through hell. And I—I don't want us or for anyone else to go through the pain that we went through. That bastard nearly tore this family apart, and it was because of the law that he got away with it every time. Creeps like him shouldn't get off scot-free."

I hugged my husband as tightly as I could and I said with a wide smile.

"I'm so proud of you."

"Really?" I separated from him and continued.

"You're my husband and you've been so supportive of me for years. It's about time I was supportive of you in your dream career."

"Well I don't even know if I even got in, that's probably what this letter is."

"Then what are you waiting for? Open it!" I chuckled and opened up the envelope and soon took out the folded letter and read it to himself.

"I—I got in."

"Oh my darling that's fantastic! Congrats!" I hugged and kissed him.

"Well hold on, this just means that I'm a potential candidate for a chance at working for the London Police force. There's still like a six month process when it comes to actually getting in. Right now I'm just joining the academy for some training."

"Still, that's something to be proud of. Oh Jack, you're gonna be a fantastic officer. And soon a world-class detective. A regular Sherlock Holmes if you will." I teased the last part as I bopped his nose.

"I don't think I can be that good. But—I'll try my best. For you, for our kids, and for every other stalking victims out there. The law may have failed us, but I won't let it fail for those in the future." I smiled at my loving husband and cupped his face and kissed him. "Oh and there's something for you inside."

"Really? Another surprise?"

"Well it's more like a small package. And sadly it's not from me." I looked at him confused.

"Then who is it from?" he shrugged but led me inside back into our bedroom where the small package lay at the foot of our bed. I opened it up and inside there was a single videotape. It had no marking or writing on it to indicate what it was.

The two of us looked at each other perplexed before I went towards our VHS player and insert the tape into it. I turned the TV on and the screen was blue as the tape finally began to play.

Coming up on the screen sitting right on a couch was none other than John.

"Hello (y/n), Jack. And the young Kline cubs, if they are there." He softly chuckled with a slight smile. Jack sat down beside me on the foot of our bed as we continued to watch Deacy's tape. "(Y/n), my darling sister dear. I know that—my leaving from Queen may seem like another abandonment but I swear to you it's not."

"Seems like this is just for you both, I'll just—"

"And Jack you stay right there with her because this is for you too." Jack looked at the telly surprised.

"Holy shit that was creepy."

"Our Deacy knows all." I wrapped my arms around my husband's arm as Deacy continued.

"Now—I have known you both for a long time. And both of you have equally been such an important part of my life. So it breaks my heart to know that this—might be the last time we meet face to face. But there is no doubt in my mind that you both are going to change the world. (Y/n), my lovely Rock Angel, you continue to spread your wings and fly. I know that you're going to continue to be the brightest and biggest solo female rockstar this world will ever know. And Jack, my pupil, my dearest American friend. You continue to protect your family, because if there's one final piece of advice that I can give you, it's that family is forever. Friends may come and go, but family is forever. And I know that whatever you choose to do with your life, your wife is gonna be there to support you. You both were meant for each other. I love you both so much. Continue to love, to give, to inspire, and......be happy. Bye."

The screen went black for a moment before he came back on screen and he began to say.

"Kelly, Jackson, Georgie and—little baby Freddie." At that point I stopped the tape and I turned to face Jack. I could already see the faint tears in his eyes.

Play video

"So this is really it huh?" Jack asked. I nodded. "I—can't believe we'll never get to actually talk to Deacy again." I rested my head on his shoulder and wrapped an arm around his shoulders.

"This is just his way of grieving. Deacy's very fragile right now. You know how his childhood was, and losing Freddie at three years his father's age. It's like—losing two father figures to him."

"I know. It's just that....." Jack looked at me with tears in his eyes.

Jack really did look up to Deacy for everything. After all they've been through for over 10 years together, to Jack it was like he was losing a very good friend.

"I know my love, I know. But this is what Deacy needs. To be with just his family now, and not be reminded of the pain of losing Freddie. And who knows—maybe, and this is a slight maybe, we might see him again. But until then we need to respect his wishes." Jack nodded and the two of us cuddled close together as we were both thinking the same thing.

We hope that you're happy at home John Richard Deacon.

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squirrel-moose-winchester · 5 years

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Settle Down with Me

Title: Settle Down with Me

Pairing: Dean x Reader

Word Count: 1287

Summary: Dean and Sam have finally decided that it was time to leave the life, and they want you to join them.

Warnings: None. Maybe Fluff?

A/N: Wow guys! 15 seasons! I am so grateful for Supernatural, and Dean and Sam, Jensen and Jared, along with the rest of the cast, writers and crew, has given us so much. They’ve give us our heroes, hope, friendships, and most importantly, a family! I’m so thankful for that. And with the show ending with season 15, we’re going to keep creating our own seasons. SPN Forever!

The world was finally safe. Well, as safe as it can be. There were no more douchebag angels, no more plotting demons, however there were still monsters roaming around that need to be put in their place. But there were also still other hunters out there, fighting the good fight to keep people safe.

Dean and Sam, they were done. They wanted to finally settle down, put down some roots while they still could. Castiel and Jack had gone to Heaven where they were needed, Jody and the girls were still hunting, but Dean and Sam… it was their time to hang up the coat. They’ve done more than enough.

When they told you the news, you were a little shocked. You couldn’t believe it. Was it really possible to get out of the life? Especially when you’re a Winchester? What were you going to do? You had been hunting with them for over ten years and now…? Should you follow their lead? Could you call it quits? Or do you continue to hunt on your own, falling back into, what seemed to be, an ancient habit of living on the road and motel hopping?

There was a knock on your door, before it slowly opened. Dean walked in, hands in his pocket. You watched him walk over to your bed, taking a seat beside you. Before he had a chance, you spoke first.

“Are you and Sam really done with hunting? You guys are really doing this?” You asked.

“Well… we’re going to try. It might be easy for Sam, but old habits die hard. But I think we owe to ourselves to… I guess… retire. We’ve done our part. We’ve saved the world more times that we can count, and Sam and I… we’re just tired. Our dad would have wanted this for us. Our mom too.”

“Yeah… I know, and I’m happy for you guys,” you flashed a weak smile. Dean returned the gesture with the same amount of enthusiasm.

“Actually, I have something to ask you…” Dean started.

“Okay…” you whispered, feeling a little lost.

With the Winchester’s gone, what the hell would become of you? Was he about to ask you to leave? Where would you go? Where would you stay? The bunker had become your home. The brothers have become your family. I was already tough to say goodbye to Cass and Jack, and now Sam… and especially Dean?

God, you’ve been in love with him since day one, and now you were losing him too. He was going to get out of the life, meet some girl, fall in love, and have a family. And you’ll turn into… nothing but a memory.

“I want you to come with me. With us,” Dean confessed.

Your mouth dropped open, unable to fathom what he had just said. How could you leave the life when there are still lives at steak? Yes, there are other hunters, but what if they can’t get to the case? People will die. You need to help. You need to help… don’t you?

“Dean… I–”

“Please. I need you…” he interrupted. “This is my chance to settle down, maybe start my own family, and… and I was hopping to do it with you.”

At that moment you didn’t know if you wanted to laugh or cry, so you did both. It was hilarious to think that Dean would want to settle down with you. It had never crossed your mind that he could possibly have any sort of romantic feelings towards you, but at the same time, you were so overjoyed. It felt like your heart was going to burst, but you still had your doubts.

“Dean… I don’t know how to do normal. Just like you and Sam, I grew up in the life. Hunting is all I’ve ever known.”

“Which is why it would be better to do it together. We’ll stay here at the bunker, rebuild the outside, maybe have some normal friends, throw a barbecue party or something? We can still invite Jody and the girls, Donna, Garth can come too? C’mon. I don’t want to do this without you. Neither does Sam.”

“All this time, Dean… you’ve never shown any interest in me, and now your telling me to run away from the monsters to live a normal life with you?” You were a little skeptical now, your voice coming out a little hostile, which wasn’t your intention. There was just so many things going through your mind and so many emotions pulling you every which way.

“Seriously? I’ve dropped so many hints. All the flirting, letting you drive Baby, letting you borrow my clothes… none of that rings a bell?”

“I—I had no idea. I thought…” you couldn’t finish your sentence. All this time it was you who was the idiot. Now that he mentions it, Dean was always looking out for you. All those times he’s gotten jealous, all those time he held you, all those times… how were you so blind?

“Y/N. Settle down with me.” He took your hand in his.

Your eyes started to water. The revelations of it all was overwhelming. You loved Dean, and by what he was saying, you were sure he loved you too. To finally settle down with the man you loved and your best friend? Wouldn’t that be the best possible ending? The best retirement any hunter could ask for? The three of you were still alive. You’ve lived long enough to reach this point. To finally have a real life! How could you pass it up?

“Dean…” you choked his name, the tears finally dripping down your cheeks.

“Look, I know we’ve never been a thing, or have never done anything, but I want to change all of that. You have no idea how hard it was to keep you at arms length,” he admitted.

“They why did you? I’ve wanted you for a long time.”

“Because… I wanted things to be different with you. I didn’t want you to be just another girl. I wanted this… us… to be real. I wanted the real deal with you, and now I’m getting that chance. Only if you say yes. If you do this with us… with me.

Sam was hiding behind the wall, listening to the conversation you and his brother were having in your bedroom. Sam was hopeful. He believed you’d say yes. You and Dean deserved to be happy. And Sam wanted nothing more than for you to come along with them. The three of you. His brother and his best friend, finally getting their second chance at a real life.

When the silence continued, Sam finally stepped out of his hiding spot. “Y/N, do this with us.”

Your eyes landing on the tall hunter. You shifted to look back and forth from the brothers, and at that moment, there was only one answer you could possibly give.

“Dean, Sam… I—” you paused, both brothers watching you intently.

Dean gripped your hand tighter. “Please.”

You smiled. “Okay.”

Dean and Sam’s shoulders perked up, smiles adorning their faces. “R—really?” Dean stuttered.

“Yeah,” you smiled.

“And—and you and me…?” He questioned, pointing between the both of you.

You giggled before yanking on his flannel and pulling him into a deep kiss. “You and me,” you breathed as you pulled away.

Dean dragged you into another kiss. When he let go, Sam jumped onto your bed, tackling you into his arms and hugging you tightly, the three of you laughing loudly.

It was going to be you, Dean, and Sam… finally getting out of the life. Finally settling down. Who would have thought this could be possible?

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thekatherinewinchester · 4 years

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An Alpha’s Love

Summary: Katherine Padalecki was raped and abused for years unbeknownst to her older brother, Jared. She had drilled into her head that she was too fat for love, she was unlovable, and that she would never find and alpha to call her own. After Jared finds his omega, he learns the truth and takes Katherine with him. Will Katherine find her alpha in this new city? Will he accept her, should she find him?

Paring: alpha!Jensen x omega!ofc Katherine, alpha!Jared x omega!Gen

Chapters: 1/1

Word Count: 5504

Square Filled: ABO DYNAMICS

Rating: EXPLICIT

Warnings: mentions of abuse and rape, slight angst, smut, dirty talk, unproteced sex (DON’T RISK IT TO GET THE BISCUIT!), mating, claiming

A/N: This is an old fic I had written years ago for another fandom. I was going through my old fics to see if I wanted to edit any of them. Well, I thought this one would make a good Jensen fic! With that said, if this kind of sucks, I’m so sorry. I would like to think I have grown as a writer from after this fic.

Also, all thoughts will be in italics!

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION AND NOT MEANT TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY. I HAVE THE UTMOST RESPECT FOR JENSEN ACKLES AND HIS BEAUTIFUL FAMILY. THIS IS ALSO NOT HOW I ACTUALLY VIEW DONNA ACKLES. HOW SHE IS IN THIS FIC IS JUST FOR THE PURPOSE OF THE STORY.

I hated going into town. All I ever saw were mated couples. You would think that me being a twenty-nine-year-old omega werewolf I would have found happiness with a mate of my own but alas that is not the case. Ever since I turned sixteen, I have been waiting and hoping for an alpha to claim me. An alpha had yet to claim me as his. I've assumed that because I wasn't like most, I wouldn't be getting a happy ending to my story.

I had hoped that by moving to another city with my older brother and his omega, I would find my alpha, possibly; I haven't even met the Head Alpha and he has allowed Jared and I to become members of his pack three months ago, well me rather since Jared was automatically a member due to Genevieve, being his omega.

Upon entering my desired destination, I sighed. What's the point of being a werewolf if you're not attractive and like every other werewolf? To explain, I don't have the infamous werewolf metabolism (I'm probably the only fat werewolf you will ever meet) and my physical wolf form is the size of an English Bulldog (I'm the smallest omega werewolf and pretty much all werewolves, in general, there is) so yeah; my life sucks. Another sigh.

So, I went to the store to get all my necessities as well as some food to cook for dinner. I was thinking about making my momma's fried chicken with mashed potatoes, gravy, carrots, green beans, and homemade biscuits. My tummy began rumbling at the thought of the meal I was gonna prepare for dinner. Once done, I headed back home. I didn't like spending too much time in public; I hated all the judgmental stares I received, or the ones filled with pity. It may be a new town and a new pack, but the reactions were all the same. Just like in our old pack, Jared was my only friend. Don't get me wrong Genevieve is a great woman, but I hate the look of pity on her face every time she looks at me.

When I got home, I put all my purchases away in their designated places. Since it was only noon, I decided to go to the studio and dance for a while. I may be a big girl, but I am very flexible, and I can dance.

While I was at the studio, I had a feeling of being watched. When I had finished my dance, I heard clapping. Turning around I spotted the alpha's adopted baby sister, Lea, was clapping her little hands. I had met the five-year-old on a couple of occasions and she was the sweet little girl I had ever met. So, I took a bow and it made her giggle.

"Thank you, Miss Lea for being my audience. I am so glad that you enjoyed my dance. You were my inspiration!"

Her big hazel eyes widened as well as her smile when I told her that the dance was inspired by her, which wasn't a lie. She reminded me of myself when I was her age and during a time when my parents were still alive. Granted the dance had a sad side to it but still she was my inspiration for it.

"Really? That was the most beautifulast dance I had ever seen!"

Just then the former alpha’s omega, Mrs. Donna Ackles, came in and I bowed my head in respect. She looked at me with such distaste I could almost feel and touch it. She didn't like that I was a plus sized wolf or Hispanic. Nor did she like the fact that I was unmated. In her eyes it meant that I would be after her son. Yes because, I want to go after a man I have never met let alone ever seen. Insert eye roll here.

"Momma! Kat told me that I inspired her dance! It was so amazing!" Lea beamed up at her adopted mother.

Donna's eyes softened when they turned to her youngest daughter. "Did she now, sweetheart? That was awfully sweet of her. It's time for us to go pumpkin. Jensen is supposed to get back from his trip soon." The former pack leader turned to me. "Miss Padalecki." With that she gently grabbed her daughter by the wrist to lead her out but not before she broke loose to run and hug me.

"Thank you, Kitty, it was a really lovely dance." Then the child was off with her multiple personalitied mother.

I went and changed back into my regular clothes and headed home.

Halfway home I decided I would go for a run but in wolf form. I haven't let my wolf out for a few weeks so I could feel her getting restless. I changed my course and headed for the forest. I hid behind a big enough tree and stripped out of my clothes. I put them in my dance bag before shifting.

After about fifteen minutes an interesting scent wafted into my nose. It smelt like whiskey and gun powder, an odd combination but strangely, it smelt heavenly and homely.

Not long after the scent was in my nose, did I hear a growl behind me. I froze. I began to feel frightened. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see a wolf coming towards me. When he was in front of me, I was able to get a good look. I could tell that it was an alpha and that he was a hell of a lot bigger than my pup sized wolf. The alpha was just like me in color except in reverse, I was a jet black wolf with dark grey tipped ears and paws so that makes him a dark gray wolf with black tipped ears and paws. By the amount of power emitting off of him I knew immediately that he was the current Head Alpha. I bared my neck in submission, showing him that I meant no harm. Assuming by the angry look on his face he thinks I'm a feral omega.

Alpha please don't harm me. I was just letting my wolf out for a run.

Alpha Ackles stopped growling at me and cocked his head to the side in confusion. You're part of my pack? I don't recognize your scrumptious scent. I blushed at his words. I don't think he realized what came out of his mouth, still I took the compliment.

You allowed me to join your pack along with my brother whose Omega is your third in command's sister.

What’s your name Omega?

Katherine Padalecki, alpha. My brother calls me Kat while your sister calls me Kitty.

Very well, Miss Padalecki. For some reason being called Miss Padalecki by him hurt.

When he went to walk by me our fur touched causing sparks to burst throughout my body. Alpha. When I looked into his eyes, I knew it was true.

We stood staring at each other for a few minutes.

I heard him sigh in my head. Look Miss Padalecki... I bowed my head so that he wouldn't see the tears forming in my eyes. I had always feared that my alpha would reject me, if I had ever found him that is. I'm sorry Miss Padalecki but I can't accept you, at least not right now. Maybe when you've reached the legal age we can be together then. It would make me feel more comfortable and I wouldn't feel like I wasn't pressuring you into anything. I mean being Head Omega at sixteen is a lot of responsibility so I think we should wait, even if it pains me to. I have been searching for you for years, but I am willing to wait until you are legal.

I lifted my head to look at my alpha. You think I'm sixteen?

My alpha cocked his head again. Aren't you?

No Alpha, I'm not sixteen. I'm older than that. I'm older than the legal age, I'm twenty-nine Alpha. I could see the relief in his eyes.

You look so much like a pup, ‘Mega.

I sighed. Yes, I'm very tiny for an omega wolf. People are constantly mistaking me for a pup when I'm in wolf form. There are quite a few abnormal things about me. So please if want me to give you another reason to reject me, let me know and I can give you plenty, but please do it quick.

He remained silent for a moment. Why would you think I would need you to give me a reason to reject you when not only could I come up with my own reason but I don't really need one. Do you not want an alpha? He cocked his head to the other side.

I whimpered slightly at the angry look in his eyes. It's not that I don't want you, Alpha, I do, it's just that my entire life I was told that I would never find my alpha. That I would be alpha-less because mine doesn't exist.

Obviously I do exist! You're an omega, aren't you? He barked into my head. I whimpered at the force of his fury. It reminded me of my previous alpha. So, I did what I did best when I didn't want to be used by my former alpha, I ran like hell.

I could hear Alpha Ackles growling at me. Before I knew it, he had caught up to me and had tackled me to the ground. I tried to get out from underneath him, but he just bit into my shoulder, not hard enough to break the skin - just in warning. I let out a fearful whimper.

Why did you run from me? Don't you know you're not supposed to run from an alpha?

I whimpered once again. I-I'm sorry. I won't do it again just please don't hurt me where everyone can see. By this time, I was visibly shaking. Alpha Ackles noticed just how terrified I was and eased his weight off me some -he still had me pinned to the ground but without as much force as before.

I'm not gonna hurt you, I would never hurt my omega. Why would you think I was gonna hurt you?

My former Head Alpha, Alpha Grey, whenever he was angry would use me to his advantage. He would always tell me that since I had no alpha and that I was unlovable it wouldn’t 't matter if he took me over his desk or not.

My alpha growled. It caused me to whimper again. What surprised me was when he began licking my fur to try and calm me down. Sure enough, it worked. I stopped trembling and soon he began to make me feel pleasures that were unknown to me.

He had no right to neither touch nor take what is mine. You Omega, are mine. He began rubbing his body against mine making sure that his scent was all over me as a warning to other alphas that I was his and not to be messed with. The more he rubbed, the more I wanted him.

Was I ready to willingly give myself to my alpha? I wasn't sure. My body sure was ready. He let out a husky growl once he scented my arousal.

You smell delicious ‘Mega. Mmm, you smell good enough to eat. My body shivered with desire.

Alpha? My voice full of lust.

Call me Jensen, baby girl. But I do love how sexy alpha sounds coming from your mouth.

Jensen...do you plan on mating with me? He stopped licking and rubbing his body against mine.

Do you want to ‘Mega? If you're not ready, then we can wait. I don't mind waiting until you're ready.

I don't know if I am. I mean my body is, but I don't know if I myself am. Does that make sense?

It does baby. We can wait if you want. Can I ask you something? You don't have to answer if you don't want to. When was the last time he took you?

Three months ago today, so the day my brother and I left.

Can you do something for me ‘Mega? Can you shift for me?

I hesitated. Not only did I not want him to see my body I didn't want him to see my scars either. It was abnormal for a wolf to scar since we healed so rapidly. Another abnormality that I didn't want him to see, but because he is my alpha, I shifted. His huge wolf body still covered my naked plus sized one. When he moved to sit in front of me to get a better look at my body, on instinct, I covered myself by trying to arrange my body in a fetal position. He growled at me.

He growled furiously upon seeing the words carved on back, courtesy of my old pack. There were words like whore, slut, unlovable, worthless, whale, fat, freak, and alpha-less.

Who did this to you? Jensen growled out. He may still have been in wolf form but since he’d accepted me as his omega, we were able to still communicate telepathically. Advantage of being mates with an alpha. Disadvantage, kind of at times, my side of the conversation was spoken out loud – like now.

"My former pack. They hated me because I was different."

He growled once again. There is nothing wrong you, you're perfect the way you are. Why didn't your brother stop them or was he in on it too?

"Jared never knew. He already had enough on his plate to have worry about me more than he ready did. He worked three jobs to keep us clothed, feed, and sheltered. You'll think differently of me when you see my eyes. You won't think I'm so perfect then."

What could be wrong with your eyes? Turn around and let me see, Kitten. I smiled slightly at the new nickname – and kind of reveled in the irony of it- and complied. I would cherish while I could.

I waited for the rejection to come. Unlike my wolf’s vibrate green eyes mine were a violet color and very cat like; I don't have a pupil; I had a slit. So, I pretty much do have cat eyes. No one knows why.

You have the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. Even more of a reason for me to call you Kitten, huh ‘Mega? His words shocked me.

"You're not gonna reject me…?"

Jensen's wolf gave me a look like, really? No, Kitten, I'm not. I would never reject what was destined and made specifically for me.

The biggest smile graced my face. I couldn't help myself as I ran and hugged Jensen. Not a moment later did I realize that I was still naked. I watched as his wolfy eyes trailed my naked body. It turned me on as he licked his lips in lust.

Lay down for me Kitten.

I did as I was told. Once I was on the ground, Jensen's huge body stood over the top of mine. His head leaned down and licked at my left breast. I let out a huge moan. Feeling his rough canine like tongue on me was heavenly. He liked the sound I made so he did it again and again. I was amazed when he took the nipple into his mouth to suck on it. Once he was satisfied with the attention, he gave my breast the appropriate amount of attention, he moved on to the other doing the same. Thank the moon goddess that we were out in the forest so that no one could hear my extremely loud moans. If his tongue was this amazing on my breasts, I can only imagine how heavenly it would feel in other places, if you get my drift.

As if hearing the trail of my thoughts Jensen began nuzzling his face down my body. When he reached the most sensitive part of me, he growled in approval. You smell appetizing. Do you mind if I taste you Kitten?

All I could do was whimper out a please.

He grinned a wolfish grin at me. Spread those amazing legs for me ‘Mega. Those scrumptious lookin' lips too.

I spread my legs then my lips. He licked his lips again at the sight of my soaked opening. He dove right in lapping at my heated core. It felt so amazing. I almost hit my climax when he got his canine tongue inside of me. His tongue was long enough to hit just the right magic spot. The entire time my moans and screams of utmost pleasure could be heard throughout the whole forest. I wouldn't be surprises if anyone outside the forest could hear me.

I was just about to reach my climax when Jensen stopped. I whined. Kitten, do you want me to mark you now or wait till we officially mate? It's up to you.

"Do you want to mark me as yours? Would you mind being tied to me and only me?"

I have waited for you for over a decade. There is no one else in this world I would want other than you. You were the one chosen to be mine and I wouldn't exchange you for the world. Hell, I haven't even slept with any other omegas. I was saving myself for my omega, for you.

"I wish I was able to save myself for you, I had every intention of doing so..."

Don't think about that ‘Mega. It's not your fault your last alpha was a monster. So, will you let me mark you now and do the public mark when we officially mate? I just need to make my claim somehow.

I nodded my head yes. That was all I could do. I didn't deserve an amazing alpha such as Jensen, but the moon goddess blessed me with him.

Jensen got back to work pleasuring me. He gave me the most earth-shattering orgasm I have ever had. It was so powerful I could see stars. He lapped at me getting all my spilling juices. Soon he was bringing me to another orgasm. Like the first time he stopped but this time he licked his way to my left hip and bit me leaving his mark, thus, causing me to have another earth-shattering orgasm. This time I did pass out from the intensity of his pleasurable tongue.

When I awoke, I was shocked at how warm and comfy I was. I opened my eyes to see a bare chest. My eyes trailed up to see the most beautiful face I had ever seen. My alpha was an Adonis. I trailed my eyes down to see his lower half was boxer-brief clad. Trailing lower to strong thunder thighs and amazing bowl legs. I looked at myself and saw he had put one of his flannel shirts on me. I was shocked that it fit me! The sexy bastard left me without underwear as well! I will get him for this.

Focusing my eyes back on his face I noticed that he had dark dirty blonde hair, almost a brown color. He had facial hair; I loved facial hair on a man. He had a scar on the left side of his chin. I wonder what the story behind that scar was. So, I apparently wasn't the only wolf shifter with scars. That made me feel a little better about myself. The closer I looked I could see freckles cover the base of his nose and the tops of his cheeks. I lightly giggled in excitement. I just couldn’t believe that I had an Alpha that truly wanted me! My giggling caused him to stir. His strong arms tightened around my overly thick waist.

"What's so funny my beautiful Kitten?" Oh, sweet moon goddess his voice sounded much sexier in human form. I almost orgasmed at the sound of his voice. He then groaned. "If you don't want me to make love to right this instant, I suggest you tone down that heavenly scented arousal of yours."

I don't know what came over me, but I began rubbing my lower half against his. "What if I want you to make love to me?" Jensen let out a moan that made me wetter than I already was.

Finally, he opened his eyes. They were the most beautiful green eyes I had ever seen. I was getting so lost in them. I could already see his love for me as well as desire and lust.

Continuing with my boldness I pushed against him so that I was straddling him. I could feel how well-endowed my alpha was. My core was right on his boxer-brief covered cock. It felt good. I gently rocked my hips causing us both to let out soft moans. Jensen put hands on my hips to try and hold me still.

"Omega, I'm serious. If you don't want to officially mate, please stop teasing me." My Alpha managed to get out.

"Oh, but you feel so good against my bare pussy alpha." Where the hell did that come from? Looks like my alpha brings out my inner slut.

Jensen bucked his hips up making his endowment rub harder against my core. Damn that felt good. "Oh, you are naughty my Kitten. I like those dirty words." He bucked into me again. "I wanna hear more dirty words come from that pretty little mouth of yours." He growled out.

I smirked down at my gorgeous alpha. I leaned down so my lips were touching his ear. "It felt so amazing having your wolf's tongue in my pussy. You really know how I like my pussy eaten. I can't wait to feel your mouth on my aching and soaking pussy again. I know it's gonna feel just as amazing to have your cock inside of me, pounding me into submission." I felt the vibration of his growl all the way to my heated core. "You like that Alpha? Do you feel how wet I am for you? Can your cock feel how much my pussy is weeping for it?"

Without warning Jensen flipped over with him still in between my legs but with my wrists raised above my head. His eyes were jet black. His wolf had come out to play.

"Don't tease me little kitten if you don't plan on mating."

I pouted playfully. "What if I want your hard cock pounding into my dripping wet pussy until you fill me to hilt with your cum? What if after you've knotted and filled up my pussy I wanna clean your cock with my mouth and make you hard again just so I can watch you come all over my pussy, drenching me inside and out with your cum. I want my pussy to be swimming and completely coated in your cum. I don’t wanna see an inch of bare skin, alpha." I wrapped my legs around Jensen's waist cause our lower halves to rub together, creating more friction. "That my darlin' is somethin' I want. Right. Now." I managed to break one wrist free and get it down his boxer-briefs, grasping his erect member. Jensen let out a gasp upon contact.

I pulled him out of his undergarments and began stroking him. His face contorted into one of pleasure. "Such a big boy. Does my hand feel good Alpha? You gonna be a good Alpha and give your omega exactly what she wants?"

Jensen's eyes opened, not the eyes of his wolf but still dark with lust and desire. "Are you sure this is what you want, Kitten? I don't want to make you do anything you don't wanna do and not because you think you have to. If you’re not ready, we can wait. I have no problem waiting for you to be ready."

My face went from seductive and playful to serious in no time. "I'm sure Jensen. I know you would never force anything upon me, let alone your body. I know you're not him. I want you Jensen, so much that it literally hurts. I am seriously aching for you to be inside of me."

He needed no more words of encouragement. He let go of my wrist and ripped open his shirt - what used to be his shirt I should say. Taking my hand off his erection I removed what was left of the shirt. He was quick to remove his underwear. He repositioned himself between my legs. "Before I make love to my beautiful omega, I am going to kiss you until you can't breathe. I haven't kissed you yet and I really want to." I was a little nervous. He would be my first kiss.

Jensen lowered his lips to mine. He gave me the most passionate first kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. I wanted to keep kissing him, not caring if we mated or not. I just wanted to continue to feel his lips on mine.

After making out for a good while, I began rocking my hips against his erection. Jensen broke the kiss to let out a groan. "Okay I get it baby girl. One pounding coming right up." He grabbed a hold of his cock and positioned himself at my entrance. Being the amazing alpha that he is, he entered me slowly so that I could adjust to his big cock. He was a lot bigger than my former Head Alpha. My walls were tight around him. It was slightly painful, I felt as if I was losing my virginity all over again. The difference is that this time it's with my real alpha and he is being so gentle with me, for now at least. Once he was completely buried inside of me, he stopped his movements. "Tell me when to move ’mega. I don't want to cause you more pain."

It was a moment before I thrusted my hips up to get him to move. At first, he moved slowly but gradually sped up his pace until it was to my satisfaction. Just like I wanted he pounded me into submission. The headboard was banging against the wall so loudly I was surprised no one tried to come in and check to make sure everything was okay. Although, I was glad no one did.

I could tell Jensen was reaching his end when he began sucking and licking the top of my left breast where he would place my other mark. Soon my alpha’s knot was expanding and filling me to the brim with his seed, so much so it was gushing out of me. Once again, he gave me an earth shattering orgasm but thankfully this time I didn't pass out.

Jensen pulled his teeth and cock, after it had deflated, out of me causing me to whimper and laid down next to me. He pulled me to him; I rested my head on his sweaty chest. We needed a moment to catch our breaths. Jensen kissed my forehead lovingly. "That was the most amazing experience ‘mega. I am so glad that I waited for you. There will never be anyone else who will ever be able to satisfy me like you can. So, my naughty omega, where have you been hiding this vixen?"

I hid my face in the crook of his neck. I was suddenly embarrassed for my behavior earlier.

"What's wrong Kitten? Do you regret it...? Was I not good?"

I whined at how sad and vulnerable my alpha sounded. "I could never regret the love we just made. It was perfect. I couldn't have asked for a better first time with my alpha. I just don't know what came over me. I'm not usually so... slutty and dirty. You... you make me feel beautiful and desirable, even if I am fat and covered in scars."

Jensen's wolf growled in anger. "You my love, are not fat! Yes, you have extra meat on your bones but that does not make you fat! You have the sexiest curves I have ever seen. If I ever hear you referring to yourself as fat again you will be punished. As for your scars they may be malicious words but on you they are beautiful. They are what make you who you are. I won't stand to hear you think or say anything negative about yourself. If I do you will be punished. Am I understood?"

"Yes, Alpha."

His face softened. "’Mega, you don't have to constantly call me Alpha. It makes me feel like I am inferior to you. You're my equal. The only time you are allowed to address me as alpha is when we are in the bedroom, okay baby girl?"

I nodded my head before placing it back on his chest. Listening to his heart beat I fell into a deep sleep.

When I awoke, I felt around the sheets for the warmth of my alpha and was saddened to only find coldness. I sat up in bed pulling the sheet up my body to cover up my nudity in case someone walked in. I felt freezing without Jensen's warmth.

Just as I was about to remove the sheet to find my clothes the door opened. I held the sheet tighter to me. I was so happy to see my alpha. He was in a fresh clean pair of boxer-briefs and he was carrying a tray.

When he looked up and saw me looking at him, he blushed. The alpha of the Wayward Sons Pack was blushing all because I caught him bringing me breakfast in bed. My alpha was too adorable.

"Are you blushing Mr. Ackles?" I couldn't hide the smirk on my face.

"I wanted to surprise my beautiful omega with breakfast in bed. So, forgive me for being a little flustered that you caught me." Jensen spoke as he sat next to me placing the tray over my lap.

On the tray were two half blueberry-half chocolate chip waffles. Some eggs and bacon as well as some cinnamon rolls. For beverages there was a glass of orange juice as well as a cup of joe, black just the way I like it. I couldn't forget about the beautiful white rose that accompanied everything on the tray.

I was speechless, breathless. This was the most amazingly sweet gesture any guy had ever done for me. Judging by what looks like dried batter next to his lips I'm gonna assume that he made all of this for me and it's my favorite breakfast foods no less.

"Is there something wrong? I can make you something else if you would like..." Jensen spoke out in a rush when he noticed my watery eyes.

I shook my head no. "It's perfect Jensen. How-how did you know all my favorites?"

"I called your brother...He's quite the intimidating guy. I can tell that you mean the world to him. It makes me happy to know that you have a protective brother like him."

My mouth fell open in shock. Again, I was speechless. "Thank you, for breakfast. It means the world to me that you would go as far as contacting my older brother to find things out. I really couldn't have asked for a sweeter alpha." I couldn't help leaning to my left side and kiss him in appreciation.

After a moment we broke away and began eating the delicious meal he had prepared. I swear that his food was orgasm worthy; it was that good. While munching on a piece of bacon I had a thought.

"Where is everyone? I mean I know that we were... loud... last night and yet no one came in to make sure we were alright. I'm not complaining that no one did I'm just shocked no one came to ask what the ruckus was..." It was my turn to blush. Thankfully, Jensen decided not to comment on it, this time.

"My room is soundproof. I knew that one day I would be bringing my omega, and only my omega, in here and I wanted to make sure that we would not be disturbed in any form so when the pack house was remodeled I had them make my room soundproof as well as any room that belongs to mates that choose to live here in the pack house."

My mouth formed an "o". "That makes sense. I am glad you had the room sound proofed otherwise I would have been very embarrassed if someone had walked in on us." Jensen smiled and kissed my forehead and we went back to eating in a comfortable silence.

Never did I would ever think I would ever find mate or any type of love. Who would have thought I would actually have an alpha’s love? I sure as hell didn't and I couldn't be happier.

Wayward Squad:

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This is what it looks like when the #spnfamily is dead set on fulfilling your one and only dream.

On Sept. 21st 2016 I was once again hit with sadness. I cried again and needed to vent. I wrote a post about my feelings and how upset I was that I would never be able to attend a convention with J2 attending. [see post]

A couple hours later my tumblr messenger alerted me of a new message. A message that changed my life.

@ladyroche: “Melanie, I want to help you. Every fan should have the experience and you have many supporters already...” Our conversation(s) went on for hours and, over and over again I explained to her that, if I can’t afford it myself, I have no business going to a convention. Thousands of other fans can’t go because they can’t afford it either, so why should I be given that chance? Why should anyone, but myself, worry about bringing happiness into my life and making sure my dream can come true? Those were just a few of the questions I sent Juli. But no matter how often I said I don’t deserve this and I have zero rights to be granted this one wish, Juli told me... “we [@ladyroche, @lipglosskaz, @electricmonk333] think that, if anyone deserves this, then it’s you. You deserve this and we will get you and your daughter to HousCon.”

I wasn’t convinced... neither of me being deserving of this, nor that anyone would actually be generous enough to support this massive quest. And yet, these three girls proved me wrong. After the first negative reply to Juli’s post, I suggested to call it quits and take the post down. Her answer was short and demanding: “Hells no, we are not taking the post down ever! We are taking you to Houston and placing you in the arms of J2 <3.”

I stayed pessimistic and made sure every donated cent would remain in my PayPal account so I could return it - in case the hate would become too much for me to handle.

Once it all started, Juli kept saying: “It’s happening, baby!” [gleefully quoting Danneel Ackles] - the second my daughter and I were on our way to the airport the quote rang in my ears and I found myself crying tears of utter joy, excitement and anxiety.

By now, most of you have seen the panels on YouTube and gif’ed the hell out of every scene that took place. So, there is not much left to say about that part.

What I do have to say is, that I have never felt so loved as I did during the con-weekend. I was given the opportunity to meet all these amazingly kind and lovely people I’ve only ever seen/talked to on tumblr. Of course, the first person I saw was Kaz ( @lipglosskaz ) - her beautiful smile woke me from a needed nap after arriving at the hotel. After I hugged her silly and spotted Sim ( @electricmonk333 ) at the front desk and patiently waited for her to finish her conversation with the lady there until I could finally throw my arms around her, hugged her long and proper, kissed her head (she’s tiny!) and felt the need to never let go. I’d like to mention again (since some people already did), that the wonderful and very talented Sim won the video contest at HousCon. When they announced the winner, and her name was heard through the speakers I couldn’t believe my ears. I mean, we all crossed our fingers and hoped she would win... but when she actually did I cried so hard I couldn’t calm down for a very long time. Sim walked up the stage to answer a couple of questions about the video and in her speech she mentioned things that just made so happy. I’m very proud of her and happy for her and I... yeah... she was the one who had to calm me down because I was just so damn happy for her winning the contest. I have no idea how, but I managed to record the whole thing - I need to upload it. Or send it to her. It was beautiful. Just like her face. xD

These two cuties, Maja and I got to share a room... best time ever! Because that way I was able to hug them whenever I felt like it. I bet Sim was annoyed with me though. I constantly worried about her... don’t hate me, please. I just love you, Ms. Frosty. Letting Sim go, on Sunday evening, however, was a sad moment. Simply because I’m not sure if it was the last time I’d ever get to see her. Saying goodbye to Kaz was just as sad... even though we didn’t mean to wake her (we had to leave Monday 5am), Maja and I couldn’t help ourselves to give her one last hug and smooches. Let me tell you all a secret: that woman is just as beautiful in the morning w/o make-up as she is all prettied up. Not fair. :P

I love you two with all my heart and I hope that we will meet again. I miss you!

Then Michael (@itsokaysammy) happened and the weekend turned into an emotional hug-fest. I’ve hugged him so many times I lost count. But that’s just what happens with cuties like him. You see ‘em, you hug ‘em, you get addicted. Whenever we saw each other I all but attack-hugged him, there was no escaping each other. I always loved him, but now, where I had the chance to actually see him face to face and talk to him, witness his honest smiles and bubbling with nerves of excitement... I just love him so much. ^-^ *kisses* (I’ll never forget how surprised Sim was when she realized how tall Michael is... xD So cute.) I miss you!

Another victim of my many hugs was the most adorable Kylie ( @sammyhale ). We never really talked on tumblr before. But, once we got to talk for the first time I fell in love with her. She’s so kind and loving and gives amazing hugs. I am beyond happy to have met her and got to spend time with her. She is a perfect mix of cool and shy and sweet. If you don’t love her, well.. you’re just wrong. xD I miss you!

There is one special person, without her I would have not even made it to the airport. This, of course, is not the reason why I love her so much. I love her because she has a heart of gold. She is smart, cute and cares so much it should be illegal. You know what all you’ve done to get Maja and me to HousCon - without you, especially without you, my dream would still be a dream. For that, I’m grateful. But I love you for being a wonderful friend. Thank you, Ally. ( @greatwallofsam ) No, I’m not crying right now. You’re crying. You’re perfect and precious and I miss you!

After one of the panels, Kaz introduced me to Destini ( @crabackles ). That was, by far, the most precious moment of all the introductions I’ve been through during HousCon. She looked familiar, but I couldn’t place a name to her adorable face - so I kept quiet. I treated careful with everyone after all. Because, let’s be honest, many folks would’ve rather not seen me at the con or at least knowing I’d not be able to go. She, obviously, was not one of them. I figured that the second Kaz introduced me with my tumblr URL. Immediately, Destini’s face morphed into a shock-surprise-squee-like-cuteness. “Oh my god. That’s you? That’s you! I LOVE YOU!!!! You are so amazing.” At first, I turned around, checking if she was talking to/about someone else. She’s a pure delight and I’m so happy I got to meet her. *kisses* I miss you!

The last person I got to meet, on Sunday, was the absolutely funny Sarah ( @jensenscomedyelbows ). She all but tackled me into a crushing hug and we fell on the bed in our room. “We made sweet love”, was her explanation of how we finally met! No bodily fluids have been exchanged. I promise. Though, it was a close call. The two of us got along perfectly and I had many interesting and joyful conversations with her. She might have fallen in love with me. The feeling is definitely mututal. I miss you!

Now, let’s get to the part where my dream became reality. ;)

With thanks to all the amazing people I got to spend the weekend with, I wasn’t as nervous as I thought I would be when the time came to see J2 in person for the first time. While the fundraiser for Maja and me was still running, and we weren’t sure if we could reach the goal, I was set on getting a Sunday ticket only, just so all the expenses could be covered. But someone (don’t worry Ainhoa & Juli, I won’t tell anyone it’s you) made damn sure that Maja and I would get the full weekend experience in form of copper tickets. However, do to a mistake by Creation regarding Sim’s seat, her whole group (which included us) was upgraded to Gold tickets (w/o autographs) before the whole shebang even started. I was crying in happiness for Sim, when they told her she would be upgraded. Though, once the lady said Sim’s group would be upgraded I couldn’t control my emotions any longer. I was shaking and crying and close to passing out. Never in a million years would I have expected this. Not ever. Not me. But it did and with this ‘luck’ we were able to access the famous Gold Panel. My heart was racing and my belly flip flopped so hard I wasn’t sure if I’d die, faint or get sick... or all of the above. Then, when Jared & Jensen were announced my knees felt weak, my hands were shaking and I mentally prepared myself for a face-dive to the floor. That didn’t happen though. Quite the opposite. The second these two dorks entered the stage, a wave of calmness washed over me, followed by an everlasting rush of happiness, with a sidedish of “OH MY GOD... IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING?! AM I HERE? IS THIS STILL ONE OF MY DREAMS?!” It wasn’t a dream, it was as real as it could possibly be. Once this realization kicked in, my hand shot up and I was ready to ask a question. Which wouldn’t have been a question. I wanted to give a shout-out to the people who made it happen, who made it possible for Maja and me to be there. Unfortunately, I wasn’t picked.

However, at the J2-photo-op I had the opportunity to talk to Jared for a short moment. I hereby apologize to the people in line, I really couldn’t help myself. I told him that the #spnfamily donated, so my daughter and I could fly in from Germany. As soon as the words were out of my mouth he pulled Maja into a giant hug and squished her long and proper and said “Dankeschön for being here.” I might have been a tiny bit jealous. Not out of jealousy, but because I know my kid, I revealed to him that Maja really doesn’t like being hugged. He said he was sorry and hugged her again. xD She let it happen and smiled at him. It was too cute. Another thing Maja doesn’t like, at all, is having her picture taken. That’s why it was a huge surprise to me when she decided to be in the photo op after all. Two minutes before it was our turn. ;) If she doesn’t initiate it, she will be grumpy and pull a face during every picture. Which was, why she decided to purposely pull a grumpy/annoyed face in the pictures. For the time of my short conversation and the Jared-Maja-hugs, Jensen was mostly blocked by Jared’s large frame. Like, seriously. The guy is so tall. And pretty. I had to force myself to take my eyes off of him and greet Jensen. He, too, was too pretty for his own good and all smiles and kind and thenI explained to them what Maja wanted to do for the photo. They seemed excited and comfortable with it. Thank god. Only when we got to pick up the photo did I see that Jared pointed at the grumpy German kid. ;)) And... why the right side of my neck was tingling and felt so warm. *blush*

In our Jared-Op, Maja wanted to be annoyed again. But before I had a chance to tell Jared, Maja walked up to him and handed him a gift. Gummy Bears, duh, of course. Again, he thanked her in German and I was a little surprised at that, because our J2 op was a few hours prior. For a short moment I had forgotten how smart Jared is and that, apparently, he has the memory of an elephant. “Of course I remember. You were here earlier. Dankeschön again.” Jared said. Well, that definitely made my day. If it was possible to love him any more, then this would have been the moment for it.

I will remember and cherish these moments forever. They were both so kind and sweet to my daughter it was magical.

Saying goodbye to all the wonderful people I met, all the great friends I made, was heartbreaking and I’m still crying because I’m not sure I’ll ever see any of them again. But amazing memories have been made and I will carry them in my heart forever.

When I first began looking for flights, checking air fares for every German airport and making sure I’d get the best deal I also compared regular roundtrip flights to jaw flights. To my surprise, the jaw flights came up with the same price as the regular round-trips. Which was, why we didn’t have to return to Germany on January 30th. Instead, we took a plane to NY - for a 6 days layover.

Why NY? Why 6 days? Because there is a person in NY who I love more than anything and with everything I’ve got. My wifey. Some of you might know her. The fic-reading yous know her... or, you have seen the posts I’ve mentioned her in. I’ve known her for about 4 years. We read each other’s stories without knowing who the person behind the many words was. At some point she was looking for a beta and I offered to help. And so our friendship began. I have never trusted anyone with my writing, other than her. We beta for each other, we brain storm together. But other than our mutual love for writing we simply get each other. A wonderful and deep friendship has been built over the years and, even though some days are so busy that we don’t get to talk, our thoughts are always with the other one. We never met before, and yet, it always felt like we have known each other for decades. We share personal things that neither of us would mention to anyone else. Early on I told her about the possibility of a jaw flight and the second I had messaged her about it she started making plans. Spoil us rotten, was one of them. And boy, did she spoil us. Maja and I had the greatest of times with her and her hubby... and their cute cats. They took us out for lunch, dinner, to the arcade, Statue of Liberty, Times Square, meet family members and the highlight of it all: she invited us to Disney’s Aladdin on Broadway. I have never seen anything like it and Maja’s jaw dropped left and right. The musical was absolutely amazing and getting to experience this wonderful show side by side with my favorite person on planet earth... well, let’s just say I’m slowly dehydrating because I’ve been crying so many happy tears within the past two weeks.

My beautiful wifey is an avid reader and one of the most talented writers (she writes more than those fanties we share in the fandom) I know. For weeks my daughter and I tried to come up with a gift to bring her. I know she would have liked something to remember us by, something to keep forever, something from our hometown. Unfortunately, our hometown is kind of sucky and we didn’t find anything worth bringing. I had to think it over and then, at HousCon, Megan Padalecki happened. Megan, as well as her parents were at HousCon promoting/selling her latest book. And I knew right away: What better gift to give a reader/writer than a signed book? As I greeted all three of them, Sharon Padalecki noticed that I wasn’t from Texas - or the US for that matter. So, I told her that I’m from Germany and that’s when Gerald’s interest spiked up and I talked to him about their vacations in Germany and the Autobahn... and how we both love the no speed limit. “The next time you’ll go 170 on the Autobahn you’ll remember me”, he said with a bright smile. I did, on our way home. I promised Megan to wear two seatbealts... but, since my car only has one for each seat I couldn’t keep that promise. Don’t tell on me. Fun fact: Three times I almost bumped into Gerald Padalecki at the hotel, because my legs were a little too fast. Not to mention when Sarah and I were in the elevator, it dinged open and he stood outside.. asking which way we’re going. He needed to go down - we up, so the doors closed. I said to Sarah: “So, that was Gerald Padalecki.” She looked at me like I have two heads...she had no idea who didn’t want to ride in the elevator with us until I pointed it out. ;)

Anyway... Megan signed the book for my wifey and my day was made. A few hours later Maja grabbed her pocket money and got herself a book as well... and, it shouldn’t be surprising - the elephant memory runs in their family - Megan remembered me... even remembered my wifey’s name.

None of this would have been possible without the genorosity of: [in order of incoming donations]

Juli, Alain St., Kathleen v.W., Tony K., Sim, Anna B., Kathie M., Nancy R., Kristina B., Yvonne Ch., Brett T., Kaz, Steph C., Catherine R., Andrea B., Charlene F., Samantha M., Mia P., Paula Ch., Ann-Chrstine P., Sally B., Ainhoa, Ally, Emily R., Taresa K., Mirijam M., Katherine H., Dorota W., Sarah J., Kenedy A., Laurie St., Kerry D., Melissa B., Stephanie G., Beatrice B., Bronwyn D., Catherine M., Erica M., Sally B. Jessica G., Sandra K.

Without Juli’s determination and optimismn I would have nothing to write about and nobody to thank for. All of this, is because of her love.

Thank you. Each and every one of you. Thank you for letting me live my dream, for giving me happiness... thank you for the millions of tears I’m still shedding.

Thank you #spnfamily.

I miss and love all of you!

#Jared Padalecki #Jensen Ackles #2017 #houscon 2017 #ddmhouscon #houscon #did i forget anyone?!#oh god #i hope not #freckled batman #100

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