#having a moment tonight where im like

[3-aem]

i can’t continue to draw gojo thirst traps like a madman i need to draw gojo cute again it needs to be the cute gojo era again please PLEASE

#grabs him #ITS BABY FACE GOJO OCLOCK #HES MY BABY GIRL AND IM PUTTING THE BABY IN HIS FACE AGAIN #ARGGGHHH #having a moment tonight where im like #GGGGGGGGGGGGGG #ive been feeling the pressure #bc i understand of my gojo eras #the nakey man is what most ppl probably know me for #but lets not forget the baby face era and before that the horror era

[napping-sapphic]

I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #today was….not good #and at one point i had a moment #where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it #but im still really hopeful it will happen some day #because all i want in this world is to feel secure #and for others to feel secure around me #and for everyone to feel secure around people they love #because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t #but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all #im manifesting it #im completely okay btw things just got a little rough #and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay #im gay and i like sleeping #also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever #im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight

[crabbunch]

ethubs to me is like. tfw you kill and die for someone so many times that you can't even grow tired of it. it's mundane, sure, but in the way that loving someone is mundane. blood becomes like waking up to them every morning- an expected but beautiful nonetheless way of things being. it doesnt matter if they're killing each other or their enemies or pretending to do one and actually doing the other to them it is an act of devotion. and not the dramatic kind. tfw you die and kill for someone so often that instead of loosing meaning it gains sentiment. this is not a tragedy anymore!!! they are ripping it apart with their hands and laughing!!! is there anymore power to an actor than that? than turning the story to a comedy? they're sooo sitcom core. of course they love violence- there's no reason to be afraid of dying when it's not the end. they'll have another go at it, and another and another and another and another. the grief is real, sure, as real as the bloodlust- it's just not the thing that lasts

#idk if im saying this well. got them on the brain tonight but like. #eugh. words. #i just think that. ok the central problem to the life games is that the death ISNT permanent. #the stakes feel real #especially in the moment #but if you take a step back. there's been four games. can you really say jimmy's died first everytime if he's done it four times? #the thing about death is that you can only really do it once. anything else is just a mockery of it #you have to balance the feeling of jumping off a cliff after murdering your partner #with the fact that they met again in last life. they remembered that. how do you reconcile that? #to me. personally. the life series works best when you treat it as the game it is #a choice. yaknow? they're choosing to play this with the knowledge that it will feel real. #and yeah its more fun to write fic where the deaths matter i guess #but i sort of feel like that's missing the point #ethubs. are they even ethubs if they dont have that history? #i dont really think so #ykanow? i dont think that its really the same without the 'dying; #not that they did. i mean. the blood was there. but then they kept being. oh im out of tags ok bye

[skitskatdacat63]

I meant to write more for a pt 2 lore post earlier but didn't end up doing so, so pls take these AU sketches(Mark & Jense and then some assorted sketchies)

#i should never have drawn them as catboys bcs now they appear as catboys in mind half the time 😭😭 #its only on paper but i drew more catboy sketches of them than whats included here 😭 #seb reminds me of my cat where hes being all nice and cuddly and then will bite you out of nowhere #seb in his frilly nightgown is very important to me!!! #i meant to draw both of them in nightgowns but brain wasnt worked too well tonight #so thats why these are mostly half finished #the bottom seb is too remind myself i have a regular art style 😭😭😭 #mark in this au is so funny to me. bro is tortured by having to be with seb like practically every waking moment #he basically is a offically provided live-in bestie 😭😭 #*based on real life thing. i think its funny how you can be royalty yourself + #but bcs youre not part of the imperial family you can still be reduced to the job of having to dress the emperor 😭 #^ so thats mark in this au #seb promoted him to an important role when he became emperor but still makes mark do his old duties 🤭🤭 #jense is in charge of all the horses and transport and things. thus: ye olde horse girl #im sorry but in historical AUs all f1 drivers are legally obligated to be horse girls. its literally canon #so sorry for the catboy sketch. it will happen again. #but ig i dont wanna go too deep into lore stuff in these tags cause yeah. another post in the works!! #i think about it and have talked about it a lot. but its hard to like contain all of it to bullet points and such #my brain is not built for writing fic i think so idk of youll ever get that from me. but lore yes i will deliver #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #jenson button #mark webber #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art. #formula 1 #boy king au

[skrunksthatwunk]

ok the last post i reblogged sent me on a minedai spiral and i wrote a massive textpost i didn't actually finish and watched like 30 mins of cutscenes including the whole finale rooftop stuff [yakuza 3 spoilers to follow] and god WHAT THE FUCK I'm actually crying like multiple consecutive tears over fucking. MINE YOSHITAKA. not that he's not worth it but i Did Not Care That Much when i first saw that scene but after spiralling over his emotions i am apparently DEVASTATED. cannot stress enough that i do not cry very often at all. this is a rare event. but it's just so fucking sad. when you know what's happening and what's going to happen and how mine feels the atmosphere is so fucking miserable and mournful. god. fuck. the way he looks at kiryu when he's like what are you going to do to daigo you bastard. THE GUILT THE HESITATION. HE'S NOT WELL. the love of his LIFE got hurt under his protection and he is NOT HANDLING IT WELL HE'S HANDLING IT SO FUCKING BADLY that he's decided to kill him because he's basically dead and he can't stand waiting for the other shoe to drop. he's losing his mind over this he's actually losing his entire purpose and ideology and he's fucking. gay as hell. and the way he says "oh yeah you know how it was growing up as an orphan. no one trusted or loved me. i had nothing" when, frankly, kiryu DIDNT have it that bad. but he did lose those people, one of whom's death has a striking resemblance to mine's in a minute. idek how i wanna unpack that rn. like he just assumes it's universal and it's not. but if they grew up in the same circumstances who's to say kiryu wouldn't have ended up like him? and when he collapses after the fight and his secretary calls him and he tries to open up to her about the shallow but meaningful (to lonely ass mine) relationship they have and she starts talking about stock exchange bs and he's like kiryu do you ever feel like your world is falling apart around you. he's been worried sick he's been agonizing he almost killed his dead beloved chairman. and the way daigo uses the same gun mine used to shoot at kiryu and was gonna use to kill him to save mine and kiryu. how his first lines are that he's not ready to die yet. how mine cowers and falls to his knees when daigo wakes up. fuckkk dude. and how mine starts all rational and explanatory and calm in tone and when kiryu starts pressing him he starts freaking the fuck out and when daigo wakes up he finally has a mournful tone. him saying he doesn't deserve to live but not admitting he betrayed daigo. he never even told him he loved him, as far as we know. (god the fact that it still manages to be devastating even with richardson's CHOICE acting and daigo's coma trickshot is insane.) and how he tells kiryu he hates those who always try to help others even when that's the trait that drew him to daigo, and when he lets kiryu help him (read: beat a moral into him) he wishes he'd met him sooner, as if the belief that there wasn't only one person who could care about him would have saved him has set in, as if he realizes now that he never accepted help and that's why he was wrong about those do-gooders, and that perhaps he was wrong about them and himself, that it wasn't because they were lying to him or because he was unlikable, but that he did not let them in. because that's literally what's happening. AND I FUCKING. FORGOT DAIGO ASKS KIRYU IF MINE WAS THE TRAITOR AFTER HE WATCHES HIM FUCKING KILL HIMSELF AND KIRYU SAYS NO HE WOULD NEVER BETRAY YOU. HE LIES TO COVER HIS ASS BECAUSE HE UNDERSTANDS HOW BROKEN HE WAS ABOUT THIS AND CANT BEAR TO RUIN HIS IMAGE IN THE EYES OF THE ONE PERSON MINE REALLY CARED ABOUT, REALLY LOVED. FUCKS SAKE.

#anyway. mine and kiryu son-in-law + father-in-law unity is underrated those two would be close if mine lived i feel #watching the cutscenes i just kept pausing and yelling WHAT THE FUCKKKK and bawling #having a serious Minedai Moment here in the skrunks household tonight #it's been like 2 hours im not kidding #minedai #rgg #mine yoshitaka #i didnt get it at first but i get it now. god #holy shit #that bit where he's like i could have any woman i wanted. but it was all a lie. so i sought out male bonds instead to see if love existed #congrats on figuring it out babe!!! you're a homosexual <3 #yakuza 3 #fucking. he thinks orphans are entitled he's such a capitalist I SHOULD NOT LIKE HIM #but hes. so fucking unhealthy about that man #insaned in the membraned about him tonight in ways i legit never would have expected. i am eating my bedsheets #hes such a funny character and he's ruining my night /pos #i have only played y3 once but the more i think about it the more it's like. i reaalllyy like yakuza 3 apparently and i didnt even know lol

[professorsta]

If you notice after Clint and Past coupled, Clint was already prepared to tell Past about his little figurine and all his childhood traumas. He just needed a good fuck to get his guard down and he was off to talk about himself all day Present Fucked it up when he slid in right after Clint had slid out

#Clint was scared ! #he's me he used humor sarcasm and tryna make the other person feel dumb #to cover up the fact that I am Frightened #and when he and Past had their moment where he was like Oh #so tonight's ghost wont All be ugly old angry men who like to yell at me #cool cool cool less scary maybe a quick fuck will bring some control and clear focus to this whole um #situation I'm finding myself in #and then she just left! #hes in this nerve wracking experience all you had to do was fuck him #and let the guy talk about his little action figures after as a gateway to trauma #present you should have fucked him that's all im saying if you wanted a quick fucking open hearted Clint #his post sex brain is his trauma dumping mode #spirited #Clint Briggs #present #ryan reynolds #will ferrell #a christmas carol #spirited 2022 #Clint x present

[crowtits]

okay im late to the party but like. are y'all taking claire/carmy seriously? bc like all this narrative framing is presenting a very clear choice between claire and the restraunt. this is not even me having my syd/carmy hat on (tho, yea it's on), im talking about the actual commitment that carmy has to the restraunt. everyone is concerned about his focus (the fridge as the most obvious example), and carmy keeps saying that he is focused but claire is always there (as a thought or a phone call if not in person). she literally calls him as he is about to call the fridge guy in ep9. the one thing that everyone's been asking him to do, and while he doesn't answer her call, it distracts him and then he gets distracted further by something else. this is Right After the big talk with uncle jimmy about focus. this can't be any more obvious.

im not saying i dislike claire, im saying the show is not presenting her as an actual character. like. this is 100% a set up for carmy having to choose between claire (a stand in for a normal life/personal happiness) and the restraunt (the restraunt)

#literally she's an er resident #AN ER RESIDENT #how does she have just oodles of free time to hang out with carm and #always be there at the exact right moment? where's the missed calls and the sorry can't tonight's on her end? #she could have had any other profession and it wouldve been more realistic #that's just a personal pet peeve of mine sorry #again there's nothing wrong with her im not trying to bash her #this is just the logical conclusion of the narrative clues im sorry #the bear #also the fact that she's been in a lot of scenes #and i feel like i know more about tiff than claire #and tiff's been in like 2 scenes total (up to ep 9) #claire's basically just carmy's girlfriend #like it feels like she has no wants or needs of her own? idk

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I started watching Naruto bcs of your lovely fanart and was no one going to tell me Sasuke and Naruto kiss in like episode 2 like they r gay ur honor

Just wait, on a list of reasons why sasuke and naruto are gay for eachother, the fact that they kiss twice onscreen wouldn't even make the top 3

#i mean im not there yet but pretty sure there like actually legit soul mates? like 2 souls tied by fate and the gods? #and they say the most fucked up romantic things ive ever heard to eachother #and narutos behavior after sasuke leaves is so fucking wild. he goes screaming across the countryside like WHERES SASUKE???? #there is a point where literally everyone is telling him sasuke has to die and naruto is face down sobbing into the snow like nooo pls #spare him. ill bring him home #and they keep cutting back to their ep 2 kiss like in serious moments to show the bond between them which is fucking so insane #and i mean i kno we're building up to sasuke realizing how much naruto cares and deciding hes done running. and its just so fucking much #ill draw some narusasu tonight. bc i haven't seen sasuke in so long bc i went back to watch the naruto s7 and 8 filler #naruto #also glad to have infected u lmao. it took 5 seasons for the obsession to hit me so i wish u luck

[xbadnews-a]

tonight i've been almost entirely unavailable ooc! I've been painting & drawing & listening to cr. i just haven't been in the right headspace to be talking to people so I've stayed mostly to myself <3

#ooc. #tbd. #it's nothing personal to anyone i have a stack of messages i have just been Unable To Open tonight #i've been feeling really lame lately / like kind of a Shitty Friend so i just have been isolating a little more than i probably ought to #not entirely!!! #but still more than i probably should bcs i would rather work through the feelings than put myself at the center of others' attention #( not saying tht for pity it is a Me Issue & I'll work through it i just want to be blunt abt where I'm at ) #i had a huge emotional high in recent months that i rode Hard & usually a low hits right after a high but it took a bit longer to get me #but i'm figuring shit out internally it's just a Process i do better on my own #bcs i have a lot of Weird Irrational thoughts that are my reality in the moment but if i put them out there then they become more permanent #if that makes sense??? #idk dude im Certified Insane #it's 6am & im venting in tumblr tags its what i do

[britneyshakespeare]

why does scheduling my work days give me so much stress and anxiety

#i was supposed to do my first day at the high school today but i had literally so much anxiety i could not fall asleep last night no matter #what. i had so much dread. i took so much melatonin lol. #i could shut my brain off till i went into the application and deleted my schedule for the day #ive just been feeling so fatigued and exhausted since i got covid it's crazy. sometimes i'll have bursts of energy where im productive #but yesterday i was just so tired from loading the washing machine. just. fucking sorting clothes and putting them in #that i had to lie down on the floor for a few minutes in the middle of it #not my finest moment #tales from diana #i didn't have anything scheduled for tomorrow and i thought 'maybe if i feel better tonight ill call in' #but i dont feel. super better tonight. and the only thing that i could do tomorrow at my preferred school is kindergarten subbing #for like the main classroom teacher. which i havent done before so i figured 'yeah im not gonna get my anxiety up 2 days in a row' #i deserve to sleep tonight after all and i think if i committed to that i wouldnt be able to #but i am going into my elementary school on wed-thur-friday of this week. wednesday is only a half day but they'll probably find smth for me #to do in the afternoon. they usually do. and im fine w that. #idk im just much more comfortable in my elementary school. i guess bc ive worked there before and i went to school there #as a wittle student waaaay back in the day. like i know the building and it doesn't scare me and i know a good amount of kids there #and the staff don't intimidate me. so yeah. #i did schedule my first job at the high school FOR REAL THIS TIME and it's next friday. hopefully ill be doing better by then. #im working the thursday before it at the elementary so i'll be in the rhythm of that. idk how to explain it but it's harder to go back #to work when ive taken a day off. like that's also why im not going in tomorrow. #friday (4/07) was the first day i worked since i got covid and that was fine but also. i was so anxious just to go in. #and so so so so tired when i got home. and all weekend. #yeah i wasn't ready to start working at the high school today. that was nonsense. #hopefully all will go well on wednesday thursday and friday of this week. im trying to restore my energy and fix my sleep. thatll do wonders #i hope. i hope i hope i hope

[luvevee]

Not the oddest guest but definitely a surprising one

#yeah that's a starling in my basement #i heard my mom scream because it 'came at her' lol #mom begged dad to let it stay tonight because it's subzero and windy outside and he relented despite his inner nature conservative #like I know it should be put down too but i don't have the heart to do it and i was ok with it staying the night #but mom asked me if i could offer it food because it's super dazed and weak so i said ok #and yeah just fed it some crickets for my gecko with my tongs #it was pretty hungry once it realized i wasn't trying to kill it lol #it's still down in the laundry room but mom's happy and dad's softened up to letting it stay lol #i wasn't gonna really do much with it since i thought it was just chilling out but i was open to feeding it when i saw how exhausted it was #yes it's bad to feed wild animals but this is a circumstance where i think it's acceptable #it's not being treated like a pet we're leaving it alone and going to release it in the morning when the storm clears #dad thinks it was in a box he took downstairs last night because the door was open #only way it could've gotten in basically #and yeah that's my mom texting me lol #but yeah it's a cute moment just this is a special circumstance of interacting with a wild animal like this #yeah im a nature nerd about this stuff like my dad but dif is I'm too pussy to kill an animal even if it's invasive #I'm rambling lol #anyways mom named him Nickolas and I named him Larry so whichever name you like i guess #rosebud posting 💐

[darth-does-stuff]

sometimes i think that i don’t really get dysphoric or have any doubt about my identity with being trans and then i experience nights like last nights and. hoo boy

#it wasn’t even like crushing dysphoria it was just #so much doubt. just so much. #and it wasn’t the kind where i looked in the mirror and i hated how i looked #it was just being so confused about if i was really trans #unease and second guessing myself #and then it translated to my interests and stuff and it was bad #i just felt tired and bored and so lost and it was #bleh #-100/10 would not recommend #we’re doing better tonight though we’re doing better #in the gender sense not physical i have a killer headache and it’s the middle of the night lmao #god thinking about last night and how i felt really is just so tiring #nothing even brought it on there was just sudden doubt. i was overthinking and second guessing #i kept asking myself if i was really trans do you feel that this is right #that fucking shit #and then somehow i don’t know how that translated to my interests??? #like one moment im questioning my gender and the next i experience this thing of. not interested in anything #except dimension 20. that interest was still there thank god #but i suddenly didn’t feel like writing or drawing or making sanders sides stuff #i was just. tired and lost and it sucked #well there’s my little rant i’m gonna sleep now lol #tw dysphoria #rant #vent #don’t really know what to tag it as lmao #once again i’m better tonight so dw

[pathofelation]

i keep remembering i'll be going into emergency medicine and i am filled with both so much joy and so much fear. like.. woah dude.. i was not expecting to get this far. you mean i'm really gonna do that? you mean i am given the privilege to help people like that? you mean i am given the chance to be in a position to serve my community and the people around me in such a tangible way? you mean the kid i never got to be would be happy to see me now? like woah.. hey there.. let me sit down for a second that's a lot.

ignore the essay i wrote in the tags. it's a night /humorous

#personal #<- might start tagging these. ok to rb/like/reply/etc it's mostly for me or filtering haha #going through a Lot right now #and. it's weird #i usually don't feel much. at all #my feelings have always been super duper diluted. especially positive ones. #anger is probably the Only feeling I've ever felt like. raw. burning. etc #hope is such a weird feeling #like. it's dull. but it's there #i don't think i have ever felt happy. like in a “my brain literally does not have the capacity for it” way #but i think this is the closest i have ever gotten #when i reflect on where i came vs where im going #its weird #you mean.. there's life after surviving?? #nuts. #and it's like. weird. because i should be really really sad right now #for personal reasons #but it's like. #i don't know #it's weird #everything's kind of numb but not really in a bad way. per usual. but it feels like there's a glimmer of something different #you spend you're whole life in a dark tunnel waiting to see the light that you start to wonder if it's even real #if “light” is just some made up story. like the ones parents tell their kids to get them go ready easy at night #but you trudge forward despite for it. because if light is not real #then #well #maybe the concept of light itself is real enough as is #through the pursuit of happiness you will find happiness #sorry idk why im so. poetic tonight im kinda having a moment #tl;dr I've spent my whole life expecting to die imminently and I'm shocked to see that things can‚ do‚ and are getting better

[bahrmp3]

。

#bc good things (🙄) come in three im now wondering if this is a haha im in danger. gif moment 😔😔😔 #I was talking with a frirnd/classmate I go home with on the state of things and the topic of living abroad came up #she was like (my friends sister has moved to usa and her kids is having gay things shoved down her throat at school #+her teacher doesn't see any thi v wrong with this the kid has classmates with two mums or two dads they see gay pda down the street #+I wouldn't be able to move there bc of this) I tried going (idc as long it's kit affecting me) and through grinder teeth (ill make sure to #teach my kid right if that's the case) and she brings up Disney so I go (Disney is an immoral company before doing these things) and to #tell the truth I'm many things but I can never bring myself to outright condemn which I fear will one day fuck me up last friend who I saw #movies with pls don't be homophobic too pls I'm on my knees here but it truly came out from no where did not expect these topics tonight #personal

[valandherweekofwonders]

whoopee.

#feeling um funny and loopy tonight wahoo #its easy for me to get so silly and weird oh my god #like it starts off fun but now im starting the spiral of paranoia where everyone actually hates me and wants me gone and i hate it #i just need to eat and sleep and ill be fine but 😐 have i not cried enough lately? #have i not publicly embarrassed myself enough in just the last week????? #moments like this make me want ro withdraw entirely from socializing and just isolate for a month but i know that's not how it works #i just feel so embarrassed over things i said and did and being wishy washy #whatever its life

[rafayelism]

dating the love and deepspace boys | domestic moments

featuring: rafayel, xavier, and zayne x gn!reader

(´• ω •`) ♡ modern au! can you guys tell raf is my favorite..?

rafayel

a year younger than you. lies to everyone (including you) that he’s actually two years your senior. you only found out he was younger than you when you met his parents, who have his birth certificate framed. 

hates cats. despises them. they fill him with rage (fear). says he’s allergic (he’s lying).

“oh shit raf, this sucks! i guess you can’t move in with me.. i have cats”

“...you have cats?”

“yeah. 3.”

“i’m not allergic. i can move in tonight.”

chronically online. minoring in marine biology and majoring in annoying you. texts you over 200 times a day and if you don’t respond, he’s faking a horrible chronic illness. again. it’s amnesia on wednesdays, appendicitis on thursdays, chronic migraines on fridays… etc..

he has 2 followers on his private twitter. you and thomas. 

over 700k followers on instagram for some reason? he sells paintings on depop (he says it's depop but you’re convinced he sells them for heinous prices on the black market) 

cooks on occasion? has an apron that says kiss me im irish (he's not irish?) made you a tuna cupcake once?? 

pescatarian. not in the vegan/vegetarian way where he refuses to eat red meat but because he’s absolutely feral over fish. (is this cannibalism? he says its not)

lives in a 2 bedroom apartment with you but doesn’t use his bedroom. says your bed is comfier. turned his bedroom into a painting studio (IT’S for the black market you say!!) and sleeps with you. 

“raf,” you sigh. “don’t you have.. homework or something?” 

he sits between your legs, back against your chest as he scrolls through his phone. 

“yeah,” he says. you flick the back of his head because you know he’s smirking. “it’s called assignment: you. due in two minutes.” 

with his free hand, he reaches back mindlessly to grab yours. you sigh, fingers intertwining with his, a reflex as he leans his head back. his eyes meet yours and you can’t help but laugh. 

“well?” you ask, brushing his hair out of his eyes as he squeezes your hand. “what are the assignment details?” 

he chews on the bottom of his lip as he thinks, humming while his eyes wander across your face. he swings your interlocked hands in circles. it’s raining outside, the heater is on, and rafayel is warm like hot chocolate. 

“what?” he says, his cheeks a tinge pink. “you’re looking at me like that again.” a pause. he turns, his head now buried in your chest.

“just studying my homework.” you say, hands instinctively wrapping around his back. the laundry machine is running in the background, rain is falling against the window, and you faintly hear your rice cooker dinging in the kitchen. home, you think, is with rafayel.

“i can hear your heartbeat.” he says, voice muffled. “it’s super fast. you like me or something?” 

“i really like you.” you say, without skipping a beat. rafayel groans into your chest, sighing in discontent. 

“no fair. i’m supposed to be the flirter.” 

you press a kiss onto the top of his head and you feel his body melt into yours. the two of you fall into a warm silence, his breath steady as he traces paintings into your neck. 

“raf?” you mumble, eyes drooping. he hums in response. “did you pass your assignment?” 

he smiles. “with flying colors.” 

xavier

chronic napper. (yapper?) 

has 100 late assignments. failing all of his classes yet got into the top university in your country because he got a perfect score on his entrance exams. you thought he was a nepo baby (turns out he’s just.. smart?)

his procrastination rubs off on you… he is the WORST distraction and he knows it. so smug about it and uses it to his own advantage. will perch on top of you when you’re studying and kiss down your neck until you go to sleep with him. 

lives in the apartment on top of yours but is at your house most days, if not all. you ask him to move in.

“am i not already.. living with you?” 

“don’t you still have your apartment, though?”

“yeah..?”

 is that good for the economy?? is it financially smart? not at all, but he’s too lazy to move out and put his apartment up for lease. 

xavier sleeps with his legs entangled with yours and his arms wrapped tightly around your chest. the air conditioning hums in the background as you scroll mindlessly on your phone, dimming the brightness as you hear xavier stir. 

“sorry xav, did i wake you up?” you ask. he doesn’t respond, blinking the sleep out of his eyes as he glares at your phone. 

“xavier?” you question, swallowing a laugh at his ruffled hair and disheveled clothes. 

“phone down.” he says, voice raspy with sleep and an octave lower than usual. you raise an eyebrow at him. 

“can i get a pretty please in this economy?” 

xavier’s eyes narrow as he snatches your phone away, snoozing the device and placing it on the nightstand next to you. his lips ghost your neck, pressing kisses against your skin as he mumbles incoherently in the dark of your bedroom. 

“xavier-” you breathe, giggling at the sensation. “that tickles!” 

he nips at your neck. 

“bedtime. now.” 

zayne

3 years older than you 

he literally has his whole life together at 27 which scares you so much

“my credit card is your credit card” typa boyfriend

cooks. cleans. has a 9-5. you’re interning at the hospital that he works at (he’s head doctor!!)

you’re just a sweet little intern and zayne is the big bad monster!! everyone at work thinks he hates you because he’s extra strict on you. doesn’t give you any special treatment, ‘ignores’ you most days (but also slips meals into your locker and hands you heat packs on cold days in the hospital)

no one knows he’s dating you until one day someone sees you leaving in zaynes car. 

“oh, you carpool with doctor zayne?”

“huh? no, we live together.”

“you WHAT???”

he’s a virgo……. erm……

the two of you get ready together in the morning. his guard is down when he’s sleepy and he’ll cling to you as he brushes his teeth and does his hair.

you wake up to the cold night breeze, blinking the sleep out of your eyes and shivering as you scan your surroundings. you yelp as you meet the attentive gaze of your boyfriend. 

“huh? whuh? huh?” you splutter, squirming as zayne holds you tighter. he’s carrying you bridal style in his arms, his jacket around your shoulders as the two of you walk to his car. you see the bright lights of akso hospital fading away behind the two of you. 

“it’s two am,” he says calmly, placing you down gently as he opens your car door for you. “you waited for my shift to end. again.” 

you smile bashfully, rubbing the back of your head. “well, i didn’t wanna just leave you!” 

zayne clicks his tongue against the roof of his mouth, eyebrows furrowed but gaze warm. he guides you into your seat, clicking your seatbelt in place. 

“you can nap on the way home,” he says, closing the door and sliding into his side of the car. 

the heater’s on already- courtesy of his super expensive electric car. he fastens his own seatbelt and hands you a hot tea and bread from the hospital vending machine. 

“drink up. doctor’s orders.” 

you grin before he leans over to press a kiss on your lips. 

“thank you for waiting for me.”

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