#he has given up already on talking

[mattodore]

OC Questionnaire with Matthias

Name: Matthias Saint Evanoff.

Nickname: N/A.

Gender: Male, he/him.

Star sign: Aries sun, libra moon, scorpio rising.

Height: 193cm or 6’3”.

Sexual orientation: Homosexual.

Nationality/Ethnicity: Polish, born in America.

Favorite fruit: Plums.

Favorite season: Summer.

Favorite flower: Brassavola and Brassocattleya.

Favorite scent: Sea salt.

Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: Coffee.

Average hours of sleep: 1-3 hours, if he sleeps at all.

Dogs or cats: Neither. Matthias isn’t a fan of pets. He has a cat, though. Her name is Odious.

Dream trip: Anywhere with Theo.

Number of blankets: Matthias sleeps in silk sheets and nothing else. He’s a temperamental sleeper and gets warm and feels constricted too easily.

Random fact: When he’s alone he frequently talks to himself in Polish. He also talks to the flowers in his garden and Theo while he sleeps.

tagged by @bunmou in this <3 i feel like i’ve already said so much about my ocs at this point that most of this is common knowledge but nevertheless i will still be talking about it lmao. will go ahead and tag @wldestluv-rs, @omgkayplays, @fizzytoo, @rottengurlz, @void-imp, and @birdietrait <3

#good morning definitely meant to post this right after the proper edit i made last night but fell asleep 😭😭😭 #river dipping #oc extras #matthias evanoff #echthroi #ts4 #i feel like i always do theo when given free pick in these tag games so i’m switching it up with matthias #should maybe have done one of the lykos ocs instead but 🤷 #dropping matthias’s big three here 😁 #aries with a scorpio rising like PLEASEEEEE pick a struggle #also libra moon <3 like yeah of course he’s obsessed with theo #think it’s funny that matthias’s height has technically changed but he’s still 6’3’’ #cm > inches #have i talked about why his middle name is saint………? #it’s his mother’s maiden name #esther saint -> estera evanoff #ALSOOOOO ‼️‼️‼️ if you’ve done this already my bad i’m getting to this tag a little late 😔

[elizabethrobertajones]

I'm actually kind of mad after wearing a knee brace (with patella support!) for 2 days because I just went down for breakfast not wearing it and my kneecap was wobbling loosely in its socket like it's done for years and I could FEEL how wrong it was and just had the biggest "you LIVE like this??!" moment and now i GUESS I am wearing a knee brace every time I go near stairs forever because it turns out it's not ideal if parts of your body have their own plans for every joint movement.

Mobility aids <3

#mad at myself for not even noticing it was weird even though I've known I have the stretchy joints for years now #honestly I need a full like. Scientific observation from behind glass hooked up to machines and doing silly little tasks for science week #please find out what is happening in here #I also got 1 ankle support and out of curiosity slept in it last night #and omg one foot resting upright made me realise how much the other was flat on the bed #when I lay on my back #the same thing that got me diagnosed in the first place #the rheumatologist who'd just told me I don't have cancer because of the bloodwork had me lie down to examine #he took one look at my flat fuck friday feet and like actually yelled in alarm and recoiled #which took some explaining #anyway he poked and prodded me but he already had said 'oh you have hypermobility and it's given you fibro' #this is why specialists also have to keep up with all the other medicines too :P #(i spent a weekend with my medic friend recently and she has Stories oh my god) #(was too busy talking to look at my feet even as I told her I'd dislocated my ankle and knee as we talked XD) #POINT IS I'm very slow to notice things about my condition #I quit chocolate for a year because I worried it was giving me migraines #and was too busy having migraines to notice the chocolate wasn't what gave me migraines

[skyburger]

"fnaf is the scariest game ever" "no its silent hill" "well i think its resident evil" everyone shut up!!!!!! youre all wrong. its actually zack & wiki quest for barbaros' treasure (on the nintendo wii) but only the level "keeper of the ice". that level scared me so bad as a kid and you can tell because its the only individual level i remember the name of off the top of my head. like there is nothing scarier than a) being chased and b) being on a time limit. and you know what this level has? BOTH OF THOSE. this level is still scary to me im like AHHHHH!!!! and then i die

#i had to google horror games after i thought really hard for silent hill and fnaf #because like. resident evil is just not a horror game in my mind... its just cool zombie game... #to be fair though. the only one i actually played a portion of was re6 which is probably the least scary one in the whole series #anyway do the kids still find silent hill and fnaf scary. i dont know. #well the former id say yes given how prevalent ps1 horror has been in recent years #fnaf i have no idea. im a massive wuss so its scary when i play it for myself #but watching someone else play them especially when i know them well isnt scary #and ive watched fnaf videos for YEARS #so i dont know. (old man voice) these damn kids... back in my day we watched markiplier scream at freddy fazbear and we LIKED it! #anyway its objectively a horror game and thata literally fine thats all i needed for this post #MY POINT HERE. my point here #IS THAT HIT ZACK AND WIKI LEVEL KEEPER OF THE ICE. IS SOOOOO SCARY #its not that scary but i see tjat level and im like 3 years old making my mom play this level for me again #and for the record yes me and my sister really did make our mom help us with z&w #she remembers helping us with frost breath the most because we like did notttttt get that one at all #and she could never remember how to do the mirrors based on what combination of stands is there (because tjeres like a few variations) #so she always had to look up a guide 😭😭 #my poor mother on fucking gamefaqs or something in like 2010... legends only #anyway if you have no idea what level im talking about (any of my oomfs reading this that isnt end) (hi end) PLEASE look up this level #and i need you to think of like a 5(?) year old making her mom play this game. #this aforementioned child is still a massive wuss as an adult btw. some things never change #anyway watch that level and think about how someone like me. whos already a scaredy cat! #imagine how someone like me felt at age 5 possibly younger playing this level #I WISH I COULD LIKE CONVEY EMOTIONS OVER TUMBLR. why cant i attach a .emotion file to this post #anyway ramble over <- hes said that like a million times today #scariest level in a game ever...!!!!! FUCK that keeper of the ice bitch im GLAD he died #muffin mumbles

[gibbearish]

it is fascinating seeing ppl say "if you still vote biden just bc he's protected trans rights youre putting your own rights above that of the other people he'll kill" bc i'm like. well that operates under the assumption the Not Biden Option won't be killing those same other people Plus Trans People and given the history of presidents i would say that is a. how should i say this. wild fucking assumption? like idk framing it as "hello transgender, would you rather kill a bunch of non-americans or a bunch of fellow trans people. oh, you don't want to kill trans people? so you personally want to kill non-americans? racist selfish piece of shit" seems uhhhhh disingenuous at absolute best and a psyop at worst

#like my dudes we are literally in the trolley problem as we speak #do you think we like. enjoy living in a country where voting is just 'which one do you think will kill less people'? #ur standing there saying 'if you pull the lever then the guy who tied those people to it will take that as a sign he did the right thing' #and its like. idk i dont think he wouldve tied them there to begin with if he didn't already think he was in the right i gotta be real w u #or honestly its less the trolley problem and more just #'you have access to the orphan crushing machine control panel. theres no off switch but there is a speed dial which is cranked all the way #up. do you turn it down?' #where if you try to turn it down someone will pop up going 'youre such a piece of shit for killing those orphans by adjusting the speed #rather than destroying the machine' #and if you try to point out that the machine is a trillion times bigger than you‚ is made of titanium‚ and has defensive turrets #that gets brushed off as making excuses #and its like.. well ok why arent /you/ destroying it then asshole youre just standing around talking about how #eomeone should blow it up already but youre not even willing to turn down the dial much less actually blow it up #and i dont think turning down the dial does tell the guy who made the machine that it was a good machine to make‚ actually #and especially given how many other people are in their control rooms cranking the dial higher and higher‚ yeah i think ill turn mine down #origibberish

[mycological-mariner]

God the holidays were… I mean… Weird. I did have fun in places but overall, felt weird. It was very weird. However I did get to see a friend! Stayed till 11.30pm, arrived at 12. It was rather awkward with my mother sat right there, but what can you do. She seems upset that we’re not Together. But I swear! This guy is just me but with a moustache! I got to walk around and point at buildings and go “Did you know that in 17-something-hundred—“ and I had a rapt audience! He showed me how lime kilns worked when we walked by one! I love it!

It was really nice to see a friend and it was so so good to get out of this bloody awful place for a bit. I’m back now but at the very least my brother is in Germany and won’t be back for a few more days, so I’m safe there. But god. What a weird, WEIRD holiday.

#most people who meet my friend and I together think we’re a couple #usually it’s old people doing what they do lol #he’s my buddy #my mum has kinda given up hope of me ever having a spouse #she’s still not over the whole ‘I like women’ thing #and I’m not gonna explain bisexuality to her at this point I don’t have it in me #and I mean. I already do fancy someone? have for a while and I only just realised when I was buying milk a few months ago lol #but I’ll die before a) I tell even our mutual friend and b) telling them themselves #my gran did see a picture of my friend and said ‘your children would be GORGEOUS’ #why are old people like this lol #I just wanna talk about local history with my Buddy My Pal my Good Time Cheese #(that’s not a saying) #we did start singing they were only playing leapfrog and got to 41? #absolute blast

[umbrace-rambles]

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only person that gets equally miffed about everybody just assuming Hannibal is absolutely incapable of living a "lower quality life" post-fall as I am about the whole treating Will like he's useless, both things just fill me with rage

AND ALSO everybody seems to be so incredibly obsessed with Will getting a dog while on the run? Have any of you ever owned a dog jesus christ. Will loves dogs so much he would be more than aware of how dangerous it would be both for them AND the animal to be together, that is no life for a dog

#umbra rambles #like hello? #Not gonna talk about Will because it has been talked so much already #But Hannibal?? #Does anybody ever see that it's mostly part of his socialite person suit #And the parts that aren't and are genuinely enjoyed by him are hobbies as much as anything else that can very easily be given up if #the situation requires it #Why is everybody so obsessed with him being absolutely INCAPABLE of eating normal food #I'm not saying he would enjoy it as much but in the end it's all about survival and what you can do in the current situation?? #especially on the run #I've always seen him more as the kind of person that would jut quietly eat and not comment on it at all #he starved as a child are we all ignoring that lol #hannibal #nbc hannibal #hannibal lecter #will graham #hannigram

[tgirljoker]

bold theory but im like 80% sure that the spiderman 2 story was a little lackluster because the dlc is going to be doing a lot more of the heavy lifting this time around

#i mean theyve definitely got dlc planned already… they had no idea how well the first games dlc would sell but this time around they do #i mean. okay heres my thought process here #1. #we know that norman is going to become the green goblin soon. the ‘’g-serum’’ he talked about was for harrys cure after the symbiote failed #but norman is probably the one who becomes the green goblin. how? idk yet maybe he tests it on himself first or something #i think thats going to be one of the storylines in the dlc #2. in this game they introduced ally teamups for the crimes in the overworld #two for the spidermen respectively and one for wraith. but during the period where harry is agent venom he has an ally teamup as well #his own animations and voice lines and everything. and thats a very short part of the game #so im actually convinced that harry will wake up from his coma in one of the waves of dlc and fight with the symbiote again #black cat had special finisher animations with miles too so maybe shes an ally teamup too? 👀 #maybe wishful thinking but tbh i could see it happening considering the black cat threads from this game havent been entirely wrapped up yet #and also theres a severe lack of ally teamups LOL so im p sure harry at the very least is coming back #maybe to help fight norman somehow for when he turns into the goblin ? #idk. anyways #3. we still have the rest of kravens family to worry about and since they were tracking felecia maybe thats where she comes back ? #4. obviously theres going to be a dlc about the flame/cletus cassidy + carnage. #the flame even has a cult in this adaptation and their gatherings would make great bases which this game DESPERATELY needs more of #also going back to the ally teamup thing yuri still has one post game #and theyre definitely continuing her story given how open ended that questline was #im like. pretty confident in this even though i know its kind of iffy #if they save harry + the goblin for spiderman 3 i wouldnt be surprised but i think it has a solid chance of being addressed in the dlc #tldr there were WAY more lose ends than the first game

[iicraft505]

someone kill me, just straight up put me down. my annoying former coworker returned as a volunteer and he annoys me under the best of circumstances but. literally I just said that I don't do dishes that often (meaning not often enough for it to have fucked up my name tag), and he was like "I think it's weird that you would admit to not doing your job" like bitch that's not what I fucking said but okay. And then I was like well I do them sometimes when it's needed and he was like "um..." in that "no you don't way" and said "there were a ton of dishes in the sink when I got here" yeah because I was fucking taking care of birds all day, dipshit! I was feeding our incubator birds every 30 minutes, I did literally all of our outdoor dishes (there was a mountain when I got in today!), I helped catch two very full adult bird outdoor flight cages for weighing and release, I went to release some hatchling turtles, and did all the other miscellaneous cleaning tasks that pile up when feeding hummingbirds. Sorry I didn't have a spare second to do the fucking inside dishes!

#also no shot it was that full because tons of dishes are really only generated in the morning #and one of the other interns was literally doing those dishes when he walked in #because she had the free time to do that #also i literally did some indoor dishes today but okay i guess #oh i forgot to mention I also dealt with our feeder mealworms and crickets #and yeah maybe i dicked around a little bit when I had spare time but it's a 10 hour shift even when im running #non stop between tasks there's still occasionally a moment to sit and relax #also go off mister fucking stood around and talked for a long time with one of the other volunteers #slowing said other volunteer down which is saying something given she's already slow at doing things (meticulous) #and you know what that's the way it has to be sometimes! people aren't machines! #please god if youre real and love me let him have to work every single saturday for the rest of time or at least until january god bless #or do the early morning shift so i only have to deal with him for an hour #i swear i saw him walk in and i was like 'fuck' #iicraft505 #also him being there made me irritated so i was slightly rude to my grandma #when she first picked me up #but then i explained myself and was normal #but i mean holy fuck i feel on guard all the time when he's there #not in a 'harm to my person' way in a 'are you gonna say some shit about the way im doing this task and micromanage me' way #like i know i have micromanage-itis but at least im aware and try to leave well enough alone whenever possible #he's aware but doesn't seem to see it as the annoying as character trait that it is #also not that there's a non-condescending way to micromanage but he seems extra condescending #like also have some trust that other people can do things #for christ's sake bro like get normal

[reanimatedgh0ul]

ik jazz knows who valerie is bc of reign storm but like does she know abt valerie being red huntress or what

#i'm just going to go assume that she does esp by the time a glitch in time happened #ik she wasn't in flirting w disaster #but given danny's talk w jack and how he def would've been emotionally out of it afterwards #she def knows smth up and ik jack def blabbed abt danny having a gf (or atleast he would have) #you bet jazz def try to psychoanalyze danny's crush on valerie now that she has the full context #she'd absolutely compare him to jack be like yeah do def inherited dad's taste in women #which danny would immediately tell her to shut up #also think she'd try to offer atleast little advice w how to go abt this #not right before danny once again being a lil shit and going pls jazz what would yk abt heartbreak you've never even dated anyone #she's like ok 1) fuck you 2) that's not what i was getting #3) would you quit brooding for a sec and let me give you some advice already yeesh #robi rambles

[blueish-bird]

you know… seeing all these trans headcanons going around has really got me wanting to talk about my ideas for transfem Aki

#‘my’ as if a character interpretation/hc can belong to me lmao #frankly I’ve been scared to talk about it on social media given… the state of things (things being both social media and the csm fandom) #but I have a feeling it won’t be a big deal on tumblr #Aki is simultaneously a cis dude a trans dude and a trans girl in my mind. guy’s got range. #trans Aki #csm #csm thoughts #my csm thoughts #meposting #my thoughts #csm headcanons #csm aki #transfem Aki #I just think that growing up perpetually sacrificing your life/self for your goals and work doesn’t leave a lot of time to reflect #hustle culture poster child over here #but making meaningful connections and finding a family gives Aki more time to consider (her)self #I like gradual change. not one big moment but lots of little ones. keep it slow and comfortable. #power knows/cares nothing about gender roles so she gifts Aki cheap earrings bc Aki has pierced ears #I personally feel Angel is more aware of his own gender identity/the constructs of gender already. he’s very whimsical about it tho lmao #but being around him nudges Aki along on the gender journey you know? #also Aki and Kobeni would be mad sweet as friends/resource to learn more about femininity #mini-makeovers and shit? love thinking about it #allowing yourself to be comfortable/try new ‘abnormal’ things gender-wise after a lifetime of baseline discomfort is so freeing. #I have thoughts #chainsaw man #Aki means a lot to me. as a fellow 19 year old adult-kid repressed stick-in-the-mud learning to make friends/have fun/love and be loved

[unproduciblesmackdown]

fascinating lens on taylor's goings on in s6 there re: Romance. epic win that they have rian turn them down but i'm also really not sure why they did. oh you know, rian who's always defined by being so prudent [montage of actually pretty much everything seemingly defining rian has been pretty anti prudent] like ok w/e

but we start out with taylor Particularly Unmotivated By Work and instead watching a The Bachelor beach proposal which involves extasis through this Reality(tm) pastiche of romance. i am assuming. wherein the journey Ends with this transcendent all-consuming joy upon the realization of said Romance for one contestant. then when their somehow still bestie mafee (relevant tangents about how all taylor's relationships seem to involve their having an approach where they have low standards like "well but i guess this is all i can get / expect" including that they can't even necessarily expect shit they like/enjoy/are at all supported by, while readily accepting whatever blame/reproach from others) is like "gee but are you really happy" they're apparently inspired to pursue happiness by pursuing romance. which they seem to consider is possible only through rian, intriguing here when the entire basis of their dynamic seems to be [trapped in work hell together] like boy we have nothing outside our jobs? i sure hope we can be Everything to each other then :) and how it's even more baffling that rian is completely unbaffled by this development when you might operate on some assumptions like "you should have ever seemed to enjoy any interactions you've ever had" to consider choosing more vulnerability and more time / effort spent on this relationship, and "you also don't need to have Found Fault with someone / otherwise have some grievances or dislike of them to not want to date them" especially if rian's apparent sense of responsibility for taylor's theoretical negative feelings about rejection supposedly doesn't involve thinking about any power dynamics, she just feels the need to repeatedly reassure them she'd actually Love to date or have sex but she's just so set on not dating through work, b/c of the complications, that she's never considered not having casual sex with bosses and also never mentioned this stance to turn down winston nor done anything but revel in how he might feel about even being rejected as a conversational partner. too prudent to mention it. certainly also a relevant matter that it Need Not Be Explained to anyone that winston for one is excluded as a potential Romantic partner for pretty much everyone i guess. whilest as this potential mirror to taylor, he's not only considering specifically rian w/"we're similar; let's hang out; i'd like to have sex maybe even" (though winston's sexuality, like his communicative capacities, is also simply Not Allowed) but also seems to be like "i guess this is all i can get / expect" or hanging on for a long time to the possibility of Otherwise at his own expense or taking blame / whatever pretty egregious treatment like. taylor being willing to talk to wendy still is akin to winston still being willing to talk to rian. though maybe that's changed by the end of s6; it'd be very warranted after the pretty make or break [rian & winston Share An Interest; hang out outside work about it] moment there and also after Everything Else on its own, just like how it'd be very warranted if taylor expecting Nothing Better from wendy could turn into their hardly being willing to interact

anyways, sure is fortunate for taylor (or is it???) that Work becomes more enriching for them suddenly, and through someone with whom they have this promising personal dynamic with, a Peer with whom, in fact, they do both seem to find reward in interacting with each other / want and choose to do so, imagine, while [reiterating for emphasis]: they are both finding reward in interacting and feeling Complementary rather than only seeing exactly themself in each other, while having this respect for each other and flexibility and knowing they don't Have to work together, and may not always be doing so.

but most to the point it sure is something that the season starts off with taylor being dissatisfied with their work situation and responding by not being at work and instead watching people be overjoyed about their (also, relevantly, Peak Normal Correct Cishet) romance, though they don't outright claim to straightforwardly enjoy this. then they Do outright claim to us repeatedly, if ever begrudgingly, that everything rian does is worthy &/or sympathetic (and totally comprehensible and consistent so as to believably retain any sense of Character....) while every time they interact, it's a business meeting and one or both of them is unhappy about some part of it. but then once taylor's asked to think about their happiness Beyond Work they apparently are simply motivated to go ask someone out, and it may as well be rian For Lack Of A Better Option really, but then there's the wrench of "for some reason rian is unsurprised and not at all put off by this, or even just somewhat confused" and "for some reason rian's like 'sorry but no. fr im soooo sorry'" with these perspectives of [happiness Outside Work = romance] and [someone deemed Objectively Worthy = you'd of course at least consider romance, or else you must think actually they're Unworthy in some way, or have some more general Reason you'd reject others categorically in just the same way] (rian rejecting winston for unworthiness so much that she doesn't even need to bother actually telling him as much; rejecting taylor for [i don't date through work] with followups to reassure them it's Not the unworthiness) (that on and off paper winston & taylor have no reason to not be kissing but i think we can assume that won't happen, b/c billions itself may also assume we understand that [winston is unworthy] is just true. &/or that anyone Worthy understands as much)

so hoping that taylor has Some kind of enriching lasting relationship with philip, truly, which was the hopes for winston and rian but the updated hope is his enriching lasting disengagement with rian, f

#winston billions #AND rian having some of the worst material re: sex billions has ever inflicted upon us. impressive. sorry to this character #(and like.................has she Not prior had casual sex through work while she's been willing to do so / hasn't had nights & weekends??) #that makes no sense either. it's for winston's sake i'm glad she hasn't tried to be fwb there #wouldn't it be fun if we got s7 genderfluid rian. but we won't. fr it's like....why'd we get this character at all lmao #would've made more sense if she left at the end of s6 too. while the best thing we've gotten is taylor getting to further distinguish #themself from axe in of course good ways. the associated [philip seems so much more like A Character than rian despite also being new] #difficult to work in ''rian would be abusive towards winston if they were dating b/c she Already Is as (sometimes) work friends'' when #another issue is that rian's material isn't really being Examined when every character can only remark abt how cool & correct she always is #ultimately; at least....taylor you caaan't actually be mad at rian; gotta be some Other issue you're having bad feelings about.... #that winston being introduced so peripherally it was meant to be a oneoff & while (as viewed by other characters) being Incorrect and #Unsympathetic has created the conditions for someone who does end up w/this stronger sense of Being A Character #he's even autistic....while rian is adhd and hostile like ''at least i'm allistic and meritous'' #like yes i Will talk to you more than others maybe but offscreen & i Will also be bullying you b/c i am willing to and i certainly can. #dunno what to say about winston and tuk b/c we've still seen so relatively little & idk what we'll get for winston in s7 #that it's will's updated foul play website bio that Confirms he'll be in s7 at all; but i'm still not supposing he'll def get more than an #episode or two or w/e. or i suppose he could be sent off & return; they're still in production mode over there after all #i would really doubt canon would give us that romance but it would be....i dunno. earthshaking really lol haven't given it the most thought #canon might also think that would be insulting to tuk or something.... #or say As Much w/that continual threat of ''improving'' winston by making him Choose to be more normal now (: #everyone's always giving him the organic aba (abuse) either way but umm the Least you could do would be absorb it & Stop Bringing It Upon #Yourself....still supposing it's possible that their being Friends is considered to be dragging tuk back / dooming him to Loserdom #but as or more likely: he got to talk to tuk in the last ep to get him out of the way. it will never get focus #oh i went off track up there: finishing the thought to say i suppose it's assumed rian would not be shitty towards taylor like she would be #towards winston b/c they're Worthier; not supposedly inferior to her even as winston is considered to be #hence that rian Can give winston shit whenever she wants but just so happens to Not be that way towards anyone else. makes you think #mfw i run out of room writing on one page abt cam stone like ''i could've been more clearly relationship anarchist with it :(''

[maschotch]

The relationship Meghan Kane and hotch had makes me mentally ill don't look at me

"Your the only man who's never disappointed me" pleasssseee

I've seen so many people ship her and hotch which is so strange to me because when I first watched this I thought they were going for a father/daughter thing? The parallel between her dad leaving her and hotch staying with her? The girls got major daddy issues so it made sense to me, despite the fact everyone things they f*cked lol

i looooove thinking about them aksjdhlgksj but yeah it definitely doesn't feel like a romance at all.. and honestly i'm not sold 100% on the father/daughter thing? there's definitely those ~vibes~ but i think what was truly profound between them was their kinship. they aren't necessarily in similar situations, but it still seemed like they understood each other with minimal effort. they're distinctly aware of who the other is--it's not quite a reflection of themselves, but it's so easily recognizable

meghan notices hotch and sure yeah she's definitely got daddy issues and i'm sure that helped fuel her willingness to reach out and connect, but she could very easily figure out the type of guy he was. through press clippings and brief exchanges, she understands him better than some of the members of his team. hotch, being a profiler and all, already has the skillset to empathize/put himself in someone else's shoes. yet he has a unique insight with meghan that

i'm not quite sure what it is that connects them so strongly. i think it's how earnest they are. they clearly label things as right and wrong, and they believe it's their duty to carry out said justice, but they consider themselves straddling the two categories: good and bad, bad but tries to be good, good but wants to be bad. they're honest with their intentions, even if they glance over their personal reasons for it. by all means, considering their dedication to their assigned tasks, it'd be easy to say they're passionate, but i don't think that's the case. they're driven, but it's not from ambition or being idealistic. they're not naive enough to think they can change the world, but they're foolish enough to try. the effort they each put into it leaves them both in a state of hopelessness, meghan was just the one who decided she'd had enough

yeah the "you're the first man who didn't let me down" is definitely a comparison to her father, but it hits hotch different and i think she knows it. they're both people who try over and over again to try to make things right, a seemingly futile task. when she says he hasnt disappointed her, she's acknowledging his efforts the same way he acknowledges hers. but it's more than that: it's passing responsibility. it's encouragement. feeling supported is foreign to meghan, and it's warm comfort now that she's decided to end it. so i think she decides to return the favor. it's a short conversation, but they're both capable of expressing so much with so little.

#hello? is this what you were talking about? no. am i rambling about it anyway? yes #it's not exactly an equal relationship but i dont think its as cut and dry as a father/daughter dynamic #its more similar to.... an older brother/younger sister type of thing #aksjhdlgjk obviously he's definitely filling in for her father in her last moments and being there for her when her father wouldnt #but i think if they'd met under different circumstances... i think it'd be more of an exasperated sibling type of relationship #asks #its the same way i feel about elle tbh #like to her he's definitely a type of father figure #but its more equal than that. she challenges him and has him confront his failings #but elle was going through some shit. meghan.. is also going thru some stuff kajshdl but she's given it up already #she's lost hope for herself so she doesn't feel the need for introspection anymore.. just letting her actions fall in place naturally #but it doesnt stop her from thinking about others #in a way i think it gives her a sort of clarity #she decided before hotch even landed in dallas how this was going to end #she's not fighting it. #but it gives her a perspective that her innate intellect pursues without really giving it much thought #it's not always right (she's just as delusional as hotch lmao) but it gives her a clearer understanding of hotch than elle ever had #ANYWAY

[wizardnuke]

I don't think soulmate aus work for ships that have themes like changing fate/choosing your own path and so I don't think it's super effectual for shadowgast but also I keep thinking about it because. because I like soulmate aus I think they're Neat..

#I don't think much would change is the thing. like if we're working under the 'soulmates name written on your wrist' au for example #I think if caleb introduced himself to essek after the beacon thing then essek wouldn't even blink bc he's having a HELL of a day already #and caleb is famously very good at not talking abt things important to him and he's also had a hell of a day #so. they carry on like they did canonically except. they see the other as connected to themselves in a way they didn't canonically #which I mean. like. they see the other as similar and therefore as a threat. lol #I keep thinking about the layers of ikithon working with essek. bc ikithon would know. is the thing #I think caleb would discover essek being the traitor earlier on. would he do anything about it is the thing #just. the ongoing unspoken knowledge of that and also the canyon of understanding/distrust between them #my point is. truly. I'm not a huge fan of soulmate aus that end on them finding out and living happily ever after #I like ones where they have to decide what it's gonna mean to them #the universe has decided that in some way. ure bound to someone. what are u gonna do about it #essek is like of course this caleb widogast showed up with the beacon I stole of course that's a twist of fate I've been given #and caleb is like oh yes of course essek thelyss is an unchecked and powerful mage who wants knowledge at any cost. of course #of course essek conspired with the man who ruined caleb of course they have to navigate THAT #it's Compelling. essek CAN change fate in a way and he passed those spells on to caleb. #thinking abt them working on that with the knowledge that they're bound together. they wouldn't talk about it until at LEAST eiselcross

[ducktracy]

i really like when porky and sylvester are paired together but i always got the vibe from these cartoons that porky,,,, just isnt a cat person lol like yeah in kitty kornered he does straight up say he hates pussycats. i have a hc that in these cartoons porky never even adopted sylvester he just showed up on porky's doorstep 1 day and never left. i do like chuck jones' take on sylvester also but i can very easily interpret porky in those shorts seeing sylvester as just some guy who follows him around over an actual pet. anyways im glad they returned to the sylvester as porky's pet cat dynamic in the put the cat out segments on looney tunes cartoons

MAYBE… Porky has a history of not being super great with pets to begin with (mainly i think his issue in Kitty Kornered is he doesn’t like being CHALLENGED by his cats, he’s all smiles when putting them to bed but i think the moment they get wise with him THAT’s when he’s like I’LL TEAR ‘EM LIMB FROM LIMB. mainly a personality thing more than the cats BEING cats… i think he just hates being challenged and so when domesticated animals challenge AND OUTSMART HIM it purposefully makes a bit of a bad image for him HAHAHA. guess you could argue Sylvester in the Jones shorts is “challenging” him too even if he WAS in the right and Porky is just being his stubborn little self and thus explaining the aggravation) but the cartoons he does have cats with—Sylvester or otherwise—he treats them a lot better than his dogs who he WILL berate for… just… existing LOL. i’ve been indoctrinating an irl friend into these shorts and we’ve both been poking a lot of fun at how mean he can get with his pets but dogs in particular… poor dogs.

different contexts and all but same director, one year apart LOL.

CUTE HEADCANON THOUGH YES!!! reminds me of the greatest image in existence, every time i see this it sends me into a fit of laughter for some reason

SEEING SYLVESTER AS A RANDOM GUY WHO FOLLOWS HIM AROUND WOULD BE… VERY ODD BUT FUNNY LOL another “Goofy vs Pluto” thing i guess. i do love the Porky/Sylvester shorts though and that Sylvester is given a purely domesticated angle. Kitty Kornered is so much fun because it has both angles (we’re led to believe that Sylvester and the gang are all domesticated animals but they immediately launch into a—rather intelligent given the circumstances—scheme to throw Porky out of his own house), but that would be a bit odd in practice to be petting your cat goodnight or something and having him say goodnight back to you HAHAHA.

BUT YES SAME HERE i am VERY excited for more Porky and Sylvester. in spite of my gripes with The Looney Tunes Show i really adore that the pilot had Porky as Sylvester’s owner instead, and even Wabbit/New Looney Tunes had an episode with them that was pretty true to the original Jones format which i love

BUT YEAH, i see him much more as a cat person than a dog person, but i am 99% sure i’m just projecting because i technically own… 10? cats? it’s a long story that i’ll shove into the tags but. i am VERY much a cat person LOL they’re all i’ve known my whole life so i’m probably imparting my bias onto Porky. i just think it’s funny that he’s deemed such a humanoid character that he’s able to OWN any pets to begin with. like… how weird would it be if Daffy owned a pet dog

#okay. CAT STORY TIME #in 2020 we made the mistake of feeding a stray kitten during the winter who we later adopted #so we could get her fixed… she had babies behind our couch 2 weeks later so :’) in June 2021 #and then found a family of kittens outside a few weeks later… the mama (a different one) has proceeded to have 3 separate litters #we kept them fed in the winter and built shelters with hay and electric heating pads so they could be safe #and 5 OF THE 7 OUTSIDE KITTIES ARE FIXED!! just gotta nab two more who are a bit more elusive #we can’t take them inside because we already have 3 inside but we have plenty of shelter and water and food for them #and are doing our best to finish fixing them so the outdoor cat population isn’t as high and we make sure they’re well taken care of #i know there’s a lot of discourse about outside cats and stuff and i agree with it but like i always feel the need to explain that we take #very good care of tbem and the cats are still able to hunt and feed for themselves (trust me. we have received many animal carcasses as gift #s from them. we got them fixed with the intent of releasing them and hoping they wouldn’t return… a year later they’re still with us #we have plans to move so we’re going to see if we can try to donate them to a barn cat program because we want to keep them together/don’t #want to separate. they are all VERY close and affectionate and i’ve gotten to pet most of them. we don’t want to split them up #THIS IS PROBABLY NEEDLESSLY LONG BUT LET IT BE A CAUTIONARY TALE DON’T FEED STRAY CATS :’) we basically have our own cat rescue going on #though and it’s very sweet #THIS WHOLE POST IS LONG but i enjoy talking about Porky since he isn’t given a lot of attention by other people i can blather all i want #smokey-kity #long post #asks

[curly-cottage-girl]

my toxic trait is that I really want to be married, but a guy showing interest in me immediately freaks me out and any potential feelings are forever ruined

#how do I skip all the steps and just end up with someone I know and love intimately #I think my mom has low key given up on me once I told her that lol #probably the Childhood Trauma idk #I don’t hate men its just that there’s this fundamental barrier with trusting them and being emotionally vulnerable #it’s hard even with my closest guy friend! who I can talk about anything with! (he’s already married so not an option lol)

[scientia-rex]

When I was in ninth grade I wanted to challenge what I saw as a very stupid dress code policy (not being allowed to wear spikes regardless of the size or sharpness of the spikes). My dad said to me, “What is your objective?”

He said it over and over. I contemplated that. I wanted to change an unfair dress code. What did I stand to gain? What did I stand to lose? If what I really wanted was to change the dress code, what would be my most effective potential approach? (He also gave me Discourses on the Fall of Rome by Titus Livius, Machiavelli’s magnum opus. Of course he’d already given me The Prince, Five Rings, and The Art of War.)

I ultimately printed out that phrase, coated it in Mod Podge, and clipped it to my bathroom mirror so I would look at it and think about it every day.

What is your objective?

Forget about how you feel. Ask yourself, what do you want to see happen? And then ask, how can you make it happen? Who needs to agree with you? Who has the power to implement this change? What are the points where you have leverage over them? If you use that leverage now, will you impair your ability to use it in the future? Getting what you want is about effectiveness. It is not about being an alpha or a sigma or whatever other bullshit the men’s right whiners are on about now. You won’t find any MRA talking points in Musashi, because they are not relevant.

I had no clear leverage on the dress code issue. My parents were not on the PTA; neither were any of my friend’s parents who liked me. The teachers did not care about this. Ultimately I just wore what I wanted, my patent leather collar from Hot Topic with large but flattened spikes, and I had guessed correctly—the teachers also did not care enough to discipline me.

I often see people on tumblr, mostly the very young, flail around in discourse. They don’t have an objective. They don’t know what they want to achieve, and they have never thought about strategizing and interpersonal effectiveness. No one can get everything they want by being an asshole. You must be able to work with other people, and that includes smiling when you hate them.

Read Machiavelli. Start with The Prince, but then move on to Discourses. Read Musashi’s Five Rings. Read The Art of War. They’re classics for a reason. They can’t cover all situations, but they can do more for how you think about strategizing than anything you’re getting in middle school and high school curricula.

Don’t vote third party unless you can tell me not only what your objective is but also why this action stands a meaningful chance of accomplishing it. Otherwise, back up and approach your strategy from a new angle. I don’t care how angry you are with Biden right now. He knows about it, and he is both trying to do something and not doing enough. I care about what will happen to millions of people if we have another Trump presidency. Look up Ross Perot, and learn from our past. Find your objective. If it is to stop the genocide in Palestine now, call your elected representatives now. They don’t care about emails; they care about phone calls, because they live in the past. I know this because I shadowed a lobbyist, because knowing how power works is critical to using it.

How do you think I have gotten two clinics to start including gender care in their planning?

Start small. Chip away. Keep working. Find your leverage; figure out how and when to effectively use it. Choose your battles, so that you can concentrate on the battle at hand instead of wasting your resources in many directions. Learn from the accumulated wisdom of people who spent their lives learning by doing, by making mistakes, by watching the mistakes of their enemies.

Don’t be a dickhead. Be smarter than I was at 14. Ask yourself: what is your objective?