#he helped me so much last night

[littlebittywildflower]

I am making another blood of coffee I have decided cause self care. I have art things to work on for my booth I need to be buzz buzz!

#personal #husband is working the closing shift #I am trying to stay upbeat #he helped me so much last night #but I am scared of going low again #I have this irrational fear that there is something deeply wrong inside of me that makes people abandon me or use me #and I am terrified he will wake up and all of a sudden see it and decide I am not worth it #like we are married and happily so and I have no reason to feel this way #but my trauma and past have been hitting hard the last few days because someone I cared deeply for messaged me back randomly #after a year and a half since I reached out and 3 years since last contact #they were a brother to me and meant the fucking world #the sun shown out of their ass to me that’s how I felt at the time #they weren’t nice but that’s okay it just didn’t make sense #I was doing so well #so fucking well #and now I feel like that girl that’s too broken to love all over again #I am working my journal and if it gets worse I will do the right thing and contact my therapist #but I am just not okay #just really really not okay #what if I am broken inside and too broken to love and my husband sees it finally and leaves too #what if this is just a fairytale and I wake up

[bizarrescribblez]

guys would it be cringe if i made a night at the museum insert … cuz of lancelot-

#the guilt of having sm f/os now cuz of one guy is setting in I FEEL SO EMBARRASSEd AND ANNOYING 💔💔💔💔 #i cant help it i have too much love to share + hes cute + charming +💥💥💥 #like i watched ermm beauty and the beast last night and was like ahahahahah so batb insert huh- (HOLDS MYSELF DOWN) #anyways . yall gotta stop me #self ship #self ship community #f/o community #self shipping

[edwardwonghaupepelutivrusky4th]

wah i looove their designs and animation...

#sketched last night looped ''hot air balloon'' track last night rewatched elemental last night you know just how it is....i love it all augh #elemental #elemental 2023 #pixar elemental #elemental fanart #ember lumen #wade ripple #it's so fun how just going w/the flow waviness drawing a wade is Correct. some flamey shiveriness / jaggedness in ember's lines is Correct #and it's all the more fun how it's like oh ofc not quite hitting the mark of how great their designs really are....so so good #and of course the expressive elasticity not only with their faces but the way their bodies ft. respective elements can be expressive #in addition to just usual [assume you have a usual literal human body] expressiveness options in posture / movement etc lol #also was thinking about how like we know everything we Need to know re: wade & his dad but also have so [zero details there] #which is interesting to wonder about. kinda assumed like oh a parent got sick & died but now considering how it could've been an accident.. #the tiny layer of A Reaction he has when ember's talking abt parents giving up everything for you: could be nothing much; or Anything #also noting i Didn't note the first instances that they hear each other's names or introduce themselves thusly lol #or at least i sure can't recall it. just start knowing the other's name partway through which Isn't A Problem but it's like #ooh just more to consider & reexamine. i love to pick up More Details & that's helped by my difficulty in catching them in the first place #one thing about me i don't Catch things i don't Notice shit i don't Get stuff. and also of course: i do though lol #always a trip when it's like oh i love this movie i'm seeing it probably the two dozenth time #and then i notice something for the very first time that was clearly straightup meant to be Gotten upon the immediate viewing #even to the extent that smthing later seems to be kinda happening out of nowhere if you didn't. & i'd just rolled with it #like ok i'm autistic ofc that's something i gotta do all the time. & the adhd means i might keep getting distracted around the same pts.

[flintstill]

I don't know what it is about this lil 'stache on him, but it makes me absolutely feral

#Good God #*bites fist* #I came across this pic a couple of days ago #and have not been able to stop thinking about it #like the Phileas 'stache always did it for me #but I thought part of it came from the waistcoats and period dress? and wet cat nature? #none of that here.. and yet... this pic is significantly more powerful #this window of the month is not helping matters #HNNNNG #ok backing away #David Tennant's moustache #come yell at me about it #David Tennant #i also didn't sleep much last night so cut me some slack #Phileas Fogg #thirstposting #screaming crying throwing up #etc #also does he have v mild hetetochromia? or is it just the lighting and/or me? #I apparently saved this in my drafts #yesterday evening #I’ve since had some spearmint tea and calmed down #(it’s all still true) #whatever—send it #no tag editing we die like men

[liquidstar]

Oh fuck tomorrow I'm going to be a little birthday boy I keep almost forgetting

#it's probably bc i dont have specific plans im just playing it by ear based on how the newborn will be #(the amount of time I'll be needed w the other kids basically depends on how much sleep the parents got the night before lol) #so i dont wanna be out too late... ahh i miss the club bro i wanna go #i love kids just to be clear which is why i do this but i also think I've gotten any child rearing out of my system #so i dont want my own. in a way it's freeing bc my future will just be for me and i won't have to worry about this stuff long term lol #ah but if I'm free on the 4th theres also something else i wanna do so maybe i shouldn't get drunk anyway #maybe just wait for the next free day 🤷‍♂️ we'll see #I've been highover BAD though shit lasted until like 8pm the next day. and i had to take the day off w the kids #luckily there happened to be other family there that took over but dude it sucked. i remember trying to help them in the morning like #ok sorry 4 year old trying to find pants i have to lay down in your bed you can do it by yourself i believe in you #so. taking the day off was a good call for their sakes too lol #he was fine just to be clear he could've done it on his own either way. i was just unhelpful 😅 i promise im usually way more attentive

[alexturner2005]

jesus christ we just nearly put my dog down and then one hour before the appointment he miraculously pranced around the block and was acting so happy and normal we couldn’t do it 😭😭😭

#god this fucking day 😭😭😭😭 #it’s possible that it might only be postponed for a day depending how he does tonight #but i wasn’t ready. i wasn’t expecting it. #we only found out he has cancer two weeks ago #a couple days before his 13th birthday #before we found out he was only coughing occasionally #and then like three days after finding out he suddenly got so much worse #i thought we had so much more time #he had a really bad night last night which is why…yeah #but he’s acting so energetic now and barely even coughing 😭 #help me manifest a miraculous recovery or at least a little more time 😭

[sysig]

One better (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax! #Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!! #It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!! #Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u; #Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to - #Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/ #It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :') #Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone? #''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔 #That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :) #I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol) #I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers! #Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

[betweenlands]

legundo's been going back and forth around his villagers for about half an hour now by viking's best estimate. sometimes he talks to himself, but it's all idle chatter that viking really has no interest in, so in effect viking is getting nothing by just sort of waiting around -- and he's not even phased into the wall, he's just standing on top of something and legundo straight up hasn't looked at him yet.

which just won't do, so, viking waits until legundo's right under his perch, at arm's length, to make his next move.

"bell noises."

legundo scrambles back several paces, not only nearly dropping the pickaxe in his hand but also knocking a villager in a minecart down a railtrack. "viking, you can't just -- how long have you been here, nearly gave me a heart attack,"

"eh," viking says, shrugging, "five, ten, fifteen minutes maybe? you just didn't see me."

"you were in the wall," legundo protests, "what, do you expect me to just assume you're always watching me?"

viking's snicker is less of an unhinged giggle and more of a soft, low noise. "eheh. wasn't even hiding, legs. i was out in plain sight. you just didn't see me."

legundo stops with his hand on an empty minecart, and his involuntary shaking slows just a bit, which viking is pretty used to in terms of body language by now, because it means-- "viking, you're doing the voice again."

which isn't quite true and they both know it -- there's been no mania, no fervent and desperate energy behind the low tone. but viking will take partial recognition, honestly. at least legundo's picking up on things, unlike -- no, wouldn't do to think about that, stay focused. "which i shouldn't do," viking says, slowly, "because it scares you?"

"okay," legundo says, "okay no this is actually new and worse to be honest. how did you get worse. i don't like that."

viking snickers again. there's no joy in it. "i don't either."

legundo stares at him. just. stares at him. viking sits down on the wall, leans his head against one hand, and stares back. legundo backs away slowly, like he's worried viking is going to lunge.

"i'm not gonna hurt ya, buddy," viking says. "wouldn't do that to a friend. friends don't hurt friends, right legs?"

"i cannot express enough how uncomfortable this is making me," legundo responds, fiddling with his crossbow.

viking snorts. "shoot at me and i phase through the wall and you accomplish absolutely nothing."

legundo's fingers slip on the crossbow bolt he's loading, fumble and cause the bow to fire early and snap the arrow in half uselessly. he curses softly and closes his hand around the broken arrow.

"i just want to talk," viking continues. "that's all."

"right," legundo says, and his voice has reached that exact pitch between annoyance and fear that tells viking he needs to make a point quickly, "so, out with it, what horrible scheme are you going to try and rope me into this time?"

viking rolls his eyes, waves one hand, head still propped up on his other hand. "no scheme, just wanna know something."

"which is?"

viking hops off the wall onto the ground, pushing off the side with both hands to land a respectable but short distance between himself and legundo (who, predictably, backpedals, but not enough to get away entirely). "you. you're scared of me, legs. why are you scared of me?"

legundo does that nervous, panicked laugh that viking has always understood to mean he needs to close distance or legundo will bolt. "viking," he says, "seriously, what's going on?"

viking takes a step forward. "answer my question first."

"no, seriously-"

"answer the question, legundo."

"i don't know," legundo says, almost squeaks, "you're just creepy!"

"mhm," viking says, and now he is right up in legundo's face and there is just a little tiny bit of manic light back in his eyes. "so! how do i get worse?"

"worse!?" legundo looks a little like one of those toys where you squeeze them and their eyes bulge out right about now. it's not exactly the reaction viking was hoping for, but it's within the expected range of reactions, he'll take it.

"yeah," viking says, "worse. 'cause you take me seriously when you're scared of me, gundo. but everyone else? nobody else takes me seriously at all. therefore: how do i get worse."

legundo raises a finger, one hand clutching his heart, and takes a shaky breath in. viking waits patiently for him to compose himself. "ohhhhkay. okay. listen, viking, you don't want to go where you're going right now."

"nope," viking says, popping the p just a little, enunciation extra strained, "but it's either this or start killing at this rate, and c'mon, we don't need a second shadowmech type situation around!"

"oh," legundo says, "oh you're serious serious. oh i don't like that at all."

he turns. viking's pickaxe is already in his hand and then stuck into the waystone before he can get that distance. "nope," viking says, voice still flat and dull, "no, you are not running away right now, we are going to talk."

"viking," legundo says. "viking. buddy? you need to calm down. you need to take several deep breaths and you need to calm down."

viking's laugh, unlike the glint in his eyes, can no longer be mistaken for mania. it's just pure desperation all the way down, nothing else to temper it. "already tried that!"

he stops. shakes his head like it'll help clear his thoughts, even though he already knows it won't work. forces his tone back to steady. "already tried that."

#dominion smp #vikingpilot #legundo #not really happy with the ending of this one but i don't really have more thoughts #anyway this is related to stream last night: what do you do when people only take you seriously when you're threatening them? #and even then it's only one person who really seems to understand the depth of what you mean by those threats? #maybe it's not enough! maybe you need to get worse! #maybe this is a warning and a call for help. ''i can't be the bigger person for much longer. i'm going to snap.'' #''and if i am going to snap it won't be your fault so tell me -- which way does the rubberband go?'' #legundo's people don't rule by fear though so viking will never get the advice he thinks he needs #and maybe viking knows that and maybe he doesn't. i don't think he'd care though. #the important part. the most important part. is that legundo listens. because legundo actually sees viking for what he is. #a threat -- whether or not he wants to be. #and legundo takes threats seriously so he takes viking seriously. #yt #txt #orig #solar scraps #solar scrawls #dominioners #ANYWAY. more polished version of this might go up on ao3 or might not. idk #obviously it needs to go into proper capitalization first. i might do that on this post but i'm not sure #i like my metaposts in lowercase and honestly this minific is just one big metapost

[lisbonsteresa]

i'm going to SCREAM

#tm #you don't get how UNHINGED this makes me it's SO #like he's been out all day trying to track down this missing kid (as part of her case too; to give her another avenue against volker) #and they have their little catch up and at first he's concerned (she's been at this all day and now into the night too #and he GETS it - in a way maybe other people wouldn't - but he doesn't want her to burn herself out; he wants her to be careful #maybe he's about to tell her a version of 'get some sleep') #but then she talks about amanda and it makes me NUTS because she does NOT ask for his help #she doesn't ask him to stay; to read the files with her; to 'burn the midnight oil' with her #she's just...stating her case; explaining why this means so much to her; and he listens; he takes it in; and he makes the choice to help #to sit in this with her and to help her work through it #and i just -- neither of them will ask the other for help (yes i know she did at the end of the last episode the context is different ok) #but they're both so quietly (and sometimes not so quietly) desperate to help each other it makes me sick #it's so interesting to see how they deal with this as the show goes on....idk how to explain it but like #when jane needs help he closes himself off; he keeps secrets and he schemes and he lies ('let me help you' 'you're sweet') #because he's trying to keep the people he cares about - the people he never planned on caring about as much as he does - safe #even as he shares more with lisbon (and sometimes the rest of the team) he still doesn't share everything #because that puts them at risk #and that's what lisbon used to do to - in the earlier seasons she put up walls when she felt vulnerable; and she still does in some cases #but with this case especially she's much more accepting of help - she relies on her team (not that she doesn't usually) #and she's practically an open book to jane - in this scene most of all - she lets herself be more vulnerable #(and open to suggestions/ideas she might otherwise scoff at or reject) #idk idk it's very interesting but this scene makes me so wacky there's something so soft and tender and understanding about it #the way there's no spoken acknowledgement - no 'i'll help' or 'thank you' - just the silent understanding that they're in this together #because they're partners #(also the way he picks at the rest of her food - the 'done with this?' the only thing they say - and the framing through the window #is still somehow very domestic it's like my perfect scene) #spinning my wheels hard i'm not thinking clearly i just love everything about it

[lleclercism]

I'm so tired that everytime charles gets pole all the f1 content pages start talking about most pole without wdc, conversion to win, jokes about charles pole / max win

When other non red bull drivers get pole this season is always a moment of celebration, considering how dominant red bull are, but with charles it turn to a opportunity to mock him

And even him said in a interview yesterday that he doesn't get much excited for the poles anymore because Sunday is what matters. Last weekend he also talked about people focusing on the convention to win as a bad thing, when he simply doesn't have the car.

I feel like the way people and media are always focusing on this when he gets pole is also starting to make him enjoy less the poles he gets now

i noticed that too! when he immediately went on about his pole vs win conversion and the only reason why he knew that is because he saw that topic being all over twitter during austin and has not been able to stop talking abt that stat, or ask ppl to stop talking abt that stat in general

i think it comes from the fact that ferrari is one of the most iconic and well-known brands, everyone who knows abou f1 KNOWS about ferrari, so if charles gets pole is not about him, is about FERRARI being on pole; and when he doesn't win, it's not about ferrari losing, it's about CHARLES losing. it's also bc charles himself is one of the most beloved drivers and just his face is very marketable so he despite him not having a wdc title, he is everywhere, and that means more eyes on him specially on sundays

i wish ppl would put some respect on his name, because he has been very consistent with this driving throughout the years and has been one of the drivers that has challenged max the most (who drives the most dominant car on the grid) despite never having a dominant car himself. idk at the end of the day it also falls on ferrari not being a circus so their drivers don't make fun of themselves on the track, but that's a whole other topic lmao

#i would say not to worry abt it too much bc who gaf abt what blue check marks say on twitter but #i also get mad asf when i read dumb impression-farm tweets LOL #what helps me sleep at night is charlie wdc soon 😁😁❤️❤️❤️ (im not delusional) #i also know whenever charles reads those kinds of tweets it fuels him even more to prove em wrong so #asks #ALSO the 'charles pole -> max win' THING IS SOO ANNOYING LIKE WHY ARE YOU SURPRISED THE GUY WITH THE FASTEST CAR WINS EVEEY RACEEEE #when he started like p or whatever last week and ppl were like oh charles lost again 😂 as if max didnt have to go through 2 merc 2 ferraris #and a mclaren like its not his fucking fault either 😭

[opens-up-4-nobody]

God. One of my little sisters is such a bitch. She's done me some genuine damage in exacerbating my already social bad anxiety. But when I have dreams where she's been hurt or killed, it's so horrible bc she's still my lil sister :-(

#its bc last night my dad had a dream she was in a car wreck. he transferred that anxiety onto me #shes such a bitch tho.just like intolerant of things she doesnt understand. and she does not understand my unwell brain #i think she likes my youngest sistsr best now. which fair bc i do too but we used to be besties. we used to explore in the woods together #and play ellos and barbies and legos and poly pockets and magnets. and now we never text eachother. its sorta sad #its not just me tho. my youngest sister and i have a 4 year gap so we weren't really interacting much when were were little bc she was too #bby to me but shes such a genuinely lovely person now. shes a special ed and preschool teacher. i asked her mom how she ended up with both #of my sisters bc my middle sister is the most like entitled person i kno. like my parents r very generous and she doesnt think for a moment #about not accepthing things from them. she thinks shes owed that amd more. its so strange #and my mom was like. thank goodness i got the youngest bc otherwise id think something was wrong with me #im prob somewhere in the middle of them. my brain is just more fucked up so like im greatful but im struggling. theres not a ton of like #really obvious mental illness in my family tho. just here and there someone should b diagnosed and get a bit of help. my uncle is the only #other one who could possibly be bipo1ar but hes also got a lot of problems: severe adhd and possibly b0rderline. so it could just b that but #my dad says when u talk to him sometimes things just doent make sense bc hes had convos in his head wuth you so he thinks u kno already #idk. its interesting tho #unrelated

[sarah-yyy]

#i watched this scene with 陈老师 and said 好美我看着都想结婚 and he went 👀那再看一遍？？？？ Jie jie...tell us more about 陈老师! 😊😊😊

ahahahahaha 来吧，吃吃我的瓜😂 if y'all have been following me on insta, y'all would've been Very Exposed to 陈老师 already, so......

OKAY so uhhhh some months ago, 秦律师 and i decided to call it quits. he was offered a permanent position back in hangzhou that paid a heck lot better and had way better benefits than his auckland firm, and it was just the kind of career move that he had to take (fair, i would've done the same). he asked me to quit my job to go to hangzhou with him, but uh because of a variety of reasons (a huge part of it was that giving up my career was a hard limit), i eventually said no. it wasn't a bad breakup, per se, but it was still :/ because we'd been together for about 3 years at that stage, and prior to this, we'd been very seriously talking about getting married???

enter 陈老师! so i'd actually known 陈老师 for more than a year at that point?? 陈老师 is a sound engineer working at the local tv station by day, and does some 直播（to pre-emptively answer an faq: 不露脸的那种，唱歌的）when he's free at night. we first met when i went with one of my clients to the station for an interview. we have quite a huge mutual friend circle but i'd never run into him before, but since we met at the tv station, we just.....sort of kept running into each other??

陈老师 says he had a crush on me from the moment he heard me quietly threatening my client not to say anything i told him not to say, but ahahahahaha it wasn't obvious until 秦律师 and i broke up imo. first 陈老师 started showing up at group events a lot more, then we started going out for coffees alone, and then we went through this super weird week where he kept calling me jiejie (because one of his friends told him that might do the trick) (it didn't but i was tempted 😂), and that sort of just progressed to him awkwardly telling me he likes me and then, get this, literally getting so embarrassed he had to run away before following it up again by wechat (over a song). it was weirdly cute. i said yes.

ANYWAY he's still a bit awkward, but he's found this trick where every time he want to express something Important, he'll do it by song so he doesn't mess it up, the concept is hilarious, but in practise it's actually quite heart-warming ahahahahaha all the covers i've put up on insta are songs 陈老师 covers and sends to me 🥰

#he's about two years younger and it's like his first relationship so everything is new for him and a lot of it is very funny #他的嘴是真的笨but i think i can mostly interpret what he's trying to express now??? it's just still funny to go 🤨 at him to watch him flail tho #he's recently learnt how to 撒娇 and does it SO WELL skfhsdjghjsga #the jiejie thing is making a comeback i hate that it works on me #anyway it's a cutesy relationship for now #i won't say i'm like expecting it to last for a very long time but man low commitment suits me so much better #ya he does send me a song every night to help me sleep when he's too busy to record he calls me to sing it to me #like i said super cutesy relationship #it's a 初恋 thing for him i'm doing my best to not traumatise him i know i know i do so much for my community #another faq: he does take suggestions if y'all want to suggest a song #asks #Anonymous #sarah talks about herself

[zevrans]

💀

#i haven't played bg3 for like 5 days or so because i am super busy and my brain decided that's ain't going to work and it NEEDS bg3 content #even if it is of its own production - saw bg3 related dream last night help 😭😭😭 #i don't remember much except that there was a cutscene (i am both in it AND out if it makes sense in weird dream logic) #and after the cutscene shadowheart?? i'm not even sure it was entirely her but it was a woman who without prompt kisses my character 👀 #i would have said it was a win if gale wasn't standing right there and saw that and just as i (not my character 🤡) walked over to him to #explain it was a misunderstanding and that i (or we?? idk man dream logic 😹) actually love HIM #he started running away from me 😭😭😭 because he was so upset (this was SO out of character for him i'm bfmffj) #and binch was running fast as hell too i barely maanged to catch up and start explaining WHEN #the dream rewinded (which was essentially a save reload before the scene im 😭💀) #and the kiss scene played out again but this time it was as if we were just friends with gale and he just stand there like 👁👄👁 #i still can't understand if it was shadowheart or like someone not even from bg3 😭 #ANYWAYS good morning eveyone 💀👋 #tbd

[ggukkiedae]

another little personal spiel that im adding in the tags, ignore me if you're not interested~

#c.speaks #THIS GUY HOLY SHIT #he makes me feel so delusional i swear to god #he really #GAH #he was putting in so much effort to talk to me one on one #like every time it felt like the conversation would end #he would lean closer to me and say something that would make us talk longer #and he kept up eye contact almost the entire time and the only reason it wasnt the whole time #IS BECAUSE I KEPT LOOKING AWAY #when i said bye to him i could hear him telling his friends about me 😭🥹 #we only see each other like every few weeks #and we're not the really the closest okay? he knew one of my cosest friends longer than he knew me #and i talk more to his best friend who's like a big brother to me #so i didnt think im someone he'd want to hang out with one on one #or tell his friends about #and okay i have liked him for a bit now #and im the one who usually initiates our conversations and they didn't used to last as long as a while ago #but recently he's been the one doing that and holding me in conversation for as long as he could #guys im delusional #i cant believe i actually have feelings for a man #SEND HELP??? #im done im crazy #good night

[welcometogrouchland]

Watching a movie that was described to you as one of the greatest movies of all time and then coming out of it like. Fuck. That really was the best movie of all time. I fell for it. I fucking fell for it. Like Charlie Brown and that damn football

#ramblings of a lunatic #me and my parents used to do a 'Murders and Burgers' night #where once a week we'd have burgers for dinner and watch Only Murders In The Building (great show btw) #but now the seasons over and while we wait for a new one we've branched out to watching old murder films instead #(still with burgers ofc) #we watched double indemnity last week #and tonight we watched sunset boulevard and like. it's wild how much this film was made for me holy shit #commentary on the entertainment industry AND gothic horror/romance???? FOR REAL?? #mr wilder you read my mind #it's dads turn to pick next week and knowing him he's probably gonna go for like. a gangster or crime film #so that's fun! #my mom's gonna do gilda after that (shes a big rits hayworth fan) and then we're watching citizen kane #it's fun! and it's helping me with my film degree so

[adore-gregor]

So I could really use some advice

#on a guy #if he actually likes me #because i'm really oblivious and i can't tell for sure from any signs he might give #but there could be a lot of signs 😂 #so if anyone can help me out or tell me your opinion 🙈 #it's a guy i go to uni with and had a class with we're now friends and hang out a lot ☺️ but maybe it could become sth more... #well i really like him he's so nice fun to be around easy to talk to and so supportive 🥰 #actually i think i never liked a guy like him 🥺 because all the things i'm scared or worried about in a relationship are less so with him.. #and i think maybe it really could work while otherwise i often just wanna 'escape' not literally but you know #so we saw each other a lot lately like every week or more often than once a week #and he also texts me a lot or just randomly called me to ask me things or make plans :) #he just send me a youtube video link i need to look at it later 😄 #when we meet we always hug as a greeting and goodbye 🥹 #also he had a gf until april so i'm not sure if he'd be ready already but anyway #and we always talk about lots of things and he's so interested in what i have to say #we onced talked for like two hours in front of the door at night 😂 #when we meet and go eat something he always pays for me and i kinda feel bad about it 😅 #because it must cost him so much money so last time at the cinema i insisted to pay haha #and he finds it really cool that i play tennis and didn't mind i spend so much time doing it #bc i met some guy who didn't so much because it meant i have less time to see him ig #but that's really respectful #and he always compliments me about so many things #also once we took a selfie together which i then sent him and he was like that he's unphotogenic on it unlike me #which i didn't know how to react because i never look photogenic #so i was like “noo that's not true i'm the most unphotogenic person ever normally” #and he was like “i can’t believe that” which i don't see but 😂 #and yeah he played tennis with me after i asked him if he wanted and he also always offers me his help #when i was decorating my room if i need help with carrying or he often wants to carry my bag #and he sent me old childhood pictures of him and just funny one so did i then #he also sent me one of the sweetest good luck messages before i played a tennis match for my club 🥹