#he looks like how a headache feels

[thebomb-thebird-andtheburntbitch]

I’m fucking losing it over this horse

#he looks like how a headache feels

[wonder-worker]

Thomas Penn writes about 500 year old dead historical figures like they're celebrities in a gossip column

#it's funny to an extent but after a point it gets very grating #he has a wealth of information but he's far too sensationalistic and florid #and tends to choose the most unsympathetic and/or colorful interpretation of every situation and historical figure #he also has a habit of ... narrativizing history which doesn't really work for me #also his fatphobia re Edward IV was absolutely revolting #I was planning on ordering the Winter King but after looking at the synopsis and first 2 chapters that were available online - no thanks #I'm definitely not interested in reading about Henry VII supposedly being 'sinister' and 'Machiavellian' because he...ruled successfully? #because he did what kings (unfortunately) did all the time? How was he any different from the others? #also imagine calling *Henry VII* ruthless & unscrupulous when his predecessor murdered his own kid-nephews and his successor was Henry VIII #like please be serious #I had the same issue with the way he described Edward IV's reign. His descriptions were so theatrical and emphatic but #at the end of the day the things he was describing were very normal lol #or they would be normal if Penn didn't choose the most critical (and mocking tbh) perspective for every single thing #the way he described Henry VI's reign was also annoying but it thankfully had far less pagetime and was not the focus of his work #so it was comparatively more tolerable #i'm glad that he acknowledged the propaganda against Margaret tho. I didn't like how he described her but at the very least he acknowledged #that she was being slandered #also calling Warwick 'the regime's biggest headache' lmfao #and ig some of his analyses on Richard III were interesting. It helps that R3 had a very short and very dramatic reign from start to finish #so Penn's flourishing tone doesn't really feel out of place for it

[katyspersonal]

* In Japanese original, Ebrietas is 'daughter of the stars' and not 'cosmos', whereas her internal filename is 'bastard of the moon'; Kos' name in Japanese original is also Gos (like in ghost). I wanted to specify this so verbal things don't skew anything!

* Altar body has 12 large spider legs like Nightmare Apostles, when her body in the Lake and dungeons has 16 small legs with large holes above them, as if previous legs were lost somehow. And petrification upon strong Arcane blast is a thing in lore!

#bloodborne #polls #ebrietas daughter of the cosmos #rom the vacuous spider #it reminded me of the same headache as 'does MP adopt our hunter or loves them?' #and 'is Kos a mom figure for Mico or MOMMY figure' gvnhjmjv #like i said great ones' feelings might transcend human ones in definitions and intensity #whereas this attitude can also be contageous #i often feel like love with a GO could not be put in simple terms and roles would lose all boundaries #not a bad thing but id imagine a human that knew it could not have 'normal' human relationship again #YET AGAIN looking at Mico #he could never be a real romantic partner after how many GOs hes interacted with

[milimeters-morales]

Someone calling Miles “Miley” as a joke once but he realizes he likes the ambiguity over whether or not it’s a cutesy/teasing nickname for the more masculine sounding “Miles” or straight up just a new feminine name that he wouldn’t mind being called for the rest of his life

#i’ve got a headache from how long this thought has kept me up #because like. Ooooug (turns into a fist sized onion and never turns back) #he doesn’t look like a miley and i can’t even think of a new name for him because i just know he wouldn’t go to that point he likes his+ #name and would feel wrong with anything different that’s why gender is so interesting it’s what you make it im going to DIE FOREVER #I JUST WANT TO PROTECT HER AND KNOW HER STORY AND MAKE HER STORY AND SHOW THE WORLD #BUT IM SOOOOO SCARED. LIKE I KNOW PEOPLE OUT THERE HAVE THE SAME THOUGHTS #AND TOURE NEBER GONNA FIND THE RIGHT PEOPLE IF YOURE SCARED TO SPEAK HONESTLY BUT IM JSUTS O #actually ignore all that bullshit its tumblr 😭😭 almost forgot where i was lmaoooo #cures silly fear in 3 seconds #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #transfem miles

[jade-of-mourning]

i was tempted to give them a tray of shiggy-hand-fries on that table. the five of them have the most high school band energy i’ve ever witnessed and i felt like drawing them :>

(the joke’s not funny anymore since i don’t know what fashion is, but i was committed. kami probably came up with it and in spite of the other four adamantly hating it, nobody had a better idea — aside from “a-band”, which he rightfully argued is objectively awful)

can’t draw shoes but i spent too much time on them so now you get to look at them

#bnha #a-band #kaminari denki #kyouka jirou #yaoyorozu momo #tokoyami fumikage #bakugou katsuki #the thing is that these past three days i've had finals and i proceeded to spend #over twelve hours making this drawing instead of studying #i sat down for seven hours straight and gave myself a headache with this #this is the desaturated version my eyes are in great pain #please help me next time i don't know how people dress #the reason bakugou and jirou look so lame = i didn't have pictures that i wanted to use lol #this drawing came up because i was thinking about how the 'bakusquad' and 'dekusquad' feel like college friend groups #you know. the ones that last for ages #and the a-band felt more like a high school friend group #and also i think it's funny as shit if kami was the only left from bakugou's high school career and he never lets it down #lychee's trash art

[ronanlynchbf]

they should provide financial compensation for ppl who are sensitive to an unbelievable degree.

#being sensitive's actually immensely inconvenient + makes me feel incompetent. literally someone raises their voice at me i start tearing up #had a mini-discussion with my dad abt palestine and i was shaking all over the entire time it's so bad........... #not gonna go into detail bc he busts out the most islamophobic racist things and i don't want to say all that on here but we talked a littl #abt palestine and then a lot abt hamas bc that's at the forefront of every discussion now and uhm. well let's just say he is someone that #thinks reverse racism is real and also interrupts you all the time when he's having a conversation so u know how that went....i wish i'd #made the point i was trying to make come across clearer but he's so rooted in his own beliefs that's like a near impossible feat anyway no #matter how good u are at talking. #r.txt #also i woke up with a nosebleed today (had a nosebleed yesterday AND five days ago) and a pounding pressuring headache so that's gotten me #a little very concerned i'm not gonna lie...............like the headache has been persistent for the past two weeks and kind of feels like #something is pressing on my brain from the inside.. #i wanna look up what might be causing it but i also don't want to because i always start imagining that the worst things they're suggesting #on there are the ones that are true......

[dirt-str1der]

Knows that im going into heat because im thinking about him again

#Yakuza loveblog #ohh!! yeah whatever i do want to put him on the torture rack with ropes around his wrists and ankles stretched tautly and slide a long blade #over his belly and then cut him in three hard hits and make his blood and guts spray like a fountain and then the bisected halved of his #body are pulled apart by the ropes and flop in opposite directions and he went into shock after the second strike and died by the third #thinking about how his head would so go flying if i decapitated him i want to turn him into cuts of meat so bad ... #h hey can you put your neck on this chopping block i mean wooden pillow isnt it so comfy ? #literally cannot tell you how badly ive been on edge because ive been thinking of butchering him like a pig #fucked up just wanna watch the skin split and show him just how deep the blade can go it wont be painless but ill do it so quickly that he #wont have a chance to dwell on the pain either ... baby boy i can chop you up i can fold you over like a fish and break your spine that way #i really need a big hatchet to kill him with that girl in the price of a d cup substory was stupid as hell #like she managed to drug him and all she did was take his money ? she should have hung him with a noose for a bit and then quartered him #if i managed to knock him unconscious he would not he waking up with only a headache #aughth i wish it could be as painless as possible for you i really do but i want to see his face when he realises he’s recieved a fatal #wound ... look at how deep this blade goes. this wound will not heal because you will be dead in a few moments im really sorry ! youre gonna #be dead soon and even if i stopped it wouldnt save youu so shush and let me put you out of your misery baby boy #i feel a little bit better now. sorry. i was really worked up just now

[fungi-maestro]

I couldn't sleep so I drew a couple of these guys. I feel much better!

#sealarts #the question #vic sage #Rorschach #watchmen #not tagging Ted bc he's just hanging around in this #little midnight art action huh? whats not to love #this is when I'm my most productive (blatant lie) #anyway it just seems natural to draw sleepless detectives when im having an insomnia thang. #its like how pliny the elder told people to eat walnuts for headaches bc they looked similar #walnuts and the brain that is #sorry im so tired #ok i go to bed now. it feels nice to post some stuff again

[icharchivist]

like man i know Stoker was racist and probably never met a single foreign person in his life to have written stuff like that but i’m getting the impression that most people in the tags have never heard a person without a solid grasp on english speaking, because the stuff they point out as “obviously Stoker making stuff up as to how foreign people talk” are stuff i didn’t even pick up for having used those sentences structures back when i barely knew english or that i’ve seen from other people who are just starting english.

#the reactions everytime van Helsing speaks is genuinely giving me a headache at this point #i would not account for if it'd make sense for a Dutch person with poor grasp on English to talk like that #but the overdramatic 'we can't understand anything he's saying!' is really getting on my nerves #the sentences structures still look like stuff i'd see people without a good grasp on engish use #me when i was a teen learning english from stubborningly roleplaying online with dickheads who would laugh at my english mistakes included #like it's crazy Stroker was def racist as fuck and everything #but i read the way some people poke fun at it #and all i see is wow you've never talked with someone who didn't have a solid grasp on english in your whole life have you #ichatalks #ichasalty #ish??? if that makes sense??? #i'm not defending Stroker or saying the speech is not problematic in any way #just that the extreme reactions to it feels disconnected to the non-english native reality of how we pick up english #also just in general the comments themselves on stuff i didn't notice #because to me it's sentences structure i could do or that made sense to me #makes me SO insecure about my grasp on English #and i feel worse reading comment about it than i was reading Stroker's attempt at a foreign speech #so this is kinda sad lmao #(* Stoker for the tags bc i'm not correcting the tags)

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

Sorry. I meant cis ted.  I would never baby girls transman that would be offensive.

???? yeah i mean. i kind of figured you probably meant cis ted, i was saying I got distracted on the topic of feminization kink. also i mean. yeah it CAN be offensive but i was talking about how me, as a trans man, enjoys feminization kink on a trans male/transmasc character (in this case trent, sorry) bc i project a lot😩 and it's fun specifically because of the inherent contradictory na--i mean i did explain this? didn't i? i. sorry??

#please tell me im not about to get a bunch of anon hate for . [checks notes] having a kink #anyway i only like it done a certain way like. im not into misgendering or whatever its more just like. ohhh idk how to explain it rn #Again. Headache #but like. its ABOUT the contradictory nature of it its ABOUT how it #ironically--perhaps paradoxically--is validating of my/his gender #and like i mean. aftercare. praise kink anyone? good boy? love that shit. validation. #like. it's just. a guy can enjoy being feminized. and a trans guy is a guy #with as much wide variety as cis guys #and sometimes hes into that! and not necessarily in the specific Misgendering way but just. in the regular way. like a cis guy might be. yk #sources: I Am Into It And I'm Transmasc #anyway tldr IM babygirling trans trent bc id like to masculine enough to be babygirld. #plus ngl it just plays into my Complicated Gender Feelings #one of my ideal genders (i collect them like a dragon #im fluid i think but i lean very masc but in different shades?) is like #i want to look like a boy in girl's clothing if that makes sense. masculine enough that i could wear a dress and people would think #'guy in a dress' not 'lady' but still like. you know. wearing the dress. #and this plays into that--being masculine enough that you can be feminized and still be recognizably a guy? or know that you are still like #you and your partner still Know and Perceive you're a guy? you know? #the security of that in your own gender + safety/trust in your partner + it's FUN it's just fun #idk how else to explain it man but it's literally me projecting my personal feelings #also idk what emoji that is it wont load for me rip #ANYWAY sorry to derail thats why i did it in the tags. im just like #honestly not as interested in ted getting railed which--again not that it's not valid but it's also like 90 percent of the fan content for #the ship and like. again that's not invalid or Not Canon or something im just more interested in WRITING about trent getting railed #bc i have blorbo disease and my own preferences yknow? #askbox #anonymous #if i get like. Cancelled over this. im going to. like. walk into the sea

[orcelito]

Announcing my newest blorbo in the form of a mini spam at 3 am. As is proper in the world.

#speculation nation #i have fallen in love with wolfwood and i have adopted a son named alcryst. whatup #NO wolfwood is not to the level dohalim is NO ONE ever could be. except for yuri lowell #but i must admit... he has bewitched me with his bastard ways... #and then alcryst showed up in fe looking sooo cool before revealing himself to be the most UNCOOL character ever #sopping wet tissue of a boy. and i love him very much. #i love how i have all my favorite blorbos and you guys just gotta remember it for urself bc i sure am not gonna lay it out #the Extended Fanny Blorbos Universe. a whole collection of fictional characters i have either 'married' or 'adopted' #really not much has changed since i was in middle school. except instead of husbands kisshu edward elric and shikamaru #i have yuri lowell dohalim il qaras sebastian (stardew) laslow (fire emblem) and MAYBE wolfwood. if i feel like it. #like im not exactly sure what's going on with the uh time stuff? he just entirely skipped his teen years i guess #but considering how experienced he is with handling that gun there's GOTTA be some years between there #admittedly the ambiguity is a little weird. but in other versions he is definitely an adult and he LOOKS like an adult in tristamp at least #so. you know. 🤷 #anyways it's late ive cheered myself up i have a headache it's time for bed

[devotedlystrangewizard]

"being autistic is about being bad at reading social cues" "being autistic is about stimming & sensory overload" NO.

this is autism.

#its not even about like. the fact that theyre the imperial royal family. its completely separate from that #its about how utterly dysfunctional that entire family was. i need more lore about them. i need to know. #I NEED TO KNOW WHERE THE WOMEN ARE. #where are the galvus women. you cant say theyre all dead thats ridiculous and i wont believe you #personally i think emet-selch's ex-wife is living her best life. that is a lie but the concept of this 90-something year old lady being #in the game. is fun #'oh solus?? yeah he was a dick. sorry. i went on holiday and then he was gone and i never went back' #emet-selch discourse this emet-selch discourse that i want a little garlean great-grandma in law on my island #shes dead but wouldnt it be FUNNY. #shes an ex-reaper who got sick of solus disrespecting her reaper arts with the magitek & faked her death #its 12 am and i have had headaches all day do not mind me i am RAMBLING #my coping mechanism is hyperfixating on dysfunctional fictional families because every time my mom is being a bitch #i can just think about this dumpsterfire of a collection of blood-related people and be instantly comforted #like yeah my stepdad's a dick but at least my grandfather isnt an ascian so whos REALLY having a bad time huh? im doing greatt #im begging you to like. look at varis's story that man is a walking stack of tragedies it feels like im looking at my 13 year old selfs ocs #just aged up like 30 years #motherfucker lost his father and his wife his grandfather hated him and didnt even try to hide it his son is. a walking natural disaster #imagine dying to patricide not because ur child hated you or whatever but just because u were in their way #and THEN your body and memory get used to create one of the creatures you always wanted to bring an end to #this isnt apologism i am laughing at his misery #oh and also his childhood friend dies in service to him so theres that #'i would gladly die for his radiance' reggie bud thats really nice but that man is actively losing his mind & i dont think that would help #it feels like im watching my dog's chew toy. #i genuinely cannot for the life of me figure out what kinda bond varis & zenos had but im guessing uhhh none #but even still the whole elidibus zenos arc. also not something i think he was very happy with #i have held that rant in for weeks but fuck it. there you go. i like varis. he amused me.

[thethingything]

today's Ant System nonsense is: waking up, going downstairs, and almost immeduately having to explain to our mum that her boyfriend is probably a system. we've been awake for 3 hours and most of that has been spent describing system experiences while our mum goes "oh my god he experiences that constantly" or "that explains so many things"

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #earlier he basically just perfectly described the experience of splitting a new alter and he was really freaked out about it #and our mum decided to ask us if we had any idea what might be going on #and we had to just sit there like ''so you know how he has memory problems and childhood trauma...'' #anyway it'll be interesting to see how this plays out if he is a system because they're gonna have to figure out a bunch of stuff #but maybe it'll lead to her being more understanding about us being a system too #also like when I say he described the experience of splitting a new alter #I mean like he described the exact thing new alters experience with looking around and wondering where the fuck they are #while sat at home in his living room #he plays the guitar and that's like his main hobby and he looked at his guitars and went #''why do I have these? I don't even know how to play the guitar'' #and then did the same thing with a bunch of his other possessions and had no idea why he had all this stuff #he described feeling like he was sat outside his body watching himself doing things but it wasn't him controlling his body #and he got a really bad headache for the rest of the day #there was more stuff but it'd end up being a very lengthy description #but yeah I had to figure out how to explain that this is what it often feels like when we split new alters and they immediately front

[skunkg1rll]

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#yeahhhh wanna punch myself in the face so bad but i have a headache #also #i cant stop daydreaming abt him punching me in the face #last year when i did this and had a nice bruise nd blackeyhe didnt know what i looked like plus i felt so ugly so i didnt show him #i want to have a bruised cheek nd blackeye now nd take pics nd post them nd hopefully he'll see them #nd maybe it can remind him abt how i told him i wish he had given me those bruises #maybe then he can be reminded of the fact that once he wanted me nd maybe he can want me again #...... or maybe this is all just a fantasy bc hes disappointed in me nd doesnt like me anymore #even a bruise wont make him want me again :((( #well i still wnna punch myself #i hate myself so so so so much #nd i dont see the point in holding back. #nobody gives a fuck abt me or how i feel or what im dealing w #nobody cares abt me hurting myself either so why should i not??? if i want to??? #im all alone anyway and i want to punch myself nd i want a blackeye #but anyway i have a headache so that will just make it worse so i cant :((( #but soon hopefully

[mariamlovesyou]

tuned into Plestia's live with Rahma Zein's second account (she got shadowbanned). key moments:

plestia talked about her adjustment to living in australia. "it's 1:30am now and it's normal for me and many palestinians who live abroad to be awake hours into the morning. i am scared of sleeping. because of the time difference, i'm scared if i sleep i will wake up to bad news. in gaza i was scared of the sound of the bombs, here i am scared of the quiet."

contacting family and friends in gaza is near impossible. "sometimes i feel like a crazy person, calling 20 times in a row hoping that on the 21st time the call might go through."

on the destruction of entire communities and neighbourhoods: "i'm scared when i go back to gaza i won't recognise it anymore. someone sent me a picture of my neighbourhood, and i couldn't tell it was mine at first. all my favourite places, cafes where the aunties used to give me extra food and ask about my day, have been destroyed. i dread looking at my gallery or seeing snapchat memories because most of these people in the pictures are no longer alive."

rahma asked plestia to talk about one story that stuck with her. plestia said "i remember walking one time on the 'safe corridor', that's what they called it anyway, and i saw an older woman clutching onto a donkey cart where her son's body was, refusing to let go of it. i asked my colleague what the smell was, he said it's dead bodies under the rubble. it was the first time i familiarised myself with the smell. the son's body was decaying and the woman told me about cats and animals eating away at it. i've had children talk to me about birds eating away at their parents' decomposing bodies and not being able to chase them away."

"it seems so silly to go to hospitals for minor sicknesses now. i can't even think about how many palestinian children are going to be terrified of hospitals now. there was a girl who was taken to the hospital to get treatment for injuries by one of the bombs, and while she was in the bathroom another bomb landed nearby. the impact from that sent the ceiling crashing down on her.. she got another injury while getting treated for her first one."

"i hate how people talk about our resilience - as if it's okay that this is happening to us. we are only surviving because we have to, because we have no other choice."

rahma brought up the way family homes are set up in palestine and asked plestia to elaborate. "basically, there are floors. someone will live on the ground floor, and then their married son lives with his children on the floor above them, and then their successors above them and so on. so when family homes are targeted, they wipe out entire families. many families officially no longer exist."

"i used to wear my journalist helmet and vest all the time, felt naked without it, even slept with the vest on sometimes until i realised it only made me more of a target. they didn't give me any protection, only headaches and back pain."

"i am an optimistic person, i loved covering sweet sentimental things, like at my graduation asking parents of top graduates how they feel about their children graduating. that's what i love reporting on. i wanted to cover things like that when i came back to gaza, show the beautiful side of gaza that the media didn't really show, but i didn't have the chance." "do you think they'll give you right of return?" "i can only hope."

plestia mentioned how hard it was being a journalist with limited access to the internet, charging facilities, no mics, lack of equipment and how difficult it was uploading things. rahma asked her what's one story that wasn't really recorded or posted due to these constraints; plestia said "the evacuations. sometimes they informed us about them, sometimes they didn't. you have no idea how hard it was, everyone looking for their family members, making sure every one was there, taking to the streets in 5 minutes and not knowing which way to go. i remember i went to my friend's house for shelter for 30 minutes before the first evacuation was announced and we ran to another family's house, stayed there for 2 days before another evacuation was announced. me, my friend, and that family all evacuated together to another family's house. there were already so many people there seeking shelter, it wasn't just one family staying there. none of us knew how long we had in any place."

before october 7th, palestinians were used to limitations on electricity. plestia used to plan her day's tasks around when the electricity was working. "for example when the electricity was on from 12 to 4, i would say i will do my laundry and charge the phones during this time. life wasn't exactly 'normal', but all of us pray to have those days back in comparison to what we are experiencing now." plestia also said that cars are running on cooking oil now because there is no fuel.

on hygiene: "many pregnant women have to give birth without any pain medication or medical attention. once we ran out of medicine, that was it. women who had to get C-sections couldn't stay to recover or get followup treatments because someone else needed the bed. we have no water, no tissues, no pads, barely any bathrooms. in the shelter schools you have to wait an hour before even getting to use the bathroom because of how many people are there."

"something you don't hear about is how many people die because of sadness. there's so many ways to die in gaza, because of the bombardment, because of starvation, the lack of resources, but i also know many elderly people who died because their hearts couldn't take it anymore. i have been in gaza before and lived through 4 aggressions, but nothing compared to this one."

a recurring sentiment that was echoed in the video: "sometimes i thought to myself: who am i recording this for? because we've already shown everything, we've already talked about everything. everything has already been said, the proof is everywhere, nothing i talked about today is new." rahma said the first video posted about what's happening in palestine should've been enough.

she is 22 today. plestia's closing words: don't stop talking about us, don't stop boycotting, don't stop protesting, please don't get bored of fighting for palestine.

#this is all off the top of my head if i remember other key points i will add them

[seventh-district]

ignore me this is a continuation of the tags on my previous vent post lmao

#Seven.txt #Seven’s Public Diary #cw vent post #cw vent #vent post #man. it’s whatever. let’s look on the bright side- it’s been a while since i’ve had a good crying on the floor session so maybe i was #overdue for one anyways. i feel a bit better now and i didn’t even give myself a headache so that’s a win #ugh it’s thundering outside fuck. i forgot there’s a severe thunderstorm watch tonight. i rly hope the power stays on bc i have stuff to do #and speaking of the weather i might as well say that today’s Weather Report is uhhhhh #You Don’t Even Know Who I Am by Patty Loveless #and also Loveless by PVRIS. and Tapping Out (Stripped) by Issues. lmao some days i can't just pick one. i can't help myself! #they're all on this month's playlist anyways. and i finally linked it in my pinned post! which i had been meaning to do for a While #anyways! all of that stuff aside i do have good news! #Cynthia did confirm that the Sakura Ranchus i wanted are still available!!! so that's really truly great and i’m happy abt that #i honestly can’t believe they stayed listed for like. a year and nine months??? but i guess it’s bc of their wens being a bit overgrown #but that’s why i like em. i want the imperfect ones. i want the ones that no one else wants bc i know i can give them a good home #in spite of them not being ‘show quality’ or whatever #and if my father has anything else to say abt how he thinks they look bad and generic and whatever else he can kiss my fucking ass #bc it ain’t his money being spent and they ain’t his fuckin fish #anyways i thought i had smthn else to say but i forgor #so im gonna go get to work on stuff that needs doing and i’ll finally end what’s probably the longest series of tags in tumblr history #(i should really just type this shit out in the actual post and put it under a cut. maybe i’ll start doing that in the future)