#hm ok enough about me

[we-dont-talk-about-potato-nonono]

I hope your day/night gets better 💜 sending positivity your way💜💜

(You don’t have to answer)

jfkfjfje YOU’RE AN ANGEL OK PLEASE NEVER FORGET THAT 😭✨💫👍💖🫂🩵

thank you so much for this message ❤️ i’ll get there in the end (i hope) this ask means a lot <3 sending positivity on your way too!!

#tbh lately im just being. cranky and wasting time I know it 😔 #my life feels like a telltale game rn #too many decisions #and I just have to wait and see if they end up being the right one #a little miserable for a bit since my cat went missing and a best friend of mine is at hospital…. but i’ll be okay…. #thats why i had to close my req for now #i also feel so bad about myself because im not a very talkative person on tumblr #idk how to interact because of my anxiety😭 im the worse #but seriously i read all the tags and notifs from u guys and it made me very happy!! #i promise im not ignore it im just so shy to talk haha #hm ok enough about me #anyway I hope you’re better than okay 🤍 have a lovely day/night #sending you loads of love and reassurance! #sorry for too many tags…. #wholesome #lovely ask #ask

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hi, I was the anon that had brought up the high seas adventure!! I'm glad you took interest in it, and hearing your ramblings to add onto it just made me imagine so many fun things! (Poor Eddie, haha. With your description, I just imagine a dog trying to stand up in a moving car.) Ohh, now I imagine a case where the ship wrecks and their stranded for a few days until another rescue ship comes! Perhaps on an island?? I hope some of them know how to hunt!

the very first thing that came to mind was Eddie sobbing while pointing one of Howdy's guns at a crab. Sally just comes up & stabs it through the shell before taking it back to the fire for eating. Eddie collapses to his knees, wracked with guilt-

#frank & sally arguing over how to build the S.O.S signal #frank wants to be tactical. sally wants to go full Elizabeth in potc - giant bonfire #frank wins the argument due to popular vote #hard cut to everyone standing in the water staring at the Very On Fire island #anyway eddie's 'i wouldnt hurt a fly' statement makes me think that he would not be able to kill anything on purpose #hunt? nah hes just gonna forage. crack open a coconut on a rock. try that weird mushroom #meanwhile wally & howdy are chatting about the weather while spearfishing #for some reason im imagining an almost entirely barren island #like theres five trees & a nice patch of vegetation #but the rest is barren sand w/ the shipwreck on a nearby sandbar #hm yes thats where their camp is. huddled under the half overturned ship <3 #the water between the bar & the island is shallow enough for the big neighbors to wade through #lots of fish for dinner! #rambles from the bog #wh fantasy au #lmao wait ok so wally has this ability where he can turn abandoned doors into portals #(it takes a lot of energy & power so its a last resort trick) #so im imagining that a week or so into this impromptu banishment #frank goes 'wait. wally you can do the door portal thing' #and they all go OHHHH SHIT and start building their own door out of the ship's wood #oh hey... what if that island becomes an emergency escape / stash for the neighborhood... #tight spot? no where else to go? they have a remote island camp!

[pocketramblr]

Ask Game AU: Where Nao grow suspicious of her husbands "friend" and his constant need to involve himself in their lives so she does her own investigation of the man.

1- Nao was glad, at first, that Kotaro was befriending people at work. He's always been slow to trust. With this friend, though, he wasn't. Kotaro ended up working later, and when he wasn't, going out to dinner or drinks with his coworker. Nao didn't want to bring anything up, didn't want to discourage him, and it wasn't like she had been abandoned to watch Hana all day by herself- her parents were there, and Kotaro wasn't out every single night. Just a lot of them.

2- Still, she doesn't say anything, until one night, Kotaro is back and in bed next to her, only a bit of wine left on his lips, when he brings up trying for a second child. She stares at him, and he withdraws, but she tells him it wasn't a bad thing- just, she had no idea he was thinking about it. They were both only children, and Kotaro had spent some years in a home with many other kids and didn't speak fondly of the experience. Kotaro tells her his friend brought it up, is all, and Nao nods, but is more worried.

3- Kotaro's office is hardly difficult to find things in. She discovers that he was the one to hire his friend, which she notes is weird, because he never mentions that detail. The address on record for him doesn't seem to be a place someone lives. The numbers on his bank account are... fine. But she doesn't find any trace of him online. She asks a few questions to Kotaro here and there, what his friends qualifications were, where he went to school. He's not even found there, on any list of graduates or alum forums. It's odd. but maybe he is just very private.

4- Hana brings up having a little sibling. Nao asks her if her father said anything, and she says no, they had a substitute teacher that day who'd told some stories and said he used to have a little brother. When Kotaro comes home late from work, he's unaware of what his daughter said when Nao asks if he's been thinking about it still. He says he has, and she says she still doesn't know. Two kids after all is a lot of work. and he's not home very often anymore.

5- Nao looks at the package of pills, the last row of seven, and opens her next box instead. She's done it before, once, for a vacation to the beach. She'd spotted a little then, but this time its more. Her birth control's been tampered with. Kotaro couldn't have done it, she'd just gotten the new box the day before she'd opened it and what'd he know anyway about it? What had that pharmacist looked like? Perhaps it was a defect, something she should notify the manufacturer about. She resolves to do so. Kotaro doesn't eat dinner with them that night, and when she asks how it went, he tells her that his friend told him such a funny story about his little brother, listen, he'll tell her and she'll laugh. She asks about the brother, Kotaro goes quiet and says his friend talked about him in the past tense. He's got enough dead family of his own to not press more than that. But really, the story was funny. Nao thinks about Hana's substitute- but clearly, Kotaro's friend was at work that day, must be another coincidence. In a line of many bad ones. Kotaro asks her if she'd like a second child. Nao thinks she might have, before all this. Now, she isn't sure what she'd like. Instead, she tells him that he barely sees Hana. is he really sure that he wants another kid? Kotaro goes quiet again, realizes she's right. He offers to take the next day off. Nao tells him she just wants him home on time for dinner.

+1- Kotaro agrees, and the next day Nao's parents watch Hana for an hour while she meets with her friend Shirota Akiho at the park. Akiho gives Nao a hug, and an unopened box of birth control. She tells her that her sister Beru's bridal shower is in a few weeks, and she can give her another box then. She agrees everything sounds weird- but Kotaro probably isn't to blame. Nao goes home. Kotaro on time for dinner that day. But he realizes when he reacts to Hana telling him she is playing heroes before bed (and Nao and Hana react to his reaction) that maybe he should spend more time at home before welcoming someone else into it.

#the pharmaceutical company like. tests her packages and is like 'hm yeah must have been an error in manufacturing with that sorry would you #like to settle this out of court' and then they can take another lovely little vacay #and maybe Tenko still comes around just... later #....... maybe two years later. sort of third year age while izuku's a freshman. maybe- #ok post is long enough and im sure afo is going to be plotting more anyway when he realizes his plan backfired #and nao isn't suddenly getting pregnant planned or unplanned and also kotaro is slowly warming up to the idea of his daughter having #fancies of being a hero. she's so young after all its no harm. they can talk more seriously when she's older. he wants to protect that #innocence longer than his own was protected #maybe afo can be fuming about kotaro not dropping everything to go on a date with him that he goes to kill some people to work out his ange #and that leads All Might right to him years early or something #that'd be nice ig #pocket talks to people #anon #ask game #hm. not sure what the warning for garaki tampering with nao's meds should be but if you know let me know #ask to tag

[grantwilsonenjoyer]

sitting here thinking abt. Au where post-trial glenn&dads are switched out for the version in jodies timelinee.. wouldnt it be So Fun if the other universe still existed (glenn not knowing that he is a dad in this universe and maybe resenting nick a bit at first for "killing the vibe" ) (glenn learning how to parent while surrounded by the other dads and constntly being like 'dude what the fuck do you do with a kid') (being forced into this role where he has to have so much love for this kid and realizing that he didnt really feel like he had a purpose before)

#like Ah. Hm. very possible the dads were just traded instead of reversed timelines!! #i think its a fun thought for approx. 10 seconds bc i think its funny to imagine glenn being like “um wtf” and then latching onto nick #but then i think about nick and how hed realize at some point and. See. I cannot handle that. #i just think about it quite often idk. #also think the reversal of the other dads being like “um where tf is jodie / why is nicholas saying glenn is his dad” is quite funny #also thinking because. Huh. I guess they wouldnt know why they were switched. Inch resting . #nick trying to talj to glenn abt the trial and that is when he realizes glenn entirely does not remember him. Huh. Well now i am sad #but that is not my problem bc i will never actually write this <3 nick makes me sad enough already #also guys dont think about how in this au glenn first finds out about morgan when someone says shes dead ☹️ #ok that is all I'll stop . i am normal

[ezraphobicsoup]

the car seat is headresting that’s for certain

#watching bake off and in my head it’s just vague twin fantasy #‘woah that’s a nice cake’ ‘cute thing don’t be a rude thing!!!!!!!!’ rauasasaaaaaaa #man i still have so much work to do but this is more fun #i want to like. gain the power of flight i think #i want to detach all my limbs and move them about and put them back together #and i don’t mean that in an unhappy way i should clarify im doing alright this evening #but like. i want to dance as if i did not have a human body and just explode everywhere and and and #hjhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i don’t think this is only csh i think it’s also cause concerts are slightly different to what i thought they were #turns out it’s actually more convenient but it’s different so it’s the end of the world etc #man i remember one time i was at choir and someone jokingly called me a tory for not liking change :( #i do like change in some respects!!!! but the plans are not the original plans what am i meant to do now #uh i’m just saying words here now huh #i dunno there’s a lot of thoughts in my head i can’t make sense of it all #i need to do my duolingo and homework and homework and homework #they’re stressed on bake off which isn’t helping i don’t think but still quite enjoyable #i need to find music teachers as soon as possible to ask questions i must not forget to do that !!! that is very important #(need to see if i can keep the baritone in school thursday -> friday next week i really hope i can #hm hm ok that’s enough of a tumblr post i need to have a shower and i’ll try and get to bed like what before one?? #no ok. half 12 half 12 that’s reasonable ok i’ll call it that #ezra’s real life rambles #ezra likes music #<- got a bit off topic but that’s the original post

[xannerz]

re lrb i saw a couple tags w/ ppl defending izzy's death and honestly no that was actually the dumbest most rushed thing LMFAO like it didnt strike me as homophobic the entire show is full of the utmost uwu gay pirates and good for them. but his death-- it was just fucking stupid honestly. season ended with a stale fizzle and ed and stede smooch and move on over that man's grave lmfaoooo unreal

#ofmd spoilers #ill bitch more about this eventually #but birb and i were like is this season gonna get any better and right as it felt like it was picking up they kill off our fave #so it was like hm ok #idc if he comes back next season. ed and stede being like aw man :( anyway 💋 was enough to sour it for me #gf and i could really do without them LMFAO

[forgotten-daydreamer]

doctors and nurses should be forced to work in retail before being allowed anywhere near patients

#had to tell the stupid nurse “if i'm not familiar with any of this why am i expected to know everything about it? it's your job to explain” #“i- but-” no no shut up. i'm done with these things. honestly. shut up. #put them in their place. don't be scared to raise your voice when they act allmighty #“you're old enough to-” shut up. would you tell that to someone who's +30? #just because i'm young it doesn't mean you can talk to me like that. at all. stay in your fucking place. #i did every fucking thing by the book. shut the fuck up. it's not my fault if you guys don't fucking communicate #and you know. this happened to me when i got surgery. one doctor told me to take idk what before it. #then the aneathesiologist gave a second dose to me. and i was like “hm. i think i already took that one tho” #“oh really? you shouldn't have” #sir?? it's your colleague's fault. he prescribed it to me. said “take it before the surgery” and i did #how was i supposed to know that the two of you don't communicate?? #“what do you study?” “translation.” “ok then you know languages and this isn't your field of exp-” fucking exactly #so why the fuck are you coning at me?? i'm not saying anything #imagine pulling up to the hospital and a nurse decides to patronise you for being a patient?? uh?? #sir your people told me to do this and that. wtf. #coming* #“say something if you get lightheaded” i'd rather fucking die than rely on you. this is between me and god now. shut up. #* anaesthesiologist. i can spell. #“ok but if you got a weak immune system you should have-” sir. sir. i do what you people tell me to. i can't fucking do whatever i please. #you prescribe me the wrong stuff & then complain when you make a mistake as if it were my fault?? wow. #medical malpractice

[satanfemme]

being both gnc and trans is so hard sometimes. it's like, I'll face adversity for being gnc/trans/whatever-strangers-read-me-as, and in addition to the normal base-level difficultly and pain and fear of these experiences, I'll also feel on some level like it's "my own fault" too because this is what I purposefully decided to be.

I often dress/act like a girl but have a deep voice/facial hair/flat chest -- and I opted in for all of those. I spent more money than I can conceptualize in order to medically transition in those ways. while, in theory, I could've saved the money, not transitioned, continued dressing/acting the same way as I do now, and the problem would no longer exist... in theory. ofc logically I know that's not at all how it works. if I hadn't transitioned I would feel even worse. and the way I'd experience & express gender would still be intrinsically different from "cis girl" -- that's true regardless of how my body looks or sounds. which should all go without saying, because I very obviously don't conform to my CAGAB either. if I did I wouldn't be in this mess!! u know?

...but the self-blame is still there, because for better or for worse I did go out of my way to become myself. <- feels like a truism.

#the other big self doubt-y issue I've been experiencing lately re: being gnc and trans #is feeling like I'm ''faking'' something. to sooo many people I've just come out as a femme/nonbinary man #with no mentions of my cagab cause that's not something I like to share around irl lol #and then I complain ofc about how I'm treated for being feminine. and everyone gives me sympathy which is nice #but it's hard to fully accept cause I wonder how many of them are assuming I was shunned the same way growing up. #when in reality I was punished for not being feminine *enough*. #and ik it shouldn't/doesn't matter in this context. I still struggled then and I still struggle now; they don't cancel out #but it almost feels like I ''tricked'' my way into a marginalization that I don't ''actually'' belong in. idk #like as if I'm ''secretly'' a girl and just pretending my normal girlhood is subversive for attention #or like I should have just been content with the relative safety of my assigned social role #(hm... where have I heard ''why can't you just be ok with being a girl?'' and ''they're just doing it for attention'' before 🤔) #it's def leaps of logic & self-directed transphobia all around but it's hard to shake #and there's a real fear somewhere mixed into it all too of ''what if someone finds out my cagab and decides I'm not actually trans/a man - #- by *their* transphobic logic. even if they previous supported me''. #anyway I hope no one minds the long vent-y post. I needed to sort out my emotions here lol #I have an old ''omg I love being confusing and ambiguous XD'' post gaining notes rn for some reason and #seeing it again while mentally working thru the above just made me feel ill and confused and guilty. feeling better now <3 #and I do love being trans & I love being a femme & I love being a man with a broad and fluid gender #it's just hard too sometimes

[justabunchofdragons]

hello o7

#chaos.txt #aughhh im so tired. not enough spoons to do private life updates so im just... sending it out to everyone #uhmmm im doing good! have not made as much progress on my neocities as i wanted :/ studying is going well though #still quite stressed but less so because i have Been studying #working on a few new carrds + paintings #would like to do some digital art studies .. clouds and landscapes they are calling me .. #what else. i went to go watch astv again! it felt revolutionary in a different way the second time #but i cannot economically justify going again! excited to have it on streaming because i would LOVE to do some scene redraws #listening to worlds beyond number + very much obsessed. been also squinting at a few commentary ytbers cuz some of the stuff they say is.. #not. great. i don't fully like em. hm. also been organising my files etc etc. made a cute notion that im not using! as expected #thinking about writing some fic tbh . had some epic watcher ideas a while ago that i would like to explore #im going to ... schedule this. for tomorrow. not in the headspace to . speak . to people. aa. its fine #i miss u guys. i think. i am so anxious and stressed all the time !! aagh. so dramatic. so dramatic chaos. what a mess. goodbye lads #see uuu all . in maybe 10 days .nods. maybe another life update in 10 days. because my exam is in 20 #this exam is so so so important guys. idk. why it feels more important than everything else ive done for the application process but it doe #and it. stresses .me .out. ok gbye forreal now

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

men will call your cell phone at 8:30pm instead of texting you apparently

#came back to my phone to a missed call and THEN a text from this guy in one of my classes #why would you CALL me i don’t know you like that…. #beth.txt #ok i’m being mean to him he’s literally normal it’s just weird #this is the same guy i was almost partners with this semester and i complained about him on here like every day for weeks like a lunatic #i was crazy back then lol…. definitely didn’t need to like. make up moral reasons to not want to be partners with him and make him out to be #like. a bad person or something the way i did :/ girl it was enough to just be like hm i prefer to work with weird girls thanks! #like i was ridiculous for all the hate i gave him sorry man you’re literally so normal and fine…..

[crescentmp3]

reading old conversations continues to give me terroble terrible psychic damage, it turns out.

#was trying to see if discord had any of my older urls and stumbled upon some of the things i've said in echo chamber. god! #why was i like that... #i would like to applaud mutuals who stuck with me even after all of that. #i was way too casual with swearing and also quite disrespectful! #theres also a lot of ''i have to make this conversation about me'' in there. #thank god im better now (<-he is not better) #no i'll probably look back at past-me and cringe every other year of my life. maybe even a few months #and i cant call myself anything near good enough when it comes to coming off right when speaking #that is why i try to match the energy of the person i speak to i think. less possibility of making a mistake #mistake being i say something accidentally rude and they hate me forever! thank you #oh god its near 2AM. i should sleep probably #hm no. i can stay awake its ok #🌙rambling

[apathyfairy]

my two best living options right now are either one apartment that is behind a mortuary or another that is on the same street as a cemetery like not to be the most goth girl you know but

#i havent been seeing ghosts all my life for nothing like im not ghost girl for no reason lmaooooooooooo #these apartments arent anywhere near each other and yet i have two dead people options and that's it bc they are cheap and also in safe #locations despite the dead people so im like hm. ok. #the one behind the mortuary is like maybe 1 to 2 blocks behind it like it is visible from the living room window so im like 😬 #the other one is on the same street as the cemetery maybe about same 2 blocks down on a straight street but u can't see the cemetery from #inside the apartment at all #so im like wow great 2 awesome options i love this for me #im realizing it isnt clear that im being sarcastic i fucking hate that these are my only 2 cheapest and safest options like im not haunted #enough as it is now i have to be neighbors with a graveyard which is very on point goth for me but i Do Not Want To

[daydreamerdrew]

The Incredible Hulk (1968) #205

#hm ok I will say that I was never able to get into Jarella #she was made an important character to the Hulk whose existence influenced the main plot after one appearance #and then when she did finally appear in the book again and wasn’t just talked about #it was never for long enough that her relationship with Bruce or the Hulk got any interesting development #which made her significance feel cheap #and then I felt characterization was a little incoherent #like I don’t feel that her ultimate relationship with Bruce and the Hulk made any sense #so Jarella herself I just can’t care about like there was never anything interesting about her #however #obviously I adore the Hulk #and I feel that he’s remarkably in character here #like this is some peak Hulk writing #so once we’re part the awkward mechanism of how she died the aftermath of her death is working for me #like I feel for the Hulk and I’m interested to see where this is going :) #marvel #bruce banner #jarella #betty ross #leonard samson #thunderbolt ross #my posts #comic panels

[merklins]

It's been loading for 4 hours do you think my image operation is complete yet

#m scribbles #listen LISTEN #It's a thing about my art! I can put it in my art tag if I want #I don't even know what my image operation is. Krita just does this to me for any reason it wants #The last thing I did was. hm lets see. hide and then unhide the layer I had his neck symbol on! #by neck symbol I mean I thought it'd be funny to replace the word error on his HEV suit with the gmod crash screen #but now Krita's crashed and I don't remember the last time I saved so who's the real loser? #< again I'm joking. I'm ok! I save frequently enough that it's hardly a concern. but I also force saved a new backup to play it safe!

[fazcinatingblog]

Who will get there first: Pendles reaching 10,000 disposals or Todd Michael Goldstein reaching 10,000 hitouts

#aflm #Essendon are trying to copy us #we're saying only 4 disposals to go and Essendon obviously looked up the stats and saw Todd is 26 away from 10k #this is unfair #also why isn't Draco Malfoy playing??? THIS IS HIS DAY #he dyed his hair blond for nothing #embarrassing #also i can't sleep because i feel bad i shouldn't have looked at Tony's timesheet sure they told me to but #i shouldn't have been so loud about it as well #i just #I'm an idiot #ok gonna go back to sleep #i think my alarm is still set to go off at 7 #why don't alarms understand public holidays?????? #alarms are sentient but they're just assholes #they're like 'hm it's anzac day maybe we'll let her sleep today--- GET UP LOSER!!!' #it's really mean #alarm clocks and Sophia are the same #like you know that deep down they care and they don't want to yell but they feel they have to #it's fair enough #otherwise I'll just spend the entire day sending out tax returns and filing and #i need her to yell at me re: terms of engagement letters and to do an interim invoice for $8000 because she doesn't have money for wages and #do normal bosses say that #i can't remember other bosses I've had but i don't think any specifically told me every week that they need money for the wages #like it's lying too because she always pays us so why say it???? #make us feel guilty about being paid #as if we should be working for free????

[novemquadragintillion]

I'm getting all my wisdom teeth taken out soon.. argh.. I'm not afraid of the surgery itself, but I am extremely afraid of the pain after it's all over. I have to recover for 4-5 days at least, because apparently the pain peaks at day 4 or 5 on average. I'm trying not to think about it because it makes me almost panic. And I can't do any work during that time (RIP my paycheck), and then after that, I have to do only light work for awhile. My job is heavy though. It's lots of heavy lifting (RIP my back in the future probably), so idk what I'll do...

I've been reading Lord of the Mysteries, Coi to be exact, but lately I stopped, because I want to save chapters for during those 5ish days. I've also been reading a book called The Shadow of What Was Lost by James Islington, which I also stopped reading because right after the surgery, I have to wait in the waiting room for 3-5 hours, and I've been thinking of reading that book during the wait. I'm halfway through already... I don't want to run out of things to do... So I also recently started to read D. Gray Man while I have the other two series on hold. It's decent so far, but the manga doesn't have enough mystery for me to be very captured by it much. Also, I feel like the story is a bit choppy, and there's not a lot of time for me to end up caring about most of the characters. I'll keep reading it though. At least I absolutely love Allen Walker's character designs (☆▽☆) And I like how the story gets more dark over time. (Also my favorite parts of the entire manga are the end comics about the author Hoshino, the assistants, and the editor 😂 Their little stories make me cry laughing)

#ok that's enough of me rambling #this random person's ramblings #what will I do when I catch up to the d gray man recent chapters though.... #maybe I should finally watch the anime I've been curious about #I heard insomniacs after school was good #and suzume. etc etc #I'm in the mood for action adventure however. #I want to watch solo leveling (the webcomic was fun) but I'll wait until after it ends airing #Hm. I could also attempt to read LotR