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harryandtaraspirateship-blog · 6 years

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Surrender Chapter 2

“ Cause you look greatest when you feel like a damn queen, We’re all just playing a game in a way, trying to win at life”, I sing loudly, as I tap my hand on the dash along to the beat of the music. Continuing to sing, I look over to my mum whose already looking over to me then on to the road and It felt like I could hear her questioning the type of person she's made in her head, I smile widely in response. “You think we should bring them some pie? After dinner?” My mum asks me. “Hmmm the good ole cliche apple pie? I am 3.14 % okay with that” , as I make the *ba dum tis* noise while doing the drum movements with my hands. Laughter is the only thing consumed in this car in this moment. “Pie, would be great, Mum” I say through my breathes of laughter. The thought of meeting the boy with the brown swirls of moppy hair creates excitement and curiosity through me. “Harry” echoes through my mind, I quickly snap out of my trance and begin to tell my mother the rest of the drive about the application process I was about to start for colleges. We arrive at NorthValley Composite High, it’s only the second week of the first semester, the air still flowing with the smell of trees and warmth is radiating of the summer sun. Before exiting the vehicle, I quickly give my mother a kiss on the cheek and wish her a good day. I hop out of the vehicle and immediately text Sam to meet me by our lockers. Walking towards my lockers, I notice the same regular crowds in their same particular areas of the courtyard, with the second level above the courtyard was reserved for the quote on quote “popular kids”, quite frankly they were made of guys who think they were the shit, majority of this school's population of girls had crushes on these boys, and girls who thought they were the royalty of the school. (Stereotypical girls in teenage movies, made up of girls who easily intimidated by another girls rising popularity or the boys noticing a new girl.) Sam’s and I’s locker were on the third floor which looked over the entire courtyard, which meant when there is a commotion, guess who gets the front seat? Thats right, meeee. “Hey boo" Sam yell’s practically loud enough for the courtyard to hear, with people looking at Sam. I put in my notebooks into my locker and smile at her and say “you know I love it when you express your love for me.” With a sly wink from me, she quickly rolls her eyes and smirks with “ babe, you know it.” We quickly burst into laugher, while finishing putting our stuff into our lockers. Let me give you a description of Sam, she has long beautiful dirty blonde hair and colourful eyes that you can’t even describe, she can make a plastic bag look amazing. She's been my best friend since we were in grade 3 and honestly she knows me better than myself at times. I refer to her as my soulmate everytime, someone ask’s me about her. Today she's wearing her favourite black bomber jacket with her black vans and white ripped jeans, totally a beauty, everyone knows this in school, especially the guys know. But her heart had been taken by Justin, I liked the guy because this one of the first guy’s to actually genuinely care about Sam and didn’t she her as an object. He was one of the core people who were in the popular crowd, because of his father’s wealth and his spot on the varsity football team. Although I mentioned i’d hurt him, if he were to hurt my best friend, only a couple times… Before bells rang, while Sam and I were talking about her sleeping over at my house, I mention my new neighbours. “British accent?!?” She squeals, I am taken back by her tone and say “yeah” while trying to regain my hearing in my right ear. “Oooooo look finally a guy for you!!” I laugh at her delusion, “yup totally this total stranger is the one! Could tell by the way we looked at each other, oh wait he didn’t.” I say with sarcasm. “Besides I don't want to be into another person after Stephen..” I say slowly. (Later in the story I'll tell you) “Tara how many times do I have to tell you that it happened a while ago, and I want to see you happy, could you at least consider trying to be more open with people? You’re one of the most caring people I know, you always put others first and a person willing to see that is the one for you.” She says to me. I sigh and say "fine, fine i’ll try to come out of my shell this year, okay? She smiles and claps at my acceptance. “Your lucky, I love you” I tell her, “oh believe me babe, I know.” She says. She is quickly taken by Justin who walks her to her usual math class and she tells me she’ll see me later. As I walk towards my English class and look over the rail to look down at the courtyard and see a group of girls swooning and giggling at something or someone by the main doors, I can’t see who they are staring at but must’ve been one of the core boys on second, I disregard it and continue to walk to class. I make it into my class and sit towards the front then take out my notes from last class and wait for the class to begin, with regular kids pilling in then Madison and Lauren walk in, taking up the seat behind me. They were leaders of the clique of “royalty”, Madison mostly. I stayed focus on planning notes in my planner when I hear Madison say “I hear he’s from the United Kingdom.” I suddenly stop myself to listen, thinking about the mop head boy. “The UK? Woah thats hot” Lauren says. “I know right? I am thinking of welcoming the new boy myself, I seen him on my way to class, he was walking out of the office coming up the stairs. He is totally fine, with his curly hair of his.” she giggles with Lauren. Yup, its mop head boy, couldn’t help myself feel even more curious as to what he looked like. As Mr. Holden stands to start the class, there is a knock at the door and by instinct everyone turns to look and there he is standing beside Principal Donald, I look at his face and boy he is actually really handsome, he is wearing a white tee shirt that slightly expose his tattoos underneath and black jeans with a black string necklace of some sort around his neck. Principal says to Mr. Holden and the rest of class that “this is Harry and he’s our new student”, if someone were kind enough to show him around school that will be great!” Mr. Holden in a cheerful tone tells him, he’ll choose a student to do so afterwards but to take a sit across from me on the other side of the class. “Hope he picks me” I hear Madison say to Lauren. “Good morning class today we will be starting our partner paper for The Great Gatsby, now I hope all of you have read them over the summer because this should be thorough and I want you to understand what Gatsby was experiencing and the dynamics of the themes”, He explains to us. “To live through what that era was like, the theme between social setting and the reality of his dream.” I slowly look over to Harry and see he is already staring at me and I embarrassingly turn quickly focusing on the teacher, I felt my cheeks get hotter because I felt him to continue to stare at me. “Okay, I'll explain more after I tell you whose partnering with who, James with Sarah, Ruby & Kate, Madison…” he says slow, looking at his sheet. “Please Harry, Please Harry” I hear Madison mumble. “Connor!” He informs her, an angry sigh leaves Madison. He beings to partner the rest of the class till he says “Tara, you’ll be with Harry. Mind showing him around too? Thanks”, he tells me. I gulp and glance over at him and he doesn’t seem to notice me, like I figured. The rest of the class, he tells us more about the partner paper and my mind keeps going back to Harry. The bell rings and everyone scurries out of the class room and I rush to catch Harry in the hall. “Harry!” I say to catch his attention, he turns towards me and in a unenthusiastic tone says “yeah?”, "Um I was supposed to show you around and since we are working on the paper now, he interrupts me and says “Listen, you don't have to, that girl offered when I walked out of class and I said yes, he points behind me and I turn around and see Madison standing there looking like a gawking schoolgirl. I roll my eyes and go “okay, but when do you want to start this paper?” He swiftly moves past me while saying coldly “ I don't know, but I'll see you later.” I turn around and see both of them walking together and Madison looks behind and gives me a smile that says “HAHAHA BITCH.” I stand there wondering how do all people like them find each other its like they can sense the arrogance in each other, that makes them flock together. “Yay! Can’t wait to see him after supper tonight!!” I say to myself. (NOT) I roll my eyes and walk towards my next class but can’t help smirk at the thought of the expression on his face when he finds out we are neighbours.

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jackbartlett07-blog · 7 years

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The Catcher In The Rye Blogs #2

Quote #1 Chapter 11

“I held hands with her all the time, for instance. That doesn't sound like much, I realize, but she was terrific to hold hands with. […] We'd get into a goddam movie or something, and right away we'd start holding hands, and we wouldn't quit till the movie was over. And without changing the position or making a big deal out of it. You never even worried, with Jane, whether your hand was sweaty or not. All you knew was, you were happy. You really were.”

Holden throughout the entire novel is always talking about how much he thinks and remembers his moments with Jane yet he never says he was in love but says these moments were some of the best in his life and he remembers the details so finely. Holden says this in chapter 11.

This quote reminds of a book series I had read called “Gone”. Gone was an six book long story about a small town in california where one day everyone over 14 disappears leaving the kids and young teens to fend for themselves. The main character in the book reminds me of Holden because he also has a girl which he is in love with and makes him happy yet he portrays a very depressed and lonely person. Throughout gone the main character Sam talks about the moments that he and Astrid shared before the disappearance and hell that came after their parents disappeared and used this as a driving force to continue through his hardships. I think this is just like Holden because he is very depressed and always questions why he continues to move forward and just like in Gone, Holden says “All you knew was, you were happy. You really were.” this specific part of the quote shows Holden's driving force and why he constantly thinking about her.

In my opinion I think that people that are depressed as Holden need any reason to keep trying in life and to not give up. For example someone who is depressed will latch on to the person that gave them any bit of happiness and will become almost needy due to them thinking that they are the only thing that is good in their lives. Throughout the book Holden is very nihilistic and is negative about anything except for the times he talks about Jane, he uses his memories with Jane as a driving force and like a candle to continue living in his own dark world.

Quote #2 Chapter 12

“New York's terrible when somebody laughs on the street very late at night. You can hear it for miles. It makes you feel so lonesome and depressed.”

In the Catcher In The Rye Holden is a very nihilistic person who is clearly lonely and depressed. When Holden arrives in New York he seems even more disconnected from reality and more in his memories and thoughts due to the rejection and embarrassment he is feeling from Pencey. Holden goes to New York trying to escape his old life by using different names and being more anti-social which makes him even more distant and lonely.

This quote reminds of a song “The sound of silence” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aD7HrMfeoA as it's a song about someone who is experiencing what Holden is and the loneliness that he feels. In the song the hook is “Hello darkness my old friend, i've come to talk to you again” This relates to Holden perfectly as he is starting to feel so lonely in the world that the only time he is comfortable is when he’s depressed and alone because him being happy is a distant memory. The song also perfectly fits this quote with the first verse saying “In restless dreams I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone” This fits Holden perfectly and he is almost always restless and that he can walk through New York the city that never sleeps and still feel like he's alone in the world. This song is about a man who feels like he is alone is the world and starts to enjoy the sound of nothing, just like Holden. Holden hates when he hears laughing on the streets because he wants to be alone where he can’t be rejected or hurt by anyone and hearing laughter makes him remember how depressed and lonely he actually is.

In my opinion I think that Holden feels that he is completely alone but depression affects 7 percent of people in the world. Depression is one of the most common mental illnesses but this book takes place before the present so mental health is talked about even less than how little it is today causing Holden to isolate himself due to his feeling of being alone and his confusion on why he is like this and different than the others, which in reality is completely untrue as many people suffer from mental illness.

Quote #3 Chapter 12

“Yeah. She wouldn't move any of her kings. What she’d do, when she get a king, she wouldn't move it. She’d just leave it in the back row.”

In the Catcher in the Rye, Holden is a very cynical and pessimistic person judging almost everyone he meets in the book. This is shown throughout the story with holden's negative view on the world and the people around him, calling them “phonies”. Holden is a very rough kid who has been kicked out of multiple schools yet in this quote he seems to actually care about someone. In the quote holden brings up how Jane always puts her kings in the back which is a very specific detail which most wouldn't notice or remember. This shows that holden has feelings for her which is a big change from his normal self and that he isn’t all pessimistic.

I think that she is going to be a big part in the story because she is the only person so far which Holden shows that he likes. I think she's going to be a big driving point for him throughout the story because even he seems to accept that she's the only person he actually really likes.

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