#how does umblr work

[unionize-aromantically]

one thing that's been on my mind a lot: how the hell does those t [dot] umblr links work? I can't seem to find a pattern. but they definitely appear sometimes

#ink.post

[evalieena]

35 Questions for Fanfiction Writers

well since dearest @bachint​ asked, here goes nothing!

1. From one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (No downplaying yourself!)

well if no downplaying’s allowed i guess i’d give it a 3/5? some mistakes since i’m not a native plus i”m still working on getting my english style better! i like what i come up with all the same, i’ve improved a lot these past two years, and my grammar isn’t that bad i guess?

2. Why do you write fanfiction?

to do what developers didn’t do in the first place to make good use of my imagination, to cope with the fact that some characters don’t exist and i will never follow another one of their adventures, to forget about a boring real life...

3. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

my writing doesn’t stand out lmaooo but i guess i’m always trying to focus on the character’s psychology, struggles and all that, so if someone likes my work, it’s ‘original’ bc it’s usually quite different from the usual stories where there are a lot of dialogues and interactions.

4. Are there any writers that inspire you?

i’ve been inspired a lot by @welcometogressenheller​ (i wish i could do as well as she does.....), @aceklaviergavin​ (kudos to you even if you never see that post and you probably don’t know who i am), and some others whose name i forgot (sorry!)

5. What’s the fic you’re most proud of?

i didn’t write much but i guess that my latest fics are really nice (There’s No Light In You Anymore, and the whole Faith series on AO3). also my big project “Now That You’re Gone”, i’m glad i’ve been able to write that much for it and i intend on continuing as soon as i find the motivation!

6. What element of writing do you find comes easily?

pain, struggles and all that comes with it as long as it’s in the character’s mind, because beware here you step in a dark space

7. What element of writing do you struggle with most?

ordinary scenes of life? i always find my writing lacking as soon as i step out of my comfort zone, i’m all for rambling and never-ending pain

8. Which character(s) do you find easiest to write?

desmond/descole surely

9. Which character(s) do you find most difficult to write?

all the good guys (and dimitri allen because i’d love writing about him but i’m? just unable to?)

10. What’s your favorite genre to write for?

that may come as a surprise! angst!

11. Who or what do you find yourself writing about most?

a mix of question 8 and 10 and you’ve got your answer

12. Tell us about a WIP you’re excited about.

professor layton and the shattering secrets!!! i’m so happy of what this AU will look like when i’ll be done writing the following chapters, at first it probably looks annoying but heck i wanna promise anyone who’s reading it that the plot twists are gonna be worth it even though the overall background isn’t that original because i’ve mixed up different elements from other games (aaaand we’re back in our oh-so-amazing comfort zone that covers up a massive lack of imagination)

13. First fandom you ever wrote for?

ummm? the vampire diaries maybe? back when i was 10 or 11 lol

14. What’s your favorite fandom to write for?

hands up... pROFESsoR LayTON

15. What’s the weirdest fandom you’ve ever written for?

i didn’t write for many fandoms but back in my younger days i used to do self-insert fics with the vampire diaries cast and it was so odd and i wish i hadn’t just confessed that on my tumblr blog

16. Any guilty pleasure trope(s)?

nothing that comes to mind

17. A trope you’ll never, ever write for.

dunno either

18. Wildest fic you’ve ever written?

PL and the shattering secrets! huge canon divergence and one heck of an AU (also its original version is much worse, my mind was going crazy when i was 15)

19. Do you prefer canon-compliant, AUs, or something in-between?

i love reading AUs, writing some requires solid imagination which i have not, but honestly i don’t really mind

20. Gen fic or shippy stuff?

gen

21. Favorite pairing to write for? (platonic or romantic!)

desmond sycamore x his wife / randall ascot x hershel layton (be it romantic or platonic) / randall ascot x basically anyone from the MM i guess though i didn’t write anything about that yet (it’s about to change guys)

22. Do you listen to anything while you write?

yea i can’t write without listening to music - any playlist does the trick as long as i like what i’m listening to but usually i listen to sad soundtracks, or i’m inspired by some random lyrics

23. Do you prefer prompts and challenges, or completely independent ideas?

i’d go with challenges bc my horrible ass has very few ideas but i usually come up with independent ideas

24. One-shots or multi-chaptered works?

one shots!

25. Have you ever daydreamed about side adventures/spin-offs from your fic? Tell us about them!

i don’t remember ;_;

26. Is there anything you’ve wanted to write, but you’ve been too scared to try?

i’ve got one OS in mind with randall/layton but i don’t want to be the talk of the town because it’s probably going to be awful? also any other fic including the PL3 crew

27. What’s the nicest comment you’ve ever received?

@welcometogressenheller telling me she believed i was a native!!! i struggle so much trying to improve my writing style in english and i have a lot of insecurities so it was so heartwarming and incredible to read...

also basically any other comment where people tell me they like what i write. i love that writers feel the need to take some time reviewing my works bc i need constant validation

28. How well do you handle criticism when it comes to your writing?

well i’ve never really received ‘harsh’ criticism or anything, save for some very rare remarks on my grammar so i guess i don’t know? at first it’s always sad to see that what i’ve done isn’t perfect but i guess it’s impossible to be perfect so i’m really happy that people take some time to underline what looks wrong to them

29. Have you ever gone outside of your comfort zone for a fic? How did it turn out?

currently trying to with shattering secrets and it’s actually a great way to improve!

30. Tooth-rotting fluff or merciless angst?

MERCILESS ANGST

31. Do you have any OCs? Tell us about them!

i wish i could but it would perhaps be a huge spoiler so i don’t wanna say much about them...

i have 1) annabell sycamore, des’s wife, whose personality fits very much mine. she’s a playwright, spends lot of her time writing and acting in front of des AND WITH des. also she’s a very realistic person and some people usually tell her that she’s being too pessimistic 

2) aurelia from the shattering secrets and on her i really cannot say much... if anyone’s read this far it would be so nice if you could give SS a shot by the way!! 

32. Summarize a random fic of yours in 10 words or less.

desmond sometimes finds happiness but it’s always taken from him

(isn’t that a summary for everything i’ve ever written?)

33. Is there anything you wish your audience knew about your writing or writing process?

i don’t translate my works from my original language to english, i write straight in english. i spend a lot of time making sure i haven’t done any grammatical mistakes, checking the definition and the use of some words i’m not sure about, and sometimes it’s quite a pain and it can be also very discouraging bc i end up believing what i write comes from a random internet dictionary while deep down i know it’s not true but hey what can i say. huge insecurities laid bare here.

(if any reader of mine’s reading this, i apologize)

34. Copy and paste an excerpt you’re particularly fond of.

(beware: spoilers for the whole prequel trilogy!!!)

“Hershel Layton was puzzled. A funny emotion to feel for someone who loved puzzles that much, but nothing could ever describe better the way he’d felt for hours now, hours that seemed like ages.So much did happen in the span of a few hours.

First he’d learned his parents could be targeted by Targent, then Aurora had made it clear that she didn’t want to live anymore, all so she could protect them. Then Desmond—no, Descole—had taken the key from her hands, and revealed himself as the dangerous scientist Layton knew him to be.

Then they’d fought. Despair was filling the air, though Hershel didn’t understand what Descole meant when he cried that the Azran legacy was all he had to live for.

And as if there hadn’t been enough betrayals as it was, Emmy was soon to follow. Luke had been abducted. He’d had no other choice than siding with Descole to prevent Bronev from unleashing doom on Earth. Misery didn’t seem to end.

Just when he’d thought he’d finally be able to change things, Descole had been ready to sacrifice himself to save Luke. And then…

Then everything just collapsed.

He held his agonizing brother in his arms; the one who’d wanted so hard to take him down only a few hours back was now confessing, fearing death was on the way.“

[...]

from ‘Six Times Hershel Layton Remembered, Plus The One Time He Didn’t’

35. Ramble about any fic-related thing you want!

oops i haven’t got anything more to say but thank you for reading? perhaps?

#asks #asks for fanfiction writers #eve rambles #professor layton fandom #how does umblr work #also sorry my english may be lacking #you know the meme sorry for my bad english don't you #well i'm that meme

[janumun]

[Tumblr ate up your Ask just as I hit “post” @meowlayn-art so I had to redo this. Glad I had the screenshot of your request saved, huh, T(d)umblr? 😇🔪]

Meowlayn! Thank you for asking for them 🥰 I left out my one of my favorites from this list but I hope you’ll enjoy these 🙇🏽‍♀️💕

(Requests for this event are now closed, dear readers. Thank you to all those who participated.)

Characters: Shigure, Hatori, Kureno Rated: NSFW/18+ Tags: bondage, cockwarming, slight D/s undertones, body worship

Shigure likes to have you tied and tight on his lap. If ropes aren’t available in his immediate vicinity for a full body bind, he’s pulling off the sash of your kimono or that long strip of ribbon tucked so neatly into your hair... until it isn't anymore. Fastening your wrists firm behind your back, your kimono hiked up your thighs before gentle hands are ushering you down onto his length. “Stay put now, alright?” He says, putting on a smile that pulls wide when he splits you open and you gasp.

Shigure often has trouble maintaining an attention span long enough to finish work on his manuscripts. He's a frighteningly skilled storyteller and the job pays, so he persists. Having you close helps him concentrate just that bit longer; the discomfort of your arousal provided as amusing fodder that holds him long enough. If you squirm too much, or try and rock your hips for a modicum of relief, he’s immediately stilling your hips with a light, disciplinary strike to your ass. His gaze is cold, his smile absent and that frigid air bleeds into his voice when he speaks, “I told you not to move. You're disturbing my work.” And when you wilt underneath that verbal bite...

He’s cradling a kind palm against your cheek, a smile offered just as placid, as if it had never slipped. “Be patient just a little longer and I’ll bend you over and fuck you properly. Does that sound good to you?” A thumb he dents into your cheek when you nod, albeit shakily. “What a good, agreeable girl.”

Baths are Hatori’s staple of relaxation as well as releasing stress accumulated over a long day. When you’re both home and tucked cozy and close, into the tub and his hands are gentle against yours. That's usually when he likes to slip his fingers in firm, pressing motions against your shoulders, slipping across your back, your waist as he works the stiffness out of your system. “Does that feel better?” He asks, in response to a particularly satisfied moan, before you nod and turn him over for his turn. Your hands in his hair and at the junction of his neck, working in circles has him unwinding. Leaning back against your breasts, tipping his head up for you when your mouth descends to land your kiss. His lips stealing into a warm smile that settles and warms your heart. Reaching for each other feels so incredibly natural and comforting; his smiles turning into quiet laughter. Hatori’s adoration is keen and clear within his gaze as he parts stray locks away from your cheeks, guides you close and onto his lap as you rock pleasant ripples across the surface of the water, together.

Another one who thrives on providing rather than receiving, Kureno’s gaze rests, constant, upon your face. The flitter of lashes as he presses his fingers inside, to stir and prod moans free of your throat. The slick give of your insides is pleasant, the wetness he’s drawing out of you, proof of your affections and how well he’s pleasuring you; it stirs happiness within his own chest. And arousal, to be joined to you. Sexual gratification, for the longest time, having been an obligation he fulfilled, rather than an act performed, for his heart’s satisfaction and for the first time, he’s experiencing this active want for physical pleasure, with you. For you.

Descending to kiss your calls of his name right from your mouth, “I’m here. I'm here for you. Hold on to me.”  as his wet fingers trek patterns across your thighs, parting them in gentle strokes for himself. Watching pleasure unfurl across your face, like feathered wings of a restless bird, with the ingress of him into your depths; the sight streaks right up his length to sink into his belly and warm him inside out. Just as he pulses his mouth against yours, softening his groans against your tongue.  “I adore you, so much.”

End Notes: Thank you for reading!

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[yamagucji]

a series of thank you’s i’ve been meaning to give for a while now. please note i couldn’t get everyone bc im smol brained and im forgetful :(( also its vedy long so i added a readmore link but if it’s okay then i can remove it!

i would’ve preferred to go to your inboxes/dm’s but im scared t🤢umblrs going to glitch on me if i do it again a ha ha

@doublemoons

i remember you sent in my first ever request and i was SO happy like🥺 my account had no visibility on week 1 but then you somehow found my blog and since then you’ve been supporting me. i love the aesthetic of your blog and i always look forward to your rb’s because they so cute and insightful !! ik we haven’t talked much but i definitely perceive u as a gentle person here’s 1k hearts for you and you only <3

@insanityqueen

please i was *intense squealing* and *happy noises* when you said you wanted to be mutuals :’) im definitely uhhh way too immature for u but you still stick with all the caps and !!! i send you😭 you’re such an interesting, talented person. day 1 you got me HOOKED with your art and im gonna say this again,, i have never seen skin look soo s o f t painted. im really grateful for your company and all your cats and the hinata art you made me🥺 i am not still thirsting over it i swear and then you sent me pieces of your writing and i def expected hc’s but then BOOM🧍‍♀️ im so amazed by your writing. also you are vv pretty i hope you know that

@zephyrria

matching heart memes matching heart memes😾 i don’t talk to you as much but our main form of communication is literally exchanging heart memes w/o a word,,, if that isn’t true love idk what is :// anyway i love our little convos so much it always brightens my day! and omg lets not forget when you made me a drabble back😳 like wha- HUH !! i was so touched i rlly went boom boom woosh bc no ones ever written me one back and i!! that yamaguchi gives me so much comfort. you give me sm comfort, thank you bub <3

@beanst0ck

hehe my first tumblr crush😼 as soon as i deactivated my reading account to my a writing blog i was like “ok bean is on my top to-follow list” like i thought you were so cool and i was vv shy to interact with you🥺 and YOU STILL ARE COOL!! your works are really amazing and i am vv much still in love w my matchup w suga :’)

@killuababie

HHHH GRR BORK BORK I LUB U B NEVER GONNA STOP LOVING YOU BHH💓✨ bro,,,, when we switched over to insta it was WILD like— our sense of humor? matched. immaculate. please i love seeing all the memes u send me it makes my day so much like u don’t understand😭 and our convos really go chaos sometimes gkfjdj i love it. u need to pull up and play among us w me sometime 😡

@bewwybun

m-my first spouse🥺 even tho it was a joke the first time and i said sike fkdjdjdj but you still accepted my dino chimken nuggie ring hehe <3 bub your are literally the CUTEST HHHHH LIKE,,, cuteness overload !!! i love talking to you sm and our little exchange of heart memes make the butterflies in my tummy go ✨

@mei-writes

may🥺 imy bub i hope you’re doing well and taking good care of yourself. still very grateful for that time you pulled through to check which of my links weren’t working. and there’s a LOT. like the fact that you took time out of your day for me still baffles me. anyway im lomve you ik we don’t talk as much but you’re still a valued moot to me. im offering u free headpats hehe

@kozsma

hi maria👉👈 you’re so wonderful and rlly amazing w your smaus. absolutely smitten over our chaotic conversations fkfjd we haven’t talked in a while but if you see this just know that i’m here for you <3 take some self care okay? hope you’re doing good bub

@tsukkeisimp

dalia, you wondering being💞 please what did i do to deserve your love >;( we don’t talk much but we have exchanged heart memes before and you’re always out here supporting me whenever you can and like!! tysm bub. i hope you’re feeling better from the last time we interacted, and please do take good care of yourself!

@satorispup

can’t believe you made a reputation of having a piss kink. what power. what energy >>> anyway it’s fun seeing your chaotic energy on my feed/tl. sometimes i won’t even look at the user and say yeah💔 that’s hero alright gkfjdj also you’re so cute what the heck😡😡

@tobiokvgs

[ insert 100 hearts ] this for u bub. im still going crazy over your tsukki lipbalm piece like i was so FLUSTERED you really did that huh😭 you’re so nice and sweet, ty for giving me headbonks as well im really glad to get them😌 hope you have an amazing day bub, and take care!!

@bunnyuuji

cutecutecutest bean ever🥺 you have such wonderful works and im truly in love with your writing😌 also you’re so SWEET WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE U GKFJDJ literally you weren’t obligated to stop by my ask and check in but u did >:(

@yanderepunkin

hehe ik we haven’t interacted in such a long time but im including you!! bc i appreciate you!! i know you’ve supported me a lot especially when i just started this blog and im really thankful for it. also uhhh im still not over accidentally turning off anon when i was- yeah😿 i wish you all the love in the world, and please do take gentle care of yourself 💓

@ahkaahshi

frannn👁👁🤲 yes im gonna start with how big brained you are. your passion for textiles and improving the environment is vv cool to me. and then there’s the fact you write these hq characters so well. yes i am absolutely still living for your character analysis. i am thriving off of them!! here’s me manifesting kita and/or sakusa to show up in your dreams hehe

@sachirou-senpai

i hope you dont mind me sending u stuff every now and then! anyway im in awe of your writing and art skills. you brought a realistic yamaguchi and i ascended😳 i genuinely think you’re such a cool person but also please take breaks!! ik it’s such an overused phrase but i genuinely mean it. i care u <3

@kenmakodzu

you’re so sweet and you do really be sending me back some heart memes😳 i go BOOM BOOM yaya that’s more to my collection;) also you and your hq anon interactions go WILD omg it really does make my day more interesting whenever i see them😂 also i do be seeing some of ur chaotic energy on my dash and i am HERE for it

@tsukkisbean

hemlo clara🥺 d-do you remember me gkdjshsjs i think its been a while since we interacted. you’re so sweet and AHH lmao did u know we were in a poly with wiss😔💔 yeah❤️ n e way i hope you’ve been alright these past few weeks, and if not, please get some break!

@atsunflower

miya twin supremacy😡 can’t believe you made me swerve over to osamu’s lane because of your amazing writing. how could you. the mf audacity. i rlly do fell in love with that piece do so THAMK U and that also goes for the support you’ve given me💗

@lespaghetti

ozzy👁👁🤝 ngl our conversations have been top tier im glad i got to uhmm,,, get some of these *thoughts* out of my head. you’re such a sweet little bean!!! that art/sketch you did with the purple (?) themed uniforms was really cute. im glad to have u as my moot and *cough* my vip reader *cough*

@sleepykarabou

our heart meme streak was strong until school happened😔 but i really enjoy them tho!! it’s very calming talking to you (fun, but also vv calming idk that’s how i feel) loving the brainrots we give each other of our favs from time to time :’) also omg OSRRY im barely active in the server please spare me😿 im lomve u

@nerdybreadcollaborative

gee!! AHHHH KGFJJD GRRR u sweet bean oh my goodness. where do i start- ??? i’ve already gushed so much abt your writing but here we go again; i love your writing so much and your attention to the little details is so great. they flow so well and i hope u get more visibility bc it’s what u deserve!! also please take care of yourself and don’t work too much u nerdy bean

@nishinoya-is-baby

ely my plant kinnie, my spouse (?) and also the blog that i dump my h word thots on😭❤️ ahhh im lomve you, you’re amazing. from your writing, to your makeup skills, and your room, the talent really ✨jumped out✨thank you for supporting me so much, i genuinely appreciate it. i hope we can stay moots despite me being busy gkfjdj anyway take care bbie don’t work too much okay?

@art0saurus

TATE😤 the amount of hq brainrot you’ve fed me is astronomical. idk how you keep coming up with such good ideas but im all for them!! i love your writing so much and the plots are so *chefs kiss* (yes im still gushing over mermaid!bokuto). thank you so much for sending some bits of positivity into my life, im really grateful for it :’)

@dorkyhaikyu

EL!😼 you sweet bean. wish i could bombard ur asks but school is saying no </3 you’re such a sweet mutual and your writing is absolutely amazing. still kinda hurt over that angst u made💔 but anyway i loved it sm. also please wear safer shoes next time on big events so u dont get any more BLISTERS kgjdjdh jkjk

@chickenwingspiker

nashnashnash🥺👉👈 wth you’re so cute and even cuter with the little emoticons u put in my asks. i really appreciate you taking time out of your day to check in on me. i think your works are really heckin cool, im still very into that sock agenda one and the akaashi fic AHH i love them sm. i hope that u have better experiences with online learning and i really wish you all the best on ur art journey <3

@miyastrology

did u forget abt our walk to the strawberry field😿 jkjk heyyy atlas!! im lomve your theme and your writing. i have the urge to say you’re as sweet as strawberry bc im unoriginal like that💔 let’s just pretend i put something kute :’( n e way u are vv cute, make sure to take care of yourself ok!!

@derpeedoo

your rb’s and comments on ppl works... i just... my heart is full. im complete. i go absolute doki doki for you. you’re such a genuine person and you give people so much love❤️ here’s an unlimited supply of my love to you bc you deserve it. ty for all the cute questions btw🥺

🕊 anon - still wondering if ur one of my already-moots or not😳 but anyway dove anon i have a lot to say,,, like how ?? do u go “ok let’s check in on aaron today hehe” like am i interesting??😭 i feel kinda bad ngl you really don’t have to talk to me. but nevertheless im really appreciate of all the support you’ve given me. i genuinely think you’re a cool person and you do all these fun stuff like photography which is amazing. here’s the biggest THANK YOU i could ever give <3 ps. your art is CUTE and AMAZING @bee-kins

@simping-for-tendou

do i??? spam your feed??😭 you’re always liking my posts and i feel so sorry for spamming but also vv appreciate of all the interaction i’ve had with you!! im very glad i got to ask you qotd and stuff because i got to know that you like plants as well!! thank you for sharing plant facts with me, it really made my day. i genuinely think you’re such an awesome and big brained person for knowing all those facts🥺👉👈

@wissaaltje

ngl i was very intimated by you bc of all your angst and really good works which is probably why i never reached out to you sooner😿 ur my uhhh third spouse <3 but anyway your CHAOTIC ENERGY is thru the roof i love that sm and your writing is so mf beautiful i wish more people got to see it😡 i will gib you flower soup and muddy pie to make you feel better ;) jkjk but you’re very amazing and i hope you know that!

@smolbludandelions

hehe you’re in here😼 thank you ???? for supporting me even tho you’re not obligated??? like wh- i- bub🥺🤲 you have all my heart and i rlly rlyy want to stop by your inbox and give you heart memes but me why >;( i hope you have the most amazing day(s) of your life because you deserve it SO much.

@tadashi-simp

FINALLY someone i can simp over yamaguchi with😭 ik we haven’t talked much but AH i love the conversations we’ve had so far and all that insight you gave me about the new wanda film (truly a blessing bc i was so genuinely confused gkfjdj).

@oikaw-ugh

just. JOLLIBEE. can’t believe one of our first interactions was u sending me chain mail smfh i cannot believe you😭 anyway po i appreciate you so much na kaka tawa ako sa mga msgs mo and all the good vibes u radiate. mag bisaya unta ko nimi pero baka mag nosebleed ako😿 im losing my native languages it’s not even funny anymore but when i got to talk to u in my mother tongue, i felt a bit more at home. thank you bub <3

@makemealive

hihi👉👈 idrk what we first talked about, i think it was spending vacation in the galapagos islands??😭 riding turtles??? what a great way to start our friendship :’) i rlly think you’re cool and i just,,,, admire u from afar- yeah. sorry this message is too chaotic but anyway u might not have a green thumb but look at you growing potatoes accidentally😌 anyway i think you’re cool i just haven’t said it before because im s Hy

@lostsealscreams

seal, bub, i genuinely care about you. you’re such a sweet person. i know we haven’t interacted much but im looking forward to more conversations with you!! please find little fun things to do... maybe do some self appropriation if you can, bc you deserve it. maybe even treat yourself... or any self care tasks that make you feel better. i care about you a lot, im just an ask/dm away if you wanna talk about anything at all💕💞✨

@hqgardenia - jkjk this is my spam account idk why i put this here but here probably bc im dumb as fuck

#cupid; talks! #queuepid

[elizabeethan]

Keeping It Professional

Please enjoy this dialogue-heavy fluff-fest, in which Emma and Killian work together on a popular TV show, and Emma is just trying to keep things professional.

Rated T

~3200 words

Summary: Join us this Thursday with Emma Nolan, the star of the hit show, Neverland! Emma plays Emma Swan, a mom who's trying to get her son back from Neverland, but Peter Pan is not who you'd expect. We'll discuss a new season, the upcoming finale, and, of course, her on and off screen relationships with her costars! You won't want to miss this one!

In which Emma Nolan hates interviews.

A/N: Oh hi, I wrote this while I was being no-showed. I have no idea what it is.

see other stuff that i’ve written on Ao3 or tumblr

The ostentatious applause and blinding lights are things that Emma Nolan has grown accustomed to over the years. The show has been on for four seasons, having just been picked up for a fifth, and it’s grown in popularity during that time.

“It must be interesting playing a character with your same name.”

“Definitely. No one ever has an excuse to get my name wrong on set,” she laughs lightly, drawing similar sounds from the audience.

“Right! And I’m sure it much be interesting, working with your brother?”

“Oh, yeah. David’s a great actor, and he’s also my best friend. It’s a blast.”

“Now, at the end of last season, we found out that Baelfire was actually alive!” The audience cheers. “How’s that for a turn of events?”

“Oh, I know. Crazy right? We’ll have to see how it will impact everyone’s relationship with Henry.”

“Not to mention Emma’s relationship with Hook, right?”

The audience whoops and hollers, and Emma smiles. “I guess we’ll have to see!”

“Now, Emma, everyone is dying to know. The chemistry between you and Killian… there’s got to be something there, right?”

Emma loves to act— and she’s damn good at it. She loves the show she’s been a part of for almost five years now. She even doesn’t mind doing interviews, usually. What she does mind, however, is how everyone and their mother assumes she’s sleeping with her costars.

Emma fakes a laugh— she’s a good actor, remember? — and lets her eyes light up and a grin split her face, saying jokingly, “I’m a really good actor.”

The audience laughs, as does the interviewer, reaching between their chairs and touching Emma’s knee lightly. “You're too much! But come one—you and Killian? You and Neal?”

Okay, she hates interviews.

Emma shakes her head, trying her hardest to maintain an air of light and playfulness rather than rolling her eyes like she so badly wanted to. “Just keeping it professional, you know?”

“Well, Emma Swan has had some steamy moments with both Baelfire and Hook, so I think the audience would agree when I say we want to know who the better kisser is! Both of them are so delicious!” The audience doesn’t cheer; screams violently is more like it. Emma tries to laugh it off, but seriously? How is this question even allowed to be asked?

“Uh,” she starts awkwardly before she snaps herself back into interview mode and smiles again. “No comment,” she says with a smirk and a flirt in her tone.

“Oh, come on!”

She hates interviews.

“We’re all good friends. We’re just trying to keep it professional so that we can continue to work together.”

“Well, your brother David and Mary Margaret got married last year and they seem to work together well.”

Emma’s left eye starts to twitch, and she’s glad that it isn’t the side of her facing the audience. Let it go, lady, she thinks. “I’m so happy for them—they're great together, aren’t they?” The audience cheers again. “I’m really glad they were able to work things out between them. They’ve always had a thing for each other, and their relationship is so strong both on and off screen that it just worked out.”

“Are you saying you don’t have a strong relationship with Killian or Neal?”

“No, no, it isn’t that. I guess I’d just rather put my professional relationship with them over any of my own wishes.”

The interviewer smirks, and shit. “So, you do wish to be with one of them?” Oh my god, she thinks. Yes, but leave me the hell alone about it.

She starts to panic, thinking about what Killian would say in response, how he would tease her for anything that comes out of her mouth. Then she starts thinking about his mouth, then his eyes and his cute nose and his weird, charming ears, and her heart starts racing and her palms start sweating, and she has to get herself under control, dammit!

“All I want is for people to continue to love the show, and if my on-screen chemistry with my costars assists in that, then I’m happy.” Phew, take that, Kelly. Emma is a professional actor, thank you very much.

“Alright, alright, we can’t get anything out of her today, guys, sorry. Emma Nolan is the star on the hit series Neverland, which portrays Peter Pan in a very new light; catch up online or before the new episodes air every Sunday at 8 pm!”

The audience shouts again, and they're finally given the cue that the cameras are off as the lights dim, and Emma stands from the chair she was perched on and starts to unhook her mic from her top.

“Thank you for coming in today, Emma! It was so lovely having you.”

“It was great being here, Kelly, thank you.”

Emma practically runs from the stage once she’s cleared to do so, making her way down dark, winding hallways until she reaches the dressing room with her name printed on it. She shuts the door firmly behind her and presses her back to it, taking a deep breath and sliding down to the floor with her face in her hands. She tries deep breathing, but she finds it nearly impossible to get any air in.

Her phone chimes, alerting her to the message she’s received, and she attempts to pull herself together so that she can stand and grab it.

Nice one, Swan

She rolls her eyes at the moniker Killian has given her, but she can’t stop the smile from spreading across her face. Knowing that he must’ve been watching her interview from his own dressing room across the building makes her heart rate pick up. Knowing that he must know how nervous she is, because she hates interviews, makes her cheeks go rosy.

i hate interviews.

I know. You did great, love. Very professional.

yeah, well. don’t let kelly bully you next week like she did me. go get em, tiger.

No matter her mood, she can’t stop herself from flirting with him, and it’s seriously a problem. They can’t be doing this, and she knows it.

~~~~

“Hey Nolan,” she hears with a knock on her trailer door as it swings open.

“Hi Neal, what’s up?”

He smiles at her sweetly and gestures into her trailer. “Can I come in for a second?”

Emma nods, nodding her head towards the small couch. “Sure. What’s going on?”

“Just wanted to say, I saw your interview with Kelly. You did really well.”

She smiles at him sweetly as she takes a seat on a chair across the small trailer from him. “Thanks. She was persistent, huh?” Did she mention that she really hates interviews?

“Yeah,” he chuckles. “That’s actually what I wanted to talk to you about.”

“Oh?”

“Yeah,” he nods.

“Okay…” She’s hesitant to speak now, not wanting to push him in either direction, but honestly nervous for what’s about to come out of his mouth.

“I was just thinking… well, I like you, Emma. Not just as a costar or friend. I think you're cool and funny and pretty, and I was just thinking… well, everyone already thinks— I mean, I know you said you want to keep everything professional, but we can date and still be professional, right?”

“Neal…”

“Go to dinner with me. Just once. I really think we could have something great here.”

She shakes her head, her heart racing again as anxiety sets in. “I can’t. I’m sorry Neal, I just… I can’t.”

He nods, smiling at her again, and thank god he isn’t as much of an asshole in real life as she thinks his character is. “I get it, it’s alright.”

“I just want to keep everything professional. We work together…”

“Right, I know. So, it isn’t because of Jones?”

“What about Killian?” She screws her face as much as she can manage, but panics as she fears that he knows.

“You guys just have chemistry, too, that’s all. I wasn’t sure if you were together or something.”

He doesn’t know, she reminds herself, breathing in deeply in an attempt to relax. “I want to keep everything—”

“Professional, I know. No worries, Em.” He smiles once more, standing up and squeezing her shoulder before he heads out the door.

~~~~

“So, what’s it like working with your ex?” The audience reacts excitedly as Kelly presses, perhaps making it her mission to ask the most uncomfortable questions she possibly can.

“Oh, it’s alright. Milah and I are in a good place. We were together so long ago, and we’re both adults, so we’re able to keep things professional.” Emma nods at her screen, biting her thumb nervously as Killian gets grilled once again.

“That’s so amazing, isn’t it, guys?” The audience cheers. “Now last week’s episode was just… so heartbreaking. I’d love to get into that a bit with you.”

“Yeah,” he nods, and the audience aws collectively. “It was a really tough one to shoot. I don’t want to give much away, but the last scene with Hook and Emma was very emotional.”

“For the characters, or for you and Emma?”

“Both, I’d say.”

Kelly nods somberly as the audience aws again. “It looked it. I heard a rumor that the kiss Hook planted on Emma’s forehead when the rowboat was leaving the island was unscripted. Is that true?”

The audience gets excited, and Emma loses her thumb nail to her front teeth. “Yeah, actually. That scene in particular was really, really emotional. Can I drop spoilers?”

“Anyone who hasn’t seen the season finale yet is out of their mind. Drop away!”

He laughs blithely, the light in his eyes shining brightly through her iPad screen. “Well, Pan had put Emma in an impossible situation. She had to choose between getting Henry out of Neverland without a sleeping curse, or risk never waking him up and leaving Hook behind. I think it’s clear by the season finale that Emma has feelings for Hook, so that decision was really difficult for her. That final scene between the two of them… well, it was emotional for Hook too, because his feelings for Emma are obvious.” The audience cheers again.

“Super obvious. I mean, the chemistry between the two of you…”

“Right,” he quickly brushes her comment off. “So, we shot that scene at, like, 3 in the morning. It was freezing, it was raining, we were tired, and we don’t really know what the writers have in store for the next season. So, I guess my emotions got the better of me, and Hook and Emma— Swan, that is— finally had that moment when feelings were admitted—”

More screaming, as Killian refers to the steamy make out scene that aired last week. “Oh, we remember!” Kelly shouts over the audience.

He laughs again, a blush rising over the tips of his adorably pointy ears as he continues. “So, yeah, shooting the final scene between the two of them, where Emma needs to leave Hook on the island to ensure Henry’s safety, it was really difficult because there was finally a chance for them, and that chance got ripped away and we don’t know what’s going to happen to Hook. And like I said, it was cold and late, and I guess that just got the better of me, so I went with it.”

“Well, I think I can say with confidence that the viewers are glad that you went with it. I mean, how sweet was that, Hook kissing Emma’s forehead so softly? It was adorable!” Even more screaming, and Emma thinks she can see Killian cringing just the slightest bit.

“Yeah,” he says softly, still blushing. Emma wants nothing more than to reach through the screen and grab him to plant a big fat kiss on his cheeks.

“It only works so well because of the chemistry between you and your costar, Emma Nolan.”

He nods, blush permanent on his features. “We’re close.”

“Any chance we could see the two of you as more than friends off screen?” Kelly’s smirking, and she audience goes absolutely insane and threatens to blow out Emma’s headphones.

“Not sure that you’ll ever see that. We’re just keeping things professional, Kelly. She and I are costars, first and foremost.”

“Alright, alright. I’ll back off,” she laughs, as does the audience. Killian’s is discernibly fake.

By the time the interview ends, Emma’s face is as red as she imagines Killian’s to be. She puts her iPad away and lies on the couch, covering her eyes with her arm and trying hard to relax before she has to go out on set. The season finale aired, and they’ve already started shooting for season five, which requires even more chemistry between Emma Swan and Captain Hook.

The polls don’t lie; the viewers were absolutely obsessed with Emma and Hook’s relationship. Captain Swan started trending internationally after the finale, when the writers made it clear that the relationship between Emma and Hook was beyond just physical. Of course, what helped that along was Killian’s accidental smooch to Emma’s face during shooting.

What was an accident born from emotional exhaustion ended up being edited into the scene, driving the nation crazy once it aired and absolutely blowing up both Emma and Killian’s social media accounts. Not only were fans of the show obsessing over Captain Swan, but they were now also suspecting that Emma and Killian were an item. Emillian was trending as well, and Emma couldn’t help but cringe each time she was tagged in a Tweet or an Instagram fan edit.

The thumps on her trailer door finally drag her out of her own head, and she shouts for the knocker to enter.

“Hi, love,” he says, making her heart race before she even saw his face.

“Hey.” She sits up from her position on the couch as he takes a seat on the chair across the trailer.

“Did you see it?” She nods. She wasn’t able to watch him shoot the interview live as he was when she was on the show, so she had to watch it when it aired along with the rest of the country.

“You always handle those questions well.”

“It’s getting a bit insane, though.” She nods in return, agreeing that the questions they're asked about their relationshipare becoming intrusive. “Milah talked to me just now.”

“Did she?”

“Aye, she congratulated me on the interview and the finale. Said my costume looked great.”

“I would hope so; she designed in.”

He chuckles, standing from the chair and taking a seat on the couch next to her. “She asked me to dinner.”

“Oh,” Emma responds, her heart falling into her stomach. “What, uh, what did you say?”

“I said my girlfriend probably wouldn’t like that.”

She stares at him, eyes wide, and is tempted to whack him across the chest. “No, you didn’t!”

He laughs, jumping playfully away from her as she does swat at him. “No, I didn’t. But I wanted to.”

“Killian,” she sighs, flopping her body down on the couch and covering her face with her arm again. “We can’t. What if something goes wrong and it messes with our on-screen relationship? Are you willing to risk your job over this?”

“Yes,” he deadpans at her, and when she moves her arm and looks at his face, she knows he’s serious.

“Killian—”

“I am. I’m in love with you. I'm tired of hiding it.”

Her face falls, her heart beating frantically and her chest burning. “I love you, too, but…”

“What are you so afraid of? That we won’t work out? Love, we’ve been together for almost two years. This is very Emma Swan behavior that you're displaying.” She laughs at his reference to her character’s emotional constipation and leans into him, resting her head on his shoulder.

“I know, I’m sorry. I just… I’ve never done this before.”

He kisses the top of her head gently before speaking. “It’s alright. I’m sorry I’m pushing you. We can wait. Just know that I love you and I’m all in. I know you're nervous that we might not work out, or that it would impact our jobs, but… I believe in us. I know we’re stronger than that. And I’ll wait as long as you wish for me to until you believe that, too.”

Dammit, she thinks. How could she not have fallen for him immediately after meeting him? She sighs against him and hoists herself up off the couch before planting herself on his lap, her legs straddling his and her face finding its usual spot in his neck. “I love you,” she says softly into his skin.

“I love you, Emma.” His arms run up and down her back, soothing and warming her simultaneously. “I’ve loved you since the moment I met you when I joined the show. I’ll never stop loving you.”

“Do you think we can still keep it professional if everyone knows we’re dating?”

“Aye,” he nods, and she can feel his chin scraping against the top of her head. “But I also think that a lot of people already suspect that we’re together, ever since my royal screw up on set.”

“That wasn’t so bad. I liked it.”

He chuckles, the sound rumbling through his chest and in her ear. “Not very professional, though.”

“Is it professional to seduce your costar in your trailer an hour before shooting?” she asks boldly, pressing her nose into his neck below his ear and tracing his pulse point with her tongue.

He’s growling, and the sound goes straight to her core as his firm hands find her backside and squeeze. “No, it’s not. But that hasn’t stopped you before.”

“It’s not going to stop me now, either.”

~~~~

“We should come clean,” she whispers into the air between them once she catches her breath. The couch wasn’t quite big enough for cuddling, but they do their best, with Emma’s back pressed into the back of the couch and Killian’s bare, fuzzy butt dangerously facing the door.

“You think? Are you ready for that?”

She shrugs. “Just… you're right. I want this with you. I'm in it for the long haul. I don’t know what I’m so afraid of.”

“It makes sense to be afraid, love. We don’t know how going public might impact our relationship.”

“Yeah, but… we are stronger than that. We’re stronger than whatever the fans or critics can throw at us. I love you, and I want to be with you.”

He’s grinning as he brushes his nose against hers before pressing a gentle kiss to her lips. “You're sure?”

She nods. “I’m sure.”

~~~~

They wait until season five is about to air before posting an Instagram photo of Killian kissing Emma’s temple with the captain #Emillian. It trends for weeks. Views and ratings for the show skyrocket. Emma and Killian started attending interviews together, and she finds them to be pretty tolerable.  

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[thataveragewriter]

Gladiolus x reader - Family

A/N: Request: Could I if your able get some Gladiolus x reader where he meets the family of his S/O and it goes badly. Like his S/O's fam question how they even got into a relationship with him even as far as saying that they must of blackmailed Gladiolus

I accidentally deleted the answer to the ask given by the anon! I’m sorry, Tumblr being a little shit with the writing format  . but here it is! (Also smut may be done if requested)

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It was the day you dreaded the most. The feeling of anxiety and unease would not seem to leave your system, you just had to endure the horrible feeling. It was the day you would introduce your lover, Gladiolus, to your authoritarian parents. It wasn’t that you disliked you parents, you loved them in fact but it didn’t feel mutual… Often times you would feel degraded by their words and be complimented once in a blue moon, it … hurt most times but you endured it with determination to do better.

When Gladio first mentioned the idea of meeting your parents, you began to shake involuntarily from the anticipated lecture you were going to get from your parents. You were deathly afraid of them not approving of him, of them disowning you for loving someone like Gladiolus. At first, you were hesitant at the mere thought of your parents knowing you were dating someone. But you began opening up to the idea of being honest with yourself and them, with Gladio by your side you could get through this without a hitch.

Gladiolus was a smart man. He could see the discomfort that would befall you whenever you would mention your parents and when he suggested the idea of meeting them, his heart clenched from seeing you flinch at the idea. He comforted you during those times, reassuring you that he is there for you no matter what your parents say.

“Hey babe, you ready yet?” Gladio asked as he knocked on the door to your shared bedroom before entering.

Before you could answer, you heard your lover gasp and whistle in an exaggerated manner. You averted your gaze as he approached you and placed his larger hands on either side of your hips, bringing you closer to his toned chest. You had to admit, Gladio looked good in a basic crisp white shirt. The tight material complementing the bulges of his muscles as he moved. Even though you’ve been with the gentle giant for a while, he never fails to make your face burn from simple actions like these.

“Babe you look damn fine! I’m one lucky guy to have ya” He said with a massive grin present. Your cheeks flared up at his compliment. You wore a simple dress that was fitted by the waist and nicely accentuated your curves.

You let out a shy giggle as he pecked the crown of your head.

“You don’t look too bad yourself, handsome” you giggle again as you notice a light tint of pink on his cheeks and trail your hand up his chest. You could feel his chest rumble as he let out a heartfelt chuckle. A smile crept at the corners of your lips.

“We should go before I rip that pretty little dress of yours” Gladio smirked, you gasped at his comment then proceed to slap his chest. Causing another chuckle from the giant.

You were filled with a sense of serenity by having your lover by your side as he drove to your parents’ house for dinner. Your once anxious mind was gone from the gentle squeeze of his hand and the warmth that followed. It was reassuring to say the least and you appreciated his every effort.

There was a comfortable silence that filled the air as Gladio drove. The gentle whirring of the engine was soothing, the music eased your mind and Gladio’s larger hand on yours was nothing but supportive. You smiled, looking out the window and gently caressing his hand with your thumb.

“It’ll be fine, babe. Don’t over think it” He said, his eyes glued to the road.

You sighed, then looked at him then back out the window.

“You’re right… I just hope it goes well…” you say and left it at that.

The rest of the ride went on, without any further thought. Until you pulled up to the drive way that led to the house. Your parent’s house.

Gladio stepped out first, letting you sit with your nerves for a second until he, being the gentleman he is, opened your door. Taking his outstretched hand, you nervously got out, your legs shaking from the anticipation.

He led you to the door way, your hand still intertwined with his tightly. You sighed and looked up at your loving giant for comfort. Gladio gave you the gentlest smile he could muster to ease your worries. Then you rung the door bell and awaited for a response. As every second passed without any answer, sweat began to trickle down your neck.

Before Gladiolus could do anything, the both of you were greeted by a glow of light and a figure obstructing its comforting warmth.

“[Y/n]! How lovely it is to see you again!” you slightly cringed at the false tone of your mother. You felt her silent disapproving gaze until your saviour coughed to get her attention.

“Ah! You must be the gentleman [y/n] mentioned. My, aren’t you a handsome one. Heaven knows how [y/n] caught you, my dear” she said, her degrading tone never changing.

You awkwardly shifted as the conversation stopped and she ushered you in, making sure Gladio entered before you. However, you felt him tighten his grip on your hand which caused you to look up at the male. He had a firm smile, the kind you knew he was biting back his words for your sake.

As you were walking to the dining room, you saw your father at the end of the table. Distracted by paper work as usual, he didn’t acknowledge your presence. Your mother had announced your presence along with Gladio’s.

“It’s about time, always the late one [y/n]” He said without looking up.

You were about to heave another sigh until Gladio spoke up.

“It’s my fault, sir. The roads were filled with traffic and if we had left earlier as [y/n] suggested we’d be on time” He said, a sense of authority followed his booming voice.

This caused your father to look up, cocking an eyebrow.

“Sorry, I don’t think we’ve met…” your father said, eliciting superiority due to his seniority.

“Gladiolus Amicitia, a proud officer of the Crownsguard and the personal bodyguard of Prince Noctis. It is an honour to make your acquaintance Mr. [l/n]” Gladio concluded as he held out his hand for your father to shake. You smiled, proud of the title your lover carried with pride.

Your father was visibly taken aback by Gladio’s position as the body guard to the prince nonetheless! Both men shook hands before offering seats to both of you.

You were seated at the table, Gladio beside you and your dad at the head.

“You know, I had always encouraged [y/n] to join the Crownsguard. It is an honourable position yet I don’t know what happened” He started, trailing off and not to directly impose any sort of resentment toward you. You looked down at your lap, biting your lip form lashing out and avoiding the direct gaze from him. “I think being the secretary for the prince is an equally respectable position. [y/n] is impeccable at what she does and I find that to be honourable in itself” Gladio stated as a matter of fact, you gaped at his words as he looked to meet your gaze. He smiled as he moved a stray strand from your face. You mouthed a small ‘thank you’ for his sweet words. He returned with another smile.

You had tried to tell your parents of your new position yet they disregarded it as a mundane office job of no one important. If had they listened to your tale, you had hoped they would, at the very least, be happy for your achievement.

“I…[y/n] you had not told us of this!” Your mother acclaimed as she entered with the night’s dinner.

“I tried… but you wouldn’t listen…” you trailed off, not wanting to paint your parents in a bad light.

“Nonsense child! Had we have known of this, a celebration would be in order” she continue to exaggerate and escalate the situation. You sighed, knowing you would not win the fight and caved in.

“It’s no big deal…” you mumbled, Gladio looked saddened by this but remained unchanged in façade.

As the food was set on the table, all of you began to dig in. the atmosphere was filled with an uneasy silence, it almost became suffocating was it not for the sound of utensils clinking against the plates. Then your father spoke.

“I suppose, I should address the elephant in the room.” He said, causing you and Gladio to look up at him in a questionable manner. Your mother coughed awkwardly.

“How did you two meet? Or rather how did [y/n] seduce you” He said bluntly. This was it!

“Dad! How can you-“Before you could finish, Gladiolus stopped you with a chuckle. Anger bubbled inside you, with furrowed brow you sat there.

“You got it wrong there, Sir. You see, it wasn’t seduction that drew me to her but rather her eternal kindness and her ability to make anyone smile even the prince! It was everything about her that had me on my knees. She’s a strong independent woman that doesn’t need someone like me to be happy but I sure as hell need her. So you see, [y/n] is more than you credit her for” For the second time, Gladio had made your father speechless. His ability to form words to make your heart swell with immense love was unprecedented. It always would bring you to happy tears.

“Gladio…” you softly utter.

You heard your father sigh.

“I see, you must really love her then.” He stated.

“I do, dearly” Gladio said as he held your hand tightly.

“I suppose an apology is in order then. [y/n] forgive your old man for his old habits” your father said, directed to you.

You looked at your lover, then nodded.

“I…It’s forgiven and in the past… it’s alright dad…” you say softly, looking down at your plate.

With that, you continued to eat whatever was left on your plate. You felt Gladio’s hand on your thigh as a comforting sign. You smiled at him and continued to eat, the conversation passed in your mind.

After dinner, you decided to head home, mentally exhausted from the days event.

In the car, the pair of you let out a deep sigh.

“Man that was exhausting” you complained as you rubbed your temples.

“You can say that again” Gladio agreed as he started up the car.

“Who knew parents could be so tiring, my head is like” you proceeded on making an explosive sound, indicating your head is about to explode.

He chuckled at your antics and agreed.

A few moments of silence passed until you spoke again.

“Gladdy…Thank you for earlier… you know for having my back and that” you say shyly as you feel your cheek heat up from remembering his words.

“Oh that? Don’t worry babe, you don’t deserve the crap you get from them, to be honest it kind of annoyed the hell out of me but they are your parents…” he trailed off.

“I meant every word back there, ya know” He said, in a more serious yet filled with a passion for you.

“I don’t deserve you Gladdy, but man am I happy to call you mine” you say with as little giggle that pulled at the giant's heartstrings.

A mischievous idea formed in the bodyguard's mind as he smirked. He placed his larger hand on your thigh and playfully rubbed it.

“How about I make you mine tonight” Gladio smirked as he side glanced at you.

Your face was flushed at the comment which made him laugh.

“Well I’m not opposed to the idea”

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[esselley]

Omg. Tumblr's trying to kill itself for real now (the whole adult content censorship). I just followed you on Twitter cuz I don't wanna lose you and I'm so done with this site. Umm... I kinda don't know how Twitter works tho. Never had an account before??

Bwuhhhh I know it’s all frustrating! Thank you for braving the wilds of Twit to follow me there as well Here’s a quite good post I recently saw about Twit etiquette! And some of my own thoughts/observations:

- One thing to keep in mind is that tagging/keywords and content filtering work massively different than they do on T*umblr. There is the option to mute words, but people don’t always tag or mention all the Stuff (like: pairing, characters, fandom, nsfw, etc). So I do encourage people to be mindful of who they’re following, and their timelines in general. Twit does have a sort of “safe mode” where it doesn’t show you “sensitive” content unless you turn off the setting or tell it to show you anyway, but it’s not foolproof as usual! 

I do wish I’d mentioned this before I told people to follow my Twit but I was kind of all over the place at the time. But I am very multifandom/pairing and nsfw on there! And I can’t control what shows up on people’s timelines if you follow me, so please follow at your own discretion XD

- Another thing people don’t usually grasp at first (I didn’t either) is quote retweeting and how that works. On mobile when you retweet, it will also give you an option called “quote retweet” (on browser, when you click retweet, there’s space to add a comment). This allows you to add a little comment to someone’s tweet, and you’ll see it done a lot with news articles, popular funny tweets, etc. 

In general, however, most fan artists/content creators would prefer their work not be quote retweeted. This is especially true among Japanese/Korean fan artists, who you will probably see content from a lot more often on Twit. Quote retweeting, and any likes/retweets/replies on the QRT, do not add those likes/retweets/replies to the original tweet. So it is viewed a bit like reposting. Regular retweets function like reblogs, however, and are always appreciated!

- Twit does this fun thing where likes from people you follow and sometimes likes from people they follow (who you don’t follow...) will show up on your timeline at random. Which some people are okay with, because it often means you see things you normally wouldn’t/miss less stuff from people you follow. But the double edged sword is that maybe you see some things you just really don’t care to see XD This can also make your timeline heinously unchronological sometimes, which only gets worse the more people you follow.  

However, muting these terms will stop Twit from showing you “suggested” activity (which I hated) and other people’s likes (which were sometimes nice but I prefer my timeline to be in order). This is all personal preference, but still a good thing to know ^^

Hope some of this helps!

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[rebelwithalens]

“TALK To Me”

What you should know about National Suicide Hotlines.

The following post mentions rape, abuse, and suicide but does not explore these issues or use any graphic language to discuss them. It merely provides insight into how these Hotlines are operated.

In a past life, I used to listen to people’s problems for very long stretches of time.

And no, I didn’t work in customer service.

I used to speak to people who were stressed out about applying to colleges and where everything was headed for them.

I spoke to people who had been raped, people who were feeling the debilitating fear of leaving and fear of staying with an abusive partner, and people who had just lost a child.

I spoke to people while they were literally in the middle of trying to kill themselves — and I mean that “literally” literally.

To sum it up, if you were talking to me, you probably weren’t having a very good day.

In fact, most times, I was speaking with a person on one of the worst days of their life.

For thousands of hours, I was a crisis counselor — The EMTs of the psych world.

We triaged, we bandaged, we applied compression to gaping wounds — some of which were catastrophic. We tried to keep hearts beating.

Our job was to give first aid and then get them to professionals, groups, organizations who could help them further.

But more and more people are coming forward with stories about negative experiences with the same hotlines whose numbers are widely circulated every time there’s a new celebrity suicide in the news.

If you’ve ever called 273-TALK, there’s a very good chance that you haven’t received the care that you needed and deserved.

Here’s why.

Disclaimer: I have zero experience with crisis centers outside of the United States so what’s being discussed is possibly not applicable to where you live. Please look into how these situations are handled in your area and in your country. I welcome you to share your own experiences and insights in the comments.

Suicide hotlines like 273-TALK are national hotlines. This means that when someone dials them, their call is automatically directed to the crisis center nearest to them. If the center is closed or the lines are busy, the call will jump around until someone, somewhere answers it. So, although you’re calling from Wisconsin, there’s a good chance that you won’t be talking to a counselor who’s also located in your state.

This creates a good foundation for a fundamental problem to thrive.

There is no uniform, universal protocol for crisis center operations and procedures within the United States nor is there a standard for hotline operator training and this is a huge contributing factor as to why experiences vary wildly. I worked at a crisis center that had an intensive, long training schedule — at the time, it was regarded as one of the most extensive training programs in the country. But in contrast, the only other crisis center in a 50 mile radius — which was located just one county over — was disorganized and dated, and to throw kerosene on an inferno, they let volunteers on the phone after just a few hours of orientation. Yes, people who were taking suicide calls. To put that into perspective, at my organization, we were required to complete over 600 hours of training before we were a certified “solo” counselor.

Part of our training required us to learn how to use our organization’s resource database.

Which leads to the next fundamental problem that exists.

There is no universal referral database for crisis centers.

Local crisis centers should have referrals that are a good fit for their demographic but even if they do, problems still occur with a national hotline that diverts calls.

Let’s say you call from Maine, but the person who picks up your call in in Maryland. The information they’ll have on therapists, hospitals, etc. located in Maine would be extraordinarily limited. Maine isn’t the demographic that they’re intended to serve, and additionally, it might be in conflict with their funding.

Not only does the counselor not have accurate and complete information on the options available for the caller but the criteria and policies that govern admittance and qualification for programs can differ significantly from state-to-state and insurance plan to insurance plan (of which we have no information). This means that it’s very possible that you have better options available to you than you’ll be made aware of. Many people struggle with saying, “I don’t know” and unfortunately frame their remarks as absolutes in an attempt to appear competent.

Additionally, there are crisis centers that are equipped to only provide references and have never received counseling training at all. Someone in crisis shouldn’t have to be told “I’m sorry, but we just give out referrals” if they start talking about their circumstances. I know how devastating a response that can be for someone whose finally asking for help.

There’s a pervasive belief in many industries that once a solution’s been invented that a problem is “figured out”. There are countless ways that this could be made better and so that people who ask for help are met with empathy and competency.

Should you really have to wonder about a counselor’s training while you’re in a fight for your life? No, counseling requires trust. You deserve someone who’s willing and able to listen effectively. Someone who can empathize with your situation and understands how this system works. These aren’t things learned during a weekend seminar.

High-profile tragedies push this subject to the forefront of our society’s conversations which is important but the issues at hand are far more insidious and systemic than most realize. I have a different perspective — I see things differently because I’ve been on the other side of those calls and I have first-hand experience with who may be answering it. 

That’s why I needed to share this with you.

Please don’t ever stop asking for help.

Please don’t be beaten down by all those who refuse to listen to all that you’re saying and all that’s left unsaid.

Don’t stop talking until someone starts listening.

That’s hard. That’s really hard. But you deserve to be heard and to be believed.

Our hotline was anonymous but, if by some chance, our paths crossed. I’d just like to say:

I don’t know how you kept breathing but you did.

I don’t know why you stayed on the line but I am so damn happy that you did.

I am so humbled that you trusted me — a complete stranger, a disembodied voice — when you were ripped raw.

I hope you are well.

I wish you peace.

My little corner of Tumblr is all about stories. You are welcome to share yours in the comment section. Thank you for listening to one of mine 🍍

#depression #anxiety #mental health #mental disorder #gen z #gen z problems #gen z culture #suicide

[drewmeow]

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[noor-elise]

Optimism vs. pessimism

NB: This is a post from a previous tumblr originally posted May 28, 2018; it’s a post that I’m proud of, so I wanted to add it here. Unfortunately, some links here are dead :/

A friend of mine sent me a link to Tumblr post with these posters, which got me thinking about their message. 

“Alain de Botton sees classification as an opportunity to reorganise knowledge so that it might be more useful to us in everyday life. Anthony Burrill regards his ability to classify his own life as a route to happiness. Commissioned by GraphicDesign&, this double-sided, collaborative poster by de Botton and Burrill addresses stereotypical perceptions of seemingly opposing approaches to life. Featuring two typographic bon mots, one side of the poster reads ‘pessimism is not always deep’, while the other side sports the motto ‘optimism is not always dumb’. Is your glass half empty or half full today?” (Source)

To be clear, here are the dictionary.com definitions for each term:

People on the Internet and in high school like to argue the “better” mindset. But, honestly, is there a better one? Because of raging hormones and general discovery on how the world and the human body work (haha), some Internet-accessing teens would agree that pessimism is the better route because it is “more real.” Looking at the definition of pessimism, it isn’t hard to believe, given the daily terrible stuff on the news. Seriously, a quick look at the headlines on any newsfeed seems to prove that the world is capable of cruelty and evil on a daily basis. Therefore, pessimism makes sense, and the optimistic are naive bystanders who passively live on Earth and pay no attention to what the real world is like.

But, if pessimism focuses on the bad or undesirable, then wouldn’t it be mentally healthier to be optimistic? Goodness and happiness have always been goals valued by religions and peoples, and it can only be healthy to incorporate them into one’s life. Plus, optimism implies hope, and hope relies on the belief that there is goodness in the world, enough for there to be change (a rebellion!).

Curious on the matter and wanting more than the ramblings of a tired teenager, I looked for more research-based information and fell upon a 2009 article, “The Psychology of Optimism and Pessimism: Theories and Research Findings” by Fiona Parashar. Here, I attempt to summarise and explain some points

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Historically and in literature, optimism has been associated with “simplistic and unrealistic people” who preach Kumbaya and happiness and rainbows. However, research has shown that optimism leads to a greater general and mental health, a positive outlook on life, and better coping strategies, among other benefits. On the other hand, pessimism is linked to poor mental health (i.e. depression) and, surprisingly, poor physical health. Entail two theories on optimism:

Dispositional Optimism. Professors of psychology Charles Carver and Michael Scheier coined the term to designate “the global expectation that good things will be plentiful in the future and bad things scarce.” Basically, optimism = positive outcomes whereas pessimism = negative outcomes, all of which in turn affect one’s mentality and mental health opposingly.

Explanatory style. This theory originates from psychologists Martin Seligman’s research on “learned helplessness,” which is the “reaction of giving up when faced with the belief that whatever you do does not matter.” In short, the concept of explanatory style is that a habit of optimistic explanation of events stops helplessness, whereas a habit of pessimistic explanation only spreads it.

Pessimism has been “demonized” as the opposite end of optimism. It seems that decades of research on optimism has turned pessimism into a rasping Gollum in their dark, swampy corner. Additional studies sought to dissolve the demonization of pessimism, and here is what they found:

Pessimism shouldn’t be treated as optimism’s inversely proportional opposite on a feels spectrum; rather, it is a separate concept whose negative outcomes shouldn’t be juxtaposed with the positive ones that come from optimism.

A more exact conclusion would be that pessimism is associated with undesirable characteristics and that optimism isn’t exclusively associated with positive ones. What would distinguish optimism and pessimism, according to Edward Chang, is “the decreased use of passive and ineffective coping strategies rather than the increased use of active coping efforts.”

In some contexts, pessimism actually pays off. For example, according to Nancy Cantor and Julie Norem, pessimism can be a “defensive coping style” which they call “defensive pessimism.” Here’s an example: a defensive pessimist could be a very good student who bites their nails over their next grade, anticipating a bad grade. If their apprehension proved right, their pessimism serves as a cushion against shock or disappointment or turns into a booster for action. It is important to note that this coping strategy is not beneficial in the long term. Defensive pessimists eventually tend to not perform well, report less life satisfaction, and develop mental illness symptoms. So defensive pessimism is not a safe route for students.

The possibility of learning optimism is a point of contention amid researchers. Martin Seligman claims that learning optimism is possible, via programs that aim to conquer depression proposed in his books; however, other researchers counter that the programs seem to be “more focused on stopping pessimism than enhancing optimism which is its own and different skill.” The efficacity and duration of the effects of the programs are also questionable. Professor Suzanne Segerstrom argues that “learning strategies that create the benefits associated with optimists are achievable,” but that explanatory style and optimism are “fairly unrelated to each other.”

Optimism has a dark side. According to Professors Richard Robins and Oliver John, optimistic illusions of performance may stem from narcissism (no one likes turning into a daffodil) rather than mental health. Professor Neil Weinstein found that optimistic biases in perception lead to underestimated risk, less action, and a host of health hazards. So, despite the misleading yet common theory that “optimism is good and pessimism is bad,” optimism is slightly ambivalent and can lead to a false sense of security. And you all know, security is mortals’ chiefest enemy.

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So, it’s probably best to find a nice middle between optimism and pessimism (a friend jokingly describes it as “positive neutrality”). That way, you don’t have to become a narcissist or a puddle of depressed, dead leaves.

On that happy note, enjoy your day, whatever may be your psychological affiliation!