#i dont have anything to add this is killing me

[butchdykekondraki]

#i dont have anything to add this is killing me #speaking.mp4

[puppyeared]

Tell me about a song you like right now, maybe an animation you just watched that made you think thoughts and feel things

Only Acting by Kero Kero Bonito!! I want to make an animatic for Macaque using this song and some parts of Shadow Play and the s4 special.. although im still mapping it and deciding whether I want to use the radio edit or not lol

#its like really really rough and mostly in my head rn bc i havent drawn lmk in a while so im a little rusty. probably need to rewatch some #eps if i want to get a good idea of what i wanna include. im also debating if i should wait until we get more context on his and wukongs #past before i do anything bc the last thing i wanna do is butcher it @_@... i was thinking of paralleling the song with the pilgrims #but because i dont actually know what HAPPENED or why mac even thinks wukong killed him thats probably gonna be important to know #but its like really cool in my head.. if u listen to the song sarahs voice uses an audio filter and there are some random glitch effects #which could be good visually for macs smoke monster and him fucking with MK in general.. spooky stuff!!! #the lyrics also speak from the pov of a performer which is what reminded me of mac in the first place so it would be fun to animate to #its in my shower playlist so when i listen to it i get really intense visualizing for what scenes i wanna do. hitting 2 birds with 1 stone #actually thats smth i do when i wanna storyboard smth.. i add it to my shower playlist bc thats where i come up with my ideas lol #but yea!!! if i ever get around to doing it id be really excited to share what i have.. i have another in mind with pigsy and MK #which is way shorter and i could probably get it done during my break... ;o) #my art #myart #ask #answered #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #liu er mihou #doodles #yapping

[conchfritters]

last post complaining about genshin's writing for the month Anyway i think blorbofication happening in canon is the best way i could describe a lot of the problems i have with it ex. kaeya's relationship with diluc (or klee) is almost the only focus we get on him now, other than his brief appearance in the sumeru archon quest which was just saying his backstory basically with very little actual reaction or characterization on his part OR dainsleif's (also a problem i have in the albedo homunculus reveal in shadows amidst snowstorms). i haven't done his hangout because i. don't care enough to sit through an hour for each route with the quality of content hoyoverse puts out but looking at the ending options i feel like. they missed the opportunity to expand on things we already had for kaeya in favor of Oh he babysits klee! Oh albedo is here! Spend money to pull albedo!Venti cameo! What do you mean him and amber have a complicated dynamic. What do you mean he's apparently beloved by the elderly of mondstadt and the one who wraps up all the incidents there. What do you mean bennett trusts him as an omniscient big brother according to his official cn character profile. We made him talk to diluc again isn't that enough kaeya for you? and it sucks because kaeya feels like a rubik's cube with an onion's layers and like one of their best character personalities in content where he's actually kaeya and not just diluc's brother who is sad and also pretty! we never see anything about his relationship with jean, who he is the Most Trusted Aide of, or mondstadt at large! because every day we get closer to fanon kaeya being canon kaeya and it's just. You can have canon kaeya and fanon kaeya will follow but if fanon kaeya is at the forefront you're just immediately losing all that depth and it's going nowhere

#MAKE KAEYA MORE THAN A GUY WHO PLAYS TCG AND BABYSITS KLEE PLEASE I BEG YOU #he doesn't have to Stop playing tcg or babysitting klee even. i think that adds a lot to him actually. I just think pretending the rest of #him Isn't There is the problem #the reason for him being in sumeru is. Super flimsy to me #just because why is diluc having the knights supervise his wine deals #but i think the hangout routes of him acting in that play...ALSO feel very actual kaeya #from someone who's skimmed the dialogue for said hangout routes at least #acting in a whole play making a show then slipping away right at the applause #so those? yeah! but the mondstadt ones? Who cares #oh wow 2 seconds of jean lisa and albedo standing in a room. klee cameo. kaeya does So much for mondstadt we're Told #i would love to be Shown #remind me later to go on a whole tangent about how kaeya & collei's relationship Also got fucked over because holy shit #kaeya was going to Kill Her because he saw her as either a liar or a threat to mondstadt or Something #and then in the event i dont care enough about to remember the name of they have one interaction and its boring #seashell resonance #None of this is cohesive enough to be worth anything but i think about kaeya sometimes and remember that i'm also insane about him

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ok no im so tired but ive had this Thing a Laughingstock Concept Thing in my Brain for Days Now and its.... basically what if Barnaby adopted a lil caterpillar. like it's not sapient or anything its literally A Wriggly Puppet Prop. but he finds it in his home and it reminds him of Howdy and he keeps it. he carries it everywhere. he treats it so tenderly and names it and everything. his delusional smitten subconscious is like "omg... mine & howdy's <3" he and Howdy are not even together at this point

so Barnaby cares for this lil caterpillar and Howdy ends up getting attached as well, because he's on the same shit as Barnaby. and eventually the lil caterpillar pupates, and they watch over the chrysalis So Excited to see what lil wormie will look like as a butterfly. and it emerges and they're so proud and weirdly emotional. the butterfly takes off on its first flight and lands on a flower patch

just in time for Eddie to trip and fall on the patch, instantly crushing it And the butterfly

#in my mind eddie is all 'oh man :( thank goodness frank wasnt around to see that' and then goes about his business #completely missing howdy & barnaby watching on In Horror off to the side #not lil wormie... no.... #also in my mind lil wormie looks like the fuckn. Adorable worm from sesame street #oscars little friend i think? the cutest little thing in the world? the little red wormie? yeah.... #but im feeling very Tender about bigass dog barnaby toting around this teensie weensie lil worm thing #treating it with utmost care and affection #big characters caring for absolutely tiny thing kills me every fucking time #bury me shallow... ill be back to die again.... #absolutely unprompted #laughingstock #ohhhh my god im not even gonna say how i almost butchered the laughingstock tag #sometimes i type letters in the wrong order or add an extra one. that would have been so unfortunate but Deeply Hilarious #ANYWAY LIL WORMIE IS AN ESTABLISHED THING IN MY MIND AND I DONT KNOW WHY #maybe... maybe tomorrow i will scribble it... #also to be clear the events of this post all happen within a week or two. #it is a brief shining Worm Time #ok going to bed now officially. im going #wait no i have to complain about something ive done to myself hold on #so i really like reeses puffs cereal yeah? but the problem is it cuts up my mouth to hell and back and makes eating anything a Pain #tried to eat sauerkraut tonight... it burned... the roof of my mouth is so scraped up... #i Will be eating another bowl when i wake up tho. its too tasty. i can take the annoyance that is minor pain. i have a high tolerance <3 #can i easily Not eat it? yeah. but i dont want to stop. nothing will stop me. its a jumbo box. i Will Finish It. #anyway wormie <3 gonna go think about her <3

[seventh-district]

not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc. #so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously) #but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate. #and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic! #if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it. #like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is- #writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl- #will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of- #'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

[necrophiliak]

I found you via tumblrs orbit system and you sounded kinda nervous about your ocs, so I’m gonna appear in your askbox and shout “yaaaay ocs!”

a idk if its nervousness per se and more just a combo of hope tht ppl will like+care abt them and me being awkward/not knowing what to say (but 40k ppl have been super nice ive never actually had ppl care abt my ocs before outside of my close friends ToT and they arent into 40k)

anyway. um yeah. ty tho 🥺 i rly appreciate it

#i also never make oc lore so this is a first for me so its also 'if i get any lore stuff wrong im killing myself' and thats wjhy i read #so many books beforehand lmfao #anyway. #admech is fun bt im a hardcore undead fan and my sona has been a zombie for like ~10yrs now and yea i guess im otherkin as well or whatever #so necrons jst have way more to chew on for me past just enjoying the aesthetics and broad philosophy #also mr nate crowley liked one of my tweets where i was gushing over tdk again and wht undeath means as a concept which was Insane Feeling #since i hadnt actually namedropped the book title or anything #comrade crowley understands the power of change and compassion in death #....................anyway #some of those tomb kings minis tempt me terribly #this is wildly offtopic #nedsha is my babyu its like showing baby photos ok if ppl dont like him ill blow the building up or whatever #i did make and convert one friend into 40k as well tho thats been fun #arv if ur reading this im talking abt u #sorry this is mad long i always think of a million things to say afterwards and i have an extension tht lets me add tags without- #editing the post

[sonknuxadow]

new rule: people who arent sonic fans have to learn the basics of sonic lore and the characters relationships with eachother before they are allowed to say anything about sonic characters. especially if it is about sonic and tails

#this is a joke but the things im seeing people say about sonic and tails in the notes of those sibling polls are annoying me #''sonic and tails arent siblings!!'' ''dont let sonic and tails beat a pair of ACTUAL siblings guys'' #''sonic and tails arent even related by blood !!!'' biting killing scratching maiming #they are CANONICALLY adopted siblings and this isnt a recent development either Please shut up #well im assuming a lot of the people being annoying just dont know anything about sonic #but some of them just seem to not think adopted siblings are real siblings which is even worse #people being annoying about sonic and tails isnt even a thing exclusive to this poll #the amount of times ive seen someone who knows nothing about sonic or has only watched like one singular sonic thing #make jokes about sonic and tails being in love. biting killing maiming scratching exploding #actually lets add ''or shadow'' to the end of this post the things ive seen non sonic fans say about shadow make my head hurt #also its kinda funny i feel like if the pokemon people werent saying sonic and tails arent siblings #then sonic fans wouldnt have been fighting so hard to get sonic and tails to win and it would have been a much more even number of votes #because sonic and tails were actually losing at first. then people started saying they arent real siblings and now look where we are

[fayevalcntine]

I know some fans have expressed hesitancy towards Louis' given memories/experiences in season 1 not being fully true and I know that some of it boils down to racist fans "being given reasons to hate Louis/Claudia" but honestly, I feel like that would also strip them of any chances to be fully complex characters who are also vampires in their own right.

When I consider Louis as an unreliable narrator, I don't think about whether or not this will absolve Lestat of his wrongdoings (which it obviously won't because there were issues with him way before episodes 5-onwards), but specifically about why he's doing this now and why he would specifically need to have such a story to grab onto, so much so that being faced with even just a glimpse of the reality of what happened causes him to be on the verge of a nervous breakdown. To me, Louis still carrying shame/guilt over the past, his nature and even his former relationships to Lestat or Claudia, make him a character that is filled with a ton to still deal with. 144 years of life and he still hasn't been able to even break down a small part of his own internalized feelings? That is not something that can be simply or easily fixed or dealt with, and that is what makes him an intriguing character that should be given the space within the show as such.

The same can be said for Claudia. I understand why some fans cling to the repeated notion that she only decided to kill Lestat for Louis (being his knight and savior), but that is frankly a disservice to her as her own person because it renders such a significant choice on her part to solely be Louis' aid/new guardian in his life. Claudia has her own reasons for hating Lestat, she has every right to despise him for condemning her to a life that she wasn't even warned about and for condemning her to a constant in-between state of being in a teenager's body. Add onto that his abuse and cruelly taught lessons to her. From Lestat's perspective, his approach may not seem as harsh as what he has faced, but from Claudia's, there still hasn't been a given reason for it. And even if there was, his approach is still horrible towards her. This is why her relishing in his murder should be for her own reasons for revenge and spite, because frankly she has every reason to be hateful towards him. Making Louis the center of her world and love within his own version of events frankly simplifies Claudia and her existence (and even apparent death) to begin and end with Louis, but even Louis isn't really honest about her or honest to himself about who she really was.

Also, I think it's slightly regressive to insinuate that only the white vampire in this ensemble so far should be as horrible, selfish, cruel and insane and yet still get narrative focus (even during his apparent redemption) whereas characters like Louis and Claudia should only ever have noble and pure reasons for existing and moving about in the past or present. The show obviously has a responsibility to give proper focus to Louis and Claudia, but I think that in such a show where vampires who've lived for so long have done things that seem insane to a normal person, they should also be allowed to be complicated, nuanced characters.

#interview with the vampire #this obviously extends to Armand but tbh I don't think the show will go down the route of killing him off or anything #claudia #louis de pointe du lac #also to add onto my point: I think racist fans can and will still find any and every reason to hate Claudia or Louis even if they are #only ever noble in their choices #so it just renders the whole need for them to have 'completely moral' justifications for killing Lestat null void to me #like I dont care about giving any racist fans ammo #but i also don't care to try and appease their views by making the two main black characters only ever be good #in a show about crazy vampires i WANT Louis and Claudia to be complicated and crazy #they both have their own reasons for it; so

[cloneslugs]

god i really only remembered it & clicked it together when writing that but . rusty really refuses to help brisby w cloning . he turns down a lot of money & opportunity to help brisby w cloning, and this is before the clone thing is revealed & its all just chalked up to his father's research at that point but its really soooooooooo . they're his life work, and it's all just for his boys, its just to keep them alive & around & to let them live when theyre stuck in this life of constant danger and screw ups that rusty didnt want & when he's such a failure he cant even keep them alive so many times that they haunt his mind . its not his failure as a scientist that haunts him, its his failure as a father & how he can acknowledge his father as a brilliant scientist but a terrible father . but what is he bc he's doing what any father would do isnt he? wouldnt you do anything to bring them back? and you succeed in that but youre also haunted by the fact that youve let them die so many times & thats not a successful thing thats also failure .

#really have so much to think about from as/sisted sui/cide. #i think R has always hated his life but the boys are so special but like k/illinger says hes afraid of success . he holds himself back #he distances himself . but its not just from su/persc/ience its from being a dad too . but theyre his entire world genuinely . even when #hes an asshole . i really dont think in all his times of failure & fucking up & all his tr/auma & nightmares & etc . i just think about #how the boys haunt him . i really dont think anything would have pushed him to be sui/cidal except the fact that hes a failure of a father #too i really do think losing the boys the first time would have killed him inside . and i really do think it also adds up that thats why #he uses detachment to cope/protect himself even tho he loves them so much like that #text tag #hes my pookie bear my everything sorry he means the world to me the clone slugs make me wanna explode theyre the obsessive point of a #fathers maddening love

[yo9urt]

ball dur's gait 3 is ruining my life

#mine #I THINK I LOCKED MYSELF OUT OF AST4RI0N ROMANCE BY ACCIDENT #AND THE WORST PART IS I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW!!!!!!! #LIKE. WHAT SCENE DID I FUCK UP IN. WHICH DIALOGUE DID I MISS. WHERE DID I GO WRONG #i just got to act 3 and i had the option to ask him why him and my char haven't [ahem] in a while and i decided to click on it #and he finished the conversation by being like 'yeah theres never going to be anything between us' #i insta-reloaded to my save right before the convo because i refuse to accept that as being canon #even though i know the structure of this game well enough to know the fact that i have the option to have that convo #is like a 99% guarantee that i cant romance him #but fuck me man i wanna be a little delusional and keep believing #but if it's really over...............then 1. i'm very upset especially because this is my self insert #(although that is oddly fitting in its own way) #2. i still care him so much and in my heart i want to believe maybe after the events of the game something happens between them #3. im going to kill myself #and 4. on the upside i guess this does offer some interesting story/rp aspects i could play with in my silly mind #but fuuuuuuck me man i was counting on being able to do it i really thought i could get this to work................... #fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck man #so many things have gone wrong in this run it's almost kinda funny #i guess this also adds another playthrough to my planned list cause even though i watched the supercut and i know his romance already #i still kind of want to experience it for myself...even if it's not with my insert :( #but then again my tavs and durges will always be a little bit of an insert cause i'm going to project on them and they'll always #have something in common with me #i can try again in the future... #my 2nd run is going to be durgestarion with durge resisting the urges which i think will be really fun #but i guess im gonna need to use a guide LMAO #fuuuuuuuuuuck dude even though i reloaded to make the convo uncanon i feel like me and my little tav guy are sharing a deeply painful momen #ok this is too many tags WHATEVER i have a call in 30 minutes and then i'm playing the game for the rest of the day #even if he doesn't want me i will still care him...... #oh i guess that's the other upside is i can see nonromantic dialogue i might not have seen otherwise #i'll probably see friend dialogue in future playthroughs when i romance other characters but who knows

[leafeonb]

putting so many random side characters on this oc world i will have fun i have to

#and go insane. #but also again this story of ocs is so old that it feels weird to add stuff there even though i have rebooted the #plot one million times to the point i considered making it an in-universe thing . different timelines... #it feels strange to add new characters to it but also i love adding new small stuff about characters so now i need to design and create the #the entire class group for this oc and then like maybe three or two important teachers and also this oc coworkers and part of this oc family #she has a father now. we will kill him. #< scream. #i think it was funny that when i created her as a kid i didnt even think about anything it was like ok she just has a mom #dont ask me about the guy then i made some random guy to be her dad but then i forgot about him again #world number one absent father #lulu.txt

[strwbrymlkshake]

LOVE ME THE MOST THE MOST YOU POSSIBLY CAN!!!!!! LOVE ME THE MOST I NEED TO BE THE ONLY THING IN YOUR MIND

#mine #🎸 #vibrating at immense speeds rn ajskwkfllflwncf the MOST THE MOST ever #the only thing in your mind i need to be the BEST the most loved augh im not doing anything wrong but its still not ENOUGH #why cant i be satisfied. but at the same time LOVE ME MORE AND MORE AND MORE UNTIL LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE EXISTS #i need to add more fuel to the fire of our love but i dont know what to do exactly... clearly mentioning the issue didnt work #idk i literally want him to kill me or something i need to be consumed by love. ah all of our mutual friends are quickly going to #learn how fucking mentally ill i can get. im not ready for them to but if hes telling them these things then theyre gonna KNOW #love me more more more i thought you used to be scared of how much you loved me. obsess over me again!!!!!! #if im not the one doing anything wrong what is the problem. what is preventing you from loving me the most you possibly can!!! #if its something with me I'll just kill that part of me. ugh he wouldnt want me partaking in unhealthy thoughts like this #so what is there to do? i need to drown in the grain silo of love. there isnt enough to drown in rn though... i cant just #make him love me more. an evil oriented solution would be to make everyone hate him so he just loves me but thats a horrible thing to do #and id feel bad about it forever. so im not gonna do THAT i want him to be happy. but even when hes happy he isnt loving me intensely #i need to be desired i need to be ripped open like a phone book –_– #everyone is learning how insane abt him i am and its kind of embarrassing. well my feelings i guess. it is embarrassing to have feelings #if this whole situation was an asmr youd be listening to it willingly. but its NOT arent you supposed to like me like this #im overthinking this hes probably just depressed which is making it difficult to be insane

[todayisafridaynight]

OH about the finale at the shrine, this completely slipped my notice when we were talking about it, but Ichi says he's "reporting" Jo's verdict to both Arakawa and Masato. It's just not translated that way.

Not too big of a difference (well, it is to me, but I'm insane), but if it was highlighting anything, I'd guess it's probably Masato's change of heart. It would've been fair for Ichi to assume Masato wouldn't care and only "report" to Arakawa, but in the context of Ichi doing his damnedest to show Masato they all love him, it works in terms of, "Maybe I made him reconsider, and maybe now he would care."

Also... I'm looking at it in a "measured" way, since the chapter trophies are always just standard "Nth Chapter Cleared" messages that the localization team just spices up for us, but there's something I find really poignant about the Chapter 13 trophy being worded as "Fate of Our Fathers." The pluralization of both the noun and pronoun. Realizations that come too late.

Of course, Masato definitely didn't "know" and had no real reason to suspect it, but the Arakawas have this bizarre subconscious almost-psychic link. So even if he doesn't really think so, there's this sense that Ichi "might as well" be Arakawa's "real" son because they're so much more alike. And maaaybe he felt that way about Jo and himself at one point, because (as we've discussed) there has to be a reason Jo was Masato's "favorite."

[Follow up to this ask]

#snap chats #yeah i have no real notes sorry LMAO LIKE THIS IS GOOD ON ITS OWN YK. every base is covered #LIKE nothing i could say could really enhance anything or add much. god im so bad at words i should drop dead right now #i can reaffirm that masato definitely sees ichi as arakawass 'real' son if his whole 'you remind me of dad' bit is anything to go off of #thats a weird line/sentiment now aint it #masato didnt consider him and ichi as family and ergo he's angry at how similar ichi and arakawa are #i guess that's more of a deep-dive into that hypothetical masato essay ill probably never get to- why masato hates arakawa like he does #about 'fate of /our/ /fathers/' tho thats def an interesting point no matter how you slice it #'our fathers' could refer to arakawa and sawashiro and ichi and masato respectively #i.e. masumi- ichi's bio father and sawashiro- masato's bio father- and what happens to them by the end of the game yk #there's an alt way to see if as both arakawa and sawashiro as both ichi and masato's fathers #though im gonna chewing my cheek on that one. sure we've compared sawashiro to an abusive stepparent #idk... i think it's just cause ichi shows up well into his teens that it doesnt register in my brain that sawashiro could be a father figur #but thats MY personal dumb ass rambling im just here to vaguely try to interpret the title in multiple ways to cover everything #moving on tho... the use of 'our' prevents 'fathers' referring to only one of them . so. Aforementioned Possibilities have been listed #making it sound like i have anything else to say I DONT I ALREADY SAID EVERYTHING dummy. putting myself in the dunce corner #on that note. hopefully it finally got through to masato how much people loved him before he got ganked #i mean for sure it did but yk. still mad about y7 ending im gonna kill someone In Minecraft #'i have nothing else to say' LIAR YOU ARE A LIAR !!!!! THE FUCK ARE THESE TAGS STUPID ASS #anyway im going back to my google doc. im almost done with another cringe fic. sorry #BYE

[leonsbian]

.

#sometimes i think. then i want to kill myselffff. #add makes self destructive impulses so hard. like. i have to think that thisiscringe thisiscringe to stop myself. im acting like a child. #whenever things dont go as planned my first urge is so think abt kms bc i cant handle negative feelings. they consume me. #hnnngghbh #like. i wont do anything. you dont have to worry. im just having a meltdown lol. #delete later

[frankiebirds]

i do Not like the ending of a real rain im sorry this may be controversial.

i get what they're going for with hotch shooting the unsub. i get the foreshadowing of the past case where hotch talked a man down who was then acquitted and went on to kill again. i get the parallel of the unsub killing people who he feels were unfairly acquitted and then hotch killing him out of implied fear that he'll be acquitted by a sympathetic jury. but if you're going to attempt a parallel like that and have a character make a choice like that you need to commit to it i think? there's not even a conversation about it. i dont think it's ever brought up again, hotch doesn't even say anything.

one scene on the jet, if it was well-written enough, could make me accept the ending even if i dont like it, but no. the episode ends with hotch shooting a man who is surrendering and everyone is apparently fine with it?

(i'd like to note that this is a criticism of the writing, not hotch. i think this is an out-of-character choice without justification beyond "one time i talked a guy down and he got acquitted so this time ill shoot the guy as he surrenders. and then keep my job somehow". it just feels lazy and weird.)

#foyet is very different #i will admit ive not actually seen that ep but #i dont think i need to have watched it to say “beating a man to death after he kills your wife is different from whatever this is” #negative #i guess #idk what to tag #i do like this episode i just dont like this ending it doesnt sit right with me #and again without further justification it feels very out of character #like okay yeah #one time hotch didnt shoot a guy and he got acquitted and went on to kill again #but a LOT of the unsubs on the show have some reason behind what they do that could get them found ncr #or i guess “insane” in the states #should they just be shooting all those people? #again i get there is the added layer here of hotch enacting a flavour of vigilante justice on the vigilante #but again. for that parallel to work you need to commit to it #you cant just go “okay episode is over now lol.” #there are the ending news clips but those dont add anything new to me #im sorry im rambling #i just dont like this ending #disclaimer that i am canadian and we dont even have life w/o parole much less the death penalty so that is affecting my viewpoint probably #criminal minds rewatch #criminal minds s01e17 #a real rain #not tagging the gen criminal minds tag or the hotch tag because. i dont know. this is a little more negative than my usual ramblings

[snekdood]

so many people on here are so.... dysfunctional.

#and then they make an identity out of it #and no before you bring out your victim complex ID and add this on to it under your list of justifications for having said ID- #no im not talking about you being queer im talking about yall romanticizing being pieces of utter shit and then being surprised #most people dont like interacting with you. #'wow i wonder why people generally avoid me when i keep telling people to kill themselves or talk about people dying in graphic ways #and clearly getting some weird sadistic joy out of it. or how i make excuses for the shittiest ppls actions on here bc they're queer or #something so thats an excuse for if they ever do anything wrong. or how i make a personality out of acting like a 14 year old interested #in creepypastas and talk about killing ppl n fucking jeff the killer with a knife. wonder why im disliked and generally avoided. a mystery. #im literally a full on tankie and believe in killing people who disagree with me and still idk why ppl dont like me it doesnt make sense #i wonder why my political opinions arent popular maybe im not being violent enough in my descriptions? maybe i need to be more #antisemitic or something? that should work right team?'