#i doubt i’ll get anything

[clamsjams]

i’m joining the war on the codes on the side of the codes

#etoiles core #but also just my personal feelings #no sign of sofia return #and since max is dead and im probs the only fan that still cares #i doubt i’ll get anything #i need a new robo character(s) #but also i like the eggs but idk how to feel abt the new ones #mixed feelings all around #maybe i’ll talk about those late #qsmp #qsmp liveblog #qsmp codes #posts from the ocean

[wundrousarts]

Any Nevermoor fans in Adelaide??? I am desperate to know what Jess might mention about Silverborn at the Adelaide Festival 😭😭😭

#nevermoor #such a global fan base ….. except when you need to find an australian that isn’t in melbourne #as an American who notoriously lives in a large country that people (Brits) can’t fathom #I am flabbergasted every time I look up Australian locations and distances lol #anyways. I neeeed to know what’s said I need stuff to share and also tide me over 😭 #also to add it to my interview database bc I am insane and have a spreadsheet of all that stuff that I turned into a tumblr page. lol. #I emailed asking if it would be recorded in any form and idk if I’ll get a response but I kinda doubt it idk #but who knows! maybe I’ll be surprised! even if this is just like a 15 min talk I would listen to anything Jess says abt nevermoor even lol

[demigodofhoolemere]

When you know a character and their material like the back of your hand and you see someone say something about the character as if it’s a known trait of theirs but you’ve literally never seen that happen

#saw a review for an old first doctor novel that said that steven’s ‘capacity to fall for the wrong type of woman’ was ‘very much in place’ #his… his what? #is this a thing that happened repeatedly in the novels for some reason and i’ve been blissfully unaware of it? #he literally never gets anything romantic in the show #you can see steven/sara if you squint like i did and apparently big finish did as well #but that’s it and that’s already a stretch #and at that sara is not the wrong kind of woman so it wouldn’t describe her anyway #is this about steven being attracted to the drahvin for a hot minute or something? #because it was literally about a minute. very quickly realized that they suck and then never looked at them like that the rest of the story. #but there’s nothing else to draw from lol #so i have to assume that either the novels kept doing this to him for some reason #or this person is just living in a dream world about who steven is lol #i’ll give them the benefit of the doubt and say it’s the novels because i know some very odd choices have been made in them #but still. what??? #classic who #steven taylor

[falmerbrook]

// venting weird fandom feelings

I feel like I must be the only person who gets stressed af when I see someone else post their headcanons/theories for something i already have a lot of headcanons/theories about. Like, “oh shit someone else already did it now I can’t :(. If I post mine I’m stomping on their turf” or like I feel like mine are now wrong because clearly this person knows more about the topic than me or knows something I don’t. Which is wild because I should be excited when I see people who like the same things I do, but instead I feel weirdly territorial. I just have an odd inferiority complex about it

#honestly headcanons and theories for tes are fun to come up with #but stress me out in ways no other fandom ever has #it’s just so damn lore heavy that I always worry I’m gonna look like an idiot because I’ll post something that contradicts some random #book that shows up in a library in eso #mine #vent #kinda #I just get anxious about everything so there’s that #for awhile ive been like 'ok well i doubt theres anyone else you knows a lot about the niche my degree is in so i could apply that to tes' #but nope i just saw someone who posts about that so now my brain has barred me from ever posting about it #oh well i guess #which is why most of my art will be silly or light hearted becasue im too scared to post my actual thoughts about anything

[dykeredhood]

Love how my choosing to see a therapist coincides with the 10 year anniversary commemorative Stucky mass hysteria event, that’s fun

#every time I bring up this unofficial tumblr celebration I’m gonna add more words to the name #ASIDE from my wanting to fuck the arm (which I’m not gonna bring up to my counselor lmao it’s irrelevant) #she was telling me: oh wow yeah that’s actually brave to strike out on your own and end up with your very own apartment & stable job etc. #I don’t see it that way??????? I don’t consider it particularly brave or tenacious it’s an obligation and I did what I needed to 💁🏻‍♀️ #and I brought up how I don’t consider myself a person more just a useful tool/someone else’s means to an end #it feels weird to do anything solely for me that’s more significant than getting something tasty to eat #also after our session I felt physically drained and emotionally wrecked for the rest of the day (a good 6 ish hours) #not even weirdly calm and empty just kind of lost and wrecked #I’ll have to tell her next time I don’t enjoy others pointing out when I’m crying #that didn’t really help my overall state #so in case there were any doubts about why I cleave to the Winter Soldier character like a limpet #oh I also said the word ‘nascent’ a bunch because I speak very precisely #no designated tag for all this just yet; we might get there so I have a chronicle #of my assorted feelings to look back on #rant in tags #personal

[goldensunset]

one of my professors is really based… we were like ‘so is the final project still due friday’ and she was like ‘…in theory. the only reason i’ve put it down as being due so early is because we’re technically not allowed to make things due in the last week of class because we’re supposed to be encouraging you all to study for finals. but you see, i am well within my right to give extensions ;-)’ let’s go sisterrrrrr

#1. ​i have never heard of that rule 2. i have lots of stuff due finals week 3. i might straight up have something due next week anyway #4. i doubt the administration is really going to check professors’ syllabi #so i personally don’t see the need for her to worry about that but like #how funny that she’s so open about being willing to bend that rule #she’s like i really only need it by finals although you’d be better off getting it done earlier so you can get feedback #but also like depending on the type of project we do not all of us even have to take the written final #like i’m just gonna do a paper so i don’t think she’ll make me do another writing project #also she’s like ‘ok some of you turned in this one assignment (that she already was incredibly lax with the due date for) #but you didn’t really meet the actual criteria of the assignment or you failed to turn it in entirely #but you can still turn it in now if you want or you can just make up for it by doing a really good job in that area of your final project #and i’ll give you a grade on that assignment anyway bc it’s really supposed to be a part of the larger final project anyway’ #like that is how chill and based she is with this #peach rambles #she’s a strict grader but like. it’s all totally fair criticism #she wants a demonstration of knowledge and good writing from us more than anything. more than being on time #so like i gotta lock in on this paper but it’s nice to know it’s going to someone fair who cares

[somekindofloser]

biting him

#bastard keeps appearing in my dreams #just finished sobbing over a fanfic #now i have a headache #haven’t been able to get anything done for weeks cause of the brainrot :( #i think i might genuinely have a problem #been trying out art recently #doubt i’ll ever post it #squip #the squip #be more chill #bmc

[wheres-all-the-tea-gone]

Rune Factory 6 wish list:

More older marriage options

- with RF being around for so long now many people who played the first as kids are now adults. It feels VERY uncomfortable when most marrigeable characters appear so young.

Older main character

- picture this: you open the game, you pick your gender, then you pick your age. I’m thinking you can chose between the base RF age of most of the main characters, which appears to be 16 or 17, and an older age, maybe between 25-35 or older for older players. Then if a player picks the younger age, then the younger characters and a few 20 year olds would be unlocked for marriage. If the player picks the older age, then older characters would be unlocked and marrigeable, but the younger characters would be locked/not marrigeable. I think this would be a good solution to players getting older.

Other jobs

- farming is cool, but what if we could choose to be something else? What if I want to run the bakery? Or the smithy? Or the bathhouse/inn? And we’d still have to go around collecting items for crafting, like maybe we have to go mine for ores and make things to sell if we choose the smithy.

Cross dressing

- absolutely love that same-sex marriage is in the series now. However we still can’t cross dress and I’m sad that I can’t dress Alice up in the boy’s clothes.

More lore

- I enjoy getting bits and pieces of lore from each game but I also want MORE. Like how dare I find out that most past RF characters might be dead by the time of RF5 through a random conversation with Margaret!

#not sure what else #rune factory #rune factory 5 #rune factory 6 #I doubt I’ll get anything like this but I can only hope #rune factory 3 #rune factory 2 #rune factory 1 #jrpg #idk maybe harvestella will be better? #just kinda want more older MC for most JRPGs as I get older omg

[dancing-with-stars]

guys. guys !!!!

#vanu is rambling #ok idk this is gonna b a happy post but i think there are lots of people who love me in this world. or at least enjoy my presence. #like i always always always ALWAYS doubt if my friends or family like me and in my head they all secretly hate me #but like for these past couple months things have been different. #i don’t feel so left out (like i usually do in groups) or alone. #like my friends genuinely want me there like they always ask me to go places with them. and i almost always say no because im so busy or #i just cant but they still ask me everytime. yesterday the whole group was calling and playing a game and i got a bunch of texts like hey #where are you u shud join the call it’s rly fun ! but i just couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone at that moment. #today they were rly happy when i joined the call and idk it made me feel like. oh. maybe my friends do like me #and also i have two moods: i’m either super talkative or i go into my little shell and don’t say anything/add to a convo. and like during #those moments they’ll be like hey u ok? or they’ll just listen to me talk about ceramics and how fun it is or how much i hate eating pears #and like. we laugh so much together. like i have so much fun with all of them i love every single one of them omg #and scary thing is we might not even be friends after we start college. but yk what? that’s okay i don’t wanna think about that. #because like who cares? i’m not gonna let my fears ab the future ruin my friendships. i’ll always love them anyways. and we’ll always call. #i’m glad i met them. they’re all such beautiful and funny and amazing strong willed-people. they are my friends. #it’s just so crazy to me that they willingly want to spend time w me and are sad when i can’t. and they’re so understanding at the same time #they don’t get mad about it. and like they have mad eng last year in high school so much more enjoyable. #someone told me that this is ur last year do things so when you look back you don’t regret anything- so you can be proud of what you did #and my friends helped me with that. and like i still feel lonely the majority of the class because despite this there’s like a permanent #stain of sadness right there at the bottom of my heart. but they make the hard days more manageable. #like i’ve been on call with these people until ungodly hours at night just laughing and i go to sleep feeling a bit lighter. #they introduced me to the tech side of theater which i never thought i’d get into but here i am. they teach me silly facts and words in asl. #they taught me dances- knowing full well i SUCK at it- because we all had fun with it. theyve taught me it’s OKAY to be vulnerable in #friendships and that sometimes being open/yourself is quite literally the best thing you can do for your own soul and others. they’re cool #people really. really cool people

[wundrousarts]

if you're still taking requests, maybe archan, mahir, or francis? i love them all so much and they're very underrated. only if you want to! your art is the best part of the fandom.

I like doing requests as warmups or chances to experiment or etc. so you are always free to send them in and there’s a good chance I’ll get around to it eventually! Anyways, I just went ahead and drew them all lol 👍

I still need to figure out their designs further, but I think this is a good start… I don’t think I’ve ever properly drawn any of them. Every year around 9/19 I set out to draw a 919 lineup and it never ever happens, so I’m glad I could still share how I see them this way :)

#nevermoor #nevermoor fanart #archan tate #mahir ibrahim #francis fitzwilliam #asks #sorry for the low quality I’ve been drawing nevermoor stuff real tiny on a huge canvas so this is a screenshot lol #also I’ve been in a 3/4 angle heads phase lately bc I’ve been enjoying drawing chins / more varied shapes but also. I’ve gotta move on lol #anyways ever since I moved mogtober announcements to 9/19 I doubt I’ll ever draw a proper lineup for them for. awhile. #I have some heads from 2021 and I started a lineup in 2022 and I prob won’t get around to anything in 2023 so. who knows lol #the colors might be off bc I colored this late at night and forgot abt changing brightness and also the screenshot was weird so. idek. #it’s 1AM I’m going to sleep zzzzz. hope you enjoy! #also I didn’t consult any wikia pages or anything so ummm. who knows what their eye colors are. or hair colors even. I certainly don’t. #I just imagine archan as blonde bc the angel/cherub? comparisons and I imagine francis’ hair to be short and close to his head bc cooking #mahir is. idk if his hair has ever been described but I imagine it slightly long. not quite jack length but it’s also not short. #pretty similar lengths just I feel like jack’s hair would lean longer and he’d let it grow out slightly while mahir would get a trim sooner

[rosicheeks]

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#I JUST WANT MY OWN PLACE AND A FUR BABY #really really want a dog but I feel like a cat is more realistic for an apartment especially #anyway #just wondering #could rent ya know #go down a little bit please? #I’m so sick of studios being $1500+ and then they don’t even fucking include utilities half of the time #so who wants to get a place together? #I feel like life would be a whole lot easier if I had friends so I could just find a place with them but nooooooooooooooooooooo #tempted to look into loans but I have no clue how they work or where to even start #doubt I’d even get anything tbh #no credit cause my dad always told me credit cards are evil and like bro I get it but I also kinda need them so I can build credit????????? #idk idk idk I’m just grumpy #I’m sick of the life I’m living #I miss being able to chill and relax and do my hobbies…. don’t remember the last time I painted…. maybe a year now? #hopefully I’ll find a full time job that pays incredibly well and I’ll be able to get my own place and start living my life again #but until then I’m just kinda stuck #I feel trapped #I feel like I have no path and I’m just sitting in darkness #I’m sorry to anyone who has messaged or snapped me or reached out in any way - I’m struggling a lot right now #happy holidays and happy new year to anyone who sent me something as always I love you all and I appreciate all the support #I just feel numb and I don’t feel like rosie right now #been very very sex repulsed so that might be way I’ve been taking a break from here #like I want touch and I want love but the thought of sex or anything like that makes me want to throw up? idk it’s super weird #gotta get up in the morning and go to my nieces bday party - she’s turning 2! so you know what that means? #a whole bunch of other little screaming tots 🙃🙃🙃🙃 and a bunch of people I don’t know #wohoooooooooooo #gonna delete in a hot minute #so enjoy a Rosie post since I have been away for awhile #shut up rosie

[whimsicalwhespir]

HEY!! No idea if there’s many people who keep up with my stuff enough to notice but I haven’t been posting too much! This is because I’ve been focusing on an original story of mine called Iteration. I have a BOATLOAD of art for this story, enough to where I could post one piece every day for the next five months I’m not even joking LMAO

Anyway! I was curious about who would actually be interested in seeing this art and hearing the story! I’m a stickler for organization so I might make a separate page for Iteration alone but I’ll figure that out later lol. So! I have a silly little poll to find out what you’d like to see :D (I’ll obviously still post my fandom stuff whenever I make it)!

^^^ A little taste of Iteration! These are the two main characters, Chay (green) and Marden (blue)

#yo two posts in a row xD #I doubt I’ll get many votes but thank you sm for the ones who do! #I wanna make sure you guys like what I’m putting out if I’ll be sharing stuff about Iteration almost daily #I make a LOT of art for this story guys #I’ve just been nervous about posting it ig haha #Cause I love these characters a bunch!!! And I want to show them off to you in a way that’ll make you see the #-m in a similar light too :)! #I care them very much #also chay and marden arent lovers or anything #the hearts are there for another reason >:) #they are the brothers ever

[merevide]

you are going to LOVE person of interest. carter, shaw, and root are the best

omg i’m glad about that…idk if i cat sit and watch a show that’s over 4 seasons and not love it LOL (or not get emotionally invested) the women in the cast seem great

#be prepared for annoying updates bc i do that every time i watch a show… #i’ve had mutuals tell me that the ending of the show is !!!!! so to steer clear but idk anything about that #if i get sucked in and hate myself for watching it at the end. WELL. that’s mb atp but i doubt it #my text #asks #i’ll have funnnb i hope

[justasadboi]

Ya know the worst part of mental illness is that I don’t think I’ve ever been like actually happy. Like I’ve felt happiness but only like 75% because the other 25% knows that it’s just a fleeting moment that will just go away. And the more I live the more I wonder if I’ll ever reach that point or if I’ll always have that voice in my head telling me that this is just a fleeting moment and every happy moment is always followed by a negative one. Like I know I’m the problem but goddamn even on medicines and with therapy I’ve just never felt that full happiness and I’m just scared it’ll never happen and that it’s just my fault and I’ll always be this way. I don’t wanna be like this anymore but I just can’t even see a fucking future for myself anymore that doesn’t just have a sad ending. I’m trying so fucking hard but I just feel like cursed or fucking tainted. Like I’ve been touched by evil and I’ll never be anything other than fucking evil and vile and fucking mean. I don’t wanna fucking be like this anymore. I just can’t see a way out. I’ll never be clean and pure. I’ll always be tainted. Death is the only escape.

#bpd #I’m having a time rn #like I’m okay and I fucking know this is just stupid shit #I know the first step to being better is not punishing myself for my actions #but like I am hardcore #like self harm to the max and just denying myself my comfort objects #like I’m just a lazy depressed fuck why should I give myself things to feel better #I can’t help anyone I can’t even help myself #I just have a vivid vision of what’s gonna happen #and no matter how hard I tell myself I can change it I just feel like I can’t #this is just fucking dumb I know #but like if I didn’t get this shit out it’s gonna plague me #I already feel plagued #I genuinely feel like I was touched by evil at birth and I’ll never be anything better than the result of that #I’m just tainted disgusting gross and I doubt that’ll ever change

[venusiangguk]

if u had to describe the dilf series with a song or two which one would it be

🫂💗

#i think it really sums them up perfectly and it makes my heart ACHE #like age doesn’t mean anything #no one’s getting tired of the other #all the doubts are quieted by the LOVE #i’ll cry #this is not what i came here to answer but i’m listening to my fic songs n was reminded!! #let me get back to the what i intended 🚶🏻‍♀️ #anon #ask #stellanswers <3 #tao jk

[chromaji]

man i.

maybe i DO wanna try my hand at starting RSAoD after i finish OFB

#i’ll really have to see but at the least it’d be cool to look over stuff #to start i’d wanna look over the classes & designs. see what needs to change be added or removed #i mean i doubt anything will be removed lmao. a class could get revamped at the most #make more designs for each class. and then uh. get the full plot thought up