#i have no idea what am i doing anymore

[kaiserouo]

Well someone has to give it its driver updates, Gabriel

#driver design and development ft. gabriel #why do i keep making gabriel look like a tech nerd? #idk don't ask me #but come on they're robots they don't need just blood right??? #ramble time #i don't know what i am doing about that rendering and that's all i'm gonna say about this topic #i don't really play ultrakill anymore #apex + d2 take most of my playing time i simply don't play any other games #their idea list was never empty tho #i like their contrast i guess #they can have a lot of argument #that tends to make coming up dialogues easy #yeah #i don't know why i ramble this much #maybe just because i don't really have the chance per se #but i really seldom do ultrakill stuff now #ultrakill followers best time to unfollow starts now #ultrakill #ultrakill v1 #ultrakill gabriel #my art

[moongothic]

Many people have pointed out (in relation to Crocodad) how in Japanese the etymology of the word "wani" (crocodile) is a bit complicated to say the least and in mythology could mean a variety of things, including a shark, sea monster or a dragon

Which, of course, is quite an interesting coincidence. Crocodile does often get referred to as "wani" not just by Luffy but some other characters, and so it would be just a little funny if both of Luffy's dads were sorta kinda called dragons

There's also people pointing out how Zoro's mother was called "Tera", similar to terra (earth) and Sanji's mother was named Sora (sky). So if Luffy's birthing parent was named after a water-dwelling creature, well, it'd be cute and round out the monster trio's birthing parents in a funny way, since we'd have earth, sky and the sea

But what really is fucking me up about the whole wani-thing is the Myth of Toyotama-hime

So the TL:DR; of the myth is

The pregnant princess Toyotama came from the Ryuuguu Castle deep in the oceans onto land to give birth to her child, telling her husband that when she would give birth, she would revert back into her true form, requesting him to not look at her while she gave birth. But her husband could not keep that promise, so he peeked in on his wife, only to witness a giant wani giving birth. The sight of this horrified the husband so much he fled, while Toyotama princess was so hurt by what had happened that she returned to the sea, abandoning her child.

Indeed, this myth bringing up wani pregnancy is just. An interesting coincidence for Crocodad speculation

Of course, we know Oda borrows from mythology (fucking, Fishman Island's castle is literally the Ryuuguu Castle), so if Crocodad Real, it's genuinely plausible Oda could('ve) take(n) inspiration from that very myth

Thing about it is that though...

Like, if we're assuming Crocodile never fully realized he was trans until he got pregnant, then him transitioning either immidiately or as soon as he could after giving birth would make sense. Dude seeks out Iva-chan and gets the t-juice*, so on and so forth, but my question is like, would that have been before or after delivering the baby to Dragon (so he could then pass it onto Garp)

*(Or hell, maybe Iva-chan was there helping deliver the baby, helping Crocodile crack his own egg etc, maybe the secret Iva-chan is holding over Crocoboy's head isn't that they knew Crocodile is trans and could out them, but knowing Crocodile gave birth to god know whose child)

Because like

How did Dragon find out about his partner transitioning?

Did pre-T Crocodile tell him he was transitioning while handing over the baby? Or did he just leave without an explanation and allowed Dragon to just Take In The Change after it had happened whenever they saw each other again (if they ever did, for all we know he could've just walked away without talking to Dragon again and Dragon just found out either from Iva-chan directly or from seeing him on the news)

Or did Crocodile transition first and then deliver the baby to Dragon without any warning, again, just giving Dragon one hell pf a surprise

In any scenario, how did that even go down?

And we have to ask the sad question of... is Dragon a Bisexual King or not? And would Crocodile have been... afraid of Dragon's reaction? (This would've been a younger Crocodile mind you, who would literally have been just coming out of his shell, and that shit's scary man)

Because if Toyotama Princess is any indicator, this wani's relationship did not end well after her truth was revealed

Like, let's say Crocodile transitioned first and then showed up without warning as a man to Dragon to hand over the baby. Thing is, while we know VERY LITTLE about Dragon still, I can't imagine him being like violently transphobic or even lashing out at his partner when he'd come out. But I could imagine him being so shocked he'd be left utterly speechless.

And I'm not entirely sure which would be worse; Dragon outright but "kindly" telling Crocodile he's not into men and breaking the poor bastard's heart, or Bi!Dragon being too shocked to say anything, letting Crocodile to just jump to conclusions based on his reaction (and maybe then causing Dragon to jump into further conclusions (that Crocodile must actually be into women)), unintentionally causing a divorce out of sheer misunderstanding and literal lack of communication

And the sad part is, considdering Dragon is a very secretive man, who according to the Crocodad Theory can't even have told his partner his full name mind you... The miscommunication seems very plausible to me?? Does it not?

Or, maybe Crocodile delivered the baby to Dragon pre-T and told him he's going to Iva-chan without further explanation, jumping into conclusions, afraid to hear what Dragon would say. So he just leaves without explaining before Dragon gets to say a word. And Dragon just accepts it. Assuming he's the one getting dumped.

Either way, whatever might've happened can't have been good, can it

Also, considdering Garp is a fucking idiot (affectionate), and Luffy clearly inherited The Stupid from his grandfather, I would not be surprised if Dragon was also actually a bit of a himbo underneath that serious face he puts on (either that or Crocodile kept on smoking while pregnant)

Which could also turn what would otherwise be a tragic miscommunication into an absolute comedy if Crocodile and Dragon ever met again and the two realized that they're both idiots who jumped into conclusions and ruined their marriage by refusing to talk about their fucking feelings to each other. This is an absolute trainwreck of a family

But considdering the things Crocodile has done by this point*, would it ever even be possible for the two to reconcile?? Because, althought Dragon is pro-overthrowing corrupt governments especially if they're affiliated with the World Government, from what I can tell, he's still against unnececary violence (Vegapunk even comments that Dragon "hates war" in a flashback) and needless loss of life. And Crocodile caused just that.

*And I don't even mean the failed attempt at taking over Alabasta, I mean the drought Crocodile caused that caused countless people to starve to death and then caused the civil war which had already taken lives and permanently disabled people BEFORE the Strawhats ever even get to Alabasta. Like Crocodile's bomb may have been a dud but he still caused people to die for no reason, and I can't imagine Dragon being fine with that. But then again, Robin and other Baroque Works members also contributed to the loss of life and their sins have been neatly swept under the rug so IDK

And like. We don't know if Crocodile moonlighted as a Revolutionary for like 10+ years after Luffy was born and slowly went out of contact or if he just left immidiately. But theoretically, the two might not have even seen each other in like almost 20 years

That'd be a long time to carry a broken heart

How the fuck would you even heal from that

Also like

Crocodile did seem a little suicidal at Impel Down if I'm being honest

Like.

He had a dream of becoming Pirate King. But he lost to Whitebeard, and his dreams were ruined.

Dude had a master plan to take over a country that took him almost a decade to pull off, only for it to get wrecked in the final hour by a literal child.

His useless underlings then come and try to break him out of prison

And he chooses to stay

When we finally see his face for the first time in Impel Down... His mouth might be forming a smile, but those eyes aren't

And he even says it himself

"I didn't think there'd be anything for me to do if I were free"

Is it not like he has given up on life entirely..?

And sure, he does ask to be let out so he can get revenge on Whitebeard, but was it out of a genuine belief he could actually take down the old man or just a slightly more fun way to die than rotting away in prison for the next few decades?

You know the saying, "to be loved is to be changed"

Frankly, the same goes for the reverse. Being unloved, or believing yourself to be unloveable will change you. For the worse

#OP Meta #Crocodad #Sir Crocodile #I know I keep on saying I don't believe in Crocodad anymore and here I am back on my bullshit again #This asshole is the only thing keeping me from falling apart rn just please let me have this #I'm just so fucking intriqued by the storytelling potential here #Of what the fuck happened #If it's real #The tragedy could be absolutely devastating #Or you could have an insane One Piece slapstick reunion #I am extremely fond of the idea of The Disaster Family mind you #Because they could be so fucking funny (especially if you included Garp) (Holy shit can you fucking IMAGINE) #Like yes emotional reunion between Crocodile and Luffy yes sure #But please considder #Luffy somehow finding out and then demanding for an explanation from An Extremely Reluctant Crocodile #Who can't really do much because he doesn't have it in him to hurt his baby boy but also The Baby Boy is an unstoppable MENACE #The slapstick would be hysterical #Also I am pro-Bullying Crocodile #Moon posting #On a slightly less downer of a note to end on #While Crocodile might've given up on life before Marineford he certainly found a reason to live during/after Marineford #This was supposed to be a short post how did it turn into borderline fanfic

[willowser]

i have to say that i love yuuji itadori with all my heart and under better circumstances i would be soooooooo incredibly insane for him. but alas.

#number one i am afeared for what gege will do to him i dont TRUST HIM #number two i would genuinely go crazy over him so so crazy i love him with all my whole heart #number three which is sort of like number one but i just cant with jjk anymore like. you know what i mean LOL #✿ shut UP willow #nobody cares but i just have to get this off my chest #please he means so much to me you dont understand and under better circumstances i would write so much for him #i have such a lovely lovely long fic idea for him but #I CAAANTTTTT i dont trust gege #i will be DESTROYED #should anything ELSE happen to him #i have to distsnce myself or i will get hurt LMAOOOOOO #jjk leaks #jjk spoilers #just in case #vibrating over the twin reveal but i must control myself

[tagerrkix]

GHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

GHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#IT'S 3AM #HELP #I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING ANYMORE #BUT IM TRYING #TRYING TO GET HIS FACE TO LOOK RIGHT #BC I WAS DOING LIKE A REALLY COOL ART OF HIM AND THEN FUCKED UP THE FACE COMPLETELY SO I WAS LIKE ALRIGHT ITS PRACTICE TIME #SO HERE I AM #THIS WILL PROBABLY LOOK BETTER IN THE MORNING #(AT LEAST I HOPE SO) #NOT SAYING ITS UGLY JUST NOT SURE IF IT LOOKS R I G H T #DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN #DO I EVEN KNOW WHAT I MEAN #?????????????? #ALRIGHT TIME TO SLEEP #WHY DOES HE LOOK SO DIFFERENT EVERY TIME IM TRYING TO DRAW HIM LIKE YOU SEE WHO IT IS BUT SOMETHINGS OFF EVERY TIMEEE????? #ALRIGHT GOODNIGHT BECAUSE IF I SIT HERE ANY LONGER ITS GONNA BE GOOD MORNING SOON #astarion #baldur's gate 3 #bg3

[galvanizedfriend]

Fic Update: The Wolf III [19/21]

Summary: Months after their return to New Orleans, Klaus and Caroline try to settle into a semblance of normalcy, while Elijah struggles to forgive his brother's sins. But a mysterious prophecy that foretells the downfall of the Mikaelson family brings them all together in a war that will reopen ancient wounds and see each of the siblings doomed: one by friend, one by foe and one by family.

[It's The Originals Season 3, but Caroline had Klaus' baby, now she's a vampire and they are back in New Orleans after a stint in Mystic Falls. It's mostly about Klaroline, obviously.]

-- S03E19 Where Nothing Stays Buried ✨

In his 200 odd years on this Earth, most of which were spent soaked deep within the supernatural cauldron of New Orleans, Marcel Gerard can safely say he has seen everything.

He has witnessed magic in all of its glorious, beautiful, vicious, terrifying forms. He has seen myths rise and fall across the streets of the Crescent City. He has seen miracles, and he has seen curses. There are no mysteries in the unnatural world that can still surprise Marcel. Or that's what he thought. Because in all his years, he had never felt the French Quarter tremble. Not like that.

Sturdy, robust buildings that have withstood fires, floods and the test of magic and time start to shake as if they are made of twigs and straw. A cacophony of screams sounds like a roar as people swarm the streets in a mad rush, running from the unsteady constructions. No one seems to know exactly where to run to. Everything is shaking. It's like the city is suddenly at the epicenter of a seismic shift. Nowhere feels safe.

For a spine-chilling moment, with glass shattering all around, old wood screeching as it is dangerously pressured and bent by the quake, dust raining down upon his head, Marcel thinks - this is it. Judgement Day has come to settle scores with New Orleans. All those centuries of housing bloodsucking beasts and monsters of all species have finally caught up with the city, and they will all pay the price.

But the odd thing is... He can feel the quake, and yet it doesn't seem like it's coming from underneath him. It's not the earth that's shaking. More like shock waves, traveling through the air, reverberating like sound.

That's when it hits him. He doesn't need his witches to tell him there's nothing natural about that earthquake. He knows magic when he sees it; he knows it even better when he feels it. And a surge of power strong enough to shake New Orleans on its foundations can only have come from one source.

The goddamn Ancestors.

Whatever those assholes are up to, it's big and it's most certainly bad. And he has a feeling he knows exactly where he'll find the answer.

Read the full chapter here

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Very sorry about the delay, I did my best. 🥲✌️ Hope you guys enjoy it! And as always, if you do, I'd love to hear from you. ❣️

Your comments/reblogs/kudos are very welcome and feed my fic-writing soul. ✨

#klaroline #klaroline fanfiction #klaroline fic #klaus x caroline #kc fanfiction #kcfic #kc fandom #klaroline shippers club #The Originals rewriting #yokan writes #this chapter is 20k words long what am I even doing with my life #i have no idea how to post these updates anymore so here have this edit again

[jamiethebeeart]

Sketches

#shuichi iguchi #shigaraki tomura #spinaraki #these were 2 unrelated sletches but then my brain starting brewing some thoughts #mainly an au where spinner is sent in as a spy (for???? not the heroes lmao) to get into Shigaraki's confidence which of course means #wink wonk bedroom activities ANYWAY spinner catches feelings and doesnt really want to inform on Shigaraki anymore and is feeling conflicted #about what he should do and shigaraki knows something is up with his maybe boyfriend but not what and just :))) angst and split loyalties #amd feeling torn in two directions #(i sya not heroes but the only group with enough prescence is the mla but thats not really their m.o. either so???? idk what group would #have the reach/influence to feel threatened by some upstart kid in the villain world and manipulate a member into taking this espionage job) #anyways ive got so many au ideas and not enough time to write a fic or 12 lmao #like the research + planning + plot points + writing + editing + energy to pull it off.... im tempted to dabble in it all again tbh #im a year behind the manga tho and still havent watched the last season so idk where characters have ended up #and id rather not write anything until i catch up (idk maybe horikoshi has revealed some fun/character specific info?) #here i am talking on + on in the tags. anywho if anyone wants to write a fic based on any of my posts feel free bc i probably never will

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i’m gonna be so honest i have no fucking clue what's going on in malevolent

#bluebird.txt #yes i am completely caught up. arthur goes on so many side quests that k don't even remember what the main quest is. #separate them??? king in yellow something????? #ik larson has yellow in his head. ik he has something to do with the cult of the fallen star. or whatever it's called #i know the butcher was out to get him but that's not a problem anymore presumably #i know kayne. i know john has a secret deal with kayne. i know those ladies from the beginning of the podcast. anna and sara i think. #um. #yeah #idk #malevolent #i need to relisten i guess #idk sometimes it feels like i really have no idea what's going on in the larger picture and it just feels :/ #i do love the characters but the plot is kinda losing me personally bc it just goes on and i can't remember the connecty bits #makes me sad #i am looking forward to the xmas special though

[pikkish]

Yeah we've already talked about how outright stupid the lore n writing for modern Doom is, but tbh I can understand why they had to do something with Doomguy, why they had to make him The Specialest Boy instead of Just Some Guy. Do I like how they did it? No, I would've taken it a different direction. Do I think that hugo could've done it well even if he took it in the direction I would've? No, I have minimal faith in his story writing. But realistically, how many times can a guy singlehandedly accomplish the impossible before you have to acknowledge he's very much not Just Some Guy who happened to be at the right place at the right time? I think that, with how every single other person on the Phobos UAC base were killed in Doom I, doomguy stopped being Just Some Guy the moment he decided to do anything other than just lie down and die.

#pikspeak #im sure this is old news what with eternal being 4 years old now but. idk ive been thinking abt it. #i dont like the 'you were a chosen one from the very beginning!' trope too much #makes it feel a little like what the character actually does doesnt really have any significance #like if they were the chosen one who was going to win from the very beginning then why does it matter. #its the whole free will vs predestiny argument and. idk. i just think it could be done better. #no modern doomguy cannot be just some guy anymore but. it couldve been done a lot better. let him have been just a normal guy who had the #option to be normal and die but chose not to and through his own actions made himself significant #then again. maybe it wasnt the moment he didnt stay down that he became significant. i do like the idea of blazko having something to do #with it. i do like the idea of blazko having picked up the spear having something to do with it. #but still. 'youre actually a god and you were going to be this powerful Always' is just. not appealing. let him have some influence in his #own power. u dont even need to take the thing w the divinity machine out. just make him a separate entity from davoth instead of davoths #clone/destined counterpart. let dg make the decision to rise to davoths level instead of saying he was always there from the beginning. #sigh. i couldve written eternals story so much better. and yet. somehow i am still repeatedly drawn back to it. sighing smh.

[evening-art]

The neurodivergent urge to be a little silly.. A little cringefail perhaps.. I will say "yippee" and "bestie" and "okiedokie" unironically!! I will allow myself to enjoy things that are considered weird and/or childish!!! I will instill fear within my coworkers and make them hyperaware of their own mortality for funsies!!! I will do as many hand flappy stims as I want in public and no one can stop me!!!! No more masking I am breaking my chains here and now!!!!!!

#post.txt #no idea what prompted me to make this post but i just needed to get this down somewhere akdhdkshsk #i have work today and i always feel so drained before my shifts whether they're long or short. i wish existing wasn't so hard!!!! #i am too sillie for this.. #i am just a little guy i am not built for this stress!!! #i already have to deal with misgendering so by god i am going to be as openly neurodivergent as possible i do not care anymore!!!! #i am going to have fun!!!! #the misgendering is done by customers btw most of my coworkers are p good about using the right pronouns #the coworkers that aren't i typically just don't talk to a bunch so i don't blame em for forgetting or not knowing and idm too terribly #aoshdkdjdkakdj-- #i have some p good coworkers and i will be eternally grateful for this

[balkanballad]

had a day that made me think oh that was a bit heavy on the symbolism, wasn't it

#j. talks #went to visit my brother in his uni city and also connected it with an event there #I know this event because I went there once with a uni course that of course was with my fave former prof #so I know she's usually there but it's a bigger city and Friday and there are a lot of things at different locations #chances are not zero but I thought come on if anything it will be casual running into her #well as I was waiting with my brother and a whole crowd of people to be let in who do I hea #and see :))) yeah it's my fave prof. and I told my brother and he told me to go and say hi but there were so many people already talking to #her and also going there and saying hi so I simply couldn't. I literally froze our shoulders were nearly touching but she wasn't even facin #me and taking and I just followed my brother and he was like??? #what was that?? and I didn't know. and he asked my why I looked so shameful out of all the emotions I chose shame #and I don't know. I don't know why shame I consuming me no matter where I go. but she was busy and imagine I go up and she has no idea who #am anymore. they had to burry me right there and then. so that was that :) now #the name of that street of the location burned into my memory as I was facing the wall well it's the name of [redacted] who I never really #get over and it's been 10 years now soon. and we had a similar experience in December :) where I would have loved nothing more really than #to talk (in Decembar definitely also other things that I miss on some days very much) but I barely got a wave #so yeah :) I actually had a great day but I am more than overwhelmed. I feel like crying and hiding #taurus season is apparently not here to save me? idk #is this all about wasted potential and shame stopping me? maybe. but how the fuck do I get it out of me

[samarecharm]

So funny that i find myself w less and less new music to discover compared to what i was finding in my teen years, and i am like 98% sure its bc i havent watched frag videos or amvs in over a decade 😭

#chattin #like nearly 60% of my songs are from my ipod. #my IPOD #hundreds of songs i found from watching High Art from before 2012 #i have songs from last fm that literally do not exist ANYWHERE anymore. like i gotta make an effort to upload some of these for ppl #whereas most of my newly discovered songs are from artists i found prior to 2012 (and theyre still making music) #artists adjacent to THOSE artists #video game music #and artists related to that music #so im not like. exposed to completely mew and untethered music yanno? #mew……i meant NEW 😭 #that one insane uno video had a really REALLY good song and i have no idea if it was made for the video or if it exists on ytube or bandcamp #and i absolutely count that as an amv lmao #i think its bc i dont play games that would make for good frags anymore like ovw and halo #and i dont watch anime anymore so i havent tried to watch amvs #like. there was a really good mp100 one but i wasnt invested enough to look for more 😭 #maybe i should ask my sister for some jjk amvs….theres lots of fighting in that one right? i think that would help #u have no idea what people deem a good song for amvs and thats what makes them so fun; i love knowing what people listen to #oh i just realized; i think i am showing my age; do ppl even call it frags anymore??? #is it an amv or a fancam?? or something else…i also dont use tiktok so im unsure of the terms there too…

[sagittariangirl27]

Pisces new moon tonight. 🌑♓️🦇

#synchronicity #I thought about posting here but didn't really know what #.5 seconds later I scrolled past this #I wish there was a way for me to explain the magic of this world without sounding crazy #I need proof of everything and got dragged into spirituality kicking and screaming #I have always seen myself as more of a logical person than a creative #the last few years have literally been insanity #relearning everything that I ever knew about myself #pulling it all out and picking out the good pieces #there are things I miss about myself so much #and I am grateful to get those parts back while shedding the things that never felt authentic #I have been meeting myself again a lot lately #the craziest thing to me is how fast the years fly by #i don't sleep anymore #I was doing well with that for a while #but I know all of the work I am doing will mean so much #I basically got put in speed mode in my healing journey #it's crazy to look back only months ago and feel like a whole new human being #the moral of the story is I have no idea what I am doing or what is going on #but something is guiding me #and it is the scariest coolest weirdest most terrifying thing #that's the hardest part to keep inside I think #I have to figure out what to do with all of this knowledge #and I still have no fucking idea #it's going to slap me in the face because that's how they do this shit #and then I will be like omg my whole life makes sense #this has happened more times than I can count #a lot of people wonder how the spiritual people suffer so much if they have all of this knowledge #how the fuck do you think we got that? #I have been to hell and back more times than I can count

[garbage--account]

IE villains's motivations through the games/seasons :

Franck Wintersea : "I am just a coward who fear for his life. I didn't wanted to be involved into those soccer shits in the first place"

Ray Dark : "soccer brought shame on my father and me by proxy. I grew bitter about it, and now i am evil"

Astram Schiller : "I'm blinded by the sadness of loss of my son, killed by someone unknown that wasn't punished for this therefore. The world must suffer for this injustice"

Wyles : "I am an opportunist. I saw I could become powerful while my boss was falling, I didn't hesitate seizing it"

Zoolan Rice : "your misery increases my money"

5th sector : "our goal is to establish communism into middleschool soccer, so that every child can taste success at least once"

Protocol Omega : "by erasing soccer through History, we prevent the existence of the most powerful terrorist organization in our time"

Nugen : "we didn't chose to be mutants with superpower, the adults chose to treat us like monsters"

Ixal Fleet : "Faram Orbius destroyed our planet. We want reperation"

Scale of Ares guy (i forgot his name) : "i plan to make some gifted children the ultimate supersoldiers at my command"

Orion Foundation : "we are a philanthropic organization that only longs to make the world a better place. But in the process, some evil will be necessary"

#Inazuma Eleven #IE villains #Or rather #What i understood of them #(I didn't watch IE since a while and didn't watch Go at all but i have a general idea of what it's about) #(Don't hesitate to correct me of i am wrong) #Starting the Go era I am not naming one guy in particular anymore but corporate #while writing this #I realized that in OG era had more egoist and personal motivations #While in GO era the evil is done collectively by a group of people in a hive #They also hide more behind a altruist goal #so either people in those organizations feels like they are doing good and don't think themselves as evil #Or they are just looking for justice to be given to them #They are some characters in those who come to mind easily #But they are only doing evil in the name of whatever they are working for #I just wanted to point out this difference is interesting #I am not saying the GO villains are better than OG's or that OG's are more iconic #I just wanna show they are written differently #Post i wrote in the middle of the night instead of sleeping #Abuse of tags

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[trlvsn]

studying psychology literally does nothing for your understanding of yourself btw. you just end up with better knowledge of excel

#going to rant in the tags a little because maybe someone has the same experience #like. i am aromatic. and probably asexual. sometimes i feel like i might be in love with a person because i start craving company with them #but when i think about any romantic or intimate touch i start dissasotiating and get really weirdly sad and unenthusiastic about the idea #apathetic even. it's like i want something i can't describe or even get realistically #and my own relationship with touch is also really weird #i remember when i was an early teen i would deprive myself of touch in times of stress #if i was crying or something i would sit and spread my limbs so that they weren't touching each other bc i didn't feel deserving #of the comfort #and like!!! wtf!!!! nothing ever happened to me to cause that. did it #i'm literally just a normal girl #why am i like this and what is wrong with me. why can't i love normal why is it always an obsession and a game #why do i get interested and then when i finally understand the person i'm not anymore. people aren't rubix cubes but my heart thinks them so #sigh. please can i have one normal relationship with a person. one good friend #anyways LOL bye

[diseaseriddencube]

girls literally only want one thing and it's fucking disgusting

[life size replica of Courier's bike]

#akudama drive #< i don't think my posts are showing up in the tag anymore actually..... #now that they finished all showings. do you think they destroyed the bike or is it just Out In The World Somewhere #anyways I just finished watching the play #i'm literally the only one who has the disk but i'm like the last person to have watched it #and it's like. exactly what i expected. which is to say it's good #i have no fucking clue what anyone was saying but the ending was so sweet #like Kurosawa just seems so genuine she was literally sobbing at the end #and holy shit i remember complaining that Honda said all his lines really quick #well his normal speaking voice is like: hiimplayingcutthroat 'n mynameishondareothankyouforcoming #but I do appreciate how he puts in so much in-character energy even when he's just in the background #and all the undertones of the bond between the actors 🥺 like Master and Courier's actors seemed to get along really well #i find it strange that they sort of removed Boss from it #like she shows up twice as a disembodied voice (i think it's her actual VA too) and that's it???? #where's Sniper's actor lurking in the background >:( #rave ramblees #am i happy about the near $200 i spent on this? no #am i happy that I have it and it's properly archived forever? yes absolutely #i couldn't stand the idea that the play would only exist in the memories of whoever saw it #and the few who owned the disks but didn't rip it. leaving it vulnerable to destruction via scratches/degradation #the chinese uploader on bilibili definitely had a rip of it though so it's fucking annoying that they only released a few minutes of it