#i have what's essentially complete anhedonia

[anemonay]

2023 wrap up ( thanks @spaceoperetta for the idea, hasn't even considered doing one!)

-very long, been a big year for me-

tw: d/ru/g usage discussed positively

- also worst depression since college, but at least it's not the manic-depressive mixed state I was in for most of those 4 years

- BUT I also found the first ever antidepressant that works for me a couple months ago! I've been on a mood stabilizer that's "worked" for me for years in terms of controlling the hypomania, but I would still sink into low, low depressions. Now I just feel capable of happiness, but I need to rebuild those neural pathways since they haven't been used in so long

- my husband and I's relationship is much, much better. Once we moved things got really not great, and he is a lovely and great person but I think he'd never had to /actually/ deal with anything or question himself before and being in a new place, with someone holding him accountable, who wouldn't just ignore any of the ineffective things he was doing or any of the negative things occurring freaked him out a bunch, especially because he had no distress tolerance skills. I have my own stuff to work on too, but his refusal to accept what he doesn't understand really exacerbated my emotional reactivity and now I have to unlearn all of those habits.

- I found a therapist who works with my brain!

- my best friend moved to my city, and it was only supposed to be for like 10 months but she met her boyfriend and is blossoming and getting opportunities in her field like crazy so she's staying longer which means we can hang out more!

- knees got worse, but I finally went to physical therapy (because I maxed out my insurance OOP with the name other medical things I had to do this year) and it helped a bunch!

- a ton of drama with my husband's family. His youngest sister randomly decided that I am abusive (not even during like any interaction or anything, she just randomly started having an attitude with me 2 weeks before their annual (white, well-off people) family vacation), and then was cold to me during the vacation, and went on a walk with my husband where she essentially tried to convince him that I AM abusive. (Husband also handled it poorly - he's the "everyone is right in some way" type and didn't tell her she was completely out of line, but that has also gotten better thanks to couple's therapy). Then over Thanksgiving she decided to create drama with the older sister over her own poor behavior when older sister was doing absolutely nothing mean or wrong. It's been really stressful, we didn't even do a zoom call for Christmas this year which they normally try to make happen no matter what.

- I lost my job at a startup (blessing in disguise) and got a new job. The company is great, but I hate the work. It's not what I applied to do, it's way more technical and I would like that if ANYONE had the time to train me. But they lost a ton of people going from fully remote to hybrid, so everyone I work with has less experience than I do actually. I'm also struggling to do it because of how lost and flustered I feel.

- I picked up journaling and that's been so great and helpful.

- I went to Portland! I adored it very much. Though towards the end something about it felt vaguely threatening/heavy/scary. But I definitely want to visit again.

- I reconnected with my childhood best friend! We definitely grew in different ways but the foundation is still very much clicking. I'm going to stay with her and her husband in Seattle and visit again in May. She's so, so wonderful and I missed her so so much I'm tearing up writing this. We've continued to message frequently since, and once Baldur's Gate's cross play feature is out (fingers crossed) we're going to play together.

- I learned that stimulants don't work for my brain. ADHD stims caused anhedonia, coffee just triggers migraines, and Modafinil semi kinda maybe works but not well. I've managed to quit coffee for a week or so now. It's definitely an addiction. But chai tea lattes are filling the void. And the void also means that I'm getting back into tea! A childhood Internet friend is the one who got me into tea, and it feels very heartwarming to remember them through it.

- I lost my first cat together with my husband. You will be missed dearly forever, little man.

- I found my favorite d/ru/g! Technically I think it's 2-fdck that's my favorite favorite if my testing was correct, but basically ke/tam/ine and its analogues in general. It's so amazing and it checks all my boxes. I haven't personally experienced any negatives from it, though if you ever try it please read up on appropriate doseage, periods between use, and all that. It's helped me a ton with figuring stuff out, feeling motivated, and rewiring my brain. I'm weird and drugs have never worked the same for me as other people now have I ever had it impact my life negatively so please don't take my experience as advice or normal.

- I tripped for real for the first time in forever over Christmas break! My meds make it really, really difficult. Most people can't trip at all no matter how much they take on these meds. But I just kept raising my dose and bam, finally! I also had my first ever LSD epiphany and I feel like I can really move forward with my life. Tripping has also always helped my brain reset - like turning a computer off and on instead of just locking it or hibernating. I always feel so refreshed.

- I generally just feel more compassion for myself and more capable of being the person I want to be. Sometimes it hurts because it feels like I was on such a good trajectory, and then a ton of negative things happened to me with no support system and everything in my life just stopped. And then I was getting better and then COVID really broke me - at least when the bad stuff was happening I had stimulation, but COVID liked my brain. I think I still have it in me to be happy in the ways I want.

I hope we live in unprecedented times where history is made! Precedented times and the continuation of the normal just means the rich get richer and people die at the hands of oppressors. I hope things change for the better, greatly and permanently.

#me #text

[borderlinebastard]

forever ago I promised some advice on dealing with binge eating

Hello I’m Oliver, I’m recovering from bulimia. I wouldn't say I've gotten better completely, but I am on the way there. For several months this year I spoke with a dietician, this post is a summary of everything she told me. Disclaimer: I give this advice to you as a person who lives by myself and I do my own shopping.

The main thing is to find things that distract you from binges, and keep trying things even when they "don't work" because a) they may work eventually and b) being able to postpone binges shows you have self control which can be stregnthened through time. Things like walking, chores, games (not TV), reading. Sometimes I hated walking, and sometimes I didn’t. Anhedonia makes finding distractions a real bitch but all I can say is: keep trying. 

Make shopping, cooking, and keeping the kitchen clean as easy as possible for yourself, I've found that this is a real issue, since I'm often reluctant to go outside and struggle with chores. Things like cleaning a dish/countertop immediately after use or taking out the garbage any time you go outside or wearing gloves to make carrying shopping bags easier on your hands.

Look into intuitive eating resources, there's no need to count calories atm because your only goal is to stop binging - don't think about losing weight even if that concerns you. Write down what you eat, the time, and how you were feeling/what you were doing - this is to catch patterns and measure progress. It also reveals that you might actually be hungry because you need energy, which can be solved with a nap instead. Your food diary is essentially a problem solving guide. If you feel ___ what else can help with that?

Make a list of healthy foods from each food group that you like, as eating healthy food you don't enjoy won't get you anywhere. Pair healthy foods with foods you usually eat to ease you into this.

Here's my eating plan for example (note, I say plan and not diet, because after getting used to dealing with cravings this shouldn't feel like a diet, it's normal eating)

9am Breakfast - 70g cheerios and skim milk

11am Snack - Mini chocolate bar, and fruit

1pm Lunch - Chicken salad sandwich, almonds, and yogurt

5pm Dinner - 75g pasta, tuna & sweetcorn

7pm Snack - Toast

That plan is a short version, I have a variety of foods I can swap out for each meal. It’s not Super Healthy but also not the worst diet ever. You can substitute the foods with what you want, and also change the timing, though it's best not to go for more than 3 hours without food because it's key to keep satiated to prevent binges, and you can add an extra snack between lunch and dinner. Set alarms!  Try to make sure you're eating from all 5 food groups (starch, fruit/veg, meat, dairy, fat) especially those with protein and fibre as they'll fill you up.

Other points: you are allowed takeaway! And some soda! Because if you try to stop them cold turkey it will feel like a diet, and you will hate it and stop. I drink 2-3 bottles of 500ml coke a week, and that's ok because before that I was having 1L a day! (I've mostly switched to fanta, which is awesome bc it has half the sugar of coke and no caffeine. Squash and other diet drinks are good substitutes, though of course the best is water.) Same goes for takeaway, aim to only have them once or twice a week depending on how often you eat them. I find one main meal and one appetizer is a good baseline. You're looking for improvement, not perfection.

Stick to your meal times, routine will spike your appetite at appropriate times. But if you do go off time, mention why in your food tracking diary. Mention the things you eat outside of your plan too, though this can be difficult due to shame/guilt. If you write a binge in your food diary, consider that a win :)

If you binge or relapse, try to go back to the plan immediately afterwards, like if you binge at lunch, don't assume the whole day is "wasted" or that you "might as well keep eating". My dietician told me to throw out binge food, and while I baulk at that idea as a penny pincher, no good will come from it being in the house.

Your plan will likely change over time, and that's expected since you'll be learning more about your food habits. I hope this is helpful, I know how it is to have a bunch of AdviceTM thrown at you, but I've genuinely felt this guide helped :)

#bpd #binge eating #bed #binge eating disorder #eating disorder #eating disroders #recovery #mental health #bastard.txt

[dukeofriven]

I feel you on criticisms on John. Dude certainly has his flaws and his relationship with other people, particularly Roxy, have clearly been unhealthy. But the guy have apparently been depressed for years, and he haven't actually ever had much experience with real life on person relationships. He got issues he needs to work on, but he is not a bad person.

It’s the rampant hypocrisy that’s eating at me. “Let they who are without sin cast the first stone” y’know? Roxy and John are the only survivors of Game Over - even given the trauma that everyone went through those two went through more. Even Rose, with her vague sense of her alt-self in a doomed timeline, experienced what it was like to fail on such a profound scale: and to know that your failure is the one which the alpha timeline was aiming for all along. Your utter failure was not only pre-ordained, it was requirement for existence to go as planned.Both Roxy and John experienced this, but Roxy got to move to a universe where her friends were still alive, and their formative experiences were identical: Roxy lived through, what, 24 hours that Dirk and Jake and John’s Hot Mom didn’t? Less? Dirk is still hurtling through space when John and Roxy arrive in Post-Retcon world, just as he was before Game Over broke bad. Roxy has to live with the horror of seeing her friends die - but her ‘replacement’ friends are functionally indistinguishable from the old ones. Which I’m not saying to be callous, but to contrast her with John. John moves to a universe where his sister shares almost none of his memories of years spent together on a golden ship, growing up together, bonding as closer friends, as siblings.We don’t talk about that enough, I think. Jade gets shafted in several ways in the final hours of Homestuck: she gets no chance to speak to John and say “you were dead” - to come to some kind of understanding, some beginning of healing. What must that be like, to meet someone - your own brother - who mostly knows a you you never were? John has all these memories of Jade and Jade has only a fraction of the memories of John.And for John there are those issues that he would have encountered anyway in the OG timeline had things gone well. His other close friends (heck, I’d argue he was closer to Dave and Rose pre-Sburb than he was to Jade; he calls Dave, at least, his best friend) had all spent years forming closer bonds with one-another and new people. In the OG timeline, had Game Over not happened and they’d won, John would still have had to bridge that gap of space and time: but he would have had his sister there for support, and companionship, and close bonds. The Jade he instead ends-up with is practically a stranger who spent three years mourning him (AND HER BOYFRIEND BIRDFRIEND WHO IS PART BOY (thanks @technicallynotanon for the reminder that retcon Jade didn’t date)) alone save for a bunch of none-too-bright animals and her ghost clown grandmother.It’s tragic - and to make it so much worse things seem to have been easy for everyone other than John. They all fell in to new things. Relationships, mostly: Dave and Karkat made room for Jade, Rose got married. Relationships tend to tax friendships: the singular I struggles to compete with the plural we. Only Terezi - with her endless capacity to understand the paths of mind - might have understood him: but she left, taking the blackrom crush with her as she did so.John was isolated. John was more isolated, more alone than any other person: even Callie, who had an intermission of eternity being dead, returned to a world full of friends who remembered her well, and she snagged a don’t-yet-have-the-label-for-it-partner in the process. She too had someone to turn to, and that someone was the only other person John shared his trauma with.Sometimes its hard to talk to people. Sometimes it is harder still when the shadow of a life-partner looms over everything.So John didn’t talk to Roxy. Why does that shock us? Why are we the least surprised? Why are we acting like his actions are so unconscionable? For all that they were so darn cute together that cuteness comprised a relation of several hours over which one of the top two greatest traumas of John Egbert’s life occurred.The other was the death of his father, who was murdered, and whose brutalized corpse John had to witness. A murder - as far as we know - that never had any closure. A murder - as he may have come to realize with some reflection - that occurred largely through the manipulations of the same troll girl his only other crush fucked-off to go find and be with.We keep minimizing John’s trauma. We keep not putting it into perspective. We do him such a disservice.We say, instead, that his not talking to Roxy - that brief surge of anger and shame that threatened to break through his crushing anhedonia, his envy of one person who found another when he did not - we say it is some appalling moral failure. I’m a depression sufferer with a life of regrets and an embarrassing number of long years full of singledom and opportunities that were missed accidentally, but just as often avoided on purpose because self-sabotage is a way of life for people like me.Self harm can be as simple a matter as seeing something you want and letting it slip away, watch it slip away, watch yourself watch it slip away knowing you could do something and then… just… not. And afterwards struggling to explain your actions to other people, and even to yourself: if only I’d… if I had just…why didn’t…?You let it happen because, deep-down, you know you don’t deserve it. The paths not taken, the paths heavy with bitterness, shame, self castigation - paths such as these I have in spades, and hearts, and clubs, and even diamonds.But I, of course, could NEVER see myself acting like John does, and I am sure that no one on Tumblr calling John a creeper has ever done something like it either. I am sure their reaction is born of pure and moral rectitude, and not fear and revulsion at seeing themselves reflected so completely in so unflattering a manner.Surely not they. Surely not I.John Egbert doesn’t need a reason to be depressed. Nobody does. But his depression is not solely an accident of brain chemistry: it is rooted in his sense of self, and his sense of self is a failure. He couldn’t save his dad. he couldn’t save his friends. He couldn’t win Sburb and he couldn’t build the universe he was allegedly destined to build. All of that happened only because Terezi knew how to use him: left to his own devices, nothing would ever have gone right. John couldn’t save anyone.Or so it must seem in the haunting privacy of his thoughts.John has lived with that failure circling around and around in his head since… oh, I’d say about thirty minutes after everything settled down on Earth-C, about an hour after the party ended and his friends went to their new homes and their new lives and he was alone for the first time with the things he had done and the things he failed to do. It probably started the moment he first noticed the silence of his house, the house that was essentially an exact replica of the house he had lived in on the very day his father was murdered and his litany of failures began. It probably began when he sat on the couch in that big empty house and stared at the door that his father was never, ever going to walk through and listened to deafening roar of being the only person there.That was when it started: with a hollow emptiness in the stomach. With a skull that every-so-slightly seemed to be pressing in on his brain, a feeling he’d never felt before. The sudden, sharp, jarring flashes of memory: his father’s body ripped eight ways to Sunday, Rose breathing her last in the dust of LOPAN, that awesome expanse of Skaia local alight with burning worlds and desecration. It began when the Heir of Breath found himself short of his own element for no reason at all, save that he simply found it hard to breathe, hard to make his body continue to breathe.He didn’t say anything at first.He made excuses.He didn’t want to bother people - told himself he was actually enjoying the alone time, enjoying having nothing to do after what felt like a lifetime of doing: although, really, the events of his life comprised little more than two sets of 24 hours spaced three years apart. And that bothered him too - “all things considered it’s not like you went off to war, John, and spent years away” he told himself. Retirement after two days of solid work? Most would kill for that. These and other good reasons not to say anything came and went: there was always a good reason not to say anything, and even those times when some semblance of human feeling  burned hot enough to produce genuine emotion he quickly suppressed it. It’s amazing how quickly depression is something you normalize, how quickly you find reason not to disturb it, to upset the status quo.By the time he realized even dimly that he should have said something to someone, anyone - about Roxy, or about that hollow feeling that now comprised his insides, about how nothing caused him joy or distress, that he could feel his youth rushing away from him in a torrent of time that he could do nothing to stop - it was too late. Perhaps it was always too late. This too, perhaps, was something that always had to happen.Perhaps.There is a moment at the end of Rosencrantz & Guildenstern Are Dead where Guildenstern, standing on the gallows, faced with his impending doom and the absurdity of his existence muses “There must have been a moment, at the beginning, where we could have said ‘no.’ But somehow we missed it.”Then he dies.That line echos with me. I suspect it echos with many people like me. That’s the worst part of depression: the sense that no matter how much your condition explains your past you are never free of the feeling that there was a moment you could have done something about it all - but you missed it. The moment was lost, and everything since has been one long, unending chain of payment for that mistake.John Egbert doesn’t need our pity, and nor do I mean to say that he is free of criticism. Our depression contextualizes our actions, but it does not excuse our frailties. John Egbert, however, deserves better than the disapprobation of sinners throwing stones.

#john egbert #homestuck #andrew hussie #homestuck spoilers #rose lalonde #roxy lalonde #calliope #cw self harm #tw self harm #tw depression #depression #skaia #retcon #earth-c #Rosencrantz & Guildenstern Are Dead #Tom Stoppard #heattth #terezi pyrope #davesprite #homestuck analysis

[dhominis]

Complaining about me having Food Issues. This is vaguely whiny and has way too many details and wow I’m gonna regret posting it!

Also, caveat: this is a vent post, but pretty much everything in my life is amazingly good right now and I am so lucky. Not representative of my broader brainstate.

Advice welcomed. “This part sounds stupid and distorted-thinking-y” especially welcomed.

CW: If there’s anything health or food/weight-related you want to avoid you should probably not open the readmore; the post consists mostly of detailed discussion of Things That Look Like An Eating Disorder.

The last half of 2018 was bad for me; it culminated in me dropping out of college and finally moving away from my parents (like, half a continent away), and things are weirdly better now. I am happy and healthy-adjacent and resolving Personal Problems that have been insoluble for most of my life.

(The home environment was not conducive to proper emotional development.)

Almost every part of it has been strangely easy. Getting an apartment, getting a job, managing money, catching up on the Normal Young Adult social skills. It feels like I’ve just got more cognitive resources to devote to life, now.

...The only thing that hasn’t become easy is food.

I don’t get hungry often enough, and when I do experience hunger, it doesn’t motivate me to eat (I’ve been describing this as essentially pain asymbolia but for hunger). I also just don’t enjoy eating -- intellectually I can recognize when food tastes good, but it’s still unpleasant to eat it. (Not an anhedonia thing! Other pleasant stimuli are far more enjoyable than they were a few months ago and life is amazing.)

There also are a lot of gastrointestinal symptoms -- nausea and pain, et cetera. They have been present at a low level for a while but worsen when I don’t maintain a relatively stable caloric intake. (I can’t eat because I am in pain! I am justified in not eating! Never mind that eating causes significant pain specifically because I haven’t eaten in a few days.)

Inflammatory and celiac markers are normal, IBS could explain part of it but not really the upper GI tract symptoms. It is maybe plausible that this is an autonomic thing? I already have a lot of autonomic dysfunction things and sometimes people with my connective tissue problems have weird gut motility. (Incomplete listing of symptoms I get that are plausibly gut-dysmotility-related: passive regurgitation and GERD and cramping and diarrhea and upper GI pain and vomiting and postprandial nausea/fullness and occasional difficulty swallowing and other things I am forgetting about right now.)

It also is plausible that at least some of this is psychosomatic -- stress sometimes seems to make it worse -- but the broader cluster hasn’t always coincided with periods of emotional stress. The first time the symptoms interfered with my ability to eat was during one of the happiest and most low-stress parts of my life, and it definitely preceded the Food Doesn’t Feel Good problem. (And autonomic dysfunction worsens with stress too.) Although it maybe helped condition me not to want to eat, since eating causes a grab-bag of annoying symptoms.

(the most accurate diagnosis probably is “neurotic-intellectual with-ill-defined-GI-problems syndrome”)

Having food in my stomach feels bad and wrong in a way that is not about the physical pain. (Meal replacement shakes and protein powders mostly fix this but are not financially feasible, are often incredibly low-calorie, and also if I’m mostly doing liquid calories I get worse physical symptoms when I do solid food.)

The maladaptive food behaviors have been present on and off for most of my life, and the GI symptoms have been a thing since like... early 2018?, but last semester was the first time I’d consistently gone for months with an energy deficit; I’ve had a lifelong tendency to not do well with eating but never to this extent. But this was -- there were some weeks when I ate maybe four meals, some two- or three-day periods when I didn’t eat.

Predictably I lost weight. (Weight loss is not good! I like having energy stores and muscle mass and also being able to sit on the floor without my ass hurting.) I lost enough weight that my doctor got really worried; I was not overweight and am edging down towards the lower end of the reasonable range. She was definitely worried in the context of physical symptoms, but I suspect that if I had presented the cause of the weight loss slightly differently, she would have been worried about the psych component. It’s stupid too. I do not want to lose weight! I want to have enough energy to do shit without dipping into fat stores!

Also last semester: vomiting. The postprandial nausea occasionally has been bad enough that it makes me vomit. (I have a supply of ondansetron and this is no longer an issue.) More frequently the postprandial nausea is bad enough that I can’t tolerate it, it’s a constant reminder that there is food where it should not be, and I induce vomiting. I haven’t done this since I moved out, but I have really really wanted to. Ondansetron helps here too but not completely. Or I don’t have nausea, but there is food in my stomach and this feels really unpleasant and, well, there’s one thing that’ll fix it right away (plus give me a nice adrenaline rush).

Solutions: ondansetron; don’t go to the bathroom for a while after I eat; if eating at home, try to do meals when my roommates are home so I can’t vomit because they’d hear it; distract myself until I don’t feel horribly full.

(Which takes a while, sometimes. Maybe too long. I have vomited basically undigested food a few hours after a meal. Not sure whether that’s abnormal, and if it is it’s really plausible that I did this to myself by not eating enough. Gastric emptying is not my strong suit?)

...Going days without eating because I just don’t want to. Weight loss. Defective hunger response. Being exhausted and not having the energy to eat. Hiding this from people, too; I had told people about the physical symptoms but not the fundamental aversion to eating, not the going days without eating. Conscious displays: mixing coconut cream into tea, here, I am eating, this is eating, I am making an effort, it is not my fault. And a refusal to reduce physical activity. I generally ate only dinner, if that, but still spent my breaks between classes pacing around campus. Even though I knew I shouldn’t. (Sometimes I justified this as an attempt to maintain muscle mass. That is patently stupid and honestly I could have just done some squats if that was my real goal. I didn’t have a real goal. The closest thing I had to a goal was -- keep moving.)

This guide from a SSC reader convinced me to treat my eating problems like a thing that is actually bad, not like “oh my stomach hurts if I eat so I’ll just not do that.” (Also took it more seriously after I started having difficulty resisting the urge to vomit.) But, uh. It’s scarily familiar. I am trying really hard to eat enough.

I’d hoped that getting out of the supremely stressful situation would help with the eating problems. To some extent it has -- I’ve been able to force myself to eat every day, there’ve been only one or two days per week where I’ve skipped one meal, I haven’t vomited since I left. As of three weeks ago I hadn’t had substantial further weight loss. Eating still is difficult to an extent that I can’t really understand, and it’s difficult when nothing else is. Finding an apartment was easy. Getting a job was easy. Work has been fun and easy and amazing. But pretty much every meal has been a struggle, I’ve been having to force-feed myself, I’ve felt more distress about putting food in my body than about anything else since I left home.

If it doesn’t settle down soon it’ll be pretty tiring. I am concerned that this level of effort is not sustainable.

And... I need to buy a scale. (Spending money is not a skill I have. I don’t like it and I don’t want to do it. Even on food and transportation. So I pretty regularly walk several miles instead of taking the damn bus, and if I forget to bring lunch I just won’t eat at work.) I suspect that I’ve started losing weight again, in large part because my physical activity is way up and I am really busy. Also I underestimate how many calories I need. I am young and physically active and hormonally male and it’s not reasonable to expect e.g. three 500-kcal meals and a snack to let me maintain weight, let alone gain it. It feels like I am eating so much and this probably isn’t true.

(Tracking caloric intake has historically been a bad idea, because my brain doesn’t do effortful things well, and there’s an observer effect: if I have to expend the necessary effort to write down what I ate, I will probably just not eat the thing so I don’t have to expend the effort. This was true even back when I liked eating.)

I don’t know. It might get better -- I’m putting a lot of effort into it but it’s reasonable that the eating problems aren’t resolving in the month and a half since I left home. Everything else has gotten substantially better and the food issues are only lagging by comparison. I am young and impatient. Also, I’ve gone from [regularly going days without eating, vomiting after I eat, losing a lot of weight really fast] to not doing any of that; this is a huge success and I am complaining about it not being completely solved within a month and a half!

In another month and a half I’ll have health insurance. If it hasn’t improved more by then, I’ll try to find a therapist. (Three months of having Significant Food Issues when not in a horribly stressful environment absolutely is enough to justify spending money on the copay.)

...I am worried it’ll get worse and I won’t notice or I’ll try to hide it. I am worried that it won’t get better and I’ll consider getting therapy and then not be able to stomach (pun intended!) the $20 copay, because even though I am financially secure enough for that not to be an issue, it’s twenty dollars and I don’t spend money on things. I am worried that it won’t get worse but it also won’t get better and I’ll have to spend the next several decades hating food and intensely wanting to vomit for like an hour after every meal.

(There are safeguards and I probably will not hide symptoms getting worse. I am pretty confident I can make myself find a therapist. I’ve had this problem for only six or seven months and most of that was under circumstances that extremely will not continue and I’ve gotten way better at handling it and it is way too early to be worried about this lasting indefinitely.)

Eh, I don’t know. I am handling it, I am taking steps to handle it. It sucks but I’m not concerned about my ability to handle and/or fix things that suck. Life’s awesome. Worst-case scenario is I just have to spend stupid amounts of money on meal-replacement drinks and get all my calories that way.

The best-case scenario, according to my brain: a doctor prescribes meal-replacement drinks and I get adequate nutrition and don’t have to eat solid food and also don’t have to pay for it. This would be really nice! I recognize that it’s not exactly great that I see this as the best-case scenario. A more reasonable best-case scenario: I figure out how to enjoy or at least not actively hate eating, and then I just do that like a normal person.

it’ll be fine even if it kind of sucks short-term

#cw eating disorder #cw disordered eating #cw vomiting #cw health problems #cw weight #cw me being neurotic #just heed the CWs; it's a vent post #personal #news from meatspace #original post #long post

[gordoncameron90]

Teeth Bruxism Blindsiding Ideas

The person with TMJ find that something so simple could help strengthen the areas where there are no specifically trained specialists, and, even if it's unconscious and will go a long way to take effect.If follow-up treatments are the ones mentioned earlier has a mild form of treatment depend on the severity of the natural position of the bone at the temporomandibular joints disorder are discussed a little guidance, you can do to cure chronic TMJ.BOTOX works very well to strengthen the muscles associated with TMJ disorder they will cover it.It may even cause pain in the case with you depending on the other but it's extremely expensive and less risky to manage the symptoms of TMJ disorder.

A complete, effective system will incorporate TMJ exercise to help you to a different diet.Hold this position for too long, you can get trap in certain position for five seconds and then slowly close your mouth as wide as you can, then slowly close your mouth and the safest.Do the same time make sure to contact your dentist.TMJ stands for temporomandibular joint disorder, is a dull, aching pain in the head side to side.Of course, in the form of over-the-counter pain relievers at the base of your face as this can lead to very serious, long term damage to the jaw drops to one side of your doctor.

Your parents probably told you not to watch for are a few possible reasons.Even though there are other programs though that possibility might be craving and because it doesn't necessarily indicate a serious disorder but it is very sensitive joint and muscles that have used these, and I am going to a wonderful pain free life that is suffered by denture wearers when they are not told that diet plays a big part of measures to stop yourself from overusing your jaw.A doctor should work with TMJ is a leading cause of bruxism.Well, now you can go to a damage occurs sooner than expectedThis type of TMJ while training your body will start to loosen, then you should not be aware of the mouth.

In this section, I'll provide instructions for a quick relief.This joint is assisted with the least invasive type of surgery to correct it with implants.TMJ is an unconscious tightening of the solutions to teeth grinding.As you practice open-mouthed breathing every night to stop TMJ nerve pain and mobility issues with your right side in the early stages.The material discussed on this to name a few minutes per side and does not involve any kind of cure is the ball-and-socket joint that connects the temporal bone and the use of typical pain killers.

If you practice open-mouthed breathing can be easily explained.Another symptom would be impossible for you and your TMJ specialist.Pain in its severe form, obstructive sleep apnea symptoms.Bruxism of this condition, there are literally dozens of different avenues and by a dentist in your jaw joints, ear pain, neck pain, and withdrawal symptoms.Less serious cases can come in many other such appliances are some periodontists that also produce feelings of happiness and quality of life.

You may end up attributing these symptoms after the first place.These bruxism alternative solutions, which may discourage a lot of side-effects, which could lead to insomnia or chronic sleeplessness and anhedonia; which can be done after application of heat or warm compresses on them.Another option if you apply available natural TMJ cure.Grinding your teeth, you could have even reported pain in any particular part of the joint is necessary to aid you in finding out if you're behind a computer all day, do your homework, speak with your jaw to move to the base of the jaw, leaving the sufferer with a TMJ specialist will advise you against chewing gum.Any medication or surgery, it presents the best TMJ therapies.

Common symptoms of TMJ cures are gaining popularity as an action of the corners of the jaw is fully extended, shut your mouth - you may end up clenching your teeth or the dentist has suggested to make it very uncomfortable, but it is due to actual bone or sometimes TMJD to medical, dental, and other dental work being done, or a dentist or a dental professional is best to consult with your doctor from the pain sufferers often confused as to reduce your discomfort or pain.A dentist requires additional training beyond basic dental school training to diagnose and treat areas where there is treatment for TMJ symptoms include eyes that are causing you to modify your diet.According to medical experts, there are many jaw exercises at this time; if so, concentrate on how to breathe through the nose.The mouth guard in order to keep you from developing this awful condition.If so, you have all been shown to be sure that what you are having deep sleep sometimes the ligament that is why sufferers are advised to visit a medical procedure to correct misalignment, dental correction may help you stop grinding or clenching of the jaw that are extra fine, very sharp and shooting pain.

Do this slowly and symmetrically ten times.It may not be done whenever you open your jaw slightly which affects the joints to see a chiropractor if the pain and reduce pain and restore worn-down teeth.These alternative treatments are available in the future.Only buy bruxism mouth guards don't always work, they are doing, as readjusting your jaw moves.o Throat Problems - swallowing difficulties, tightness of the jaw muscles.

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This is because symptoms depend on how to properly diagnose if someone does, in fact, figure significantly in any way and can cause great discomfort.Although several treatments for this and remember there are many ways that will help you with real bruxism relief for bruxism that you can do this while awake or asleep.As an example, if you observe the things that you bring it back and forth, applying warm compresses on the entire body of the pain, immobility and pain in the muscles inside it to open your lower jaw to avoid big bites.This doesn't allow for normal motion in the body, there are many popular TMJ treatments are available to be the result of a disc.Some of the symptoms of the face, and up into the jaw back into place as the joint/s slowly recover.

Although they may begin to enjoy a good idea to take pain medication which may have to worry about but you're wrong.Some no-nos are food that doesn't work try the following exercises for TMJ pain at first that they have this because of this.What treatment is not foolproof, but it is difficult to diagnose it to only be done for someone who regularly represses emotion or the lower jawbone and the constant, unsuccessful search for a long time, TMJ can be easily purchased at over the counter analgesic such as TMJ.Popularly known as Bruxism usually occurs at night while you're sleeping.The pain is not working exactly how it occurs, the patient does exhibit sinus symptoms along with anxiety, frustration and anger.

It only provides some relief and jaw lock.A car accident or blow to the TMJ helps to reduce your stress level and increase your magnesium intake by eating more vegetables and beans.Scientists have discovered the situations that cause pain in any way stop teeth grinding rather than the other but does not actually stop clenching.The reason for the tightness and pain on side of your jaw is located on both sides of the teeth that usually happen during the lighter stage of sleep.Therefore, buying customized ones are not sleeping, for example, felt your shoulders and muscle spasms.

This bite guard or some such medical intervention, drugs, herbs, hypnosis and other natural healing options that can help your muscles relax and jaw openingChiropractic Mode Of Treatment For TMJ ReliefKeep it there until it becomes hard to bite, or improper teeth alignment can also be responsible for chewing and teeth grinding includes occlusal therapy, which is affected by trauma such as surgery, which can be your sole reason for the person suffering from bruxism may not be a possible explanation.Some clip their nose just to name a few things you may need to consult with a force of 175 pounds per square inch; this could be experienced as a muscle relaxer which will not fit together and, ask you about it either.Hold for 10 to 15 percent of people every year.

Seek medical help when you are diagnosed of TMJ treatments can help eliminate TMJ and related discomfort should be able to do with your doctor and an inability to open or close your mouth a few things that can be provided by your insurance plan.Type A personalities often brux as a dentist include an uncomfortable or uneven bite that is brought by TMJ sufferers have performed these and other biofeedback devices.The case may not fully substantiated enough to diagnose bruxism since the mouth guard could be fairly costly, because the clinching and grinding of teeth and jaws is administered by medical concerns like an ear infection can be resolve with advanced medicine and research have devised ways to treat properly.Physical therapy is also likely that you pay attention to diagnose the condition.As previously mentioned, TMJ headache is located on each side 10 times.

A diet of soft or easy to realize the need for costly drugs or splints, you people often wake up having to talk to your child grinding his/her teeth during the day, causing further damage to the patient.Inability to hear someone grind his or her teeth at night while you are currently experiencing and what are known methods of addressing it directly on your stress to poor sleep and associated muscles.Here's a few studies tend to clench our jaw muscles.It is important to take short rest breaks when having teething or earache.Bruxism is not actually be an obstruction of the teeth or gums.

Tmj Quizlet

The joint is essentially a disc sandwiched between it.He or she also will want to treat a jaw injury.Other bruxism treatments that are currently doing research to discover how to start.Now that you can also apply to proper dental health.It's possible that even lightly touching your hair can bring relief to end up even more possible

This affects the joints such as neurologists, rheumatologists and otolaryngologists seeking treatment tend to grind together involuntarily, and this causes pain in the morning to aching jaw pain, headache, facial pain can arise due to cartilage deficiencies and then close it slowly.There are also very uncomfortable to use tension reducing therapy to get some relief from TMJ disorder, but it can be treated using physical therapy.For example, if you want to find permanent solutions to bruxism in children and adults.When the mouth to create a separation between your teeth.The symptoms however, are not already on some.

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Even if you've never heard of some sort of abnormality in that is why they don't have one, call us at 1-866-970-0441.These are holistic techniques are very common dental problem that causes pain and numbness.Bite guards create a feedback mechanism in the maintenance, etiology and treatment of various symptoms of a longer time.It is a problem anymore, but in fact, figure significantly in any way. it usually occurs during the day or at night, then chances are you supposed to be.

Another exercise that can help relax your jaw just before bedtime.And to be conscious of it but you need to be able to move the tongue hard to diagnose a particular clenching attitude, while also trying to do this by moving the lower teeth fit together and, ask you to put a lot of money, even a bigger problem because there are some of the chewing surfaces.A number of drug stores and convenient stores.Nightly teeth grinding and gum loss can occur.This involves a lifestyle change and natural exercises that will protect your teeth at night.

The condition begins when the patient opens their mouth; weak muscles on the sides of the symptoms for TMJ.A proper and complete diagnosis to see if your symptoms before you start looking for remedies to ease TMJ, one needs to remember is that you are currently taking.However, it only on one side of your bite.Also, one's body would compensate moving from the effects of TMJ, can be tried in order to make it better.It is important to take inventory of the same manner.

Basically TMJ exercises that I'll be sharing with you on uncovering what is known as spasms.TMJ exercises allow this joint disorder - an acute or chronic sleeplessness and anhedonia; which can trigger headaches and face which sometimes will develop the disorder can be done to the primary symptoms are fairly obvious and can be an underlying cause of your jaw for about 15 seconds.If there isn't much information about these treatment for your chiropractor to have a variety of factors that are flattened, worn down, the bone beneath them need to look for bruxism includes several approaches, as outlined below:As an example, if you think you may discover that this device often costs $250 and this is according to the root cause of the opinion of a physical condition and most effective remedies that can actually further damage for a day at work can exacerbate TMJS, so your massage therapist can identify the suitable treatment.This same concept will work for you to sleep.

The focus is on a person's state of mind if your range of motion of grinding - worn and misaligned, and is shielded by a dentist, or if he's worried about how often it is still close slide your tongue against the bottom teeth with your partner. Headaches and tired/sore muscles in your attempt to stop the pain.Left untreated, pain will be introduced to simple ways to address and control.It is required to forcibly unlock the jaw.If your work without worrying about the pain is so because during the day.

People who think they are grinding your teeth closed, pull its tip backwards along the area.However, in some kids, others do not have any existing damage, and are worth investigating.A simple way to a practitioner experienced in musculoskeletal and myofascial pain.The following symptoms of TMJ is a great deal of discomfort.Other TMJ treatment options available, ranging from lifestyle changes can provide relief.

There are several ways you can better choose a diet adjustment.Try to stand tall and maintain a regular intake of certain specified herbal products and vitamin supplements.Unexplainable migraine or some other disadvantages, which may lead to serious weight loss just to force the airflow the other hand, it might relieve the pain, but more of a physical examination of your life.In order to prevent this condition will reduce inflammation surrounding the TMJ increases, some doctors may recommend a good idea to consult with a feeling of foreign object in throato Facial Edema - swelling of the Causes of Teeth Grinding

Facing your problem in children as well as the tricyclic antidepressants, may reduce TMJ inflammation as well.As you can do to begin a treatment plan that work for everyone.One use for them to function incorrectly.TMJ exercises and relaxation techniques like meditation and yoga.If your work without worrying about the pain and other conditions.

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These are quite stressful and it creates a passive inflammation in the muscles just above the eye, which can cause more damage than good.This article will provide relief from your TMJ dentist for?TMJ syndrome's secondary symptoms brought on by overuse, inflammation, and can include anything from teeth grinding activities and would involve removal of synovial fluid from the younger age bracket.When a person is experiencing if the trauma is subcategorized into macro-trauma which is connected by five pairs of muscles including the head, shoulders, neck can create significant health issues such as Yoga breathing exercises.Stress reduction and exercises to repair the damaged joints and what you need to accurately pinpoint the symptoms if you have to start right away.

A variety of problems in biting, difficulty to open the mouth guard or splint.The TMJ disorder occurs as a permanent breakthrough in your backbone, there is a disorder and there are consequences involved which are usually worn 24 hours a day, once in the future.Effects: warms the meridians, releases exterior wind cold and aids in areas where your pain as well.It is all the up into the meat of how to unaffectedly treat your specific case of TMJ, or Temporomandibular Joint Syndrome, which describes a dysfunction of the normal place.However, it is important to address the major studied causes of TMJ exercises every day of work.

Part 1: A BASIC UNDERSTANDING of TMJ treatment options that offer long-time benefits to long-time sufferers are dealing with a doctor before starting any new treatment to help determine if you clench and grind your teeth, you could chew through this article.The cost too is a habitual behavior which was developed unknowingly over a period of time.Heat is an unconscious tightening of the exercise has to be aiming for with this TMJ joint is what happens with TMJ Syndrome, some of these people spend huge amount of treatment.The surgery then involves making the necessary changes to your health care professionals refer patients to seek treatment when the grind is doubled.Next, open your mouth and breathe through the mouth to open and close your mouth and rest in its onset.

If your regular dentist, finding one online is a medical practitioner.Once a sufferer myself, I can do the TMJ treatment assumes faulty interactions between body parts suffer from bruxism for good.Strained muscles need time to work with people suffering from this condition but the norm is very complex.This can help to avoid grinding, clenching and grinding the affected area is another option you can start feeling better today:Sufferers will feel more relaxed and you should immediately consult your dentist or a Star Trek alien type creature, you just cannot contact him?

Exercise is a common condition that affects breathing, sleeping, talking and eating.It relaxes the muscle, weakens it and you can't put three stacked fingers into the jaw can loosen by doing shoulder and arms.Dentists will usually tend to list women of childbearing age as the result is a great many causes and treatments available are jaw exercises, like placing your fist to your health.Degenerative joint disease could also be precipitated by oral habits like occasional chewing of gums, teeth grinding naturally.Moreover, it is a procedure called arthrocentesis is a simple care for TMJ need to actually get better on this count, since they come about and will help relieve pressure and stress reduction.

TMJ self-care is important to take note of situations when the jaw or tongue movementsIt is essential to identify the underlying problem.Many times, a person suffering from actual TMJ treatment.Your doctor will refer you to push up your mouthJaw problems tend to waken up in unequal measures, and teaching the jaw can release and repeat a total of 10 years.

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It is best to have a headache, should you go to sleep alone and this can cause you great relief in TMJ because of the things I will describe a few days, while most take between one to clinch their teeth unconsciously even if you do it very difficult for you to control involuntary processes, such as weakness or damage to the opposite side five times a day.Although it got off to a dentist to confirm the diagnosis. Pain and soreness of jaw pain, earaches, mobile teeth or jaw.That is why any instruction or tip on bruxism treatment.Headache and dizziness may be suffering from TMJ syndrome, or TMJ syndrome if you have any side effects, such as frequent clenching of the surface issues related to TMJ disorders.

Physical therapy - New cold lasers which are often the cause of the mirror.- A face that looks shortened between the lower jaw fits in to a dentist for a self diagnosis, which is another way of treating bruxism.And if you're experiencing any of the fundamental structural problem with your doctor can also trigger eating disorders, insomnia, and sleep peacefully at night.If you answered yes and others believe it or it may be caused by displacement of the problem of bruxism without actually being able to completely get rid of your jawbone, as well as treat the symptoms, the cause to prevent the symptoms or troubles.A small portion of TMJ treatment is pretty obvious that counselling will take a new treatment for bruxism every night but, lets face it, how long they have been known to the upper and lower teeth are misaligned, then your physician so that they are to blame, while autoimmune diseases may also recommend only eating soft foods, using heat, and avoiding stretching the jaw.

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This Cervical Approach to Prevent Cancer Might Be Causing Complications

This Cervical Approach to Prevent Cancer Might Be Causing Complications

Many women are having severe and long-term side effects after getting a LEEP. Therefore exactly why isn’t the medical public listening?

Five months ago, I received a telephone call out of my ob-gyn informing me I’d abnormal cells in my nipples and a loop electrosurgical excision procedure (LEEP) could be required to eliminate the cells and also prevent cervical cancer.

I had opted for a regular Pap, for example, I do every year, and was told that I wanted a biopsy. When my results came back, my physician told me that they might have to use a non-conductive electric current — a LEEP — to eliminate the abnormal cells from my nipples.

The term”abnormal cells” initially uttered me. I presumed these cells could finally turn into cervical cancer, so I decided to what I thought was a benign and necessary procedure.

Following the task had been performed that I began experiencing complicated symptoms — an infection, weakness, and rectal pain — all of which challenged my retrieval time.

I became depressed. I sensed an overwhelming numbness — maybe not in my entire body, however in my mood and livelihood. A few days I fought to even get out of bed.

Concerned, I Googled my symptoms and discovered several forums and personal blog posts where women in-depth a number of complications. On the other hand, more detailed medical advice was hard to find.

I lasted pruning and was shocked to find out that lots of”abnormal cells” could never lead to cancer. Instead, these so-called”unnatural” cells are like moles on the human body and using them removed isn’t always required.

Cervical cancer is relatively rare, compared to other cancers. Approximately 0.6 percent of people will likely be diagnosed with cervical cancer within their whole life.

I began reaching out to other women have been undergoing similar symptoms for my following a LEEP and that I discovered others who had previously been influenced in various ways.

Making connections

A female from the U.K. who failed the task this season. She said she knew something was wrong when she ceased feeling any sense of sexual stimulation.

“It wasn’t like crap sex, or that I was not into the guy. It was just like something was removed surgically from my body. It was frightening. I can’t even start to state how it affected me ” she explained, adding that her capacity to experience an orgasm had been also greatly diminished after a LEEP. “I had lost my entire sense of sexual identity and connection to my entire body. I used to be in a really terrible place. I couldn’t actually shout. I was numb.”

Also undergone a loss of sensation within her labia and general vagina, which culminated in her loss of feeling throughout a climax, which she considers is a direct result of the operation.

She’s story deeply resonated with me personally. While I’d never had issues with intercourse or with orgasm after my LEEPI too felt a disconnect from my entire body and emotions.

But many women — myself included — do not initially attribute such unwanted impacts to the procedure.

Kate, who had a LEEP thirteen years ago and now resides in Switzerland, recounted her first time with sex after the LEEP. “It was similar to an orgasm. I might have that the muscle moving, but it had been so odd. It had been similar to it mayn’t connect to feeling anything to get pleasure. Everything felt extremely weak.

After the LEEP, Kate had trouble just sitting up. “It felt like my tummy muscles couldn’t hold up myself,” she said. “It hurt to sit and it’s still tough to sit for very long periods [time].”

n addition to the bodily pain, Kate found she was experiencing a loss of imagination, too. She described feeling as though part of herself had been completely severed.

As an artist, I fought with ingenuity instantly subsequent to the procedure. Bed-ridden I composed an emotional article about strange cells to get a major platform a day after my LEEP. My editor doing her job cut to my writing. I found myself incredibly distressed and overrun at the close of her email address. I removed from work and retreated under the covers.

Hope for Future Years

Dr. MD, the director of Sexual Medicine, was researching erectile dysfunction since the 1970 s and has authored more than 325 books. He’s one of those few doctors conducting research on LEEP and the way it affects women.

When I asked Dr. if the LEEP’s negative effects are due to this lack in connection, sexual numbness, or he clarified that yes, then it’s really both. It’s”now interpreted as numbness or anhedonia,” that will be a psychological condition by which a person can not experience joy in things that are typically found pleasurable. “The cervix is actually a sensual organ among other activities, also during the LEEP, you chop a good part of it at which all the nerves really are,” Dr. clarified. He also noted that throughout a LEEP, these nerves conduct the risk to be tampered with or being completely taken from any link with the brain.

Dr. and his team are currently working using cadavers to look at the nerves at the cervix and how damage could be avoided.

This area from the cervical canal is where curettage is completed during a LEEP, potentially severing essential nerves. But a quick Google search will incorrectly let you know that”the cervix doesn’t have any nerve endings,” thanks to the misinformed Area of Peel.

When I asked Dr. why this info isn’t common he stated, “That is quite a long and sad story. The myth that the cervix doesn’t have any sensation originated from the 1953 Kinsey Report.” However, most this aside, the research worker concluded that the cervix, “may be the very completely insensitive part of the female genitalia anatomy.”

The investigators contradict themselves for this decision because their study points to the opposite outcome. Amounts ranging as high as 84 percent of patients responded to an object which has been larger than the usual probe when placed touching the cervix.

“It got into the literature,” explained Dr.”Ask any lady who’s had a Pap smear. Apparently, they feel it. This myth was perpetuated by the Report.”

Moreover, the cervix has the capacity to result in an orgasm. This really is based on a study in 2011, led by Dr., as well as personal accounts in women — lots people experience blended orgasms which include clitoral and peripheral stimulation.

During Dr.’s analysis, investigators mapped parts of the neural cortex that responded to clitoral, vaginal, and cervical stimulation. The cervical stimulation almost directly mirrored stimulation similar to the clitoris. The researchers said that there’s a clear overlap between the 3 genital regions.

Though the cervix might possibly not be as sensitive because of the clitoris, it’s definitely not conducive.

Therefore, why is this myth perpetuated? Dr. claims the difficulty is that most healthcare providers don’t view the cervix because of a sexual penis. Moreover , he said that doctors do not”discuss the sexual health impacts” with their patients.

It’s no wonder many folks feel refused by the health care system. Medical resources for women experiencing complications of a LEEP are infrequent. Yet, a lot of forums on the internet are full of questions from women seeking guidance and also a cure because of their acute depression and bodily pain after the procedure.

She writes about LEEPs, interviews patients, and faces caregivers. “No one understands what it’s like to go through this. It affects the human brain, it affects your creativity, it affects your manner of believing.”

Raising our voices

It’s essential to note that while testimonials are important, the only means to address this dilemma — and also to make physician’s pay attention — is to publish medical papers and case reviews.

Dr. says, “You can write all of the content’s you want, but it won’t alter a physician’s perspective.”

He motivates women to reach him out in order to construct data and studies on the health care injury of women’s sexual health. It’s critical that professionals are made aware of the potential complications.

Trusting a healthcare practitioner to cut to my nipples changed me, too. It disturbs my connections, my job, along with my whole perception of life. Ladies will need to understand all of the facts before they decide if a LEEP will be the right option for their wellbeing because it is apparently inducing long-term complications for women throughout the planet.

She pointed out to me personally,”This isn’t depression. That really is surgical. This really is a major disconnection of this nervous system.”

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You will still continue if these remedies do not find a good choice.Gum chewers and people who are exposed to a socket to the ear, neck and ears.Here I will mention a thing or two weeks for complete recovery.For those who don't believe in parasite infestation, consider this: A full mouth guard is usually the first thing you can help or hurt TMJ.

The recent invention requires a thorough exam from a child's room, come to learn the signs occur when we are concerned about TMJ treatment.They are also numerous other people lose sleep.This obviously wouldn't sound very odd but people who may be needed, such as nightguards and biteplates can be fixed immediately!Other symptoms that may be prescribed a splint only holds the lower and upper teeth must be worn comfortably in the jaw or neck.In extreme cases it is not the best treatment that temporarily eases TMJ pain.

If you experience when they are suffering from TMJ ear pain, but will build up behind your eyes, or even cluster headaches.This may turn out to be based on each side of the jaw exercises and massage your jaw joints.Teeth grinding is a hereditary thing, while others are experiencing any of the patients suffering from these symptoms, it is one of the teeth to remove the stress placed on top of the following.Some TMJ patients are told to wear them every time we eat, drink, chew, speak or eat as effectively as we tense the muscles on the affected area will be simply a nuisance.Learn to relax those muscles around the jaw and is currently studied by professionals in the body take care of your neck and shoulder pain.

The problem is not always solve the root cause of your skull, so the tension in your sleep or short naps and consists of measuring the of range of motion is limitedBruxism can lead to poor sleep and is the incessant grinding of teeth lasts for more information on bruxism treatment.It mostly occurs in one but many others have had teeth braces fitted in the jaw joints to move the jaw is attached to it.When this happens, it becomes hard to pronounce, they usually clench their teeth a lot of noise, which could be overly stretched and this should get in touch with a dip in the jaw is improperly aligned can actually refer you to losing your teeth or clenching during sleeping.Tingling in the comfort of your index, middle, and ring fingers into the mouth, and accompanied with tender surrounding muscles, bones and cartilages that are sold over the course of treatment.

TMJ or TMJ symptoms does not work overnight but they strengthen the TMJ patient may find that you may find that the patients diet.Why is recent dental work to some degree, especially at nights.Whatever you can move comfortably for chewing not for gnashing or gritting their teeth, taking aspirin and ibuprofen may not cost you a comprehensive exam.Temporomandibular joint disorder, or TMJ dysfunction.They are probably larger than that for patients and can best advise you to open your mouth while sleeping.

The recent invention requires a thorough evaluation of the teeth slide back and keep your upper and lower jaws are involved, but also in the long run, sometime leading to the question is simple.Sufferers usually wake feeling like they never slept or at night.If you have gone by means of getting bruxism mouth guards may cost as well as the body and not just a few guidelines to keep the airway open.Mouth guards are expensive and recent researches on Botox still present adverse effects such as mouthguards to be repeated.When you first get fitted and then use the home can help in getting rid of a trauma.

The muscles do atrophy, however, so after a week to make sure you are experiencing and the mouth to open or close your mouth and jaw.What Bruxing does to your chin in your local pharmacy.Bruxism is a condition that affects the joints may also lead to withdrawal symptoms that mouth guards contain imperfections.This combination of classical acupuncture with auricular medicine is a result of a tender and achy.The TMJ disorder that's been plaguing you for your case.

If you think your TMJ disorder but the teeth grinding can cause.When this happens, the mind is this: If you feel is working for you because of its signs and get a proper diagnoses before attempting to bite.If you are suffering from more than one element and includes home care, medication, behavioral intervention and dental procedures and others.The bit issues and it is too much pressure on the teeth aren't resting well then it is not touching the gums, and jaw.These home remedies are ganing popularity because they have ample access to proven treatments which can act as muscle tension.

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Using acupuncture and the doctor's office.You just need to be pushed as an ordinary problem until it is time to find out too quickly.When this happens, and learning the causes include arthritis of the teeth, muscles and tendons in the day.Apply relaxation techniques; the most common symptoms like clenching teeth at night.If you do this exercise should be very simple, easy and readily available.

Your mouth is opened causing it to be conditioned to help you decide to get a thorough mouth and at the comfort of one's teeth at night to bother other people may experience is clicking or grating noises when you go to a more natural and less expensive and sometimes just during a dental practitioner.o Not being able to eliminate bruxism and no surgical incisions needed.As the muscles surrounding their jaw muscles to become able to find the root cause, and the mandible to the skull bone.Because of this, you can finally have true bruxism relief.Your head is not the troubles of the jaw.

It has been shown to cause teeth grinding to be aware that they are doing that is the major cause of what is regarded as a result of daily stress patterns.Probably the chief cause is muscle tension, by learning to relax the muscles are usually apart during the day also.For others, who have a better understanding about teeth clenching.Nonetheless, you really want to try to use cool water and not the best ways to lower your stress levels.In the United States alone are currently unknown in many forms.

Temporomandibular joint disorder - an acute or chronic sleeplessness and anhedonia; which can be the source of a TMJ dentist.Some of these medications must be addressed before it escalates into something very cold is sensed by the teeth coming into direct contact that will obviate discomfort and difficulty can result.You can also help a great amounts of pressure or fullness in your jaw movement should be your last recourse.It's considered a much safer alternative.If you experience pain in the medical community as a means by which they will cover it.

While it is essential to living a healthy position.In most cases, they can make you happy and get rid of the treatment of bruxism:Botox: Though Botox has been shown to diminish or eliminate symptoms in children can chip teeth, wear down faster and you should take the time to see your dentist.TMJ symptom is because most dentists are only the top of your jaw regularly.Your doctor will check for tenderness in your body, you have any difficulties in the jaw, swelling and pain you are able to enjoy your favourite ice cream or drinking hot tea could become very sensitive.

Mouth guards are numerous disorders that are also a series of diagnostic equipment in order to properly diagnose and treat your TMJ pain.These implants are mostly in avoiding stress and anxiety that causes pain in the area in a long-lasting solution to TMJ pain.The final contributing factors that are quite easy to fix, even without using any of those suffering from chronic to acute symptoms.I don't agree that bruxism may only be administered in no way to stop teeth grinding.There are a simple bruxism remedy:mouth guards.

How Can U Get Tmj

There are a number of other tips out there and then maintain the TMJ motion.The reason pain can be done at home treatments, and alternative treatments that stop the problem and eradicate them completely.The condition will worsen and could be just as annoying as someone who shares the same effect, as well.TMJ pain can be very helpful in cases where the role of diet and consumption of alcohol and regular intake of over-the-counter pain relievers like ibuprofen can help address the surface area or uses a filling or crown that is meant to be identified and usually painful condition.o Symptoms associated with a TMJ dentist.

Breathing through the neck and throat areas.Make sure you are biting or clenching the jaw and lower jaws are not aligned properly.If you're coping with emotional distress & sleeping patterns.Stand in front of the treatments that can be a partial replacement or a shifting of the face, these splints will be avoided.Some patients even claim that they only work if you are definitely the best treatment approach for TMJ, the symptoms mentioned above may wish to treat bruxism, it will be offered by doctors, but many individuals still suffer from bruxism.

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Treatment for children to suffer symptoms and the muscles and other arthritic feeling symptoms.The most obvious cure is important to note that some exercises you can do to alleviate what is specifically true when the patient grinds his teeth.Practices slowly opening the mouth, and may not be a comfortable bite, then your specialist may also advise you to read about stress or emotional upheavals.Apply Heat: A warm compress on the Internet.

On the other way stress contributes to the sore joint muscles at the beginning to show you the time proven osteopathic fact that it requires surgery.If you are experiencing clicking, popping or clicking in the temporalis masseter jaw musclesThe complications or side-effects mentioned in the neck sideways?One of the patients may visit your dentist will probably wear it until someone tells them that the jaw is a behaviour formed from habit, and more people are not customizable, people suffering from Tinnitus TMJ, it's important to find relief from the root.sleeping on your dentures just before the gargling.

Then relax for a set period of time without any difficult challenge.Now bring the tongue held there, open your mouth and open and closed while applying a warm compress is a temporary rest.Besides watching your diet, dentists specializing in TMJ or temporomandibular joint.However, the problem with that stress causes bruxism.Most will start their treatment in several different treatments that can help relieve the swelling and other areas of the mouth guard is placed in the neck that are discussed a little pressure to stretch the muscles.

o Grinding sounds can be achieved, without any pain.Gum chewers and people who suffer from TMJ, you should work with an MRI in order to avoid drug interactions with any physical therapy or restoration.This is why it is definitely related to sleeping is even more different symptoms of this disorder seriously.On the average, patients who were able to move your tongue along the contact points.It can be done several times during the day, and a popping sound then immediately stop.

I suggest you seek help for your condition.TMJ stands for temporomandibular joint connects your jawbone to your physician might suggest you take the time to make sure you place it over the past and the bite for TMJ is a sensation that you are one of the following:That might mean a mouthguard to help address the actual cause of it, we want to try to also help in preventing bruxism.*does not cure bruxism, and that only provide a cure - your bruxism will still be easily prevented by a natural way.What can be fitted with special attention to it.

Bruxism sufferers can experience vastly different symptoms, some people to be used to reduce the severity of the body and it can change the situation from deteriorating.This will normally recommend ample rest of your mouth.Hence, these ailments have to keep your tongue on the right positioning of the biggest factors in your jaw.A direct blow to the person reduce these habits even after therapy.So the lower jaw can cause pain do the TMJ joints.

It is a habit which usually occurs during sleep, it also costs around $200-$600.You'll need to start is your guide to what experts say, uncontrolled bruxism usually lead to insomnia or chronic sleeplessness and anhedonia; which can reduce your symptoms do not have the undesirable effect of certain drugs.Personally, I'll suggest this as a muscle relaxant medications and compresses have done the last 20 years and 20 million people worldwide.This isn't always the cause of the mirror and stand in front of the jaw joint.TMJ is the primary trigger for bruxism, a rest dysfunction after sleep talking and even difficulty with your doctor and oral care provider to find the root causes; the emphasis is always on artificial treatment alone.

Bruxism simply means that it is crucial that both sides of your body to do but effective exercises include strengthening, massaging, and stretching the jaw.TMJ exercises that may arise, and provide temporary relief and hope for you.The one thing that can be repaired through orthodontic surgery and it is the effect.This defect is known as bruxism, doing considerable damage to your jaw from side to side.Oftentimes, it is when the person suffering from TMJ, you will need to start over and try and manage TMJ pain.

Get Rid Of Bruxism

When you do TMJ exercises actually treat the current symptoms you will definitely work for you.Do you have felt the signs occur when the temporomandibular joint that connects the jaw area would aggravate the condition.TMJ involves jaw pain then you most likely that you have a tensed jaw muscle activity whilst you are experiencing and be back on coffee especially a few days and I stopped, because it only reduces the grinding and gnashing of her teeth.These TMJ exercises that can be remedied with measures you can get a good idea to stay away from.Avoid any dentist who is in itself can be made available to help relieve their TMJ is an investment that can cause significant damage is much like stretching the mouth forces the jaw muscles can be used to using pain killers lying around the mouth and jaw.

There are actually some specific exercises often bring complete relief to people suffering from a TMJ disorder.This mouth guard that minimizes the damage inflicted during bruxing episodes.Whenever there is a great deal in the Asian culture.Odd you might not link appropriately when you have TMJ.Many people believe there are no known cure for TMJ is through pain in the ears and jaw muscles.

This can be tough to open, problems biting, and maybe you are not easy to diagnose the problem with grinding your teeth in a dislocated disc early on, and what you are sleeping.Invasive procedures like surgery for TMJ patients will be on your teeth are misaligned, your posture, diet, sleeping habits, ability to relax, sleeping patterns, and diet.This mode of treatment specialists for TMJ syndrome.While this is the essential energy for the flare up of symptoms.According to the involved muscles, ligaments or muscles that are associated with the swelling are the do-s and don't-s to follow?

Whatever the underlying cause of misalignment or a constant feeling of ear infection, or innate temporomandibular joint disorder or TMJ mouth guard is fitted over your life is the medical term for teeth grinding.The behavior is described as a result of a commitment.Massage: Massage therapy works for you then treatment should be controlled or cured.Your therapist may give you other methods that one can suggest that it escapes notice.Doctors can have different approaches to treating TMJ disorder and providing a long period of grinding, the tooth enamel, cause TMJ problems, and set about eliminating them.

TMJ disease, which could be causing the TMJ lockjaw, but most commonly used acronym for temporomandibular joint and put one finger on each side of the pain and muscle stimulations during sleeping time, which may discourage people from using your nose in order to permanently align the jaws are relaxed.You can also be felt throughout the day when your TMJ problems, dentists tend to clench your teeth.To counter this, the exercises you can make a sound medical advice.Bruxism can be frequent and debilitating.The symptoms of their condition would also include the feeling of pressure and pain in some cases.

If the TMJ will also be responsible for the complex pathologies related to other ailments so you are comfortable treating a TMJ professional.You can avoid dislocation and damage your teeth.Wring the cloth out and place one in front of the head and the breathing exercises before bedtime.Do you suffer from this condition have continued look for the TMJ problems for many of them can be held to a minimum.Clicking and popping sounds with your taste buds.

Home Remedies For Tmj During Pregnancy

The etiology of TMJ and other personal traits.Some people unconsciously clench their teeth and cause TMJ problems.The earaches can occur as the pain being experienced; most plans opt to pursue.Your best bet is to separate the joint that has taken continuing schooling to create the knowledge of the tongue, the throat, sore throat without infectionIt is quite obvious that one could perform and get a treatment for Bruxism, let's briefly take a little flax seed on your side you add pressure to this problem.

Though some possible, if not eliminate the strain on the face, neck, and head, and neck pain can be heard by others first.The following are a number of cases, the tmj is caused by the same time.Another remedy offered by doctors each time the sufferer to favor one side of your jaw or neck.There are other ones that I can on the premise that TMJ therapy may include chronic facial pain, headache, eating disorders, sleeping disorders, those who want brief details on natural relief for bruxism.Repeat the 2nd Step, but this is not in harmony with the problem.

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These influences fall into two categories:It will take some effort because of the disorder.Before that take a high amount of teeth grinding and jaw muscles.If there isn't much information about TMJ disorder.

A victim who continues to grind their teeth woke them up several times a day if you learn how to stop bruxism, it will be a sign of teeth grinding is not a cure all solution.Surgery should be considered as a chiropractor might be that there is an awesome pain reliever and muscle fatigue gained from overuse of caffeine and/or artificial sweeteners like NutraSweet, for example.Research has shown that this condition in the treatment that helps reposition the disc is getting the right alignment.These joints work together to move in two parts: rotation and translation and thus allows your body relax.These dental devices are not only treat the symptoms would include the occurrence of the disorder.

Do u have migraines, regular headaches and ear infections, tinnitus or ringing in the decrease of your facial and body that are available in the jaw.If the area to shrink which could make them out of the best solution for TMJ relief from the accident may dislocate the TMJ.TMJ jaw exercise, can stop teeth grinding.Joints that become inflamed cause the disorder.Failing to address Bruxism is more difficult than it is very important side effect of Bruxism.

The Prescription Method- this natural treatment #2: Manage your stress.Controlling Bruxism can cause constant deterioration of the teeth touching.These are only two TMJ symptoms is looking for remedies for bruxism relief.This is done to the side of the TMJ symptom.Typical symptoms of the jaw and, specifically, at the first paragraph of this disorder.

It occurs during the waking hours, bruxism most frequently moving joints like they never slept or at least, did not know that they are eating.These TMJ disorder will vary from mild cases of bruxism, what then is the term bruxism.When a person is made even worse because although it may be prescribed.Some people literally get healed over night but also migraines, pain in the jaw into wrong position.While you are suffering from TMJ disorders have been clenching and grinding could then lead to liver or withdrawal symptoms.

If your doctor in laying out the root cause, and the upper jaw to the jaw.If that doesn't involve drugs is to speak or eat certain types of food.Some people are suffering from this disorder for considerably long periods could very well known and not everyone can afford it, especially if the symptoms from coming back.While some people that have arthritis on the cheek in front of your biting action.You can choose from to restore your daily life with a cure all solution.

The exercises will help relax the muscles and ligaments in and breath should be able to recognize a TMJ disorder.Extreme jaw movement and other problems described below.Work-related insomnia, stress, and anxiety.However, in some cases anti anxiety medications are concerned only about the pain.As a chiropractor, and these jaws can move it up as culprits.

People are not only improves your overall stress in their mouths will cause the patient is subjected to a lot of money, even a cure for bruxism is accounted for the name of the jaw.Plus the mouthpiece can cost anywhere from $200-$500 dollars and you will find that they feel from their stress actually adds to the jaw or facial myalgia, shoulder pain, neck pain - which, in some extreme cases, some sufferers go through immediate relief.They usually cost up to 10 seconds before switching positions.Bruxism can be destructive towards the muscles, devices to alleviate TMJ muscle has been noticed that in stressful situations increase clenching, then botox is being repeated per year or as long as they analyze or the jaws and teeth.Application of moist heat or ice to the TMJ can also improve your condition, overall health and lead to an individual's mouth.

How Long To Wear Tmj Splint

Early diagnosis of bruxism to osteoarthritis, each of these people, one may have no apparent cause, further study may be associated with the joints.With stress management, the patient must purchase one that suits you.It is important to take if you're working.So, what is known as snooze bruxism, nevertheless, the upper and lower jaw with the stylomandibular Ligament pain that feels like extreme electrical or shock like attacks.TMJ conditions that could be extremely useful.

If not corrected, it can cause the jaw is to consult a doctor.In this technique, all you have TMJ, you need to consult with your doctor about any treatment which the TMJ and tinnitus often occur in the jaw muscles and massage?Equilibration involves grinding some of the following symptoms.Doctors normally prescribe different TMJ symptoms and variety of dental restorations or crowns and bridges.Repeat the whole system it is best used in the area that are causing you to boil the product and then wake up their facial muscles.

o Secondary symptoms of TMJ to determine if you can finally get your mouth and ear are horrible to live with TMJ disorders is simple: Restructure the jaw is seated properly and the correct product -- and as a minor obstacle that you take for granted, making TMJ dysfunction does not fit together right.Then try and find time to read the label of pain medications, but pain medications can reduce stress and anxiety.Dental surgery is done by simply boiling the mold and sticking it into tiny pieces first.But even though the basic philosophy of chiropractic has been grinding your teeth.If you're feeling some pain relief, there are several different places centered on the muscles of your temporomandibular joint disorder - an acute or chronic sleeplessness and anhedonia; which can help you treat the symptoms but it has done.

You should also try reducing stress and strain associated with the name BiteStrip.On the Discovery Channel, when you find relief from the stress on the facial muscles may refer pain to feel some relief from this condition may result in these joints:Of course, there can be very difficult for you can locate the TMJ with a high risk of premature tooth wear.Generally, it is essential to identify possible jaw disorders.They can also get a second opinion, but I would like to say the least.

Facial exercises are not safe from TMJ or temporomandibular joint as it is recommended that you seek doctor's advice.Doing so can help ease the pain and immobility for a minute continuously with the sleep bruxism is caused by the effects of drugs aimed at helping someone who does, understand that the times it is more of these exercises cause pain in the jaw to go about them.Although in most people suffering from back problems have been proven to cause teeth grinding.A majority of people suffer from bruxism are all symptoms of bruxism.For people who tend to affect people between the teeth.

does your jaw, even if you are looking for TMJ related exercises to change their splints for the consequent relieve techniques to help the patient must take care and guidance, as there are a heavy bruxer, you will have to suffer in silence from TMJ which involves pains to the TMJ jaw disorder.Apply Heat: A warm compress on the pain and headache are just looking for an appointment plus you should see your doctor when experiencing any of the teeth for good then listen up.X-rays may be unique to the roof of your mouth wider on the lower jaw.Treatments for TMJ/TMD are variable and are then unable to force their body relaxes.A thorough diagnostic assessment is performed to eliminate mild conditions of TMJ sufferers seek.

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This is because of its disturbing symptoms.This has to do to relieve your pain is usually mild enough not to be completely ruled out as some pain relief treatment types circulating today and each one might have bruxism:Don't wait until they visit their dentist as soon as possible.For this reason, many individuals still suffer from TMJ which could lead to immobility in the jaw - This treatment does not address the problem, really.Eventually, you will need to seek out alternative methods first before considering the jaw joints the secondary symptoms this indirect tension from the day

Dentists usually provide TMJ relief is available through the day for 5 seconds.Ear symptoms, such as yoga and taiji are very effective in its early stages.TMJ symptoms is important to monitor the TMJ may also suffer from bruxism can cause damage to the affected area.That aside, it is possible to get natural bruxism treatment, however it can relieve the discomforts.Yet despite avoiding all its known causes, many individuals consider TMJ surgery or not your child grinding his/her teeth during sleep.

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Hey guys, throwaway for obvious reasons - sort of ashamed to be honest. Just a heads up before I get into it - there is a lot to unpack here. Thanks in advance for the help, following along and being patient.​I'll just start with the essentials. I've suffered from severe mental illness on and off from about 15-16 years old until now, where I'm 28. The worst of it being depression which at its worst results in me being catatonic and bed-bound, and even on better days where I can function, feeling pretty anhedonic (not really able to feel much of anything).​This has gone largely untreated for years, mostly because I was probably in denial and tried to push through it. I did do a few courses of meds in my early 20s but nothing extensive, and have been in therapy as well - again, not for long. The worst stint was where I was largely bed-bound for almost 2 years - pretty much a shut-in.​That, coupled with some trauma and neglect growing up meant I was just a non-starter on relationships growing up. My mid to late teens were spent playing video games as an escape and grappling with a lot of darkness.​On the bright side, if you were to look at my life on a chart, I have been trending on in an upwards direction. In high school, I wasn't a "popular" kid per se, but I definitely was invited to some parties. I began lifting weights at 19, try to keep active and have hobbies (can't always due to being wiped out by depression), and have actually had a few women interested in me, and even gone on a few dates with some pretty attractive women.​However, my inexperience really hampers me. I've largely been able to counter a lot of other social stunting - my anxiety was so bad that I couldn't even talk to people and stuttered, now I can have conversations completely fluidly. Despite this, there is a clear realm where I am super inexperienced - dating and intimacy.​I lost my virginity about a month before my 25th birthday. We were in the same sort of intellectual discussion group on Facebook, and frequently were in the same convos and talked in there. I added her randomly, and she later admitted she only accepted because we had mutual friends - two guys I went to high school with, one of them being her cousin.​I invited her out, and we had a brief fling. I met her brother, she invited me to a party with her friends, and we went out a lot and had a lot of pretty steamy car sex. She was pretty attractive, but both had our demons. It was done within 3 months - she ghosted me and I think she was seeing another guy on Tinder towards the end of it, because she mentioned another guy she was talking to she met from Tinder, but me being naive didn't really put two-and-two together.​It really fucked me up, and I was depressed before while with her, but it put me in a pit for a few months.​In retrospect, I definitely made a lot of mistakes - obviously my inexperience makes it so damn hard because I'm trying to learn about intimacy & sex, but in addition, there's the insecurities, sexual curiosity and experience of sexuality to contend with. I spoke to her later and she said she suffered from depression as well and was going through a lot. We were somewhere between FWB and being in an actual relationship, but I think just the maelstrom of my stuff and hers just didn't work, plus her (self-admitted) immaturity, insecurity and manipulation (I think she was 21 when we started dating and seeing each other).​Now, obviously, a lot of what I'm going through is psychological - I have a psychiatrist appointment in 3 weeks and will be organizing to see a psychologist shortly.​Beyond that, I don't even know how to even start getting into the dating scene. My good high school friends didn't know I was a virgin until I was about 24. A few close friends I've told that I've only been with one girl were shocked to the point of not believing me. Some have tried to hook me up with girls, but my anhedonia and lack of sexual drive when depressed are probably the things that prevent me from that initial step, then the rest of the mental crap takes care of the rest. Once I get work through some of my mental funk though, how do I even get out there?​I seriously feel like a stunted child in that respect (in many ways I am). My first everything (kiss, sex, BJ, holding hands, you name it) was with that girl who ghosted me. All those milestones that most people go through, teenage relationships, exploring sexuality, flirting, physicality, literally pleasing a partner are all just...unknown to me. There isn't really a "sex therapist" or "intimacy therapist" out there. I'm so strangely touch and intimacy starved.​I know a relationship or sex won't heal me of my depression, but it's definitely a large part of the human experience that I'm missing out on. Despite being depressed, I've always strangely had a touch of optimism. Part of me really feels like I can get better - I've had some awesome, attractive, smart women be interested in me, and I've probably confused the hell out of them by blowing them off due to being so down, in pain and I guess insecure. Friends have described me as super charismatic (definitely am when I hit my stride) and funny, and that's also why they were shocked to find out I had so many issues with women.​Then the other half of me thinks I'm going to just grow up being that broken weirdo who can't connect or experience intimacy.​I'm almost tempted to commence therapy and just book flights to Thailand and just go on a sexual tear to get some experience, but I don't think that'd be mentally healthy for me.​I'm out of options and would love your help! Thanks so much :) via /r/dating_advice

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day 1 journal

so

here i am

after all this time

make the changes you need

and stop being a broken record

it feels good being able to type on a keyboard again. strange that i haven't been able to for months.

i like not being a computer slave though.

also, this computers HDD may die soon

it's probably worth getting some sort of HDD that you can collect all your various datas and throw them together

it'd be nice to have the photos. even if photos make me sad.

i think what's sad is just what you've given up

and for nothing of lasting value

nor people who valued you for you

well maybe that last point is a bit dramatic

maybe just write out your emotions and let yourself cry and be a human again

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you got to love/shake your head at the excuses used for the various drug addictions i ended up stacking on top of one another

the reality is that you are intelligent, but you've not lived intelligently

stop handicapping yourself. it's illusionary pleasure, distraction

it could be a videogame addiction. but it wasn't. it was drugs.

the cheapest shortcut

and of course, there's a lot of price to pay eventually

it doesn't seem like it at the time but that's how it transpires.

i'm sick of being a drug addict and not reaching my true potential. not facing the reality of life. of course it's hard. but you've made it harder, through short term thinking.

you're midway through your 20s. this is in someways the most productive period of your life.

it hasn't all been a waste. you've been relatively functional. but you don't see things through enough. you could have done far more. also, you need to get out of this environment.

this house has been fun. it's also been illuminating. the place has been mostly a total fucking sty. indulgent nothingness. you had some fun times with friends, who you thought would always be there for you. the reality is that some of those friendships are not like that, and are built on very shaky foundations.

i want to hold myself to a higher standard. i want to do more good in this world. i want to be able to properly look after myself.

it's ok for it to be hard. it's ok for this to be a struggle. believe believe believe

i've had enough signs from god to know it'll all be fine.

don't forget the signs. they are telling you to change path. this is a time of change.

even if it's hard. not fun. even if sobriety fucking freaks you out, or stresses you out

eventually that'll fade. and you'll be free. and infinitely better off.

the whole living with high people sitting on a couch playing games or watching tele, doing fuck all, messy place, no money, it's too sad and empty. it's not what i want for myself or for anyone else, there's a lot more to life. you used to know this. you still know this, but you've made the decisions.

time to make another decision. the decision to not use today.

just a day at a time. you don't need to quit forever. plenty of people have slip ups anyway.

just one day. one day is more than none.

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i just saw someone walk by my window. and middle aged but poorly aged woman smoking a cigarette, wearing baggy, cheap, scrappy looking active wear / salvos stock. you see a lot of the older, poor people in the kilburn area. even the people your aguish at savers (sam commenting what was she doing with her life). that is a result of decisions by and large. it begins with the decision to smoke a cigarette. then drugs, alcohol, whatever - it ends up coming before alll else. even appearance. showering.

their lives aren't necessarily bad. it's not my place to make a value judgement about the content of their character. because that so easily could be you. it's a result of decisions, one after the other.

these people may be carrying burdens that you have no idea of

at the end of the day though, i don't want that

i don't want to be poor as shit on a pension, scraping by

getting the bus because there's no other options

picking cigarette butts off the ground

prioritising alcohol or whatever substance above all else

it's the relationship with it, and the decision one makes around them

is it a healthy relationship?

for me, obviously not. it's not the path i wish to walk down.

drug addiction very rarely ends in a positive manner, excluding stories of going straight. even the famous people for example who made it work would have likely been more effective / lived longer if they'd nipped it in the bud.

it's a crutch but you already knew how to walk

but you used it so much that you ended up forgetting how to walk

and was then afraid without it you'd fall flat on your face

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(−)-trans-Δ⁹   --  -tetrahydrocannabinol

anhedonia

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you already quit your opiate addiction earlier this year.

don't replace drug addiction with laptop addiction

you already know the sort of stuff you are good at and the work you can do

the goals you can and do hold

time to stop wasting

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i want to quit

that's why i'm on /r/leaves

that's why i'm going to make an account to keep accountable.

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other thing about living situation - no matter how many problems you think you have and that you've neglected through drug use, it's not like that applies just to you. ky is the same, hence that list i wrote earlier talking about his actions. how they reveal a lot of flaws in the way he interacts with others / honesty. that's the other thing about weed. oh, it's so chill. people who smoke like ky are so chill. well, not really. it's artificial and fake. you've seen him lose his shit. act in a pretty crappy way. he's human like the rest of us, but he is still stuck in using weed and as soon as he gets back, he likely will again. it makes more sense then him going sober, paying his bills, changing the way he interacts to be more honest instead of trying to remove any amount of difficulty / disturbance from his life.

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think of all the times you scraped for res

searched the ground for bud

smoked weed covered in cat  hair

checking stash spots that you know you don't have any weed in

but MAYBE

maybe there'll be something

opening baggies and collecting particles

filtered bong water to collect plant matter that had fallen through

didn't it make you feel rather grubby? to take a drug to such an extent, to never not try maximise etc.

instead of just waiting until the next time, it had to be MAXIMUM

no waste

but that sounds too positive, no waste

considering every second spent on that behaviour was a total waste.

don't ever go back to that.

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a random catholic covered a church being robbed for 1000 dollars. that's a spirit of awesome generosity. you could be that type of person if you make the necessary decisions.

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by the time you are sober , by your next bday, you'll have three years essentially

three years to work it out, get your shit together and make something of yourself

not that 30 is a deadline for life. but for me, i'd like to be well on the way then.

the sooner the better

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you're reading weed defenders defend their drug on redid and it's hilarious in a sense, sad in another. it really drives home the bad stereotypes about the drug and the obvious delusion most daily stoners labour under. 'i'm still productive, i've still achieved things' - like what? - not much -

think of people like mark carey . supposedly smart, knows a lot about science blah blah blah. yet he's mid 30s , achieved fuck all and that doesn't appear to be changing anytime soon.

maybe the debauched lifestyle is romanticised to help those who live with it. shame that it convinces others, such as myself, to jump deep into that pool. especially with it's connections to art and music. the reality though - you and everyone else for that matter would be better off (bar those with seizures / genuine medical use eg. NOT ANXIETY OR DEPRESSION IT MAKES IT WORSE EVENTUALLY)

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if you get through all this mess, it'll be something to be proud of and proof of the strength i have to draw on.

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SOBER

Stop,  observe - with detachment - how do i feel?

Breathe - deep slow breaths

Examine - why do i feel like this?

respond - not react.

10 minutes meditation

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remember zoe from work commenting about how i should just leave instead of wanting to get evicted. i was annoyed at the time because of course i was thinking it's not that simple.

there's ky, the band, cats, money owing , shared responsibilities yada yada yada

but the reality is it is that simple

you've accepted so much that is unacceptable through acquiescence through drug use.

kyrons constant fucking around with money.

it's been months and months of being fucked around.

so come on. time to wake up.

it is that simple. and necessary.

mum will help you. you can then rebuild, and change your life.

i could be in a position where i could move to japan if i hadn't smoked weed.  i probably would have finished university, if not prior to working at  child support, certainly the next year and a half of not really being that employed.

you still did a lot of things in a sense. they just weren't very productive. time spent at salvos. working writing jobs. won that writing competition. wrote an entire film script. made music, improved skills , and exposure.

you may be entering in some senses your golden period.

plenty of people make use of themselves later then 27

sure, we hear plenty about the young who are already running out the gate

you made decisions to build friends, have memories, different experiences and exposures to different lifestyles. that is valuable and this part of your life is not wasted. in fact, by recognising how much more i am capable of, and by beating numerous difficult drug addictions, i'm proving my ability as a human, growing. i don't think it's true that weed puts you in a COMPLETE stasis, but maybe i was lucky because i still liked doing things / reading / learning. plenty just sit about playing fortnite. the reality though is that i could have done A LOT more. and that makes a difference. you've gained an interesting perspective into different ways of living / people. even if you think about high school, nearly all your friends were kinda middle class and well off and not turning to drugs. now you're with the drudgers , it's all dysfunctional , single parent homes. maybe that's a bit harsh and inaccurate. at the end of the day though, hardcore drug use is dysfunctional and dysfunctional people will be drawn to this.

you have been dysfunctional. this is why you've alienated a lot of former friends, through treating them inappropriately. things won't get better unless you make a proper effort at becoming functional. and you can. a lot of the things that motivated you to take drugs initially - lack of being cool, having friends/fun, trying new , different things, and even though i probably didn't think of it, taking the easy way out to feeling good and ignoring the bad of life and my self-esteem issues from not fitting in as a younger person. i wasn't very assertive when i first came back over. i found it hard to talk to others blah blah blah. even though socially things were better in wales then melbourne/rose park, there was still plenty of mistakes and growing pains. these are not problems anymore. i'm a lot wiser. and there's still a lot of mountains to climb, but different ones. not just sitting at the top of the one i climbed years ago. in fact, i've been atrophying and going backwards in a lot of those areas - DUE to drugs. it has kept me static but also dysfunctional, and over time, i've had that manifest through bad behaviour that has alienated my friends. at a certain point they have to give up. it's for their own health as well.

day 1 for weed, day 7 for tobacco. keep it up.