#i hope i find a good home for her

[dead-rabbit-comics]

un deux trois il a vingt-neuf ans (not quite yet, i am early finishing these for my partners birthday)

things to improve - messy selvages - terrible seams - planning and estimating yarn amounts - planning speed maybe

first time - doubling up the border threads in the warp for stronger selvages - making a spreadsheet with all the info - very helpful, could be neater - using a thinner yarn in the weft for the bits that become the seams. good idea, great idea, a few issues there: edges pulled up even when giving a lot of slack. because of that i only did 3cm of it. which was really not enough for a neat finish and made the seams embarrassingly messy on the back. - using these weights when beaming the warp

i love them.

very happy with the textures these sequences gave me, want to put together a neat reference to file.

okay so. planning and estimating yarn amounts needed when you don't have information on the yarn because you bought offcuts or how to deal with this.

design wise projects like towels are very suited. making several pieces of sth. on one warp means if you run out of weft material you can just. change it. figuring out g/m was trickyyy i got different results from calculating it based on a sample and weighing part of the warp. so i took a conservative average to do my calculations. now that i am finished it turns out i could've maybe squeezed in one more towel. hypothetically it could be interesting to instead map out that range a bit more thoroughly and look at that.

overall planning took much longer than anticipated and weaving was a lot quicker. i'm happy i did this last project on my loom, i think i'm ready to sell her now. knowing it's the right decision doesn't make it less of a heartache though ; _ ;

#planning to be loomless for a while! #i hope i find a good home for her #weaving

[honeyvenommusic]

❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-

#glass animals #honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh???? #like….. when i say wore out #i cannot describe how much i listened to it #i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number #like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened) #i cannot recall w this #gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke #so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao #(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol) #anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night #driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in #sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who???? #had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused #it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song #then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky & #ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work #(i was right & it blew her miiind) #god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok #i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this #highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift #a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them #as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?) #a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

i just came out to a real life person and i think im having a heart attack

#IT WAS SO UNPLANNED I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT AT ALL I DIDN'T EVWN THINK WE WERW FRIENDS?? #she lives in the building next to mine and we go to tui together to divide the auto fare and we've been walking home 2-3 dino se #and she likes kpop and kdramas #but like there isn't that Spark yk like oh ny god i love u best friends forever its a little awkward and formal still #but we were talking about something and oh my god #when we reached home we were standing uski building ke neeche and she was like i want to introduce you to my childhood bestie i think you #two will like each other #and i was like kinda weirded out like um are we that close yet i thought we were just classmates 😭😭 #so i asked ki oh why all of a sudden #and she's like 'i like you' and i look at her and laugh and she said STOP LAUGHING i don't meant it like that im straight ok #and idk something in me snapped i was like oh are u homophobic too? #but pls she didn't know what it meant 😭 so i explained ki do u hate gay people then #she said no no ofc not SO I JUST BLURTED OUT KI good cause im bisexual #THE SHOCK ON HER FACE OMG im saying this now in freaking out now but at that time i said it really coolly and proudly without fumbling #my voice didn't drop down to a low volume or waver or anything (which im so proud bc she's like the first irl person ive come out to face #to face??????? i mean obv childhood friends don't count they're all gay #but anyway she was like OH and then SHE FUMBLED she was like oh nice i respect u very much and it was so awkward i was like haan haan shut #up just don't tell anyone very few ppl know 😭and she wasn't done she was like so as i was saying #we're growing old and real good friendships are getting harder to find and i like you (stop laughing!!) and i hope we don't jinx it #and she literally touched a wooden table lying there and said touchwood???? 😭😭😭😭😭 #now i am thinking why did i tell her she's so extroverted she talks to everyone we go to the same tui this town is tiny #she could tell everyone my parents could find out #but also a part of me is relieved cause im so sick of hiding something that is such a small yet imp part of me #and if she tells everyone then cool maybe there'll be more queer people i can't ve the only queer person in this town and we could be #friends and my parents eh they'd never believe something like that they'll ask me if it's true and ill say nah just rumors dumb kids #and they'll believe me because they'll want to believe me so bad #so no harm #i still don't feel very bestfriendy with her but maybe my standards are too high 😭 idk ig i can't see myself being friends with her #for a long time if we weren't forced by circumstances and i don't like her that much but im happy i got to say it #literally said it omg 'kyunki main hu. bisexual' FUCK THAT FELT GOOD

[kitsune-kaos]

This sweet baby was hella shy and stand-off-ish when she first arrived, but suddenly I became her favorite person 😆💕

#now today she went off to the adoption center 🥹 #I’m gonna miss her but I’m happy she’s one step closer to reaching her new home #I just hope a good family finds her 💕 #me #gay person of youth #shelter life #doggy kisses

[pepprs]

discovered miah_pie on t*ktok (<- i don’t have one btw i just stumbled upon her bc someone i follow on ig talked abt her) and her videos make me want to cry so bad. 24 year old dependent moment

#purrs #i went to a clothing store today to try to get new work shoes and pants bc the one pair i have of each literally have holes in them and are #falling the fuck apart on my body and it was a HORRIBLE experience largely bc i think everybody in town was out shopping for back to school #so it was super crowded and there were lots of screaming kids and it was extremely stressful + my dad got into a mini car accident while i w #was in the store (he was / is completely fine thankfully but the car is not which is so awesome 😍😍😍😍😍) and i was just so stressed and #overstimulated but also like… nothing fits me bc im so short lol. but anyway it was so horrible i was on the verge of starting to cry in the #store and then i came home empty handed and my mom got super pissed at me for… needing to go to the store / being the reason we were out lol #and then finding miah pie and her videos are all about making trips to the store SO much fun and buying little treats and saying yessir and #OHHHHHH MYYYYY and just finding the joy in smth that can be so stressful and unpleasant… it makes me want to cry happy and sad tears at the #same time like i want that soooo bad and i can’t do it fully yet but i want it. need it. fuck my stupid baka life #anyways im gonna start saying the stuff she says just to make myself feel better even when im not at a store. yessir! OHHHHHH MYYYYYY. #acquired. don’t mind if i diddly dooooo! #also btw i am not a dependent except for the ways i am a dependent. hope that helps 🫶🏻 #the problem is really that i don’t have a car or a license and also that my mom throws a fit every time i need / want to get driving #practice bc it’s never a good time so. lol 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 me doing drivers ed this summer was a fucking joke i forget literally everything i #learned and have only been behind the wheel 3 times and none of them have actually counted bc im just developing basic motor skills #(literally). fmlllll im never getting out of here who am i kidding 🤪 #delete later

[shidoukanae]

i found a new shiny thing i finally like and boy am i in deep

#high card #Chris's sister who i think is named Michelle?? #chris redgrave #finn oldman #unnamed atm sister character who i will probably die for #I really hope that Finn gets to meet Chris's sister before he knows she's his sister #like either helping her find her way home because she's lost and he's got a soft spot for kids #or maybe helping her search for a keychain she dropped #and after which he gets a little bit of bonding moment with her because #hey #he's good with kids and she's a little shaken so he's really nice to her #and then Chris shows up and tries to approach his sister #but Finn Does Not Trust him suddenly approaching a girl and being really weird about it #so he separates them not knowing their siblings until Chris literally spells it out for him #because i really REALLY think that would be a funny as fuck way of introducing Chris's sister to Finn

[bitchapalooza]

Why are dog harnesses so expensive, I just wanna splurge on my dogs’s comfort

#POSSIBLY getting paid this week? the unemployment sight has been down for a week so I wasn’t able to file #maaaaaaybe next week I can buy em some harnesses that would be a better comfort to em #I hope so :( Sadie’s collar doesn’t fit anymore and daisy just #isn’t able to wear hers anymore bc she’s having what he think are reverse sneezing fits? #it started back when the weather here went from 30-41 daily and suddenly shot up to #the mid 60s for two days #and then we had a week of rain #so it’s definitely triggered by the change in weather #hooooopefully we can find a vet near us for low income? our friend told us about some but they’re all the way out in Knoxville #we haven’t looked around us yet because we’re too preoccupied with the rent situation that is temporarily fixed rn #hopefully we can find one.m nearby if it exists I really miss the low income program they had back home they were really kind and good #talkies

[kits-ships]

Hey, I was wondering how you were able to write captions next to your f/o pictures on your carrd? :Oc it looks really nice!

thank u!! my carrd is jerry-rigged beyond belief but shh thats ok <3 ill explain it as best i can!

the main container is four columns!

the first column has a gallery in it with the doctor, master, azi+crow, and campbell's icons!

the second column is where the captions are! its all one textbox with everyones name/status/tags

(ignore my spellchecker roasting me)

(same thing with the other half!)

this is the little page that splits up the container btw! it was way too hard to get 100% even but thats ok !

other settings if you like specifics:

#kit's questions! #i hope this was helpful even if the way its set up is very silly! #time to tag all my little fools in the pics #also #tw long post #long post #d; youre a book thats not quite finished but ill watch you fill the page #m; ive been fooled many times; but you seem to truly be mine #ac; as sure as god made black and white #c; i love everybody because i love you ! #a; baby are you coming for the ride? #h; inside the hollow word i can only hope this will do some good #f; im taking your girl and making her mine #e; cant your heart find its home in me?

[satari-raine]

Thank you all for the birthday wishes yesterday. I really, really appreciate it. <3 Hope everyone is having a good holiday season or a relaxing last few days of the year. Hang in there, and take care of yourselves as best you can. Rooting for you all, as always.

#Satari rambles #Christmas is a bit bittersweet #Mostly in part because today is my late father's birthday and that's still as prominent an ache as ever #Especially with so much changing in my childhood home since he passed and since I've been gone at college #Which isn't a bad thing entirely but it sometimes lacks that warmth it had when I was a kid #But my mother and her husband are happy and healthy and the pets are all good so I'm happy to see that at least #Here's to hoping I can find work and a place of my own in the new year though #Ready to make my own traditions in my own space as well as have my own space #And spoil all my friends' kids because I can (and because I certainly don't have any of my own) #Who knows? Might even find a partner this new year maybe #(Doubtful for several reasons but hey) #Anyway #Ignore my weird ramblings #Rooting for you all though #Hope these days are as painless as possible and if not that you can find some comfort somewhere

[cithaerons]

i’ve been getting her in my ads non-stop since may...... she is haunting me.....

#i hope she finds a good home..... #i would adopt her but i cannot be trusted with an 18th century portrait #and i also don't have $800 to spare

[mxdotpng]

sitting here twiddling my thumbs trying to decide how adaline's story ends. it isnt happy either way but its a matter of how.

#.text #im actually doing homework. but still #adaline rozovy #u know its like either she dies or doesnt. and gets a fate worse than death. either way she does not get a happy ending #like on one hand. they bring her back to old sharlayan and try to heal her. they try so hard. but in the end it does not matter #and she is gone. #and she leaves everyone behind. #on the other. what if she just. didnt come back. #like if there was no way home from the end of the universe. and she was stuck there. wandering. waiting. #nobody would come find her. because they dont think there is anything left to find. #even then. how would they even get to her. #they couldnt. so she'd kinda just be. Gone. they would be holding out hope she would return & she would hope #They returned. but neither happens. #i dont think time like. moves. there. either. so he'd be laying there bleeding unable to do anything for so. so. long. #there is no hydaelyn there to save her either. #goodbye forever adaline u had a good run

[kennabeth]

dustfinger: I love all of my children equally, brianna, farid, and [looks at smudged writing on hands] john

#tcor spoilers #HATE that there was no actual resolution this #i understand fully that it can be difficult when your partner's child (who is not also yours) looks like their other parent #feelings are hard to change! sure! #but: roxane is friends with her husband's affair partner. atp he has no right to show any hurt over her remarrying #and that includes taking it out on jehan #he doesnt say himself that theres any resentment (which is odd bc he loves telling us all his shitty thiughts usually; too stressed out #for self reflection right this second?) #but nyame talks about how obvious and infuriating it is #not to say jehan's making it up (i would never never never doubt my babiest boy) but it's bad enough that people outside the family see it #('outside the family' it's his uncle but outside the home ig) #where was i going with this #having a was-hoping-id-find-the-end-of-this-thought-when-i-came-to-it moment #oh right the lack of self reflection made me wonder if dustfinger knew he was acting like this at all #and i was PRAYING for nyame to chew him out over it #there were so many good spots for that conversation too #when df was practically dead for the third time and jehan stayed with him to make sure he didnt actually die #i expected 'i dreamed about you burning alive every night for ten years' levels of dustfinger being yelled at from jehan #and we literally?? didnt get a single chapter from either of their povs at that time?? what the actual fuck man #okay not to be like 'i could write this better' but a way more satisfying conclusion to everything that started #with nyame saying the two of them are so similar #would have been [jehan rightly makes dustfinger feel bad about continuing to be a terrible father] -> [jehan storms off to orpheus' to #'offer' dustfinger in exchange for the book but the adults dont know where he went] -> [nyame comes back and also yells at df #for letting his kid run off and drive home that he really is failing jehan and points out to him their similarities] -> #[df goes oh shit i also tried trading innocent people for a book] -> #[whatever. resolution] #do u see what i mean #his ~apology~ to meggie in book 2 is so good while being in character #and he cant apologize to his stepson? he barely fking knew meggie lmao #says kenna

[onepiexe]

had an insanely good day at work

#logbook #but then the drive there and back was bonkers. nearly hit 2 pedestrians. #and then there was some dude driving like a tiny cement filler or maybe a tractor idk. #other stuff abd ppl. but whew. glad im home safe lol. #anyways todayyy was gooood. #i texted c and we had a lil chat. then i texted the mst supervisor for nnl and offered to talk to her when i come by this week. #to which she greatly agreed. so i hope it goes well. i'll do that thurs i've decided. #and then i texted grc (aka the c*sta rep) and found out hes in town this week. so he asked when im working and said he wants to talk #when i get off work and have a chat 😭 augh. im going to miss working with them. hes coming by hl tmrw. #and THEN i told him he should talk to mst at nnl and told her i said for him to find her if he has time. #so i hope it works out. debating if i text grj too. #ummm what else. ds told me THE funniest but also saddest story abt a previous holiday she had. #yeah idk it was good and then o texted me and my day was kinda ruined. but its NOT her fault. actually mad at mst lol. #im going to bed so i can get up and be at work and im planning to work on my info booklet im making. #gn everybody<3

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i truely have so much anger built up inside me about my job. ive done a very good job of making it unbearable #and after taking a 10 day vacation. plus 2 days of not working bc im sick. i really dont wanna go back #i was planning to take 3 days to not do fucking anything but my boss just emailed me with some time sensitive #logistical things. so like i guess i gotta fucking do that tomorrow. i started reading the email and it made my head hurt #and she started it off like. hopw ur feeling better and i dont wanna cause stress but... #like bro. listen. if u tell me these things u put them in my head and i csnt stop thinking abt them until theyre done. and its not her #fault bc im the one that put myself in a place where im barely keeping it together. its just frustrating #bc it feels like hope u feel better but also kill urseld 💖 but again thats just how it feels bc im so. idk how to describe it im like in a #state of post burnout. im sitting in the ash. alone in a desolate landscape and its like jesus how tf do i fix this? #and i cant even run out my anger rn bc im sick. and i mean i have the energy to run i dont feel lethargic but like i doubt that would aid #recovery lol. ugh. 2 months. thats all. then i move away. assuming i find a place to live lol. bc i currently haven't yet #but whatever. assuming i get better quickly and dont get worse and dont get covid on top of this cold bc my dad got covid #it will have been a bit of a blessing i came back sick bc i have a clear justification for not working and for telling people to fuck off #when they ask for things from me. like today a lab mate asked if i could sample Monday. which it technically #a holiday but i probably would have said yes if i wasnt sick. and i would have had to teach undergrads some bullshit friday if i wasnt sick #instead i just did nothing all day bc i almost moved bsck my flight and didnt leave home until the weekend anyway #i guess its good i didnt bc then i would have been stuck in ohio bc my dad found out he had covid yesterday #idk its all just frustrating bc im halfway in a transition and im not doing very well but i cant do anything to fix things until i leave #the southwest. like i dont even kno if i have health insurance rn. my benifits change request was processed but like does thst mean it was #approproved? fucking idk. so everytime i do anything i imagine a worstcase scenario where i end up hospitalized and damned to an empty #bank account or eternal medical debt. tho my mum said they passed a law where they arnt allowed to do thst to u anymore 🤷‍♂️ #whatever. im annoyed. i dont wanna work 😫 #unrelated

[thebestestbat]

raven and jgy are also kind of complete opposite characters bc jgy's entire teenage and young adult life was about trying to find a way to become his evil father's right hand man and raven's entire teenage and young adult life was about avoiding her evil father's attempts to make her his right hand woman.

#so mdzs is kind of like if there was a side character who was like raven except it was raven whose dad hated her and she wanted his love #so bad that she got so smart and good at committing evil crimes in the hopes that he would notice and love her #but then he only used her and never loved her and in the end she realized he was just a piece of shit rapist and killed him plus 29 women #AND THEN her old best friend. whose older brother/father figure she killed while working for her own dad. knew what she had done #and concocted a whole plan that would out raven as evil (and in mdzs this raven cares so much about her reputation like sooo much) #if raven did not kill herself. and then the friend changed her mind (its a girl friend if raven is a girl) and tricked raven's best friend #into killing her. and also the old friend had dug up arella's body and destroyed it. #the end :) #ALSO ON THE OTHER HAND. so ntt is like what is jgy was raised by a cult who taught him cultivation but made him feel guilty about it #and that he had to use it to help people or he was evil. bc he was born evil and has to change it #and he has no friends and no mother. they didnt even let him talk to his mother #and he realizes that in order to save the world from himself he has to leave his mother and everything he knows #and he can never go back. and the people he finds to help him don't understand him and he doesn't understand them #and he still has to use his cultivation to help people and everytime he does it hurts him #and he thinks he made a mistake to leave his home because his evil father is getting even closer and closer and everything hurts so much #and it is so much harder now to not be angry. and he cant ask anyone for help because he left behind the person who would always tell him #how to get rid of emotions #THE END i dont actually know the end of raven's story alskdjf havent read that far #jgy #raven

[berryblu-soda]

been hesitating to post this bc i usually try to be super chill and upbeat, but im also trying to be more genuine, so here it is i guess (im doing okay, dont worry)

this probably warrants a trigger warning even tho nothing ever really happened :/

i´d like to thank from the bottom of my heart the friends ive made on this silly little site, i may be a almost a stranger to some of you, im not the greatest at keeping contact with anyone, but if i call you a friend its because you have very special a place in my heart <3<3<3

when i first made tumblr i was really struggling, it felt almost impossible to see anything lovable in myself, if it were up to my whims back then, i wouldve made myself poof out of existence, leave no trace behind. "Goodbye to that worthless piece of trash, everythings so much better without her"

it wasn´t that there was anything wrong at home, my family´s always been nothing but loving and caring to me, but i just struggled to understand *why* that was, i wasn´t contributing financially, functionally, nor did i excell at absolutely anything (looking back, i didn´t have to, i was literally 14) , everything id ever been remotely good at i knew someone who was better than me by a long shot. i didn´t have any irl friends, i had my cousins, but being family it felt a little like they were conditioned and obligated to love me because we were family

i felt alone despite being surrounded by people who loved me, i´d grown too used to it to recognize it as genuine love, so meeting you guys really helped me know that hey! maybe people arent just nice to me because they feel obligated to be! you guys inadvertedly gave me the support i needed to continue living life! And for that im endlessly grateful for <3

i can recall several times, when i was beating myself up over the simplest of mistakes, i genuinely didn´t want to exist if i wasn´t perfect, but when my spiraling got too bad and i´d even start to think of how i´d explain to yall that i´d finally given up on living, i´d start bawling my eyes out, beause I couldn't do that to yall, I still had messages to reply to, friends to wish happy birthday to... i would be devastated if any of you guys left and i couldn´t do anything to help you

so i made myself stick around, to hold on to whatever i could even if it consisted of numbing myself to the point of it being unhealthy. and ive lost years trying to get a grip and snap back to reality, but i made it! im happy these days, and i know no matter what happens im glad im still alive. And hey, maybe i´ll start digging myself into a pit again eventually, this post has been sitting in my drafts a couple weeks and in that time ive had some less than ideal days where i felt myself slipping into that old, sad, lonely, self deprecating mentality, but the difference between back then and now is that now i know i made it out of there once, and i know what´s real because ive already recognized it before, my family isnt lying to me when they say they love me, my fiends arent lying to me when they say they care about me, the only one whos lying to me is myself, saying im not worth any of that. 

so i´ll say it again, thank you friends, for existing and being there, for being my lifeline and not letting me go off the deep end, and acting as band aids for my emotional self-inflicted wounds, i´m not sure how i can ever pay you back, i´m here if you ever need me, i love you, please take care <3

#when i tell you guys to remind your friends you love them and you miss them and not hold back openly caring for them this is why #you dont know how much a ´´i would miss you´´ can mean to someone; gosh... #every time i tell you guys i love and miss you and want you to take care of yourselves i mean it with all my heart #i hope the fact i say it so often doesnt make you think its any less genuine #anyways #personal #shut up sheo #<- man i should really change that tag #i have so much more to say but maybe that´s for a vent post some other day #this is first and foremost a thank you letter to the friends ive made here #old and new; i appreciate you guys so muche <3<3<3!!! #*much #mental health #oh boy i hope my mom doesnt find this or something; i dont think she ever grasped how bad i was doing ahahaha; which isnt really her fault #like i said i have a good home life; rationally there should be nothing hurting me to this extent; but i guess i have a talent <3 #also something that really helped me was my religion #something abt knowing God deliberately made me; specifically me!!! he wanted me to exist!!! #is really comforting #my existence was intenderd from the start; or else i never wouldve existed <3 #that might be such a simple conclusion to reach for some of you but it took me sooo long