#i hope i get better

[savebylou]

He loves the chaos [Algo de música, 06.04.24].

#i struggle with this one #this is not that colorful #i was trying to not make stand out the shadows/reflects of lights because they were to distracting for me #anyway #i hope i get better #he loves the chaos #louis quotes #my gifs #gif making course #louis interviews #louis in argentina #algo de música #louis tomlinson

[billkaulitzwife]

helloo

so i thought id log on to say im so sorry for being inactive now, tumblr doesnt seem like a fun place for me anymore. i do love posting and gaining traction and what not, but recently ive been focused on writing on ... a certain orange app + regular stories on my own without any fandoms and shi.

im not sure if this will be my last post.

i hope not, but at the same time i hope it is.

please understand its not because i just want to abandon everything ive made here, its just that id really enjoy other things. i rarely post anyways so it shouldnt make a difference.

if you need to find any other posts + reach me + read other works...

insta: _bxsitos_

snap: wonderless09

wattpad: _bxsitos_

discord: bxsitos

i loved being apart of this app but for now im going to focus on things that make me happy.

thank you to all who support me.

so for the last time for awhile,

ich liebe dich.

#goodbye #the outsiders 1983 #the doodlebops #tumblr #farewell #goodnight tumblr #i hope i get better

[notyour3amthoughtss]

you know that feeling when you don't feel sad but you're not happy either,

when you know nothing is wrong but you feel something isn't right either,

like you can feel you life falling apart again but you just don't have the energy or motivation to fix it,

you just wait to be saved but you don't wanna be saved either

its like you're falling apart and hoping to be put together on your own

Idk how to put it into words it's just life's falling and i can't do anything to fix it,

Or maybe I can but I'm too lazy to do it

#feeling nothing #i dont even know #i hope i get better

[bvannn]

Wish me luck gang

#it’s not on my knee but it is still scary #i hope i get better

[corviiids]

my top bit of advice going into the new year: compliment people. especially strangers. literally everyone you interact with if you can. when you buy coffee in the morning compliment the barista's tattoos. when you're chatting with a coworker tell them that by the way you like their outfit. always find something they've chosen to do on purpose. nail polish, jewellery, tattoos, hair colour/style, statement accessory, outfit, etc are all good bets. things people hope will be noticed. things that aren't too personal so it doesn't make them uncomfortable (eg probably not their physical features). i've gotten into the habit of scanning everyone i talk to for something about them that i think is cool so i can tell them. it's a great habit because it makes me notice people and realise just how many neat little details there are in people's presentation of themselves that might pass me by if i wasn't paying attention. and it brings out so much joy. you'd be surprised how much it disarms people to receive an unexpected compliment from someone they don't know. it is the most sincere smile you will see all day long. it feels nice to make people happy but it also means you win the social interaction. establish dominance by complimenting a stranger's earrings and disappearing into the fog

#rookposting #the little 'oh!' followed by a big grin is now my highlight in every interaction i have with a stranger #you can always spot the things people hope will be noticed and you have no idea how happy it makes people when it gets noticed #i find it's always better to compliment things they did deliberately vs complimenting stuff like their voice or their face or other things #that are inherent or they cant change because that can make people uncomfortable for one thing to hear that from a stranger #but it's also just less meaningful imo because they didnt do that on purpose

[wuntrum]

pioneering something called "gritted teeth optimism" where everything is gonna turn out okay even if i have to bite and claw and gnash my way through it

#personal #ahHahahahHa 😁<- me gritting my teeth #will keep telling myself this until things get better. i hope thats soon

[apollos-boyfriend]

“the writer’s strike will impact your favorite tv show!!!1!1!���

#icarus speaks #like. yeah that’s the fucking point 😭 #i don’t want to watch a show if the writers aren’t being treated fairly. #like i thought that was the consensus. i hope shows get stalled and held back because of this #because that proves that striking DOES work and also will better the quality #cause the writers will actually be treated like people 😭

[bedrottting]

im such an impulsive bitch but at least I'm doing my best for a media detox (no more Twitter or Instagram for a while)

#i hope i get better

[stellarspecter]

@pscentral event 20: antagonists ↳ THE LORDS IN BLACK in NERDY PRUDES MUST DIE

#nerdy prudes must die #npmd #starkid #npmdedit #team starkid #the lords in black #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #npmd spoilers #userisiah #userfaiths #userbaz #usercats #userhallie #noooo fucking clue what to tag in this fandom lmao #musicaledit #? sure #anyway yeah i watched npmd and immediately had to make this i was up until 1 am last night #wouldve been earlier but i had to take a break for dnd lol #i was gonna do a tua set for the event but this is easier and better so like. slay #i just wish they had more screen time. pokey and tinky have less than 20 seconds each </3 #oh and the titles and stuff are from the fan wiki. hope i didn't get anything wrong #i've been getting a lot of use out of this motion blur text transition its so funky fresh #*edits

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[mienar]

the wandering painter, part one

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#artists on tumblr #illustration #animated illustration #animation #backgrounds #animated gifs #background illustration #myillust #landscape #plants #scenery #summer #hiii! just wanted to share an artwork i made that's super fresh from the oven ksfknsf #'the wandering painter' will be a series that consists of artworks that has elements that i struggle to draw and am trying to improve on! #ive always really struggled with the process of painting (for example) clouds fields grass grasslands flowers etc #despite the end result coming out satisfactory imo but i cant deny that it most of the time feels like a fluke #so this series would consist of my journey of improving how to draw said elements/areas more confidently :D #this artwork in particular - i studied and practiced how to paint/draw silver grass better along with grasses and clouds #i feel like im sorta getting the hang of it but theres definitely room to study and experiment how i can paint it better #so yeah! nonetheless i really hope you'll like this! and i hope you'll have a lovely day/night ahead <3333

[bluegiragi]

negotiations.

early access + nsfw on patreon

#dragons get so tunnel visioned when it comes to their hoard. often to their own detriment #y'all wanted to see price in action...you better savour it while you can #also i've not been intentionally neglecting laswell since i love her as much as the average joe #but i guess it just happened... #for the record she's still a human in this au but she keeps up with the best of them #ALSO also i had a ton of fun drawing this section #i hope it shows <3 #monster 141 au #captain john price #manuel roba #simon ghost riley #giragi art

[lastoneout]

Pacific Rim is the best movie ever made for the same reason Sif is the best boss in Dark Souls. It's not bcs of quality or craftmanship or whatever it's bcs when I hear "giant robots fighting giant monsters with the power of love" and "huge wolf with a big fucking sword" I am overcome with the urge to scream "HELL FUCKING YEAH" at the top of my lungs before headbutting a wall so hard I leave a dent in the plaster.

#yes the other movies are good for technical reasons and such whatever who cares #GIANT FUCKING ROBOT #if you cannot understand my vision then idk I hope you get better #pacific rim #dark souls #sif dark souls

[u3pxx]

based on this post that just absolutely killed me when i first read it wheezes

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #laios touden #laius thorden #chilchuck tims #chilchack #sunnysidedraws #thanks starry for this idea they are very ahgfghdj #OK SO I HAVENT FINISHED THE MANGA YET but i love these guys hope i can draw em more once i get the time <3 #suggestive text #im sorry that my first rendered drawing of them was a shitpost SGDJ #tbf my other idea was also . a shitpost so its like lose lose over here pftt #for the better right meme #sunnysidemeshi

[choccy-milky]

MC doing what we all wished we could do (aka napping on the floor with ominis )😴💕

#ill never get over how he just sleeps on the floor its so cute to me and seems so at odds with his personality which makes it better #hogwarts legacy #hphl #ominis gaunt #ominis gaunt x mc #ominis gaunt x oc #ominis x mc #hogwarts legacy ominis #hogwarts legacy fanart #hey look everyone its my nameless MC aka just brown haired clora LMAOOO #its like when u play a fighting game and you and your friend both choose the same chara. this is clora with a diff colour scheme BAHAHA #this has been in my wips for like a year im not even joking im glad to finally actually draw it properly LMAO #i also love how all of my ominis centric posts involve him on the floor/talking about the floor LMFAOO EVEN THE SMUT ONE #what can i say i just love a man who isnt afraid to chill on the floor ok #also i love a hypocritical man LMAO apparently. i always make seb a hypocrite and now im makin ominis one too #HOW COULD U SLEEP ON THE FLOOR MC? #meanwhile #also srry but dont get ur hopes up for more ominis content anytime soon this was just in my wips and i rly wanted to finally have it done #A RARE TREAT FOR THE OMINIS GIRLIES #choccyart

[rendevok]

“Take my hand” pages 16-18

1 -> 3 - day 4 - swap

#nmweek23 #narumitsu #wrightworth #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #fan art #fan comic #aa #rendevok #says ‘some time later’ bc im laughing at myself and also i said they had been kissing the whole time it took me to get to the next part #hope you liked your 8 month kissing session boys <333 #shoutout to edgeworth! i will be laughing at him via phoenix for the entirety of this comic #speaking of living vicariously i am so sorry for the sappy bullshit i put into their mouths but alas. *I* am a big sap! #this was one of those ones i was like ‘WOULD THEY THO oh wait who cares’ can i get a CHEERS BRO? #i’d like to promise that it gets better but. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) #until next time… [tuxedo masks into the night]