#i just dont feel like putting that in my characters and stories because in a way they are me you know

[ac3ifix]

Saiki or tsukishima with a male reader my beloved ❤️ i just love when the emotionally constipated boys have to deal with having feelings for someone, i’d love to request one (or both) of them hanging out with trans male reader and just then realising they are head over heels in like <3

Yea sorry for being gone for a month. I dont have an excuse other than I didnt feel like writing at all so yea.. Sorry ab that. Love you guys tho!!

Also, sorry if this isnt quite what you wanted, its sorta rushed and honestly not my best work at all. Also I know you mentioned trans reader but theres really no specifications on whether the reader is trans or not.

Tsukishima doesn’t understand love.

This story features: Clueless character, confusion, mutual understanding, sfw, fluff, boys kissing, height difference, can be read as either tmale or cmale

Wc: 408

He never really got it, why he was so unbelievably drawn to you. How he smiled when you laughed and how he was ready to kill someone when you were upset. Tsukishima Kei was infatuated by you. He walked with you to class, you watched his games, and he just enjoyed your company so much. He couldn’t understand it. Until one day he was talking with Yamaguchi.

“Hey Tsuki?” Yamaguchi had asked

“Hm?” He responded “What is it?”

“Do you.. uhm.. This is kinda an odd question but.. do you.. like (Name)?”

Tsukishimas eyes widen and he found himself saying,

“I think so..”

So thats what it was. Like, maybe even love. He liked you. He didnt know how he was going to deal with this newfound knowledge but now he understood what his feelings were. He had never had a girlfriend before, let alone a boyfriend, and he had no idea how to approach the idea of a crush. He was confused to say the least. And to be perfectly honest, that was all he thought about for the next couple of days. How was he going to tell you? He began to avoid you in the hallway, putting distance between you two as the truth became more evident to him. He knew he had to face it eventually so when you came up to him, tears staining your face, his face dropped.

“Who the fuck-“ He swore, cupping your cheeks in his hand.

“Why..Why have you been ignoring me Ts-Tsuki?” You asked him, your voice breaking.

“What- I haven-“ Oh. He realised. He had been avoiding you, hadnt he?

“Yes you have! You’ve been avoiding me like the fucking plague!” You said, tears beginning to fall again.

“Look, (Name) its.. Geez, this is hard to say… Its because I..I like you, I think..” He said, looking away from you in embarrassment.

Your eyes widened, you were dumbfounded, thats why he had been ignoring you? You had thought something had happened, you had assumed the worst.

“Tsuki..?” You mumbled, wiping your eyes.

“Hm..?” He said, now facing you again, shamefully.

You leaned forward, stood on your tip toes, and gave him a kiss. It was a soft kiss and he was surprisingly good at it, his hands ended up on your waist as he kissed you right back. You were both disappointed when the kiss ended.

Pulling away you muttered “I-I think I like you too, Tsukishima.”

#male reader #x male reader #bottom male reader #ftm reader #smut #x ftm reader #ftm sub #ftm bottom #ftm nsft #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu #tsukishima x you #tsukishima x reader #tsukishima kei #x male y/n #sub male reader

[fanofthelamb]

So I went dumpster diving in my tablet for the first lamb I ever drew and WOW... I found a lot of sketches I really don't plan on revisiting. I am jsut gonna dump them below the cut for people to see!! Some of it is lore related, some of it is shit I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HATE, but IDC!!! I will post it anyway for the tumblr users who I keep an eye on my notifs for. (yes, i see you guys. even if i dont always interact I see you and love you guys)

Anyway, here is the earliest drawin I have of me drawing the lamb!! I am going to write a comment under a lot of these to add context to them.

A cute little baby <3333 but I struggled a LOT of figuring out what the lamb was wearing, I eventually figured it out though. (I hope)

if you know, you know. (RIP VAL)

for my BTG AU. I decided I no longer wanted chemach to make the [spoiler] for the lamb, though, so I scrapped this

vaaaal,,,,,, i was still learning how to draw him, i wish i put pants on him but do those even exist in COTL? (yes)

I haven't been able to do much with them because I'm putting other stuff first, but Brear has two kids, Notre and Brejul who Narinder absolutely ADORES. he is the one who babysits.

fun fact but the lamb being touch repulsed is a projection LOL. i hate it when people touch me it feels so tickly and makes me want to bite their faces off. (but i am touch starved and i LOVE to show affection to other ppl, esp thru back rubs)

yes, they have a hoop for personal space. no, ill never use it.

drum corcl,,,, i love the little dancing guy that comes from the drums

more narinder and brear. they're not romantically interested in each other, but he is absolutely head over heels for brear, their brother, and the kids. they even call him dad sometimes.

[no context]

kallamar and leshy before their crowns. the scene i have related to this isn't happening anymore, but it was leshy begging to be taught to swim.

another "the one who baby sits" doodle. the bishops all came into the cult with a very good repuation thanks to narinder. he likes to tell the kids of the cult stories about how amazing his siblings were. at first, it was just to nobre and brejul with stories about leshy(he missed leshy a lot even though he was still mad at him, and the two reminded narinder of his time with leshy), but then it escalated into him hosting storytimes with larger groups after they started repeating some of the stories he'd tell them.

unfinsihed stuff about with the lamb and thier mom. their mom wasn't afraid of the bishops at all, but knew that they were a still a threat to her and her child's life. the lamb did NOT care for anyone thier mom didn't approve of/enthusiastically liked. they were much more afraid of the bishops than their mother.

i do not actually know if i posted this.i dont think so, but i giggle every time i scroll past it

brear and nobre <333

im still workong on BTG shit, and i post a little bit of the characters on here even tho the comics are going to be posted elsewhere. they have a "crownlike" beak, but a body part. there's different creatures who became gods through different ways; crowns are one way but their power is stuck with the crown and they are considered extremely weak compared to other gods. i wont blabber on about it tho.

so many sketches has random lines through em because i work with a tablet,,, i hate it. anyway, narinder and kallamar everybody!

sketches i made but didn't bother to finish of me and merbre,,,,,,,,, my husband #1 <3 them w/ narinder + merbre arent gonna be considered "canon" but damn it ill self-ship with them until i get a follower i can WORK with

i come back to this every few weeks and im never happy with it, i dont know if ill finish this but i think about them........ before the divorce </3

unused from an ask

heartstealer. menace. you can rip my heart out anytime, leshy <3

dreshy. he LOVES dresses and being pretty and cute and pretty. he sucks narinder into a lot and heket will sometimes join in if he demands asks her to <3

another unused drawing from an ask i'll eventually answer. (mildly offended at being called a mutton cube.)

.... aaand WOW! I think that's everything guys!! things are still kinda wild but they're calming down a little bit. idk how much longer it's gonna last like this but I have some energy so I made a way-too-long post showing off art I wasn't supposed to post! Awesome. :D

#cw gore #cotl au stuff in here #23 pics under the cut btw #cotl #cotl fanart #cult of the lamb #cotl lamb #the lamb #cotl narinder #cotl spoilers #cotl kallamar #cotl leshy #i dont think ill tag anymore #idek if i should've tagged this post at all #but well see how it plays out!! #THIS POST TOOK FOREVER TIME TO GO CLEAN

[moonpaw]

Fighting DEMONS rn trying not to get invested in one piece to figure out wtf you're posting about!!!!

come here cyber.... we have this thang

‎

#mp answers #i've been trying so hard not to be annoying to my bnha friends but if you will allow me to push this for this ask let me say 🙏 #if you're afraid of the episode count for one piece the manga is a lot quicker read while being just as enjoyable because the art style is #an actual delight. its great its fantastic im absolutely in love with it #the series is soooo good and i know luffy can seem unappealing to people before they start but he's just SUCH a great character & continues #to be even now. the story is SO GOOD the characters are SO GOOD... theres so much lore and world building that its insane #if you read the manga we get 'cover stories' on what's going on with previous characters to see what theyre up to even though we moved on #from where we left them. a lot of these cover stories blend into the main story so well its just seamless #there's one where we get introduced to a character we dont see hundreds of episodes into the anime and they show up like; during the second #saga. the series is about traveling to other islands and every single arc has been tied to another in some way or form that shows up later #even if its sagas and sagas later- it still becomes relevant again!! it's a huge ongoing story and there isnt a single arc that feels like #it has no purpose (sans filler in the anime-but even then!! some filler arcs are really entertaining!) #it's emotional! its sad! its downright stupid and silly but GOD... you can feel the love that oda put into this series and his characters #and the emotions in the expressions and the messages the story gives off it just makes me UEUHGHHAHGHH!!! #it's all about the adventure and the romance of it all! its about the freedom it brings and bringing freedom to others! #its a series where treasure should be a focus given its pirates and the its a giant treasure hunt for the one piece and yet! and yet so man #of the characters treasures are things that are not coins and gems but people and promises and family and and #im going to EXPLODE i love one piece

[rosykims]

ive played dao like 9 times at this point and still. and STILL the isolde/connor decision has me tearing my hair out gnawing my keyboard stomping around the house ready to lie down and never get up

#tay plays dao #in saying all that: i had an epiphany and im now at peace with elspeth killing this kid :) JKFJGKFG #I HATEEEEE IT I HATE THIS CHOUICE. AND YET. AND YETTTT #oc: elspeth #sigh. the things we do for rp........ #so my reasoning is : she's the most moral/lawful/goody-good character you can find and lawful good in the truest sense of the term #so blood magic just isnt an option for her #also she does lothering > circle > redcliffe so she's seen what blood magic is capable of and its way too fresh in her mind #and as a noble with literally zero experience or understanding of magic... what shes seen of blood magic is SO bad she isnt abt to risk it #(i also dismiss the circle mages option outright because she wont risk redcliffe and the castle all dying while shes out wasting time) #but still its like... when she walks into that room prior to making the Choice she's so ADAMANT that she wont be killing a child #and upon leaving she still feels that way. again she doesnt rly know that much about demons so shes still like ok maybe i can just #incapacitate him?? reason with him?? #bc thats what would happen to a hero in a story. they would find a way. there would be a happy ending. and she believes in happy endings #and she rly does see herself as the hero lol. #and then it doesnt happen and shes forced to make the choice and it absolutely destroys her sense of self. bc heroes dont DO that #and the story wasnt supposed to turn out this way !!!!!! and realizing this isnt some story and shes actually going to have to do #Horrific things. its a turning point for her #also a turning point for alistair and her relationship w him. bc he'd also put her on a pedastal this whole time #and now hes like. oh. all that honor and bravado is just something youre making up as you go huh #and then they have to get to know each other as flawed complicated people. not just.... ideals that they created of each other??? #WHEW. THIS IS LONG. SORRY. #DRAGON AGE SEASON BABEY LETS FUCKING GO LOL

[biblicalhorror]

Reading a court of thorns and roses bc it's been rec'd to me many times (by the same two friends mostly) and also I've never really read a smut novel before and Jesus christ this protagonist is insufferable

#first of all its like the author tried to recreate katniss everdeen without any fundamental understanding of her character #like the reason the whole 'i hunt and provide for my family because no one else will' thing works for katniss is that her mother is ill #and her sister is like 8 years old #so like yeah obviously she'd be the one to provide #but feyre is like 'i have to do everything around here because my two OLDER sisters simply dont feel like doing chores' #like what???? #i get that her dying mother for some reason put the responsibilities on her but it makes 0 sense #like whoever wrote this was clearly a youngest sibling with a martyr complex because its just. so heavy handed #also her insistence that nesta is simply too shallow and vapid to do what she does makes me roll my eyes every other page #honestly justice for nesta #1) if my sister started doing all of the hunting and providing without ever communicating why i would probably assume she wanted to do it #2) if after our mothers death she started completely resenting everything i do and glaring at me constantly id think she blames me for it #3) being around that kind of smug negative energy would absolutely make me start to be a little mean too even just as a defense mechanism #4) shes constantly assuming the worst in nesta and is proven at least twice to be an unreliable narrator in regards to nestas priorities #also that comment feyre made about how smug she felt after leaving knowing that her family would 'starve without her' god what an asshole #like you cant present yourself as so much morally better than your sisters and then turn around and say shit like that #anyway im hoping she becomes less insufferable as the story goes on #im told the first book is the worst in the series so i just gotta power through for the sake of world building #j reads acotar series #<<<feel free to blacklist if u dont want spoilers and/or critiques of this series bc i plan to vent on here a lot abt it

[todayisafridaynight]

i feel like the hello kitty doesnt do xanax post whenever i check the minedai tag on ao3 what is the obsession with piss im in agony

why did you just read my mind jesus fucking christ get out of my head youre so right tho this is so accurate and i feel this every day of my life and i feel insane and like im the one perceiving them weirdly so thank you anon for letting me know that im normal

#snap chats #NEGATIVE RANT BELOW IM SORRYYYY IM A LIL BIT OF A HATER #NO BUT PLEAAASEE I WAS JUST CRYING ABOUT THIS #not literally ofc but we know what i mean #minedai is technically one of the top five most popular pairings in rgg but like... #To Me- maybe im just picky and a party pooper- its just.. never done.. right? #i dont want to say right- the point of fiction is to have fun and yk be creative #and theres no right or wrong way to enjoy a thing and express your love for A Thing #//turning o my megaphone// HOW FUCKING EVER #it just feels so seldom with minedai stuff that it actually feels... like them? #and thats not even mentioning the collection of really-specific kinks it attracts for whatever reason #it might just be because compared to more popular ships I Will Not Name So I Dont Put This Post In The Tag #theres a lot more fanworks right. but with minedai its like. it feels like twenty people in a basement #and 3/4 of the people in the basement just have this vibe with each other that you dont get at all #probably hotboxing the place and you dont smoke so youre just awkwardly siting there with your facemask #TRYING to follow along but youre ultimately just like Whats Going On. Im Scared. Mom Pick Me Up #im not going to act like im perfect either tho- with drawing mine and daigo so much sometimes i do botch their characters a bit #trying to get better at that im making it a thing where i have to reread their rggo stories frequently just so i dont forget #maybe ill make a list or somethign... <- normal people behavior #regardless. all of THAT aside. i wish i could read more minedai fics #but the thing is just most of the recent works are just not for me. and its not that those works are for SOMEONE #but for mates like you and me anon we just have to get in the kitchen. only problem is i suck at writing SOOO #UGH thats my monthly minedai rant i guess LMAO i always feel bad bout these rants #but i also cant act like i like the fandom's version of minedai.. or at least. ao3's version of minedai #twitter's version of minedai.. #bestie and i talk about it a lot we're just so confused how so many people can just. interpret these two SO differently yk what i mean #like again most of the works we see it never feels like mine and daigo it just feels like some AU versions of them #and again i dont reject interpretations of characters or HCs or whatnot again Its Fiction its not that deep #but it just feels so removed from the source yk. like when im looking for minedai i wanna see stuff that makes me go #'aw hell yeah that adds up. that lines up.' its why whenever i DO see stuff like that i go insane and bookmark it

[frecklystars]

[starts sniffling and crying when seeing pictures of ryan gosling from the fall guy movie] oh ok it's that kind of night

#the ache in my chest... i dont know why it makes me teary #i should be looking forward to seeing a new ryan movie? to getting a new F/O? #so why am i crying huh why am i so sad that it's making me shed actual tears #is it because i'm worried it'll be just another F/O who i'm gonna afraid of? another F/O im conditioned to fear? #is it just gonna be another F/O that i've prematurely lost to my trauma? that i wouldnt be worthy of his love? or smth stupid like that #huh!!! what is it!!! i should be happy but its like a knife to the chest #vent #sorry i just needed to put this out into the void #i used to be so excited to get new F/Os but now it's like... it just hurts #I used to think 'oh! new bf/gf! kissed and thrown into the pile!' #now it's like 'oh. new person who would look at me and see someone so worthless' #i never used to be like this until i was abused and now its all i can do #i NEVER looked down on myself like this. i NEVER believed my F/Os would cast me aside #i never ever ever doubted that I'd be so wholeheartedly loved #but now it's all i know how to do #i don't even know his character's name and i'm already thinking he wouldn't love me back #that all of my pining isn't requited that all of my drawings and stories and animatics are so worthless #that all of my self ships are a joke. that all of my drawings and fics and animatics are a joke #that everything i've done to feel loved by these characters is hilariously incorrect #like who can possibly fathom that i am inherently lovable when im just used as. some. some punching bag #as my abuser put it. she's right. that's all im good for #my F/Os wouldnt see me as anything more

[blindedguilt]

I need Leonard and Cain to do toxic yaoi together...the two of them deserved more interaction in general

//YOU GET IT OMG YOU F U C K I N G GET IT //It's the duality. It's the difference in background and how they deal with tragedy and how that's absolutely APPALLING to both, because Leonard, who has and is dealing with a deep sense of wanting to inflict violence on the inside, and Caim, who just wants peace and to have never dealt with any of that on the inside, SEE the other's outward actions doing just the opposite and both are reminded of JUST how much they're trying to ignore that part they see in the other inside of them and how they're trying to put that down and HERE this motherfucker is, just doing it //AND ITS THE SENSE OF SOLIDARITY THESE VERY DIFFERENT PEOPLE FROM VERY DIFFERENT BACKGROUNDS GET WHEN THEY SEE THAT, BECAUSE BEYOND LOSING THEIR FAMILY TO THE EMPIRE WHICH BRANG THEM UNDER THE UNION'S CAUSE THEY'RE BOTH OLDER BROTHERS WHO KNOW DEEP DOWN WHAT IT'S LIKE TO FRET OVER AND CARE FOR YOUR YOUNGER SIBLING, OUTSIDE NUMBNESS TO THOSE FEELINGS BY OUTWARD CIRCUMSTANCES BE DAMNED. THEYRE BOTH PART OF A VERY SMALL MINORITY WHO HAVE MADE A PACT, AND EVEN SMALLER OF THE ONES WITH SOME SEMBLENCE OF A MIND LEFT AFTER DOING DO. THAT THEY BOTH CAME OUT OF THEIR TRAUMA AS THE ONLY ONES LEFT FULLY UNTOUCHED AND ARE BOTH STRUGGLING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE FUCK TO DO WITH THAT, AND THAT LATER ON THEY BOTH FIND SOMEONE TO CARE FOR IMMENSELY THAT THEY'RE FUNDAMENTALLY INCOMPATIBLE WITH THAT GIVES THEM THEIR REAL SENSE OF WORTH AFTER THE WAR AND THE PROFOUND ISOLATION FROM BEING SO FAR DEEP IN YOUR OWN HEAD AND TRAUMA AND KNOWING THE STUPID PIDDLING WRECK OF A HERMIT OR THE NEEDLESSLY VIOLENT BLOODTHIRSTY CRACKHEAD MERCENARY NEXT TO YOU CAN SHARE IN THAT GRIEF BUT AT THE SAME TIME IS A MIRROR INTO YOURSELF AND WHAT YOU CAN BE THAT YOU REALLY DON'T WANT TO SEE //ITS ABOUT THE PROJECTION. IT'S ABOUT THE DIFFERENCES THAT FORCE THEM TO LOOK INTO THEIR OWN SELF AND THEIR INABILITY TO COPE WITH THAT AND WHY THAT MAKES THEM FUCKING HATE EACH OTHER, BUT ALSO THE COMPANY AND RELATABILITY TO EACH OTHER'S POSITIONS THAT DRIVES THEM TO THAT AWKWARD STALEMATE. ITS ABOUT THE MISLED "I CAN FIX HIM"'S MEANING TWISTED BUT WELL-INTENTIONED "I CAN MAKE HIM MORE LIKE ME THE WAY I WANT SO I DON'T HAVE TO BE SCARED ANYMORE" ON BOTH SIDES FROM PEOPLE WHO CAN'T EVEN FIX THEMSELVES BECAUSE THEY CAN'T LET GO, AND THEN MY FAVOURITE PART

//HOW THAT RESULTS IN PSYCHICAL VIOLENCE AND/OR LOATHING AND RESENTMENT AND DISGUST. i watch this scene with SUCH yaoi-tinted glasses anon you don't even know

#||Reply||:Anonymous #||OOC|| #{/COME ON OUT; ANON; I JUST WANNA TALK. *sets bait* i have a japanese caionard fanfic translated from piviv please let me share it with you #{/i was NOT meaning for this to be that long though; holy fuck...} #{/i have a lot of strong feelings for these two BOTH as characters and also Dat Toxic Yaoisms....} #{/and i just KNOW the potential's there and can be even worse and more toxic in 1.3 but we were given so LITTLE i dunno how to make it work #{/........yet.} #{/i just need them to get too under the other's skin for one's liking and that resulting in a murder and subsequent mutilation} #{/you feel me????? you know?????????} #{/it's funny} #{/i left my previous muse (not ash/angela) back in like 2017 thinking 'yeah no more; im going to STOP and move on with my life bc} #{/i'm the literal stereotypical obnoxious XDing 00's german nightcore listening fujoshi and have to do something else'} #{/two years into the DOD fanbase and here i am; listening to nightcore teufelstanz and talking about my silly little toxic yaoi again....} #{/we need more drakengard rarepairs in general; like.... i love kaian as much as the next person but lets have some FUN with it} #{/if we can get 2 caioch fanfics on ao3 i just KNOW we can get that many for caionard} #{/even one........ i'll make it my SELF if i have to (even if i really dont want to because the thing about making the story is... #{/... you know it.} BUT I WILL PUT THAT OPTION ON THE TABLE FOR OTHERS TO SEE; IF NEED BE.}

[demadogs]

i think im toxic bc my friend made me watch heart stopper with him and i was cringing at how cheesy it is and i kinda hated it and then i got to thinking and literally almost all of my favorite gay fiction has angst and trauma. i have never loved any just standard feel-good gay romance. its gotta have at least a little angst and theres gotta be a whole other plot going on and its usually supernatural, murderous or deeply traumatic.

#plz dont hate me if you love it go nuts i aint stopping you #my all time favorite gay story is carry on and of COURSE thats angsty as all hell but also theres SO much else going on #i like gay stories when its a part of a MUCH bigger story #red white and royal blue could count as just a feel good gay romance BUT THERES PLOT #LIKE ITS THE PRINCE AND THE FIRST SON THATS INTERESTING #seven husbands of evelyn hugo is another cute one but again. muuuuch bigger story than just a romance #and obviously the goldfinch is way more too #i think thats why i love byler so much because this show was already my favorite way before i thought they could be gay #and i love when gay characters are put in an already very interesting story #more so than the story entirely revolving around two gays #like theyre just british gay boys in high school ok im bored. throw in a murder or something then im interested #byler tumblr #another reason why im pissed about all my favorite wlw shows getting canceled. every single one of them had another interesting main plot #and they ALWAYS get canceled but shit like this breaks records

[corpsoir]

(feel free to ignore if this is an uncomfortable ask)

Is Kjell transphobic, was that a factor in Lovarts life before his dad left?

its fine to ask i get the curiosity!! kjell is a shitty person so i get that the thought is there

but i've actively chosen to not incorporate any transphobia in my stories because i have enough of it in real life, so no it isnt part of any of their lives 👍 my tags accidentally turned into a ramble on this sorry lol

#ive spent a lot of time thinking about this actually #i just dont want to incorporate that in my characters because . it would just make me upset lol #i understand why others write about it and i enjoy reading stories where characters face the same struggles like i do and have done #i just dont feel like putting that in my characters and stories because in a way they are me you know #like. for example ive been thinking about whenever my characters came out and how that was dealt with #and i like to imagine them being trans has only been a happy and fun part of their lives #because for me that wasnt always the case #so i want to explore what it wouldve been like if things wouldve played out the way i wouldve wanted #if this makes any sense..... #idk. like... i like to imagine them having had access to blockers and hormones whenever they were ready for it etc #since that wasnt the case for me when i came out as a kid who wouldve been eligible for blockers! idk #like. when i came out i specifically asked my therapist about blockers and i was basically shut down about it #i didnt dare talking about it with an adult again until years later when i had already gone thru puberty and im still mad about it today lo #my characters are very close to my heart and a lot of things i put into them and their stories are very personal to me #im rambling but basically i just dont feel like putting transphobia in my stories because why would i. literally why would i lol. you feel? #transphobia mention #<- just in case #corps.oc #ask

[likelylarks]

xx

#thought i was so cool and chill now #i am not #i am a very sensitive little bitch still! #if i see any of the posts about terms of endearment in native languages again im gonna cry #and maybe take another two months away from tumblr? #idk i like putting it in my fics and not as a way of making characters seem more natural but because i just like them #and now i feel bad and stupid about that! #which is dumb because there are people saying they like it in fics #but i'm already so self critical of my fics and i dont know #im just being weak and whiny #and hypocritical since i was just complaining about something i dont like in fics #moral of the story: larks sucks and cannot regulate their own emotions!

[tragicomedys]

nge is so

#Anyway i started watching nge like a couple days ago #watching nge is such a particular experience bc like. the reason why im hooked on it isnt necessarily bc i need to know what happens next #or because its super suspensful or anything. the reason why im hooked on watching the next episode is bc im just desperate for the next bit #of shinji or rei emotion to be shown dog. Like every episode is like Ok. Anyway When r we going to talk about shinjis deteriorating mental #health. #also i dont really like the writing style somehow. like. something about the way nge is written is very tedious to me i cant put my finger #on it. but the story is nice and i really like some characters. shinji and his two buddies r everything 2 me. #but anyway the fucking. white haired dude showed up and like second scene in Boom hes like shinji i love you. #Bro? OK? HELP #HELP ME #thats where i am in the show so far #also im like. lost. for the most part. Like most episodes im lost cuz i think a big way suspense is written in #is by showing some shit happening or whatever and not give the full details so like the audience would be super interested on whats goin on #and so we try to find out whats happening. but im like a little too confused at times. so it doesnt feel suspenseful it just feels like. Oh #What . what just happened whats that mean #which is unusual for me usually i pick up on whats happening in a show fast but IDK #I HAVE LIKE. SIMULTANEOUSLY 0 THOUGHTS AND ALL THE THOUGHTS ON NGE SO FAR #ITS STRANGE. STRANGE LITTLE SHOW THUS FAR. NOT WHAT I EXPECTED....? #💭.txt #Idk none of my friends are into nge so. i would love to talk 2 somebody about nge

[laylaisthename]

taking back what i said to that guy on reddit the mixed end is actually the canon end for ILW everyones just too cowardly to see it

#i say this respectfully but #picking blood ONLY because you get to stay with your LI is boring fgjksdhgkdfg #and its a video game and im not your mom so who cares what you pick but soooo many people keep saying #that blood is the good end and im like #wrong #all ends are good #mixed fucks its a loveletter to self acceptance #and doing ldr with your li just shows that you can put their needs above your own #and that they respect yours in return #plus its not forever just for now #shadow is fucking good its a homecoming #its rowan accepting that this otherness theyve been feeling is homesickness #the love is still there it didnt go anywhere #blood is a story of grief and moving on (you also do that in mixed just differently) #and putting this part behind you #and if thats why you love it great! #otherwise #booooo go consider your character and their arc through the game and how you can find a satisfiying conclusion #(or dont. again im not your mom so) #edit this post doesnt apply to shadow truthers you are my most beloved pogchamps and god strongest soldiers

[np5enkidu]

what if i stopped playing fgo

#it's just. ugh. #i noticed a clear pattern in my fgo playing which is. if i dont get new character i won't play as much #like last halloween event. got huang feihu thus played a good amount of it. morganfest? skipped #didn't get van gogh or nemo? didn't finish the event story (got the event exclusives but still) #no muramasa or a new character from gssr => haven't really felt like playing. no rasputin and i haven't opened my jp account in days #even when i tried my best on karnamas i only got like. 80 boxes which is disappointing for me #now i really want to play saber wars because I didn't finish the story on the first run but i just keep putting it off #idk maybe i'm still on burnout from cramming olympus #which SUCKS! because i enjoyed reading previous lostbelts so much like i cleared atlantis in three days because i wanted to keep on reading #maybe it's just. all too much idk idk #genuinely wanna read every story. never want to skip anything but i also keep putting it off because it never feels like it's a good moment #frustrating

[gothamcityneedsme]

I guess what it is is that so often a superheros supporting cast end up taking elements and themes of the 'main' hero away, lessening their impact, and i dont *like* that usually. i like the hero so i dont want every derivative. some end up done well enough and departing in ways worthy of a new character without taking away from the old, but like. thats more uncommon i guess?

Also tbh casts just get sooo fucking bloated i cant do it lol.

#shitpost #like. Theres too many characters #if u want to combine two main heroes in something suddenly u have 80 alt cast members to worry about #its awful #it fucks up so many comics too #like if you could focus a few characters per book the story would be stronger #comics get stuck in intros and reintros and etc etc #i understand its hard to make a medium like comics thrive #and that new characters help so much with that #But like. for example #dc crossover comics always suck because they have like 50 characters to put in so focus and detail dies #and i die #limited casts my beloved #Also because i feel guilty for saying i dont like supergirl: i dont like superboy either. hes more tolerable to me tho #i will admit. I like yj superboy quite a bit but like he ends up SO divorced from superman that he feels better to me #but like. Overally #Im just like. Right click delete on all members of the 'superfam' lol

[arolesbianism]

Y'know I should rly do a comb through of the wiki and correct any mistakes in the logs cause even if I'm too lazy to add all the ones not there it would make double checking the ones that are on there much easier

#rat rambles #oni posting #I know there's at least one that uses an outdated version of the log that was likely a mistake in the first place but there's probably more #a lot of logs have been tweaked and changed over time and if one slipped through the cracks others probably did too #especially since theres already been mistakes in the gravitas page along with outdated duplicant art (aka ellie) #I cant be assed to update everything but I do wanna at least correct the stuff that caused me some confusion at first #I might also do some tweaks to the gravitas employee section to better describe some of their positions #I should probably add some other ppl at some point but that can wait #mostly because a lot of them would require the logs that arent on the wiki to be added and Im not doing that (at least not rn) #I still do want to make my own lore database but Ive been procrastinating mostly because Im not sure where to put all that info #Ill probably just dump it into a google doc for the time being and maybe find a fancier way to present it if enough ppl are interested #which basically means itll probably remain a doc unless more ppl get interested oni lore because currently its pretty much just me and like #what 2 or 3 other ppl #rly my main issue rn is deciding what should be included or not #ofc all of the data files you can find will be included along with story trait logs #but things get kinda fuzzy once we get to the artifact descriptions cause some of them definitely are lore relevant and some of them aren't #like it doesnt rly feel necessary to include some of them but if I dont include some then I have to establish standards #but if I do include them then it means Itd likely be in my best interest to include other item descriptions too #and even if I didn't theres some that legitimately are rly good to read for lore and/or character implications #and then theres also the fact that I should probably also include other stuff™ #such as examination quotes and duplicant descriptions along with maybe scrapped logs #yknow rly go the extra mile #but this of course all has to balance not going too deep into proper gameplay cause otherwise Im just making a new wiki #and while Id love for oni to have a non fandom wiki Im not going to be the guy who makes it sorry #I do not know this game nearly well enough on a gameplay level to do that and even if I did I quite frankly wouldn't want to #its already going to be hell for me just to retype all the lore stuff I do not have the motivation for this shit #I would also like to put in info on how to find different logs but I well. don't know. #Id have to find some way to remove all of my logs so I can go recollect them and Im not tec savvy enough to do that #idk maybe there's a mod for it Ill have to go look #because I rly would like to know how unlocking logs works on a deeper level