#i just want to be alone

[gunsounds]

I'm kinda just good off everybody.

#Idk #this my selfish year #I just want to be alone

[running-in-the-dark]

hey, wait! February is over! that means half the time I have to spend at my in-laws is also over!! I can't wait 🙃

#I made a countdown thing in my bullet journal BUT of course I then forgot to fill it in lol #I just want to be alone #I don't like that it'll mean moving again but I don't even care at this point #having my own room again. being able to sleep again (without the cats running all over me) #having a kitchen that I can go into whenever I want #my own couch. I miss that couch so much #all my stuff. I miss my stuff so much too.... #I just want to be able to do what I want when I want again #and not see my in-laws for at least a few months #I'm so tired of these people #personal

[heckin-hollow-am-i-rite]

hot take, id rather be alone and miserable then have to burden someone i love with my awful mental state.

#mental health #mental anguish #i want to be held #i want to cry #i just want to be alone

[tokyocyborg]

i'm not afraid of god

i am afraid of man

#aesthetic #moodboard #mood board #aesthetic moodboard #messy layouts #aestheitcs #messy icons #icons #dark icons #dark moodboard #dark layout #dark packs #twitter icons #the 1975 #i've been so angry lately #i just want to be alone #but anyways #marina >>>

[todomemolesta18]

I feel so down and without energy, like I dont want to do anything, just lay in my bed all day, alone. I like being with people, but my mind is shit right now, and I cant fully enjoy when Im trying to not think anything that makes me feel bad. But tomorrow I have to go to church and I really dont want to.

#feeling down #feeling tired #I hate myself #i just want to be alone

[charliethinks]

i hate people so much.

#why are they asking so many questions #i just want to be alone

[hit-the-dirt-and-get-back-on]

I can't wait until the day comes that I get to move out. I'm so tired of this toxic ass house.

#home life #i need out #i just want to be alone #this is me #my story #my life

[asiananeurysm]

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#I'm having a bad day #everyone is annoying me #i just want to be alone #except i feel shitty when I'm left to my own devices lately #i don't know man i just want to feel like I'm living instead of just existing #i can feel the time trickle away from me. what is life forrr not working and mindless distraction #personal

[running-in-the-dark]

I think tomorrow I'm gonna make a countdown of how many days are left until we'll move into our apartment

I feel like a whiny child except I'm not even missing my parents or anything like that, no I'm just missing my things and the environment I'm used to and being a able to walk around without being (quite this) anxious (I'm always anxious about that but it's much worse here)

(and it's really mostly my things. all my things in their place where they belong, the way it should be, everything right where I put it)

I just want to leave. I hate being here (at my husband's parents' house). I hate it. already had my first bad interaction with my mother-in-law today and. I can't handle it.

I don't tolerate being told what to do well (like. about things that are my own business. in this case it was about a health issue). I didn't even let my own mother do that when I was a literal child - but at least I could get mad at her. now with my mother-in-law? I just have to smile and nod and feel like I'm dying until she finally leaves.

#I just.. don't want to have any kind of relationship with these people once we move #I can't stand them #they're so cold and emotionless and controlling #I guess it makes sense that they never stopped giving their kids orders when their kids just keep tolerating that #but fuck I am not built like that #I can't do it #and the whole time I know I'm lying and pretending and that makes it even worse #I just want to be alone #I just want to be my own weird fucked up not normal self with no one around to tell me that's not ok #about to fall asleep so of course the bad thoughts are coming out now :') #I know I have no right to complain and I'm an ungrateful bitch but. I just. feel. bad. #anyway thinking about Eliot and/or Jenkins and/or Jake and/or Dan will fix me I'm sure. just gotta try harder. #that's four characters played by two guys in three different decades. the logistics are getting complicated #but somehow they all exist in the same place at the same time and it makes sense and - #personal

[s1ck-b1tch-2]

I’m so annoyed

#my dad keeps sitting down right next to me #I’ve moved four times #he doesn’t fucking get it #I don’t want to sit with him!!!! #and my brother is being an asshole #I just want to be alone #I hate sharing a room

[perfectlullabies]

i feel like everybody around me thinks i’m using everything that happened as an excuse for being lazy. i mean..that’s what i’ve been thinking. isn’t that sad lmao i am so tired u guys. what the fuck. i haven’t slept properly in two months i swear. and the day after tomorrow it’s gonna be EXACTLY 2 months since shit went down i am SOOOOO tired. i just wanna sleep and i do sleep a lot bc i’m sleepy all the time but i don’t sleep well. i don’t give a single fuck abt my thesis or anything really. can i just stay in bed forever please. this is all a nightmare. if i wasn’t on meds already for 5 months idk what i would do 

#i feel so ugly too #and just useless really #i just want to be alone

[alexandrarosa]

I will probably never understand why the plans to be alone are not treated the same as plans with people

#i just want to be alone #don’t tell me I don’t have plans when I have plans #imma read a book #dark academia #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #light acadamia aesthetic #books #loneliness #alone #introversion #probably autistic

[artificial-condition]

I’m in a “do not want to be around anyone, just want to chill by myself all the time and never talk” mood lately but not in a moody way. No negative emotions. Just do not want to socialize with anyone at alllllll

#my thoughts #it’s not bad but it’s bad #I just want to be alone #but I gotta keep up relationships ya know #nothing against the people in my life #I just do not want to see anyone or be seen by anyone for at least a month #if only I could

[aotomegane]

I’m not even looking forward to anything anymore. Fuck this

#personal #fuck this #fuck that #fuck everything #i just want to be alone #fucking hell