#i literally awwed out loud

[hooned]

babie sunoo is bored

#enhypen #*jelly's #enhypenet #kpopco #kim sunoo #sunoo #i love how softly the staff speaks to him #they're just like us for real #also he's so cuute he wants to join the fun huhu #i literally awwed out loud #i want to be a staff #just so i could tell sunoo he can do whatever he wants to do #break all the rules babies as long as you're happy !!

[pfhwrittes]

i've just deleted my first anonymous "part 3??" message (probably referring to there's magic in this misery) and i've gotta say, i thought we'd moved on from doing that.

firstly, writing takes as long as it takes. be cool, don't send me those kinds of messages. it demoralises the fuck out of me. conversely, you might just find that if you're nicer to me it will inspire me to pick up a project i'd put on the backburner.

secondly, anon is turned on for my askbox as a privilege, not a right. don't make me turn off my askbox because you can't be polite. there are some very nice anons that i've enjoyed replying to and i want you to be part of that! don't spoil it for other people.

and finally, we've done this already with other writers in the fandom and they've expressed how disappointed and demoralised they get! i genuinely want to write stuff and share it with you all! just be patient please.

#pfh personal #pfh faq #don't make me tap the sign on my pinned post #'if you're rude then i'll delete your message' #also anon that sent me that message #i literally went 'aw anon no' out loud #so well done you made me channel matt fraction's hawkeye #this is not a good thing #don't make me go 'aw anon no' out loud

[quesogrande]

calling it now the hydro archon is gonna lose her gnosis in a lawsuit

#the fatui sue her for negligence #she loses the gnosis #“aw man sorry traveler :( your sibling is in another region!” #“if only i could use my power as a literal god to help you find them!” #“unfortunately i have been sentenced to community service and have to pay a billion mora to the court of fontaine” #“just like wait a year and then travel to natlan or something lmao” #i would actually laugh out loud if this happens #genshin impact #fontaine #focalors

[arowrath]

thought i hated this one girl just cuz her vibes are off but i just remembered something like actually awful she said the other day so nvm my hatred is justified actually

#text #she has AWFUL vibes . high school mean girl from the mid 2000s core #ive triedddd to like her i really have but i remembered like the first time i met her #she literally straight up admitted to only posting abt activism on instagram for clout and bc it makes her look like a good person #and that she really doesnt give a fuck #SHE SAID THAT OUT LOUD WITH HER MOUTHHH fuck that shit 😭Oh my god post over why is .what the fucknsince when does r know #the new cafe worker . and should i be scared . #i saw the new person. who ive been calling bailey in my head even tho thats like. straight up not their name. waiting around in the lobby #which is connectred to the cafe right. and then i see r come in from the cafe. looking at their phone in a way that makes me think theyssaw #me first and were ignoring me. and then they walked out together. what is going on r has NEVER been in this building #ive never seen them in here. what. oh i dont like that at all #(i dont know their name btw. thecafe person. they just look like a bailey to me im not like. deadnaming them LMAO)

[dontmeanyoudontmissit]

Literally going to go insane

#I had to go into the office where there was NOISe and people #then went to the gym where some asshole was had the audio on the bike on full - not on their headphones! and then they left and someone els #showed up and talked on the phone #and since I got home at 630pm my bf has been on the phone with his family (it's now midnight) #and I love him and that he can talk to his family so long but I can't escape his noise #and now he's fucking singing multiple songs into the phone and I don't know why AND I JUST CANNOT. #I have to go into the office again tomorrow and I'm like. Please. PLEASE can I have silence?????????????????? #it should not be too much to have twenty minutes of not having to hear a god damn voice #and that place should not have to be my CAR when I have to deal with PEOPLE on the road #I should go to bed but this man talks loud af into the phone #I showed up to work on the edge of losing it this morning. I got a new chair but I can't figure out what to do to note make it #AWFUL. and it was making me want to tear off my SKIN #so literally I have just been begging for quiet and less stimulation all day #and instead I'm having to blast music so I don't have to hear his stupid voice singing and doing voices and like ??? bro stfu and let your #parents get in a word or HANG UP. #sorry sorry I'm just losing my mind I need more sleep

[knifegremliin]

holy shit, earmuffs?? you guys, EARMUFFS??? did you guys know about this shit??? a GODSEND. a fucking GODSEND. (<- just discovered the sweet, sweet freedom of Silence)

#🔪.text #aka i have been dealing with the sudden onset of the most god awful misophonia that has been ruining my quality of life #and also generally increased sensitivity to sound but the misophonia is the real reason i got the earmuffs #and bro. //bro//. #oh my god. #these earmuffs. holy shit dude. #i had been coping via literally blasting my eardrums out with loud music #which was! not great! #because i was doing that for around 6-8 hours every single fucking day #not straight. broken up in 1.5-2 hour fragments 4 times a day but still. really not good. #but my therapist recommended getting noise cancelling headphones or earmuffs #and then putting in earbuds underneath and listening to music at a lower volume #and holy shit. #holy. shit. #literal miracle. #works fucking WONDERS. #absolutely amazing. #i'm fucking thrilled. #i know it's only a temporary solution #because i obviously cannot live the rest of my life like this and i don't WANT to live the rest of my life like this #because this still isn't really a life #but for now it's better than having to blast my eardrums out just so i don't have to hear The Sound™

[neverendingford]

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#so I have officially been to a club/bar now #tag talk #it was a country bar which was actually cool cause they played like. actual old country none of the post-9/11 shit #except everything else about it was ugh awful. music too loud drinks FUCKING EXPENSIVE holy shit stay home and drink instead pleaseeee #it was a work thing but none of my coworkers I'm friends with actually knew what they were doing so while I wasn't actual awkward they were #and the thing about social interaction is that if no one knows what they're doing it's not very fun #I grabbed someone and started a pool game because the table was open and both of us were absolute garbage at the game #but I was laughing about it and they were like... apologetic about being bad?? d #I did have the classic experience though where your friends disappear and you end up alone because you don't know where they went #all in all an interesting experience but not one I'm eager to repeat. #I did get invited to someone's Christmas Eve Party though which is cool and they gave me their number to make sure I have the info #so probably worth going just for that I think. got their phone number so we can communicate so that's like. successful social connection. #we're already friendly at work but easier to talk to someone when you're both not busy on the opposite side of the store with customers #anyway. who tf out going to clubs. awful environment. #I was like.. twenty percent of the way to being comfortable going out and dancing but hard to just swallow your hesitation #and a) alcohol as liquid courage is hmm not ideal and b) it was expensive anyway #oh well. it'll take more time to come out of my shell and I'd literally never been to a bar/club before in my life. #so I'll have some patience with myself and not be annoyed with how I could have done better or been more confident. #literally totally new environment. also... country music was nice but not a group of people I could really be comfortable around yaknow? #Lotta old white straight couples dancing the country two-step so I didn't really feel like I fit in. #anyway. interesting experience. neat to have. if I ever have a reason to go to a bar again I'll know more about what to expect #also... no one carded me. no one asked for ID? aren't they supposed to #oh wait. comment about the yodeling cause it was actual old country but they didn't do the voice register changes for it #I was like WAIT ARE THEY GONNA YODEL FOR REAL??? but then he didn't he just jumped intervals without shifting voice. #was a little disappointing but maybe a lot to expect from a random stage show at a bar. #wait wait I'm also proud of myself because the bartender asked open or closed and my mind scrambled for half a second to figure it out #but then I realized it meant open tab or closed tab like ordering more drinks and then paying at the end and so obviously closed #cause I ain't buying more than the one drink holy fuck it was so expensive also they mix them way stronger than I like #I like my drink weak ass and pathetic. alcohol is like spice I like a little to taste but not a lot. complimentary not overpowering #I drank it and then remembered I never ate lunch so I was like fuck and immediately went and ate something (work party so free food)

[elialys]

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#reached part 18 in my In Reverse reread #went as well as it always goes #aka buckets of tears and me literally apologizing out loud to Olivia even she's fictional #but im the one responsible for the Terrible Awful and the guilt of it has never felt fictional 😭 #anyway i definitely remember why i started writing In Time back then 💀 #it's been 13 years maybe someday i'll forgive myself

[fiendishartist2]

*describing smth that only happens in rich areas* yeah so basically i think teachers need to punish kids more

#you have to be out of your fucking mind to have this opinion sorry #take it from someone from a very rural kinda poor area. you dont want your kids treated like that #no not all parents bite your head off for getting their kid in trouble. you just work at a rich school #i saw some heinous shit go on at my elementary school as a kid and im 100% sure that doesnt happen in rich areas #who let my 2nd grade teacher scream at us like that. HELLO?? #she would literally scream so loud about how awful and annoying we are and how much she hates teaching us #my 1st grade teacher would regularly degrade us and tell us we were horribly behaved and need to grow up #i also once saw her take a belt and tie a kid down to his chair bc he was getting up too much #to tell you how poor and rural it was lol. we didnt have stim toys or w/e your teacher just tied you down #its so horrible looking back #i do think covid fucked up kids bc they werent learning for 2-3 years and now they're expected to be at a higher level #but i dont think behaviour issues can be settled as easily as some ppl think they can #and to teachers complaining about kids never getting punished: be glad they only get calls home or suspended #i had teachers tell us they wish it was legal to hit students #i had a teacher slam a ruler on a desk do hard it shattered #i had a teacher who would talk behind poorly behaved kids backs. especially if they were neurodivergent or ''weird'' #just be kind to children jesus christ

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Charles Leclerc truly is the unluckiest driver on the grid I swear

#charles leclerc #just frickin ferrari man #scuderia ferrari #this poor man #i was literally screaming when i saw the ferrari slowing because i KNEW it was gonna be charles #the heartbroken 'no...no no no...i have no power guys...' #he had a PODIUM for crying out loud #it's not even just points it's a whole podium #lando also had an awful day as did ocon #but this always happens to charles #i could cry #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay has a party in the tags

[colorfuldare]

OBI WAN & LEIA HOLDING HANDS!!!

#so cute #!!!! #that was so freaking cute! #i love their dynamic #i love their relationship #leia organa #obi wan spoilers #obi wan kenobi spoilers #obi wan kenobi 1x04 #kenobi spoilers #kenobi series #obiwan kenobi #princess leia #kenobi 1x04 #i was literally shaking #I was awwing out loud #Lordy that was so adorable #obi wan 1x04 #obi wan kenobi #her hand is so little ☺️

[yerimoonlight]

the first five minutes of destruction & this is one of my favorite episodes of this show

#ml spoilers #ml s5 spoilers #destruction #ml destruction #I meant to watch it when it first came out but for two days the site kept crashing on me #miraculous ladybug #how creative #and somehow is a filler episode but also lore building and gives more insight in an entertaining way #edit #the way I just said out loud no not the pin when monarch got to the bee hairpin and turned it to dust😭 #another edit #my face once seeing all those rings...😡🤨🤬 #like ok thanos wannabe #and yeah this ain’t just a filler episode lol I take this back #this ep def is the foundation with the bunnyx stuff to the plot of the season #and chat noir’s regret with the cataclysm even tho it was monarch? #gonna be major emotional damage down the line I just know it #I JUST LOL’D AT HIS PURPLE BALD HEAD #literally did a little giggle bc no way how is he a stylist but still look that bad😩 #I guess nothing can fix being that ugly when you’re an awful person😳

[thesaltyace]

Some days I remember how much progress I've made with my mental health because I have to consciously choose to react to something differently than my gut impulse.

It wasn't until the past several years that I was able to see that someone else's intense emotions or someone just expressing a need or want made me incredibly uncomfortable to the point that I wanted immediately eject myself from the situation.

And I'm talking about, like... my dog expressing excitement at getting a treat would make me very very uncomfortable. A friend crying with happiness would make me super uncomfortable. Someone expressing anger initiates my flight or fight response - that's the most intense gut reaction I have.

And like, I knew all of this but it wasn't until recently that I could really see WHY I felt that way and start working on moving past the discomfort so that I could try to make these experiences feel familiar and safe instead of scary and uncomfortable. During 2020 when I was mostly isolated from other people due to covid, I had a lot of relief from a lot of mental health related stuff, and this was one of them. I got to a point that instead of feeling uncomfortable with normal emotions and keeping it all at arm's length, I was able to feel safe enough to just like, embrace it instead. And it's made such a huge difference. I think being medicated for ADHD has helped a ton with emotional regulation too, but working through the trauma responses I have to normal stuff takes extra effort.

So anyway, all of this is to say that I just pulled out the plain yogurt tub to drop a bit into my dogs' food bowls and they were both dancing with excitement. Even though that's not been a problem for a while now, for some reason I did get that initial reaction of "Oh no, too much emotion, discomfort!" so I paused... and then made the decision to act excited with them and amp up their excitement just a bit more. And I did enjoy it and it made me happy to see them express excitement once I was joining in!

And it strikes me that my reaction to that years ago would have been to kind of shut down and glaze over to distance myself from that feeling of "Oh fuck too much emotion in my vicinity" but I was able to recognize it today and go "I'm safe, they can be excited and I can even be excited with them". 😊

#Just personal rambling below the cut #It kinda sounds awful to say out loud #Because other people showing any emotions at all made me super uncomfy #And it's not fair to expect others to like... not express emotions... but my brain literally got angry that they were doing exactly that #Because it wasn't safe for me to express any emotion in my formative years ago I learned to just keep it all inside #Autism probably impacts that a lot too #But like I couldn't even express happiness or risk getting yelled at or ridiculed or have it used against me later #Forget expressing sadness or anger because then I'm just being manipulative and putting on an act #Like goddamn it took me until I was 30 years old to realize that emotions just... happen?! #And that emotions are okay?! to have?! and express?!

[blunderpuff]

almost kicked a small child in the head today bc he was running around during story time while i was acting out this page:

lucky for that kid i’m SHORT but otoh if i *HAD* given him a traumatic brain/face injury, MAYBE THEM LITTLE KIDS WOULD STOP FUCKING RUNNING DURING STORY TIMES!! maybe their parents would, idk, NOT LET THEIR LITTLE KIDS BE SO FUCKING DISRUPTIVE ALL THE TIME

artist’s rendition

#yes i hate story times #our story times are aimed at the preschool set... and the only kids who are coming are the Under Threes #they're not old enough to understand hardly any of the concepts (letters/numbers/colors/sequences and patterns/etc) #they don't have the attention span to sit through even one mf picture book #they mostly don't even have the coordination to do fucking Head Shoulders Knees and Toes #WHAT ARE THEY GETTING OUT OF THIS???????? nothing!!!!! they're dragged there by their moms and the squirm and run and whine and cry #the ENTIRE time and the moms are chatting with each other and letting the kids do whatever #and it's SO FRUSTRATING for US bc we're having to shout over fussing infants and chatty toddlers bc the parents are sooooo self-involved #so the employees are frustrated bc we're doing our regular Dog and Pony Show to a loud and disruptive crowd #and the toddlers are frustrated bc they literally do not have the attention span for this. they aren't there in their development yet #and the moms have started to get Big Mad bc we're limiting how many ppl can be in story time (20 ppl) #so the moms who come too late to get their admission tickets are pissed off that they came all the way to the library for nothing #and other moms are just blasting right past the 'STOP! STORY TIME IS FULL!' sign that we post #and it makes the room even more crowded and loud and awful #one of the behaviors that really cheeses my crackers the most is when they kids are having a picnic buffet during story time #like... they're just standing there. eating their snacks. and staring at us while we do stupid dances and read silly stories and sing songs. #it feels like they're just staring at us like we're a tv show. they could have stayed home for that. #and when the weather is treacherous and moms still show up for story time.... it blows my mind #they really risked life and limb (literally-- we're talking blizzards and ice storms and heavy snow accumulation) so they could play on #their phone for 25 minutes while their toddlers ran around a room and collided with other toddlers while i sang Hot Potato in the background #the wiggles ftw #long tags #whining

[littlegoldfinchh]

avoiding that "what did you guys achieve in 2022" post like the plague

#like<3 i didn't achieve anything and i feel awful while reading other people's comments on it djjssjjs #yeah i might be jealous what about it #rambling #like im literally at the same place i was year ago #still depressed still in law school #like djsjks i feel like i won't have a degree ever and i flushed 4 years down the toilet #im literally so useless jfhdsjj hell on earth #avert thine eyes im just bitching out loud