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jinruihokankeikaku · 4 years

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Could I get an analysis of a Sylph of Mind? I just came across your blog and it seems wonderful keep up the great work im proud of u

You got it!! And thank you!! ^^^^-^^^^ I rly appreci8 that, I certainly plan on keepin this so long as there’s still interest in it! I havve so many things to say a8out the Classpect system and Homestuck in general, so there wwill certainly 8e more to come. Noww, here’s my take on wwhat I 8elievve is our first Mind player and our first Sylph…

Title: Sylph of Mind

Title Breakdown: One who passively creates [heals, assists, allows others to make, gives, makes incipient] Mind [reason, decision-making, adaptation, strategy, dialogue]

Role in the Session: Sylphs gradually shape and improve the outlook of a session by passively carrying their Aspect with them, acting as beacons of safety and restoration in the tumult of a Session. Like most passive classes, the Sylph serves their Aspect as much as their Aspect serves them, filtering, refining, and allowing the Aspect to flow through them. In this case, the Aspect is Mind, the Associative-Personal Aspect whose domains include reason, decision-making, adaptation/improvisation, and one’s conception of the outside world through the lens of one’s experiences (as opposed to one’s intrinsic identity). A Sylph of Mind is someone who solves problems with elegance and precision, someone who serves as an island of reason and serenity in a Game so often inclined towards madness and mayhem. They’re the player the session will rely on for guidance in times of confusion, and their team should take care not to take the Sylph’s aid for granted. Indeed, this is one of the Sylph’s major struggles as a class: to assert themselves, and to avoid bottling up their resentments to the point of Inversion – which, Inversion is never a good thing, but in the case of the Sylph results in the manifestation of Actively Destructive qualities, which can be tremendously damaging to a team’s structural integrity and interpersonal relationships, as well as that team’s odds of victory in general.

The Sylph of Mind may face a Quest on their Planet in which they’re required to resolve a number of ongoing crises, to keep their cool in the face of distraction, and to direct their energies with care and precision despite the conflict around them. Their Planet may be plagued by an overabundance of Heart – perhaps there’s a society that has fallen into chaos due to a dominating attitude of rugged individualism and heedless (anti)heroics. The Sylph would be tasked with stabilizing the situation, healing the lost minds of their Consorts in much the same way that they may eventually have to heal their Team. If they work harmoniously with their Aspect, they’ll be able to do incredible work, pulling down those lost in self-aggrandization and lifting up those spiraling into a web of bad decisions. They might well benefit from having a Seer of Blood on their side, who could make clear to their team the need for solidarity and mutual support. They’d also be able to do great work with a Mage or Witch of Light, both of whom will have access to vast stores of knowledge but also lack the wisdom with which to apply it righteously.

Opposite Role: Prince of Heart. This is the canonical Aspect of Dirk Strider, a character who at various points in his character arc but especially early on ghosts Mind, manifesting the Aspect as an unhealthy level of disaffection and faux-stoicism to mask his inner turmoil and struggle to embrace his identity. Any other Prince of Heart is likely to have a similar struggle, even if it doesn’t manifest exactly the same way; a Sylph of Mind might try to correct this, to work with the Prince’s rational side, but may not realize that that side is already present in excess; this Prince is likely to perceive the Sylph’s attempts at repair or restoration as sanctimonious meddling at best and overt sabotage at worst, which could well be a source of intra-team conflict.

God-Tier Powers

We’ve got a Passive Creation Class and an Associative-Personal Aspect – their powers will draw on their inner beliefs (beliefs here meaning any conceptions, not just those taken on faith) and psychological functions as fuel, be directed towards creating and/or repairing social constructs, interpersonal or personal-social relationships, or decision-making processes, and will be most effective when used in a supporting or backing roll and/or in harmony with the flow of Mind rather than against its current. Here are some ideas…

Unity of Practice: The Sylph reaches out and becomes aware of the perspective of all those near them, and gradually, subtly melds those perspectives, focusing them within themselves before reflecting them out like a beacon. They’ll convey the ideas harmoniously, only expanding people’s awareness rather than assuming direct control over their thoughts and actions, subtly drawing the team closer together.

Dialogue/Dialectic: When in conversation with someone, the Sylph emanates an imperceptible telepathic field that assures clarity on either end, smoothing over miscommunications and allowing each participant to be aware of each other participant’s intended meaning. This will only mediate the flow of thought rather than opening up direct telepathic lines, preventing any unscrupulous participants from abusing the telepathic field to directly access another’s thoughts or ideas.

Sylvan Stratagem: The Sylph expands their focus to encompass the entirety of the team, becoming aware the actions of team members as those actions take place, and acquiring an almost instinctual understanding of how to effectively assist with or remedy the consequences of those actions. While they can’t teleport across the vast distances that might lie between individual players, they can send their advice over that distance almost instantaneously, forcing their teammates to, if nothing else, at least consider the Sylph’s strategic perspective.

Personality: Sylphs tend to be nurturing at best, and meddling at worst – they are almost always driven to “assist” people by whatever means they can, which means are usually associated with their Aspect. A Sylph of Mind specifically might be inclined towards offering “sage advice”, almost mirroring a Seer; their advice, however, will be less concerned with affairs of objective reality and more concerned with Reason and Justice in decision-making; that is to say, they won’t necessarily have the information everyone needs, but they’ll be able to advise people on just what to do about the information they have. Both Sylphs and Mind players generally tend towards a strong sense of normative right and wrong, so that particular quality might be especially manifest in our Sylph. The most important thing for them to remember is that they are valued, and they needn’t always struggle to prove their worth by intervening at every opportunity.

Songs

Let’s see…

Yoga by the Mountain Goats

Insurance Fraud #2 also by the Mountain Goats ::::p

I may come up with some more in the future.

Anyhoww, I hope you found this analysis interesting and slash or informativve; sorry 8out the delay ::::) This class isn’t a particularly flashy one, but they’re deceptively powwerful; their influence wwill 8e present in a session even if it is not immedi8ly apparent.

#Classpect #classpect analysis #sylph #mind #Homestuck #Sylph of Mind #Class #Aspect #anon #ask

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hoodwinkedtoohoodvsevil · 4 years

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sappy "i've loved my spesh for a year now" post

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one year ago today, i got into twrp.

that's not to say i wasnt familiar with them before june 3rd, 2019. my big love was nsp, so i very much knew and appreciated them! i remember when nsp played on conan i was so happy for all of them and hoped twrp was getting just as much credit as nsp because they totally deserve it! i remember listening to guardians of the zone a couple years back in david's car and latching onto rock n roll best friends (my first favorite twrp song and still one of my faves!) and listening to that a lot. i remember the third starbomb album coming out last april and thinking, wow, this is definitely their best album musically because of twrp's instrumentation! and of course, like everyone else, i was obsessed with starlight brigade when the video came out, and recognized it was twrp's song featuring dan, not just a dan project. but i didn't have their names memorized, and for whatever reason, i thought they were all silent performers? like, i thought none of them talked and sung only talked/performed with talkbox. (i mean, i was like 60% right? at least at the time.)

on this day last year, i was showing my best friend arin and suzy's (gg) hot pepper gaming videos and then i noticed twrp's in the related videos. i was like oh my gosh! i didn't know twrp did one of these! and you can imagine my surprise when sung and meouch started talking fhfhdjdlfj i was literally like WAIT THEY TALK??? I REALLY THOUGHT NONE OF THEM TALKED. it's always really funny to look back on. and even though they spent most of that video suffering i thought they were so funny and likeable that i was like. maybe i should finally actually get into twrp.

and holy shit.

there's so much to twrp that i know i didn't do it all in a day. it's hard for me to get used to a band by listening to all their music once, so i took it album by album. i started with guardians of the zone, because i was already very familiar with it. listened to that on loop for a while, then moved onto together through time since it was their most recent album at the time. then, i went backwards from there.

i searched for all the lore i could. i read wiki pages, spent literal hours reading reddit AMAs, watched every video on their youtube channel and the hour long compilation of their instagram videos. this all took place over the span of like? a few days? a week? it's hard to say really. i fell so fast.

from that point on, i have so many stories, we would be here all day. i remember listening to believe in your dreams on repeat the day i became a d*sney trainer, and the literal day after that, they released hidden potential. then of course, the release of return to wherever, which i listened to nonstop for ages. the album is my jam because i love albums with a cohesive theme and songs that blend into each other. it's hard to beat together through time, but rtw comes really close.

i saw them for the first time live on july 30th, 2019. unfortunately, something happened that night that changed my life for the worse. but that wasn't twrp's fault at all. the show itself was incredible. i'd never been to a general admission concert of one of my faves, it was absolutely surreal that they were all right in front of me. and of course, they put on a hell of a show. they always do. god, i love them.

on august 9th 2019, i went to my first sung stream. it was a party stream and i'm on the east coast, so i stayed up until 3 AM to hear sung give me my first talkbox shoutout. i recorded it and still have the video. it made me smile in the early part of a very dark time in my life.

i made a lot of friends in that stream, we all shared twitters and i'm still friends/mutuals with all of them! and i've only made more friends since, especially at nsp10. nsp10 was incredible for many reasons, but a big one was that the three hours my fiancé and i were waiting outside the venue to be let in, we were just walking around saying hi to my twrp friends, meeting a bunch of them for the first time. and i made new friends! i remember standing in a group, shivering in my heart boner cosplay, and one of the guys saying "you're artie, right? i follow you on twitter, i love your cosplay!" he seemed like he was really gathering the courage to say it to me, he had no idea how happy it would make me! (shoutout to logan! you're awesome!)

really, if any of my twrp friends are reading this, i love you to pieces. meeting you has definitely been a high point of the last 365 days.

again, i have so many stories. but since this is already so long i'm just gonna cut to march 5th, 2020. that was the night i met them. now, i'm not a shy person at all, and over the past few years i haven't really been very socially anxious. i'm able to carry myself in conversation, even with strangers. but i've never met a fave before. let alone four faves at once. so, naturally, everything i had planned on saying completely left my brain. but they're literally the best, so it was still an absolute dream. the first thing sung said when he saw me was "hey you look great!" (my outfit was clearly inspired by his own, fancy orange hat and all, so he probs wanted to Respect The Drip but he was right regardless and also HOLY SHIT) and i had my baby porg gary with me (the sunshine of my life) and they all interacted with him and it was super wholesome.

they played two nights in orlando, and i went to both shows because of course i did. first night was great, second night was even better even though that was my GA show. they played life party on night 2, which might as well be my favorite song of all time. it has carried me through every bad moment since i first heard it. big and small. i have a lyric from it tattoo'd on my arm as a constant reminder that i'm alive, and that is something to be ecstatic about. i also had more room to dance and move around on night 2, and dance and move around i did. then, when the show was over and scatman played, i got out everything else i had. august-november 2019 was actual hell for me, and i was still dealing with the aftermath of it all. but that concert high made me realize, holy shit! all of it is over! it doesn't matter anymore! twrp carried me through one of the roughest periods of my life, and met me at the finish line with a fucking gold medal. i fucking did it. now i have none of the bad, and all of the good. it was one of the best feelings i've ever had, and one of the happiest nights of my life.

since then, twrp continues to keep me going. of course the world has been a total shitshow, but everyone's streams (especially the twrp show) have been the highlight of my week every week.

i've always considered myself a very positive person, but last year was a very bad year for my depression, as well as traumatic at times. and i've always had problems feeling understood. i still do. but twrp said hey! literally nobody understands us. not even ourselves! but that's okay! we want you to be happy and feel loved and supported no matter what. and i really can't thank them enough for it.

this part is mostly for another longer post, but i wanted to mention it since it's also really important. i fully came to terms with being a mlm last year after years of compulsory heterosexuality, and twrp played a big part in me exploring and accepting that about myself. and i was already very secure in my gender identity when i found them, but hearing "this song goes out to all the ladies, fellas, and everyone in between" shook me to my very core. i've never loved a band that literally said "shoutout to trans/nb people" at every concert. god. i love them so fucking much.

so this was even longer than i expected (and i expected it to be long bc yknow. spesh.) but i just have so much love and gratitude for this band. every day of my life i'm so thankful that doctor sung, commander meouch, lord phobos, and havve hogan exist and are spreading all this love and positivity to their fans every day. i've never loved a band like this, and i probably never will. they are truly special.

and it's only been a year!!!!

#artie.txt #twrp #this is super long but if you care about me and twrp and how they've impacted me #then here ya go

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kmspice · 4 years

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March Eridan one shot

possible pesterquest spoiler

AN: this is a coming out story. I am trans so i'm not taking from others experiences or anything. Some of this is from my own times i’ve came out.

be eridan ampora ===>

you are now eridan ampora

You pace around your room thinking how you got to this point. you built enough confidence to even begin to want to do what you're about to do. You close your eyes and take a deep breath. You close your door and make your way to the living room where cronus is.

You take one last moment to reassure yourself, "cro.. wwe need to talk"

He looks up and pauses the movie he was watching,"okay vwhats on your mind"

You try and collect your thoughts. Here goes nofin. This is really happenin you think to yourself. no going back now. You take one big shaky breath and spit out, "im trans…. wwell im nonbinary. It's not really a toll concept I knoww, but the humans told me about it. When I heard about it, it just fit. But it means I'm not a man… but I’m not a wwoman either".

You can feel the pounding in your chest and your breathing almost make you hyperventilate. cronus is silent and it feels like days until he says anythin. Your mind is going so fast. So many thoughts at once. how is he goin to react? Will he make the lusis kick me out? Oh cod what if he does? I feel like im goin to pass out. please cro say somefin anyfin!! fish puns? damn im becoming fef.you are on the verge of tears. pools of purple form at the bottom of your eyes. You fight them to try to seem brave. You feel so choked up and worried what's going to happen. “please cronus don't do this to me”you scream inside your head.

But then it happens. He gets up off the couch head low walking towards you at a pace that feels like he's going to come over there and strangle you.

Cronus places a hand on your shoulder. He looks at you and gets you to look up at him. He speaks slowly at first still trying to find the right words. "Eridan, there is nothing in this vworld that you could say that vwould make me hate you. I might not fully understand it but that dont mean I shouldn't support you. You're my descendant, you're an ampora. People are gonna respect you and care about you no matta vwhat". He has such a stern tone but you're relieved he wasn't angry.

He steps closer and gives you a hug. At this point you're didn't notice but your body has completely given up on trying to look brave. Tears slowly start to roll down your face. Before you know it you're sobbing. Cronus begins lightly stroking your long black hair and shooshing you.

He whispers to you, "its alright Eridan, it's okay". He repeats this a few times as you sit in his arms, shaking from crying so much. You're so relieved. You were so fearful he would scream at you. Your lusis didn’t accept you, maybe this will change his mind.

Cronus steps back from holding you and you wipe away your tears. His face looks puzzled but he tells you, “ hey I uh, havwe a fevw questions”.

You shoot him a concerned glance. “Wwell, ask awway. I don’t wwant you to havve any confusion”.

“Okay…” he starts out being careful trying to choose his words wisely hoping he doesn’t upset his descendant. “ Anything you wvant me to knovw or call you? I-I just wvanna help ya out here chief”. He slightly laughs off his awkwardness.

A bit of purple covers your face. You REELY didn’t expect it to go this well and now you’re embarrassed. You mumble at first trying to get over your nerves, “ um well I dont know if I have a chosen name or something I like… howwevver I uh I do wwant to start using they them pronouns". You kinda trail off at the end. Getting words out seems impossible. How in the fuck you are saying anyingthing,is beyond you.

"Oh, okay. If thats wvhat you wvant. Like I said wvhat evwer makes you feel more like yourself" he said with a bright smile. He was truly proud of his descendant.

You look down and smile to yourself. Cronus is proud of you. "thank you" you say meekly.

"No problem Eridan. I’m glad you told me. You shouldn't havwe suffered in silence".

#homestuck #eridan #eridan ampora #pesterquest #homestuck fanfiction #oneshot #cronus #cronus ampora #march eridan #nonbianry #trans character #coming out fic

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amicicidalgambler · 4 years

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=> Sometime In The Past...

trolljacksparrow

thats ADORABLE

you twwo are really adorable

amicicidalgambler

Listen.

trolljacksparrow

yeeeeeeees?

amicicidalgambler

Technically it's your fault 8ecause I'm in a good mood 8ecause of you and Meenah gets all mushy a8out that.

trolljacksparrow

awwwwww

wwell she does lovve you

amicicidalgambler

...I wouldn't say that.

trolljacksparrow

wwhy not?

amicicidalgambler

8ecause she doesn't?

trolljacksparrow

but

look at howw she acts around you and howw she talks about you

also look at you! wwho /wwouldnt/ lovve you?

amicicidalgambler

The vast majority of people, Nadaya.

trolljacksparrow

i mean true but shes not the vvast majority of people!

amicicidalgambler

Okay.

To 8e clear.

What do you mean 8y 'love' in this context specifically.

trolljacksparrow

i mean like

lovve

you knoww

your heart losing its absolute mind and like

you lovve me and you lovve psii and you lovve equius

yeah?

amicicidalgambler

Equius is different.

trolljacksparrow

yea? howws he different?

amicicidalgambler

...I don't love him, I just feel 8ad saying it.

trolljacksparrow

huh, howw do you feel about him then?

amicicidalgambler

I don't know right now?

8ut I don't love him.

And I don't know if I can.

trolljacksparrow

but you care about him, yeah?

amicicidalgambler

Yeah.

As my 8est friend.

trolljacksparrow

i mean...you care about him, you dont wwant him hurt, you trust him to help you - do you wwant to help him?

thats like

isnt that good enough?

amicicidalgambler

I don't really want to talk a8out it right now.

All I mean is that Meenah's the kind of person who'd say she loves someone in a platonic friend way, and do you mean *that*, or do you mean like, quadrant feelings.

8ecause it sounds like the second one.

trolljacksparrow

thats totally fine, ♣️

second one is wwhat i mean!

amicicidalgambler

...Damn.

trolljacksparrow

damn?

wwhy damn?

amicicidalgambler

I didn't want that to happen ::::(

trolljacksparrow

wwhy evver not????????

amicicidalgambler

She can't 8e in love with me, man.

I can't love her, and I can't d8 her, so that's just

Fuck.

trolljacksparrow

...wwhy cant you date her? wwhats stopping you?

amicicidalgambler

Literally every8ody else d8ing her, for starters.

Plus I just...can't do that.

trolljacksparrow

not one of them wwould mind, otherwwise meenah wwould not be wwith you like that? like. meenah wwould not betray her datemates, so clearly they must be fine wwith it

you cant? wwhy not, murdercat - youvve already gotten close to her, yeah?

amicicidalgambler

She has a family, Nadaya.

She has a 8unch of impressiona8le wrigglers and a 8ig clade of people who actually care a8out her.

Even if they're all fine with me d8ing her, I can't 8e like them, and I don't want to 8e the one unrelia8le fuck in the system either.

trolljacksparrow

you dont havve to be like them. she likes you just the wway you are.

and youre not unreliable.

youre a beautiful gleaming knife - shes lucky to havve someone like you on her side! you dont havve to be a bleeding heart rebel to be her clade, and her clade doesnt havve to be your clade

amicicidalgambler

I don't love her, though.

trolljacksparrow

you dont gotta?

amicicidalgambler

Yes I do.

trolljacksparrow

wwhy?

amicicidalgambler

8ecause she deserves someone that cares a8out her pro8lems and gets along with people and everything.

trolljacksparrow

you can care about her problems wwithout havving the lovve component! actions are like, kinda more important than feelings?

i mean, getting along wwith people is optional - fuck knowws i dont get along wwith all of xanthes people, ugh

but i can tolerate emand you can tolerate wwhoevver of meenahs you havve a problem wwith

amicicidalgambler

I *can* care 8ut I *don't*.

trolljacksparrow

do you wwant to?

amicicidalgambler

I don't know?

I can't really decide to want to?

trolljacksparrow

yeah that makes sense

amicicidalgambler

I 8arely care a8out any8ody's pro8lems. That's just how I am.

trolljacksparrow

no thats fair

but like, you can still help evven if you don't give a fuck, cause you like her, i guess?

i dont knoww man

youre pretty close to her, like, i don't think the situation is like any of your past entaglements

the irrelevvant ones you murdered

amicicidalgambler

Mostly.

trolljacksparrow

mostly?

amicicidalgambler

It's different minus the part where I still don't care much.

And like, assuming I could help her at all, I *could* do it just 8ecause I like her.

8ut I don't *want* to.

I never have. 8ecause I'm a 8astard.

And she doesn't need to 8e d8ing a 8astard.

trolljacksparrow

shes also a bastard!

amicicidalgambler

She is not.

And even if she is, she's surrounded 8y people who aren't and will just fucking side-eye me for eternity.

trolljacksparrow

i mean

its not like youvve been pretending!

youre being, like - you're not pretending to be anything other than wwhat you are, like, sure it took a wwhile to actually like be yourself around her but being guarded is different than being a wwhole nother person! its not like youvve been putting on airs of being like a Little Miss Helpful Rebel blah blah 8lah, so if shes fallen for you, shes fallen for wwho you are, yeah? and shes not stupid, either!

amicicidalgambler

She's fallen for *me*, 8ut that doesn't mean it's a good idea.

trolljacksparrow

man, evverything youvve said has boiled dowwn to "im bad for meenah" and like is that like, the entirety of wwhy youre like "fuck" or?

amicicidalgambler

I mean, yeah.

trolljacksparrow

wwhy not trust meenah to knoww wwhat shes getting into?

amicicidalgambler

8ecause that's not going to stop me from overthinking it.

Also if I'm right and I let her anyways then I'm just more of a 8itch!

trolljacksparrow

havve you considered........that youre wwrong?

amicicidalgambler

It feels statistically unlikely.

trolljacksparrow

but not impossible

amicicidalgambler

Theoretically.

trolljacksparrow

wwhat if it happened, though? if it wwas the wway i said and not the wway you ovverthinked?ovverthought

amicicidalgambler

If I was d8ing her and I was wrong then I'd just 8e d8ing her?

trolljacksparrow

but...it wwould be nice????????

amicicidalgambler

It would 8e. 8ut admittedly it's kind of hard to imagine.

Not even in a negative way, really. I just never know what I want.

> The conversation dropped off there. Or more specifically, it had dropped off there a few perigees ago. After that, you didn’t talk to Meenah, and Meenah didn’t happen to talk to you, and there was nothing you did about any of it except think.

> And think you did.

> You...knew that what you said in regards to yourself and Meenah was often self-deprecating in tone. To you it was just logic, that someone who was good and relied on a support system of good people didn’t need an evil black sheep in the works, but you knew how it sounded. And maybe it really was unreasonable. Maybe you were just paranoid or whatever.

> But there had to be a line. A line where you were knowingly letting someone enter a relationship that wouldn’t have the benefits everyone says they should have. And...and if not that, a line where you were knowingly entering a relationship where you were convinced that was the case.

> Originally that latter point was just out of spite. A prepared ‘gotcha’ for the next time you tried to argue about it. They wouldn’t believe that you shouldn’t be with her, so maybe you should take it a step back, say that thinking you shouldn’t be with her meant you shouldn’t be with her! But...at some point, you realized it made more sense than you thought.

> If you were actually dating Meenah, you’d be overthinking everything even more than you did now. Way more. It’d be a situation where you were forever walking on eggshells. One where you calculated and re-calculated every little thing because you were convinced you were inherently bad for her. Always denying her care because you couldn’t care enough back. Forever uncomfortable because she loved you, and you did not and could not love her.

> At some point, it took over as the center of your considerations. You couldn’t stop believing that you just weren’t right for her, not really, but it stopped being the center of your reasoning. Maybe it was that she wasn’t right for you. It made you uncomfortable. It wouldn’t be good for yourself. You’d feel stressed, and you’d feel trapped, and there was no way for you to know if there’d even be a light at the end of that tunnel. But...you didn’t have to wait and find out.

> You could break up with her because you were concerned for yourself. It was possible to put yourself first without being cruelly selfish towards her.

#ooc #logs.txt

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bitch-aucoin · 5 years

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Meouch’s finger slips and he orders 20 pizzas instead of 2. And it was all charged to Sung’s credit card.

(this was very off the top of my head i hope u enjoy anon)

They had tried to be smart about it. Really, they had.

It would start around four to five PM, usually, with a sigh, a grumble, possibly even a soft posing of “...you guys hungry yet?”

And then, chaos. Pandora’s fucking box.

Hogan was never part of the equation. He would simply sit there and and watch them squabble-fuss-moan over what they were going to eat for dinner that night, expression teetering between amusement and being bored.

So the problem really boiled down to him, Phobos, and Sung, which probably actually helped out. Three opinions, after all, already made it tough enough. He could work with the smaller man more often than not, at least,, whose only preference is that it be Earthen food, but then Phobos would step in.

And Phobos would open his damn mouth.

And then Phobos would ruin his life.

Eat healthy, eat better, eat well. Posed so sweetly, so well-meaningfully, that Sung couldn’t help but agree with the other alien. And Phobos knew. Would smile a smug, small smile when Sung began listing off build your own salad bars and probiotic smoothies he wanted to try and free range-locally sourced stuff.

And every time, without fail, Meouch would then freak the fuck out. He was a carnivore, he liked meat, he couldn’t take it anymore! All he wanted was fat and sugar and grease, which then would get Sung’s attention because he had an infamous sweet tooth, and Phobos’s reprimand.

On and on, they ouroborosed themselves into oblivion like that, the struggle seemingly endless until Havve suggested their magnum opus.

The suggestion board.

Really, Meouch was certain the bastard was looking at excuse to throw his knives inside, but Sung liked to think that he just wanted to get involved. Be a part of the fun, you know? So they went and installed a cork board and pinned their top five suggestions and Meouch let Havve borrow his headband to double as a blindfold before they let him wind back and go.

It struck, sure as an arrow, and for a time things were easy and undeniable and good. It was luck, chance, and the Fates guiding them.

But then the impossible happened.

Pizza night.

“Do it again.”

They didn’t even watch Havve do it anymore. It felt like questioning a lesser god, in a sense. They would simply lounge around various parts of the cockpit instead, keeping to themselves. The robot cocked his head towards Sung, who then began to translate for him.

“What do you mean, do it again?” It was a double layered question for both the cyclops and his robot companion, Meouch supposed. Phobos was standing next to the board though, slim arms folded across his chest, something about him undeniable despite being so soft and pink and small.

“Because we’re not doing this.”

“That’s not how the rules work.” Meouch groused as he stood up, stalking over to the younger male. “We agreed, no questioning the knife.” That meant questioning Havve, and they all knew better than that.

Phobos shoved the paper in his face and it took Meouch a moment to make sense of it, but once he did he snorted, then shook his head, lips pulling back to flash his fangs in a casual threat. “You are not taking pizza away from me. That’s set in stone, bitch.”

“Pizza!” Sung clamored excitedly, jogging over to them, summoned by it’s name. Hook line and sinker, every time. The Doc loved his pizza, and he wouldn’t be denied. Especially since it had been months since they had last had a slice. He was throwing Phobos his best puppy eyed look now, nearly vibrating in place. “There’s gotta be an option that you’ll like, Phobs! Please?”

“There’s too many places to order from, too many types.” Phobos insisted, waving the tattered paper about. “We’re gonna spend all night trying to figure it out.”

Havve leaned into their conversation and Sung gave a soft and pleased “oh!” as they began to converse silently. “Havve just said... to order two pizzas! And also that he doesn’t appreciate the indecision on our part.” A pause, then Sung pushed the robot, brow furrowing. “I’m not saying that!”

“Did he say he was going to kill us if we chose something else?” Meouch drawled.

“...Maybe...” Sung admitted, looking embarrassed on Havve’s behalf.

Meouch rolled his eyes towards the Lepid with a smirk. “And that’s why we don’t question the knife, Phobos.” It was as easy as that.

Phobos threw his hands up, causing the paper to flutter, but it was clear they had won. And good. Phobos had had the last week’s worth of meals, Meouch was ready for something else.

It did take them time though. Because if they were going to order pizza then there had to be leftovers and that meant that both pizzas had to be divvied up. It was only fair, that way, and also why they didn’t just get more than two. They were musicians, after all, and sometimes-maybe vigilantes. They couldn’t spend too much. They all agreed on light sauce, at the very least, but then came the question of crust, extra cheese, meats, veggies, breadsticks...

It escalated to the point of Sung jumping between him and Phobos at one point, threatening to nunchuck the shit out of them if they didn’t calm down. And as always, Havve watched as it got progressively worse and worse, fists tucked under his rusting jaw, optics flashing quietly.

“OKAY. SO.” Meouch growled. “We’re going with... two hand tossed pizzas with light marinara sauce. First one is half of a meat lovers with extra cheese and garlic crust, then the other half is a taco pizza with no tomatoes with plain crust. The other one is going to be vegan cheese with every fucking veggie topping in existence on one side, and the other...” He paused and made a disgusted face and noise. “Hawaiian, extra pineapple. Gods, you guys are so fucking gross.”

“All pizza is good pizza.” Sung hummed. “I still wish we were getting the chicken and waffle one...” He sighed morosely then, kicking his legs up.

“You can get that on your own time. Now give me your credit info Phobos.”

Phobos’s head jerked in his direction, dark eyes tightening. “I’m not paying for it, Meouch. You are!”

“OH. Oh no I am not!” They were getting up in each other’s faces again, the tension inevitable. It was the hangriness, Meouch was sure of it, all of them practically starving at this point. “First you try to deny me my pizza, now you’re saying you’re not paying for it?”

Phobos got right up in his face, antennae curling in anger. “If you want it so much, you can take care of it! I paid for the last one!”

Meouch let out a sharp laugh of disbelief. He couldn’t be serious! “What last one? Last pizza!? It’s your turn, asshole!”

“I’LL PAY!” Sung shouted loudly, frisbee-ing his credit card at Meouch’s head seconds later. “JUST SHUT UP AND LET ME PAY FOR IT. And get me a large orange soda.” He went back down on the couch, mumbling to himself sullenly. “Because after all of this, I deserve it.”

Eyeing Phobos furiously as he typed the credit card information in with his claw, Meouch went about finalizing the order. “I swear to the gods, one of these days you’re going to get over this whole health guru kick and actually start enjoying yourself like a normal person and we can stop having these stupid fights.” He muttered sourly, not caring anymore.

“Oh that’s funny! I could say the same thing about you.” What he would give to just slam Phobos’s helmet over his head. He never spoke when he had that thing on... Wait, where was he again? “You’re going to have a heart attack and then you’ll come crawling to me for better living tips.”

“I have nine lives, you idiot! I don’t have to worry about that!” He slammed his paws down on the keyboard, causing Havve to shake his head and walk away.

“WELL SUNG DOESN’T, ASSHOLE!” Phobos nearly shrieked.

Meouch spluttered and rolled his eyes, not caring anymore. “SUNG CAN DO ONE HUNDRED JUMPING JACKS IN LIKE, A MINUTE. I THINK HE’S FINE!”

“It’s actually seventy-five!” Sung interjected, causing both of them to whip towards them. “I’M JUST SAYING! WAIT! GUYS! WHERE ARE YOU GOING!?”

Phobos went out one door and Meouch went out the other and they stayed that way until the pizza’s showed up.

All 20 of them.

Meouch wasn’t even aware of his terrible mistake until Sung screamed.

Phobos was faster getting to Sung than he was, something that he would probably brag about if he wasn’t staring at the current situation with even more than usual bug eyes.

20 pizza boxes.

20 damn pizza boxes.

Havve had ten each balanced on both hands, looking stupid indifferent as Sung gaped at him. “B-but we can’t eat that much. A-and...” That’s when Meouch saw the receipt in his shaking hands. The painfully long receipt, detailing just how many pizzas they had gotten and for how much.

They all looked at him then, and Meouch could feel the floor slipping out from under him.

“It was an accident!” Meouch tried to protest, guilt growing as they all continued to stare at them except for Sung. “It could happen to anyone!” He panicked.

“...I didn’t even get my soda...” Sung whimpered after a moment of looking back at the pizzas and then the receipt once more, hanging his head in defeat.

“I told you.” Phobos at least had the kindness not to sneer or look smug as he addressed Meouch, only going as far as to shake his head as he put his arm around Sung, slowly damning him. “We should have picked something else.”

And that’s the story of how Commander Meouch lost his food ordering rights.

#twrp #this is very silly and dumb and i hope you liked it!!!!!!!!#Anonymous

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evelynhug0 · 5 years

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List of things to talk about with my psy in the future

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Instagram and social media in general makes me feel so dumb and I feel like a dumb wannabe influencer but I actually just wanna share my photos and thoughts and I feel like everyone from high school is judging the hell out of me and it bothers me and I don’t wanna quit IG and I don’t want it to bother me helpppp

I feel like everybody hates me because of my anxiety problems and my health problems and no one will ever want to be with me because of that stuff

Fucking up my last year of middle school still haunts me and might be the reason for my anxiety but I dunno why

I was already anxious as a child

Why am I unable to show my emotions? Why do I push people that mean something away from me? I just don’t wanna get hurt ugh

I feel like no one understands me and everyone just wants me to be little cute Lissy again

I feel like I havve no friends and I don’t mean anything to my friends because of my fucked up childhood friends

I feel like I always have to proof that i am worth something because that’s how it was when I was a child

my parents’ divorce

fear of losing control

I feel like my anxiety is a burden for everyone so I gotta make sure I don’t annoy other people too much with it and after that I can take care of myself but not before

I feel like no one will ever take me serious and everyone always makes fun of me and I think I am not worth that much and I am not talented at anything

Being single all the time and being nothing but rejected by the ones I loved fucked me up so much

#do not reblog #psy #i made this so i won't forget it #i always write it down on a paper but then i lose the lil paper and it sucksssss

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fandom-addicts-yeah · 6 years

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Could we have an romantic Eridan X Mermaid! Reader Fic, Where Eridan is at a beach (swimming, sunbathing, whatever the heck) and he sees the reader, sunbathing on a rock formation? Maybe the reader not only has a fish tail, but has another fish like feature as well, like prettyful fins for ears or something like that~

That’s an interesting idea

Well first let’s go through the basics:

Y/N - your name

F/C- favorite color

H/C- hair color

H/L- hair length

Also keep in mind that it contains a few curse words and I will also change the point of view, I hope you like it!

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Eridan’s POV

I am dragged at a beach bymy friend Feferi, in all honesty I don’t want to be here. People are too loud,the sun is burning my skin and the water is fucking cold. Fef on the other handis really excited about it ‘Oh c’mon, Eridan, loosen up, it’s not thatbad! I’m always having fun at the beach! You can have fun too!’ she said with ahappy, sort of stupid, smile on her face. ‘I highly doubt it, Fef! There’snothing here that I might possibly like!’ I am very skeptical about the wholesituation, she invited me at the beach before, I don’t understand why I agreedthis time, I have a really bad feeling when I’m around the ocean, even thoughI’m a good swimmer. ‘Whatever, Eridan, just get in the damnwater!’. ‘Fiiiine!’

I got in the water, but I’mstill not moving ‘Eridan, what are you doing? Start swimmingalready.’ ‘No wway Fef, I’m in the wwater but I wwon’t swwimm!’ ‘Ohreally?’. Before I could respond with anything, she dived under water anddragged me by the foot with her. I look around and I see her holding herbreath, looking like she wanted to giggle. I glare at her and start moving inthe direction of the surface, since she dragged me pretty far under water. Iwas close but at that moment I saw something moving in the corner of my eye. I lookedback but Feferi wasn’t there, she was already at the surface. The motion kepton happening around me, the figure swimming like they had superpowers. Idecided to follow it.

After a few minutes Ifollowed the figure to the surface. I could still see the beach from where Iwas so I wasn’t exactly in danger. I looked around then I saw a pretty bigrock, and someone seemed to be sitting on it? I got closer to the rock and thenI saw them. They had a fish like long (F/C) tail and (H/L) (H/C)hair. But what I immediately noticed for some reason were their fins, that wereplaced instead of ears and were tinted a little (F/C), like their whole body.

Reader POV

The warm breeze is touching mycold, wet skin nicely. After I had to run away from those humans I needed abreak, I mean, I was almost noticed, lucky for me I have the mermaid powers.Unfortunately, I detected someone swimming in my direction. As quick as Icould, I jumped off the rock and hid behind it.

The figure keeps gettingcloser, until I can see him clearly, a human. I stare at him in awe. I’vewatched humans for years, they seem fascinating, but I’ve never seen one soclose to me. I wanted to communicate with him, but unfortunately I realized hewas struggling to hold his breath. Being truly aware of the danger that I’mputting my species in, I still grabbed his hand and dragged him to the surface.

Once we reached thesurface, he caught his breath, then looked at me with a shocked and mesmerizedexpression that made me slightly giggle. Looking straight into his eyes, Iopened my mouth to say something but I was cut off by him saying ‘Y-YOU’REREAL AND… and you’re gorgeous’ the compliment flattered me, but I know forsure that I have to leave, we are not allowed to see each other nor speak witheach other in any way, we’ve hiding for thousands of years, and in a fewminutes, I managed to ruin that.

Trying not to be rude, Ikindly smiled then tried to leave. He noticed my movements and realized thatI’m trying to leave, so he grabbed my upper arm and said ‘wwait, I wwantto talk wwith you more. I can’t believe you’re real! Wwait, can you talk?’. Hewanted to keep asking questions, but I raised my hand in front of him to shuthim up, then said ‘y-yes I can talk’ my voice was a little rusty, I’m usedto talking underwater, but not on the surface ‘I’m (Y/N). And who mightyou be, human?’. I looked in his purple-ish eyes waiting for an answer. Herealized he was sort of staring so he shook his head and spoke ‘I’m Eridan.’he said that so softly that it was hard to hear. Silence followed, and I usedit to take a closer look at him. He doesn’t have fins nor a tail. He has two…feet? I believe human call them. I wonder how can humans swim with them, theyare not made for that, but most humans still weren’t drowning.

After a while of staring athim I looked straight at his face and said ‘I think we should go sit onthe rock, you’re a human after all, and I honestly don’t want you to diebecause of me.’ He didn’t respond but he nodded and followed me to the rock. Weboth sat there. I looked at the beach, it was visible from that point. I deeplysighed then said to him ‘So you live there huh?’ He looked at me andmurmured a ‘yes’ under his breath. ‘Is it nice? I mean to me it lookslike you have more freedom than I do.’ He looked at me then said with aconfused and at the same time amused face ‘More freedom? The ocean is wwaybigger than the land. You havve more to explore than wwe do.’ Thinking aboutit, he’s right, the ocean is way bigger than the land, but mermaids have a lotof rules that should be followed, and right now, I was breaking at least ten.My face must have showed concern for a second there without me realizing, ‘causehe looked at me with a soft, wandering expression.

I don’t want theconversation to be awkward so I guess it’s time to fix it.’So, you can swimwith your “feet” I see. I’m surprised. They obviously not made forswimming.’ He looked at me with… actually glared at me, in a sort of way thatactually showed a little bit of pride ‘Maybe they are not made forswwimming, but they are still functional. But not all human can swwimm, I canbecause I’m awwesome’. That statement made me laugh a little, thing thatutterly irritated him. ‘Wwhat the fuck are you laughingat?!’ ‘Nothing, nothing. You just seem to be very very confident’. At thataffirmation his expression softened and he sighed ‘I don’t knoww ifconfidence is the right wword, but thank you for the… compliment?’. Thatintrigued me for some reason, I wanted to know more about this human, maybe hehad the same struggles like me, and maybe he is ignored and isolated from hissociety because of his dreams as well. I looked at him and said softly ‘I knowwe just met and all, but you can talk to me, I mean I don’t have anyone to tellanything to, so we might as well keep each other’s company while we are here.’He looked at me and sort of smiled but for a quick second.

~~~~~Time skip~~~~~

Reader POV

We talked ‘till the sun wentdown completely. I found out about his friends that usually called him annoyingand ignore him, about the fact that he’s lonely even though he tried to getcloser to people, about how he can be temperamental at times. Over all, heseemed like a nice human, the nicest one by far. He was sort of kind with me,we shared the same problems and issues, and he also looked good.

Unfortunately for both ofus, it was time for him to leave so I did what I thought was best, consideringthe fact that I might never see him again, thought that made me really sad. Helooked at me then said ‘I’m really sorry but I have to go. I honestlywwish I could stay. You truly understand me but…’ I motioned for him to stoprambling and look at me ‘ I understand, we technically aren’t even allowedto talk, so you don’t have to excuse yourself. Just promise me two things’ henodded so I went on ‘one, don’t tell anyone about our existence’ he noddedagain ‘and two… n-never forget me, cause I will never forget you…’ andwith that, without giving him time to respond I softly kissed his cheek andjumped in the water, leaving a blushing Eridan behind.

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I hope you enjoyed it! :P

~ Mod Ale

#homestuck #hiveswap #eridan #eridan ampora #eridan ampora x reader #imagine #mermaid au #ask #anon #fanfiction

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notnaturalanahi · 6 years

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About me

Rules: Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged.

I was tagged by @winchesterdemon67 thanks! I had a plan to write today, but it’s so fucking hot again my brain won’t function.

LAST:

Drink: Mate

Phone call: Uhh according to my phone, to the husband -on Saturday

Text message: My sis

Song you listened to: Gone - The Station Breaks (at)

Time you cried: Saturday afternoon while watching Coco finally!

HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated someone twice: Yeah

Been cheated on: Yes and I returned the favor to someone who didn’t deserve it

Kissed someone and regretted it: At the time I did but now... It’s life, shit happens

Lost someone special: Not really?

Been depressed: For the past 6 years

Been drunk and thrown up: Oh the memories...*sighhs*

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU

Made a new friend: Both internet and IRL

Fallen out of love: I guess not

Laughed until you cried: Every other day

Met someone who changed you: I wanna say yes, but I suppose it was a whole bunch and it didn’t really changed me... More like it allowed me to rediscover myself somehow.

Found out who your true friends are: I did that a few years ago. Still, you learn something year everyday

Found out someone was talking about you: Um I don’t pay attention to that kinda stuff.

GENERAL

How many people in Tumblr do you know in real life?: I think just one, my sis @nadiandreu7

Do you have any pets?: Yes, 2 dogs Neguia and Tigger

Do you want to change your name?: I love my name

What time did you wake up this morning?: 8:30

What were you doing last night?: At what time? I did a few stuff...

Name something you cannot wait for: I cannot wait for my kid to be a little bit more independent and at the same time I don’t want him to grow up... see my problem?

Have you ever talked to a person named tom?: Yeah

What’s getting on your nerves right now?: The fucking heat!!!

Blood type: 0+ this reminds me I haven’t given blood in quite a while, so I should go to the hospital soon.

Nickname: Anita, Nais, mys husband calls me Hon?

Relationship status: In a long term relationship

Zodiac sign: Sagittarius

Pronouns: She/Her

Favourite show: At the moment, Brooklyn 99 and SPN

College: I dropped out a couple of times

Hair colour: Black (dyed) chocolate brown (natural)

Do you have a crush on someone?: On a few celebrities, yeah. Jason Momoa, Jeffrey Dean Morgan, Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, Johnny Depp, Aj Mclean

What do you like about yourself?: My sense of humor, my lame but quick comebacks, that always ruibn the conversations. Physically it dependa on the day.

FIRSTS

First surgery: C-section

First piercing: Earlobes when I was born.

First sport you joined: Sports don’t get along with me.

First vacation: Camping with my familly (does it counts as vacation)

First pair of sneakers: Don’t recall

RIGHT NOW

Eating: Mate? Oh and I ate a plump fr breakfast

Drinking: Mate lol

I’m about to: I should be about to clean my kid’s room and sort the thousand of toys so this chest the husband is making would fit.

Listening to: Helium - Sia

Want kids: I’m still considering the posibility of discussing about having a second one in a near future.

Get married: I don’t think I’ll ever get legally married

Career: I studied English -i wanted to be a teacher but I dropped out. Also I’m one exam away to get my bachelor’s degree in Turism -I’m a certified Tour guide.

WHICH IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: eyes: Lips

Hugs or kisses: Both

Shorter or taller: Everyone’s tallen than me

Older or younger: Older, always

Romantic or spontaneous: Both

Sensitive or loud: Both

Hookup or relationship: Again, both

Troublemaker or hesitant: Neither, something in between

HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed a stranger: Yep

Drank hard liquor: You mean saturday nights?

Lost contacts/glasses: Ugh yeah

Sex on first date: Nah... what you mean by sex exactly?

Broken someone’s heart: I’m not proud of it but it had to be done.

Been arrested: I’m a good girl

Turned someone down: Yes

Fallen for a friend: I can’t say I havve

DO YOU BELIEVE

In yourself: Sometimes, I keep surprising me though

Miracles: Nah

Love at first sight: Nope

Tagging 25 people: 25, you for real?

@kdfrqqg @thegreatficmaster @nadiandreu7 @queen-of-deans-booty @emilyymichelle @plaidstiel-wormstache @docharleythegeekqueen @doro7winchester @oneshoeshort @emoryhemsworth @roxyspearing @imagining-supernatural @waywardasfudge @attractiverandomness @babypieandwhiskey @whywhydoyouwantmetosaymyname @charliebradbury1104 @wonderfulworldofwinchester @goldenangelbloodcastiel @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps @jennell79 @geekgirl1213 @wingedcatninja not 25 but so close!! Sorry for bothering you guys, just ignore this lol

#tagging game #tag game #about me #i was tagged #winchesterdemon67 #i guess this is what i get for making your put together a list of songs lol

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courtinggrievances · 6 years

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[[I’m gonna... take this time to put up a log kk had with eri this morning. this was rushedly formatted and it took me a bit to figure out how, so there might be some random < p > or something in there

PS: any formatting we did have from the discord got... erased so.... that sucks but you’ll get the point, even if they both get a bit, uh, runon? we tried to figure out a solution but right now i want to sacrifice quality for speed cause i need to sleep and we can fix it later if we really gotta]]

eridan | mags - Today at 7:37

so uh hey kar howwvve you been

Court (Kam) - Today at 7:42

HEY! NOT TERRIBLY TERRIBLE, IF I'M HONEST. IT'S NOT GETTING ANY COLDER, AND THE DRONES HAVEN'T CAUGHT US YET, SO THERE'S THAT.

eridan | mags - Today at 7:43

that doesnt relievve me all that much if im bein honest but alright i guess at least theres that just try and not get killed alright

Court (Kam) - Today at 7:43

HEY, WE'RE THINKING THE SAME THING HERE. I MEAN, I'M NOT RELIEVED AT ALL, BUT IF ANYTHING ELSE, I'VE STILL GOT MY LIFE, HAHA. FUCK, YOU KNOW I'M LITERALLY A FUGITIVE RIGHT? LIKE IF I WAS ON YOUR ALTERNIA, HOW LONG DO YOU THINK IT'D BE FOR A DRONE TO MATCH MY PROFILE UP IN THE DATABANKS AND SWOOP DOWN TO CARRY ME OFF IN ITS GRUBBY LITTLE CLAWS? LIKE I'LL TRY, BUT HEY. NO PROMISES.

eridan | mags - Today at 7:45

yeah ill nevver bring you to alternia thats for sure

Court (Kam) - Today at 7:45

I'M ACTUALLY KIND OF LOOKING FORWARD TO THE EARTH TRIP, HONESTLY. I'VE BEEN DOING "RESEARCH". IS IT TRUE THE SUN DOESN'T BURN YOUR SKIN THERE???? WHAT DO THE HUMANS DO AT NIGHT? IS IT TOO COLD, THEN, FOR THEM TO THRIVE? IS THAT WHEN THEY SLEEP, OR IS THAT WHEN THEY GET THE MOST OF THEIR WORK DONE?

eridan | mags - Today at 7:47

god you really are excited for it huh

Court (Kam) - Today at 7:48

FAR BE IT FROM ME TO SHOW ACTUAL EXCITEMENT, YOU KNOW. HEH. DEFINITELY, THOUGH. WHY SHOULD I NOT BE? I'M SPENDING TIME IN A NON-MURDEROUS PLACE WITH AN ACTUAL, HONEST TO GOD, NON-MURDEROUS FRIEND. LIKE HOLY ACTUAL FUCK, THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN OFTEN ENOUGH. EXCITED? EVERYTIME I THINK ABOUT IT I KIND OF JUST... THROW MY HANDS IN THE AIR. WHAT AM I GONNA DO? I GOT NO FUCKING CLUE. BUT IT'LL BE GOOD, I'M SURE.

eridan | mags - Today at 7:50

wwell good ill try my best to make it good for you so you get to havve a fuckin break for once but yeah its kinda flipped on earth wwhich i still cant get used to to be honest i havve the wworst sleepin problems the sun feels great there but i still cant bring myself to sleep normally at night

Court (Kam) - Today at 7:51

ALLOW ME TO SHOW A SMIDGEN OF CONCERN AND CARE FOR YOU BUT, HEY, I DON'T CARE IF WE DON'T EVEN LEAVE YOUR HIVE. I'LL RAID YOUR FOOD STORAGE BLOCK AND CRASH ON THE COUCH AND MAYBE WATCH YOU DO SHIT AND WE'LL BE GOOD. HELL, IT FEELS "GREAT"? CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE. OUR SCHEDULES ARE KIND OF FLIPPED ANYWAYS, HONESTLY. WE TRAVEL DURING THE DAY A LOT, BECAUSE MOST TROLLS (ORPHANERS AND THE LIKE,) WON'T TRAVEL DURING DAY, SO WE GET A HEADSTART ON THEM. CAN'T OUTRUN THE DRONES THOUGH. MISERABLE EXCUSES FOR ORGANICS. JUST HAVE TO HOPE THEY DON'T CHASE US, DOESN'T SEEM LIKE IT SO FAR. I THINK WE LOST MOST OF THEM WHEN THEY RAIDED KANAYA'S HIVE AND RAZED IT TO THE GROUND? BACK WHEN I GOT MY SECOND CONCUSSION... OR FIRST, I'M NOT SURE, THAT PART IS KIND OF. BLURRY. IT WAS A LOT OF WAITING IN A DARK, WATERY CAVE. NO, SECOND, ACTUALLY. OR MAYBE, AN EXCARBATION OF THE FIRST, BECAUSE I GOT THAT ONE WHEN I GOT SLAMMED INTO A WALL BY A DRONE, EARLIER THAT... WEEK? LIKE THREE CYCLES BEFORE THE HIVE-RAZING, AND THEN I GOT HIT IN THE HEAD AGAIN WHEN WE WENT DOWN THE ROCKY WATER SLIDE OF DEATH WHEN THE DRONES ATTACKED THE HIVE. OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. LIKE I SAID. BLURRY.

eridan | mags - Today at 7:56

ok this is a lot first off wwere absolutely gonna go outside and do cool shit ill showw you the city and stuff like theres this space needle that ivve honestly nevver been on evven though ivve been livvin here for a wwhile but you should see it its like a huge towwer wwhere you can see the entire city from its supposed to be real pretty but its also real pricey so i wwas nevver interested second howw the fuck do you evven travvel at day dont you get burns or anythin isnt that shit dangerous i mean yeah its dangerous already for you to travvel at night but like i dont knoww be safe ok readin shit like this makes me wwanna practise usin my rifle again honestly

Court (Kam) - Today at 7:59

IT WAS WORSE WHEN WE HAD TO TRAVEL THROUGH THE DESERT.

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:01

I BOUGHT REALLY NICE SUN GEAR BEFORE HAND, AND I ALREADY HAD MOST OF MY BLISTERS IN THE TWO-HOUR TREK TO TEMP'S HIVE BEFOREHAND. I GUESS, ONCE YOU BLISTER UP ENOUGH, YOUR SKIN GETS USED TO IT. THEN YOU JUST SWEAT TO DEATH. I'M STILL 99% SURE WE'VE ALL SHORTENED OUR LIFESPANS BY SOME DEGREE, THOUGH. UNFORTUNATE BUT COULDN'T BE HELPED. BURNS GET CAUSED BY THE CONTACT OF THE HEATSOURCE TO YOUR SKIN- IF YOU GET TOO HOT, YOU BAKE AND BLISTER UP BEFORE YOU ACTUALLY BURN, WITHOUT ACTUAL EXPOSURE TO THE RAYS OF THE SUN, LIKE WHEN YOU WEAR HEAT GEAR. WITHOUT IT, OH YEAH. HELL YEAH, YOU ABSOLUTELY BURN AND IT'S HORRIFIC, BUT WE'RE ALL PAST THAT POINT. WE'VE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR.... ALMOST HALF A SWEEP? WE TRY TO FIND SHADE WHERE WE CAN. RIGHT NOW IT'S COLD AND PATCHY SNOW SOMETIMES, WHEN THE SUN ISN'T OUT. IT'S SOMEWHAT TOLERABLE THIS FAR NORTH, THE SUN I MEAN.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:06

howw the fuck are you not dead yet holy shit

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:06

TEMP REFERS TO ME AS A "BRICK WALL SHITHOUSE".

eridan | mags - Today at 8:06

pretty accurate can i ask you somethin though howw did all of this start the runnin i mean

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:15

I ACTUALLY PASSED OUT ONCE IN THE DESERT, WHILE WE WERE TRAVELING TO KANAYA'S HIVE, AND TEMP HAD TO CARRY ME. ALSO, YEAH. THIS IS TOP SECRET SHIT, OKAY?

eridan | mags - Today at 8:16

god

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:16

DON'T JUST GO TELLING THIS SHIT TO JUST ANYONE.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:16

i dont evven knoww wwho to tell honestly

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:16

I GUESS TEMP PINGED HER BATTLESHIP.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:16

they cant really do much wwith this information

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:17

GOT EVERYTHING. LOCATION COORDINATES, CABIN ROSTER, EVEN THE FUCKING MENU FOR THE FOOD LINE. ANNNDD I GUESS TEMP FIGURED OUT HIS ANCESTOR IS THE UNWILLING PILOT FOR THAT SHIP. OBVIOUSLY SHE DIDN'T LIKE THAT SOMEONE GOT THROUGH THE SECURITY ON HER SHIP. BUT BEFORE SHE DID ANYTHING, TEMP CAME TO ME, AND I NOT-SO-LIGHTLY SUGGESTED WE LEAVE TOWN. AS WE LEFT HIS HIVESTEM, WE SAW THE GAGGLE OF HIGHBLOODS IN UNIFORM FORCING ALL THE PSIONS THEY COULD FIND OUT OF EVERY BLOCK IN THE NEARBY VICINITY AND INTO CHAINS. TEMP DIDN'T THINK SHE WOULD BE THAT QUICK IN PINPOINTING HIS LOCATION BUT I FUCKING KNEW BETTER. ANYWAY, HE COULDN'T SIT WITH THE IDEA THAT HE'D CAUSED THESE THIRTY-SOMETHING PSIONIC TROLLS TO BECOME ENSLAVED OR TO REACH AN EARLY ASCENSION AND RITES OR WHATEVER, SO I BASICALLY WENT IN AND KNOCKED THE SHIT OUT OF SOME OF THE FUCKS, BROKE THE BINDINGS, AND JUST FUCKING RAN. BUT THEN THEY KNEW WHAT I LOOKED LIKE, SO WE WERE BOTH RUNNING FROM HER AND FROM THE LOCALS.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:23

so basically it wwas your mate bein a curious idiot that got you into this situation

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:23

WE WENT BACK TO MY HIVE, RAIDED MY SHIT, AND THEN WE CROSSED THE CITY IN THE SEWERS FOR THE DAY AND THEN HEADED OUT OF TOWN, STAYED AT A MOTEL FOR A FEW NIGHTS, AND HEADED OUT TO THE DESERT, AND THERE'S JUST A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT I'D RATHER NOT TALK ABOUT FROM THERE. IT'S MOSTLY BULLSHIT ABOUT THE COVERUP OF WHAT I'M DUBBING THE ANCESTRAL REVOLT AND THE WRONGFUL IMPRISONMENT AND SLAUGHTER OF THOSE WHO PARTICIPATED IN IT. TEMP'S JUST ALL WOUND UP BECAUSE HIS ANCESTOR IS STILL ALIVE AND SUFFERING AND GOD. I MEAN DIP'S ALL WELL AND GOOD, HE'S GOTTEN US OUT OF A FEW PICKLES SO FAR. BUT MESSAGES ARE SPARSE, AND IT WORRIES TEMP, I GUESS. BUT YEAH, BASICALLY.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:25

so wwhats your plan are you just gonna run forevver

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:26

DO YOU WANT THE LONG ANSWER OR THE SHORT ONE.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:26

givve me the long one im invvested

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:27

WE JUST RECENTLY LEARNED THAT SHE'S CALLING ALL THE PSIONS TO HER IN A CLASS-ACT LEVEL OF BULLSHIT, EVERY SINGLE!! FUCKING!! PSION!! INTERPLANETARY SHIPPING IS HALTED, SHE'S LAID SIEGE TO ALTERNIA ITSELF IF WE CAN'T GET THE RESOURCES WE NEED FROM OTHER PLANETS EFFECTIVELY. SHE'S REARRANGED THE CLASSES OF THE STELLAR-CLASS PSIONS AND BASICALLY RESTRUCTURED THE ENTIRE ALTERNIAN TRANSGALACTIC FLEET'S INFRASTRUCTURE JUST TO KEEP DIPSHIT ALIVE. SO RIGHT NOW, WE'RE SCRAMBLING TO GET THE MESSAGE OUT. ANYONE WITH POWER NEEDS TO GET OUT OF THEIR HIVES AND GET UNDERGROUND BEFORE THEY GET BROUGHT UP INTO THE STARS TO BE USED UP AND THROWN AWAY. SHE'S EVEN TAKING EGGS, IF DIPSHIT IS TO BE BELIEVED. NO PSIONICS ARE TO BE LEFT ON ALTERNIA, AND EVERYWHERE ELSE THEY'RE ABOUT TO BECOME A CLASS A SCARCE RESOURCE.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:29

wwho the fuck evven is that dipshit youre talkin about

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:29

WHICH MEANS TEMP AND AA JUST BECAME SUPER VALUABLE TO ANYONE LOOKING. HE'S HER PILOT, THE ONE TEMP CONTACTED. I'D SAY HIS PROPER TITLE BUT I'VE GOT TO BE CAREFUL WITH BUZZWORDS.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:30

wwell alright

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:30

ANYWAY! SO WE'RE TRYING TO GET THE WORD OUT TO HIGHBLOODS ABOUT THIS CLASS A RESOURCE THING, SO THEY WANT TO KEEP THEIR PSIONICS ON THE PLANET, AND TO THE REST, TO KEEP HIDDEN. ANYWHERE IS BETTER, BUT IF THEY GET INTO ORBIT, THEY'RE BASICALLY DEAD IN THE WATER. IT'S THE GENOCIDE OF AN ENTIRE FUCKING CLASS, IT'S WHAT SHE'S TRYING TO DO, ALL TO KEEP HER PRIZE FROM SAID ANCESTRAL REVOLT. ANYWAY!! MY PERSONAL GOAL IS TO LEARN MORE ABOUT MY OWN ANCESTOR AND HOW HE TIED INTO ALL THIS, BUT I GUESS WE'VE GOT MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO PLAN, LIKE HOW WE'RE GOING TO GET NEWS LIKE THIS SHIT OUT ON A MASS SCALE. I'M THINKING OF GETTING SOME SORT OF RADIO TRANSMITTER AND GETTING THE WORD OUT FOR OUR STATION NUMBERS OR WHATEVER. LONG TERM, TEMP WANTS TO FREE DIPSHIT. SO I GUESS WE'RE GONNA BAIT THE EMPRESS PLANETSIDE. AND THEN... I DUNNO. WE'LL FIGHT, I GUESS. SHE'S SO FAR OUT, THOUGH, THAT'S THE PROBLEM.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:34

do you really actually think youvve got a chance against the condesce

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:34

IT'LL TAKE /SWEEPS/ TO BRING HER THIS WAY, PROBABLY, UNLESS SHE PUTS DIPSHIT AT RISK, AND TEMP DOESN'T WANT THAT AND NEITHER DO I. MAYBE NOT NOW, BUT BY THE TIME SHE GETS HERE? I'M HOPING. I MEAN, IF ALL ELSE FAILS, I'LL STAND IN THE DIRECT SUNLIGHT IN MIDDAY, WITH ALL MY RESISTANCE TO IT, AND CHALLENGE HER OUT? HAHAH. ... HONESTLY...? I THINK MY PRIORITIES LIE MORE WITH THE REST OF ALTERNIA. TEMP CAN WORRY ABOUT DIPSHIT ALL HE WANTS. BUT FOR THE REST OF US? I THINK THAT'S GOING TO BE MY MAIN CONCERN. ALL INTERPLANETARY SHIPPING IS GOING TO STOP FOR A WHILE- WE'RE SWITCHING TO FOSSIL FUELS FOR FUCKS SAKE!! SO RESOURCES ARE ABOUT TO BECOME EXTREMELY RARE, AND I NEED TO STOCK UP AND MAKE SURE WE HAVE WHAT WE NEED TO SURVIVE THE NEXT FEW MONTHS. I'VE ALREADY PUT THROUGH MY ORDER THROUGH SOME OF MY LESS REPUTABLE CONTACTS, SO I THINK WE'LL BE FINE, BUT IT'LL BE ROUGH, PROBABLY. SO THAT'S THE LONG VERSION OF THE MAIN PLAN.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:39

this is this is fuckin stupid howw can you think you can change somethin wwhy do you think its YOUR job to help evveryone your biggest concern should be that you and maybe youre friends are safe like fuck the rest they nevver did anythin FOR you and i doubt they evver wwill just get out of this fuckin place this plan is bound to fail and youll pay wwith your fuckin life

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:40

YOU MISUNDERSTAND ME, DAC. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYONE BESIDES MY GROUP, AND THE PEOPLE MY GROUP CARES ABOUT. TEMP HAPPENS TO CARE ABOUT THE CODEJOCKEYS, THE ONES I SAVED EARLIER FROM THE HIGHBLOOD ROUNDUP? AND I CARE ABOUT FAVORS. YOU GIVE ENOUGH INFORMATION OUT, PEOPLE ARE GONNA WANT TO KEEP YOU AROUND. IT'S... INSURANCE. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME. WE NEED A NETWORK.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:42

wwell then fuckin knock that care out of him and get off this stupid fuckin planet before you actually die you dont need a netwwork you need a safe place

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:42

WE NEED PLACES TO STAY, THINGS TO EAT, PLACES TO RUN, AND YOU CAN'T GET THAT WITHOUT GIVING SOMETHING.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:42

this is not goin to wwork do you understand me

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:42

DAC. I HEAR YOU LOUD AND CLEAR, BUT I LOVE HIM, AND I'M GOING TO STAND WITH HIM.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:43

youre goin to die for it both of you

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:43

I MAY WANT TO GET THE HELL OUT OF DODGE A WHOLE HELL OF A LOT MORE THAN YOU THINK. BUT HE WON'T. HE'S HERE FOR THE LONG HAUL, AND I... I THINK HE CAN DO IT.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:43

if you really cared about your mate youd get him to safety

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:43

BUT HE NEEDS SOMEONE TO BE BY HIS SIDE. DON'T SEND ME ON A GUILT TRIP, BECAUSE I'VE BEEN THERE ALREADY, I TRIED THAT. I KNOCKED HIM OUT SO HE WOULDN'T FIGHT THE DRONES, AND SENT HIM DOWN THE WATERY ROCK SLIDE OF DEATH SO HE WOULD SURVIVE AND I WOULD FIGHT THEM.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:44

try harder maybe

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:44

HE JUST GOT MAD AT ME.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:44

temp is insane

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:45

YEAH, HE IS. BUT I BELIEVE IN HIM ANYWAY.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:45

yeah cause youre goddamn stupid

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:45

I'D DO THAT FOR ALL OF MY FRIENDS.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:45

stupid is wwhat you are both of you

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:45

INCLUDING YOU, YOU KNOW. ALL YOU'RE DOING IS MAKING ME FEEL BAD, AND IT'S NOT GOING TO YEILD ANY RESULTS OTHER THAN "I CAN'T TRUST DAC WITH PERSONAL INFORMATION".

eridan | mags - Today at 8:46

im makin you feel bad cause i i nevvermind

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:48

I MEAN... I WANT TO BE ABLE TO TELL YOU SHIT WHEN YOU ASK, BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE ABLE TO FEEL LIKE YOU'RE JUST GOING TO TELL ME THAT WHAT I FEEL IS STUPID AND THAT I'M STUPID. BECAUSE THAT'S NOT A GOOD FEELING, KNOWING I'VE GOT TO DO THIS SHIT REGARDLESS, BECAUSE HE'S MY FRIEND AND... GOD, THE LENGTHS OF SHIT I'LL GO TO FOR HIM, I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND. IT JUST DOESN'T FEEL GOOD IF I TELL YOU SOMETHING AND YOU TELL ME THAT IT'S DUMB AND POINTLESS. I ALREADY KNOW THAT. I DON'T CARE, I'M NOT DOING IT FOR THE POINTLESS ASPECT OF IT, I'M DOING IT BECAUSE MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND, DUMPTRUCK OF SHIT THAT HE MAY BE, NEEDS ME TO. ANYWAY. YOU'RE RIGHT, THOUGH. IT IS STUPID, BUT LIKE I SAID. I DON'T CARE.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:50

yeah alright

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:50

SOMEONE'S GOTTA, AND I GUESS IT'S GOING TO BE ME, BECAUSE WITHOUT ME, TEMP WILL /DEFINITELY/ DIE. KANAYA MIGHT MAKE IT ON HER OWN, BUT SHE'S STILL TOO SECLUSIVE TO KNOW HOW TO HANDLE A BIG CITY, SAME WITH TEMP. BOTH OF THEM COULDN'T WEASEL THEIR WAY INTO AN UNDERGROUND FIGHTING RING IF THEY TRIED, AND I'D GET IN BASED ON MY LOOKS ALONE.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:53

yeah ok

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:55

TEMP SEES... THE SMALL PARTS OF THE PICTURE. HE'S GOOD WITH CODE AND GOOD WITH KNOWING HOW TO DO THINGS ON A SMALL SCALE. KANAYA'S GOOD WITH WEAPONS AND HAND TO HAND COMBAT, AND SHE'S A JADEBLOOD, WHICH MEANS SHE GETS EASIER ACCESS TO FOOD. PERSONALLY, I KNOW HOW TO FIGHT, AND I KNOW THE DREGS OF THE CITY LIKE THE BACK OF MY CALLOUSED HANDS. I CAN WANT TWO CRATES OF HIGHLY ILLEGAL SHIT AND KNOW EXACTLY WHO TO TALK TO AND WHERE TO GO TO GET THEM, I'VE ALREADY GOT A LITTLE NETWORK IN SOME CITIES WILLING TO BET BIG MONEY ON ME IN THE FIGHTS, AND MAKE SOME GOOD CAEGERS THAT WAY, AND I SEE THE BIG PICTURE. WHERE TO GO, ULTIMATELY. WHAT TO ASK. WHO WE NEED. WE ALL PULL OUR WEIGHT.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:56

alright

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:56

NEXT QUESTION?

eridan | mags - Today at 8:57

howw did you twwo start datin

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:57

I GOT AN ANON MESSAGE ON TUMBLR SAYING HE WANTED TO KISS ME, AND THEN IT KIND OF SNOWBALLED. HE HID FROM HIS FEELINGS FOR A WHILE AND WE TALKED IT OUT, AND I ENDED UP STORMING OUT THE DOOR BECAUSE SOME PISSFACE WANTED TO TALK TO ME ON ANON ABOUT THAT SORT OF NSFW BULLSHIT. YOU KNOW HOW THEY CAN GET.

eridan | mags - Today at 8:59

yeah

Court (Kam) - Today at 8:59

HE ENDED UP CHASING AFTER ME AND UH, HONESTLY I'M KIND OF A SUCKER FOR PEOPLE SHOWING THEY ACTUALLY WANT TO BE WITH A HOTBLOOD LIKE ME. MOST OF THE TIME PEOPLE... DON'T. I GUESS. PROBABLY. I ASSUMED IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS HEMOANONYMOUS BACK THEN, AND THAT SPELLS TROUBLE TO ANYONE WITH EYES?

eridan | mags - Today at 8:59

guess you got lucky there

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:00

BOY I THOUGHT I WAS HOT SHIT BACK THEN, ALL GREYED OUT AND SPECIAL.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:00

yeah

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:00

NOW IT'S JUST BECAUSE I'VE GOT A TINY-ASS LIFESPAN AND I'M A DEAD MAN IF MY COLOR EVEN COMES UP IN A SCANNER. AKA; TOO DANGEROUS TO WANT TO BE WITH, APPARENTLY. IT'S... NICE TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT THIS SHIT, THOUGH. TEMP SOMETIMES BRUSHES IT OFF AND I FEEL WORSE. DON'T THINK HE WANTS TO FACE IT EITHER. YOU'RE A GOOD LISTENER.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:03

i try guess im good wwhen im not makin you feel like shit for openin up huh

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:03

YOU GOT IT, YEAH. ANY OTHER QUESTIONS, I GUESS? I'M OPEN TO ANSWERING.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:05

i cant really think of any to be honest you answwered evverythin i needed to knoww

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:06

ALRIGHT, WELL IS THERE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO KNOW LIKE, I DON'T KNOW. HOW TALL I AM. LIFE EXPERIANCES. WHAT'S THE BIGGEST TROLL I'VE EVER FOUGHT. THE MOST CAEGERS OR BEETLES I'VE EVER WON.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:06

howw old are you

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:07

NINE, NEARLY TEN. WHAT ABOUT YOU?

eridan | mags - Today at 9:07

wwell then youre evven younger than me

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:07

ALSO, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I LOOK LIKE, DO YOU. FUCK.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:07

recently turned ten though and yeah no i dont

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:07

I'LL UPLOAD SOMETHING TODAY OR TOMORROW OR SOMETHING.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:08

i wwas alwways satisfied wwith my imagination of you but yeah id like to see it

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:11

courtingGrievances [CG] sent file -wWzIKy1g.png- to [CA] at ??:?? DOES THAT SATISFY YOUR IMAGINATION?

eridan | mags - Today at 9:12

oh oh huh you dont you dont look as bad as i thought you wwould

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:12

WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

eridan | mags - Today at 9:13

you look good is wwhat i mean

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:14

DID YOU HEAR THAT?? THAT WAS THE SOUND MY HEAD MADE AS I DROPPED MY PALMHUSK ONTO MY FUCKING FACE.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:15

wwhat wwhy

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:15

NO REASON. MY FINGERS ARE COLD. I'M SLIGHTLY TIRED. THERE WAS A WIND. I DON'T TAKE COMPLIMENTS WELL APPARENTLY.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:16

oh uh i mean i didnt say anythin really you just dont look bad you knoww and its a relief

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:16

A... RELIEF? HEY, WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?

eridan | mags - Today at 9:21

im not friends wwith ugly people

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:21

WAIT, SO IF I WAS UGLY YOU WOULDN'T BE FRIENDS WITH ME? o:B

eridan | mags - Today at 9:22

probably i havve standards you knoww

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:23

I THINK THAT SUCKS. I'D MISS OUT ON YOUR PRESENCE BECAUSE I'D BE UGLY. NOT TO BE A FUCKING DOWNER OR ANYTHING. BUT I LIKE TALKING TO YOU, AND NOT BEING ABLE TO WOULD KIND OF SUCK.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:26

wwell you can be glad youre not then but really im not all that special

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:26

BUT ALSO, I DON'T THINK YOU MEAN THAT, BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T AS GOOD AS I LOOK. AND YOU STILL WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME. WANTED, I MEAN.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:27

people are glad wwhen they dont havve to talk to me

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:27

OKAY, LISTEN.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:27

wwell i thought you looked avverage

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:27

WE'VE BEEN TALKING PRETTY STRAIGHT FOR TWO WHOLE HOURS. IF I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU, I WOULDN'T BE. WELL, FUCK.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:28

i mean youre doin most of the talkin so

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:28

SOOOO I'M RIGHT.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:30

shrug wwhatevver you wwanna think honestly

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:33

I TIHNK I'M RIGHT, AND I WANT TO TALK TO YOU, BECAUSE, OCCASSIONAL JACKASSERY ASIDE, I THINK YOU'VE GOT POTENTIAL, DAC. ALSO; IF OCCASSIONAL JACKASSERY WAS A PAYING JOB, WE'D BOTH BE RICHER THAN THE EMPRESS HERSELF. HAHAH.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:41

i mean to be fuckin honest but also i really doubt and evven if i do havve potential it wwent to wwaste already

Court (Kam) - Today at 9:43

STILL HERE, AREN'T YOU? DOESN'T THAT POINT TO SOME INNATE SENSE OF NEED, OF WANTING TO BE MORE? THERE'S STILL SOMETHING LEFT IN YOU, BUD. PROMISE. EVERYONE'S GIVEN YOU SHIT AND SOMETIMES RIGHTFULLY SO, AND YOU GET KNOCKED DOWN A LOT, BUT YOU ALWAYS GET RIGHT BACK UP, YEAH? YOU'RE LIKE A FIGHTER. LIKE ME. I KNOW THIS ISN'T ALL YOU'VE GOT TO GIVE, YOU'VE JUST GOT TO FIND THE RIGHT PEOPLE TO GIVE IT TO. GOD. I NEED TO STOP TALKING, PROBABLY.

eridan | mags - Today at 9:59

no youre fine but uh i dont knoww i dont feel like much of a fighter wwhen i just you knoww do wwhat i gotta do

eridan | mags - Today at 10:00

you actually fight people and protect your friends and such wwhile i just do nothin

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:00

YOU FIGHT FOR YOURSELF. AND PROBABLY EVENTUALLY, SOMEONE ELSE TOO. YOUR QUADS, OR WHATEVER.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:01

wwhenevver i do its just outta place and unneeded and people get mad at me

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:06

I GET THAT. IT'LL CHANGE, EVENTUALLY. I'M RUNNING OUT OF WORDS, SORRY. IT'S BULLSHIT O CLOCK, BUT LISTEN... PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS GOING TO HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THE WAY OTHER PEOPLE DO THINGS. IT'S NOT THEIR JOB TO CHANGE YOU. IF YOU LIKE WHO YOU ARE, BE THAT. EVERYONE WHO CARES WILL LIKE YOU FOR YOU.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:08

evven if its my owwn kismesis gettin mad at me for protectin her a feww people called me manipulativve too just cause i wwanted her to be ok

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:23

WHAT DID YOU DO?

eridan | mags - Today at 10:25

someone wwas makin fun of her in public and tellin her howw she rules is awwful just cause she uses a lot of gifs of marie antoinette so i got mad and told him off but more people joined his friends probably and evventually she told me to shut up but i didnt wwant to and then i just got called manipulativve for wwantin to help her

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:26

THAT'S NOT HER GETTING MAD AT YOU FOR PROTECTING HER, THAT'S HER GETTING CONCERNED ABOUT YOU MAKING A FOOL OUT OF YOURSELF. WHEN THAT HAPPENS, YOU SHOULD MAKE YOUR STANCE KNOWN, BUT YOU SHOULDN'T PUSH IT. STAND UP FOR HER AND TELL THEM OFF, BUT DON'T REPLY FURTHER BEYOND SCORNFUL AND LAUGH-INDUCING GIFS RAGGING ON THE PEOPLE TRYING TO GET THE ONE UP ON YOU. WHAT PEOPLE ARE DOING WHEN THEY KEEP TRYING TO GET A RESPONSE OUT OF YOU IS TRYING TO MAKE YOU SLIP UP, MAKE A MISTAKE. GIVE THEM GIFS, NOT EFFORT, AND YOU SHOULD BE BETTER OFF.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:29

i still got a screenshot of wwhat someone said to me that kinda hit me - https://gyazo.com/7cee73e22a941c972692c37965269d1e - all i wwas tryin to fuckin do is protect her and evveryone wwas just against me suddenly it felt awwful karkat and i still cant get ovver it

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:30

YOU REMEMBER HOW YOU WERE MAKING ME FEEL BAD FOR DOING SHIT I FEEL LIKE I'VE GOT TO DO AND YOU WENT "IF YOU LOVED HIM, YOU'D DO THIS?"

eridan | mags - Today at 10:30

so next time i just back dowwn and let them make fun of her or wwhat

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:31

HOLD ON, LET ME FINISH THIS TRAIN OF THOUGHT FIRST.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:31

alright sorry im just ugh

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:32

THINGS IN THAT SORT OF FORMAT, LIKE "IF YOU LOVED HER, YOU'D DO THIS", AND "WOE IS ME, THIS BULLSHIT IS HAPPENING BECAUSE OF YOU" THAT MAKE SOMEONE FEEL BAD FOR THINGS BEYOND THEIR CONTROL, THAT'S GUILT TRIPPING. IT'S MAKING THEM FEEL GUILTY ABOUT THINGS THEY CAN'T CONTROL, OR THINGS THAT AREN'T THEIR FAULT. IT FUCKING SUCKS WHEN SHIT HAPPENS, BUT MOST PEOPLE DON'T CARE, AND THEY JUST GET OFFENDED AND PUT OUT WHEN YOU TRY TO TELL THEM SO LIKE THAT. YOU COULD TRY WORDING THINGS BETTER, LIKE... INSTEAD OF "YOU'RE GOING TO TURN ON ME TOO", YOU COULD SAY "I FEEL LIKE I'M ALONE HERE, ARE YOU AGAINST ME TOO?" OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. OR FOR THE SHIT WHERE YOU WENT, "IF YOU LOVED HIM, YOU'D DO THIS" BIT, YOU COULD JUST HAVE SAID "BUT DON'T YOU WANT TO SEE HIM PROTECTED TOO?". MOST OF THE TIME, PHRASING IT LIKE A QUESTION KEEPS THE GENERAL PURPOSE ALIVE WITHOUT BRINGING GUILT DOWN TO THE OTHER PERSONS HEAD.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:36

so the wwhole thing wwith her wwas actually my fault and i got wwhat i deservved

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:37

NEXT TIME THIS BULLSHIT HAPPENS, JUST GIVE THEM ONE RESPONSE OUTLINING YOUR THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ON THE SUBJECT; IE, YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH THE WAY THEY'RE TREATING YOUR MOIRAIL AND SHE CAN POST WHATEVER SHE WANTS, IT'S NOT THEIR JOBS TO JUDGE HER STYLE OF RULING BASED ON GIFS OF SOME FICTIONAL WOMAN. IF THEY TRY TO BRING IT FURTHER, RESPOND WITH A GIF OF SOMEONE YAWNING, OR ACT BORED OF THE CURRENT CONVERSATION, AND DON'T GIVE THEM MORE FUEL FOR THE FIRE. PICTURES ARE WORTH MORE THAN WORDS.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:38

shes my kismesis but yeah alright

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:38

AS FOR THE WHOLE THING WITH HER, I WASN'T THERE SO I CAN'T SAY FOR SURE, BUT IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU WERE IN THE RIGHT TO PROTECT HER, BUT WRONG TO CARRY IT SO FAR, AND YOU SHOULD HAVE QUIT WHILE YOU WERE AHEAD. I DON'T THINK IT WAS YOUR FAULT, THOUGH. ROSEREDMUTANT SOUNDS LIKE A FUCKING JACKASS.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:38

shrug evveryone sounds like a jackass wwhen they talk to me evveryone just treats me like dirt

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:39

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING YOU NEED TO LEARN, I THINK, IS WHEN TO STOP. THERE'S NO POINT BEATING A DEAD HORSE, AND IF YOUR KISMESIS SAYS STOP, YOU SHOULD SAY WHY, AND ASK HER TO BE HONEST. AND IF SHE TELLS YOU WHY, AND SHE'S HONEST AND TELLS YOU WHY AND IT'S A GOOD REASON, YOU SHOULD STOP, REGARDLESS, OR ASK HER TO COME MAKE YOU STOP. SHE'S YOUR KISMESIS FOR A REASON, IT'S HER JOB TO HELP KEEP YOU FROM FIGHTING WITH THE RIFFRAFF, TO DISTRACT YOU FROM OTHER FIGHTS AND MAKE YOU FOCUS ON HER. HER JOB TO HELP YOU IMPROVE YOURSELF THROUGH LEARNING WHAT BATTLES TO PICK, TO HELP YOU LEARN YOUR LIMITS, IN ARGUMENTS AND OTHERWISE.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:42

so i just kinda trust her and stop next time

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:43

IF SHE'S "BEGGING YOU TO STOP" AND NOTHING ELSE, SHE NEEDS TO LEARN TO USE HER WORDS, ALSO. THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS MULTIVERSE THAT CAN'T BE SOLVED THROUGH SOME SORT OF ARGUMENT OR CONVERSATION. YEAH, BASICALLY. SHIT SUCKS SOMETIMES BUT YOU DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO. TRUSTING HER WILL SHOW HER THAT YOU VALUE YOUR RELATIONSHIP.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:43

she didnt beg she just told me multiple times to back off and that its fine and she can deal wwith it on her owwn

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:43

HERE'S WHAT YOU SHOULD DO NEXT TIME.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:43

guess she doesnt like my help

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:43

OKAY, HOLD ON. YEAH, NO, THAT'S NOT RIGHT I MEAN. IT COULD BE POSSIBLE THAT SHE FELT LIKE YOU WERE VACCILATTING PINK, AND SHE FELT EXTREMELY DEFENSIVE ABOUT IT. YOU SHOULD TALK TO HER ABOUT THAT. BUT NO, IF SHE TELLS YOU TO STOP SOMETHING, SHE SHOULD AT LEAST HAVE A REASON, AND YOU'RE FUCKING QUADDED, SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING ALONE, AND NEXT TIME THAT SHIT HAPPENS. WHEN SHE TELLS YOU TO "STOP DEFENDING ME, BACK OFF, I CAN DO THIS ON MY OWN", YOU NEED TO TELL HER SOMETHING LIKE "I WILL BACK OFF BECAUSE YOU WANT ME TO AND I TRUST YOUR JUDGEMENT, BUT I NEED YOU TO TRUST ME ALSO" AND MAYBE SOMETHING LIKE "I NEED YOUR HELP TO BACK OFF, CAN YOU COME DISTRACT ME". BECAUSE, HAHA, THAT'S KIND OF HER JOB, AS YOUR KISMESIS, IS TO DISTRACT YOU FROM GETTING INTO SHIT YOU MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO HANDLE. EMOTIONALLY OR PHYSICALLY. THAT'S THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT OF KISMESITUDE.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:47

huh alright i nevver kneww that to be honest yeah i i guess ill havve to talk to her i dont knoww

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:48

HERE. https://fluffpuffandstuff.tumblr.com/post/156045666788/what-the-heck-am-ii-feeliing-labeliing-your

eridan | mags - Today at 10:49

i dont wwanna dig it up again but it might happen again and shrug

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:49

I SENT SOMETHING IN TO THIS E-ZINE AND I GOT THIS BACK, AND IT HELPED ME LABEL TEMP AND I INTO AN OMNIQUAD. YOU SHOULD READ IT TOO, ALRIGHT? AND EVEN IF YOU DON'T. HERE'S THE BASIC GIST. MATESPRITS PROTECT, KISMESIS' IMPROVE. MOIRAILS SOOTHE AND AUSPISTICES INTERVENE AS A TOPLEAF, AND WANT TO BE INTERVENED ON AS A BOTTOMLEAF.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:51

yeah i just got to that part

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:51

I'LL BREAK IT DOWN FOR YOU EVEN FURTHER IF YOU WANT, THIS SORT OF SHIT IS WHAT I USED TO THRIVE ON A FEW SWEEPS BACK, MARATHONING ROM-COMS LIKE THEY WERE THE HOTTEST NEW GAMEGRUB OF THE SEASONAL VENTURE.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:52

thats not all too surprisin to be honest hahaha but no i dont wwant to think about this more or else i just end up realisin i got flush feelins for my kismesis or somethin like that thatd just ruin things and make it evven wworse i just wwanted to be there cause i felt like as kismesises wwere a team you knoww

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:53

YOU WOULDN'T RUIN THINGS BY TALKING ABOUT YOUR EMOTIONS.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:53

yeah wwe hate eachother but also wwere still datin

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:53

EVERY, EVERY QUADRANT IS SUPPOSED TO TALK ABOUT THEIR EMOTIONS, JUST IN DIFFERENT WAYS.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:56

huh

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:56

IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU VACILLATE, THEN TELL HER, GENTLY. IF SHE DOESN'T RETURN THEM, ASK IF THIS CHANGES ANYTHING. AND IF SHE SAYS YES, ASK HER, SPECIFICALLY, WHAT IT CHANGES. ASK HER (IN A DIFFERENT SENTENCE,) IF THIS CHANGES YOUR KISMESITUDE, AND IF SHE STILL /WANTS/ TO BE KISMESIS' WITH YOU. AND IF SHE SAYS NO. COME TO ME.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:56

no im not goin to do that

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:56

AND IF SHE SAYS YEAH, SHE STILL WANTS TO BE BLACK WITH YOU, THEN YOU'RE GOLDEN, AND NOTHING CHANGES. YEAH, NO, I DON'T BLAME YOU THERE. BETTER TO WAIT UNTIL YOU'VE GOT YOUR FEELINGS SECURELY LOCKED IN A BOX OR SOMETHING. THAT SHIT'S HEAVY.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:57

this could evven cause problems wwith my husband and im not into that

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:57

FAIR.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:57

ill just i guess talk to her about that stuff wwith that one fight that got out of hand but nothin more

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:58

JUST... ASK HER TO HELP YOU MORE WITH DISTRACTING YOU FROM FIGHTS YOU CAN'T HANDLE. USE THOSE WORDS.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:58

yeah ok

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:58

IF YOU CAN, APOLOGIZE FOR MAKING A SPECTACLE OUT OF YOURSELF. USE THOSE WORDS TOO.

eridan | mags - Today at 10:58

i dont like apologisin

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:58

ME EITHER. IT FEELS GROSS, DOESN'T IT?

eridan | mags - Today at 10:59

yeah

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:59

IT FEELS ALL... VULNERABLE AND SHIT.

eridan | mags - Today at 11:00

yeah i dont i dont like doin that so i rarely evver apologise i dont apologise if i dont gotta

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:00

YEAH. YEAH, YES. THAT BULLSHIT. IF I APOLOGIZE, I'M GENUINELY FUCKING FEELING IT, AND DITTO FOR YOU I'M ASSUMING?

eridan | mags - Today at 11:01

yeah actually lets start wwith it already sorry for uh dumpin this on you its not your job to do this i just i guess i cant help it i kinda wwhine to evverybody i dont knoww

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:02

DUDE, YOU'RE NOT WHINING. YOU'RE ASKING FOR HELP. THAT'S ALL A COMPLAIN OR A WHINE IS. IT'S THICKLY VEILED BUT THAT'S REALLY, WHAT IT COMES DOWN TO. YOU'RE HOPING SOMEONE WILL LISTEN AND DO SOMETHING TO STOP THE SOURCE OF YOUR WHINING, OR TO CONSOLE YOU AND HELP YOU FEEL BETTER ABOUT THE BULLSHIT THAT CAUSED THE WHINING OR COMPLAINING IN THE FIRST PLACE.

eridan | mags - Today at 11:03

i mean yeah but like its still not your duty you knoww i should be able to deal wwith my problems alone i guess god im just so pathetic

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:03

I SPENT HOURS WATCHING SHIT LIKE THIS AND YELLING AT THE CHARACTERS ON SCREEN, HONESTLY, I'M THE BEST PERSON FOR THE JOB, HAHA. UH, ALSO?? FUCK NO. DEALING WITH PROBLEMS ALONE FUCKING SUCKS. IT FEELS BAD AND YOU JUST GET FRUSTRATED BECAUSE YOU BURN OUT ON THAT SHIT. ASKING FOR HELP IS KEEPING YOU SANE AND KEEPING YOU SAFE. JUST FROWNED UPON IF YOU ASK ANYONE OTHER THAN PEOPLE CLOSE TO YOU.

eridan | mags - Today at 11:05

youre not my moirail though or evven my mate i shouldnt be talkin about this wwith you of all people

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:05

I'M NOT YOUR MOIRAIL OR YOUR MATE, YEAH, BUT I'M YOUR FRIEND. A GOOD ONE, I THINK, AT THIS POINT. FRIENDS GOTTA BE THERE FOR YOU.

eridan | mags - Today at 11:06

yeah i guess thanks

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:06

IF MATESPRITS PROTECT, KISMESIS' IMPROVE. MOIRAILS SOOTHE AND AUSPISTICES INTERVENE, FRIENDS LISTEN. THEY'RE THERE WHEN YOU NEED SOMEONE TO JUST LISTEN, AND MAYBE OFFER ADVICE. HONESTLY, I WISH I'D OFFERED THIS KIND OF ADVICE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. MAYBE I COULD HAVE KEPT MY OLD FRIENDS BACK TOGETHER. MAYBE I'D ACTUALLY KNOW WHERE SOME OF THEM ARE. IF THEY'RE EVEN ALIVE.

eridan | mags - Today at 11:07

wwell at least you learnt from it and youre better noww

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:07

I HOPE I'M BETTER. I KIND OF FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING I'M SAYING IS GOING IN ONE FIN AND OUT THE OTHER, BUT YOU SEEM HAPPY WITH WHAT I'M GOING ON ABOUT.

eridan | mags - Today at 11:07

i dont knoww howw you used to be but i knoww youre good noww shrug still youre doin better than evveryone else i met before you so i guess theres that

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:08

... BETTER AT BEING A FRIEND? SHIT, I'M SORRY. YOU MUST HAVE HAD SOME PRETTY SHIT ONES BEFORE NOW, THEN.

eridan | mags - Today at 11:09

i dont just forget the things you say i got better about hemoism and i remember you havve a mate and i wwanna talk to fef about the shit and stuff friends relationships just evverythin

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:09

(:B

eridan | mags - Today at 11:10

but yeah thanks i guess im gonna take a nap i think

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:11

ALRIGHT. I... HOPE THIS WAS A GOOD CONVERSATION. SEEMED LIKE ONE TO ME, AT LEAST. SEE YOU LATER? I'M ALWAYS REACHABLE HERE... AND IF I DON'T RESPOND, SOMETHING'S PROBABLY UP. I'LL. UH. I'LL ADD YOUR MESSENGER HANDLE TO A LIST OF HANDLES ASSOCIATED WITH OUR DEADMANS SWITCH. SO IF SOME BULLSHIT HAPPENS, YOU'LL KNOW WHEN AND WHERE.

eridan | mags - Today at 11:17

oh wwell thanks thats good to knoww but yeah see you around

Court (Kam) - Today at 11:19

courtinggrievances [CG] has ceased trolling [CA?]

#chatlogs #eridacnis #posted privately to check some formatting things #god this is why i don't do the formatting and i let other people do it but im in a rush cause sleep calls me #read ooc #also #ask to tag

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trouvvaille · 7 years

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Clams; Talk to your moirail.

brackishbarracuda [BB] began trolling lonelySeahorse [LS] at 5-44 AM BB- 3B* lonelySeahorse- Yesterday at 5-45 AM Hey u I uh I gotta talk to u brackishBarracuda- Yesterday at 5-46 AM well thats yeah aight whats up clams

lonelySeahorse- Today at 2-38 AM I miss my kids. Can we get them back... Please? Its too quiet. I wworry. I mean I'm sure dirk takes god care of them i just uh Need them So Yeah brackishBarracuda- Today at 2-56 AM i can bring em back to visit clams but look i know its quiet and it fucking sucks and i miss them too i still dont feel like theyre safe here love and no dirk dont do shit dave keeps em have you seen dirk with a kid its hilarious lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-41 AM I mean pike I dont doubt it but i wwant to see em Wwho are wwe hiding from noww I thought condy wwas not an issue anymore or somethin Is it sal brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-51 AM no shes still a fucking thing there were two problems but the orginal ones still there lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-51 AM godamnit howw about if wwe just movve not forevver brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-51 AM thats lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-51 AM but pike to loz's brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-52 AM love thats not the problem lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-52 AM or i knoww brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-52 AM she doesnt know where we are its me wanting to give fel and her fam someplace to go lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-52 AM i just wwant to put up solutions and feel like im helpin ZZ3B( brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-52 AM i could kiss you you know i kno its naut been easy bein with me lately or ever lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-53 AM some nights are easier than others <> the 24 hours after u cut off chos arm noww that was rough shit evverything else compared to that is pike cuttin through a cloud its just the fuckin brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-54 AM im sorry lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-54 AM its gamzee all the fuck ovver again u knoww what they say third times the charm brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-54 AM 3B( lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-54 AM ZZ3B* just kinda fuckin i unno i almost got enough of ur biolum for u to bathe in ivve started movvin them to one a the tanks ur gonna have to pike... sleep in it or just sit in there ww ur palmhusk and blog for hours ill uh join u if u wwant i dunno if the tank'd hold tho but i can put them in the big one if i take archie out lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-03 AM you uh you'll be okay u knoww its hard but you'll pull through it wwasn't ur fault you knoww that right i think i think u should spend some tide with kad u knoww they'll help u feel better brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-13 AM how the fuck wasnt it my fault clams i love you but the knife was in my hand lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-13 AM kads alwways good for a pickmeup did you knoww the knife wwas in ur hand brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-15 AM i remember picking it up lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-15 AM wwe are not responsible for our instincts they wwere responsible for aya and they hurt her and you hurt them in turn both of these wwere wwrong but neither more than the other both of them wwill scar and both of them are traumatized you wwere angry brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-18 AM stop making excuses for me lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-18 AM im not makin excuses for you it was everyones fault thats wwhat im tryin to get at cho was responsible for ayas wwellbein an they should not havve had her in the same room as a psion wwho couldn't control their powwers and you wwere supposed to do the right thing but you didn't you cut off their arm and ran awway and that is your fuckin fault but im not makin excuses for you because fuckin honestly at this point wwhat good is that shit going to do anyone you wwant to talk to them again? talk to vvis? sal? then you gotta fuckin accept that it wwas an accident and evvery single one a you wwas at fault, evven sal, evven vvis three fuckin adults in that house and not one a them coulda been wwatchin her wwith cho? bullshit its your fault but it ain't entirely yours either you knoww i havve nightmares about it and i wwasn't evven fuckin there howws that brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-22 AM what what are they about lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-22 AM that doesn't matter read wwhat i said abovve brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-22 AM it does i read it lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-22 AM yeah why brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-22 AM this matters lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-23 AM whys it matter to you so you can beat yourself up more aboat it? brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-23 AM whys it matter to me clams i am your fucking moirail it matters please lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-32 AM and as your owwn moirail i don't think you should beat yourself up ovver nightmares i havve caused by things that wwere your fault because i knoww you wwill and i don't wwant that y you got enough on your plate brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-33 AM baby please lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-33 AM tell me wwhy you're insecure then i wwill brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-33 AM which part lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-33 AM in general wwhy are you so insecure about yourself you hurt someone big fuckin wwhoop you bleww up your planet and you didn't really care about cho anywway you tried to i knoww but you didn't is it just because you lost sal? because you think you'vve lost vvis? brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-35 AM i am trying to be better clams and yes its because of that lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-35 AM once upon a time you told me u lovved me just as i am hemoism and all brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-35 AM i dont loose people well lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-35 AM and im here to tell you the same fuckin thing i dont care if u cut off my owwn fuckin arm i wwill lovve you until the day my essence dissolvves into nothing and i cease to havve the capacity to hold lovve in my soul i lovve you regardless of wwhat you do wwhose arm you chop off wwho you lose or wwhy you lose them i lovve you meen not wwhat you do or wwhat you say but because of wwho you fuckin are a free thinker wwho doesn't hold back, wwho wwould dance in the moonlight wwith her girlfriends, wwho tells people they're pretty af and means it wwithout it bein empty. ur home to me evven if you become someone you dislike you don't need to change and be "better" for me to like u i already like you vis already likes you sal liked you and so did chosis yes there are things you can improvve yes there are things you can't improvve but here and noww wwith all your insecurities and wwhen you falter, wwhen ur candle is loww, i am still here for you and don't u fuckin forget it i am your moirail and eridan fuckin ampora aight and i am right fuckin pale for the roughest, prettiest diamond i'vve evver fuckin seen brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-40 AM i love you lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-42 AM noww about those nightmares its really quite simple vvis has nightmares if wwe're sleepin at the same time wwe share em thats it thats the wwhole explanation brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-43 AM do you know what those are about or look i just want to know where hes viewin himself in relation okay is just me being dangerous is it him just watchin is it him eelin like he could have stopped me and cant like i dont care what it is i just want to know lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-44 AM hes conflicted because he lovves both of you and he thinks you hold animosity towwards him if he showws too much support for chosis and not for you thats wwhat i can glean the recurrin theme is the classic "choice" dream u knoww u can only Savve One an all that chos his kurloz, lovve, pike i don't know if you get it more wwhen i put it that wway or its pike if i personally chopped off loz's arm wwhile you wwatched thats just howw he feels an it's basically just that he doesn't fuckin knoww howw to feel i think he just needs time but thats my fuckin answer to evverythin brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-47 AM fuck lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-47 AM does that put it into more perspectivve or brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-48 AM yeah actually i fuck lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-48 AM yeah yeah im glad that helps brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-50 AM clams what have i fucking done lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-53 AM you chopped off the arm of your inclade, your moirails matesprit, wwho he has twwo eggs wwith and plans to swwap rings wwith, in defense of said matesprit's negligance towwards your owwn child wwith your dead matesprit, wwhich resulted in possibly lifelong scarrin and trauma due to their said negligance defense? offense somethin pike that you uh also faught ur best friend and bloodied him up a bit and noww he doesn't wwant to speak wwith you i guess thats wworth mentionin i mean if u ask me sal and u needed a break anywway brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-55 AM i dont like breaks clams i like fixing shit or getting it over with i like shit in the air not festering i like honest real fucking answers and not hiding behind shit and lying to yourself and im fucked lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-56 AM okay so u knoww howw i compared chosis to kurloz there right, for vvis noww i need you to think a me or actually think a kad if u cut off kads arm and lil sal wwas there wwatchin an the twwo a you fought brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-57 AM i wouldnt be alive clams lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-57 AM see to me that says sal still fuckin lovves you brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-58 AM he shouldnt lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-58 AM no he shouldn't but he does evven if he aint realize it yet he just needs time maybe you could send him a couple of anon asks to see howw he feels about it evveryonce in a wwhile brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-59 AM he doesnt deserve the shit i bring to his doorstep clams he deserves people who are gonna make him happy and that aint been me for a while lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-01 AM then i guess u got an oppurtunity here but u gotta ask urself howw happy is he gonna be wwith you gone howw happy are you gonna be wwith him gone the twwo a you are older than me and you you do fuckin realize that right pike you'vve been together since before u evven met me hell probs before rez or fangs or around that time he's the only one left besides cro and tuna wwho knowws You so if you wwant to leavve him thats up to you he's already made his choice but i fuckin promise you in twwo months he's gonna be wwaitin to see if you'll try to get back in his life and fuckin honestly i'd be disappointed if you didn't an he wwould be too and you fuckin knoww it don't kid urself howw many times has he hurt us howw many fuckin times has he hurt me put vvis through a wwall broke my nose gavve you scars but howw many times did he come back, huh or helped you evven if u twwo wwere havvin trouble you think a that brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-06 AM i miss him i miss who we were lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-06 AM wwhen did it change wwhat happened wwhy brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-06 AM i dont know i dont fucking know lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-07 AM i do you wwant to knoww? brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-07 AM why naut lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-07 AM wwhen he finally stopped puttin you up on that pedestal wwhen he finally had to come to grips wwith the fact u wweren't and are not perfect wwhen he finally had to fuckin realize that you are not his rescuer but his friend he put u up on a throne and u didn't wwant it and he couldn't see that and evvery single fuckin time you twwo fought it wwas because u didn't see eye to eye because you wwere still twwenty feet abovve him, to him cho thought it too wwe wwere talkin they said sal wwas upset because "he lost his rock" an i said buddy if u think meenah wwas his rock ur wwrong" because u wweren't and if u think that you're wwrong a rope throwwn to him maybe givven him hope givven him a friend but somethin to hold onto wwhen the lights go out nah u wwere his lighthouse like u are mine you light the wway but he doesn't cling to u wwith his problems he clings to cho and YOU fuckin knoww that and you need to stop thinkin that cho isn't fuckin wworthy or somethin of bein sals moirail an also simultaneously thinkin that u gotta measure up to chosis wwith sal are you pale for salinx? no? then you ain't gotta brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-12 AM i was once i know you remember lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-12 AM yeah and i wwas flushed for u once too its hard to stop those feelins but u just gotta grit ur teeth and go at it brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-13 AM i mean im naut anymore but yeah lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-14 AM just in case, i gotta say it stop bein fuckin envious of wwhat they got an the fact that sal is tellin cho evverythin an not u brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-15 AM i fucking hate myself for it but i cant even tell you youre fucking wrong lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-19 AM i knoww just you knoww stop it nerd <> brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-19 AM look they werent fucking worthy when i met them just to be straight with you lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-19 AM but you aint givven them the chance since u think i dont knoww that they bruised me, pushed me ovver brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-20 AM im naut done lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-20 AM aight im wwaitin tho brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-22 AM chosis wasnt shit when i met them but if i can stand back away from my own shit for two seconds theyve grown a hell of a lot they grew into it which idk is probably the point or something just cause i couldnt sea it and i can admit that to you but trying to say that to anybody else pisses me off ive got problems the point im making is that they arent a bad kid and clearly they take decent fuckin care a sally an sal them i was just idk i reely dont like thinking aboat this lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-26 AM yeah wwhale suck it up and talk to me about it ZZ3B\ brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-27 AM ive p much made my point theyre betta than they were and im recognizing that ive known that for a while lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-27 AM but u still assumed they wwere the one wwho hurt aya brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-28 AM when i got there there was all of two people and i knew it was sal i jumped to a conclusion an it was the wrong one lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-29 AM yeah but u wwere alwwavves more heart than head brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-30 AM yeah for betta oar worse lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-31 AM this just happens to be one a the wworse ... you'll be okay and so wwill sal, and so wwill cho, and so wwill vvis, and aya too it just takes time an lovve an determination don't givve up on them aight? lovve u <> brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-32 AM i love you too <> just so fucking much clams lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-32 AM ZZ3B* brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-33 AM i couldnt tell you if i tried you are my rock you know no pedestal no rope no lighthouse lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-37 AM yeah i do brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-37 AM youre my rock lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-37 AM ur my rock and my lighthouse brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-37 AM where i build home lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-37 AM ur my evverythin ... what are u gonna do brackishBarracuda - Today at 8:41 AM whatever i have to lonelySeahorse- Today at 8:42 AM yeah? brackishBarracuda - Today at 8:46 AM as fuckin always lonelySeahorse - Today at 8:47 AM come on more than that brackishBarracuda- Today at 8:49 AM i dont know clams but im naut givin up lonelySeahorse- Today at 8:49 AM good <> brackishBarracuda - Today at 8:50 AM <>

#ask to tag #i don't think theres anythin gin here that needs to be tagged but if so lemme kno #look at them being babs i love em a lot #ahhh #ahh!!#chatlogs #diamond mine #brackishbarracuda #mentioned;#9hosis #ooc

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trubbull · 7 years

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La Vie En Camaieu // Chapter 3

[[Read on Archive Of Our Own]]

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Category: F/M Fandoms: Game Grumps, TWRP | Tupper Ware Remix Party (Band), Starbomb, Ninja Sex Party - Fandom Relationships: Dan Avidan/Original Character(s), Dan Avidan & Original Character(s), Suzy Berhow/Arin Hanson, Brian Wecht/Rachel Bitney Wecht Characters: Original Female Character(s), Original Character, Dan Avidan, Arin Hanson, Suzy Berhow, Brian Wecht, Commander Meouch, Doctor Sung, Havve Hogan, Lord Phobos Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Colorblindness, Rating May Change

Summary: It seems like all of Dan’s friends can see the world in all its colorful beauty. He’s nearly 40 and he still views in the world in shades of grey.

At a fateful NSP/TWRP/Starbomb concert, everything changes.

**Inspired by iamavacado’s egobang story ‘Love Is Any Color’ and its one-shot 'Even Rainy Days Have Color.’ This has been posted with their permission.**

Chapter 3: The Color Of Tea

Notes: Though the last chapter spanned like, two years of time, this chapter takes place only a month after the first chapter. Chapter 2 was kind of like a flashback.

It’s hard to explain and I apologize for my absolute lack of timeframing.

To reiterate, this chapter occurs shortly after chapter 1.

The timer beeped quietly, indicating that it was time to end the episode.

“Well, next time on Game Grumps, we’ll have gotten back to where Arin was before he died.”

“Man, no, we don’t have to… I can get back there in just a minute, we don’t have to fast-forward to it.”

“If you say so, man. It sure doesn’t look that easy, seeing as you’ve died two more times just trying to get back.”

“Well that’s because I show up and… And I suck.”

Arin leaned forward from his seat on the couch, tilting the mic stand out of his way so that he could reach the time-table notepad and scrawl the times down for Barry when he begins editing the footage later. There was about 10 episodes in this session, meaning he and Dan had been playing for about three hours.

During the session, Dan had been uncharacteristically quiet. Arin could tell, just by looking at Dan, that he was tired. He must not be sleeping well lately. Every time Arin finishes a recording session with any of the others, he finds Dan dead-asleep in the beanbag chair in the office.

He’s been like this for a little over a month now. Every time Arin tried to get Dan to talk about it, Dan wouldn’t budge, and it admittedly scared Arin. Had something happened and Dan just couldn’t move past it? Had he done something to upset his best friend? That wouldn’t really explain why Dan was acting like this towards everyone, though… And despite how he was behaving lately, he still radiated love and affection for everyone, including Arin.

So… What had him so depressed lately? Arin knew Dan had struggled with depression when he was younger, but he claimed to have a hold on all of that, especially since getting involved in Game Grumps. In fact, Arin couldn’t really remember seeing Dan depressed in all the years they’d known eachother. Dan testified the last time he had a bad bout of depression had been when he left the Northern Hues, when his last serious girlfriend left him after finding her soulmate.

Soulmates. Arin seemed to put the pieces together— Dan had been acting like this ever since he talked to Dan about the gifts he got for Suzy.

“Danny?” Arin asked gently. Dan was staring at the floor with this disconnected intensity, and Arin was afraid of spooking him.

Dan blinked, and looked up at Arin, offering a slight smile. “You never call me Danny.”

“Yeah, I know.” He returned the smile, hesitating to continue, “I’m, worried about you, man.”

Dan’s smile disappeared, and his expression returned to what it looked like most of the time these days, indifferent.

“Are you sure we should be going on tour if you’re feeling like this?” Arin reached over and placed his hand on Dan’s knee, squeezing his best friend’s leg lightly.

“Well, it’s kind of too late to cancel the tour now.” Dan said, a bit curtly. It was enough to cause Arin to pull away, which made Dan sigh.

“I’m fine, Arin. If anything, the tour will help. I think maybe I’m just in a funk because I haven’t been on stage in a while. All this work on Ladyworld with the Twerp guys, and on Under The Covers Two. I mean, I love every second of it, like, I can’t thank the stars enough for how lucky I am to be doing what I love. Just, singing in a booth, alone, and singing on stage to a crowd of thousands, screaming, is so different. Going on tour always makes me appreciate how far I’ve come. Makes it feel so much more real. It’ll give me the pick-me-up I need.”

Arin nodded slowly, though the issue that Arin knew was bugging Dan to begin with was still being avoided. He wouldn’t push, however.

“You should get home and get some sleep, dude. You look seriously tired. I can’t remember the last time I saw bags under your eyes.”

Dan’s brows rose up. Was it really that obvious he hadn’t been sleeping well? He reached up and rubbed at his eyes, until he could see flashes of light in the darkness. “Yeah, alright.”

“You know, Suzy brought some of that sleepytime tea up here yesterday, if you think it might help—“

“I’ve got some at home, I just haven’t… Just haven’t felt like bothering with it. I will tonight, though. I’m… Sorry, man. That you’re seeing me like this.” Dan said this quickly, not wanting to get too emotional and break down in front of his best friend. He was more embarrassed than anything. If Arin was concerned, surely everyone else was, too, and he didn’t like people feeling sorry for him. It really bothered him.

“Dude, it’s alright, man, you just do you, okay? Do you want the day off tomorrow?”

“No, I’m fine to work. I’ll get some sleep tonight, you’ll see, I’ll be fine.”

Dan did as he promised. When he returned home to his empty and quiet house, he made himself the hot, sleep-inducing tea, and settled into his bed. He watched The Last Unicorn, for the fourth time that week. It was only Thursday. Come Sunday, he, Arin, and Brian would be shipping off to their first concert of the tour, in Washington. After that, it would be a whirlwind of plane and bus trips across the country for the next two months.

This was going to be the biggest break of his music career. On stage, not only as Ninja Sex Party, but also as Starbomb, and alongside TWRP. Some of the venues they had booked were double, even triple, the size of venues he’d performed at in the past. Every show for the first month was already sold out, and the second half of the tour was nearly sold out as well. It was stressful to think about, but also incredibly exciting.

While he felt excited, it just didn’t seem to translate well, and this surprised even himself. It was as if his body and his emotions were not on the same wavelength anymore. He just couldn’t very well express how he was feeling, and it was scary because he hadn’t struggled in this way in over fifteen years.

He could hear the movie playing, but right now that was all the attention he was giving it. It served as familiar, grounding background noise while he battled with himself. His head dropped slightly, and he looked into the warm mug in his hands. It was a large mug that Barry had bought for him when they still roomed together. Dan complained about how small regularly sized mugs were. This mug, Dan could place both of his hands on and his fingers wouldn’t overlap.

It smelled pepperminty, and that alone made Dan a little sleepier than he had been for the last couple weeks. However, that didn’t keep a dangerous train of thought from rearing its ugly head.

What color was tea?

He knew water was colorless, was clear, like glass. So what color did it become when the tea leaves were allowed to diffuse in the hot water? What about adding sugar caused the color to lighten or darken, depending on the tea? What color was this mug, a thoughtful gift from a dear friend?

This was a rabbithole Dan didn’t need to be going down at 11 o’clock on a Thursday night. He needed to go to sleep.

Despite the gentle nagging of rationality, the train of thought continued.

As happy and as fortunate as Dan was about his place in life—Game Grumps, Ninja Sex Party, Starbomb—what was the point of any of it if he was to spend his life and fortune alone?

That question stopped Dan’s thoughts in its tracks, as some failsafe part of his brain must have kicked in, because all of the thoughts stopped at once. He wasn’t thinking about anything now. His eyes drifted back to the movie on the screen of his laptop, and he was distantly surprised to find it was halfway over. He sipped his tea mindlessly, until his mug was empty, and his eyelids felt ten times heavier than they had before.

He curled up on his side, leaving his laptop open, allowing the movie to continue to play. It would turn off on its own after a while. Dan drifted to sleep, thankful for the brief peace he had found. Unfortunately, his dreams were unkind.

Sunday came quickly. Dan had done his best for the remainder of the week to try and look less hampered down, but Arin and Brian knew that Dan was still keeping something from them. He just wasn’t the same Dan he usually was. However, he was improving. After their plane landed in Washington, the excitement seemed to finally be sinking in, and Dan was becoming more and more smiley and goofy. This was especially prominent when the three men met up with the TWRP guys. Being surrounded on all sides by his musical counterparts and inspirations seemed to finally bring Dan back to 99%.

It was only during the moments where Dan was tired and exhausted from fits of giggles, from a long day of hitting the city and enjoying the sights, after the concert had ended and Dan was back in his plainclothes, that even a hint of sadness shone. Arin watched from afar with concern, because any time he tried to address the problem, Dan would spring back to his normal self, as if nothing was bothering him at all.

After a couple of days, Arin was beginning to believe that maybe this was just how it would be from now on.

Every concert was a thrill. Dan had been right when he told Arin that singing in the studio and singing on stage were so different. And not just in the technical sense, but in the spiritual sense, though Dan didn’t really consider himself a spiritual guy. Singing on stage, lyrics and chords floating over the intense, rhythmic hum of heartbeats and breathing of the crowd, the screams and hollers, the applause, the tears, there was nothing that made Dan’s dreams feel more fulfilled. Every one of these attendees were living, breathing fans. They had jobs, they had their own dreams, they had love in their hearts that pumped blood through their veins, and they each shared something in common with Dan; They loved his music, and they were passionate about him, about his dream. They made his dreams come true and, for some of them, Dan was making theirs come true, too.

Dan felt his most grateful immediately after a concert had ended. At the end of every show, he took a moment to address the crowd, and express how important it was to him that every one of his fans love unconditionally, forgive without boundaries, and follow their dreams. He often shed tears once he walked off stage, as he could still hear the cries of his fans behind him. He wished there was enough time in the world so that he could speak to every one of them individually and encourage them to do everything with kindness and to do what they were passionate about. He knew that if even one person followed his advice, that the world would be a better place for it.

It was the last day of November when the crew boarded a Virgin plane to Dallas, Texas. It was already quite late, the sky pitch black. It would be December by the time they landed, in just a few hours. In two more days, they’d be doing their first of three shows in Texas, the first being in the heart Dallas.

Dan was sitting in the aisle seat, which was necessary for him. He couldn’t stand sitting in the window seat. He’d been on enough plane rides by now that flying didn’t scare him, but it still made him nauseated, and sitting near the window only made that worse. Besides, Arin always called dibs on the window seat, enjoying having a wall to lean on and fall asleep.

This placed Brian in the center seat, reading a book before he, too, would probably sleep. Arin was already dead asleep once the plane was in the air. Normally, Dan would be as well, but for whatever reason, he was wide awake.

Too stingy to pay for the plane’s wi-fi, Dan would busy himself with the Virgin’s individual televisions. They had little games on them and movies you could watch, but nothing really interested Dan. After exhausting all of his other options, he looked at Brian and the book he was reading. Something nerdy, by the looks of the formulas and words that were too long and complicated to be legal.

Brian noticed Dan being nosy, so he set the book down, and removed his glasses in order to look at his friend. “You’ve been preoccupied lately.” He stated, plainly.

Dan sighed, chuckling a little. “Nothing ever gets past you, does it, Brian? That’s why you’re the Ninja and I’m the Sexbang.” He said this quietly, not wanting to disturb anyone else on the plane. From the looks of it, most everyone was either asleep or on their way there.

Brian hummed in agreement with Dan, then continued, “I won’t push you to talk about it, but I want you to know that we’re all concerned about you. Especially Arin. Even the Twerp guys can see it.”

Dan exhaled from his nose for a while, and rubbed his temples. He could talk to Brian about this, Brian was older than Arin, older than the Twerp guys. Brian was even older than him, and other than his own parents, Dan wasn’t close to anyone else who was older than him.

“I’ve just… Been thinking about my life, and how… You know… I’m almost forty, and I haven’t…” He didn’t want to say it out loud, as if everyone on the plane would wake up and stare at him in shock. He was tired of the shocked looks he got. He was tired of the pity.

Brian knew this, so he forced his expression to remain neutral, forced back any feelings of sympathy he had. “There’s still time, Dan. Very few people are one-sided. It’s usually a hereditary thing, anyway, and your parents were absolutely not one-sided.”

“Yeah, I know.” Dan smiled just a little as he recalled being young, listening to his mother retell the story of how she and his father had met. There had been an immense language barrier, as his father had just arrived in America. They had run into each other on the metro in New York, andt he connection was strong enough that they made it work, and bore two beautiful children together.

Brian pat Dan’s knee, “The best thing you can do is keep your head up. That sounds corny, but it’s true. You’re never going to see them if you keep looking at your shoes. If I hadn’t happened to look up that one day, I wouldn’t have met Rachel. Arin wouldn’t have met Suzy. No one would meet anyone if we all just felt sorry for ourselves and lived with our chins glued to our sternums.”

Dan nodded as he listened. He knew this, but he also knew that he was guilty of behaving that way lately. “Yeah, you’re right, Bri. I’ll keep that in mind. I’m gonna try to sleep now, alright?”

“Yeah, so am I.” Brian nodded, tucking the book into his carry-on bag for the time being.

Dan shifted so that his shorter, older companion could rest his head on Dan’s shoulder, and Dan propped his own head on Brian’s. They were used to this arrangement, and it didn’t take long for Dan to fall asleep, comforted by the presence and support of his dear friend.

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