#i mean its not like i have to drive or anything

[teddybeartoji]

let me tell u this idea i have of going to the club with bestie!roomie!toji

you're all comfy in his lap, back against his broad chest, in a private booth (thank you shiu) while the others in the group are busy drinking or on the dance floor. but you are more than content with just staying with toji. the way his hand strokes up and down your back, occasionally, going over your hip and playfully squeezing your ass as he feigns innocence !!

trying to get him back by teasing him, pouting as you tell him that you want his opinion on this new outfit you bought bc you don't know if the color fits you. and he does NOT expect to see you open a picture of you posing in the mirror in cute pink lingerie that hugs you in all the right places. “i like this one, the pink set was so pretty, but i dunno if i like it on me,” you hum

toji is losing his fucking MIND right now, his arms gripping you tighter as he lets out a heavy sigh at the view. he doesn't even get a chance to say anything before you're swiping to the left and you grow a little shy, giving a fake little 'woops'

instead of a picture, it’s a fucking video. a video of you fucking yourself with a toy playing on the screen angled so only he could see!! the volume is low so only you both can hear it and toji can HEAR the wet gushing of your pussy, creaming around the toy as you moaned and begged oh so cutely. “aww...toji, I couldn’t even get the toy all the way in,” you whine. “only got it halfway…”

its taking everything in him not to just fuck you right now, to show you he'd make sure you'd be able to get cock in you all the way. "kook at my best girl, so fuckin' desperate and needy," he hums, resting his chin on your shoulder as he watches the video. "tsk, tsk, tsk...poor think, y'should be filled up properly, hm? stretched on my cock til you're taking all of it...i'd make sure ya cream for real, baby doll."

“i wanted t’ send this to you, wanted you t’ see it and tell you t’ come help me get it in me,” you pouted, leaning into him. "plus, when it feels too good i can't help but run away from it, and it makes it sooo hard t' cum, tojiiiii....you wouldn' let me run from it, right, big guy?"

the way you look at him over your shoulder with those pretty eyes that just scream mischief..."mmn, you should've. i would've come over right away. make sure we get some cock into ya like y'need it. stretch you out niiiiice and good, get m'cock into that tight, pretty pussy of yours...like the good best friend i am," he purrs, pressing a kiss to your cheek.

yeah im insane !!!!

LUNARRRR WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU I WANT YOU SO BAD WHEN I TELL YOU THAT MY EYES POPPED OUT OF MY HEAD I MEAN THAT I HAD TO FUCKING LOOK FOR THEM IN THE DARK BEFORE I COULD DO ANYTHING ELSE RAAAAHHHHHHH

THIS IS SO FUCKING HOT LUNAR I NEED TO MAKEOUT WITH YOU ASAP. FIRST OF ALL THE LINGERIE??????????????????? GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD IT'S SOOFUCKING PRETTY TOJI IS A STRONG STRONG MAN FOR NOT FOLDING IMMEDIATELY BC WTF. OMFG AND I LOOOOOVE THE TOUCHING FUCK IT'S SO HOT LIKE YEAH I WANNA SIT ON HIS LAP AND I WANT HIM TO SQUEEZE MY ASSS AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHSTOP THIS MADNESS RIGHT NOW

WHEN HE RESTS HIS HEAD ON YOUR SHOULDER????????????????????????????????????????? I DIED. I DIED I DIED I DIED. THE CLOSENESS IS DRIVING ME INSANE ACTUALLY LUNAR I REALLY DO NEED TO BITE YOU OR SOMETHING YOU'RE SO SEXY AND THEN A KISS ON THE CHEEEEEEK????????? GODDD I AM NOT YOUR STRONGEST SOLDIERRRRR I WANT TO SUCK HIM RIGHT THEREEEEEEEE BALLS AND EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND YOU KNOW HE'S GETTING BRICKED BC YOU CAN JUST FEEL IT POKING AT YOU FROM BEHIND FUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKMMM

he calls the cab bc he wants to help his bestie out:(((( but then he's getting soooooooo handsy in the cab already bc how could he not:((( the video keeps replaying in his head and you just keep staring at him with these mischievous eyes and he kinda just wants to eat you yk

his fingers keep kneading your thighs as you play with the hair on his nape andmmmmmmmmmmmmmm he's so hard it fucking hurtss. and when you're finally at your place he doesn't even let you properly open the fucking door bc he just needs his lips on you whewww he's such a good friend:(((((((((((((((((((((((((( he's gonna teach you how to take it and he's not gonna let you run away:((((((((((((((((((((he's so perfect lunar i need him so fucking bad i just drooled on my shirt what the actual fuck

#WAHH I'M SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY MY BELOVED #I JUST HAD TO RUB ONE OUT BEFORE YK #AND BY ONE I MEAN A HUNDRED #LUNAR YOU'RE LITERALLY SOOOOOO SEXY I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING BAD HOLY FUCKING SHIT #THIS WAS THE BEST LITTLE TREAT I COULD'VE EVER ASKED FOR #FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKMEEEEEEE #lunar <3 #friends!! #toji #toji smut #mickey is daydreaming #bsf!toji #roomie!toji #(he jerks off every night to you btw) #(he's such a fucking perv) #(and i'm so wet i think i'm gonna pass out) #toji fushiguro #jjk toji

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

days where i have nothing to do: ohhhh im so sleepy im so so tired no one is more eepy than me

nights where i have to wake up at a set time: I Have Never Been More Awake In My Life

#help my eyes keep drifting back open #im trying all my tricks #cozy couch setup. whale shark plush to cling to. low lights. wendigoon iceberg in the bg. laughingstock imaginings in brain #IM WIDE TF AWAKE AND HAVE TO GET UP IN LESS THAN 7 HOURS #fuckfuckfuck did i pack my melatonin gummies already by mistake #i mean its not like i have to drive or anything #but id like to be... Aware. Available to converse with my dearest darling bestie #because i Am going to see my bestie! #absolutely unprompted #huh wait when was the last time i talked to a real life person in front of me. um. #its... been a couple weeks #NOT A MONTH YET THIS TIME! LESS THAN A MONTH! #but ohhhhh i am excited #tea with the homeslicebreadslice... joint Art creation.... #BEING OUT IN THE WORLD AHAHA I WILL BE TEMPORARILY FREE #clawing at the walls let me OUT #gonna start biting this house i swear to god #i cant wait to be free of it. i hope it burns in the next big wildfire #OK WAIT NEW PLAN. i washed my mug and i have chamomile tea #i will drink some warm soothing tea uhhhhh maybe re-read a fic? #willing myself not to read stamps for the millionth time. im gonna read stamps for the millionth time #listen listen i love it and also im starving for fic #one day i will contribute but for now im poking ao3 with a stick begging it to do something #Soon though. i have a feeling. a strong psychic feeling. #Soon... something will Appear... i know this because my third eye is open #also i know because i know. OR DO I #im so tired yet so awake at the same time #someone whack me over the head with a cartoon mallet so that i may go to sleep with little birdies circling my head #wait shit those are vultures. IM NOT DEAD YET FUCK OFF #please i need to go snzzzzzz.... my alarm will be Going Off...

[quietwingsinthesky]

if supernatural was any good, they would have had mary and lucifer sleep together in the apocalypse world. this would have solved zero problems with the show, but it would have created a hundred more interesting ones than they already had.

#they could have done this. for me. #it should have gone really well too. for mary and lucifer i mean. #because that would be 1000x worse for everyone else involved. if mary enjoyed herself and bonded with him. #doesn’t even have to be much of a bond but like. just enough that when sam and dean are there. it’s so incredibly uncomfortable. #sam like :) this is the second time my mother has slept with someone complicit in torturing me. i feel normal about this and its not #messing me up so bad im going to scream. this is fine. #dean would freak the fuck out about it though. openly and loudly. it’s *lucifer*. #which. of course. trying to tell mary that she’s not allowed to do what she’s already decided she’s doing because dean doesn’t want her to. #yeah. im sure that’ll go well. #lucifer doesn’t even have to do anything to drive a wedge between them besides sit there look pretty and eat mary out until she screams. #easiest job in the world #and most importantly: it would have been hot. literally just let someone walk in on mary pinning the devil himself to the floor. #why not give me this one thing huh

[mrs-luigi-vargas]

I know I'd decided to only write one more bowuigi fic aside from the one I'd already written but I can't stop thinking about the idea of Bowser repeatedly kidnapping Peach for relationship advice and Peach getting so fed up with him about it that she tricks Luigi into being her body double so that Bowser kidnaps him instead and they can talk like Actual Adults instead of using her as a third party to vent to all the time

#i imagine Luigi also talks to Peach about the same relationship problems #because shes more in tune with romance stuff than his bro is #(whos still low-key trying to wrap his head around his brother dating Bowser of all people) #and theyre not listening to her very reasonable advice of 'just talk to each other about it it'll be fine' #so neither of them are doing anything about the misunderstandings and its driving her mad #anyway it would be funny for Bowser to have a whole conspiracy board #about how Luigi not sending his daily 'buongiorno!' text and shooting down 2 of Bowser's 3 date ideas in less than 5 seconds #means that hes fucked something up irreparably somehow and Luigi's mad at him what do you think Peach how do i fix this #meanwhile Luigi-dressed-as-Peach is standing there tied up like ah. #maybe we should talk about this properly. #(theyre both anxious messes about this fledgling relationship lmao) #meanwhile Peach tells Mario to hold off on the rescue for a day or two so Luigi and Bowser can sort things out #Mario has no problem with this because he too has also been subjected to the ever-shifting conspiracy board #and has no desire to hear about his bro's relationship from Bowser's perspective beyond a surface level ever again #(the conspiracy board goes beyond a surface level) #and Kamek knew from the second Bowser grabbed 'Peach' that it was actually Luigi #but he's also tired of Bowser asking him every 10 minutes if Luigi actually likes him or not instead of paying attention in meetings #so he just leaves and takes a nap instead of letting Bowser know about his mistake #because he sees what Peach is doing and yeah this is the only way this problem's gonna get solved #bowuigi #bowser #luigi #princess peach #yeah so i'm rubbish at writing established relationship stuff so if anyone wants this then please take it away from me thanks #mlv.txt

[greekromann]

ultimately i do actually enjoy the ghibli films i watch theyre well animated and always have an interesting way of conveying the message theyre trying to convey i just cant stand the fandomification of the films so much that i outright refuse to watch some films on principle

#like yeah the beauty of nature and of the mundane in life IS integral to the films and its important to talk about when you talk about their #meaning but the 'hashtag cottagecore' 'hashtag ghiblicore' 'hashtag i wish someone would look at me like howl looks at sophie' drives me up #the wall can we please talk about anything else. can we please talk about any fucking thing else #i saw the boy and the heron at an early showing and i really enjoyed it but walking out i heard ppl confused about the events or the point #and at the risk of sounding pretentious like. the point was very clear! the themes were very clear! but i think theres this broad idea that #ghibli films are movies you go to to just look at pretty things and turn your brain off and i think that does a major disservice to the #movies themselves. stories have meaning use your brain im begging please god im begging #sorry if this sounds mean im just complaining and being a hater

[ufolvr]

How I sleep understanding my favorite villain's personality and backstory and why they work so well while also throwing key aspects of it away for the benefit of my own indulgences btw ^_^

#📡 incoming transmission 📡 #once again talking about frieza. mostly. their backstory and direct mirroring of goku's is the strongest in the series #they never had to life a finger for anything ever and thats the point #but.... sometimes a guy has certain needs and urges #i also mess with buu and cell but thats after they died so i can do whatever. like introducing a character for them to bounce off of #is one thing but changing their backstory is another. do you see it? i dont think i need to do that to tell a meaningful story #for frieza however i do not want them 'going soft' for anyone ever. i want them to have been soft from the very beginning #that's a lot stronger to me. what if they cared? what if they cared so much. what then. #any other changes i make to characters i like esp villains is more... well. where can we go from here buddy? #and less What would happen if your backstory was a moved a little bit to the left. it just genuinely depends on what works best ^^ #self insert #selfshipping #f/o #selfship #self ship #also bc its driving me up the wall: #me whenever i tell you that frieza cannot be enjoyed separately from their femininity and poise so frieza with a square jaw means nothing #and cell was hard for me to grasp but the truth is that the more human she became the scarier she got. #like another false sense of familiarity almost #and buu is all over the place because buu is buu and makes little to no logical sense #this has nothing to do with the post. sometimes i just like to sound smart #and as a proof that i do know frieza plenty well i just love to fuck with them and make them care for someone

[ahaura]

hello hi love u all hope ur taking care <3

#hvaña #mini personal update... have started driving again for the first time in like 2 months #i keep accidentally speeding on the highway which i DONT mean to do whoops #after spending the entirety of february inside and unable to do anything its so good to just. get out and do simple stuff #im going to try and start exercising bit by tiny bit a lost a LOT of progress #im procrastinating rescheduling some tests but thats fine i'll do it eventuallyyyy #um what else. i had a really cool dream the other night that WASNT about public school #i think theres a chance my mom is getting scammed. she doesnt think so but like. idk im concerned #idk mostly this month is about trying to build back strength and just do stuff one at a time #ive missed u all. mwah <3 #hopefuly things will start to even out soon

[cutemeat]

i know that they just included Mac Finds His Pride at the end of that 'episodes to watch before s16' post cuz they were going in chronological order w the eps listed and they're gonna bring up the dance this season ofc, but deep down i want it to have to do with Dennis Takes a Mental Health Day being at the end of this season and MFHP being a finale that did something unexpected and grounded in the emotional reality of a character somehow correlating to Dennis' ep....

#i just... man itd be so good #also i know some ppl are very against ppl making MFHP abt anything other than Mac #but truly theres just a gaping hole in the ep that is shaped a LOT like dennis #which is valid however #i still have my more literal theory that dennis was supposed to come out with/dance with mac in s13... but he decided to stay in the closet #so mac had to find a new dance partner to do the dance with #but i think the more grounded subtextual thing of it is dennis' arc in Gets New Wheels is a direct FOIL of Macs in MFHP #(dennis is afraid of his father and stays in the closet in Gets New Wheels V.S. mac is afraid of his father but comes out and STAYS out in #MFHP....) #esp considering the joke in MFHP where dee's like 'just get the gay man to dance on the gay #float its not that hard!' then IMMEDIATELY charlie comes into the scene talking abt how 'dennis got claustrophobic n he doesnt wanna drive' #like that ... the joke is LITRLLY that dennis is gay too but wont come out #AND THEN THEY GO BACK IN ON THIS JOKE THE VRY NEXT SEASON IN TEXTS WITH THE GRINDR BATHROOM SCENE LOL #i mean how can u argue its not insignificant that frank aka DENNIS' FATHER is being guided thru this journey where he sees the struggle #of someone whos been in the closet?? u think that could not even possibly be related TO HIS SON??? #but one fear what if they actually keep him in the closet forever cuz mac came out #WHAT IF #dennis takes a mental health day

[dawnthefluffyduck]

#messing around in ms paint #i was working on something to post on halloween but i got frustrated with it and set it aside for now #maybe i'll redo this later 'cause the actual picture grew on me #there's more i could do to this but really i just don't wanna sleep #i think they call it reclaiming time and i should stop so i'm going to do that #anyway kris and noelle #i don't really have anything cool or profound to say #just that their relationship is so bittersweet #they have a bond that was quite possibly very strong a long time ago #despite whatever happened #i think kris still cares a lot for her #but an already strained relationship crumbled once more by something completely out of your control #is extra painful when that person was like family to you #i mean she's the first to notice something is off with kris in *that* route #granted she spent more time with them alone #but to catch it before their own mother?? #i know we have pretty good guesses as to what happened but i wanna know for sure #what could possibly drive you away from someone that close to you for so long #okay its 3:19 AM i'll stop blabbing now #kris #noelle #deltarune

[planet4546b]

guy who perpetually gives every character he can get his hands on long term chronic joint injuries: my knee isnt really that big a problem for me Lol all of that clearly means nothing

#pers #i have been doing this. For. Years. ANY character i can grab. #last night i was driving to practice running thgouh a list of kh characters and thinking which ones have which joint injuries #and went....Hey do you think this means anything? no probably not. #and then proceeded to overwork my knee at practice and have to wear my brace at work today LOL #idk its like. its a minor thing to me but also this has been happening since 2019 and i still dont know why #and its starting to get consistently more of an issue #anyways. come to me to the world where riku has upper back pain + tennis elbow

[snekdood]

Hey so uh.

I dont think voting is the only solution. Nor will it necessarily get us what we want immediately. And i think protest is more important and more effective.

However.

Conservatives. Would. Not. Be. Trying. To. Make. Voting. Impossible. And. Taking away. Actual voting places from marginalized areas. .

If it meant ABSOLUTELY nothing.

Hope that helps.

✌️

#if it makes me a lib to just even ACKNOWLEDGE that fact. then i think ur probably an entirely irrational person. #very. very sorry for wanting to do everything i can. very sorry. #its almost like... you can protest...... and also.... vote......... #its almost like voting in of itself at this point is kinda a protest since theres places w voting booths being removed or people who have #to drive miles just to vote. like. i kinda think it means somethin here pal. #like. republicans dont want us to vote. it benefits them when we dont. it also benefits them when you're riddled with nihilistic apathy. #u probably feel so defeated that u probably dont even think debate matters or means anything at all #whatever. im bored of you and your personality. #its this type of nihilistic thinking that leads to accelerationism. you think fuck it. lets just let the republicans win. show the world #how bad they are. thinking that will make people finally stand up. but the problem is people are cowards. and they wont. and i dont think #its worth taking the chance on and rolling the dice on when the outcome of letting republicans win is very likely to be genocide. #and i really really dont think being smug and all 'i told you so' to libs is worth it enough for vast amounts of people. people you #probably care about. being killed in swathes. i really really dont think letting things get Worse on Purpose is a great idea #and it honestly makes you look like an evangelical republican who thinkis climate change is a smite from god. #bc functionally you're doing the fucking same thing. instead though you're pretending its a smite from you. #i kinda firmly believe that accelerationism is a intellectual bystanders excuse for not doing shit. like genuinely just sitting there #watching ppl suffer to prove a point. gtfoh

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[quietwingsinthesky]

im just saying that a guy whose worldview is inflexibly based on the idea that the only two groups of people in the universe are the controlled and the ones who have the power to control them, and that there is no other way to exist, and who has done everything in his power to make sure he’s always in the latter group. i’m just saying that it’s possible this is not unrelated to. that time when he was used as a child by rassilon himself. its possible.

#and i want to be even more clear that this is not me trying to woobify him. you would know if it was because i would be much more annoying #about it. im not trying to lay this out as ‘the drums mean that the master’s actions are excusable actually. all those times he killed So #Many People was fine because he was hurt as a kid.’ #im trying to point out like. now that this is canon. now that this is a part of him. that it is foundational to why he would build up that #worldview at all. yeah? #i keep coming back to the powerlessness of that moment. of the drums. he can’t *do* anything about it. #but he *can* be the master and never be one of the weak people in the universe who ‘allow’ themselves to be controlled #he knows he’s being used in EoT and still expects the time lords to take him with them. because he’s on their side isn’t he? he gets to #ascend too doesn’t he? he gets to be as powerful as they do right? #but. that’s not what’s happening here. it’s what he’s built up in his head but the minute rassilon hits him with the truth. that they have #abused and used him and will now destroy him. just. augh. #a whole world under his heel and its not enough. it will never be enough. he has separated the universe into two parts and neglected to #realize that just because he can put himself in control of some of it doesn’t mean there aren’t other people who have a hand around his #throat still. and it drives me insane #the master #doctor who

[pensbridgertons]

SWANFIRE MONTH 2022

day 7 • scene that made you the angriest

is this the underworld? i was on my way to the underworld. yeah, i know that's where you're heading. that's kind of why i'm here. don't go, emma. once you get there, it is not an easy place to get out of. i know you're trying to save hook, but trust me on this. this won't end the way you think it will.

#swanfire month 2022 #swanfireedit #swanthiefedit #ouatedit #onceuponatimeedit #swanthief #swanfire #emma swan #neal cassidy #ouat #once upon a time #** #otp: i love you; i probably always will #by choosing this i mean this specific part of this scene not the whole scene altogether #been thinking abt this a lot lately so thats why i chose it <3 #i've ranted abt this before so im not gonna go like super in depth or anything but #like the implication that neal had no unfinished business is actually the most ridiculous thing i've ever heard in my life lmaooooo #like the audacity to have him say that TO EMMA after talking abt THEIR SON like hello............ #anyways i love a lot abt this scene too its just this part that drives me insane thats all <3

[panspy]

hmmmmmm.................vent post under tags...... feel free to give advice or dont¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#i think this is an autism related thing #but i genuinely feel like i wasnt made right for the world we live in #like something is just missing from me that ive never seen ppl talk about #and i know this is going to sound entitled and privileged and i KNOW i know i promise and im so lucky i can even be thinking about this but #it feels weird to have the privilege to be scared #this is specifically in regards to working #like having a job. like going to work #i feel like im missing an extremely important part of my brain or my BEING that is capable ot going through the motions of participating #in society. i never felt that switch of wanting to get a job in high school to make money for myself and get that experience #i feel like there's something i MISSED where everyone took a class on how to apply and go to interviews and write resumes and not be scared #like i NEED to be walked through every SINGLE step because i dont know HOW #and i see my peers and the literal entire world around me participating in this atmosphere and i dont know where to start #im fucking twenty three years old and ive only ever been an intern and an assistant #not even a full year of working #i cant drive and i probably wont ever because thats a whole other can of worms #and that means i have to rely on other people to even get to wherever it was i needed to go #i feel like a fucking child because im missing this knowledge that everyone else seems to have #ive tried i really have but none of it seems simple and its all so much and there arent steps to follow #i mean there ARE but its like 1) look up job 2) apply 3) interview 4) yay you're employed #and im talking about each micro step inbetween #what am i missing #and then theres the fucking demand avoidance that slaps me across the face whenever my mom brings it up to me like i KNOW youre being #supportive and encouraging and its not your fault my brain turns off and decides im full of shame bc i cant CONFRONT ANYTHING #jesus christ #manf i know u can see this maybe dont bring it up to mom i can do that on my own maybe #i WANT to help i just want to help at my own pace but unfortunately the world isnt built around individual paces and nothing revolves #around me. i know this #i want to help my mom i want her to never be stressed about money and to retire and never work or help me pay my student loans but i #genuinely feel like theres a switch that never turned on in my head and im being left behind and i genuinely dont know how to. like be alive

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#if u r curious abt following the saga that is my life: #i did finally accept an official offer from a school this afternoon. which is a huge relief and really exciting #and for once i think i did something that will b good for me in mind and body lol bc i think i could b happy with any of the places i #applied to but this program is most geared to my interests and its in a place where i think i can have fun due to the accessibility #of nature and the mountains haha. like at rutgers i think i could have got a good education and had a lot of opportunities but i think it #would have crushed my soul a lil bc it would b more high pressure and in the city. ya kno? so i hopefully i dont regret the choice lol #i still have to wait on the offical acceptance stuff but now at least i can allow myself to get excited abt the potential project and start #researching. which i mean ill have 5yrs of a phd for that but idk im excited and my life feels so empty and meaningless rn ive gotta take #the excitement where i can haha #anyway housing is gonna b a bitch bc there arent a lot of places available in grad student price ranges in the city to the point where they #said so in the official offer rip. and i have to decide when im leaving the southwest bc i could stay til August or leave in july and take #like a whole almost 2 months to just not b doing anything for a sec. and my dad was like !!! u could go to the crazy state parks #or drive out to the pacific northwest! and that would b amazing but also that sounds so scary to do on my own lol #like i dont wanna b missing and murdered as a youngish non guy traveling alone #but i could do it if i tried im sure. anyway i just wanted to let yall kno #bc im so doom and gloom on here all the time but a transition period is looming so im only stuck here for a few more months #and hopefully itll b a page turn into a happier place haha #watch out yellowstone cyanobacteria. im coming for u >:-] #knock on wood. ya kno. just in case #hhhh at least i can breathe a lil better now i have a direction #unrelated