#love treating tumblr like my personal diary

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[atissi]

i think the internet could be greatly improved if we just assume that OP is always talking to someone who is not you. if the post is not personally applicable or relevant, cool, this isn't a conversation you're in. this is a strangers' conversation that you're eavesdropping on.

#especially on tumblr where most people treat their blogs like a diary. and posts that escape containment were never meant to be read as #all-encompassing. but also sometimes i see twitter posts that are like hm. this seems weirdly hostile. and it turns out the original contex #was that the op was mad at a very specific person. and it just got spread around because people assumed op was mad at them and decided to #argue. it's fun being part of the larger internet dialogue of course but few people post like they're making a presidential speech #and honestly if they do they either have enough reach that this kind of verbal-editing is necessary. or they're a theatre kid. #beepbeep.txt #weeeeeee i love saying opinions on my blooooog #inspired by two separate people on my dash complaining about random people arguing with them over an accidentally popular post

[always-andromeda]

Sometimes I remember that I’ve gone out of my way to give love to people who really didn’t deserve it and gosh it really hits me just how much I’ve learned about my own boundaries in just the last year alone.

#˚ʚ meda rants ɞ˚ #like i can’t believe that around this time last year i was literally spending so much money to send a care package to a tumblr mutual #a person who always assumed the worst of me #a person who knew nothing about me but tried to call me their bestie #a person who was trying to buy my friendship #a person who loved dropping my name online only to completely ignore me in groups behind closed doors #a person who shamelessly doxxed me multiple times #i like to say that i’m not bitter anymore #but idk i came across an old ask i sent them and felt so bad for the me from last year #she was trying so hard to be liked by this person #a person who really only cared for people if they provided them with some benefit #i wish i could go back in time and snatch those friendship bracelets i made them #because they really didn’t deserve them or any of my love ;-; #lmao on today’s episode of ‘meda treats her tumblr like her personal diary’ xoxo

[odetolovers]

shaking crying screaming

#get u a girlfriend who wants to get someone to recreate your old childhood stuffie that u lost #and wants to get u ur old favourite childhood book that u lost #bc she knows that ur childhood wasnt great but those parts were and wants to give them back to u #im seriously. dying every second every minute every day i have never experienced a love as kind and thoughtful and good as this #and i am truly obsessed with her she is everything i cd have ever wanted and more #i feel so lucky i cannawt believe this is real life sometimes i stg. SORRY im being extremely sappy but it’s just soooo #i was not looking for this love it just Happened TM and it makes everything else it took me to get here worth it #me when i am so very devoted and i would do anything to make her happy and i know she’d do the same #i Adore her. i cant even conceptualise how much i love her what the hell man #and not just bc of how she loves me but bc of who she is #ive never met someone more unflinchingly honest but kind and loving and fawking hilarious #and capable and self aware and such a beautiful person inside & out #i love her in all her humanness and i love her with everything in me If im honest. #i knew from before we even got together that i was going to marry her and that feeling hasnt changed #me when i spill my guts on tumblr i am treating it like a diary not a social media site. oop #WHATEVER IM HAPPY AND IN LOVE AND DEVOTED AND !!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway. #valentina talks #my lover #EDIT IM ENDING IT ALL SHE FOUND MY OMD STUFFIE AND BOUGHT UT IM CRYING SHAKIFNGBSUING THROWIFNUOP AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[bnuyfrowns]

my final autism diagnosis appointment is today :))

#i’m so nervous like what if i don’t have it and then i have no idea why i am the way i am #amajxkakx #it’s in just over an hour it’ll be ok #treating tumblr dot com like my personal diary i love it here #also these appointments cost me $2000 please don’t let it be for nothing #bee speaks

[mishkakagehishka]

In reality i'm having a balkan breakfast without the cigs, but it feels fancier to say i'm having an italian breakfast without the croissant, right?

#i love treating tumblr like my personal diary #i'll hit a few enstars plays and then get to studying <3

[dalkyeom]

Jack Skellington say's trick or treat

Ooooh! Jack my boy, my seasonal fave. Nonnie, you have taste 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻 also I hope your halloween went splendidly well!

Thank you for ringing my doorbell, anon! I’ll give you a random irl ghost story.

Hmm was a bit stumped on how I could answer this based on your costume, so how about I tell you a small ghost story (that actually happened to me 💀 lol) gather round the campfire 🔥 bc I have some stories to share!

So it’s a small collection of little things as my old high school had some… permanent visitors. I remember them quite well bc people talk and these are stories passed down to every class and I experienced some unexplainable things.

This happened during our class stage production era for english class.

To set the scene, our entire class was preparing for the end of the term productions so we were all staying after hours later than usual (i know some people went home at around 8 pm— which is quite late if you’re not part of the varsity team.) my section was wrapping up for the day so while I was waiting for my sister to pick me up, we were doing our usual clean up routine before locking the classroom.

There are two ways to get to my classroom, taking the main stairs at the other side of the building or taking the stairs right next to it. we were on the third floor and while it’s not a lot (tho tbh carrying a bag full of books and a filecase was an entire workout on its own) the catch is that it’s really dark unless you have the hallway lights on. To add to the creepiness factor, that staircase from the ground floor up to the top is in front of the old restrooms. They look pretty run down, so they’re kinda eerie.

Unfortunately on that night, the lights were all off save for the streetlights outside the building (it’s an open space? so it’s not like american high schools where it’s an enclosed space) but basically she got there just as we were locking up and traveling to the exit as a group.

Then before we can bicker which stairs to use, my sis was like “were you using incense?” and we were like !!! bc the only candle we lit was this small candle. idk about you guys but we use incense at mass and you know how we call the priest sometimes to bless the space so there’s no unwanted guests :)) incense also has a very particular smell that’s different from a burning candle.

so we told her no, we weren’t burning anything. And slowly she was like, hmm… strange. I smelled incense while climbing the stairs (next to your classroom).

Chills, mate, I swear I almost died when she said that. Apparently it was really strong on the first set of stairs from the 2nd floor going to the 3rd. 😭 suffice to say, we didn’t use those stairs until the following morning!

At that time there were a few other unexplained incidents that happened so if you like to know more you can always send an ask about it. we did experience one as an entire section (like genuinely we were scared) but i’ll save that for another day.

Trick o’ Treat 2022 mini event [closed.]

#trick o’ treat 22 #ngl am a coward but I love me some personal ghost stories #even if they freak me out :) #hhh you can ask me for more bc there’s actually quite a lot #my hs is really old so you know there’s an accumulation of history there #chia.diary #tfw this legit a diary entry lol #high school is an entire horror story by itself tho like tbh idk how I still managed to #keep up with schoolwork and extra curricular and tumblr when I had 700 things to do #no exaggeration (maybe a bit) but that work ethic was crazy now I am like chill #but I ended up with the ability to pull things off last minute 😩😩 #will add an ‘and more’ cut after I post bc I’m on mobile rn :’) #so this is a pretty long post

[gncatelier]

Through my nephews leaving my house after a month, I’ve learned that communication through echolalia is incredibly important for my day to day social interactions. Now that I’m completely without it again, I feel like a shell of a person. These nephews in particular have echolalia 24 fucking 7 and it made me feel so good to talk to people the way I naturally communicate without prejudice. I’m having a really really hard time without that now

#autistic #echolalia #I’m way too comfortable around these particular nephew I think some of them may be on the spectrum oop #no one would ever take me seriously if I pointed it out though #i can not be the only autistic person in this family it’s literally impossible #i really really miss them I’m on extra medication for the pain lol #i love my neices and nephews so much I would do anything for all 28 of them fr #sirenmaespeaks #personal kinda #sorry for treating tumblr like a diary I can’t use a diary to save my life

[aurivelles]

WONYOUNGISM ep 1 ｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+ | motivational acc

EPISODE 1 : Mental health

🪽 — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — 🪽

— Hello and welcome to my wonyoungism episode 1, today I will be teaching you how to finally enter your wonyoungism era!

— The wonyoungism aesthetic that's been going viral around tiktok, tumblr and basically everywhere, is not just about glowing up physically but also mentally!

— "How do I improve my mindset?" "How do I become more confident?" Well you've come to the right place my love!

— Coming from someone who just got into their wonyoungism era!

1. Be kind to everyone! If you wanna start with confidence and mental health, I recommend being mindful of your surroundings and be considerate of others feelings. I recommend this a lot because people will start looking up to you and your kindness personality that's likely borrowed from an angel. ♡

2. Set boundaries! Yes, be nice to everyone but being nice to everyone doesn't mean you have to let other people treat you like nothing! If someone disrespects you, I recommend cutting them off because those people will never help you get anywhere but only bring you down to their level. ♡

3. Stay organized! Having an organized bedroom, backpack, closet and basically anywhere you roam around is such a nice feeling! Clean environment = Happy environment! Deep clean your room and throw out everything you don't need or don't use anymore and start fresh! ♡

4. Make a journal, write anything you want in it such as your planned occasions, routines, make it your daily diary and basically anything you want! ♡

5. Have an organized sleeping schedule and don't always stay up so late! It can be both physically and mentally tiring for you and stress is not for girls like you! You deserve some proper rest. ♡

6. Don't stress yourself, over academics, selfcare, confidence, or anything! Remember, we have to take baby steps before we get to the big ones. ♡

7. Listen to some calming music and try to detach yourself from social media to get a relief and a sign of relaxation and freedom from social media attachment!

8. Read books, draw, do anything productive that can help you become happy! Don't spend your day laying on your bed, I promise that won't get you nowhere. ♡

— That's all (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ I hope you enjoyed reading this xoxo, follow and come back for more future tips!! ♡

#wonyoungism #wonyoung #song jia #confidence #motivation #self care #self healing #mental health #mental health advice #mental health support #self improvement #self growth #jang wonyoung #thewizardliz #self love #coquette #wonyoung motivation

[etirabys]

Over the past few years I've eased off on trying to be an "appealing blog" and have let myself be weird and boring. I feel less vulnerable but more of a full person. It's nice.

I'm kind of touched people still engage with me / seem to like my posts even though I'm dequeuing random stuff that feels important and real to me but isn't interesting.

The part of me that wants to play popularity / follower-count-go-up games is getting exercised on twitter. I expect to get bored of this – my follower count is lower on twitter, but the negative interaction rate is higher due to the algorithm showing my content to randos faster than I can block them. My lust for attention will almost certainly be slaked before I hit 10K. After that, maybe I'll find another outlet.

My relationship with internet attention is different. I used to treat the internet as my diary because I wanted understanding, and because I had a deep and right feeling that my thoughts are public property. Now, at least on tumblr, the second factor is dominant. (I disclose much less than when I was younger because my irl and internet social spheres merged and intense disclosure embarrasses me, and because my most vibrant thoughts are increasingly about other people's private thoughts. It is nice to not be lonely, but what a cost.)

I notice I've barely linked my porn of the past 4 months anywhere, including in my actual porn server on Discord*. I just don't think those works are very good. I would love to get a flood of reviews and kudos, but the lack of it doesn't bother me. I am content to put the works out there and get 500 hits.

*By the way, if you have zero triggers, want an invite to my erotica writing and reccing Discord, and are okay being declined after a brief vetting conversation, DM me.

The me of five or ten years ago – who craved attention for her creativity – would be shocked by this attitude. But I'm now comfortable with the long game – if what I write is really good, eventually lots of people will be reading everything I write, the way I read everything by an author who passes a certain bar of competence / kink compatibility. If I'm good enough, it'll happen. If I'm not, it won't. Seems fine.

I'm happy to feel this way and not the way I used to feel. And I'm happy to be boring on here, and make meandering posts like this.

#rambl #infinite monkey #meanwhile on twitter

[waitmyturtles]

hello! I hope you are having a good day :) I just read your blog piece about tharntype, thank you for writing it! I want to offer a few complicating thoughts, as a queer person myself:

-in the twittersphere, I actually know a lot of other queer people (and, specifically, queer men) who like tharntype in a kink way. as in, the parts that make it "problematic" are the parts that are hot. so this "reading" of TT (lol) sees it as erotic art intended to arouse, rather than offer "representation" or change the public's mind in some way. so from this perspective, the target audience is anyone who finds the erotic story enjoyable, rather than say, random 14 year olds who need to be convinced gay people are human.

-more on the above: gay people aren't unproblematic. like, we do engage in all the things that you said were problematic stereotypes included in tharntype. many gay men are homophobic in the exact way type is, before they admit it to themselves. that's a whole genre of gay porn, because it's such a common part of the gay experience that it enters sexual fantasy frequently! gay people call each other slurs all the time, too (not saying it's right for anyone to be spoken to like type did, I'm just saying, for a lot of us there's a lot of humor and love there when it's spoken kindly). many gay men ARE promiscuous (not all, obviously, but many) and the way in which they are is shaped by their gayness, and while straight world might think that's bad, other gay people might not see it as such. and I very much get how that's very inconvenient when one is trying to argue that gay people aren't sex perverts (so we can have rights) but sometimes what ends up happening is that people who ARE sex perverts (I mean this in a positive way) get told that their lives don't matter, or that even depicting them in fiction "makes you all look bad." it's the usual assimilation problem :/

-I really really really recommend diary of tootsies for a show by gay people for gay and straight people. it's one of my all-time favorite gay dramas, and it might elaborate more on what I'm saying above. it's a gay comedy that's actually executed well.

-it's actually not true that yaoi has only ever been dominated by cishet women! I love this website for more info on how men and nonbinary people have been involved in yaoi historically https://www.fujoshi.info/ . totally true that treating real people like dolls is gross to do in real life, but I don't think women writing yaoi have done that, on the whole, and I certainly don't think the existence of yaoi does that automatically. and I think it's a case of unfair maligning of asian women to say that it does.

-I don't think tharntype is a "good" show. nothing like, say, moonlight chicken (as an example of a show that I think is very good). it's very poorly executed in places. it's trashy. the way it's been marketed, with tharn and type as like, political gay rep, is bizarre. but it's a cheap, trashy snack, a gay bodice ripper type of story, and so I don't think that's a hate crime, or a failing of lgbt people, on the whole.

I know as an ally it is always difficult when there is disagreement in the group you are trying to be an ally to regarding what is acceptable/offensive, but I feel the best thing to do is always to come to a personal opinion oneself that aligns with one's own moral values, after hearing from differing perspectives within that group. So I've provided my own perspective here, which may be totally different than other people you've heard from or your own, and that's okay too! again, hope you have a great day and thanks for your time :)

ANONYMOUS, COME 'ERE FOR A HUG, YOU! THANK YOU for sharing your perspective.

Yes, this show and the related topics are unbelievably difficult for me to write on as an ally. I really appreciate your understanding of the gray areas all around this, and with the help of a number of Tumblr friends, I tried to dive into and balance as much of the gray areas of the topic of TT as much as possible.

I really appreciate the further history on yaoi's origins, and would like to tag some folks to take a look and offer their thoughts -- and, I do not take corrections personally AT ALL, I LOVE LOVE the learning and constructive criticism (that's a major point of the OGMMTVC!), so I WILL be happy to edit any corrections into my posts if need be (cc @nieves-de-sugui, @miscellar, @lurkingshan and anyone else who knows more about yaoi than I do).

I'm getting one or two nasty comments here and there, but by and large, the feedback today on the post has been thought-provoking and eye-opening. I love hearing and reading all of it.

#thanks for the ask! #tharntype

[liliaeth]

People have talked a lot about First Kill, and how great it is as lesbian representation. And I love that for any wlw enjoying it as the young adult show it is. It's not great art, it's cheesy, and it's awesome just for that.

But the one thing I haven't seen mentioned even nearly as much, is how good it is for racial representation.

I never watched Vampire Diaries, so can't compare it to that or any of it's off shoots. (except that apparently Bonnie was done dirty, according to my tumblr feed)

I did watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Supernatural, Teen Wolf, and plenty of other fantasy shows. And it's led me to notice how rarely shows like these treat characters of color, and especially black girls and women, as characters in their own right. Characters with feelings and emotions that are just as important as those of the white characters. (esp. those of white men)

Just think about the characters of color in Teen Wolf, to give a most recent example.

Yes, Scott was the main character. But if the show had one flaw, it was that it consistently treated Scott's feelings as less important than those of his white friends. Stiles, Derek, Jackson, Isaac, ... could all whine and complain about the most minor thing, and it would be treated as this big important moment.

But Scott was expected to go through enormous trauma, without complaint, and was supposed to come out of it, primarily caring for his white friends, and how the things he went through, affected the white people around him.

When Boyd died, TW made his death more about him comforting Derek that he did the right thing in biting him, than about the horror of a teenage boy dying.

Davies actively claimed that Mason was 'too good to have permanent consequences from his possession by the Beast'

We got pretty much no interactions between Scott and Hayden after Scott bit her, despite him becoming her alpha, no moment to explore how both of them felt about it. In contrast to all such scenes we got from Liam.

Peter was never called out on what he did to Scott, not even by Scott's mother, and even after Scott literally died, Melissa was more ready to speech on him on what he owed others, than to console him on what had been done to him, and what he just went through.

And that's not even starting on how they treated Kira, let out the actress playing her.

And that's just a few examples.

So when I watched First Kill, I was happily surprised to find how much better this show handled it's non white characters.

From the first episode on.

How they cut the ep in half, showing the same events from two perspectives, first Juliette's and then Calliope's. Giving equal depth and importance to introducing both of them and the different families they came from. What their parents expected of them, and what their hopes and dreams were, and why...

And that was just the first episode.

As the series continued, we learn just as much about both families, different things, sure, but the series shows us what is important to each and why.

Cal isn't expected to be the strong black girl, who is just there to look after Juliette's needs. Cal's own feelings matter just as much.

We see them both fall in love, and why. Sure there's some lust involved at first, but soon that turns to more.

Even Ben, who in any other show would just be 'the black friend', instead is fully fleshed out, and gets to call out his white best friend when he feels she's done him wrong, and when the white boy he has a crush on mistreats him, he says so and breaks it off.

Often with characters like that, (esp. in fanfic), if a char like that were replaced with a teddy bear, you wouldn't notice the difference

But here, Ben is a full fledged individual, with needs, backstory, a plotline that hopefully will be built on more next season)

Cal's brothers get to have their own personality, the studious gentle but driven and dilligent studious older brother, Theo, and the hot hardheaded and somewhat arrogant jock, Apollo.

Both who get storylines of their own. And whose feelings matter.

In this show it isn't just the Fairmonts who get to be three dimensional characters, the Burns family and their friends are equally explored, and it's sad to see just how refreshing that is. (like seriously, there are far too few shows that are like this, Black Lightning is one of the only other ones I can think of)

#first kill #calliope burns #juliette fairmont #calliope x juliette #teen wolf fandom problems #theo burns #apollo burns #talia burns #teen wolf #scott mccall defense squad

[teacupfullofstars]

Pouring out my writing process and tropes thoughts.

Hands of God, a FNAF movie based AU, is about William Afton making the odd decision of saving a woman's life. As she trains to be a Dr, they become lovers and partners in crime. The story gets its name from the metaphor of their relationship. They are the hands of God, one to take life and one to give. Though they both come to do both of those things.

Writing my FNAF AU is so odd because I have two main characters but no protagonist, really. Obviously, we all know Will's deal he's not a good man. So I matched him with someone who is also not okay. Basically, I usually write a main OC who is quite good, but this time, I'm in new territory with Jane having an insane moral compass. She starts dating Will, knowing he's an active serial killer, eventually marring him. She lies to cover for William's crimes straight up gaslights people for him. She specifically states when she's in med school that she she wants to be a trauma surgeon not to save people but because she's fascinated with how much damage can happen to the human body and it still lives and more importantly how to put it back together. (Due to past trauma more on that later). She eventually straight kills some people to protect Will and their family. If he turns up with blood on him, it turns her on. She's basically the biggest freak I've ever written, and I'm pouring all my impulsive and dirty thoughts into her.

That being said, this is a consensual, age appropriate relationship that does not relish in abuse. Nor is this a Will abusing his family fic I put that out there cause people think that "ruins" Will. But personally, I think loves his family but will destroy anyone else, Will is the best. Jane and William are horrible people, but they adore each other and their children and treat each other will.

Writing is happening, but I have a habit of being slow. Tumblr will be sort of a diary of my WIP until I am able to post.

I suspect my audience will be small, but I really feel like I need to put this story out.

Enjoy the ride, I guess lol.

#Hands of God #fnaf fanfic #fnaf au #fnaf movie #fnaf 2023 #five nights at freddy's #five nights at freddys movie #five nights at freddy's fanfic #five nights at freddy's au #william afton #steve raglan #purple guy #yellow rabbit #fanfic #writing #oc #og #matthew lillard

[monyapolize]

@ post on my dash: personally i love it when mutuals treat tumblr like their own little diary. we are all partaking in appreciation of each others small moments in life without any expectation or obligation. pretty sick

[louisisalarrie]

Hey! I’m the anon who asked how touring works. Thank you for such a great explanation! Really appreciate you taking the time.

I’m a Louis fan…wasn’t previously into 1D (am now!) but I found solo Louis first. Can I ask you what makes you so sure Louis is gay? I’m not challenging this in anyway…I guess I just wanted thoughts from someone who has been around all of this a lot longer. I saw the anon saying they read that Simon knew Louis was gay etc right from the start and you responded (beautifully, I might add) but do you really feel certain he is?

Like I say, I’m newer to all of this. I’m a Louis fan first and foremost and I honestly didn’t know about Larry until I got into Louis so this has blown my mind a little. I know there are various receipts about this and fans feel that Louis is loud at his shows but I’m just not sure!

Looking back at his early, early days when he got onto xfactor he seemed to be playing it ‘straight’ - had a girlfriend, ladding a lot with his mates. There are even reports from his school days saying he treated kids that were out at his school badly - I guess that could be part of him being confused and not accepting how he felt until he met Harry?

I’m so sorry if any of this comes across inappropriately. Your responses are always so great that I wanted to ask you…and thank you x

Hello angel!! Love to see you here and being curious on everything. I’ll pop in my two cents as well, but here are some excellent larry timelines and resources to, well, help with the whole reason we believe in larry.

Now, let’s get down to what I think from being here from the beginning.

I watched louis and Harry fall in love. Even from very early on, it is painfully obvious that they acted very differently around the other boys. The fond eyes at each other, the PDA, the full comfort at acting so domestic and touchy with each other that even I don’t look at and touch my bestie like that, and I’m a very touchy and affectionate person. So, heading down the rabbit hole, I’m gonna give you some really strong gifs for reference, and then tackle the louis notes you made. There are a heap of different larry resources on tumblr, so I won’t go through an insane amount, and just keep this concise.

Re your comment about louis playing it straight, him and Harry were immediately acting like a couple. I’ve had some lad friends, and they certainly don’t look at each other like the above, nor fake make out with each other, bc yikes, that would make you look gay, and why would he want his lads to think that? He was immediately thrown into the public eye, very quickly got a heap of fans, and wasn’t exactly keeping his guard up to make sure he didn’t look gay in front of a global audience. I’m sorry, I’ve just never seen him act like this with anyone except Harry. He jokes around with the other guys, sure, but if you go through those masterposts and videos, it’ll become very clear that he just couldn’t keep himself from Harry. Even during the video diaries and X factor, from the very beginning, he was touching Harry all the bloody time. Regardless if they weren’t blatantly kissing on camera (as advised not to), you can see the affection and how natural it looks. It just kinda happened. I just don’t see him acting like a lad during X factor as you said, and not sure where that idea came from, but I promise you that there’s a lot of proof of him being quite flamboyant and expressing himself in the manner of how many gay men do. That’s not me stereotyping, whatsoever, but the things he said and the way he acted with Harry, don’t line up with straight to me.

Now, I feel like if you’ve come into the Larry/1d world with Solo Louis being your first experience, this can all be super overwhelming and intimidating and very very strange hahaha, because he presents himself quite differently now (but the matching tattoos are still there xx) and you haven’t been here for all the stunts and the beginning of bbg and all that. Also, the Solo Louis fandom holds an overwhelming amount of people who are anti larry and therefore anti larries (including the person who took a poster to louis’ concert that said “larries mass extinction” on it… yikes), so you can often be fed a lot of misinformation. Whereas here in this beautiful community on tumblr, and even on Twitter, I never see any larries going out of their way to send horrible messages to antis. They really love coming into our inboxes though (god knows how many “you should unalive yourself”) messages I’ve received from antis since I’ve been a larrie), and actively telling us we’re trash, so they tend to try to make us look as horrible as possible, including, spreading misinformation about Louis.

Now, I don’t know where the receipts are about young louis treating gay kids horribly, so if you could provide them to me, I’d absolutely be happy to look into them and verify (to the best of my ability) if they’re real or not, but spoiler alert, I very much doubt they have any validity to them. We never knew louis when he was at school, so you’d have to just trust this person who’s saying louis is homophobic (which so many anti louis/anti larry fans do), but also, growing up in a place like Doncaster around that time, I imagine it was extremely taboo to be anything other than a straight laddy lad who played footy and had a gf.

If louis had figured out his sexuality prior to meeting Harry, and knew he was gay or maybe bi or at least curious, I highly doubt he would’ve come out in that space at that time of his life. Growing up gay is harddddd. Teenagers are so mean. And trying to fit in is important when you’re a kid just trying to figure everything out.

Now, not saying that louis did this, but in my experience, I watched a few kids who now have come out as gay pick on others in school who were out. Some of the bullying got really bloody bad, and it was all to just shut out their own feelings, and pushing away any ideas that they were anything but straight. It happens a lot, it’s insecurity, it’s feeling extremely uncomfortable with who you are, peer pressure, and maybe a family who would kick your ass if you came out to them. It’s a very hard thing to navigate.

Him having a gf at the time, Hannah, I explained about in a previous ask from an anon. You can find that on my page under #anon #answered and I think I may have tagged #hannah as well??? I probably did, but I wrote a timeline and big explanation as to what I believe happened there, and provided with proof. So jump in and have a squiz if you’re keen!

Also you didn’t come across as rude at all! You’re curious to know, and I’m here to help. xx let me know if I’ve not answered something or you want further clarification on anything, there’s a lot to cover here and I’m a bit sleepy but never hesitate to hit me up! Thanks babe!

#anon #answered

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⚠️ NOTICE⚠️

My source has come to me with some information, based on the BeLift statement about fan behaviors.

I would love to say that first off, I would like you guys to stop trying to use something that has nothing to do stories, against my works. I've already explained that my page is strictly fanfiction and just for fun and filled by the requests of others. I have already stated that my content does not violate the community guidelines and that if you do not like it, to leave and block me. You have the block button for a reason.

This is where my comment in a reposted blog came back into play saying at least we're not actively acting out these stories. That statement was made because someone went out of their home to harass an idol and make them feel unsafe, or broke a rule and found where they were filming despite the location not being told to the public. It's for the people who are forging passes to go and meet the idols. That means that it's happened so many times to where they're sick of it.

Enhypen has little to no time to themselves unless the directors and managers say they're off for who knows how long and even then it's short lived because they have to work on the next song. They have no time to scout out all of Tumblr for stories and even if they did, they wouldn't be finding that because they wouldn't know where to go. And why look up what you don't wanna see in the first place?

To the hate messages saying 'Enhypen wouldn't want you as their fan.' They would prefer smut stories that they know will NEVER happen, over their "die hard fans" telling others to commit influenced mass genocide by telling them to *OFF* themselves! They wouldn't want someone who makes a comparison between a small fake smut story to a r*pe from a family member.

To those who used the statement against me in hopes to take down my stories. It's not working and you're wasting your time. This means you either didn't read the pages well enough to catch any of the offenses that were made toward the idols, or you did and thought it would be a good idea to add what wasn't there in the first place.

I'm gonna name this clear, I am not a person that watches Kpop groups continuously. I don't watch the diaries and I don't watch the En-o'clocks(sorry if I got it wrong) or anything that shows their lives like that. Niki has been trying to grow up for the longest time and grew into the age of 18 only to find people still treating him like a child. Those Tik Toks aren't a mandatory thing to post and even if they were, I don't think the company would make you do dances that would show off. That's all for now, I hope you guys can reconsider your terrible asks one day.

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