#i might throw up i'm sorry

[explodingcrayon]

reminder as easter approaches to not give rabbits or ducks as gifts

both are animals that require special care (no, not all animals are just different shapes of cats or dogs) and can live up to 10 years if well cared for

they're not toys, they're living creatures that require love, care, special diets, time, and modifications to your home to keep them safe

they are also not creatures that can just be released into the countryside and be expected to survive. They're domestic animals and will not survive. Please don't impulse buy any animal as a gift, but at least have the basic humanity to rehome them or surrender them to a shelter/rescue and not leave them on the side of the road or in a box in a dumpster

Kind of like Christmas time, there's an influx of impulse/gift adoptions around Easter time that are then immediately surrendered or abandoned within a month. Consider finding a local rescue in your area and donating money, supplies, or your time via volunteering to help! Many also run foster programs, or need help with driving the animals in their care to vet appointments and so on.

k PSA over thanks ✌🐇🦆

#txt it #also tbh as someone that was cruelly gifted a rabbit after Oreo died #i did not bond properly with Mallow because I was both so entrenched in grieving Oreo (it was only 1 month after he died) #but i was also driving between states at the time and could only visit her every 2 months #and it both absolutely fucked up her socialization #and tbh!!!! i do not have a strong emotional bond with her!!!!! #it's a super fucked situation that I'm now trapped in for the next 7 YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!! #instead of it being MY choice to get a new pet #what KIND of pet I might want next #or when or from where #that decision was taken from me #i would've loved to have adopted a dog or another rabbit from a local shelter #i see them all the time - litters that are found under cars or in dumpsters bc people just. throw them out. #please do not do that and please do not force that kind of thing on someone else or an animal #if you love animals so much then consider volunteering instead!! :))) #k i'm done for real sorry

[nguyenfinity]

Every time I draw Mamagi it does AoE damage (I am also in the area of effect)

Lighthearted bonus:

#enstars #hiiro amagi #rinne amagi #i don't know if this is a bad time to be amagi-posting given that hiiro's fs2 just dropped but. oh well #also this might be the last thing i draw for a bit because i am in the final stretch of this semester #if you sent in a request. i will get to it and thank you for your patience #anyways i know i'm kinda being like 'haha rinne mama's boy' which like. yeah but also sometimes-- #--sometimes you're an adult in their 20s and like. yeah sure you're technically an adult or whatever but you still feel like a kid yeah? #and sometimes you just maybe want your mom to help you when you're lost or confused or when you need someone to tell you it'll be okay #but you won't get that for whatever reason #sincerely: an adult in their 20s #....can you tell why rinne is like. a vibe to me now #anyways i'm not saying mamagi dying was a necessary evil but if hiiro and rinne had an adult who actually loved them at home they probably- #-wouldn't have left and we wouldn't have the main story #if she was alive today tho she'd be going to their lives sorry i don't make the rules (yes i do) #if she ends up being exactly like the rest of their village in some future lore i'm gonna be so sad. #she'd throw hands with niki's parents #imagine leaving your sons behind because you straight up died (couldn't really do anything about that) #meanwhile your son's boyfriend's parents just. up and left him because they could #also posts with her will be tagged mamagi #if you read all that <3 #mamagi #she'd adopt all the bees and alkaloid too #imagine if they got their singing skills from her #also mamagi 1 rinniki shipper (also does not care it's not legal) #rinniki

[gregoftom]

i’m speechless

#WELL. I MADE IT TO THE SCENE. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY. #tomgreg #succession #i actually am speechless like i had to keep pausing and taking breaths. #WHO SAYS THIS. WHO. UNLESS ITS A LOVE CONFESSION??? IT FEELS LIKE A LOVE CONFESSION. #A SORT OF LAST HURRAH BEFORE HIS LIFE IS OVER???? TOM????????????????? LOOK AT ME #LOOK AT ME. THIS IS??? LIKE. MY LIFE IS OVER SO I MIGHT AS WELL CONFESS I'M IN LOVE WITH YOUR GIANT ASS???? SPEAK UP #screaming crying shitting pissing throwing up shovelling sand into my mouth in the hopes i suffocate on it #and the fighting after. is it. is he. is this how he thinks love has to be??? like. he's used to fighting with shiv so now #he thinks that if he's in love they have to fight?? i have too much to say and talk about i really. ugh. #and when greg says he doesn't want to tom gets upset #like it's a rejection #i honestly hate this so much #COUNTRY BOYYYYYYY I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUEEEGUhgnrgv #AND THEN I DONT WANNA EITHER IT WAS A JOKE!!!!!!!!! yeah. uhuh okay. #ik the nero sporus stuff is wack BUT WHAT HAPPENS AFTER HELLO?????? HELLO. #but ''i'd castrate you and marry you in a heartbeat'' then do it pussy #sorry ik this is a novel in the tags but holy fuck. i gotta sit down seeya

[softquietsteadylove]

there can't be enough thenamesh reunion fics!

may i ask for more?

Gilgamesh yanked the Warrior back by the shoulder. She tried to regain her balance but he slammed his fist against her head, creating a gust strong enough to rattle the ship windows. She went down softly.

"Oi!" The Mind Reader was quick to respond to his fallen comrade. They all had a sense of togetherness that Gilgamesh admitted he found absent within his own team (himself, the Soaring Eternal and their Prime).

Ikaris took advantage of the team's sense of protectiveness. He grasped the Speedster's armour collar with his hand, using her as a shield against the puppeteer. He fired his eyes into the dark haired one's armour, sending him through the wall. Then, the Speedster was nothing but a burden.

Gilgamesh winced as she was thrown headfirst to the ground. Ikaris wasn't stronger than him - he knew that for a fact - but he certainly acted more brutally.

"Come on," he muttered in his accent, dragging the body of the Speedster behind him as he floated over to retrieve the Mind Reader as well.

Gilgamesh stared down at the Warrior Eternal. Her body was also limp, but he could feel the Cosmic Energy thrumming within her veins. He could practically feel the rhythm of her heart, if he let himself imagine it. He didn't know what made them so different, according to Arishem.

"You want a hand with 'er or what?" Ikaris snarled at him, piling both of his catches under his arms to bring back to Ajak at the helm of the ship. He was probably just going to sling her over his shoulder, or worse, drag her.

"Go ahead," Gilgamesh grumbled, kneeling down to her. She was his defeat, and his responsibility. Ikaris floated ahead, even banging the Mind Reader's head against the door frame in his lack of care.

Her face looked so peaceful.

Gilgamesh caught himself trying to move her hair away from her face before sighing. He slipped one hand under her arm and shoulders, and the other under her knees. She folded into his grasp so easily he wasn't sure if she weighed anything at all.

"Gil."

He stared down at her, ready for another fight if she was waking again. But as he drew his arms in, all she did was relax against him--him, the enemy. He couldn't imagine why.

But her head rolled to the side, and her tiara even met the cold, hard shell of his chest plate. And yet she had a little smile on her face, as if there were no place she would rather be. He adjusted her a little before making the trip to the head of the ship as well. He did have the courtesy not to smack her head against the door, at least.

She kept calling him Gil.

No one called him that. He didn't even think of himself like that. His name was Gilgamesh, and he was the Strongest Eternal, sent by Arishem to retrieve rogue Eternals who had been tainted by the Deviants of Earth. He had never met this woman before.

But his heart ached in his chest as he carried her.

He felt conflicted fighting her. He had felt awful knocking her out. And he had felt so protective at the thought of Ikaris laying a single hand on her.

"There he is."

Gilgamesh walked in with the Warrior Eternal in his arms. He held her gently, just briefly looking at the other two piled on the floor like litter.

"Well done," Ajak said, observing the difference in technique between him and Ikaris. She waved her glowing hands.

Gilgamesh stepped back slightly as the woman in his arms floated up out of his embrace and upright. The lines of her energy signature formed around her, creating a golden cage in a sense around her.

"These will hold them until we arrive at the World Forge," Ajak clarified as the three bodies floated to their places around the statue of Arishem.

Ikaris joined Ajak again at the front window, discussing their strategy. Those two seemed close but also at odds, in a weird way. Gilgamesh turned away from them, back to the blonde.

She was beautiful.

He wasn't a traitor just for thinking so. He walked closer, looking up at her floating just off the ground. The signature of her Cosmic Energy was weaker, but he could swear he still felt it calling out to him. It was like they were cut from the same cloth.

He reached up, tucking some hair behind her ear and out of his way. It felt familiar, in a terrifying way. Her eyes didn't even flutter. Not that he wanted her to wake up.

Gilgamesh looked back at his teammates, but they were whispering among themselves. They weren't any more concerned with him than he was about them. And that was just fine. They were a team, not some cobbled together family unit.

He looked up at her again. Thena. That name had been pulsing in his head since he saw her. He wasn't sure how; she was the Warrior Eternal, deadly and traitorous. That was all he knew about her. Except her name. And that she had a sweet sounding laugh. It echoed through memories he didn't have.

He hadn't even realised he was reaching up until his fingertips met her cheek. He didn't know what he was doing. He had no explanation for it to himself, much less to his team, let alone the woman herself. Her skin was soft.

It seemed impossible, but he could have sworn to all the stars in the sky that she leaned into his touch, however much she could. He didn't press his palm to her skin. That felt...wrong--like he had no right. Just looking at her felt like a betrayal of some kind. "Thena."

The Warrior's sandy coloured eyelashes fluttered. Maybe she was stronger than Ajak had assumed. She couldn't open her eyes, but he knew they were green (somehow). "Gil."

That name again. It made his whole body burn, like his chest was on fire. He stood back from the Warrior calling for him--someone. He didn't know who she was calling out to, but it wasn't really him.

"Gilgamesh."

He turned towards his Prime, and his fellow Eternal at the window. It seemed so cold over there. He nodded, walking over silently. Only when he was further away did he realise he had been holding the Warrior Eternal's hand.

"Are you prepared to hand them over?" Ajak asked.

He frowned, "why wouldn't I be?"

Ajak was silent, but Ikaris freely scoffed at him, "y'seem awfully soft on the traitor. There's no need for the gentleman routine with faulty scum."

Gilgamesh clenched his fists at his side, but he forced himself to remember his place. "I'm curious, but I'm not confused about the mission."

"Good," Ajak concluded, ending the conversation for both of them.

Ikaris let out one last laugh at him before floating off again. Did he have to fly everywhere just for the sake of it? He could walk just fine.

Gilgamesh tried not to seem like he was watching keenly as Ikaris walked by the prisoners again. Ikaris also looked up at the Warrior Eternal, and Gilgamesh tried not to yell at his teammate to keep his distance from her.

But Ikaris kept moving, and Gilgamesh wasn't eager to admit that his chest loosened. His eyes left the figure of Thena floating limply. He blinked, finding Ajak staring at him. "What?"

She looked back at the Warrior Eternal and then back to him. "You know her."

He shook his head. "We were briefed on all of them. She was a better fighter than I could have imagined. I think that deserves some respect."

Yes, he had respect for his fellow Fighter. She seemed very much his equal, all agility where he was sturdiness. He wanted her to be treated with respect and honour, just like any good warrior.

He wanted her to be handled so delicately a flower would weep with envy.

"I agree," Ajak sufficed to say. She gave him one last look before leaning closer, "keep your mission in mind, Gilgamesh. Whatever the traitors try to whisper in your ear...remember their deception."

"I will," he assured his team leader before she too departed. He stayed at the window, looking into the vast nothingness where eventually the World Forge would come into view. He looked over his shoulder.

It wouldn't be long until he could ask her why she called him Gil.

#Thenamesh AU #thank you so much love!!! #I hope you don't mind #this is a little bit different from some other reunion fics #but I do think this is what it might be like #if we ever get Eternals content ever again please god please anyone I beg of you #Gilgamesh has no idea why he sees this woman #the enemy #and he loves her #he can feel it in his chest every time he throws a punch #he imagines Ikaris grabbing her and throwing her over his shoulder and it makes him want to scream #he says don't fucking touch her! #I mean I'll carry her you go ahead #Gil carries her so gently #when Ajak lets them out of their bindings #Gil catches her before she can hit the floor #Ikaris is like what the fuck is up with this guy #grabs Druig and Makkari again #also I'm so sorry but he would not be gentle with them #Gilgamesh is like I'll carry her #and Sersi will see this and be like Gil #that's our way out of this mess #if we can talk some sense into any of them it's him #Kingo: not your literal ex-husband? #Sersi: no

[saminthea]

Is it appendicitis or just fibromyalgia and a stomach bug? Guess we'll see in the morning!

#fuck #nothing like a gradual increase in acute abdomen pain over the course of the week #along with diarrhea and nausea and lack of appetite #tmi #probably #my mom's giving me a ride to the ER in the morning #still have a couple irl friends as mutuals here #not right now because I've yet to throw up and I don’t think I have a fever #probably just not going to sleep so I can be sure I'll be awake when it's time to go #spend the rest of the night by the toilet in case I throw up #she's a nurse so she had me do the test where you put pressure on the pain and then release #at first it didn’t feel any worse #and then #it felt A LOT worse #vent #sorry #I've never had surgery before #and as previously mentioned I have fibro #which is probably going to mean a longer recovery time #did you know fibro can get worse when you have other infections in your body? #I'm currently having the worst flare up I've had in months #and it came out of nowhere #god Im not ready to potentially need surgery #I'm hosting a gala in 2 weeks! #a gala that has been in the works for months! #there might be as many as 40 people there #at least I have MaineCare #so I don’t have to worry about my insurance deciding not to cover it #very deliberatly posting this here and not Facebook #just so I don’t needlessly worry friends and family

[iindigoeyed]

A detail I noticed about Feast

Feast (S3E15) is a very important episode for many reasons: it gives us Fu's backstory and origins of the miracle box, it hammers home the element of emotions when creating sentibeings, it restores the Tibetan temple and causes a chain reaction that is relevant later in the series (namely with Su Han), Mayura is there... but I rewatched it recently and I noticed a detail near the end that I believe to be foreshadowing.

At the end of Feast, our heroes defeat the sentimonster by entering it and cataclysm-ing Fu's staff with the amuk in it. Once Ladybug casts her Miraculous Ladybug and returns the world to normal, the Guardian Temple reappears and we can see the news reporting on it:

As the news is reporting on the temple, a few people can be seen watching (or listening). Those would be Gabriel and Nathalie, Tomoe, Alya, and Audrey Bourgeois.

Gabriel and Nathalie makes sense. They are Hawkmoth and Mayura, after all-- and Gabriel used the peacock with Emilie to create Adrien. Tomoe again is understandable, as she is a close ally to Hawkmoth and possibly used the peacock miraculous to create Kagami (which is all but confirmed in canon at this point.) And Alya herself is the catalyst for this episode's events: she brings Marinette to the Louvre where the dormant sentimonster is, shows Marinette her findings about the guardian symbol, and publishes those findings on her Ladyblog which HM & Mayura then discover. She's also a Miraculous holder too.

Now, why is Audrey watching the news? From a meta standpoint there's no need to show her in this scene since she isn't of the same importance that the others are. Hell, Audrey wasn't even in this episode before then. Even if her daughter is a Miraculous holder, Audrey has no reason to be interested in the Temple...

...unless, of course, she has some connection to the Miraculous.

As an aside... I'm not sure exactly what this means. If Audrey used the peacock to create Chloe like many believe, surely Audrey or Andre would've fallen ill like predecessors Emilie and Colt did. You could argue that she used the peacock miraculous to create Zoe as we've never seen Zoe's dad and aren't sure he's even alive, but considering this was in season 3 before Zoe was even introduced to us I have my doubts to believe this was the intent. Or maybe there's some unseen third option that I don't know about.

Regardless, this seems like pretty obvious foreshadowing to me. Even if this ends up going nowhere it's interesting to recontextualize it knowing everything that we know now. I don't think we've seen the last of Chloe or of her family quite yet (even if the writers want us to think we have.)

#as always sorry if someone's pointed this out before. but i didn't see anyone talking about it! #granted it's a really fucking old episode and i'm New In Town #miraculous #chloe bourgeois #indiposts #inditheories #Though to be honest it wouldn't surprise me if they've given up on the whole sentibeing-chloe thing. #TBH i dont think they know what theyre doing with chloe or any of the bourgeouis-es... #it seems like they tossed zoe in there to make up for how unlikeable chloe is #and so they dont have to properly give chloe an arc #because if they did give chloe an arc ppl who dont like her would be mad #and if they DIDNT then ppl who DO like her would be mad. #it's a lose-lose scenario especially since thomas himself hates her. #So things might have changed since feast was released #and chances are this background detail is going no where. #but i thought it was a fun observation to throw out in case they end up using it. #Some other notes: I hesitate to think that there are MORE sentibeings that we dont know about. #I dont think Gabriel seems like the type to toss out his miraculous all willy-nilly. #Him lending it to Colt seemed like a one-off thing #and him lending it to Tomoe seems like an even bigger stretch but not totally implausible esp considering the circumstances #The fact that they found the peacock exactly where it was left (that is to say exactly where Fu left it) #makes me think they are the only ppl who know about it #So while i've seen other ppl say that everyone at the Diamond Dance couldve been a sentibeing #I just don't see it happening. Sorry! #And that's why I don't even really know about Zoe. #But what I find interesting is the age gap between Zoe and Chloe. #Surely they must be close in age since they're in the same grade right? #And if that's the case... how did Audrey get pregnant so close together? #Might be another reason to believe one of them is a sentibeing... or adopted LOL. #Anyway i'm done! Lmk if you remember anything important! ciao

[bravevolunteer]

okay. real question for the night crowd

#SORRY. S. #bc reading tse is one thing. but if i continue i simply have to read the whole damn trilogy #very much not helping that the silver eyes wasn't even BAD like i thought it might be it was actually a fun read #however i know this is where it starts to get batshit crazy... I'm Curious #I Wanna Know What That Slimy Motherfucker Is Up To #also i just enjoy knowing weird other timeline tidbits that i can drop unprompted. it's fun. makes me feel like a chaos agent. #i like reading extra fnaf content not bc i apply it to Anything but bc i want to see what #fucked up throwing them around like barbie dolls scenario is going on in THIS one #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[arcadequeerz]

I just do not give a single shit about lg-bt-q disc-ourse anymore.

#Cade.Txts #sorry i jsut do not care. #i dont give a fuck about what flag someone does or doesn't use #i dont care about what people call themselves. stop trying to decide shit for othrr people #shut up and fuck off n leave people alone. u dont havr to 'understand' to be respectful #Idc if people use the blue 'gay' flag who cares. use whatever flag u want. #shut the fuck up about mspec gay people we're doing nothing wrong n if i have someone try n start #some shit w me about how i personally identify i will maul them through the god damn internet. shut up. #eat shit. i dont owe a explanation to u about why i'm abro ply gay n if u demand me to explain #im going to tell you to fuck off. #who the fuck cares what people call themselves. u might not like being called queer or whatever n thats cool #but some people do and thats nit a fucking slight aganst u. #and i say 'you' as just in general i guess. this isn't pointed at a specific person. #i dread pride month every year because people r going to throw some shitfit about something snd i jsut #i dont care. can we care about shit that fucking matters instead. #if u legimately call urself a exclusionist in 2023 your a shitstain and do nothing for the community. #grow the fuck up or get the fuck off the internet. #sorry i saw shit n i got mad lol. i'm so tired of peoples bullshit. worry about shit tht matters n not #how someone else identifies or what someone calls themselves- or what flag someone uses. #i'm just going to be unabashedly full of rage now. #i'm queer n trans n im pissed the end.

[feluka]

i'm so fucking devastated about the City of the Dead

#might be strange to say this about a necropolis but it's always given me comfort since i was a kid #i passed by it every day on my way to school and it was so beautiful and serene. no better place for the dead to rest #i don't see it as often now but every time i do i just want to throw up!! #in our university we have a professor whose job is to assess whether old structures are stable or whether they need to be demolished #and he HEAVILY protested all the demolishion in Old Cairo and said it's entirely unnecessary #and in the end he had to resign. i'm so sorry for him and for the dead people buried there and their families.

[cxpperhead]

Due to his serpent physiology, Copperhead has an exceptionally keen sense of smell. He's able to detect even subtle changes in the air using his tongue, making it a tough endeavour to get the drop on him. This can be as much of a boon as it is a hindrance however - Gotham doesn't have the most pleasant smells, especially the sewers and having such a powerful sense of taste can be awkward depending on how good his relationship with certain people are.

#🐍 || musings #🐍 || headcanons #I'm sorry to throw this out onto the dashboard asdfgghjkl #Trying to wake up a little before I need to to go to bed but this day off was so nice #Got some stuff done and a little writing too which is nice #This headcanon though hear me out #Copperhead can detect a LOT #People getting closer and even their current state like whether or not they're healthy or sick #Might not be as good as Croc's but it's up there #Would save this for sinday but if you're ovulating he can smell that too 💀 #Sensitive to hormonal cues #OKAY gonna throw myself into the bin for that tag comment #I'm just feeling so good lately but so little time to actually write :')

[south-sea]

i’m just saying if mecha gets to cry then so should metal

#boy’s been through too goddamn much #look me in the eye and tell me he doesn’t have a reason to be emotional #throw a dart at any of his game/comic arcs and you’ll find something upsetting #nothing like languishing for ages all alone in literal pieces and getting the equivalent of his heart restarted on little planet #just for him to have to make the trip back on his own with busted up systems and a jet that isn’t even functioning correctly anymore #he might be eggman's favourite but eggman is still eggman #who has revoked his voice chip multiple times #which is extremely fucked up when you think about it #sea talks #i'm still so normal about this i'm sorry #i could go on but then i'll just never shut up #metal sonic #mecha sonic #sonic the hedgehog

[chaddicus]

see the longer I play with my understanding of my transmasc experience and dysphoria, the more I grapple with the conflict between mocking fragile masculinity for refusing to allow the use of 'feminine' things vs knowing more and more keenly how much dysphoria I would and do get whenever someone associates something I do or use or wear with femininity. and no amount of people insisting that using "feminine" things doesn't invalidate someone's gender, man or otherwise, seems to have any impact on that dysphoria

we do need to untangle cultural perceptions of masculine vs feminine and respect for a person's gender, manhood in particular in this discussion, but I almost feel like knowing that means it's my responsibility to refuse to engage with those ideas for my own gender — and the problem is that knowing this is not the common understanding means knowing that other people *will* associate my use of feminine things as some sort of contradiction with any masculinity I may wish to express or identify with, and no amount of understanding the concepts and holding the principles can erase the revulsion and pain and fear I feel at the thought of people associating me with some concept of womanhood that I adamantly *do not experience or identify with.* fuck.

#I don't think I can be free of the trappings of fragile masculinity #until such a time that flouting them *won't* directly result in my transmasc identity & experience being disrespected #and especially as I cannot medically transition the way I want to #my expression and presentation is the *only* way to give people any impression of masculinity about me #and so choosing to incorporate things consider unmasculine into those just. fucks me up I guess #all this brought about bc I've decided I want some sort of bag to carry a notebook +pencils etc around in #but I am not willing to carry a purse. and so the thought occurred to me to look up masculine messenger bags or something #immediately triggering a mocking thought about fragile masculinity #followed by. all of this. #this sucks. I hate it here. #can we fix masculinity so I don't have to be afraid of people misgendering me more for carrying a purse or something #tbh making it alt has allowed me to feel comfortable with stuff like makeup & jewelry bc alt fashion is often tied to gender nonconformity #but for the life of me I can't figure out how to make a purse definitively alt. so I want to look up stupid masculine bags #the thing is I don't *want* a huge backpack! a mid-sized purse type would suit the practical need! #I just will throw up if people see me carrying a purse and form any sort of association with nonmasculinity because of it!! fuck!!! #x: axel talks #I'm sorry y'all I just keep having more and more feelings about this and I have no fucking clue where else to go with it #well I guess I have my queer support group this week actually that might be the perfect place for it #I just. need to excise it sooner than that. I will burst if I have to suppress it much longer

[fazcinatingblog]

Wait since when does James wear a glove

#James aish #beautiful boy #Carlton were mean to you Jimmy #i want to say he's copying Nat but no it was an elbow sleeve that Nat wore #nat drives James' car and finds a glove in the glove compartment and thinks he's having an affair with Travis Cloke #'jim when did you join Collingwood?' #'oh ah would've been around 2016' *nat does the maths* 'so you knew Travis cloke!' #'um yeah Nat everyone knows Travis Cloke he's---' 'a well respected member of the gay community?????' #nat starts fuming and worries he's losing his boyfriend to Travis cloke #'what does that big oaf have that i don't????' nat fumes #james comes home and there's several horses and donkeys in the kitchen #'nat??? did you leave the back door open again?' James calls out warily looking at the animals in his kitchen #nat comes running in to the kitchen 'oh i forgot to stir the soup' and #'babe there's donkeys in here' James says slowly and Nat flashes a grin 'yeah aren't they great we're having pumpkin soup your favourite' #'i haven't had pumpkin soup since Brisbane days when i was depressed eating cup a soups-- wait did you find my pocket profile from 2014???' #nat blushes and quickly throws a tea towels over his scrapbook of James Aish mementos #James starts leading the donkeys out of the kitchen and Nat's like 'wait Jim i thought you were into this thing' #'no definitely not' James retorts and takes the animals outside #he comes back and Nat's like 'babe i can't pack mark between three opponents any more I'm sorry' #James blinking confusedly 'i don't want you to do that you might get hurt' #'but...' nat says frowning 'what is it about Travis that you're into I've been racking my brain all day---' #'Travis?????' James said 'you mean coyler that tea drinking weasel who---' #Nat quickly pushes his cup of jasmine tea across the bench #'no babe i love you and your tea drinking i didn't mean it's just that Colyer-- he microwaves his tea' #'oh okay' Nat said 'yeah totally ok now back to Travis Cloke' #'Travis Cloke?????' james cries 'i haven't thought about him since i found that guernsey in your wardrobe signed by David---' #'i grew up a tigs fan Jim' #'oh phew i thought you were cheating on me with David' #'is that why you tried to grow a moustache that week?'

[buffyspeak]

the lightwood siblings are literally like. "what if three siblings who genuinely love and would die for each other lash out with the cruelest thing they can think to say when hurt because none of them ever learned proper emotional regulation or communication skills" and that's SO real of them. tbh.

(notably they're all pretty good at/about apologizing when it's called for)

#sorry to exclude max from this but the show did it first #he is simply not around enough to be part of this dynamic #shadowhunters #the lightwood siblings #the lightwoods #do you ever think about how valentine sent jace to MARYSE. TO MARYSE!!! #his second in command his most efficient recruiter who believed in him who left the cause as soon as it became clear they would lose #bc she is first and foremost a Survivor #because he said he sent jace to people he knew would take care of him #screaming crying throwing up. actually #bc that led jace to his siblings!!!!! #like valentine sucks obvi but. wowza there is a lot to unpack there #people might disagree about izzy #but i am thinking about “i'm not your baby sister anymore alec i don't need you to protect me” or something along those lines #and hears the thing #maybe that doesn't SOUND cruel #but she's taling to alec #who knows really well and is a big brother who needs to be needed through and through #she said the cruelest thing to not just anyone BUT TO /HIM SPECIFICALLY/ bc that's how well she knows him #anyway. this is not a hate post. legitimatley i'm so obsessed with all of them

[skaruresonic]

how to explain that I feel paranoid that a longtime mutual unfollowed and may have vagued about me but I can't know for sure, without coming across as though I have Le Victim Complex, because there is a history of mutuals doing that

also how to explain that I've been feeling worthless recently, and trying to grapple with the fact that people seem to think every post I make is me trying to start shit when I'm not

also how to explain that even though I don't want to be angry, I've been suffering some pretty bad mood swings lately and inclined to isolate because of it

#I mean. I never wanted to mince words before but I'm starting to think maybe I should try #or just post less I suppose. that might improve the mood in the space #idk #I feel kinda bad for not wishing people happy holidays but I honestly wasn't up for it #due to an entire night of throwing up so bad I wanted to die #and... mom stuff #and just... all this mental health fuckery #if the mutual is vagueing about me then I'm sorry #I probably do need therapy but I can't afford it #I'm just trying to get through the day as best I can #but if I'm like. harming people with my words then I probably need to isolate so as to reduce the harm

[david-watts]

I feel guilty for harbouring these feelings because it's been at minimum five years but man. all of the shit I got for never taking opportunities in hs/college when I never could take the opportunities and when I had them they would be yanked away from me the second I tried to grasp them. is it any wonder I've done nothing since leaving? the closest to following anything I want to do with my life was last year. everyone else seemed to get the opportunities they needed or wanted but not me. I think it was separate from the eventual treatment I got when the school realised I was dangerous to them but fuck man it still hurts that when I got accidentally placed into a class that I discovered I wanted to do five minutes in the teacher realised what had happened and said 'you're not suited to this type of class I'll move you into something you're more suited to' but someone else who also wasn't suited to that class got to do it anyway a year or two before. I wasn't allowed to move away for uni to do a course I wanted to do (which was at the time a backup plan) because not only did my m*ther keep telling me I wasn't good enough to do but. she had to be able to move in with me and that wasn't an option. and I still get told 'well maybe you should've done more in hs' like fucking what

#sorry I think the stuff happening nearby which I think even was at said school triggered me #plus I. I actually really hurt because of how much I threw up yesterday. #but man. it's been four years. I was supposed to have it all sorted out by now #and now it's just. I'm waiting for the times when it's safe. it's so rarely safe now. #safe for what you might ask? literally anything. cooking. throwing away rubbish. watching fucking television. cleaning my room. #at this point I might as well off myself because I'm never going to be able to do what I want to. what I'm fairly certain I'm supposed to d #I predicted this would happen. I knew this would fucking happen