#i miss the times of real connections

[lostintime-liketearsinrain]

It's a shit feeling when you realise that someone meant more to me then I meant to them but I guess that's how connections work in this generation. Oh well 💔

#i miss the times of real connections #late night chats #love notes #those connections that just made life a bit softer #guess I'm just not made for this kind of world #it is what it is #personal #(I'm rambling so ignore this post)

[bonefall]

As a big sibling with a lil sib with epilepsy, when they read TBC they Honestly thought if they got struck with lightning reciting the lord's prayer they'd be cured like Shadowsight is from their epilepsy. I had a discussion with them on how that's not how it works, but ge was so upset they took it away from Shadowsight that he hasn't picked the books back up and has stated that 'he hopes Ashfur wins and starts a new religion.,'

I do not even know how to respond to this besides saying that your little sibling is 100% right to be pissed and I now also hope Ashfur wins and starts a new religion.

#Legit I did not know that Shadow's epilepsy being taken away was so deeply upsetting to SO MANY people #I put it back because putting it back was just the right thing to do (even asked the small following I had at the time what type to portray #(they picked the full tonic-clonics. I would have just done localized or absence if they'd asked me to) #And I did all that research for one single anon who asked for an epilepsy herb guide #So holy cow I didn't know that SO MANY people were snubbed and upset by canon's choice to do that. I'm so sorry #Your little sib isn't missing anything btw they do just go on to confirm that Shadow no longer has seizures. #In book 4 of TBC they say that it was all Ash all along and that's what they've stuck with into ASC #I'm sitting on an essay about... That plot thread. The Ashfur Grooming one #But it's in my drafts because I was a bit afraid of controversy #because i think it was written poorly. Even on top of Book 4's pivot to retcon away Shadow's seizures #I know a lot of people like and are invested in the grooming subplot of TBC. But. I think it was executed AWFULLY #and its really telling that THIS is the plot they tout as grooming *by name* in-canon.-- #--and that Shadow has to 'pay' for what he 'did' in some way as if there was ever a choice in the books they wrote-- #--But seemingly didn't even seem to clock that what was happening in Spotted's H was grooming until there was intense backlash #and a big part of my contention is the way that Book 4 suddenly tries to retcon that Shadow was groomed from the time he was a child #when it was actually part of book 1 that Shadow was able to personally tell the difference between a real vision and Ash's suggestions-- #--BECAUSE he didn't have an accompanying seizure #So like... just know it's also NOT just 'you' if you connected to the character that was epileptic. It WAS there. It was a BIG part of him #Book 4 retconned it so that his epilepsy was part of a long scheme when before that point it was part of him #''ohh ur destiny is to see into the shadows'' BULL SHIT!! #bone babble

[bareums]

Jung Hae In as Ha Dong Soo || CONNECT (2022)

#connect #asiandramasource #kdramaedit #kdramadaily #gore #body horror #userhannah #syaring #roserayne #userko #usergooseras #jung hae in #my gifs #bareums #gonna be real... character of all time. #i rlly liked connect.. i miss him..

[vounoura]

the maister system and the new 'find vocations out in the world' system is...ok, but I prefer the old colour system

#saint plays dd2 #like coming in as someone who knows nothing abt how DD:O worked DD2's vocation system feels like a major step back #95% of the augments are useless and aren't worth using so there's no real build variety anymore #nor is there any real weight to choosing what to run in terms of combat effectiveness and QoL stuff like carry weight anymore #bc there's only like 5-8 augments worth taking bc the stat bonus are insultingly low for the effort of leveling the vocation #and the colours feel arbitrary bc it's not a tree system anymore. thief is green bc it's green and there's no hybrid green #whereas in DD1 every base vocation had a hybrid colour mix and it made logical sense #strider (yellow) and mage (blue) became a magick archer. strider and fighter (red) doubled down on the melee and became assassin. #while keeping the bow as a sidearm. #pure red became warrior and dumped the shield for 2h colossal but slow attacks. pure blue sacrificed utility for highest tier damage spells #and so on. it just felt so much more intuitive and felt like actual growth when you could 'upgrade' to a hybrid vocation bc #you actually needed to have X number of ranks in both colours before you could take it whereas in 2 they're all just standalone classes #and the meister skill systems are....ok. I don't know how I feel abt all of them being connected to optional sidequests you can fuck up #or straight up just miss bc this game still has the weird design flaw of having points of no return where quests autofail #also like I feel to get the meister skill either you or your pawn should actually have like. maxed the vocation out. #like it feels weird when I get magick archer and then immediately unlock the meister skill at the same time #when I haven't even bought the vocation yet.

[chirpsythismorning]

☎️🎲 🤼‍♂️ ✈️🚪 ➡️ 🫀🎮⌛️

Slipping Through My Fingers by ABBA

previous ⏮️ now playing ⏭️ next back to playlist

#platonic elmike #stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #mike wheeler #mike's pov #mike is still a hard nut to crack for me... #this scene in particular i'm still not certain about #i do think it was riddled with his very consistent tactic of stalling #but he's also of course relieved to hear el say she missed him #perhaps this is him thinking "oh thank god she doesn't hate me' #while also having to accept in real time that will was perhaps right that el still needs him... but is he up for the task of el's bf?... #and so he's sort of trying to work out how he can finally just do this to do right by el #which comes with the fear that he is indeed going to lose her when it all comes crashing down inevitably like it already has and is #either way i think he's contending with the fact that losing el may be inevitable #that's why he's having such a hard time lying to her in the first place #bc he knows lies lead to the truth eventually being revealed #and so he just feels her slipping through his fingers no matter what he does #he imagined this future with her (and will) where they stayed connected to each other no matter what #but mike's scared that future won't be possible once all is revealved #i think will's whole speech in the van has mike even more conflicted #bc his feelings for will are very strong at this point #and so even if he believes that this is truly how el feels as of now... #he also probably knows deep deep down that he wishes (still hopes) it was will's feelings #which makes going through with this even harder #not to mention all the parallels between mike and hopper ('not hopper...not mike... you!') #these two male figures in el's life who rescued her from a horrible situation are having a hard time coming to terms with her growing up #like yes she's growing and 'slipping through your fingers' but that's okay! #you don't have to lose her forever just because she doesn't have to rely on you anymore! #4x09 #gif

[infiniteseriesofhalfways]

Hey, I know the fandom's long gone now and you're not on here as much, but I just wanted to tell you I'm really glad I got to meet you through AH. Your writing for fahc stuff always made me smile and I still have a bunch of it saved in my drafts cause I used to go back and re-read it so much, every so often I think about the think about the writing prompt you did once for Michael, Gavin and Jeremy with "the happiest we ever were" and it makes me feel some sort of way I can't even describe. Anyway, you're really cool and an amazing writer and I'm very lucky I got to share a fandom space with you <3

First, thank you so much, this is incredibly sweet (and flattering) and although I know it might be lame to say back at you, I mean... back at you. I'm pretty sure I'm the lucky one here, because I'm just some guy who wrote some words one time, and yet it introduced me to some of the best people I've known, yourself included.

I think back on that time so often, and I'm always wishing to go back to it, to not have let myself lose it. It was so much fun and it brought me so much joy I can't even begin to put it into words.

I could go on and on about how much the fandom means to me, but suffice it to say I am forever grateful to have shared the space with you, and you're in my heart always 💚💚

#this is less sappy but as I'm typing this 'stressed out' by 21 pilots is on and it's like... #'wish we could turn back time/ to the good old days' yeah man I feel that. #also in case anyone wondered #yes I am still as awkward as I've ever been. #for real though I think about this stuff...constantly. I miss having that connection. #and whenever I write stuff that's like... tangentially related/inspired by the fahc writing we all did #I want so badly to have someone to share it with like I did then #apologies that this became me rambling but some things never change you know?

[countryfriedcatboy]

ceret was the character ever honestly my blorbo literally decked a dictator for talking shit like. i am proud she was the backbone of my tumblr career

#will never be as non normal about her actualy like any other character will never compare #i think it was partially because of like the constant content and having such an active fanbase #and like everybody bascially hyperfixating over the same thing #and id gotten really comfortable in the space and had so many friends and shit like man #i kinda miss it n shit cus i dont feel like i connect with the series anymore with how it ended for me #like it was real suddenly for me and shit and like #mostly just been switching hyperfixations and like #idk scared to get into another fandomspace full-time tbh #that turned into a vent i didnt mean for that rbhf #phase weeps

[thekidsare-not-alright]

bands that should be in the new emo trinity (replacing fob and patd)

^pov you just read a stupid fucking post

#emo trinity #fall out boy #Fob #Patd #Mcr #Seriously shut the fuck up and move on #1. It is not about music they make now. It is CULTURAL and HISTORICAL. #2. Emo is not one look alone. Emo is extremely emotional. Not “wears black” and “obsesses over death” #3. You CANNOT FUCKING SAY PARAMORE SHOULD BE IN IT AND NOT FOB. WHEN THEYRE SO GODDMAN SIMILAR #they are SIBLINGS stoP iT #4. Literally move on this is so silly pls stopspsipyops #5. The Emo Trinity does not serve as a title for the “most emo & most popular bands in this one genre.” It is three bands being connected- #together by similar fanbases and other connections. They were also relevant and tied together by TIME PERIOD. #Aka green day predates them so much that you best shut your fucking mouth oh my god #*looks at blink182 green day and sum 41 being their own lil trio* yeah totally works mhm #the truth of the matter is. these genres all overlap so much and the criteria you're trying to fill are not real. That's not what the emo #Trinity was. You're missing the point #I needa close tumblr bye #lmao

[valla]

love how the sentence "marth and edelgard are married" isn't an entirely wrong one

#bc their VAs are married 😭😭 #mr and miss fire emblem #also i giggle every time i remember mrs fire emblem (caeda)'s va is also rhea's #EDELGARD GET UP #im still holding onto miss leigh saying her favorite fe characters are marth /AND/ EDELGARD #and her explanation is that she tends to like characters who have an emotional connection to the characters she voices #aND THAT'S ON WHAT! PERIODDDDD she gets it for real oh she gets me my rheagard CRUMBS... #you'll have to pry that fact out of my cold dead hands #shut up val

[shower-phantom-ideas]

If I never post here again after the 27th just know I died this is middle of the woods back waters air bnb

#like no for real this is weird old lady house but also ewww #who ever is clearly trying to take cheap routes to update the house and it shows #it’s on stilts #water heater is behind a curtain in the other bedroom #the tub has jets though soooo it moght be a keeper idk I feel so unsafe #nothing like it’s photos #they did such a good job hiding the truth in yhose #this house is gonna keep my soul I just know it #water gets hot btw (yes I just got here and instantly am testing shower) #no water pressure though but idc about that stuff #btw update on the trip for everyone who does care #I missed my flight and almost missed my second flights connection cause they decided to stop boarding at the normal boarding time #stupid dallas #tbh their airport was so nice though #oh im in texas but flew to shreveport cause it’s closer to where kn staying #I have zero moneyz #my credit card is maxed out #im super trying to not stress but I think im like gone to it #I can’t even tell if im awake or if this whole trip is a dream #nothing feels real and im numb #this has been a big stress on me #see this is why you should t read my tagz cause I vent in them #cause I don’t think im doing ok at all

[krispiecake]

i will never forget u two <3

#tumblr wont let me reply to anyone on my posts but i wanna say thank you to the people who replied to it #skylo (the smaller one) passed away in 2021 and putting lupus down on monday is just so hard #like these are my BABIES you know they were my first real childhood pets #skylo was 13 when she passed and lupus is 15! they got so old especially for dalmations snd they had wonderful lives #they were so sweet and so caring with all my siblings as they grew from babies to toddlers to now #ive got these pictures of my youngest sister just hanging off both of their necks and climbing them #and they were always so wonderful with them #one of my sisters played connect the dots of my lupus once and it took AGES to get all the pen off him #skylo once knocked a fence panel out with her forehead because she ran so fast for a pigeon and didnt stop in time #they were each other’s best friends #and skylo would always sprawl out and take all the space so lupus had to curl up in a little ball #i remember when this started getting bad for me and i would stay home from school #when i got the house to myself or really late at night when i couldnt sleep i would let the dogs up on the sofa #even though they were never allowed on there #and i would sit in the middle witb each on one side both their heads on my lap #or i would lay on the sofa in an s shape and one would sit behind my legs and one would sit in front of my chest #god im gonna miss them both so fucking much like i grew up with these dogs #losing skylo was so hard #im gonna cry so so much #but we’re gonna take him on a walk in the woods or in the river #and we’re gonna get him pigs ears because those are his favourite treat #and im gonna sit with him all day when i go back home on sunday #and hes gonna know he is so loved and treasured just like skylo knew

[ironmanstan]

Omg i am remembering why i fucking hate english classes ^__^

#i cant read i have actual for real problems my god #im like /srs about this like when i read things i have to reread anything longer than a sentence like 3 times at least #bc the words all mix up and the word orders just do not connect in my head and i can read them i know the words audibly #but they dont make sense at all #and its like the same thing reading numbers does to me #and in books i used to just reread constantly or just skip words like actively reading every other word in a book #and well me when i get a 60% in english and i go check how bc i understood the lesson??? it was so easy #and then i read the problems i got wrong and its like oh. its all bc i mixed up. the words. and clicked the wrong ones. #like im looking through and its like haha. fuck. great great great i am soo fine i literally know the answers to these but i get them wrong #bc i cant fucking read. so cool so cool ooooufhhjg my god #i dont havw time to care about this i have portfolio in a week baby aha i will scream #this is worth 10% of my grade wowwwww cool ill die now #i got a 97 before this . i love everything hahhah #the gamer speaks uwu #sorry guys i am built to write papers and thats it #IM SO MAD IM SO MAD ITS SUCH EASY BULLSHIT I ANSWER ALL THE QUESTIOJS ABOUT FORMATTING AND MLA AND SHIT CORRECTLY #AND I MISS THE ONES W THE ACTUAL EXAMPLES BC I GET MIXED UP ON ALL THE NAMES AND THERES SO MANY OPTIONS WITH ONLY ONE WORD CHANGED #AND I CANT FUCIFUING READ IT !!!! I ANSWER EVERYTHING THAT MATTERS RIGHT AND I LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT GETTING THE STUPID EASY SHIT WRONG #COOL #GREAT #my fucuging god #vent #i guess. i love school i love school #i get a bad grade one time and die ab it

[cuteniaarts]

Someone to protect / Someone failed to save

(Alternatively: The “P’Li saw her late sister in her niece” to “Midori is Lien-Hua’s reincarnation” pipeline)

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #original characters #sotrl midori #laf lien-hua #I missed when we decided that yeah this is canon but you know what I’m here for it #it’s about the tragic sibling pairs and history repeating itself and missed second chances #it’s about the irony of fate and the cycle of violence #it’s about Kat and Nia completely losing it with the self indulgence let’s be real here #anyway lore rant time: #the way reincarnation works in the avatar world is vague #like.. the avatar is the only confirmed person who can be reborn #but raava tells wan that they’ll be together in all his lifetimes like reincarnation is normal #and there’s that scrapped concept of momo being gyatso’s reincarnation so… safe to say it happens to everyone #and here are some of my headcanons about it: #normal humans can’t contact their past lives like avatars. you can get glimpses or strange dreams but that’s it #most people never find out what their past lives were like. usually only the most spiritual can connect with the universe or w/e #and get a fuller picture #but if you happen to spend a lot of time around places or people that you knew in your past life #like. say. if your past life’s older sister was now your surrogate auntie #then you’re more likely to get flashbacks #children are more susceptible to it but it happens to adults too #especially if you visit the place or get to know the person again after a long time. like. for example. sixteen years #and if your auntie actively sees her sister in you to the point of sometimes mixing up your names #the glimpses confuse Midori. a woman with golden eyes and a covered forehead who she feels so loved and cared by #a girl who looks scarily like her auntie but younger. more innocent. with no tattoo #a dark damp cold cell somewhere underground that fills her with nothing but dread and fear #she puts it together after a while and wishes she never did. she keeps it a secret. if she tells then no one will ever see her as her again #they will only see auntie’s unfortunate little sister who none of them knew… I’d talk more but there’s a tag limit so I’ll leave it here :/

[are-we-really-doing-this]

Y’all would not fucking believe the day I have had.

#haven’t gotten real hard sleep in a couple days #traveling is all fun and games until your flight gets cancelled at 2 am and you have to stay in the airport for hours until the next flight #and it gets even better when said flight involves two connections that put you where you’re supposed to go at 5 o’clock the next afternoon #lemme tell you I had plenty of time to catch up on some artist’s catalogs and organize my IWTV watchlist #OH AND DON’T FORGET the bag they lost because of course it’s lost and not eating at the airport because I’m too tired to feel hungry #did I mention they moved my gate to the absolute fucking farthest possible one? #I looked like goddamn Leonardo DeCaprio in the Revenant trekking over there at 3 am #nothing quite like bugging your eyes out of your skull for fear of falling asleep and missing your flight #all ​while some bald tatted up dude stares at you and a guy asleep on the floor snores like the busted engine that cancelled my flight

[muirneach]

one thing i love to do is read meme/confession pages of schools i do not attend. i’ll be months deep in an instagram account for some school in a whole other country

#im nosy! i love gossip! #i follow one for uoft but i feel like that’s different cause even tho i dont go there i still know the campus/culture/etc #cause its still like. in my city. im on that campus all the time always passing by whatever buildings #my school doesnt have one and im so sad about that #well we used to! n then it just kinda died #we had a slew of confession pages last year but they kept getting deleted #but honestly they were all just harassing this one girl who was also my coworker lol and she was real nice so i stopped following them #i think they died off eventually #anyways yeah i miss school meme accounts cause i dont have any friends or emotional connection or anything to this school #so it makes me feel like im still a part of it #anyways yeah baby having a wonderful time rn on this random one i found #edit well also i need to apply to post secondaries n meme pages r a good way to get the vibes #edit 2 nooo my current ideal school’s confession page is privateeeee sad!!

[kumashire]

I try to be Good and Strong and Independent Etc. and mind my business and stay in my lane and focus on improving myself and stay busy with my Independent hobbies but I don't think anyone likes to feel unloved and annoying all the time. I think that would start to wear on anyone a bit

#i fear that as i get older i will only get lonelier #that is just the inevitable fate of all adults regardless of how many friends they have or their relationship status #and i fear #i fear that people dont actually care to know me #that nobody cares to know anybody #we're all just afraid of being alone #and i think this whole time ever since i was old enough to realize i needed to give up on the idea of family ive still been holding on #like i thought maybe if i gave them some space for a while a decade or so theyd realize they missed me #and they want to know me #and theyd want to be my family for real this time #but my feeble attempts to be anything to them are only making me feel more and more pathetic each time #i am very tired and i wish always these days i did not crave human connection #i wish i didnt want it #i wonder if this ever goes away #maybe i will check in again about this when i am 35