#i really blew my back out by

[trashpocket]

I run away from everything that's good for me When every voice that you hear is the same one All you can think to do is run Make no mistake I'm everything I say I hate Hypocritical, lost individual, no longer worth your faith - my grave is mine to dig (wage war) art for my monster hunter steddie fic “My Grave is Mine to Dig”, where new mysterious neighbor Steve Harrington moves next door to Eddie Munson, hailing from that strange town, Hawkins, acting like he has something to hide. 

Maybe he does.

#steddie #steve x eddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #steddie fic #steve is the monster hunter in this fic #who does not want to get eddie involved #but then they fall in love #and things get complicated #i really blew my back out by #writing 21k words for the #first chapter though #yall can gave fun with that #this is an AU where monsters from fairy tales and folklore come to life #and there's a lot of #best friendship and love #going on

[lipt-97]

came back just to post these. okay bye

#gbf #belifaa #did you get triple zero (summon)? the sanfaa scissoring summon? SSS? i sierotixed it. It was awesome. Everythung in gbf is going right for #e except for the fact that i had to sieroticket it but its alright. just the notion of so much lucilius is just enough to put me back on my #feet again it’s almsot unreal how much lucilius-centric stuff theyve pushed out the past few months. his GBVSR debut. his summon. #Omg when I saw the gbfes fashion show i was a few seconds behind zen and she told me “You wont believe this” and I was like “WHAT? BELIEVE #WHAT? WHAT? WHAYT DO YOU MEAN” and the official lucilius cosplayer walked out in his robes it felt unreal unreal like it was seeing my onl #dreams come true after years and years of being like Theres no way they’d do that. There’s no way they’d make a cosplay for lucilius in his #robes because hes in his void outfit forever. BUT THEY DID…..AND THERE WAS BLOOD UNDER HIS SKIN….AND HIS LIPS WERE GLOSSED…AND HE HAD A LIT #LE BIT OF TAREME AND TSURIME (TARIME) ACTION ON HIS EYES AND EVERYTIME HE WALKED HIS ROBES KIND OF FLUTTERED AS HE SHUFFLED ALONG I HAD TO #SIT ON THE BATHROOM FLOOR lay down on the bathroom floor and I almpst puked from how nauseous it made me i was OVERJOYED BEYOND MY PHYSICAL #LIMITATIONS OF HAPPINESS . I WAS SO HAPPY. THIS YEAR HAS BEEN UTTERLY MISERABLE FOR ME AND I HAVE NOT BEEN THIS DEPRESSED SINCE HIGH SCHOOL #BUT SEEING LUCILIUS like this genuinely blew me off my socks . I don’t know if i should be 100% thankful because I’ve been trying to figure #out how to balance my emotional state with the media i consume but #I think i really needed it. thank you lucilius for ending my 2023

[bonebabbles]

God the new ultimate guide sucks

It's not JUST the awful art, either. The art's just worth mentioning because even if the book's info had been terrible or contained nothing new, really cute art can make it still worth having.

But, no, it's even full of recycled lines we've been hearing for years like "Bramblestar Can Match Squirrelflight's Fire Not Contain It," and that's when it DOES get everything right. These entries leave out major, important details (making them bad summaries) and are sometimes even straight-up incorrect.

SUMMARY THOUGHTS

Leafpool is said to have watched Brambleclaw kill Hawkfrost to save Firestar-- but for one, no, she was not there because Ashfur was still leading her and Squilf towards the scene. For two, no, Brambleclaw did not kill Hawkfrost just to save Firestar, it was self-defense. Hawkfrost had him pinned and was going to kill him.

They're REAL cute about Leafpool's death, too, neglecting to mention WHY the Sisters needed to be saved at all and just saying Leafpool's "generosity" lead to her death in that cave-in.

I'm not even going to get into everything on Bramble's entry jesus christ.

Sagewhisker's entry is ESPECIALLY fucken' dandy, framing Yellowfang's Secret like she was simply waiting patiently for Yellow to realize her 'destiny' and not actively shoving it on her at every opportunity.

Leopardstar's entry states that romantic interest in Tigerstar was part of her motivation. "Perhaps she'd hoped he would be her mate" please speak to a woman irl for once in your life.

Gray Wing's entry forgot that the reason he "blamed himself" for Bright Stream's death is because he was literally staring at his big strong brother too much and tripped on a root in front of him. It IS his fault she died.

Clear Sky/Skystar's entry is just obscene. "He regretted abandoning his son and after a fire, he encouraged him to live with him" instead of "saw his teenage child was useful now and bullied and belittled the kid and his uncle into letting Thunder come with him." "Retaining his fierceness towards his cats and outsiders which caused his son to leave" instead of "murdering, brutalizing, and abusing everyone around him caused Thunder to leave." I'll just say this tho; "Fierce" is an interesting way to spell "Cruel."

It's interesting that they don't point out that a major part of Jagged Peak's arc was proving he was "Just As Good" as every other cat in spite of his disability, thanks to his introduced-and-pregnant-in-the-same-book wife becoming his life coach, only earning Clear Sky's respect after being allowed to physically lead a patrol in Blazing Star. Instead they frame him finding his place through taking care of kits, which... was something he seemed to resent in the actual series, considering how the books suddenly treat Gray Wing's protective treatment of him as a terrible thing in Blazing Star because he "didn't give him a chance". But at the same time I actually strongly dislike Jagged Peak and his messy, frustrating character arc so I'm not really UPSET with it. Just... noting it. I suppose this is the official direction they're taking away from it?

Shadowstar's entry is barely even 3 paragraphs yikes.

SHORT STORY THOUGHTS

And if you're wondering if the 4 brand new stories they smooshed into the end in a desperate attempt to make the rush job worth buying are good? No. Of course not. They're all slop.

Story 1: Firestar and Graystripe

First one's a marginally cute story about Graystripe and Firestar which is setting up the framing device linking the mini-tales together. They both remember this situation where Firestar fell into a ditch wrong. The punchline is that Thunderstar remembers it perfectly and they're both like, "WOW! Too bad Thunderstar's memory sucks!"

It's not terrible, but it does feel a bit pointless. But, hey, if you want more Firestar and Graystripe in the series that tosses them fanservice at every turn, who am I to judge?

Story 2: Dovewing and Ivypool

The next one is the Dovewing/Ivypool reconciliation passage everyone's talking about. It's... fine, but immensely dissatisfying to me.

Dovewing is apparently having problems adjusting to her Clan, grapples a little bit with the fact she has no friends but is going to be finding meaning in helping tigerHeartstar "bring the new ShadowClan into existence." She ultimately decides that she needs to talk to her sister, and begs for reassurance that Ivypool believes in her, feeling that her support can help her get through this difficult time in her life.

I think its biggest problem is that Dovewing was not the right choice for the POV here.

Dove was never the one responsible for the rift in their relationship. Ivypool is. Ivypool is the one who was jealous, willing to sabotage anything that would put Dovewing closer to Tigerheart, and continues to be generally aggressive towards her. So when Dovewing is reaching out to Ivypool in hopes of them reconciling, it feels wrong because Ivypool is the one that should be reaching out to Dovewing. SHE is the one who has some things to apologize for, and to show how much she loves and misses her.

It's even kind of frustrating, because Dovewing can never catch a break. She has to have these problems to force her to reach out, Ivypool even ends up suggesting that she leave and come home and take her kids with her, but in the end even a LITTLE bit of assurance from her aggressive sister helps.

I feel super bad for Dovewing, man. She deserves better than this cheap writing. What was the point of such an unsatisfying, rushed reconciliation, shoved into a crummy field guide, when we KNOW from the newest book that they're just going to use tension between them as part of the drama anyway?

shouldn't have even been written, imo. Even ends off with, "They'll always have each other :)" which is so... cliche. It's TIRED. Are any of you really happy with just getting a retconned platitude in a good-for-nothing field guide, instead of seeing complicated, INTERESTING feelings in a main book?

Story 3: Alderheart and Twigbranch

A tale of Cherryfall getting sick during TBC and Alderheart sneaks back into the territory to treat her. Also Crowfeather has a scene where he yells at him. Charming.

Twigbranch comes up with a diversion while Alderheart does his work, which is cute. It's a fine story.

Story 4: Clear Sky

Trash. Three dogs spawn in the middle of a gathering so that Skystar can have an uwu big boy sendoff saving his grandkit. Then he goes to StarClan and throws a fit because they can't give him ANOTHER life, becoming so upset that he attacks the nearest woman. Naturally, Shadowstar brushes it off because it's not the first time Clear Sky has pummeled her in the midst of an adult tantrum and this book series thinks violence is fine if their favorite sadboy does it.

Then Gray Wing brings him to the magic mirror pool where you can see the living, to confirm that Star Flower is ok and that makes him feel better.

Then it launches into Firestar saying "ouuuugh yum I LOVE the taste of his butthole. Clear Sky is so misunderstood, He Just Loved Too Much."

to which Graystripe responds, "Yes, he was a good and amazing person and his farts smells SO good, and can you believe that some people think StarClan punished his Clan for his arrogance? As if he ever did anything wrong, ever?"

Firestar, indignant, refutes it with, "Ugh!! StarClan would NEVER be interesting, we don't punish living cats we just float around and make vague, frustrating prophecies that do nothing but pad the word count. Why cant ppl understand that, gosh."

who wrote this? Gray Wing??

#The amount of passive voice Clear Sky has to be surrounded with in order to look like a redeemable character is dizzying #I feel like I'm reading a headline about cops who blew up an orphanage every time I read anything official about him #oh wait im sorry. A ''high-pressure accident which occurred at a government institution with 3 officers present'' lmaooooo #ultimate field guide #bone babble #im actually REALLY glad actually they havent been making these #This was garbage #There were a few good things in this but overall? Absolute slop. I wouldn't even feed this to a pig. #I think this is actually down there with Cats of the Clans (with Rock) for worst field guide #This is abysmal #You would be better with the wiki summaries and the 4 stories are mid at best #What a shame that they re-pivoted so hard from Riverstar's SE which I was JUST praising for tossing out that shitty ''redemption arc'' #Nope. We're right back to square one. #How much do you guys wanna bet it's ONE writer who's OBSESSED with Clear Sky and every time he writes anything he does this #I'm not sure who wrote this one but let's see if my hunch is right lmao

[david-tennant-in-chairs]

Good morning, sunshine!

There are few things sexier than a gentleman unraveled

#david tennant #david tennant in chairs #legs for days #just like all the limbs #top notch camera work there #really get between those stems #good lord he's beautiful #even when he's supposed to be recovering from being poisoned #the eyes the hair the nose the everything #and lest we forget #freckles! #phileas fogg #around the world in 80 days #atwi80d #oh the things that I would do for phileas #or to him #I'd be as classy as he wanted #keep a pinky out while he blew my back out

[movedtodykedvonte]

I hope The Spot gets to die as a himself like pre-powers. It’s likely he’s gonna destroy himself trying to destroy Spider-man (I think he’s gonna for the mythos of the hero not just Miles, if the flash forward is any prediction) cause he’s either not gonna be able to handle the full effects of his abilities it and needs to be saved but it’s too late for him or does some not fully redeeming sacrifice as he realizes he didn’t have to resort to villainy and doesn’t want to go out with people fearing him rather than respecting.

It’d make the point that anyone can be Spider-man under the mask string as it’d point out that depending on circumstances anyone could become anything. In this case none of them would know The Spot personally or even in passing as Johnathan Ohnn, so seeing a complete stranger, someone who could of been anyone, defeated at the end of the battle would invoke a lot with the random chance and fate that comes along with being Spider-man if not just going through life rather than the adherence to canon events that is trying to be pushed on characters.

I feel like giving the Spot his face back would just make the climax feel more complete, an odd commentary on being true to oneself even if it is past your time.

#cause like every other Spidey villain spiderman usually knew or came to know as Peter #Norman and the goblin harry and the hobgoblin #Felicia and black cat etc #Johnathan wants to be spider mans personal enemy but knows nothing about him if it was for his abilities #like he probably just thinks he is scared of the police captain dying cause he failed to save people or that he’s fond of law enforcement #cause I am certain if he knew Miles was spiderman The Spot would call him that #to fuck with him by knowing his identity #but i digress I think it would show that it really wasn’t personal #cause the spot hated what he became and lost and placed the blame on someone close to the incident but ultimately had nothing to do with it #yeah he blew it up but who was just fucming around with dark matter like wtf John #it’d be rad to have Johnanthan like see Miles face for the first time and be like ur just a kid wat did I almost due gaining some of the #humanity be lost back only to not being able to rectify it cause honestly I’d be horrified if I found out my enemy couldn’t even drive yet #LEGALLY #johnathan ohnn #the spot #miles morales #atsv #itsv #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #into the spiderverse #atsv spoilers

[birdricks]

just remembered the pheonixperson fight [walking into the ocean]

#litearllye very single fucking thing about it. #what did they do to you…. #i loved her. #then you were always a bad friend. #never thought this was how id die. #and other memorable quotes. #i rlly hope if (WHEN.) they bring bp back they address his time as pp #bc its rlly quite horrifying. ik they did to some extent w rickternal friendshine #but theres a lot of layers to it that u cld still go into. especially the fact that hes probably 90% artificial now. #andddddd w birddaughter. pleaseeeee #but oh my god. really so heartbreaking for rick to spend all that time mourning bp #i mean. not technically canon but in the comics he mentions it A BUNCH #and then he finds out hes alive. but as a zombie who barely recognises him. and then he nearly kills rick. #its crazy to think that pp was a One episode thing technically #like he was in the post credits of another ep and it took a while to fix him #but for us the audience he was only in action for. 10 mins? #if that #but ohh… how long was he working for the federation behind the scenes…. i dread to think #and his memories now…. he like blew up his fucking mind. im curious how much he actually remmebers of it #ohhhh bp … 💖 pleaseeee please come back to us

[honeyvenommusic]

❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-

#glass animals #honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh???? #like….. when i say wore out #i cannot describe how much i listened to it #i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number #like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened) #i cannot recall w this #gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke #so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao #(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol) #anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night #driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in #sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who???? #had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused #it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song #then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky & #ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work #(i was right & it blew her miiind) #god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok #i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this #highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift #a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them #as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?) #a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever

[rimouskis]

so I've gotten into perfume

#or rather I've gotten into phlur lol #i asked my very fashionable and of-the-moment sister for perfume recs for my birthday a while back and she gave me: #1. the missing person travel size 2. the nest golden nectar travel size and 3. the replica by the fireplace travel size #and I BLEW through missing person I loved it so much I had to get the full bottle #I got the travel tangerine boy as a summer scent and while I think it has poor lasting power I love the smell and plan to rebuy #I got the travel father figure just yesterday lol I wanted to try a fig scent #I bought the ellis brooklyn sunfruit travel size for my eurotrip this year and mostly used it up there #and juliette has a gun's not a perfume superdose is another recent purchase. I couldn't smell the normal perfume well #but I like skin scents and gave the superdose a try and could smell it! #i want to test out some diptyque scents... I walked into a diptyque store in london but the scent wall was being monopolized by someone els #so i didnt end up testing anything lol #anyways... what are your favorite scents??? #missing person is MY SCENT i adore it and really want to branch into using the body wash/lotion/candle #also im ignoring the imaginary authors tiny tester bottles to the right... i bought an exploration kit from them A YEAR ago and honestly... #I didn’t like a single scent :/

[sepdet]

Parking lot encounter, unfortunately very backlit + through glass so my phone was struggling.

Coyote ears, 10/10, highly recommended.

(This is also a reminder to US residents, especially out west: please keep cats indoors! It's not the first time I've seen one in broad daylight in my city.)

#coyote #my photos #i am fond of coyotes #but I lost a cat to one in 1996 when santa ana winds blew my door open while i was out #we live on their land #they are beautiful creatures #but unfortunately #to them our pets look food-shaped #and that's not their fault they're just being wild animals #and cats really are okay livjng indoors #if my warning saves one other cat #... nothing can bring malcolm back but it's all i can do

[dokyeomini]

work was so stressful today bc my work bestie didn't show up and didn't reply to anyone's messages and idk what's going on

#everyone is assuming she's hungover and just doesn't care #meanwhile my mind goes to the worst case scenarios lol #but if she really just blew us off id be mad..... #anyways we survived it's nkt as big lf a deal as the manager and others made it out to be #but i do feel sad hearing everyone talking abt my friend behind her back #even tho she can be a dick......

[holyblankbatman]

so does anyone actually know why the young justice tv show decided we needed an abundance of roy harpers, not complaining, just…… intrigued

#young justice #finding out none of that ever happened in comics blew my teenage mind #it also confused me so much when i started seeking out more comic info back then #mine #also that artemis crock doesn’t really exist outside of the show??? i was shocked #tbh i’m STILL sometimes looking back into that bc like…… they really just gave jade nguyen an estranged sister #and dumped her with green arrow and made her a main character #good for them but also just why lmao

[gloopdimension]

hgoo.ii dont have any new thoughts but ummm.Leo & orion ........ smile

:) leo and orion

#let me see if ive got any new thots on em in my noggin...... #I think leo does have some trauma w losing people he cares about. so instead of preventing connections he does allow them to happen. him #being a pretty well known mob boss and a pretty dangerous one at that[hes also got guys ALL over the city] #he can totaly have u watched out for if ur his buddy :) #if it was up to leo he would have orion GONE. he doesnt like 'im. he just tolerates his presence bc hes learned orion is MORE than an equal #match. #theyre only equals in terms of confidence and thats what leo really has going for him. leo is at the very least 3 ft [or more] shorter than #orion but he makes up for that in yeah! his confidence #also strength.this guy packsa punch #a detail i remembered in the sauna image aswell was his knuckles being bandaged up. he enjoys hand-to-hand combat the most:) #also orion can form rifts. any size any shape [primarily wide-ish ovals for him specifically to step thru] #and anywhere leading to anywhere else! #he can form a rift right beneath you that leads to a timeline thats actively falling apart and reality can collapse around ur very eyes. Bu #he enjoys doing that himself and seeing what happens to the folks who are doomed #he'd also use this power to make a rift. tap someones shoulder. pull his hand back. and the person looks around confused like I Know Someon #Tapped My Shoulder. Who Was It #also orion got that biig scar on his face bc his arm blew up! he tried to inspect it himself like years ago but he didnt use his foresight #and paid for it. #he is nearly wholly deaf if not entirely in his left ear #withuot his prosthetics hed be missingggg his entire arm anddd everything below the middle of his left thigh :) #asks #my ocs #ive DEFINITELY got more on em but umm well i want a dink.

[hawkeyedflame]

also today i learned that your knees actually aren’t supposed to hurt when descending a mountain lol

#the hawk speaks #my knees have been hurting when hiking for like.. 10+ years #i thought it was just normal that knees disliked going down steep hills for long periods of time #but no it just turns out that my knees were chronically inflamed but it wasn't bad enough to the point that they hurt all the time #unlike my hips/back/shoulders #so yeah today i hiked a mountain and experienced zero pain on the way down which kinda blew me away #i mean i didn't have pain in canada either but the trails in banff are much easier to descend than the trails in new hampshire #so i was fully expecting knee pain and it never came #i also felt fucking amazing the entire time i was hiking #like we hoofed it up the mountain pretty fast and i felt really energized and strong the entire way up #i am really looking forward to hiking the whites this summer #carnivore diet wins again :')

[administer-distractions]

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#im going to preface this by saying this is all really vague and personal and not funny #but its a gigantic step for me in terms of recovery and my bestie is busy #and im filled with anxiety so my thoughts have to go somewhere so it goes on my blog #which is i think how blogs are kind of supposed to work? #anyway #a year and a half ago some shit happened that kicked off about eight months of steadily building relationship traumas #that i felt stuck in because i was doing dnd with the people actively making my life miserable #and theres so much god damn nuance that it makes it impossible to concisely explain what happened #but the end result is that i lost all of my friends and it really truly wasnt my fault at all #and anyway now ive been diagnosed with pstd over the whole fiasco #and tonight i sent a message to the person who started it all #basically like 'hey i wasnt able to defend myself before but i can now you abused the hell out of me' #but they were never of the notion that they were ever wrong #and theyre friends with people im still friends with #i know that i blew up the evening for their discord server #and based on what ive been told it doesnt seem to be going exceptionally well #but when i apologized i was told twice in no uncertain terms that its okay #so i am attempting to will my heartbeat back into my control #sorry for being all personal but also this is my blog so i guess im not really #i had to cask of amontillado the part of me thats a nosy bitch though so i didnt unblock them to see if they responded #ill get her out in the morning shes fine in there

[lizardtakesflight]

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#i finally ended communication with an ex that really hurt me #and i thought i didnt care anymore and that i just wanted him out of my life finally #but now i cant stop crying because i did love him once. i loved him so much and thats never coming back. #he did so so much for me and then he blew it all within about a month of dating #and i have tried so incredibly hard for the last 7 months to act like a friend and it didnt work. i couldnt do it. i want him to be happy #and safe and i dont want it to have anything to do with me but i miss how it used to be. i miss that friend so much and that friend is gone #and all thats left is a stranger i dont want to talk to anymore #i wish he could take this emotional trauma he gave me with him

[precious-pop-punk-nerd-girl]

I feel like I should ask you top 5 FOB songs and I do want to know… but I’m also really curious what your top 5 1R songs are! 💙

Oooo very hard questions let's see...

Top FOB (in no particular order):

1. I Am My Own Muse

2. The Last of The Real Ones

3. Sophomore Slump or Comeback of The Year

4. Don't You Know Who I Think I Am?

5. Where Did The Party Go

Top 1R (again in no particular order):

1. Lift Me Up

2. Can't Stop

3. West Coast

4. Forgot About You

5. Better

#tiff rambles lmao #i promise i have love for old 1r but i always come back to those 5 #like dreaming out loud (the song)? immaculate. would love it on streaming #passenger too? ugh #i really wanted a folie song on my top 5 but there are too many good fob songs:( #rip to me not being able to put tiffany blews on here #fall out boy #onerepublic