#i was trying a different ''aesthetic'' idk..

[sjonni33]

bite the hand that never fed you

[ko-fi] [prints&stickers] [redbubble]

#sjonnies art #tw blood #cw blood #tw dogs #digital art #aesthetic art #original art #wanted to try smth a bit different :} i think i might do a bit more of this ehhe i think it looks dope as hellllll #it's so? idk. it gives me feelsies #:V

[earlgodwin]

HOLLIDAY GRAINGER as Lucrezia Borgia ↴

THE BORGIAS | The Poisoned Chalice ( 1.01 )

#i'm trying new different colors and all for my gifs so bear with me #idk how i feel about one though... #she's so pretty #lucrezia borgia #holliday grainger #perioddramaedit #perioddramacentral #periodedits #dailytvfilmgifs #tvarchive #cinemapix #pastel aesthetic #weloveperioddrama #femaledaily #womendaily #the borgias #theborgiasedit #televisiongif #by jen

[ladsofsorrow24]

one of the... weirdly good thing about AI art invading the illustration field is that now, whenever i look at art that doesn't cater to my weird fucking taste, i'm able to appreciate the efforts and creativity that are put into making the artist's own personal vision come to life

#i don't like talking about this whole shit because its fucking tiring #but damn if there's one good thing about AI art to me as an artist myself #its that it makes me appreciate other artists despite our difference in taste or aesthetic #because... dude drawing is hard #no matter what handicapped you got #me personally? i'm struggling a lot with my arms and chest pain lately #add into the whole general anxiety shit and my motivation to draw goes haywire #yet... when i actually able to draw... refine parts of the art i'm currently working on #it makes me realized how much i enjoyed doing this #and the thought that other artists who i admired also able to experience this joy too #idk i feel some sort of camaraderie with them #so yeah i think people should try to learn how to draw than steal other people's art just to scam others #tmi tag

[icewindandboringhorror]

I kind of miss getting to know the interior of other people’s homes. So many of my friendships in adulthood are distant, or long distance/only talking over the phone, difficult to make actual plans with because of Real Life Schedules Now, etc. etc., but like in school and stuff as a kid you can just hang out at someone’s house for a few days, have a sleepover every weekend, etc. etc. I still remember the interior of all of my childhood friend’s homes, I remember all the details to the rooms and the layout of the yards and etc. etc. There’s just something kind of neat about Knowing another person’s housing space, what the décor says about them, the history of how they came to live there and their household routines and what it’s like, etc. I feel like it can be an important part of really deeply understanding someone so it’s weird to talk to and vaguely know a handful of people, but also not even know what their bedrooms look like or how they organize the dishes after washing them or etc. etc. 

#'intrictae knowledge of another person in an extremely mundane way' my beloved #i also just really love looking at interiors like I'm fascinated with how people decorate their own spaces or what they have aorund #in the environment and what it says about them. Does anyone else snoop the backround of photos and videos and stuff? #like if theres a youtube video or a picture or something anyone posts and it has like a candid normal indoor space as the background #I'll pause or zoom in or whatever and really try to look around. see what's there. just make observations #not in a crerrpy way but just like.. idk I feel like it Says Something. I also love seeing people's computer desktops and phone screens #amnd looking at how they organize their apps or files or what aesthetic they give things. If I'm wathing someone play a game and they #accidentally exit to the desktop or something I always pause and try to see whatever I can glean from it lol #Bedrooms. Phone screens. Desktop of a computer. Also real life desk top that the computer is sitting on. etc. These are all spaces that are #mostly organized by and utilized by really just the ONE person themselves. like nobody else is going to usually be using your #computer or your bedroom nightstand. it's your space that you don't have to think about anyone else interacting with so they way you organiz #e and decorate it is very personal and Just For You. something about spaces like that are so interesting to me like in telling #little tiny details about someone and stuff. And also on a borader scale I just love thinking about how like. you could give 5 people the #same exact space and each of them would organize it and decorate it completely differently. and all of it would be an indication of their #tastes and personality and lifestyle. I used to want to be an apartment complex maintenace man because I would get to enter into everyone's #identical layout apartments and see how different they all are and what variety of things people have done to customize the same space #and what it might say about them or etc. etc. etc. Also probably weird but sometimes when throwing something away #I'll look at people's trash a little like if I'm in a realative;s house. which literally gives no important information but I love little #details like 'oh someone in the house had a snickers bar earlier today.' 'oh they bought a lightbulb I wonder which of the lightbulbs #went out' and then I look around the house at the shapes of the light fixtures or if there are any other clues (like a screwdriver or #ladder nearby) to see which one it is or etc. etc. ANYWAY .. idk.. #one of my Big Fascinations. I just love seeing people's personal spaces and knowing little obscure mundane details that #dont matter really but it Matters To Me just because I love gathering every miniscule tidbit of data about anything in any situation #whether it's relevant or not. seek knowledge just for knowledge's sake I guess lol. Maybe thats an enneagram type 5 thing or something #else lol. ANYWAY.. thought about this because I have such a strong compulsion to ask everyone I know like long distance friends #for pictures of their bedrooms and phone screens and desktops but also for people who don't have the same Weird Interest In Interios #*Interiors and stuff that I do I feel like that just comes off extremely freakish ghbjhbb #I PROMISE IM NOT GATHERING DATA ON YOU! or like.. I am. but not maliciously. just in a manner of earnest detached intellectual fascination

[raveartts]

I still don't know what i'm doing with her stupid design T_T

#raveartts #oc #i post my ocs so rarely i can't even remember if i had a specific tag for it #ughjdkfgjks okay but like. it's a pretty design kind of? it varies drawing to drawing tbh #i always wanted something princess-y and lolita when i first drafted the design #but there's an entirely different character in my head here and idk if that aesthetic works with it #and now i want to lean more magical girl. which is....even worse #i still don't know if i should change the hair or perhaps the dress??? #the shoes definitely but i have to learn to like. draw/design shoes first O_o #i think a large issue is just that i'm trying to make a design that shows little skin and a loose silhouette #like cutthroat but not nearly as bad #i initially wanted to have a long jacket over the dress but that just was NOT working #perhaps i need to narrow down her character more before trying to redesign #i'm still attached to my initial aesthetic preferences for it even if they don't fit thoughhhhh #AHSDGFGHJASHGFJS I WAS GONNA START MY NEW SCHOOL I'M PROCRASTINATING AGAINSNNBNSDFBAKSJDHGFDHJ #and i wanted to reread Secret Alliance and finally draw fanart for it too 😔 #i guess i should just do ONE lesson first. i could probably speedrun english bc like. english is easy lmao i don't need to learn anything #rave.characters

[aaghht]

on one hand, western tankies on tiktok being so happy about waving around the communist is just something I can close down as an app, I don't look at it most times and I don't have to force myself to wade thru it all

but the fact that a community continues to exist who are misled to believe that USSR communism = somehow good... it's upsetting still as an estonian person. who use the hammer and sickle as if it's some icon of freedom against capitalism. who will believe any video telling them usa bad, therefore russia/communism good - is right, without delving into specifics.

you have got to look at sources outside of western or russian ones. stop using it as a glib aesthetic to build your internet persona on. there's a lot more nuance there in the collective histories of all the countries who suffered under USSR communist rule. read any of it, try to come to your own conclusions. don't just sweep eastern european people's pain under the rug for your own benefit.

you can call yourself a socialist even, it's okay. join your former eastern bloc socialists and fight against both capitalism, communism and the imperialist systems that created them.

and for the love of good, stop giving russia the benefit of doubt about ukraine. they have proven again and again that they only care about winning, getting pieces of ukraine and causing the war to get worse. it's only going to get worse the more it is stalled. disbelief of ukrainian survivors is not helping

#trying to keep myself busy w other stuff but glanced at tik tok to find a different video #which i ended up not finding #texty #aghhtpost #like that last part: i KNOW many ppl seem to like using sickle and hammer as their shock-value icon against idk the prev generations #not considering that it's really not for them #ofc the problem probably goes deeper and there's more to it than just aesthetics and wanting to associate the modern with old #but like. on the surface it all just looks really stupid #anyway. just some thoughts after a week kf being sick in bed #i keep telling myself it's bc twt and tiktok concentrate this sort of beha iour n ppl #but it's weird and stupid with this current war going on #ugh #anyway #smarter ppl than me have said it better

[goatmilksoda]

When you go through the entire aesthetics wiki and look at all the new-ish ones that have specifically developed on Tumblr, TikTok, and Pinterest, you start to realize that they can really be put into three categories like 75% of the time because people choose the same music constantly when they're making -core playlists so they all fit into either "Soldier, Poet, King", "Bubblegum Bitch", or "Sweater Weather".

#occasionally you get one and it'll have Animal Crossing music #but yeah #tbh if this experiment has taught me anything #it's that people think aesthetics are WAY narrower than they should be #like girlie cottagecore prairiecore jamcore fairytalecore dark fairycore and angelcore are all very similar variations of the same thing #just accept you're wearing slightly different colors or a different motif #I'm not trying to be mean because people can do what they want but like... #idk I don't think the fact that your outfit is red and contains hearts makes it 'lovecore' #that's just wearing red and hearts. It's a motif #it's an outfit flavor #For a long time (they're starting to fix it) #the wiki was plagued with paged about like 'butterflycore' or 'seagul core' which just meant wearing things with those motifs... #and like I'm sorry a motif or a color isn't an aesthetic #the aesthetic is the overarching vibe!!!! #I think when it comes to aesthetics they should be very broad so people can carve out their own niches #the same thing goes for all the -academias btw. There isn't any difference between any of them in a fashion sense #They're all just Claire De Lune and Sweater Weather to me. #goat talk #I can't believe I'm doing this for a whole year #you can already see how crazy I'm going #perhaps appropriately #today is clowncore #(Which is actually distinct! But to me still a subsect of kidcore)

[dykesbat]

btw once you free yourself from the shackles of artistic elitism you will be so much happier and realize a lot of your elitism was just a symptom of bigotry!

#‘I don’t like modern art’ hey go look up artistic movements and the way facists try suppressing arts they deem inferior and start #questioning whether or not your internal biases are at play #if they’re not that’s fine! u r free to dislike modern art all you want! as long as you rethink why it exists in the first place #and what abt it there is to appreciate from someone else’s perspective #(again you don’t have to like it aesthetically but degrading it as a genre of art feels so negligent of the other things art can mean #like technique or statement etc etc). #‘I don’t like rap or hip hop’ hey have you ever listened to a rap or hip hop artist/album? have you ever tried listening to different #artists? have you ever thought abt the racism you could be perpetuating when you say that?? #‘I don’t like kpop or anime bc I like things I understand and I only understand english’ #have you considered it’s just a symptom of xenophobia? have you considered you might have to de-center yourself a bit? #art stuff tag #idk does this make sense I hope this makes sense and isn’t just word vomit it feels like word vomit #basically u r allowed to dislike stuff bc duh but like. check your internal biases 👍

[thornshadowwolf]

DAN AND PHIL RETURN????????

#idk what I'm gonna do abt this /srs #like. I thought their videos were fun but that was 5 years ago so who knows about if I still will #and y'know obviously toxic community and annoying fans. #whatever I'll watch some and make a decision based on that I guess. #idc if they're cringe #well I mean. idc if it's cringe to watch them. #but Dan very much was leaning into that 'I'm a weirdo normal people scare me' thing that people who are only one degree removed from #normality do. so if he's leaned into that any more I don't think I'll be able to stand his 'I'm not a normie' normie ass. but I also know #he's been doing a lot of self-reflection and healing and whatever so maybe he'll be better now. #like he was so desperate to distance himself from who he used to be that he needed to make fun of everything he could have been perceived as #and make himself feel like he's better than people like that. everything from being 14 to being alternative to being a furry he needed to #make fun of all that cringe to prove that he wasn't that. y'know? he desperately wanted to be normal while still capitalizing on the 'I'm #different' thing. like his merch/clothing brand was all minimalist quirky-dark aesthetic for example. stuff you could 100% find in a big #chain store but seems just different enough for people who want to fit in but also look like they're cool and edgy and have unique opinions #like. he's the *woman in a pink tailored pantsuit* 'she's so butch!' of weird and alternative. #last I checked at least. like I said; I think he's been doing a lot of personal growth so maybe he's gotten more ok with actual weirdness. #man I didn't mean to rant in the tags here O_o sorry lol. #ThornShadow.said #(also for the record Phil is a little cringey but it's genuine so it's ok. as opposed to Dan trying to make everything 8 levels of ironic)

[cat-scarr]

C:\User_[file redacted]

#I am so fucking DONE with shit getting in the way #if I don’t post soon fuck idk come after me #literally my attitude towards posting is that I will do it when I have a completed project #I'm not trying to be a 'content creator' or whatever #no shade lol but the projects I work on aren't for...that kind of thing if that makes sense #content creation is sort of a modern day/digital age business strategy #anyway that being said there's a difference between believing in that #and straight up collecting half finished projects for MONTHS #proof of my ambition? maybe #but also my clinical perfectionism #which is low key a fatal flaw #anyway this has been a vent/update #don't reblog obvi #redacted files #new tag get used to my aesthetic lol

[likeadevils]

Who do you think are the artists that reinvents the most apart from Taylor?

i’m sure there’s a good handful but if i can be myopic about my hyperfixations for a minute the venn diagram between taylor swift and paul mccartney is large and storied and album-centered reinvention is one of many bullet points

#asks* #like he didn’t do the every album new aesthetic thing but also #he definitely has set Eras in his career that have a very different sound and visual aesthetic #and he has a lot of them #and i think taylor is trying to move out of the Every Album Complete Overhaul portion of career #like. idk beatlemania -> sgt pepper -> white album -> abbey road -> early 70s -> mid seventies -> early eighties #has a good every two/three year switch up pattern

[leatherbookmark]

hopping around different blogs is fun.

a post on blog 1: i find it a little weird that -- don't get me wrong, the barbie movie looks great with all the doll-like details, i bet the actors had great fun and i'd like to see it myself, but -- people are getting excited about marketing of this movie. they're acting as though mattel's 3985* deals with 837* different companies are something new, exciting and creative instead of... 3985 deals with 837 companies spanning many different areas! this movie is a commercial for a doll! isn't this kinda weird?

*numbers made up

a post on blog 2: i don't think any sane adult doesn't realize that this is a toy commercial! it's rather obvious.

a post on blog 3: boo hoo 'the barbie movie is capitalist propaganda' i don't give a SHIT marx won't fuck you. did you do this for transformers too? do you think only stupid girls who like pink need the reminder?

like, oooooh! things are happening!

#shrimp thoughts #earlier today i got into a bit of an essay reading spree (as much as my brain allowed me lol) #and it got me thinking about like... associating oneself with products/aesthetics/companies as a way of self-creation #this is me. i love [fashion brand] you won't catch me without my k*nken and here is my room in which you can see posters of [movies] #it's very... human to get excited about things and feel it more the more others get excited because. community building #at the same time i've noticed it myself that it's so much easier to label yourself a [thing] girl than to like... Look Into Yourself #who am i? what defines me? these questions are difficult because how do i know that? with what means do i obtain this knowledge? #should i create myself as i want or should i observe myself with the eyes of others instead? ...let me just say i like plants and overalls #and i feel like when someone says something you perceive as a critique of the identity slash community you associate yourself with #it's... hurtful? but at the same time. hm. i don't know actually #like chances are these posts are talking about completely different things and not vaguing each other or even similar posts #maybe posts that blog 3 vagues really were obnoxiously condescending! who knows! that being said DESPITE being a small-brained #shrimp who would honestly love to win soooo many moneys and just do whatever i want all day instead of being an Independant and Competent #Expert In My Field (this sounds scary and stressing). i still would like to avoid falling into the 'just let me ENJOY things and don't try #to make me hate femininity because it's not working! pink and shopping can be empowering' hole. #idk!! i listen to k/pop and am part magpie. i can't quite pose myself as like anti-capitalist intellectual #but i do want to achieve at least a small brain! someday!! and boy do i hope my brain energy days don't end before the books arrive;; #2am thoughts. wonder if my mother goes to sleep earlier than at 4am today because its getting annoying

[faelapis]

finally watched perfect blue. i'll be honest, i liked black swan better.

#not su / #black swan is one of my favorite movies so i was excited to see this #but idk i liked the themes in black swan better. aesthetically theyre similar and there is some madonna/whore theming going on #but one is more about seeking perfection and destroying yourself #the other is... i mean i like in theory that its more vague and up for interpretation #but in practice i just think its a little too all over the place thematically because the diegetic answer Does matter as to whether its #commenting on fan/otaku culture or sexism or purity culture or self-hatred or body image issues #if its just her colleage creeping on her and trying to replace her that says something fundamentally different than if shes destroying #herself. so i end up preferring black swan for having a stronger thematic core and focusing primarily on self-destruction

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Sometimes when the depression hits I can make myself feel a little better by thinking about the people I know at work and how like...multiple people have told me that just knowing me has changed their opinions on things or broadened their understanding

Like. Obviously it is not the obligation of any marginalised group to explain themselves to people. Its just not, if you're curious you should do your own research and only ask people you're close to if you know theyre comfortable with it. Having said that.

My take as a trans guy (and even before that, with just. Being gay, being autistic) is that...the best way to combat ignorance is to be direct and straightforward. I have so much time for well meaning ignorance so long as people are coming from a place of genuine curiosity and willingness to learn. And I've had alot of people (my fucking boss included) tell me how grateful they are to me for being so open with my identity and willing to talk about and explain things from from perspective.

Again, and I just want to make it clear, I am in no way saying people should have this attitude. Identity is a complicated thing and you should never feel the responsibility to explain yourself to someone who doesn't know enough about it, Google exists. But...it does give me a real feeling of...Worth, I guess? Like I'm able to help educate people and hopefully change their attitudes for the better, just by being a super open trans dude who likes to joke around and explain what I feel. It's...really validating.

#ive mentioned before but my closest friend started off as like...a reddit smart guy for lack of a better term #we became friends by having debates in work #and hes since told me that i personally have shifted his view of masculinity and what being a man actually means #and hes trying to improve himself #he used to be the sort of guy to throw the r slur around but hes consciously trying to stop bc hes like. my best friend is autistic #another friend is really into drag and the whole. gay man aesthetic i guess? #but getting to know me shifted her perceptions a little #and the number of people who ill like...bring up how special it is to be seen solely as a man by then? #will react almost on confusion and be like...youre Jason. what else would i see you as? #idk im going down a tangent here i just...my job is shite. but i absolutly adore the people i work with. #i love that ive been able to make a positive impact. #even little things like the fact im very vocally supportive and positive bc my depression is so bad #and people will laugh at that at first but very quickly reapond to and enjoy it #im making a difference man. maybe only a small one to a handful of people. but i am. #and that more than anything motivates me to keep living

[calciferstims]

something I really like about your stim boards is that you don't use too much slime! Like yeah, slime is cool, but it can be hard to find stim boards that aren't all slime, and yours are diverse and really good!!

ohh!!! why thank you!!! :D

The irony is I actually really like slime lol but I don’t use it on boards a lot 😅 mostly because I really like to make boards that fit the character or subject as best as possible, like, beyond just matching colors yknow??? Like yeah making a Loki board with random things in green in gold is cool and all but it just slaps so much harder (in my opinion) if you manage to find a bunch of gifs of snakes and knives and whatnot in those colors and THEN make a Loki board 😌 but that’s just me!!

It’s like a fun game to try and hunt for the best gifs >:) like ooooohohoho do you think I can find these exact themes in these exact colors I bet I can!!!! lmao

#ask box #no but I really love slime but I always try to use things other than slime in boards bc it feels like. more aesthetic to avoid it I guess #idk #but even if I can’t think of really specific themes for a character I will still try really hard to come up with different themes based on #vibes and stuff #i have like. a whole mental system you don’t even know #like if a character feels more fantasy or fancy or whatever or like. elegant idk what word I’m looking for #but my go to for that stuff is wax seals and calligraphy like it just feels very fantasy and formal or whatever #but if I want a more cozy vibe I can go for food and soft things #I just take my stimming very seriously I guess 😂😂

[zmeydeva-arch]

i have literally 5 minutes of zelda exposure but zoya as some kind of incarnation of the goddess farore… could be hot

#aesthetically i kind if hate this concept becaue zoya’s color IS blue but she is ruled by air as an element #i have like 85 different ideas for l.oz zoya and i wish i could make up my mind but here we are i guess!! #me trying to make her just op enough that it is complimentary to her actual skillsets but not fully disturbing the plot of anything Yike #ANYWAYS idk i am just throwing shit out there #𝖎𝖎. *ੈ ˖ ° ⥽ carlisle cullen? no carly rae cullen ⥼ ⅋. ooc