#i’m feeling pretty rough

[that-random-fangirl]

i don’t feel lucky, punk

i don’t

#do you feel lucky punk #well do you #no #this is a stupid post #but it’s real #it’s true #i’m feeling pretty rough #and don’t know what to do #and don’t know how to explain to people why #or how they aren’t helping #i know they mean well #they mean so well #but just because they mean well doesn’t mean they do the right thing #doesn’t mean they can’t make it worse #even if they’re trying to make it better #even when trying not to hurt you #it can still hurt #my thoughts #uni shit #dirty harry #dirty harry incorrect quote

[endermagpieart]

What do you mean I’m a bit late for Janus’ big day? Of course not, how could you say such a thing! I definitely didn’t forget all about it in my absence and only get reminded in the incorrect quotes video live chat; that’s not like me at all ;]

Anyways I decided to dress our sassy snake in some different outfits I think he’d like. He seems like the type to get all dolled up on his birthday and it goes with Thomas posting pics in outfits inspired by the sides on their appreciation days!

@thatsthat24

#sanders sides #janus sanders #ts janus #thomas sanders #sanders sides fanart #my hoard #I’ve returned! #the newest asides came out and I remembered how much I love it #so I’m hyperfixated again and I’ve not now peace since #it is nice to actually finish something again tho #I’ve been pretty busy working lately and now I’m starting to pack to move into my first apartment! #so not much time to really sit down and draw #and when I do have time I can’t get the motivation to actually draw anything #I want to get better about posting stuff on here #(even though it feels like I’m just dreaming into the void a lot) #even just silly little things or rough sketches I’ll never finish #I hope it’ll help me continue to draw and make things again #I forgot how nice it is #anyways if you’ve read this far thanks #have a cookie :] 🍪

[nylwnder]

hiiii just wanted to share this *really rough* little thing i finished today just cause 😗🫶

#it’s pretty rough #the back could’ve been so much better #(it’s purposely dirty dw but i still feel it could’ve been like better placed) #but like i haven’t done a mixed media piece in a min #and who better than to make an angsty piece with a maple leaf #and ofc ofc i’m picking bunts cause i’m in such a fucking mood for him #my god if he leaves me istg #istg istg istg i will kill someone #but yeah #i’m thinking of making this like a series or something when i have time #anyways i don’t think i’ve ever shared ‘art’ here so enjoy <333333 #be nice pls 😭😭 I SAID IT WAS ROUGH SHEKWHEJQHWLENWKJWKRJEME #toronto maple leafs #michael bunting #g! talks personal #hockey art! #nhl art

[libidinous-weeb]

whb has made me come to realize i…may be a bit more of a dom than i originally thought…

#i mean i’ve always been into things being a little rough but #i’m even more into being mean that i’d ever really thought before… #sure wish i could explore that more but…i like the powerful feeling and the give and take and everything. i like calling the shots lol #still a switch but maybe not as much of a sub as i’ve been defaulted to in the past… #i could never be a hard sub for sure though. if you tease me i’ll try to tease right back. and if you’re mean to me i’m not just gonna take #that lying down #what in hell is bad #dear satan thank u for opening my eyes on this one #there’s a sentence i never thought i’d say in my lifetime #sounds pretty bad outta context too. my b God. u know we still cool.

[tequatls-favorite-spoon]

my art from the na vs art party!! took me a lil bit cuz i wanted to color it and that meant cleaning up the sketches and then i wanted to shade them and hajsksldhaflk

the characters from left to right:

Quinn Teeling - @sunsrefuge

Ambrose Wolfsbane - @commander-gloryforge

Finnegän - @pinecone-enthusiast

Astrëllä - @ohpollenpowder

#vsartparty #gw2 #guild wars 2 #others ocs #my art #also!!! please let me know if i got any of the names or tumblrs wrong!! especially ambrose cuz i didn’t get the name in my ref screenshot #i did go thru the art party tag to find the character i drew and i’m like 99% sure it’s ambrose but if it’s not him i’m SO SORRY #ahhh i hope people like them ajhsjalakf #like i know that getting art of ur oc is usually great no matter what but i get anxious lol #also i used a new shading technique and idk how i feel about it #like i like how i blended out the edges and stuff #but i might have to play with using different colors in different areas instead of just using the same purple lol #really happy with how i did the hair this time tho!! i feel like i usually like hair better in the sketching phase #cuz it’s all loose and rough and messy #i just feel like i get the shape and idk vibe? of the hair better then #and when i get to lines or shading i feel like i end up making the hair too solid? like i lose the flowy-ness of the hair and stuff #anyway i think i did pretty good with it this time tho!! i liked adding the highlights a lot :) #…i actually kinda was referencing an old how to draw manga book i got when i was 11 #listen. it was one of the good ones and had actually good tips and info #and the way it showed shading hair kinda influenced me here and i think it worked! #oh wow i really rambled in the tags this time #there’s a reason my personal texts posts (at least on my main) are tagged as ‘regan rambles’

[morgenlich]

i was not made for 6pm dinner, i was made for 4:30pm dinner and 8pm second dinner and 10pm dessert. tbh.

#i don’t really feel this way about mornings. but afternoons are always fucking Rough #<- exception. if i’m up pretty early like before 7. then breakfast and a later snack and lunch are required #but MOST days if i eat breakfast i won’t be hungry for lunch #but afternoons always follow this pattern

[guidedhearts]

hi

#misc * ⟢ ❮ 🐈 speaking ❯ #been a min #been a lil all over the place mentally (almost had a grippy sock vacay then started tapering off current meds and am dealing w that) #still definitely not stable LOL it’s only been about a week so. it’s gonna be a rough ride methinks #but i’m feeling alright rn :) just wanted to hop over here and say hi 🫶 #currently trying to find the passion i used to have for all of my hobbies and rn crafting is coming pretty easily but writing and gaming are #still not quite as interesting as i used to find them (hopefully this changes once the demon that is effexor leaves my system) #anywho. love u all!! i will try to be here again soon!!!

[thecreelhouse]

god damn i don’t mean to be so goddamn whiny but i can’t get over how sick i am

#it’s not covid thank fuck. #sorry to always cry abt my health on here lol #it’s wild how bad this is making me feel like my pain tolerance is pretty high dealing with what i do regularly #even though i cry abt my chronic pain too lmao but this is really rough. i’m so pissed i thought i was feeling better yesterday. #getting better i should say but whatever. note to self: don’t push yourself like a fucking moron #esp not for a depressing 90s anime movie fhshdhshhhhd #house.txt

[floral-hex]

I just want to get blasted, either out of my mind or into the sun, I’m not picky

#not me looking into the shitty guidelines for getting approved for medical marijuana in arkansas #yeeeaaaah looks like the process is ridiculously convoluted and pricey so nah #but missouri is just a few hours away so who knows #I hate weed for real. I mean it’s cool but I’ve had some bad experiences #but my anxiety is getting pretty rough and it would just be nice if I could turn my brains to mush every once in awhile #whenever my hearing gets bad I start freaking out and panicking and feeling sick. it suuuuuuucks. #anyway I have about 10 ‘emergency’ klonopin left which I don’t like taking bc I’m a hoarder and hate wasting stuff #like in video games when you stockpile potions but never use them #plus that shit can be addictive and I’m not a fan of that idea #tbh tho I diiiid take one earlier and I’ve been feeling preeeetty mellow #I ate two bowls of ice cream and I’m feeling good #I thought I had a drs appt coming soon to talk about anxiety meds but turns out it’s actually next month 🙄 so gonna reschedule that #anyway this was supposed to be a post about wanting to get blazed but I kinda whined all over these tags #whoops #uhhh…. how are you doing? #have you drank enough water today? for real #god I love ice water with a little lemon juice. I drink so much of that a day. it’s the best. #this isn’t important #if you read all of this then I love you #or at least like you. a little. a little bit. you’re good. I appreciate you. #ok I’m gonna go make coffee now #you can ignore this #text

[mattodore]

#making my two favorite ocs like oh i’m gonna give you both sooo many character flaws you’ll be helplessly drawn to each other bc of it #river dipping #theodore doe #echthroi #cw drugs mention #questionnaire lb #hello all........ i come bearing good news: theo's doc is already at 9.2k words <3 #not so great news: i actually still have 29 questions left so.......... um. i'm still not done... #😂🔫💥 #i'll definitely be making some cuts for length once i'm done answering all of the questions #like i simply can't have this go over 11k at any point... bc that would be....... just too much. like just way too much. #editing is gonna be rough when i get to it like i can just tell but whatever kill your darlings etc. etc. #also :) i've been so good at not opening tumblr or letting anything else distract me which is how theo's doc is already this long #in such a short amount of time like!!! i'm really proud of myself actually!! #i'm trying to finish it quickly bc i miss being on here but dfjkhh when i took that three hour break the other day to catch up i lost all #of my motivation to write and ended up stopping for the day bc i felt like everything i was writing was awful and ooc 😭 #so i'm holding off....... i do see my activity feed and i'll get to it i promise i'm not ignoring anyone on purpose!! #or. well i guess i kind of am but jsdkchddkj i'm just trying to get this done first!! #honestly i'm moving pretty fast tho so i feel like i'll have this done soon :) theo favoritism etc. etc. #okay... i need to go now........ i've rambled here for much too long #just felt compelled to drop another little update since my blog is inactive otherwise #logging out...... wish me luck friends and lovers

[spineless-lobster]

Honestly god bless the queers

#idk today was a pretty rough day but I’m feeling better now #this has nothing to do with kristen stewart btw #okay maybe it does a little bit but can you blame me?

[fissions-chips]

Thinking sad n’ angsty thoughts tonight-

Post-TEC Jon still hooks up with Valentine on occasion (given the state of things, he has no other solutions to his loneliness, and he can’t bear sitting alone in the Needle all the time).

And it’s one thing for Jon to wake up to an empty bed in the morning, to sit and smoke with someone who wants nothing, really, to do with him at all- it is another to sit in the lap of a man and let himself be kissed and touched, all while Valentine whispers of how he’s going to kill him. How he’s going to hurt him, the second the cameras finally shift their unblinking eye- how no one, now that Jon has done what he has and finally snapped, will give a shit.

Such a startling, saddening dichotomy. In earlier days, at least there had been some pretending- now, there is none, and Jon sits there and wonders why he tolerates it anymore, and knows deep-down that it is because he doesn’t think he’s worth any better.

#I’m sorry lol it’s been an exhausting rough day so I am throwing angst on Jon to make myself feel better #i was mostly thinking about this in the context of Post-TEC Jon eventually meeting Evil Tim and Butler and given what he’s been dealing with #- it’s partially why he ignores so many red flags but really… this fits Jon in general post-TEC. it’s a pretty low spot for him emotionally. #when he was more powerful and had more confidence he wasn’t inclined to take verbal abuse but post-TEC he can’t really find it in him to #- care anymore. it’s just kinda… expected. Valentine is so incredible enraged with him he doesn’t even bother to hide it behind closed doors #idk. angst! sad shit. i just think the mental image of that kinda thing is pretty tragic. #angsty shit

[fireis-catching]

I got a lot of compliments on my shirt today

#me #my face #selfie #I get compliments every time i wear it actually #i had a rough day and would really appreciate if someone could put me out of my misery pls and thank you #my senior dog is sick (i think it’s time for me to come to terms with the fact that he’s not living forever) #i was up on and off with him all night #worked 11 hours today on 4.5 hours of sleep #i feel like absolute shit #and tomorrow i’m working 12 and i can’t wait for Sunday so I can sleep all day #pls just ignore me venting in the tags i just need to get it out because i feel like i have no one to talk to these days #so just ignore me bitching and focus on how pretty i look on 4.5 hours of sleep

[herbofgraceandpeace]

prayer request?

#Roommate problems have me so depressed and discouraged rn #And really nothings the matter #I just feel like communication has been a problem for us #And I’m going through a rough season rn (not sure if I’m getting worse or actually having my eyes opened) #So my self-criticism and self-hatred is pretty high #And I feel like a burden :) and a nuisance :) just for liking to do things in certain ways #Long story short my feelings are hurt very easily right now #Over stupid little stuff and I’m utterly failing to be forgiving about it #But I can’t fathom being confrontational about it because I think 90% is in my own head???? And if it isn’t I don’t wanna know tbh #Prayer for my misery to cease and for me to take the steps I need (and for forgiveness) please

[dadbots]

August… time to get spooky.

#dadbots.txt #this has been in my draft for... almost a month. Yikes. #I’ve been dissociating hella hard these past months or something. swear I don’t remember time moving this fast. maybe it’s just me tbh. #idk what to say about July other than… boring? not much happened and I don’t really remember it if I’m honest. just. mm. shrugs. #best way to describe it LOL #been sleeping a LOT lately and I think it’s fatigue again. was it like anything before? no. not at that rate (yet) but just. #where you wanna sleep and sleep and sleep type of fatigue. you never feel rested and just gotta sleep it off kinda. #just one of those moments yknow. #it sucks. all I’m doing is letting the days pass me by and ‘missing out’ on living life when I could be enjoying it. but I lost interest - #- in doing so for months - years now due to personal health matters. And whaddya know - it came back again. after months of healing. #I'm pretty pissed as it does feel like a slap in the face. but you win some - you lose some. Gonna try and fight through it. #I wrote something at the beginning of august but that got deleted. Had a breakdown and thought huh. what a great way to start the month - #and now it's almost september. Just like that. What a month it's been. Stuck on what else to say but that really. #don't want to keep talking about depressing stuff as that's what i used to do and realized hey. maybe you should stop doing that so often #and not use it so casually in humor and/or stuff. Even though I reblog vents here n' all. but yknow. #maybe it is hypocritical. but that's not the point. Just want to reflect and see if i've changed since coming back to the web after a year. #not like it's going bad. just wished this year was a bit more optimistic. Last year was rough & i'm afraid this year will be another repeat #though I did come out to a family member this month and that was like a punch to the gut. Considering my status with them and all. #won't get into that. for now let's just say i'm not too close with them. An impulsive choice on my end but hey. it went well. #and that's what matters tbh. My younger self would've thought i was actually insane. like to even DO that? really? #shocking. I'm still not over that moment. Probably one of my biggest achievements this year. #I'll update this if anything else comes to mind. none of this make sense and that's ok. clearing my mind right now. #let's see what september has in store for me. Hopefully it'll get better as things slow down w/ winter on its way. #hope y'all enjoyed your summer. 🖤🤘🏽

[kazoologist]

I actually really fucking hate how anything in my schedule not going the way I initially Intended For It To just automatically makes me a massive fucking crybaby and or a raging bitch. Like dude. The grocery store does not hate me. It sucks that my schedule requires me to get there an hour earlier no matter what but like. They didn’t do that to me. Why am I always so upset whenever I have to change plans. I change plans too! I’m a living person!!! Why am I so fucking upset about this!!!!!!

#personal #im gonna delete this later I’m just venting #I’m also fine I’m just having a rough day and I can’t figure out why my emotions have been so fucking volatile. It’s so frustrating that #I can’t figure out how to get a handle on my emotions. I know I need to feel things but the problem is if I let myself feel them too much #Then I’m going to spiral or lash out at some random bystander and both of these make the initial feeling worse #I just can’t pull myself out of that quickly enough recently. It’s not an issue of ability bc I can. I just can’t do it. #wait that’s contradictory. I’ve been really struggling too recently. There we go. There’s accuracy. #Either way. Didn’t I spend all year in therapy last year trying to get this shit together? What the fuck. #Why is it the second I show a modicum of progress I immediately hit a single pebble on the road and get sent ass over teakettle #Progress isn’t linear but it also sure as hell isn’t meant to be a time loop. That I’m pretty sure of. #God everything’s just been so difficult this year. Shit that used to be almost instinctual to me now is a nightmare. #Maybe it’s growing pains and I guess that’s valid but how long do I have to have them #The good news is that thus far I have not snapped at anyone so at least right now we don’t have any casualties of my bad attitude #I feel so bad being so worried about that but like seriously no one needs me to be snapping at them. Even if I feel catharsis in the moment #We all feel bad immediately afterwards #It’s literally not even been a bad day today. I cannot emphasize how this has been the only problem today. Literally so much good happened #Ugh #dont look at me