#i’m in constant pain

[leclerc-s]

being a charles girlie is not for the weak

#leclerc-s race thoughts #charles leclerc #brazil gp 2023 #formula 1 #i’m in constant pain #give me a break please! #i beg! #ferrari try and produce a decent car challenge #at least nando’s back on the podium #but man were the aussies in a league of their own

[roo-bastmoon]

I have NINE more tests and procedures scheduled between now and November. NINE.

*whispers* I’m so fucking tired…

So as to avoid polluting the timeline with negativity, I’ll probably be on rest most of the time for the foreseeable future.

Unless Jikook decide to Jikook. Then someone may roust me from my cryochamber of self-pity and lethargy.

#fuck tagging #I’m in constant pain #American health care is hell #at least I get to try the Mediterranean diet #if I had the energy I’d start screaming and never stop #I’m gonna go lie flat like a beached whale and regret all my life choices #ow

[noisbat]

me: i can’t keep doing this. it’s just not healthy. it’s no good for me (is watching the last of us)

#i’m in constant pain #the last of us #tlou #the last of us spoilers #tlou spoilers #🥤

[bloomvalyria]

will i ever go 3 days without a migraine again?

#I’m in constant pain #and I’m incredibly depressed #BECAUSE I’m in constant pain #i cant write #i cant edit #i cant really do anything for myself #i just go to work #suffer #then go home and crash from exhaustion #then get up to go back to work #it’s soul crushing #not my gif

[shit-im-bpd-too-now]

Just an update on my life. Lost my job due to my crohn’s and now I’m literally unable to go to the grocery store (,:

#I manage one illness for this?? #I mean fuck guys #I’m on a heating pad all the time #I’m in constant pain #i’m literally losing it

[usedtobemygirl]

i love being ghosted by someone who said they loved me, that i was their dream girl, everything they wanted, who introduced me to their parents, and listened n empathised w me when i told them id been hurt before & how i literally have bpd n am terrified of abandonment and so I was scared but said they’d never want to hurt me lol

#it was all just bullshit I hate u i hate u #how could u do this to me #I’m so hurt I can’t breathe #all I do is cry and throw up #im never trusting anybody ever again #i wanted it to be you so badly why won’t you come back . #im lying here trying not to end my life in so much pain bc I’ve been used again . i don’t want to live I want it to be over pls #i can’t deal w this anymore I hate being alive #literally feel like I’m dying already #I’m in constant pain #i really want it to be done with #i hate myself I’m so unloveable what is wrong with me #txt

[hel1anthus-annuus]

Love this bitch for having multiple gender filters on. He’s transmasc, he’s a woman who’s a man, she’s nothing at all

#i love the idea of writing mizu as effectively nonbinary because of the constant isolation and alienation she feels #identifying with womanhood in a sort of secondary manner— a samurai first and a woman second #explores womanhood through mizu lol #no matter what. shes trans in some way #though i hesitate applying that label #if only because i dont think mizu would identify as trans in any instance; i’m sure mizu thinks he just IS #stuck between womanhood (something she doesn’t really care about) and manhood (a mask for her to put on to fulfill his goals) #and yet transmasc interpretations of mizu UTTERLY FASCINATE ME #AUGH! woman who is a man (this is both a transmasc and nonbinary filter) #thinking back to mizu binding. i wonder how he felt #that scene can have so many gender filters #pain— applicable to both a woman binding to avoid misogyny and a trans man binding to avoid misogyny and dysphoria #i think no matter how you see mizu; he’s dysphoric in that scene #i could go on #blue eye samurai

[faithtrustandjustabitofpixiedust]

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#I want to die so badly right now #things at work suck #I’m lonely all the time #I’m in constant pain #every time something seems like it’s going right it blows up again #and I really don’t know how much more I can take

[chrisevansonly]

no one talk to me okay? just no one….at this point i’m pretending the season is done…where’s the 2024 season now…

#ruesthoughts #rueschats💗 #formula 1 #charles leclerc #charles leclerc x reader #carlos sainz #carlos sainz x reader #ferrari #i’m in constant pain because of ferrari…

[wrongcolorlamborghini]

Also also I continue to believe Joe Locke does not get enough credit for his performance as Charlie Spring like Charlie’s arc in s2 is so much darker, it’s complex and nuanced and it’s raw and he does such a good job of conveying that Charlie is in the very beginning stages of a downward mental health spiral and that he is running himself ragged attending to everyone’s needs but his own omg it just hurts

#heartstopper #joe locke #charlie spring #also as someone who suffered from an ED wow wow wow I’m in pain I’m in constant pain

[kasterarts]

Forever soft for their dynamic <33

#by that I mean I’m in constant pain over them #they are the siblings ever #yttd fanart #yttd #your turn to die #kanna kizuchi #shin tsukimi #doodle

[lazlolemur]

Had some time for sketching today it felt good!!

#Terry hintz #Brad Armstrong #Lisa the painful #my art #Lisa rpg #kind of silly. I always feel like I have to #one up my own past creations. and while it’s good for improvement sure it’s not all that fun #I do love art and love drawing but my constant want to be better at art is draining lol!!!! #and just kinda letting go and sketching feels good. cathartic even. ignore these tags I’m just rambling

[leviiackrman]

TAG CATCH UP: PERSONAL PICREW, QUESTIONS + URL SONGS;

Heyyooooo I’m back (even tho I never left) but these illnesses have been kicking my ass and I FINALLY feel better! I’ve been tagged in a bunch of fun games recently that I’ve been neglecting, but thank you so much to everyone who tagged me! Have an oversized post to suit my oversized fashion taste tehe

Tagged by: URL Tag: @rolangf @carrionsflower @timdownie @thedeadthree || Questions 1: @rosenfey || Questions 2 + Picrew: @binatalia

Tagging: @bbrocklesnar @risingsh0t @statichvm @marivenah @confidentandgood @unholymilf @florbelles @simonxriley @shellibisshe @roofgeese @aezyrraeshh @faerune @tekehu @arklay @jackiesarch @minaharkers @captmactavish @carlosoliveiraa @queennymeria @shadowglens @nightbloodbix @riikugan @heroofpenamstan @fenharel @alexxmason @malefiicarum @gearvmac @gwynbleidd @delzinrowe + @binickmiller

|| hair colour is not accurate cus I’m a brunette but I bleached it recently so it’s a lot warmer than this! Wolf cut going strong tho and not this long but anyway ||

L: Liar Liar - Dylan, Bastille

E: ERA - The Faim

V: Vampire Disco - Friday Pilots Club

I: IDK How to Talk to Girls - Beth McCarthy

I: I Don’t Like You..OK - The Hunna, Kelsey Karter & The Heroines

A: AmEN! - Bring me the Horizon, Lil Uzi Vert, Daryl Palumbo

C: Conquer - Marshmello, Space Laces

K: Kick Back - Kenshi Yonezu

R: Rise (Redux) - The World Alive, League of Legends

M: Make it Out Alive - ONE OK ROCK

A: Animals - Nickelback

N: Not Alone - New Rules

last song: Stormy Weather - Kings of Leon (my saved songs was playing while doing my chores lmao)

currently watching: I’m FINALLY watching American Horror Story (after my bestie pestered me for years aha) and I LOVE it!! I’m also watching The Kardashians cus it’s good background noise when I’m working lmao, and on going critical role etc

3 ships: I’m gonna choose 3 of my oc ships cus brain no function: Margot x Levi, Rin x Dabi + Mineyo x Rin

favourite colour: mustard yellow! Just such a pretty colour and so cheerful!

currently consuming: the daggerheart one shot hehehehe! So now I’m planning ideas for a daggerheart oc for when me and my sister make our characters!

first ship: anakin x padme…. forever a precious ship to me

place of birth: South England, UK

current location: 30 mins from my birth place lmao, I’ve moved a lot tho

relationship status: single pringle as always but my brain clearly is pining cus I keep having dreams about having a partner…

last movie: oh daymn… uhhh idk I don’t really watch films anymore! I think it was Suzume!

currently working on: oh BOY so many things! I’m making the invites, seating plan, table decorations and other bits for my sisters wedding, I also need to make a curtain for our stair window cus it freaks my dad out lmao, more crochet designs for my Etsy shop (critical role characters and Disney princesses are in progress), timelines for my ocs which is taking FOREVER cus i ain’t no writer, more drawings for my ocs, my oc publication, MULTIPLE ideas for oc art and just never ending odd projects cus i CANT. STOP. OH and all the planning for mummas fundraiser/birthday! So it’s a lot aha

are you named after anyone? Not my first name, but my dad went to a garden centre the day my sister was born and chose 2 flowers for our middle names, so she’s Molly Jasmine and I’m Jessica Rose!

when was the last you cried? Uhhh idk I cry a lot, half the time I don’t even realise I am. Probably on the weekend when I was feeling shit

do you have kids? AHAHAHA no. I have 0 intention of having my own children but whenever I’m financially stable (and potentially with someone) I wanna adopt/foster as many kids as I can!

what sports do you play/have you played? When I was younger I played football, hate it now. I play games at work with the kids a lot but nothing legit

do you use sarcasm? I’m British. So what do you think?

what is the first thing you notice about people? Their eyes and smiles! I can tell when someone isn’t smiling genuinely tbh

what is your eye color? Hazel but got a lot of green in them

scary movies or happy endings? Scary movies. That way I can create my own happy endings while enjoying the carnage hehe

any talents? I don’t really believe in ‘talents’, I prefer to think that anyone can CREATE a talent through practice and dedication. I guess you could say my art skills are a talent, but again I practiced for my whole life so it’s not really a talent more than determination. I can also cook decently, dance/sing okay, but they’re not talents to me, just passions

where were you born? The shit hole called England.

what are your hobbies? Oh FUCK I have way too many… drawing, crocheting, editing, writing, reading, watching anime, creating characters + content, puzzles, painting, diamond painting, organising and SO MANY MORE

do you have any pets? I doooo! I have 1 doggo named Harley and she is my pride and joy, I love her sm

how tall are you? 5 foot 11 and a half, so I just say 6 foot

favorite subject in school? Art, history, dance, drama and IT

dream job? Freelance artist or concept artists. Tho the latter is less likely nowadays cus yknow… everything is fucked from AI…

#tagged* #about me* #rolangf #carrionsflower #timdownie #thedeadthree #rosenfey #binatalia #run down of illnesses cus BOY it’s a lot: head cold for over a month turned bacterial infection in my chest #antibiotics gave me a bad UTI cus turns out I’m allergic to penacilldn #constant back pain and headaches #sooooo yeh it’s not been great #but thank you again for the tags!

[iridescentmirrorsgenshin]

also regarding bday mail, in terms of what the traveller knows about alhaitham, alhaitham thinks he’s really suave and that he never namedrops kaveh, even though he’s done it three times, but since they’re his inadvertent big gay musings he couldnt store in his head, he probably assumes no one notices them? So he wouldn’t mention kaveh since he probably thinks he hasn’t done so when the other hasn’t even been present…..

#haikaveh #kavehtham #yes i’m running with the canon fact that alhaitham muses aloud when reading #and also the canon that he says particularly intrusive thoughts aloud like in the archon quest #i think it’s hilarious to think that alhaitham thinks he keeps divisions of his lives separate #As in the level of personal he is with the traveler vs kaveh #But in actuality he’s entirely obvious #i love living with this constant pain!!!

[danzsoldier]

sometimes I think about how Caine is canonically oblivious to the suffering that the humans trapped in the circus go through. Makes me wonder if he even understand the suffering if someone explained it to him because he’s just an AI, a robot with no soul and no understanding of how complex being human can be

#the amazing digital circus #hi tadc fandom as you can see I’m invested in how Caine is unaware of the suffering everyone goes through despite it being so obvious that- #Everyone wants to go home and to their human lives #does he understand why abstraction happens. He knows about it but does he know that the humans that have become abstracted have basically- #lost their minds because of the circus #and in the pilot he was making a fake exit for everyone and it makes me wonder a lot #the way he reacted when Pomni asked how to leave + him trying to make an exit but not finishing it becuz he supposedly didn’t know what- #to put on the other side on it. I kinda think he’s genuinely clueless on why everyone wants to leave so badly and just wants everyone to- #have fun at the circus but he’s a robot he doesn’t get it he’s confused but definitely trying his best to fulfill the constant request of- #an exit #Are you reading this? If you are. Hi. #How many tags does this have oh my god #anyways. Caine is canonically clueless on why everyone wants to go + oblivious to the pain. I think he’s genuinely unable to understand due #to being an AI but I could definitely be wrong since only the pilot is out so far #if I’m actually right then holy shit idk what I’ll do #danny speaks

[localratwithcowboyhat]

Ohh- what’s that, that doesn’t seem normal. Idk what to do w this. Probably go to a doctor but I’m afraid they won’t take me seriously

Welp that kinda sucks

#i would love to buy a cane #silly little personal post #but my parents don’t want me to bc they think i don’t need one #and say that im going to become independent #i realy realy want a cane #would love to get around w out being in like pain #also i think it would help w my fatuige #but I can’t convince them #maybe I should go to a doctor #cronic fatuige #cronic pain?? #disabled #having big impostor syndrome over here #bc i was feeling a lott better td #and I’m like not in constant pain all the time i think #yeah ig im just gonna keep monitoring the symptoms #like i don’t get it #a cane cists 13 € and would help me #are growing pains an actual thing??? #dont think im growing much more at that age #kinda sick of ppl telling me my pains/fatuige arent real bc i have a history of mental illness #cronic pain??? #silly little personal update