#maybe I should go to a doctor

[localratwithcowboyhat]

Ohh- what’s that, that doesn’t seem normal. Idk what to do w this. Probably go to a doctor but I’m afraid they won’t take me seriously

Welp that kinda sucks

#i would love to buy a cane #silly little personal post #but my parents don’t want me to bc they think i don’t need one #and say that im going to become independent #i realy realy want a cane #would love to get around w out being in like pain #also i think it would help w my fatuige #but I can’t convince them #maybe I should go to a doctor #cronic fatuige #cronic pain?? #disabled #having big impostor syndrome over here #bc i was feeling a lott better td #and I’m like not in constant pain all the time i think #yeah ig im just gonna keep monitoring the symptoms #like i don’t get it #a cane cists 13 € and would help me #are growing pains an actual thing??? #dont think im growing much more at that age #kinda sick of ppl telling me my pains/fatuige arent real bc i have a history of mental illness #cronic pain??? #silly little personal update

[nipuni]

Doctor Who report!! We made it to the 12th doctor!! Just finished watching the specials up to 11th regeneration AHHH I'm so excited to meet him!! Looking back on all of 11th run we really enjoyed it, it started weak but it got better and we ended up loving Matt and his companions. We went into it scared that we wouldn't enjoy it because of what we had heard about it on top of the writing style not clicking for us at times but that wasn't the case! it had many good episodes and concepts explored! Ten is still our absolute favourite but Eleven was great!! I'm very hopeful for Capaldi, I also really love his face 😌

#personal #Doctor who #I should make a tag for these reports maybe #did I make one? I don't think I did #DW report #there we go #I just really love the doctor it's impossible not to #speaking of doctors I may need a regular one I have swollen lymph nodes on one side of my jaw I look funny what is going on

[chiropteracupola]

granby + iskierka + keynes

#em draws stuff #em is posting about temeraire #temeraire #iskierka #john granby #doctor keynes #<- I do not know if keynes ever gets a first name so This Shall Do for tagging purposes for the present moment #speaking of which. my logic here is that granby is always getting whopped upside the head and stabbed and shot and dropped from high places #and therefore I think he should maybe cultivate his relationship with his crew's surgeon. because he is going to Need to. #keynes now. My Friend Keynes. I reallyreally would like to know More About Him and how exactly someone ends up as an aerial corps SURGEON #what is UP with this man I would like to KNOW about him #I would like to write fic even maybe. Hello Sir. Your Backstory? #designwise he ended up looking like patrick gallagher who you may be aware of for his role as awkward davies masterandcommander #which was not entirely intentional but I did end up leaning into it as I went on with the drawing. #he looks a lot like many people's version of tharkay here... I should make an effort for distinguishing them by drawing More Tharkays. #either way. keynes and gong su my favorite tem characters I don't really see anyone drawing. my underappreciated blorbos... #(this is maybe because I'm only on book 3 but) keynes is certainly on page a deal more than certain fellows I could name #anyWay. we are slowly creeping up to drawing BigLarge Iskierka but not all the way there yet. Stay Tuned.

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #freema agyeman #sad boy #when will gallifrey come back to me??? #maybe i should go look for another dw book to read #anyways can't believe it's march tomorrow #1.5 weeks until i'm on spring break!!!!

[nei-ning]

Pharmacy worker, earlier today, also recommended me female doctor's blog. She writes a lot about the lack of iron in woman's blood / body. I've been reading the said blog now a bit, finally coming on symptoms (lack of iron). And guys, holy shit!

Tired, out of strength *

Dizziness / fainting *

Cold fingers and toes *

Muscles get tired, weaker recovery *

Restless feet *

Feeling of lacking air and increased heartbeat *

Difficulties to find words, stutter *

Wounds at the edges of your mouth, stinging on tongue

Stinging on feet

Hands and legs becoming numb

Bleeding and easily bruising *

Hair lost *

Weaker immunity system

Flaking nails *

Dry skin and itching *

Pale skin *

Trembling

"Brain fog" *

Behavioral disorders

Dryness of the eyes

Headache *

Sleep disorders *

Depression, Anxiety *

PICA symptom (the need to eat something which is not made to be eaten) I got 16 out of 24! To be honest, I wouldn't be surprised if I lacked iron. After all in my family we never ate anything else than potatoes, wheat and maybe some sausages. In my adulthood, I'm not eating much better... Blood test in next month will tell me more.

#text #neis life #healthy #lack of iron #raudanpuute #Ilona Ritola #No wonder I've felt like I feel #now I can't get over the thought that maybe I lack iron instead of having an actual depression?? #and now then this makes me think that should I call to my doctor on Monday and talk about this with her? #Make her arrange my blood test sooner? #but it would have to be on next week before I go to visit my sis 5h trip away #it could come too soon

[camellcat]

some doctor who cyanotypes I made for my photography class that I just realized I never shared

#I don't actually know if anyone else will find these as cool as I did #but my tablemate and my teacher thought these turned out super good looking #so I wondered maybe if I showed them to people who actually watch doctor who that y'all might like them as well #I mean I know they're dead messy but it was soo fun to do #if you've got the chance to make a cyanotype you totally should. fantastic medium #btw the first is titled “the doctor(s)” if ur curious lol #I'll be honest I'm not the biggest fan of the second one but it certainly got me some compliments so #I'm thinking it's an “I made this therefor I do not like it” and less of an “it's trash” issue #is this art? does this count as art? #I won't tag the fanart tag ig since idk but I'll use my own since I still technically made these with my own two hands #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #doctor who #my art: oil paint pawsteps 🐾 #ohh. I also just realized I never shared my clara collage I made for this class either #I'm not going to show that one bc it IS trash but I think it's funny how clara is just my ultimate muse in all of my projects

[nyupuun]

Rosen Knight

#baronne de fleur #ruddy rose dragon #blood rose dragon #black rose dragon #chevalier de fleur #sherry leblanc #aki izayoi #yugioh 5ds #roseknightshipping #GOD I LOVE ROSEKNIGHTSHIPPING when me and my friend got to sherrys episode i was so happy even if her german voice was a little flop #i also just love the imagery that rose dragons and de fleur monsters make im so #ohhhhh #i keep wanting to draw but im so. tired all the time #sorry :[ #maybe i should go to the doctor...

[variousqueerthings]

tbh the "male-presenting" comment on doctor who isn't such a big surprise, and kinda does highlight a moment in time rn where in more progressive circles we're still struggling with binary and gender-essentialist assumptions around what we perceive to be "masculinity as something bad" whether it be trans men, non-binary people who don't present femme "enough," intersex people with facial hair and/or other so-called "masculine" features, butches and studs, trans women who "don't pass in the right way" or aren't out, questioning people, and any number of people who exist within gender and sex squiggly spaces, and don't feel welcome because of faux-progressive language constantly trying to redefine who we can exclude and what the oppression hierarchy looks like (women+, women and nb, femmes and thems, afab and amab as shorthand replacing woman and man, male- and female- "presenting", etcetc) rather than actually dismantling/liberating these structures

the ick feeling ive seen a lot of people have with it is neat to see, but it's not a moment that exists in an ignorant vacuum, it very much does echo things we need to be unpacking irl within our own communities and it should lead people to really go into "well what is it about it that comes off as so wrong, especially as the rest of the episode is very trans positive, and are those assumptions things that exist within my own perception of trans equality"?

yeah, hope to see more inclusiveness in the show moving forwards, and also irl moving forwards, because that was a reflection

#doctor who #dw #the giggle #trans stuff #ive been thinking about this a lot #because i didn't enjoy that moment but i also wasn't like #*oh rtd you didnt fully understand* because tbh ive seen way more than my fair share of versions of this #to know that he IS in the zeitgeist of language with this one and that should shine a spotlight on us and our biases #i say trans equality because the episode is trans-specific but i was thinking if maybe gender equality is more right and encompassing? #go to bed me

[ifthestarsarewilling]

i need to be adopted by doctor carmilla like. right now

#shes my mother and i love her #i collect parent figures like i collect terry pratchett books #i think this is the brain fuckery again actually #should maybe probably go to a doctor about that but ehhhh #dae:) #the mechanisms #the mechs #dr carmilla #doctor carmilla #why am i like this (incapable of calling her carmilla) #its either 'mom' or 'the doc'/'doc c' #it's the brain fuckery i think

[wolfsplosion]

cone man

#twrp #twrp band #doctor sung #my art #going to be honest with you. I originally didn't draw in that tank top #and realized at the last second that maybe .. I should clothe him #he can have a little modesty . as a treat . in this drawing where I clearly find him very handsome

[guinevereslancelot]

eye doctor was trying not to scare me today bc i have a sight threatening condition 🥲 it's probably treatable but i need to go to a specialist

#havent been to the eye doctor in six years but i was like okay i need to update my prescription my headaches are getting really bad #and my prescription barely changed so the doctor said it wasnt that #also this other condition doesn't cause headaches either so treating it wont even help :( #tho it does make me light sensitive which is a trigger ao maybe it will help a little i hope #but mostly i hope its treatable #also i have no health insurance so hopefully its not expensive lol #but at least the job search is going well so maybe i can handle the treatment myself #but since i will go blind if its untreated my parents will definitely cover it if i cant i just feel bad #they paid for my appt to get the new prescription today too but that wasn't very much i didn't even get the new glasses #but seeing a cornea specialist regularly to treat a scary condition is going to be expensive 😭 #i dont even know how expensive yet tho #maybe i should make a gofundme or something #this has been a shitpost #im not 100% sure my parentsncan afford it if its expensive #probably depends how far its progressing and how fast andnwhat the cause is and a million other things #but i know it can be difficult and resist treatment 😰 #and its not early for catching it at all

[powderflower]

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

#ranting in tags #my dad is going to the ER and hes like a super ‘i dont need to go to the doctor’ guy so im a little freaked tf out #anyways #fuck #fuckkkk #pray for him ? i guess idk #theres nothing else anyone can do #fuuuck and we were going to a comedy show tonight #and im not gonna want to go without him #god fucking damnit #any fucking ways #jesus i hope he will be okay #maybe i should pray :( #id ont know #im #fuck man

[quietwingsinthesky]

doctor who human!au with multiple doctors but they’re all named by their numbers because they’re all trans and picked them out theirselves.

#they’re NERDS. #and then across the street lives their older neighbors. the normal sounding professor yana (<- also trans) and. War. (<- very obviously #trans.) #akdjjflfj i think if i wrote a fic like this i would genuinely just end up using their numbers as names #and give this as the in-universe excuse to do so. maybe they collaborated. #if they’re siblings in it then they definitely did #ten voice: you know we should probably also have normal names if we change our birth certificates. something people won’t raise an eyebrow #at just so that we can go stealth if we need to. || eleven voice (<- married a woman who named herself RIVER SONG.): sorry i can’t hear you #ive already changed mine and i gave myself sixteen new middles names #(thirteen: you know john smith isn’t a normal name right? it’s too normal. it’s suspicious. || ten: >:( || twelve: (the only person trying #to sleep at the sleepover voice) Please Shut The Fuck Up) #human!sibling!doctors au

[turnleft]

do you ever think about how in journey’s end donna thought she had nothing else to live for, but in the star beast she had something (someone) to die for

#like!!!! in JE she chose death because there was truly no reason for her to live #(ofc the doctor did not let her die and he wiped her mind against her wishes to die as the doctordonna) #and then in the star beast she chose death because of rose. because of shaun. because of sylvia and wilf and all of london #ofc tsb isn’t the first case of donna agreeing to risk her life/sacrifice herself for someone else #she jumped in front of ten when the racnoss empress ordered to shoot him #‘never mind us’ in fires of pompeii #the suicide in turn left (and she didn’t even know the doctor in that universe and still gave her own life for him) #ANYWAYS back to my point #the difference between her choosing death because her old life is so depressing vs her in TSB choosing death bc her old life needs saving #you can say she was pretty much suicidal in JE #and fifteen years later she got her own family. a husband. a daughter that she loves more than anything. a mother who actually appreciates- #-her. #maybe i’m connecting random dots but i think it’s a beautiful example of why you should always keep going. things WILL get better. #my posts #donna noble

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

yaz voice: i keep thinking,,, i keep thinking abt the.....future affecting the past of it all. the "if he runs out of time the hostile action would end and a time machine would know", "im fine because you fixed yourself", and "because it's not a grave"

like if it were me. if it were me. i still would have gone with the villa diodati conundrum. "save the poet, save the universe" what do we do when the poet IS the universe. "watch people burn now or tomorrow" like the distinction exists? like tomorrow isnt yesterday?

so we make them face the child. the doctor loses this one, right? too beholden to their rules. lost with shelley, will lose with the child. because there is no way to win it. not with the rules of the universe theyve clung to up to this point. not without play

so theres a child that needs to be saved but the doctor cant do it because it will take the foundation out from under the universe. she Can Not interfere. she fails to be the doctor when it comes to herself. but yaz is there. doctor's doctor. wont accept this. saves the child

the universe crumbles, but this or tecteun's revenge the outcome is similar except. the universe that crumbles if you save the child is the timelords' universe, their imposed histories, their laws, their logic. nothing makes sense anymore. it's terrifying. gotta let go gotta let go gotta let go. you HAVE to play. play or perish. please it's not that serious. it's just identity! funniest game there is. listen to the master; tag, youre it

#i admit theres a lot of details to work out #a lot of details ive forgotten about also #but give me a minute and a rewatch of every episode since 2019 and i'll be good to go #hdfkjhgj #i Would like to write my own version of idk everything since halfway s12 i guess #but it'd be so much work man #and for who #well me i suppose #maybe one day #also now that ive written it out loud a 'future affecting the past' theme seems inevitable if youve got a writer #responding to his own old work #but i really do need to rewatch to remind myself of all the details i need to fill in and check off here #theres a lot im missing #but if it were me! #if it were me the scene where yaz stops the doctor and runs off to save the child would echo the end of 12x10 #the aftermath of it would be brutal i think #13 would be torn apart by conflicting impulses #YOU SHOULDNT HAVE/yes you should have it was the right thing to do/but ILLEGALIMPOSSIBLE/you did what i coudlnt (shamepride)/ #it was done for love/how dare you/it was done for ME/the universe cant suffer for me i cant bear that/ #you had no right to make that choice/i wanted to protect you from it/you had no right to put the end of the universe on me like that #she would break open completely it'd be messy as fuck #and incredible to see #and then i havent even imagined yazs responses yet

[darehearts]

so my surgery is scheduled for the 17th 😵‍💫

#my brain is just not cooperating on what the hell is going on like!! #i am honestly wondering if i should just go on hiatus completely #so i dont have to keep making posts like this freaking out about my #own existence. i dont know babes. the doctor was like youre too #young for this and im like.. bones vc: tell me something i dont know #i'll just try to table this for 10 days... my anxiety is back or maybe #it has been back for a while and i just wasnt in situations to trigger it #but i have been nauseous for 2 days it's been a trip. i'm questioning #everything in my life at this point that led me to this point it's ?? hm #tbd #vent tw #medical tw #anxiety tw