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So, my trip to UK was "canceled" due me and sis being unwell with stomach issues. Sure, I feel a bit sad but this is best solution. It would be pure hell to travel for 10h with upset stomachs!

So we moved our trip at the end of September. I hope we can go there then! :) It would be nice way to celebrate my birthday, too!

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Wanted to draw something fast and simple before my trip. Been, slightly, in a drawing mood the last couple of days but hasn't manage to do a thing.

BUT BEHOLD!

I actually drew something now! :D Didn't know I would need this pair in my life (had never crossed my mind either) but here we are, ahah!

#tmn #tmnt2003 #tmnt2018 #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rise Leo #Leonardo #Raphael #tcest #RaphxLeo #Raph/Leo #neis drawing #Not happy with Leo's head's shape tho #it was HARD #fought with it too long to be honest

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Power saving 🦊 Wallpaper size on Patreon LINK ^_^

#Fox #foxes #cute #cuteness #reblog in 2024 #kettu

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Just finished playing FF7 Remake Rebirth and, let me tell you, IT SUCKS. If you haven't play original FF7 back in 90's, then sure you'll like this one, but if you have... Well, you KNOW and SEE all the things which have been added, made longer and boring and just purely stupid, confusing, flashing events back and forth, jumping from character to another, added bosses which weren't in original game (some characters included as well).

Like yesterday, I started to play, thinking I play chapter 13 and then go to bed since it can't be that long. BULLSHIT! I spend 12-14 HOURS playing ONLY THAT CHAPTER straight (no breaks!) even that I didn't even explore ANY areas! Just went straight for the main scenes. In original FF7 you just went to that place, did your thing, and got out. Simple. Now? Oh no, no, no! Instead you had to go there and do this, then jump to this group and do that, then back to other group and run there, watch cut scenes over and over and over again for HOURS! It was infuriating, tiring and just stupid (wasted use of resources too). Don't get me wrong, cut scenes are good IF they have been used with good taste. Now? NOPE! They were only there to make the scenes LONGER without any other purpose. If Square Enix would have leave all those stupid nonsenses out of the game, making it 100% the same as the original one was, the game would had fit in first disk but now there's just too much stuff. Which, again, is annoying and has no bigger meaning or any effect on the story. Also some boss fights, especially at the end. For God's sake! In those fights the camera is so restless! I mean there's so much "cut scenes" where the boss wiggles and screams and does thing X etc. That was BORING! The movement in those situations is also so fast and confusing and messy that you can't even see shit!

Then all that fucked up nonsense from Kingdom Hearts where everyone is: "You can change your fate." No, you fucking can't. Whatever is meant to happen, HAPPENS sooner or later. You can't avoid or change it. Not to mention all that is Kingdom Hearts stuff and it should stay there. Keep FF7 as it originally was!

Also, just because in modern day we can use amazing graphics and effect in games doesn't mean they make the game better. It doesn't and it shows is FF7 Remake. There's honestly SO MUCH things I HATE in FF7 remake. Sorry about the rant but I'm honestly pissed and so disappointed. IF Square Enix would had kept FF7 Remake 100% THE SAME as original FF7 with modern day's graphics... That game would instantly have become the best game ever made! Now? FF7 Remake is like shit hitting the fan, that shit raining on original FF7 (which, still, is the most amazing game I've ever played. You simply CAN'T beat that original game).

I am NOT looking forward to FF7 Remake's third game. Sure I can play it if sis gets it but I'm NOT buying it, or any previous disks, myself. I'm not tossing my money to Square Enix when they give something like that what I do not enjoy.

#text #rant #Final Fantasy 7 Remake #FF7 Remake #FF7 Remake Rebirth #delete later

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"Being outside is exhausting... I hate it." - Vincent (Final Fantasy 7 Remake Rebirth)

#Text #Ff7 remake #Vincent #Words of wisdom #I can relate to his words

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The world's greatest hero meets the world's greatest ninja.

I'll admit, it's a rush job, but I just HAD to get @angelpuns DTIYS out of my system otherwise I would not be alright. These two make me so emotional and knowing that Big Leo is someway somehow going to make an appearance in Kid Leo AU has me stupid excited. I have no idea if this is how their interaction will go necessarily, but let me dream, ok?

#tmnt #tmnt2018 #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rise Leo #Future Leo #kid Leo #old Leo #Leonardo #OOHHH! #I don't know anything about this AU #but I LOVE this art! #It's shooting emotional arrows in my heart right away! #and don't make me start HOW BEAUTIFUL this art is! #Just GORGEOUS! #reblog in 2024

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Bought 3,5mm crochet hook today, making little basket out of my head, ahah! Just wanted to test the hook and yarn. It came out quite cute even with mistake(s). My little frog fits in it perfectly! I will tie him on the basket, putting that basket to hang on my bag :3

#Crochet #Basket #Crafting #Neis photo #Photo #Frog #Virkkuu

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Sob sob sob! I've seen so many cute and easy crochet videos on Pinterest that I want to try them! But guess what? I have no right sized crochet hook! Mine is so damn small it's good for nothing! Why so small has ever even been made!?

I really wanted to crochet QAQ Maybe I just settle on making hot chocolate and write one chapter before my trip.

#text #crochet #perhaps I should buy yarn and hook in UK #and crochet there :D #unless my friend's cats will keep me busy ahah! <3 #I honestly should clean but I just can't #I should play FF7 remake too but apparently I can't do that either #Would like to draw but can't get myself to do that either

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By David McClure. IG / Print

#Body horror #horror #gore #creepy #not for sensitive people #THIS would had been great idea for a boss in Blasphemous II #reblog in 2024 #dark themes

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I've been thinking that comic of mine recently A LOT, wanting to create something similar to it and THEN YOU SLAM THIS TO MY FACE! :'D Are you, secretly and unknowingly, trying to hint me something?! xD

Old + Junior from Archie comic! Idea a belongs to @nei-ning fancomic ;D

#tmnt #tmnt adventures #tmnt comic #old future Raphael #Raph #Raphael #RaphxRaph #selfcest #Myself and I #tcest #just in case #reblog in 2024

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I have forgot to announce one thing:

I'm going for a trip next week! <3 First I go to sis' on 23th of April and on 28th of April we will head to UK, to stay with lovely @reservoirmonks and their husband. We stay there to 9th of May and then I stay with sis to 16th of May before coming back home.

I wouldn't be able to make this trip without reservoirmonks and their husband. They follow me here on Tumblr so they have been aware of my life and unpleasant happenings in it. Verti's death, my own mental health and life collapsing completely with his death, months of eating depression medicines which didn't help etc.

They had contacted my sister and then my sister called me on 8th of October last year. She said to me on the phone: "Reservoirmonks and their husband are buying you flying tickets as an early 40th year birthday gift. So you're coming with me to UK."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing! I honestly and truly, for the first time ever, started to cry because I was so happy! I cried so much, thanking sis and telling her to deliver my thanks to Reservoirmonks too. Of course I thanked them personally as well later after getting over this happy shock! (God, I'm STILL getting teary with positive disbelief!)

I am still so blown away about their kindness, this opportunity while still feeling so happy of being able to go on a travel and meet them after years! I am SO happy and SO excited already! <3

I take my laptop with me at sis' but I am not sure do I want to take my laptop with me to UK. I don't know how I can use internet there and so on. Plus laptop would be extra weight :'D But we'll see!

#text #announcement #neis life #trip to UK #I am SO excited! I truly am! #Reservoirmonk's husband has promised to take us on a drive #and I'm REALLY looking forward to that! :D #I've been in their car few times on a drive and I LOVED it!

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Mom took me for shopping today all of the sudden and I got these cuties! Lynx is from mom as an early birthday gift and that weird moth/dragon thing I bought to myself since I knew it would regret for leaving it behind.

JUST LOOK HOW CUTE THEY ARE!! <3 damn squishmallows!

#squishmallows #lynx #moth #I don't know what it really is but I call it moth :'D #neis photo #photo #toy #plushie

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Long, and too weird, dream to be written fully so I write only the end.

2003 turtle boys were at April's place. Very beautiful and modern house inside. Everyone else had to leave somewhere, leaving Raph and Mikey alone in her apartment. Naturally Mikey got bored, starting to chase Raphael (I was in Raph, seeing everything from his view) while telling funny real stuffs for an unknown reason.

Raphael squeezed himself in April's tiny bathroom, black & white, very fancy one, Mikey trying to come in too while Raphael tried to push the door back shut. As the space was very narrow, Raphael's hand touched April's make-up brush, making him jump and scream: "Ew! April's make-up brush touched me!"

This let Mikey get in the bathroom but Raphael had now got in tiny sauna, sitting there with a shower head in his hand. When Mikey peeked in, still talking, Raphael soaked him with cold water but it had no effect. He just kept talking!

I remember Mikey telling a joke:

"A woman asked me why I smell like woman's parfume. I smiled and said: So, you can smell my ghost." (apparently there even actually was a ghost which followed Mikey)

Raphael burst to laugh while still sitting in cold sauna, eventually saying to Mikey who was already telling another joke thing: "Let me laugh more ta that ghost thing!"

I was now myself, coming out of sauna wearing only a towel around myself, giggling to Mikey's ghost joke too. As I crossed over slightly "flooding" road, heading towards old red brick building with rusty iron fence around it, I realized that 1. I was in 1800's city / town, making me think if Nightmare Creatures game (places in 1800 London) for PS1 and 2. Everyone from my family was out so there was a possibility doors were locked and I wouldn't be able to get inside.

I turned to look to my right, seeing grass garden area across the road, fenced one, where was 4 to 5 deer. They all stared at something (dark evening / night) before running off. At the same moment when they ran off, I heard loud zombie sound (moan, groan or however you like describe it). I knew I was screwed. That this zombie had seen me and was coming to me, fast, even that I couldn't see or hear it. The feeling in the dream changed from weird and hilarious into so horrible one that I noped myself out of that dream.

When I woke up, I realized I couldn't feel my legs! Nothing from hips down! I either had been sleeping too long in same position (on my stomach which is rare) or then the fear I felt in my dream had "paralyzed" me here or I was sleeping so heavily, my legs being so relaxed that they became heavy and numb.

#Text #Dream #Neis dream #Tmnt #Tmnt2003 #Raphael #Michelangelo #Nightmare #Zombie #I also saw UFOs in my dream #I was at the cemetery with school time friend #In the far away country side #Forest surrounded the graveyard with some trees #And lots of snow #Clear winter sky with milky way #And there on this pretty sky flew 3 different UFOs in turns #18.4.2024

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REBLOG SO WE CAN MAKE THIS HAPPEN!!

#Tmnt #Tmnt 40th anniversary #Reblog in 2024

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I dreamed about Verti last night.

I was in this house with mom, trying to clean when I noticed Verti coming to my feet, then playfully crawling under the couch. I said to him, or mom, something about feeding him soon.

I then realized the sad truth, starting to tear up. I turned to look at my mother while holding a tiny bag of cat's wet food, saying with tiny voice: "But I no longer have Verti..."

I started to wipe tears from my eyes, waking up doing the same in real life.

#text #dream #neis dream #Verti #cat #cats are the best

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#Monster #horror #skeleton #pixel #pixel art #dark art #reblog in 2024

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I tried to clean away Christmas stuffs since, well, I haven't been in shape of cleaning at all in months. Now that I finally felt I could do something, I managed perhaps an hour before getting exhausted and incredibly pissed.

Main reason is there's too much stuff! Seriously. Bedroom is a storage room, only one side of the bed being able to sleep on. There's boxes and boxes and bags of stuff. Some going to second hand shop, luckily.

Another reason is the LACK of storage. In whole house there's some cabins in kitchen, 2 narrow cabins (tall) in small hallway, "open" cabin for jackets and hats and shoes (this is full of stuff too) and then in bedroom 5 cabins' row, all tall but narrow. They ALL are so damn full of stuff too!

I know I'm part of the fault since I love Christmas stuff, buying something little each year. Another issue is mom. She is a hoarder more or less. She brings in stuff (most of the times she won't even use those items anyway), never throwing anything away. Sis also has start to leave her stuffs here but her situation I get since her apartment isn't even half of this big as our place. Her stuff is small ones too which can be stored in bags and boxes.

So, I am now, in all seriousness, thinking of buying good sized chest of drawers. We, at least, could put bed sheets, duvet covers and pillow cases, perhaps towels too, in it. Would free some room from those narrow cabins in bedroom

We also, AGAIN, should go through the cabins and just COLDLY throw things away. We've been living here since 2008 and mom still has curtains (PILES of them) which have NEVER seen the light of day...

Sorry about the rant. I'm just honestly so pissed, frustrated, tired, exhausted and hungry.

#text #rant #neis life #time to go check Ikea's online store #see if they have good chest of drawers there #delete later