#i'm at the end of my rope

[ddeck]

istg some of you react to being called out for racist behavior like you were put in a saw trap and ordered to cut off your leg

#the way people refuse to let go of their ignorance is beyond frustrating #i'm at the end of my rope

[godofsmallthings]

we need to start making cute shoes that aren't uncomfortable/absolutely out to destroy feet

#i'm at the end of my rope #vi is typing...

[bisolationist]

Ooookay I finally found out why I've gotten like 50 fucking messages telling me to kms since new years, and

A) Hey please don't send messages to people on my behalf, especially to wedge it into a completely unrelated argument, and double especially not to support some guy saying "misandry" is just as bad as misogyny. I think it should be pretty clear from my years around here that I do not believe or support that. If there's anything that makes me fucking angry it's my experiences with a female rapist being used as a gotcha against feminists. I'm not a fucking MRA or anti-feminist puppet and my experiences are not yours to use for your weird agendas. Also all sending weird messages about me does is encourage more deranged people to come out of the woodwork and harass me. I don't care if people talk shit about me that's their problem. At most maybe you can let ME know and see if I wanna say anything, but honestly even that gets tiresome because there's blooms where I'm apparently radblr's #1 Worst Man That Ever Lived for things I didn't even say.

B) That said, I have absolutely no idea why that person talking shit about me suddenly made it about pregnancy. *I* was the one from my very first reply to say that it's important to acknowledge physiological differences between men and women, and that things like pregnancy are HUGE factors in how traumatic an assault can be. So IDK why people are putting in words in my mouth about supposedly saying the opposite of what I've actually said? The discussion was about how OP was categorizing rape in a binary of "truly horrific, degrading, and traumatic" vs "bad but not Bad Bad, certainly NOT horrific and it's fucked up that people think it's horrific" and people jumped on to agree and add things like "rape is something that doesn't ruin a boy's life" or "I think most like it actually we need to acknowledge this <3" and increasingly vile shit like that. That goes way beyond acknowledging physiology and misogyny and steps directly into mocking rape victims and minimizing the impact of sexual assault. If me saying "actually all rape is horrific, degrading, and traumatic" and this makes you fucking livid, that's more about why YOU think raping certain people is "not that bad".

C) Super cool how people in comments in her shit are making excuses about how I'm a "Brain dead moid" and all the shit radfems have been saying to me isn't real harassment or is justified lol. I want any of these people talking shit about me to explain to me off anon why comments like this or this are so based. And that's not even the worst of it by far, there's people openly saying I'm probably the rapist, that they wish my rapist had killed me, that I'm an antifeminist for speaking about my experiences at all, and all sorts of shit. There were weeks where I had to mass delete my inbox every morning because it's just full of people telling me how I'm morally repugnant for not agreeing my rape was No Big Deal (TM). Also, all of this is frankly humiliating. You think I want to talk or think about this all the fucking time? That I want my friends on here to start thinking about me as that guy that was raped? I absolutely hate this more than I can possibly explain for that reason a lone. I also know that I'm one of the few people in a position to speak up about this and I don't think I have to let it slide as no big deal either, but it SUCKS for me.

D) On the whole I agree on a lot of radical feminist's view and am eager to stand up for them and women in general in the capacity that I can, but I'm not a fucking radfem puppet either, sorry. I don't have to pretend it isn't obvious most of the harassment is coming from radfems, and that there isn't a completely deranged rf faction that are ardent rape apologists (both against boys/men but also against girls/women - I spend 85% of my time in GC spaces speaking out against people calling bi women pornographic language when discussing them!). I don't think they're rape apologists *because* they're radfems, but rather rape apologism is something ingrained into just about every culture and people often twist ideologies to make their biases sound moral and upright. Every single ideology has this problem. Still doesn't excuse the fact that the rape apologists within radblr are coddled and defended even by people that claim not to agree with them because people view this as a sports match or something.

#personal #as to point D I am also aware and grateful of how many radfems DID speak up and say something #hence why I'm not happy for people to use it as an anti-radfem thing on the whole #sorry to go on another rant about this I'm so sorry but #I'm at the end of my rope #the female rapist fanclub has been at this since the end of september

[chickensarentcheap]

I've been up all of twenty minutes and I'm already 'f*ck this, I'm going back to bed.'

LOL

#help me Elmo #I'm at the end of my rope

[cur10uscr0w]

I can't afford a covid booster, idk how long I will even be able to continue hrt at this rate. I've been having chest pains near nightly from anxiety attacks. I've been overlooked by well over my 300 applications quota it takes to get a job these days. I need something regular. It doesn't even need to be much. I just need money so I can make minimum payments on recovering from kitten and car debt and maybe treat myself to the anti-plague serum if I'm lucky. Maybe I'd stop having debilitating chest pain every night.

#Crow musings #i'm at the end of my rope #negative #delete later

[gardenianoire]

I drank the last if my box of wine and that calmed me down

still gonna have to turn to s*x w*rk

#I'm at the end of my rope

[mean-vampyre]

there has to more to life than being 26 and suicidal because you can’t get a job and you don’t even want a job. where is the love

#happy birthday to me #i'm at the end of my rope #WHERE IS THE LIVE WORTH LIVING #and discovering love and the world #this is so tragically sad #did everything right all my life for this? #okay well this isn't right i need to find love and life #can't even celebrate my birthday because i can't stand to face my family and confess that I have managed to fail this much

[sobeautifullyobsessed]

 To My Fellow Writers- because I am remiss...

I haven’t been keeping up with anyone’s fics/updates, let alone reblogging or commenting, because I have a major upheaval going on in my life right now, and it has me very depressed and despondent. Feels like everything in my life has broken down, and I’m just holding on by the skin of my teeth.

This has, of course, given me a huge case of Writer’s Block, where writing used to be my one solace against my struggles. As much as I’d like to read your works right now, it hurts like hell to do so. Once, I would have found comfort in your works, that fails me right now. And it’s not like writing is a competition, but still I feel like I’m being left behind in the dust.

So, I’m very sorry to anyone I’m disappointing by not providing input and support. Right now, I honestly feel like I’m never going to be the writer I was before, again. And that leaves me feeling pretty useless as well.

#please don't reply #my sincere apologies #I'm at the end of my rope #trials & tribulations of a writer

[somethingusefulfromflorida]

Hey, tourists, instead of rapping on the glass with your greasy hands, why don't you ring the big glowing doorbell that says PLEASE RING FOR SERVICE? I guess literacy is too much to ask considering you missed the massive NO VACANCY sign hung up at eye level on the very door you just knocked.

#no patience #i'm at the end of my rope #all tourists are bastards #the customer is always wrong #labor day weekend #tourists #tourons

[tiredlittleoldme]

How do I get rid of writer's block? Wrong answers only

#and right #i'm at the end of my rope #haven't written in so long #and have to write an article #french writeblr #writeblr #french writer #writing problems

[wanna-b-poet31]

writing isn’t a gift, it’s a skill like studying the blade only a million times less satisfying when you try to wield your weapons and they only get a papercut 

#writing #writblr #tumblr #writers on tumblr #listen #i'm at the end of my rope #these revisions suck #while I was writing you studied the blade

[cononeillbreastingboobily]

Getting dark before 4 pm let's goooo

#i'm at the end of my rope #help lmao #just polish things 🥰🥰🥰

[rhys-ravenfeather]

...why am I always expected to be the strong one?

Look, don’t get me wrong--I’m happy to give my friends a shoulder to lean on, or cry on, when they have to, and just help however I can--but whenever I’m at the bottom of my rope and need help, more often than not, no one even SEES, whether it’s venting about it in Discord groups, or talking about it here on Tumblr.

Heck, even my hecking counselor is no good--I go to him, talk about my problems, and he’s just...worthless. He’s basically just a sound board...listening to me talk, and bounce my ideas off him, and giving no real advice, or comfort. And there’s no way in hell I’m talking to my mom about my problems.

Okay yeah, so I tend to be older than most of my friends, but that doesn’t mean I have everything together??????

#rhys-ravenfeather signing on #vent #i didn't sleep too well last night and been stressed over my kitchen flooding and money in general for the last couple of days and i just... #i'm at the end of my rope #i'm here worried and freaking out and just CANNOT DEAL with anyone else's problems right now #i'm internally screaming with how worried i am about my future and wondering what i'm going to do #and i bet no one is even going to see this post... #look sorry to sound bitter but yeah

[ogsherlockholmes]

Good morning/afternoon/evening/day/whatever time zone you are in, greetings. 

This isn’t an actual post, just a mini update on my life (without actual giving too much info on my life because you know...anonymity and internet safety reasons). 

I have no WiFi at my house and the date for that to be fixed keeps getting pushed back, so I haven’t been able to post as regularly as I wanted to. I’ve tried to show my existence and prove that I’m actually still alive by reblogging things or occasionally posting a suprisingly long Meta whenever I’ve had the chance, and that is unlikely to change for a while now. 

At the moment, however, I’m working on a project for the entire month of October that will be ACD Sherlock related (I promise), unless the WiFi is still be stubborn, but I will try my best. I’m not going to go into too much detail just in case I won’t be able to go through with it, but I’m attempting to stay positive (attempting is an important word). Because of this, it might be a while until I’m actually on here, because I’ll be using my WiFi time, as I’m calling it, for this project.

It’s very rare that I’m able to look at the notes or comments on my posts, but I’m so happy seeing that people are still interacting with this blog, so thank you to everyone :)

Let’s hope I won’t disappear for a month again :|

#i'm at the end of my rope #:):):):) #please WiFi #be fixed

[fearsomeandwretched]

anytime I see someone defend amber heard not on this website they have to throw in what a horrible person they think she is 😭

#I'm at the end of my rope

[lousolversons]

Joel + Tess in S01E03 of The Last Of Us HBO

#tlouhboedit #the last of us hbo #joeltess #joel miller #tess servopoulos #joel x tess #tess x joel #anna torv #pedro pascal #tlou spoilers #tlou hbo spoilers #tvedit #referring to her as 'mine' #i'm @ the end of my rope #1k