#idk i feel like i shouldnt give a shit and most of the time i dont even think abt u anymore bc youre not part of my life but also u were

[snekdood]

im probably not the best person to say this given the way ppl see me on here but like... @ some cis women... who is blowing smoke up your ass this much that you think you can do this shit and that you’ll actually find “the perfect dude” bc i promise going on social media to find lonely desperate simpy dudes who are so insecure they need the validation of some woman whos a stranger online to feel like they’re worth something in the moment? i’m sorry but you and i both know you’re never gonna find That Dude, especially not this way. how in tf do you think you’re so worth it to do this shit like sdjbsdj these dudes need to stop fawning over women who are like this bc the truth is they don’t even want to actually date people, a lot of women like this just go on dating sites or whatever to ALSO just validate themselves. they need to know or tell themselves men are chasing after them so they can forever continue disregarding them and forever continue to simp after that one celebrity she’ll never get an inch close to fucking let alone date.

#videos #fave #sorry to be harsh but gawddamn. #idk where yall get off thinking you're worth chasing like!!! im sorry but i do not give an inch of a fuck. #do you see me??? you need to be chasing ME if you want a fuckin chance alright #yall find the lonliest most touch deprived men who are probably on the brink of suicide to drain of their ability to validate you so you #can just dump them in the trash later after you're all full #what a boring type of person my god. and im sure you make this shit your personality too likwe. #wtf are your skills. bc being hot isnt enough for me lol. #id much rather die alone with dignity and self respect than give women like this the time of day let alone the moment to feel like #shes above me enough to just randomly earn my validation. i do not fuckin care ma'am!! sorry #i do not care about validating and encouraging your narcissism. and i dont like to call women narcissistic all that often but christ. #go become a lesbian already and leave men alone lol bc clearly you dont actually wanna date them #like im not saying confidence in yourself and knowing you're worth wanting is bad. its just that we all know this girl isnt sincere. #she doesnt want to actually find a guy. shes waiting for fuckin. harry styles or something to swoop in. #also shes deeply insecure too. we know shes also doing this to feel validated on how she looks since she knows so many dudes are #looking. and clearly she cant validate herself so she relies on shit like this and i bet my money she does it on tinder too #if you're this distrusting of men that you gotta put up all these weird rules like 'not talking till u find the perfectly hot enough dude' #which you and i both know is stupid and arbitrary- maybe if you distrust men this much you shouldnt be looking for date in them #bc lord knows all those dudes were lying about being 6 feet lol #this is like somehow a worst way to find dates than tinder #congratulations. i didnt know that was possible lol

[austinsastrology8991]

> Ascendant Aspects < How you Appear to be, and how your treated based off your appearances > why you look like a clown without makeup

Ascendant aspecting Sun - I like your smile. Did you put it on for me, or for yourself? yes your charismatic, yes we noticed why your so confident, yes your literally the greatest person do you really need us to shower you in affection all the fkn time? your extra but too many toppings ruin a good pizza. your the embodiment of the cheesy smile from that cat in alice in wonderland. main character energy for sure you get the attention and you know how to use it Ascendant Aspecting moon - 🌚 < dont they look like that.? idk but you guys look like someone you want to grab the cheeks of and treat like a baby, your like a sugar glider. but we know your emotional so we have to be careful with how we grab your cheeks 👀 please stop crying its just a joke > also; big ass eyes. you are so sweet that everyone just wants to take you home and feed you till you become so obese you cant leave Ascendant Aspecting Mercury - the most devilish and cheeky smile all at once. they look like a kid about to do something bad, or have just been caught doing something bad and are now trying to explain why they had to do that dumbassery. but no matter how much you explain yourself, we will still question you because its funny watching you come up with explanations. you give me the vibe of any character from cartoon network or nickledoen - timmy turner, southpark, phineas and ferb, ed edd and eddy, or fkn bart simpson, you act like a cartoon yes.

Ascendant Aspecting Venus - I dont normally do this but whats ur number? is what your used to hearing presumably. and its not necessarily because your attractive... okay you are, you can stop pouting now. but its because you know how to get attention and you clearly love getting it. but they act so superficial, and oblivious sometimes... like they purposrfully look away just so its easier for you to look at them, 💀 then they look back playfully and it gets you in the feels. remind me of doctor who's bitches (any of them) they all act the same idc what you say

Ascendant Aspecting Mars - so pissed off lol but its hot. they are fierce > if they want something they are going to get it, and even the mere consideration of negotiating what they want will just get them more mad. which makes them more attractive? idk people love their ferocity, and as much as people say they don't like aggressive types, they don't ever get in their way when they pissed off (ik because im hot head) your basically a hornet > and no one gonna fight a hornet without the proper precautions Ascendant aspecting Jupiter - Yall are excellent at impressions and being impressionable, idk how you do it so well. You just act normal but then pull off this funny shit and return back to normal like its nothing. you guys perfected just being, and this energy makes people want to be around you. Your like a firework, the explosion is awesome, but when it goes away your like damn that was awesome wish it stayed; but thats what makes it so good, because we never know when its coming, and when its gone we want it back lol Ascendant Aspecting Saturn - batman without the mask sucks. thats you. batman without the mask.... why so serious???? > "because life shouldnt be taking for granted and fuckery aint apart of my Repertoire" - is some whack ass shit yall would say. you have great dignity, but people get insecure around you because your on top of your shit. oh and you tell people to get on top of their shit all the fkn time lol. > your like a crow, you look like one and act like one. - Side note- one time i had a stand off with a crow: I was chilling at home and i was on top of these tile blocks, then this crow came along. I tried to scare him, by like staunching him just a bit. but he responded by gripping the tree branch he was perched on, by twisting his claw foot; and he did it with so much ferocity it made this bone cracking noise (from the strength of his grip gripping the tree) and suddenly i was intimated.... by a fkn crow. okay moving on

Ascendant Aspecting Uranus - how did you even become like that. no one really understands why you act the way you do, you do some really eccentric things which are eye grabbing but also disturbing the more you think about it. your like a sword fish. theres probably more effective ways to kill fish, but i mean a sword works, we are just wondering how you attached a sword to your face. also try to calm down, you doing so much and acting so bizarre that im actually more worried about you, even though im laughing my ass off. Ascendant Aspecting Neptune - your like a mirror of all that i ever could want in a person, and this mysterious allure you so easily pull off is truly enchanting. its like being around you makes it feel as if reality can so easily be readjusted into what i would like it to be. but this quality of urs is addicting, and no wonder people project onto you. but you cant even blame them, you literally shapeshift into whatever you want, and typically you like to show it off. your like a chameleon. or a axolotl Ascendant Aspecting Pluto - you scare people easily lol. your a spider. but spiders are sexy.... look at the BUNDA. okay but those teeth yeesh, have you ever seen a spider like lick its lips, bro its fkn scary. theres a reason arachnophobia is the most popular phobia and its because spiders are fucked. and yall are fucked. you move like a spider, and i swear to god you smile like one too lol. but people low key wanna be eaten by a spider..... so go ahead choose yo prey you fkn creepy crawler

#astrology #astrology blog #astro community #astrology notes #astrology observations #astrology placements #ascendant aspects #astrology aspects #astro observations

[homochadensistm]

Saw the bodypic on your sideblog and hot DAMN! Any workout+nutrition tips for us peasants to get like that?? I'm a hardgainer myself so I would appreciate the advice!

lmao shouldve sent the ask there then :(

important disclaimer: I look Like That largely thanks to good lighting and the fact that I had a mad pump. I dont look like that 24/7, nobody does. If you remove me from that specific spot under the gym lights and wait 10mins for my pump to disappear Id look entirely Normal.

As for hardgaining, youre not gonna like the answer but - just eat more. We like to think we eat a lot already (because it feels like that, because most of us have tiny stomachs) but if u actually took 1 week to record everything u eat, including its nutritional values (mainly macros - carbs, protein, fats, etc), youd see youre probably lacking and/or eating exactly at maintenance (i.e., maintaining your current weight, nothing less and nothing more). The best way I found for myself to eat more is to split my meals, so instead of eating 3 big meals a day, I eat 5-6 smaller ones, and I make sure each meal contains a decent amount of protein (at least 10g). And yeah I wasnt kidding - record what u eat for just 1 week, itll help u see where/what ur lacking.

As for protein - I dont use powders. I find their texture disgusting and most of them give me stomach issues. Personally I view health and fitness as something I should enjoy so Im not gonna do things that actively make me feel like Im suffering or forcing myself, hence, no powders. You dont even need powder to eat a lot of protein, too. Lots of idiots will tell you you need to eat 1gr of protein per 1lb of bodyweight to get larger, but thats protein powder marketing bs (unless ur like, an olympic athlete). Normal people need around 1.2-1.5g of protein per kg of bodyweight to grow muscle mass, according to almost all studies on the subject (again, unless ur an olympic athlete), so for me, weighing around 55kg, thatd be between 66-85g of protein per day. As I mentioned before, I structure my meals so that each contains at least 10g of protein, so right off the bat I start at 50-60g on avg. My lunch (meal 3 usually) is around 40g on its own (blessed Pork steak & greenbeans), so I easily get to 85g of protein a day, and maybe a lil more. Meat shouldnt be your only source of protein, theres a variety of foods to choose from and if u enjoy cooking then ur gonna have a great time! The price of not using any icky powders is learning how to cook lol. If you still want to use powders thats fine, theres nothing wrong with them, but just so u know that eating more protein wont necessarily help u grow, cause ur body has a natural cap on how much it needs/wants to use of the general amount u give it, the rest itll shit out. So, if eating more is difficult to u, I suggest avoiding the powders and just restructuring ur meals to fit you.

As for working out - if youre a woman focus more on volume (higher reps, lower weight), if youre a dude then the opposite. If youre doing more reps at a lower weight make sure that the weight is still somewhat challenging to you though. The distinction between male and female here is important because our bodies respond differently to training so if ur purpose is building the big mooskles and ur a girl - lighter weights will get u there faster. If you want to maximize strength gain as well - dedicate 1 day a week to heavy weights (so less reps but increasingly challenging weight). Im not gonna delve into the types of exercises or workouts u should do cause idk u or what ur experience is but theres enough content online abt that.

The most important thing about the eating and working out is the consistency. ur muscles grow because they respond to stimuli, they adapt to the pressure ur putting on them. theyre not gonna adapt if this stimulation is momentary. Try to work out 3-4 times a week, even just for 30mins each. Get in those reps per muscle group, train each group about twice a week and ur good. Youll see longterm results once eating+working out becomes a habit.

Last thing I wanna touch on is cardio. Theres this weird belief that, if u wanna gain muscle mass, you shouldnt work on cardio. Idk which lazy cunt invented that but its not true! Cardio is important for ur heart, health and ur ability to lift heavier loads! You dont have to run for cardio, theres many activities you can pick from: swimming, boxing, jump rope, dancing etc. Hell, even walking is really good cardio (and is actually better for you than running, longterm) and you can easily do that if you got 1hr to spare twice a week. Developing your cardio will not only make you feel better and healthier, its also detrimental to your strength gaining journey, to avoiding plateaus.

goodluck!

#health #fitness

[xannerz]

ElJellyBeeTea griping ahead

granted, i could be saying this b/c i've been in a really negative/frustrated headspace lately - and b/c i've been forced into coming out to my mom 3x within the past week b/c she's caught on, won't leave me tf alone, and yo-yos between denial and panic - but i really cannot relate with people who treat coming out as some cathartic, bombastic, celebratory thing. ik there's the backdrop of queer liberation; i also see the value in Pride and i'd like to enjoy that one day (again?).

i'm not trying to dismiss that. this is 100% my own bitterness and fatigue from feeling isolated within my own family, and not meant to police how others be Queer or w/e but like. goddamn. there are a million bi bitches in the world. leave me alone. stop staring at me like you found my corpse in a drug den. this shouldnt be a big deal. fuck.

i told her i want us to go to therapy together because i'm sick of this shit. mothers are exceptional at making you feel like you're a child when you're nearly 30. immigrant mothers esp.

anyway, again. i'm just really cranky atm and my sentiments will probably change in time. i probably dont even mean what i'm saying deep down but also whooo gives a fuck LMFAO.

but anyway idk. i've been living on autopilot for most of this year. this is so fucking stupid. the pearl-clutching around queerness is so overblown and i need my mom to stop being so dramatic about it.

this came up w my dad recently, and i was being dodgy when he asked about my orientation. the most he said was that he's relieved i'm straight b/c it's traditional in our culture, and life would be harder if i was Gay. honestly if my 67 y/o dad from ir*n could ultimately get over it though then so can my mom. fuckin. they dont have to like it but they should love me. this is so stupid.

i've felt like more of the parent in this house because i've had to be for a long time, and i'm just. tired. and i'm sick of my mom feeling this sense of entitlement to live her dreams through me. no, i wont be a lawyer. no, i wont marry a rich dentist and settle down in the hills. i dont! fucking care. fuck!

"i feel like i'm losing you/ i want to you to follow the right path"

why are you sooo dramatiiiic ohhh my goDfjlksjdfLSDFSDLfkj LMAO

fuck!

#no commentary pls thank you god bless #xangoeswah

[girlwithfish]

if this is too explicit, u dont have to post it but fjdjsksks ive always felt like im bad at giving h**d do u have any tips ???

HAHA okay ill try to give tips NSFW and also this is abt sucking dick disclaimer 🫡🫡 gonna put it under a read more omg this is gonna b so crass. sorry

like honestly it reallyy really depends on the person ur giving head to bc everyone likes different things and some ppl ive given head to werent that into it or i wasnt that into it. like for me i have to b rly into them cuz idk past hookups i havent been too into and my mouth would feel all dry or like they like it different than how im used to doing. So tip #1 u have to be willing to adapt and be receptive to what the other person likes. i think thats the most important thing when it comes to sex in general. always listen to ur partner and be willing to communicate, ask them beforehand or during if they want it different. do they like softer or harder do they like rough stuff do they like more slow sensual fast do they like when u go deep or no .

Also only ever do what U want to do yk!!! do not let anyone force u or like just grab ur head unless if u want that but if they do that shit w out talking to u first or u guys agreeing ur into that they r scummy

I think a big thing is making sure its wet enough bc suckign dick when ur mouth is dry is just unpleasant for both people. make sure u produce enough saliva and get that dick WET lol. its abt getting into a rhythm and also like make sure u cover ur teeth with ur lips or else that will hurt them. if ur confused how to do that bc i def was at first literally just pull ur lips in over ur teeth like ur gonna look stupid and if u put like ur fingers in ur mouth they shouldnt hit ur teeth at all and ull only feel ur lips. Lol and u need to hold ur lips like that it might take some time getting used to. Jaw wise i dont hav much advice like my jaw used to lock a lot in tje beginning when i first started giving head and id get tired fast esp if the dick is Big or girthy lmfao but u kinda just habe to push thru it and ull get more used to doing it and have more stamina my jaw doesnt get tired much anymore unless if im going a longggg time

If its a girthy or big dick and u cant take it all in ur mouth and its tiring use ur hands at the base !!! some guys like it some dont so just ask em but if theyre into using hands u can just suck the tip or only a few inches nd be using ur hand on the rest or two hands if ur into that idk. ask them what rhythm and pace they want for like using ur hands too cuz everyone's different some might liek a firmer grip or fast or slow idk. but ur gonna want to get into a rhythm using hand and ur mouth itll like work in sync together yk

some ppl r into more attention to the tip but for some that can b rly sensitive so either ask them or pay attention to body cues cuz u dont want to hurt them !! but have fun w it lmfaooo u can lick it or lick like the underside(frenulum? i think lolol) idk use ur tongue a lot too and then u can go deeper again or get back into the rhythm u were in and occasionally give more attn to the tip

im kinda used to giving more passionate or intense head and guys who r into that im more sexually compatabile with so idk! when or if the dick falls out cuz it happens u can kiss it too They will luv that shit lmfaooo i think its really abt passion and willingness and stuff cuz receiving sucks if the giver doesnt seem like theyre into it or care abt ur pleasure and sucking dick def isnt for everyone or some ppl just dont like it as much which is totally fine never do anything u dont want to!!! but its really all abt wanting to make ur partner feel good and if u have that genuine desire theyre gonna love it. usually ppl r into sloppy head just cuz its hot seeing someone going Off for u so dont be shy to make noise and all the sloppy dick sucking noises r usually a turn on for ppl lmaooo and u can moan too to show ur into it im sooo into doing that 👍

and u can experiment w positions too like being on ur knees while theyresitting or kneeling next to them kinda while theyre sitting on the bed and Def likeee if ur into it giving head can be a veru mutual thing too like u can also get pleasure too just gotta talk abt it w ur partner like if u like being grabbed or touched somewhere idk i think giving head is really awesome and slay and i get a lot of pleasure from giving i love too hard 😈🫶🫶🫶🫶Lol but u can do a lot of fun stuff and variety w head when it comes to positions. do it in front of a mirror or something etc. but idk it rly just takes practice and getting ur form down and rhythm and learning what ur partner likes and what u like! u do not have to be crazy or into intense head or deep throating shit or anything u see in porn its a mutual experience and abt making ur partner feel good and use ur hands if u dont like going deep etccc and u can go soft too it rly depends what the person is into! Also its all abt touching too like grab ur partners thighs touch them u can kiss their stomach before u go down hold their hand touch their butt if theyre into that LOL idk its like a very dynamic thing lots to do 🫡🫡🫡i also like laying my head on their high and s*cking that way its very sensual . Okay just gave way too much info abt my sex life slayy hope this helped tho babe !

[actuallyitsstar]

Top Gun for the fandom ask game?

✨ send me a fandom and i'll answer with the following!

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

↣ maverick! this is kind of a given i suppose. but he's my blorbo alright. i have 193748458 thoughts abt him Every Single Day Unfortunately and every other fic and gifset/edit idea i have typically winds up including him somehow lol

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

↣ this one was really stumping me for a while bc idk tbh but if i am very real it's probably also maverick 😭 when will i stop being predictable lmao aaaaa. my second choice for this spot is bradley and this is why i struggled so much to pick an answer lol

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

↣ phoenix !!!! phoenix is my girl !!! my beloved !!! i want her to have everything nice. i want her to smack everyone else upside the head with a bat for being stupid. but she shouldnt have to bc theyre all adults and she is their peer and not their mom and i do actually rly respect how tgm treats her as the same as the others and doesn't dress her in weird skimpy outfits on the beach or have her lifting hella emotional baggage for the men or etc. she is so smart and capable and straightforward and determined and i love her <3 the near-tie for this spot is slider. i love slider. he has such a Vibe . takes no shit but he won't let YOU take shit either. we stan a man.

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

↣ tbh? viper. idk what it is about him. He is So Yes. I want to Know More About Him. i want to know how well he knew duke mitchell. i want to know if he stayed up nights feeling responsible for that because duke died saving him, among others. i want to know how long it took for him to move past it or if he ever did. i want him to talk to maverick about this commonality they have and not say stupid shit like 'there will be others' bc shut the fuck up akdhjdjkfhfgj but yeah idk. need to write abt him sometime for sure <3 my second choice for this is carole because she has like maybe an aggregated minute of time on screen and owns my wholeass heart somehow anyway. i want her to have only nice things and happiness and she doesn't get a lot of credit but she's so kind and capable and determined and i stan her tbh

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

↣ unpopular no, problematic yes: hangman. he's controversial. he's pathetic. he's an asshole. he's incorrigible. he's everyone's favorite bitch. what can i say. i want to undo him like a clock and take out all the gears and find out how he works. i cant fix him but i CAN make him worse. and one of these days i will. (ok ok AND ill try to fix him too i guess. if i must).

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

↣ this is hangman again unfortunately. and also mav. and also bradley. alkdhjfkfhfkjgh i am a goblin

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)

↣ sorry cyclone im sure ur secretly a big softy but u are going to have to go down the superhell pipe this time <3

#top gun #brambleberrycottage #star unasks #so sorry these asks are taking me so long 😭😭 #its bc i have to hem haw about every answer for 6000000 years akdhjfkfhfjgj #but i stand by these choices #thank u so much for the asks !!!!!! #star.txt

[jennycalendar]

im loving your energy rn, for me it came a point where i just avoid interacting with fandoms as much as possible because of these kind of stuff, somehow in every fandom i go people always have the worst takes on poc and it gets tiring so fast. with robin and kennedy my only takeaway after watching was that it sucked that they were only in s7 bc that season sucks at character development and i wanted to get to know them better, but then i come to tumblr and everyone hates them?

excuse me for thinking that spike wearing nikki's coat is not the super badass empowering moment it was framed as or that robin's hatred of spike shouldnt have been brushed off the way it was

and the episode on ats where there's a demon feeding from hatred feels super hypocritical given the treatment both shows give to poc, why are they suddenly talking about racism? same with the thanksgiving episode, why are the racist writers writing about racism?

idk i just get upset and thats why i limit the amount of fandom blogs i follow

getting around to this a little late so sorry about that :') i sort of have had the benefit of being in a corner of the fandom that's very small, and a lot of the dialogue around jenny (her and giles being the only part of the show i'm invested in teasing apart) is generally very receptive to discussing the anti-romani stereotypes that she is saturated in.

and honestly it's just .... yeah! yeah. i think one of the hardest parts for me is to see people who i enjoy and respect and have had conversations with just completely stepping back from engagement with the parts of this that aren't fun to think about. my most beloved bonus mom pointed out, like ... of course it makes sense that a lot of white people are not going to want to have these conversations in their fandom escape from frustrating shitty real life stuff, or think about how messy and intrinsic racism is, but thing is, there are people of color here too (like me! i don't talk about it much because my relationship to my jewish/indian ethnicity is So Fucking Complicated and Y'all Don't Know Me Like That, but it's very much part of what's going on w me!) who also want to have a nice little fandom oasis and end up not being able to enjoy it when there's just Racist Weird Shit On The Walls.

i've seen a couple of posts that have made me think that maybe my takes have breached containment a little, but i don't know if anyone actually heard what i was saying. this goes well beyond just going "the show was racist sometimes and we never talk about it and we should talk more about the racist parts of the show in greater detail," this is "the way we as a community talk about characters we love in fandom needs to not incorporate racism." which is something i have seen so many times here from white fans regardless of ship or character. and which is so much harder to unlearn because it is a consistent corrective process and it isn't as simple as not saying slurs on the internet.

also, yes. i hate the thanksgiving episode. i cannot stand it. i am going to have to get to it at some point and grit my teeth because whenever btvs does race it does it very very very badly.

#asks #but yes thanks!

[cogumielitos]

lack of MLM representation in cartoons

So, me and my friend wanted to dress up as cartoon characters for halloween and since we're both masculine presenting people we wanted a MLM or NBLM or NBLNB couple to dress up as.

Then i realize, there's none! Absolutely 0 cutsy mlm couples in cartoons, at least at the main stream ones.

"But there's ______ couple in ______ show!!" yeah, i know that there are some, like willow's dads, clyde's dads, bow's dads... I dont really want to dress up as a dad for hallowen lol.

Im just saying that comparing with WLW couples in cartoon mlm are basicly non-existent. There's no *canon* cute couple such as: - Marceline and Bubblegum - Luz and Amity - Adora and Catra - Rubi and Safira - Luna and Sam - Poison Ivy and Harley Quinn

Im not saying "WLW get to much representation, it shouldnt be so much!!", def theres no enough sapphic rep in midia but theres aaaway less *good* mlm rep. Even out of the cartoon world, I've notice that lately almost every tv show i watched there's a female queer character and im happy every time bc its a win for the community and my queer sisters/siblings. I also notice that the fist time i actualy felt represented by a piece of midia was a couple months ago when i watched Dead End, with Barney, a trans queer guy.

I wondered why this happens and i came with 2 possibilities:

Queer women/NBLW are more active in social midia . Every gay cartoon I've watched I've found bc a edit, a fanart, a tiktok or just a post on Instagram, and idk why but most of this posts were made by this community, even if where talking about mlm couples. Its almost like these couples are wrote *for* women and fujoshis, not by queer men for queen men. (like Young Royals and Red, White and Royal Blue). So I just have this feeling that every director its like: "Okay, we need a sapphic couple, even if its in the background so the gays will talk about it on tiktok and more gays will watch it"

(dont worry, Im also the gays...)

Sapphic couples apeal to straigth men so its "okay" to put them in. This one is hard to explain, so we all know how women are sexualized in everything they do, and we all know main stream media doesnt want to lose their huge ass "white cis-het men" public. So they figured that a better away of getting our pink money and the jack-asses money, its putting wlw couples so that men can sexualize them, rather then mlm couples, that those men are usually disgusted by.

I know this take its really disgusting but we all know that straight men sexualize queer women. And before anyone says smt, i know that queer women suffer homophobia and some man also say that "wlw couples disguste them", but like i said, we all know that straigth men sexualize queer women. And y'all cant possibily think that big companies like netflix and disney actualy care about queer issues, at a point they would rather not receive money from homophobes just to give us good rep.

Idk, i may be talking shit, let me know what you think final thougths: WE WANT CUTE MLM COUPLES TOO

#mlm thoughts #animated shows #gay cartoon #wlw community #mlm and nblm only #mlm in cartoons #I WANT GAYS IN SHOWS #GAYS #lgbtq community #queer #queer issues #homophobia

[tvheadfalls]

i completely get that fear T_T esp since im scared my work will get misinterpreted or ppl will be mad that the queer rep isnt specifically tailored to them.. also like. looking at the way boyfriends comic has been treated terrifies me. like ppl have mercilessly torn that thing to shreds and i have seen almost 0 critical reasons as to why, coming from someone who hasnt read it it sounds like they just hate soft gay ppl T_T

idk anything abt the boyfriends thing (yes ive seen the accusations but they always immediately get debunked?? but idk) so yeah i agree, just feels like ppl put the standards of like mainstream media made by corporation and public figures onto some random internet person making a pastel uwu boy gay comic, and thats kinda exactly what im worried abt

not still talking abt boyfriends here bc again idk abt this, but ppl always talk about how you shouldnt put the same standards on lgbt indie creators but like it always happens every time anyway, and by the same ppl who say that too, its wild. and its not even actual criticism most of the time its just public ridicule

not even nescessarily original stuff either this happens with "cringy" fanart that gets big now too, even if there are actual concerns to be had with whatever its about, its always stuff that the creator never rly wanted outside their personal bubble being shared around as memes and its just like, man i dont give a shit what ppl draw cutesy fanart abt in their free time it doesnt matter cries, privacy is dead bro, i miss stuff being contained in specific forums and stuff so much, and dont even say that they shouldnt post it then bc man artists are starting to feel this with literally ANYTHING that might not be completely neutral sanitized stuff. and this is the website that constantly goes "you guys are pushing artists out by not interacting w them :'(" you guys r pushing artists out by being snobby and annoying actually

#ask #do not send me discourse abt boyfriends ill fucking explode

[banghwa]

I know this is never gonna happen but still. I’m on my hands and knees, big hit producers please dust off those live instruments from the basement, buy new strings for the guitars, check the amps PLEASE use a base guitar or an electric guitar while working with jk!!! he’s amazing in pop and I’m sure I’m gonna enjoy whatever he puts out but I’d start climbing the walls if I hear him in anything alternative… like I get that entertainment companies aren’t really gonna let idols create outside of pop (other than like rnb) they are pop music artists and ent. companies are revenue driven so ofc they don’t want to risk a flop when they can make safe pop music that consistently gets the numbers but idk… it kinda feels like a loss that most kpop artists can’t really experiment with their identity as a musician and be experiential with their sound… anyways i just think id be cool to hear jks vocals in a pop punk setting lol I didn’t mean to ramble so much

THISSSSS LITERALLY THIS i know its never gonna happen but seeing jk play around with that bass in that one memories video i think wtv like that shit changed my life GIVE HIM SMT INTERESTING!!!!! give him smt messy could u imagine how he'd sound with a dirtyyyyy muddy guitar tone. like he does GREAT pop he does! and i dont blame him for wanting to stick to it bcs he's so good for it and its a sound that he likes to listen to himself. but if he did anything slightly grungy i think the planets' axis would shift like. lots of idol groups try to push what kpop means n its what bts used to do too when they werent as big and they werent being toyed around like a catch-all brand instead of an artistic project 🙄. idk i think bts have this rly great opportunity to not play it gp safe all the time given they have such a unique position rn where anything they do will get attention. and u can tell some of them rly want to push that boundary and its great that they have the platform to do so in a safe way so i just think jungkook deserves that same exploration process! they shouldnt be scared of it!! let jk make rock music !!!!!!!!!

#could u imagine if seven was just like. messy prog metal. everyone would DIE.. #💌 #anonymous

[journen]

omg i owe you my life for your beautiful art of mon mothma's wife/gf. :D for real the thing i am most disappointed by in the new canon is that mon mothma is not a lesbian, despite literally everything about her pointing to the contrary

Lol right! Hahaha i mean, I don’t think we knew a tooonnn about her personal life outside of her appearances in the films but idk, I also just feel being lesbian suits her. 🤣 Also SW executives are cowards a lot lol and they like to just “hint” at sexualities to tease the audience but rarely confirm stuff? Not that i think every character’s sexuality needs to be confirmed or a big part of their character, it should just feel natural if it’s relevant, so exactly yes they should just give Mon a gf, stop being so timid about it. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 It would change nothing about her character! 🤣🤣 Or they just shouldnt have given her a husband. Let us imagine otherwise!

Anyhow i’m glad you like the art!! I kinda wanna develop the character more🥺, maybe over the next couple months when I get time I will! If anyone has any ideas / drawing ideas for her too feel free to lmk!!

But yeah, this show has been shitting on Mon’s life so my solution is to give her a gf who treats her right HAHAHA! 😌💛🥺 Mon is such a queen, idk why but I really like her haha.

Thanks again Anon!! That makes me so happy to hear btw.

#journen speaks #text post #anon #ask #asked and answered #mon mothma

[aromanticle]

i just got out of the shower and i have some thoughts to share about something that happened a few days ago

i went, with my sister, to see a psychiatrist. i didnt really want to do that cause deep down i just know that nothing a third party could ever do would truly help me in any way and the only person who can change the way i do things is myself, but that brief period i had with her actually did open my eyes. just not in a good way.

no one irl knows this but i actually have talked to a therapist online for a few months though one of those mental health related apps, a few times for free and i paid two dollars twice which actually ends up being not so cheap for me lol but i stopped because of something that was said to me. the person i talked to seemed to actually pay attention to what i said and she'd always tell me that the main problem i have in life in executive dysfunction which is very accurate. i dont actually know if the people the app provides are licensed or not and idk how trustworthy this all is but i actually feel like i had a positive experience with it for the most part. of course theres not much one can do when i only call them to talk about things that frustrate me and things i wish i could change about myself once every two weeks but at least i felt like there was someone out there who actually understands what i have to say.

my sister and i sat in front of a psychiatrist and told her we wish our mother actually gave a shit about us and did something to help her children have a better life instead of spending the day on her phone and guess what she said? "you cant change her, deal with it"

we were just around 10 minutes into our time together and my sister brought up concerns she had about me and she basically dismissed it completely, saying "but you dont have this trait" that someone would only know if they actually knew me when she had barely even talked to me at all. i always felt like i struggle with certain things that she said i have no problem with when she simply does not know me even a little bit at all. she just heard a couple things about me and assumed i am someone im not.

i said "i actually went back to school because i wanted to avoid trouble with my mom, not because i wanted to" and what she heard was "i loved going back to school". i said i used to want to be a literature professor and what she heard is "i like reading". my sister said i go to sleep too late (which is only partially correct) and she said "ok, i'll give you this so you can sleep"

i told her i gave up on the idea of being a teacher when i was 15 because i know how hard it would be to get there and thats not even what i want to do and she said "well this is a generation thing" like the reason i didn't pursue a goal i knew would lead me nowhere is because im a tiktok brained little gen z child that doesnt want to put effort into things that take time ???????? my dream is to star in a musical, i just dont have the means to do that. i know i dont. im never gonna have what i truly want so i can only chase after these smaller little things i could feasibly do but they dont last long. i know i'll never be happy as a teacher, not even as a literature professor, that's why im not gonna even try. i know this is gonna take years and im not even gonna be satisfied when i get there. im not gonna waste my time and money doing something i only kind of wanted to do, i shouldnt even have brought that up but we were talking about teaching and jobs and i thought it was appropriate to mention i once wanted to teach. not anymore.

i said i changed schools a lot. i liked the first school i went to, but my mom put me in a public school in third grade because well. it doesn't cost anything. but i hated going there because i couldn't get used to it. my mom then put me in a different school. i hated going there because i couldn't get used to it, but i knew if i said that to my mom she'd get mad. when i was in seventh grade my mom "threatened" to take me out of the school because of my grades and because i put no effort into my studies at all (because i hated going to school) so she put me back into a different school. i didnt like going there because i couldn't get used to it but i knew there was nowhere else for me to go. then i finally got to actually choose which school i was going to when i changed schools for the last time for high school. i went with a friend, so i assumed it would be easier. i hated going there. it was only at the end of my third year there that i thought "actually, i like this school. i wish i didnt change schools in third grade and stayed right here". and the psychiatrist said "you changed schools a lot so you clearly don't have a problem adapting to new environments". #girl you have talked to me for a grand total of 7 minutes.

i'm supposed to go back there and talk to her again in less than 30 days now and i am dreading the day i have to open my mouth and say a word to that woman again. i'd rather have my sister go alone or my mom or someone else and talk about me, i think i would be more helpful than if i go there and try to explain myself just for her to misunderstand everything i have to say.

[mieczyhale]

disclaimer:: this is just me thinking out loud, but in text form, bc my heads not gonna chill out until i work through this

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i didn’t know that calling a jewish person a vampire was a bad thing - because i dont know a lot - but now that i know i’m like ‘o shit that’s a thing i need to make sure to not do’

idk if it’s ever something i have done, but now i definitely wont.

fun fact:: it’s literally that easy

like

okay

so

this happens sometimes with varying labels or character types, ones that you wouldn’t - just in general - consider negative on their own, because there’s a lot. not just for jewish people but many groups of people, religious and otherwise. and i feel like on one hand:: you can’t expect people to know all of them, a little bit of grace should maybe be given because not everyone is even aware that they’re contributing to a negative narrative and they never intended to do that (i say MAYBE bc no, NOBODY is ever required to give that grace if they dont want to or dont feel it. nobody should ever be EXPECTED to give that grace)

but on the other hand:: sometimes people do know and they’re just shitty, you can’t expect people to know all of them - no - but you also cant assume a person knows none of them. you cant assume that everyone has inoffensive intentions. and the more of this kind of person you see, it’s 1000% understandable to always assume the worst. and unfortunately it often is the fucking worse

i am NOT /EVER/ saying people shouldnt get upset or angry when negative or offensive tropes or characters are used in regards to a person or a group. if someone said something wrong, whether they meant to or not, you have every right to feel or be anything in response - bc if they meant to, they should be called tf out. and if they didnt mean to, it’s good for them to know so they can 1. not only be careful about their own words but 2. also look out for other people who may or may not be saying shit they shouldnt. you cant know what you dont know and you cant change if you dont know you’re doing something wrong yknow??

i dont have a conclusion or nice way to end this, i just needed to unravel it bc it’s a topic that sometimes gets wrapped up like yarn in my brain until it’s like the worlds largest most knotted ball of twine but it’s yarn and it makes me anxious and i hate it but also its too important to try and ignore yknow?? the topic of language / tropes / etc. used in regards to minorities, the varying levels of awareness, and the pretty frustrating fact that not everyone has ill intent but some people do and you cannot tell the difference a lot of the time and people will lie and its trash

humanity is complex and i have a fucking headache now

#unwinding rambling thoughts #i might be a fucking idiot but my brain still insists i think about things and then overthink and then scream #maison speaks

[shingogf]

☕ give me your opinion on the tf2 classes (favorite and least favorite?)

Leave it to ur brave mutuals to ask the important questions <3333

Now, IN THEORY i main medic. Only because uhh...self explanatory. Hes my beloved blorbo and thats literally the only reason why i ever forced myself to get good at playing him bc when playing games like tf2 i NEVER touch support but medic is special to me💜 i literally paid a fortunte for the burly beast💜💜💜

However i will say the unique mechanics he has makes playing him (with a semi competent team at least) extremely fun and rewarding like u can clearly see a difference between him and other support classes from other games. I LOVE the many mediguns you can use theyre all useful for all sorts of situations but holy shit will i forever complain abt the speed of the syringes from the guns like ik he shouldnt be buffed more bc hes already THE MOST important but. A little projectile speed increase never hurt anyone💔 and its so mf fun controlling the lives of ur teammates like i use the "be in control of who dies and who doesn't" approach 💜💜💜 no pocketing either yall r cringe lmao

I also quite enjoy playing spy (specifically w the dead ringer i almost always use it) even tho its hard as shit and often times frustrating :/ i ve been forcing myself (again) to play him more lately and get better even tho most servers have such shitty teams i feel like i can barely play him lmao😭 like i'll change 5 diff servers and theyre all like idk 7 players on each team

Pyro is also dear to me seeing how when i first started playing tf2 years ago they were the class i found the easiest to play bc its very fun killing ppl w combos. or if ur getting fed up just using the phlog in tight maps like dustbowl💀 i still play them often even today cuz i just think their aesthetic is neat and they have VERY nice cosmetics

Aside from soldier whom i occasionally play bc of the endless fun that comes with rocket jumping, i dont really have strong opinions on any other classes excepting sniper. Sniper is my absolute LEAST fav class to play simply bc he doesnt fit my playing style. Demo i scarcely play but im very neutral on, scout is the same except hes a bit too fast compared to what im used to, engineer and heavy i only play if its absolutely required. With heavy i find slow moving classes annoying but it CAN be fun if u have a medic buddy👍

#i would say i play more engineer and heavy in mvm matches rather than in casual but again ONLY if necessary #even in mvm i mainly go medic and thats also bc p much no one ever does but are we surprised💀 #not to sound like a generic medic player (tm) but HOLY SHIT the uber. makes it worth playing him SO MUCH. #either way ty mutual💜

[spnshameblog]

I'm interested to know what you stance on Misha is after all this. peope seem to be pretty divided about this. has your opinion of him changed?

ok, i think this is gonna be a bit wordy. ive been in this fandom on and off for about a decade. if you follow a show and its actors for that many years, you are going to see them act in ways you cant support. everyones boundaries are different and ive withdrawn my support for people over things that other might find laughable, so i would never say that he hasnt done anything so bad that people should "unstan" him. personally, i dont think he has done something so bad that i cant ever support him again. over the decade he has said and posted some really dumb and sometimes offensive shit and i cant give you an itemised list of all happenings, but iirc he almost always apologised and i dont remember him making the same mistake twice. so if he says he apologises and is learning, i want to believe him, i just have no idea what thats going to look like.

see, a lot of us arent upset about a "misfired joke", if anyone else had done that people would be like "haha embarassing, lets move on", but a lot of people genuinely assumed him to be queer even before he made that comment, which is proven by the thousands of comments going like "i thought he had been out this entire time". a huge amount of people drew the conclusion, based on his actions and his words, that he wasnt straight, even though he personally never said so. so the thing most people are upset about is that theyre now having to recontextualise years (in my case a decade) of stuff we consciously or subconsciously interpreted as evidence. YES you shouldnt assume someones identity, but its not like he dissuaded people from speculating. quite the opposite and that is another reason why people are upset.

they feel like misha has been deceiving them, using his ambiguity for attention and support from lgbt people and theyre not entirely wrong. a lot of stuff can, in hindsight, be explained by him noticing that his fans seem to really respond to him acting a certain why, so why not act that up a little. what i take issue with is the claim that most of his personality and his support for queer causes were to garner support from queer people. i dont know the guy and i cant make any definitive statements, but i believe he is really mostly like that lmao. he has talked about how people are surprised by how, for a lack of a better word, 'unmasculine' or emotionally open he is. if he was just 'acting up the gay' around fans, then why have his colleagues and friends also commented on this? and he definitely has had to experience homophobic microaggressions esp on the set of spn, which doesnt make sense if hes like, a normal macho dude when fans arent watching. again, yes, i totally believe he purposefully exaggerated some of it bc fans eat that shit up and if nothing else hes a people pleaser. and also sometimes straight guys just act a little gay, idk what to tell you.

so now theres the theory that it actually WAS an honest comment, but for some reason he decided he needed to go back into the closet. now, if someone states their own orientation THIS explicitly im bound to accept that, however i can see where this theory is coming from, given that there are some instances that simply cant be explained as jokes or him acting up the gay etc. at least from our perspective. so idk buddy, he might be, he might not be. however i dont agree with the sentiment that him going back in the closet is funny. like ive seen posts like "funniest outome would be him actually coming out in 5 years and nobody believes him" idc if im a little softie, but that idea isnt funny to me at all. IF he ever comes out, im fully prepared to believe him immediately, even if it makes me look like a clown again.

so i can empathise with people having all kinds of reactions to this from trying to make sense of it, to distancing themselves, from trying to forget about it, to dragging him for filth, imho all valid reactions. i dont agree with people saying that this situation is the fault of the fans, ive said multiple times that this specific situation and the fact that people were so ready to believe he's bi were misha's own doing. and i dont agree with people saying he is a master manipulator who has been tricking lgbt people out of their money for years by being a 24/7 gay for pay.

so tl;dr: idk lol? im waiting to see how his behaviour changes after these events, but aside from being really confused i cant say my opinion of him has changed that much?

#im so sorry anon you probably wanted 2-3 sentences and im writing a fucking essay #ask #anon #m

[blinkyblogblogbloggy]

october 1- 31, 2023

i don’t think i even like this man. like he truly sucks in every possible way and he makes me feel like shit all the time except when we’re having sex and then it’s alright. but he doesn’t pay attention to me he’s never nice to me he never responds and his lifestyle is shitty. he’s not quitting smoking that’s for sure and he won’t stop drinking like every day and maybe that’s just being a 23 year old but like fuck. he doesn’t seem to like me much either. like clearly. so idk. this is somehow even more degrading that koroosh because at least him there were no expectations i knew he sucked. this sucks -----

i wish i was in love. like actually in love and with someone who was kind and loving and cared abt me -----

i feel like there’s smth wrong w him? or maybe it’s w me? idk maybe we just have different expectations or desires or smth. i wanna kms like why can’t i just be happy and normal and not violently obsessive and intense and irrational and impulsive and overkill -----

i just left his house. we were gonna meet in the AM but he didn’t wake up until like 1:30pm because he was at an event till 2am. doing ecstasy and getting very drunk. nothing redeeming about that. and he had ghosted me for like two days before and he said it’s cuz he wanted to ask me out but was having trust issues. which is fair but not an excuse to leave me on read. idk. the sex is good i guess. he makes me feel wanted ? but i don’t think actually wants to date me. like he’s not very good at talking abt how he feels but he’s also not being very willing to even try. idk i think i’m wasting time that could be spent studying and writing profiles on a man that has no upward life trajectory. he tells me i’m so beautiful. that’s nice. maybe i’m judging him. but i need him to not be doing drugs and drinking and i need him to be healthy and stable. he isn’t. this is very much a canon event for me. like even if he’s nice to me he’s still moving in a year idk. let’s not think that far ahead. he just doesn’t give me what i need most of the time -----

this is like being in a car with my foot on the gas even though i can see the fucking brick wall right in front of me

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once again my period is slightly late and i’m panicking again. i need to call the clinic -----

yk i think the issue here is that i keep thinking oh well he’s not like MEAN to me or anything like he’s not doing anything bad but i feel like this is sm sm sm more insidious of a feeling cuz its like lack of any fucking effort at all or any interest or any romance or anything and im seventeen and maybe i shouldnt be settling for this shit also he was like i’m gonna ask u out? and he hasn’t? and he keeps letting me vape which is embarrassing truly not a single sign of care for me lmfao jesus christ i wish dustin still existed

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i wanna care for u and be like a husband to u and i’ll try to get a photo of the stars for u meanwhile this man won’t even text me unless i text him and even then he responds twenty hours later with one message and no intention of continuing the convo so really i’m the idiot here -----

truly don’t feel like i’m making outlandish requests but this mf still can’t do anything lmfao i wish i was dating someone and they were nice to me -----

this is self harm. and i know it is and i need to stop like this is embarrassing and bad and a waste of time

#2023