#idk i’m not trying to rant or anything

[blueviridianoak]

man the devs of palworld don’t deserve death threats but like the copying of pokemon designs are so BLATANT it just makes me upset esp. the people who don’t care

bc it’s the same people who never gave pokemon a legitimate chance who are now the ones who love palworld and are saying who gives a fuck if it’s copy pasted

#idk i’m not trying to rant or anything #like idk i was bullied for liking pokemon so it stings that people are like ‘yeah but this is different it’s cool’ #like it’s literally not that different but go off #idk i might delete this later

[person4924]

i noticed today that reid has a different type of gun then everyone else in the show and i was looking it up and someone on reddit said that it might be because when he was kidnapped the gun hankel used was the same type of gun that he uses now. and in that episode he’s playing russian rullete with it and so when he drops the gun and reid shoots him down that’s when the bullets in it so it’s like god was on his side (which i was hankel was saying to him about the rullete thing (his words not mine)) and so it’s like a way to know that gods on his side and stuff. but i also don’t know when he switches because in the earlier seasons before he gets kidnapped he used the same gun as everyone else so this could be nothing. i also saw that it might be because it’s lighter and easier to shoot since in season two he struggled to get his shooting license. i also saw that people thought it just suited his character more.

#idk anything about guns so idk what to add #but it’s smth i noticed #and i was curious #i’m gonna rewatch soon and try to notice #spencer reid #criminal minds #rant

[that-was-anticlimactic]

one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

#and that you’re a terrible writer and that no one cares aaaaaaand imposter syndrome kicks in and you just feel like crap #bc all your friends have been wriying recejtky so why can’t you??? cause they’re bETTER THAN YOU #lol idk why my head is so bad today #the feelings of inferiority and emptiness and idk worthlessness are strong and i hate it but i can’t stop it #i just wanna write!!! and like what i write!!! #but i Can’t and i haven’t liked anything i’ve written in Months and ugh i hate not being able to d something i wanna do #oh and now i’m crying??? why the frick am i cRYING litetally why is typing this making me Worse #sorry guys needed to rant #the inadequacy was strong today #something something students keep telling me how much they dislike me or how i’m whiny for asking them to be respectful and like #i Know i shouldn’t compare myself to my friends but gosh it’s hard when they’re all like. so much better than me. #and i don’t have a lot of time to be on tumblr bc of work so i just feel like i’m watching everything from afar and it’s no one’s fault but #my brain’s like no one is Doing anything it’s just my brain being dumb and i can’t stand it and I want to stop feeling empty and like i’m #missing a part of myself and like the words i write don’t matter gOD why can’t i just feel happy with where i am and not care what the kids #who hate me say or realize that no one cares that i’m not on much like i’m still Here and trying to interact it’s not like everyone hates me #for being busy or for liking side characters more than the main characters and just— #sorry #that felt good actually #idk what came over me #imma just. imma shower. then maybe delete my tags #sorry if anyone got this far aT ALL grace is either asleep or trying to sleep so i don’t wanna bother them since they slept poorly last nigh #okay done now for real sorry delete tags later sorry if you saw this and how freaking messed up ky freaking brain is

[joshuaalbert]

another thing I do wish had at least come up in ds9 while talking about the bajoran faith is the idea of just like. secular bajorans. I think the way they’re written that’s kind of ‘everyone just believes in the religion and that’s it’ is honestly a little flat? but I think there would be people who have a very complicated relationship with the prophets, who maybe didn’t believe in them before the events of the show and now maybe they have to but they think of them more as the wormhole aliens rather than gods, or just don’t believe (anymore, if they once did) that they should be worshipped because they allowed the events of the occupation to happen. but that wouldn’t mean entirely disengaging from the practices of religion as a community thing, or as comfort in times of need bc sometimes that sense of ritual can be a good one, who still wear the earring not so much as a sign of faith but just as a sign of being bajoran and being connected to their people.

idk not to sound like I’m overexplaining secular approaches to an ethnoreligion when that’s a lot of people’s lived experience but I’m just kind of thinking about what it would look like in this context, and I don’t know that it ever would have been a whole plotline but I think a mention could have been interesting. maybe something as small as rearranging duty schedules and it’s something that would interfere with religious services, but a couple specific bajorans are willing to take that because they’re not religious, and it’s a one line mention (which is the kind of thing ds9 often did well so it would feel natural), but it makes them a little less homogenous as a species.

#i don't really count the pah wraith cult for depth honestly like. it's never really about them #sometimes I feel like the show dropped the ball a little on bajorans other than kira and winn #like people always joke about how boring bareil and shakaar are and then idk that anyone else really gets talked about #and even if you expand to other shows you get ro laren and sito jaxa but let’s be real it’s mostly me talking about the latter #the few one-offs on voy don’t really have much going on (which is a bummer it would have been nice to have a recurring maquis bajoran) #and idk about later shows really but the prequel types won’t have anything so. idk. #I think just. adding a little more individuality in terms of things like faith could have helped the perception a little? #idk this became a grander statement than it was meant to be I’m really just rambling #and now im trying to tie it back together and i really cannot. good luck. #san rant #im sure this is a post someone else has already made but im always just doing whatever.

[actualnymph]

trying to make a future for yourself career-wise when you genuinely don’t have any interests or care about any specific field or job is so ☹️ like I need to get into something but idek what that would be…seeing sm other people know what they wanna do feels so bad like good for them but I’ll never have that. Like how do I choose and decide…I really need to get back into school but idk if I’d even get into a college bc I don’t have any references + my SAT score was only 1010 which is not great. Maybe I can go to a community college for something then get into a good school where I can make connections and get into whatever it is I’m gonna get into but rn it’s just so hard to think about my future bc like wtf am I even gonna do. Idk. And my parents don’t care so it’s not like I can even talk to them about it I gotta figure it out on my own.

#if anyone could idk. tell me anything I’d be so grateful 😭 I’ve tried going back in the past but #I either couldn’t afford it or couldn’t due to no references on my application. #this is a rant…bc what am I doing. I’ll be 24 this month and what do I have to show for it…………… #I’m too stressed to even look into anything but I’ll try looking at that community college tomorrow bc they do accept everyone but I’m just #sad I can’t move away but I don’t have the money for that anyway. ☹️ I’m thinking maybe 2 years in community then I can go to a big college. #but it sucks I can’t go to a big college now unless I can idk but idek where I’d go bc I sucked in hs and I can’t afford to move v far…I’d #have to drive there and get mad loans prob. #t

[randomalistic]

I’m so sad about my digital art rn :(

#like Yeah I haven’t done it in a while #and I’m trying to learn a new program #and I also hate my computer touchscreen #and I’m also kind of sick of drawing the same ideas over and over again . #something needs to change :( #but there are so many things wrong #idk where to start #and I don’t have the willpower #vent #rant #I love drawing but I also hate it more than anything

[ilostyou]

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#idk how to phrase it better but some tumblr-isms are like. i have just about had enough #and don’t get me wrong it’s all social media but the extent that tumblr has it going on is so fucking amplified #it seems like people here in general are just looking to find things they deem ‘wrong’ about others or their opinions #and immediately denounce them or flame them for it #like. saying people here have no concept of none of my business is an understatement that’s not even what i mean #it just feels like people are so obsessed with making giant blanket statements and stay ready to flame anyone who doesn’t think the same wa #i’m not saying some things are objectively wrong or objectively bad. i just mean some people make Everything their business #and try to crack open other people and make Them their business which. they’re not??? #like not every single fucking thing is discourse my GOD #also god forbid a nuanced opinion. sorry for saying that word i know it’s not allowed around here (🙄) but. ? hello?? #idk how to formulate this better so you’ll have to deal with this just rant train of thought #but it’s getting fucking exhausting. i’ve been exhausted for months but like it has worn me way down i’m sick of it #there isn’t anything for me to actively do about it but. i’m just saying #oh also the superiority complex is so out of hand lol you’re not better than anyone else for being more ready to flame your peers #for lack of a better word #ok now i’m done. for now

[loveoaths]

my toxic trait is getting irrationally angry when someone implies din’s religion and the covert are inherently abusive/backwards, based solely on bo-katan’s comment and the popular belief that orthodoxy = evil.

#choosing to follow The Way is not depicted as abusive. If anything din and the COFTW are shown as being honorable in an honorless galaxy #and while din’s journey now includes his re-evaluation of what it means to be a Mandalorian in relation to his faith #the fan assumption that the resolution MUST be him walking away from it is frustrating #are watching the same show. are we perceiving things the same way. #he may choose to walk away from TCOTW once/if he learns the true history of Death Watch #but even then TCOTW wouldn’t be wrong to follow. the tenets of it that we’ve seen in the show are true and have guided him well this entire #time. idk man i’m annoyed that ppl are making the same argument that a faith with rules and guidelines (which all of them have) is bad by #default because it’s the same argument people make with the Jedi. because romantic love and attachment are earned away from #people jump straight to ‘this is evil!’ when there are many real world religions that do this #and real world people who accept and agree with those rules as parts of their faith #a rule is not the same as a demand or being forced to do something. #at any point din could walk away from TCOTW same as a jedi could leave the order #Same as a nun can leave a convent and a monk can leave a monastery #the entire point is that those places try not to force you to be there #you have to want to give something up to GAIN something. a connection to something bigger. #that’s literally what faith is and lmfaooo I’m done ranting but good lord the prevalence of these takes gives me a rash #walkie talkie. #reference: din.

[deus-ex-mona]

little brothers and their will to #slay, man </3

#while yes yes this post technically does apply to the simp bros i wanna cry about my own bro in the tags so you have been warned~? #so to start off my monthly existential crisis rant i just wanna say that… i’m so so soo envious of my bro. like to a really unhealthy extent #he’s tall enough to reach the top shelves. i can barely touch them if i jump. he has so many friends and even a gf. i have 0 irl friends. #he is able to sit in one spot and focus on his studies. i can’t even sit down for a full half hour to *eat* without getting up to take a nap #he’s learning how to drive. i can’t. he was admitted into university. i wasn’t. he’s able to find what he likes and stick to it. i can’t. #like mannn. he thrived in the course he chose in tertiary education while i lost my passion for it in the middle of my first year. #he’s good at picking up everything he tries (puzzle cubes; bball; you name it he’s good at it) while i’m just. bad at everything i try lol #he’s very good at his studies (aside from languages) and sports. i’m not good at anything at all. #he gets told that he has a great sense of humour. i’m just. boring and annoying. lolllll #he’s super sociable and he has good relations with pretty much every single family member (sans me). i’m not in contsct with most of the fam #heck he was pretty much the favourite from the moment he was born. his baby pics still get brought up from time to time bc of how cute he is #(granted it’s bc he looks like a bby m*ch*l*n man (like the tire company mascot) and he’s super cute in them but still) #and he’s also a guy and content with being a guy which is just… not fair y’knowwww~~~ asian family boy biases and all (cries) #our father pretty much cast me aside once my bro was old enough to hang with him. and even before then the bias was as clear as day. >:((((( #i make the dude mad? i get screamed at and whaccced. bro gets the dude mad? he gets a lesson on how to throw punches instead!!! like wow!!!! #he’s the only one who got to escape any direct physical harm from the guy and yet!!!! he was the 1st one to be singled out for trauma focus #idk if it’s bc of his age back then or whattttt but i can’t believe i had to friggin’ ask my therapist back then for a trauma assessment :( #2015 was a different time… my bro managed to succeed in school while i was rejected from the drama club for being too depressed :(((( #but i’m sure my bro has his own share of struggles… and i’m glad that he has a few groups of friends to chill with. really. #but i just can’t help feeling extremely envious of him. i could never tell him any of this though we hardly talk at home lol #and he pretends not to know me when i approach him in public lmfaoooo. i don’t blame him though; i’d do the same if i were to approach me #so yeah. if you read this i’m sorry for being cringefail and bad at everything~~ am i still allowed to pollute your dash~? <3 #and also. idk if i’ll be able to continue sischange over this week bc i’ll be handling 2 workstations by meself :( and idk how tired i’ll be #but we’ll see ok~? sorry for having zero time management skills am i still qualified to be a legit adult~? #sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂

[bisamwilson]

i think,,, i might have burned myself out

#like i mean. i burnt myself out months ago but like it’s Too Much to be ignored now #gonna try and finish this fic for sam’s birthday and maybe a couple other small ones for sam bingo while it’s still running #but i like almost cried twice while writing this cap birthday fic and i’m not even half done #and it’s not a sad fic so it’s not emotion reasons #i just. haven’t actually liked anything i’ve written since like the star wars au #and i feel like i’m getting repetitive and worse instead of better #and writing feels more like a chore than it does a fun hobby activity #like i was writing a fic and then took a break to take a nap and set an alarm bc i had to get back to writing #i haven’t done that since i was writing essays in college #but always afraid of losing the wonderful community i’ve gathered bc i’m not Producing Content anymore l #idk i’m just. tired and upset and need a break #but taking a break and not taking a break sound equally awful for different reasons #so here i am being dramatic in tumblr tags #anyways gotta go finish that fic i guess see y’all later #mak rants #probably #tbd

[actualnymph]

I genuinely have no will to live at all but I keep going bc I have no choice. I have no interest in any career, I can’t focus on any hobbies, it’s all just so boring but i power through every day. I can’t imagine my whole life being like this but idek how to change it.

#genuinely I hope I have some accident 😭 bc offing myself would be horrible for my family. but anyway. I want to build a life for myself but #I genuinely cannot bring myself to care bc I’m not interested in anything 😝 there’s something wrong with me. and yes I’ve been medicated #before but it didn’t make me magically suddenly know what I want to do and who I want to be. anyway. this is a rant bc idk just bc. #trying not to be online so much but tbh I’ve just been staring at walls and sleeping I can’t keep going on like this #t

[enhalpy]

life update !!

#hi guys 💗💗 ​idk if anyone will read this but #here’s a little life update since i haven’t been active in a while #ive been rlly busy with school esp since this year is pretty important so i’m definitely feeling the stress 🥲 #omg little rant but grades for the first school quarter were due yesterday and my physics teacher hasn’t put anything in so im rlly stressed #i rlly want to write smtg if i have time so hopefully i can post smtg soon #i’ll definitely try to stop by more often on this acc and cutieseo too #ooh and although i’ve been super duper busy with school i actually got to see enhypen a few days ago #i had a great time at the concert & it was perfect #and also they performed gbogh twice!! #which ofc they did for me 🤭🤭🤭 #it was so so much fun & my throat was sore for a couple days after bc i screamed sm lol #haha anyways if you’re still reading i hope yk that ilysm and make sure to take of urself #have a great day/night too 😚💗💗 #fae’s rambles! ✿

[kala22]

Here’s a thought. You know how people love those characters who have trauma or are in some way broken, for example dean Winchester, klaus Hargreaves, stiles stillinski, I love them too. But these are the types of characters people say you won’t love in real life. Tell me why literally every person I’ve ever drawn into my life has been a version of them.

#klaus hargreeves #broken hero trope #character tropes #tv #stiles stilinski #time for my rant. #every body I’ve ever had an attachment to has been a version of this broken character #they all have similar childhoods #some form of substance abuse is really obvious with them #a boy I really really fell for was a walking version of klaus hargreeves #why am I always ending up with these people? my friend told me it’s because I can fix them #I don’t want to fix them at all #I’m not a person who try’s to fix anything #which is probably not a good thing either but I have this mentality where things just are what they are and there’s nothing I can do #it is what it is #if the world wants it that way then there’s nothing I can do about it #idk maybe I’m attracting them because it’s some form of entertainment to help me escape from my own shit but #idk #there has to be some reason for it #and I kinda only brought it up because i seen this pattern whenever I became friends with two people who I thought had no connection #they turned out to be both the same person and also be very close with eachother #and it was a complete mind fuck when we all realised we knew eachother

[cantofworms]

Hi I just wanted to discuss if you want of course because I read your post regarding dnf and I wanted to maybe explain why I think it's different than any other relationship they have? I personally take under consideration the whole context of their time they know each other. Because it's not at all about what they say or do now, like yeah they might smooch other people and say they are not dating. (That and their friends saying they are free might be just to protect privacy) But still George put his life on hold for dream and then moved to America permanently and dream didn't face reveal earlier because he waited for him. Yeah there is also sapnap and their bond with sapnap is also super strong and they all love each other, but you need to admit its different. They definitely don't look like that at anyone else and don't post candids like that of anyone else. I'm ace so for me it's definitely not about fucking and sucking. But they have different aura than men who pander imo. Like yard boys for example. They are also lifelong friends and they joke about all those things but they don't seem like life partners. And for me dnf do. That's why I'm leaning more towards romantic.

When it comes to sexuality discussion and analysing I think it's fine as long as it not on twitter or anywhere they can see and feel self-conscious about it.

But everyone can have their own opinions and I respect yours

anyways

#I think you missed the whole point I was trying to make but thank you for not being a dick about😭🫶🏻 but. yeaa respectfully hard disagree #also if ppl wanna be weird and constantly pick apart everything to do w dnf Possibly being real or gnf not being straight keep it in the #discord dms or smth it just gets annoying after literal years of it #personally I think we’d all be better off to just take a step back and take everything they say at face value #another thing whenever I post a thing that’s just ‘.’ and a long ass rant in the tags #is basically just me getting my thoughts out of my head and into writing and then I post it bc #maybe some ppl will relate and they like the post and we have a moment of #hashtag Solidarity✊🏻 and then we all quietly move on #but now ig that I’ve gained more followers ppl wanna give me their thoughts which is completely fine and natural obvs #but I make rant posts like that and if the ppl that get it Get It then that’s epic but for the ppl who don’t pls just scroll and move on👍🏻 #like I don’t indend for them to be turned into public discussions or anything idk #anyway this is the last I’ll say about any of it disclaimer I love dream and geogre more than anything they’re the two ppl I blog about most #!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love the fandom but I think (and Ik I’m not the only one) that the truthing has become A Lot recently and I needed #somewhere to complain about it END SCENE

[good-night-space-kid]

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#kind of a personal rant here I guess #but since starting college I haven’t really made any deep friendships #and as of late most of the people I see daily and interact with are not queer which is sad I miss my queer friends #but this semester has been admittedly kind of rough on a personal level #like. I feel like I’ve killed my past self only to find that the new me is the same #just more obviously autistic and more socially awkward and worse at school #truly I do like the person I’m becoming overall but I feel like I can’t bridge the gap between people I’m friends with and like #actual friends outside of the situations in which were forced to be together you know #I’ve been engaging more with many of my interests but I’ve been so stressed all semester and it’s catching up to me #idk. I wish I had friends I could talk to about this #but I’ve been so bad at maintaining relationships this semester because I’ve been so busy #and I’m not shy per se I just don’t do things and don’t have a natural way to make people into anything other than circumstantial friends #like I have one chair and a desk chair in my dorm #so I can’t really invite people over #and people have been driving me insane all semester even though they’re people I’m friends with #idk I just feel like there’s something wrong with me and I kind of want to try for an autism diagnosis

[idyllic-ghost]

i’m trying to talk during seminars but it’s so hard to get a word in😭😭 and when i do i feel like it’s not good words?? like i cant speak properly- i will never look down upon writing😫 it doesn’t help that i’m the youngest there i feel like a child

#personal rant #seriously idk what to do i’m just going to keep trying #like i CAN speak but everyone’s making it hard #and then they turn to me and have the AUDACITY to ask if i have anything to add when they’ve all said everything there is to say