#idk its been on my mind for a while now

[miasmaghoul]

May I offer a headcnon?

Blind Zephyr

Thoughts, both solo and with Mountain below. Nothing explicit, but implied horny things in the distance.

Not completely blind, but their vessel has some unfixable eye impairment that limits sight and progressively worsens. That's why they were a band ghoul for such a brief period, their eyesight tanked after the tour ended. Eventually they end up functionally blind, just able to make out shapes and colors but nothing close to detail.

They adapt fairly well, but they do end up relying on the others a bit more at first. Especially Mountain, who's easiest to pick out in a crowd. Zephyr isn't a huge fan of siblings, and they've made the mistake of assuming a sister is Dew three times too many, so it's easier to look for the blob of beige that they know to be Mountain’s antlers.

Mountain doesn't mind.

He doesn't baby Zephyr the way Aether sometimes does, and he doesn't use kid gloves the way Dew and Ifrit tend to. Mountain is easy, honest. Helpful without being overbearing, doesn't presume to do things that Zephyr certainly can on their own. He waits for them to ask, and Zephyr is always silently appreciative.

They wish they could see more of his handsome face, though. Wish they could count the freckles speckled over his nose and cheeks for the hundredth time, that they could admire the squared off edges of his pupils and that one auburn streak in his hair.

But their memory will have to suffice - though Mountain never objects to letting Zephyr touch his face when they need a reminder. To bring the ridge of his brow and the hump on his nose back into sharper relief in their head.

Touching that, of course, never stops at Mountain's face.

Zephyr insists on facing him whenever they fall into bed, regardless of who's doing what. Mountain assured them that he will always look into their eyes, even if they cant see him, and Zephyr believes him.

After, Mountain will read to them. That's the one thing Zephyr misses more than any other, even more than their keys - being able to squirrel themself away into a nook in the library with a thermos of tea and a good book. But Mountain's voice is lovely, and the way his chest vibrates under Zephyr's ear is so soothing. Like this, they can forget their loss for a minute.

Mountain traces shapes into their skin while he reads, and Zephyr memorizes every one - hearts and stars and Z's and M's and nonsensical squiggles. Sometimes Zephyr will ask how a character's name is spelled, and Mountain will write it on their back while he spells it out loud.

Zephyr always drifts off faster than they intend to, but it's unavoidable. Mountain will finish out his chapter and they'll settle down, face to face, with Zephyr's hand over Mountain's heart. Just a reminder. Zephyr knows they don't have to, but they always thank Mountain for everything. He'll shush them, always, kiss their cheek, and for a second Zephyr will SWEAR they can see him.

They sleep the best those nights.

#miasma's work #the band ghost headcanons #zephyr ghoul #mountain ghoul #mountzeph #zephtain #mountain/zephyr #mountain x zephyr #idk its been on my mind for a while now

[profoundmakerdreamerss-blog]

Tomarry AU with fake dating but not because of a rebound, no. It's because of the money. Yes, an au with Tom and Harry having a YouTube channel together. A couple YouTube channel. Yep. It's not like they like each other — oh no. It's strictly business. After all, it is a lucrative business deal — and that is true because they do take the dating world of YouTube by storm. (That was the plan anyway; pesky feelings are below me anyways. — Tom Riddle, in the mirror, at 3 am.)

An AU where both of them are roommates and due to shortage of funds decide to open a YouTube channel together. Especially after seeing how Abraxas' beauty blog was so successful, and so was Ron's gaming channel. An AU where they start a prank channel that end up becoming a dating channel because everyone thinks they are dating. And because Tom and Harry don't do anything in half's; they decide to milk it as much as they can. To them it was their best idea to date. Or a decision they would both come to regret. (Like Tom? No way, he is my business partner and Tom would kill him before he ever dated him. — Harry Potter, to himself, monologuing the same thing, for the hundredth time that day.)

Basically an AU where they both end up falling for each other and being in denial while doing YouTube videos as a COUPLE, and freaking out everytime they have to do couple-y stuff.

#yes i know #there are too many tomarry aus #forgive me #but they have been leaving in my mind rent free for months now and i can finally puke them out SOMEWHERE #a modern au #or maybe wizarding youtube channel #idk how'd that work #but anyway #its just #tom and harry making dumb decisions #at 3 am #relatable tbf #but anyway its just them pining and denying like always #tomarry #tom riddle #harry potter #my hc is tom always freaks out in front of the mirror while harry closes his eyes to scream internally #ANYWAYS AT LEAST THEY ARE RICH NOW #maybe they were onto something #maybe all these suffering will mean something

[why-the-heck-not]

insomnia? do u mean my true crime podcast time

#u know bc now I can convince my brain I slept a little bc I had my eyes closed for like 2h while listening to it #it’s like u can almost gaslight it into thinking that that podcast was actually dreaming bc we for sure were asleep yes #also this sucks bc it’s ahead of its schedule; I can’t sleep during summers so like what is this then #the climate change is affecting my insomnia cycle damnit #real unfortunate tho if it keeps going for longer (just been like 2ish weeks now) bc I got a thesis plus other shit to do #(also to anyone who’s unclear on the subject; yes I have slept during these 2ish weeks I'm not dying i'm just hella tired bc it’s not good #refreshing long sleeps bc mf it takes like 5 hours to fall asleep) #(except today bc it’s 7am and I’m giving up on it & hopefully will have a nap sometime during the day idk) #(im tired and getting increasingly more stressed abt becoming more tired and then not having the energy to do things that I fully neeed to #get done and how the stress just yes helps ah nice) #(sorry for ranting in thr tags; weird state of mind here bc of aforementioned) #march 2024 #2024

[p1x1x]

#momonina #kindof. embarrassed to post this one bc its just pure fluff lmao… theyre so LAME in this pic (/j) #i can hear mmk going ったく… #nn’s outfits are always soooo cute though #waaaaaah i love the fashion…. #miiiight color it though.. #edit incoming #future pix here #mmnn #<- decided the drawings of the two of em can have momonina in them but if it leans more romo than plato it has mmnn #bc i rotate them in my head so fast #but as the days pass i get really crazy over them being Not Romantic but still More than That #im losing my Mind tbh #the only thing im certain of is that mmk is definitely a lesbian all things considered like look at her LMAO #everytime i rewatch i do consider how gay her actions are...??? #(i've been rotating mmnn around in my mind since ep 1 tbh... the codependency was tempting...!) #but i keep thinking abt mmk herself saying “i saw my past self in you” in like. ep 2 already... and it would linger in my mind #i had written in my notes a While back #like when ep 4 was airing #that it just felt like mmk was trying to be kind to her past self ykno #because she believed that the her now... had failed in her dream #so yknow... by giving the guitar she was trying to have nn continue that dream for her (leading into mmk “guiding nn”) #ofc nn gives back her guitar though and i thank that person on twitter everyday for putting it so well #LIKE AGHHH THEIR MEETING WAS FATE BUT THE ACTIONS THEY TOOK TO PULL EACH OTHER UP... KILL ME!!!! #the choices they make regarding themselves... of staying true to themselves... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgjhg #idk how many people will see this edit so im just treating it like the void (haha Void) here #(i've made that joke multiple times to myself now #i still think about. how mmnn were drawn to the honesty of each other #and yet. didnt exactly recognize each other as an actual person yet? #nn loved void and so loved mmk for creating it and saving her life. so mmk was a savior to her

[mildcicada]

#when i was first coloring him in he was gonna be golden chinchilla colored but then i was like ehhh jonah magnus should be red/orange but #elias should be gray ...so i just desaturated what i already did instead of recoloring lol but #he is now supposed to be shaded silver lol #but thats why his coat pattern is on the darker side compared to what it *should* be #og elias bouchard coming from an important/roch family and while whole thing with thinking he just *deserves* stuff bc of his upbringing. #etc. -> he is purebred and matches the breed standards etc for a scottish fold of his color #obviously the eye color doesn't matter because. ahaha #i thought elias fit the Scottish fold vibes because: Scottish folds are known for looking sort of like owls and having intense eyes #and the cat body/face type (also present in british shorthairs) to me gives off sort of... unnasumming vibes? #like ahaha yes i am a boring boss who loves paperwork look at how unnasumming i am season 1-2 elias y'know #trying to think of what cat breed jonah would be. and also jon gerry etc you know all the other characters i like #would it be boring to have multiple british shorthairs #i mean.. #Michael shelley/distortion is a laperm that's all I know #i didn't particularly care with the personality attributes associated with eliascat because it didn't need to fit his personality on account #of not being his original body. but i do try to keep in mind the best personality/look/etc. cat attributes as a whole for a character #also sometimes get obsessed with jt making historical and geographical sense but then it just limits me greatly to a point im not into it #so i don't care about specific breeds in that respect lol #tma #my art #elias bouchard #the magnus archives #some notes looking back(made it 2 hours ago but still looking back ok..) on it now are that i feel like elias would never choose this breed #for his next bodyhop because of the inherent health issues in scottish folds. I saw the breed was created in like the early 1960s and #assumed that maybe the health issues wouldn't have been common knowledge until later enough for jonah to be unaware of them but actually no #there's legislation about it like 6 years later LOL so jonah would..maybe not make this choice #i guess in the future when drawing i will just make him a British shorthair #my catTMA is simultaneously 'they are just regular cats or like all show cats or something' and 'exact tma plot but as intelligent cats' #LOL its just vague in my mind idk..also maybe jon can be an Abyssinian #ALSO WHAT WAS I THINKING 'jonah may not have been aware about x thing' like did i...did i forget. me 2 hours ago was dumb as rocks

[moveslikekeithrichards]

its so hard to talk about how traumatic it is to watch somebody be claimed by dementia without going "well i cant complain because at least i wasnt the one losing my mind (for now)" but that shit fucks you up so much. that ghost is going to haunt me for the rest of my life and all i can do is hope it Stays a ghost

#tiddytaco #b #thinking about it rn bc today while i was driving my mom home from pt #she saw someone she knew from years ago driving & was like FOLLOW THAT CAR & we met them in a parking lot #& the conversation turned to 'hey what the hell happened to your parents' pretty quickly bc our families hadnt been in touch #& it was a long conversation in the hobby lobby parking lot #& idk if itll ever Stop being fresh in my mind but now its Extra fresh in my mind #that whole time period was just so insane & awful #bc it was like Ok we're caring for both grandparents #& then my grandpa died #& all our pets at the time were very old #& when he died it occurred to me that we could easily lose both grandparents and all 3 pets within the year #it turned out to be like a long drawn-out year & a half from the first to the last #& looking back it seems impossible that is was that short a time period bc it felt like an eternity #we got off easy with grandpa bc he died before it got too bad but with grandma it just kept getting Worse #& the climax of the caring experience was traveling to take her to my uncle bc he wanted to take his shift caring for her #& that was so . So bad. SO bad #like it literally could not have gone more smoothly and it was SO bad #just thinking about it i feel like im there again i get so stressed out

[lesbians4jeongin]

it would be interesting to see how a group that has so greatly been branded as belonging to the “noise”genre would do a more singing-based release. not that a singing heavy tt needs to be a soft ballad but based on b-sides alone that seem to be more of the boys’ style (singing-wise). and sure some groups (mainly from sm) do do more “big” or “noisy” singing-based stuff, but that’s not the guys’ style imo. those groups tend to be full of big belters who get grand one liners, and the showiness of that doesn’t quite fit skz. and i like that their full singing releases seem slower and more mellow.. it’s a good antithesis to the noise. i really adore those sort of b-sides and always feel a bit sad that most non-skz fans don’t know that the boys sound like that, or that skz has so many skilled singers to begin with, and all as a result of the the usual tts they release.

#also i don’t mean showiness in a bad way.. exo and wayv both do it and it’s awesome #one thing about the guys' tts that always bothered me a bit as a seungin fan is that they don’t show off their singing well #or i guess in a more memorable(?) way (from the lens of a non fan) #and while seungin’s singing is def better suited to diff (more ballad-esque) genres.. they adapted to fit the group and its sound #and while i’m grateful for that (and i’m sure the rest of the guys are as well) i sorta wish they didn’t need to do that or at least to the #degree that they do. idk man all i wish is that their skills got used and integrated better #i’m ranting now but it’s genuinely been on my mind for so long #skz #stray kids #*

[hailsatanacab]

close enough to be whole again || chapter 18

🎊 new chapter update new chapter update new chapter update 🎊

#dpxdc #dpxdc fic #dcxdp #dcxdp fic #desktop tumblr lets you edit links to put a title instead of 'show chapter' but mobile doesnt 😭😭😭 #oh hello guys how are you i didnt see you there!! #dont mind me just casually dropping a chapter after........... too many months being inactive #im so sorry #ive been trying to get the other writing ive got going out of the way but like #theyre all turning into monsters too!! #idk how i feel about this chapter :/ #the next chapter is going to have to undergo major rewrites before its posted #but! BUT! ive got a solid idea of where it goes after that so thats good news!! #because i was really stumped for such a long while #....... now i just gotta write it tho haha #after my holiday!! then its fic time BaBey!!! #poor danny in this chapter - poor damian too #at this point damian isnt necessarily against the idea of ghosts being (he knows ghosts are real!) its just more of a #'if ghosts arent real than danny is just confused and hes not dead please hes not dead dont let him be dead' sort of situation #ya get me? #promise they will talk about it and it will get better #just..... its gonna be a few chapters 😬 #also in an earlier draft danny called dan a little bitch but damian misinterpreted it as danny calling damian a little bitch #and that was so funny to me - BUT to me it read more in damian's way so like i didnt want danny to get readers like that too #so i took it out but i kinda wish id left it in because its Funny #uh hmmm what else............... bruce sure is surprised about ghosts in amity huh #thats the trouble with writing Smart People #for i am Not Smart #BUT i do know the plot so that helps!! #anyway!! im at limit so let me say thank you for waiting ily all and i hope you enjoy it!! ily ily ily and thank you thank you thank you 🩷

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really? #ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious. #i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

You can in fact do whatever you want forever!! If it's not as convincing when you say it to yourself, here I am saying it to you as well. And it's cute to see you expressing yourself comfortably, even if you were contradictory, who cares. Kill the identity police inside your head or whatever

you guys are going to have me crying like for real

#i say like it is not happening already i mean what no its just. allergies #I KNOW AND I TALK ABT IT FOR OTHER PEOPLE ALL THE TIME BUT IM THE WORLDS BIGGEST HYPOCRITE #its just. idk #it feels like im lying to people #being a pretty 'typical' asexual was such a big and stable part of my identity for a while and when it wasnt actually the case anymore idk #it feels like im lying to people and im going back on things #but really im just changing and i know thats okay and even expected but aughthwhskgkg #head in hands #you guys have been really helpful though and i love you all a lot #i mean its what got me to this point anyway. i remember i used to get so embarrassed to the point i couldn't even admit i wanted to kiss a #character (cough cough venti) but now i CAN even if im still embarrassed abt it #and i need to keep it in mind for stuff like this too but woeifjghfnd #anyway the point is. thank you all. a lot #aethers asks #personal posts and stuff #aethers rants

[ofj-art]

I’ve been away forever bc life has been a bitch but I swear I’m not dead

#let’s pretend i just hibernate for the winter #a lot of it has just been financial troubles and stuff related to it #focusing on juggling everything that comes with that #I was unemployed for a while but then found work but it hardly paid me enough to live off of and I had to get help to cover rent and bills #it was just really stressful #but I got a new job but now im busy bc its full time and an hour commute #idk ive just been occupied #i still havent posted the sketches from those donations all the way back in october bc it just slipped my mind and then my pc died on me #i managed to extract the files from the hard drive i just gotta find the sketches and post them #but ive moved back onto my old slow ass laptop RIP #i’ll try and find them once i get home #im sorry for my absence it’s been. well #its been

[autism-corner]

guy is noticing his depression coming back, but will not do anything about it.

#idk ive been diagnosed with dysthymia which was sold to me as mild but longlasting depression etc. #as i was in the process of leaving my psychiatrist she told me it was at that moment in recession =w=b #but one main thing im seeing now is that im skipping school again. (+ the horrors but we dont talk about those) #skipping school isnt BAD and all. and i do genuinely think its for the better but. that might just be the depression voice talking =3= #anyway i know itll get better again. hopefully soon. #augh also one thing i noticed is. the sleepy. getting back. #its been a while since ive had afternoon naps but now..... they sure are happening. #and these suck a bit more bc often i get home at 4pm which is in my mind too late to have a comfy nap. #yesterday and also a couple days ago i napped from like 8pm-9pm. which isnt really helping my sleep :) #but its not like i could STAY AWAKE or something. i HAD to sleep. #:/ #anyway its not like i can actually do something big about it... #maybe i should take a walk more. hm. #but my knees.... and the tired.... and things i actually have to do..... #sillyposting #yaknow. #=w=b

[lesbianjennette]

my fav loona stan

#this has been ine of my fav joke hcs of c!ponk for a while #he wld LOVE loonaverse theories u cannot convince me otherwise #him talking abt keeping travk of the moin gave me the oush to finally make this #since orbits wld keep track of the moin a lot b4 (idk if as much now??) to try and oredict loonas next moves akdkak #my art #ponk #he wld be a hyunj!n bias y cant change my mind #dropsbyponk #dsmp #ig since its his character?

[ghost-bard]

Before i deleted my old acc i was (sort of) working on a fairy tail au where Loke was the celestial mage and Lucy was the leo celestial key and i kinda wanna work on it again but also. would anyone really be interested in that 

#fairy tail #lucy heartfilia #loke #fairy tail loke #fairy tail 100 years quest #idk i remember drawing it but it didn't look that good #like i think itd be kinda interesting switching lucy and loke #lolu #its something thats been in the back of my mind for a while now #so uhh idk lmao

[st4rstudent]

Unfortunately, it has gone quite slow. This writing thing has HANDS!!! It's just a short one story since I haven't actually wrote anything in a whiiileeeee. i think its about maybe halfway done

#clemramble #clemask #sorry im putting your tags on blast #and by a while I mean a while. the last time i ever did something close to character related writing was um. #ok come close im whispering in your ear. the last time was when i was 12-13 doing character roleplay profiles on dA. ok lean away now. #its kind of just a “(character) goes out and does stuff” . which has been done over and over again . sorry guys. #its winn focused eheheh . but its coming off as mediocre or atleast it is in my mind #unlike art i cant seem to judge my writing that well. like in my art i know what i can improve on but all of my writings are just bad to me #school essays included on this #i might power through and atleast finish the draft soon. idk. i dont think writing is my strong point but its fun #i think the issue i have is that my ideas come from little snippets and so im building the story around this snippet in my mind instead of #a solid outline or idea. but hey we ball #anyways tldr is that its going slow but we're getting there #its around 1670 words as of now so yeah. somewhat short

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#what does one do when their perception cannot b trusted? im so physically and emotionally exhausted #and i can go from feeling hopelessly terminally bad to completely normal for no apparent reason. and on occasion i can go from normal to i #think i can stay up all night. i never have to sleep again. look how great i can focus. i could kill god. #and i have no emotional object permanence so it feels so stupid when im normal. i cant sympathize with myself in altered states of mind #and it doesnt matter but it makes me crazy the idea that i might not b bip0lar but i just push myself so far that under pressure my mind #splits into the catastrophically positive or negative. but i feel like this is how i have to live. i have to b perfect or pay a blood debt #and thats just how it is. and thats how its been. so at this point ive spend thr last idk 15 years of my life being d #some measure of miserable for no reason. i dont kno y i do this to myself and im 26 now and idk how to stop bc even pushing myself as hard #as i can im so far behind. how am i supposed to do less and not #and not just quit. im compulsive for a reason. there's a fundamental barrier between myself and understanding language but if i do more and #more and more then i can at least try to keep up with everyone else. idk im so tired. and im 26 and im afraid im stuck like this #and i cant even... its like ive split my head in 2 to cope. ive created distance within myself so that i cant fully feel how terrible i make #things for myself. half my brain is always like lol suffer idiot. it throws off my therapists bc i cant take my own pain seriously. ill #laugh and smile while im like yea i feel horrible like most of the time and i dont kno what to do lol. idk so it goes. i think im gonna stop #with the birth control tho. as it doesnt seem to help with my sadness levels. idk if ite making ot worse or not. guess well find out #itll b easier once i dont have to b trained on things. then i wont have to ask a question and burst into tears on my lab mate 🙄 #unrelated