#idk man i am spinning my wheels

[nejackdaw]

morthal and markarth for the skyrim asks!

Ty for the ask! 💞

Morthal - Do you enjoy exploring dungeons and ruins? Why or why not?

Kinda depends tbh. Dungeons with multiple rooms absolutely FULL of enemies encourage a more stealthy approach, and while I'm a capable stealth archer, it's not my preferred play style, so it can be a bit unfun. The alternative, however, is the ENTIRE DUNGEON hearing me engage in melee and swarming me at once, which. Also isn't fun. Ultimately I guess the answer comes down to "depends on the number of guys in there" and "how likely is Marked For Death to solve the entire issue?" Skyrim is basically the only game where, when given a choice, I'll choose martial over caster or archer, but this can be a problem in packed dungeons. I like single or few guy brutal slugfests where we just beat the shit out of each other. Also then I can just take a break to throw up my shield and watch Celann materialize to OHKO them, which fills me with glee literally every time

Markarth - If you could rewrite one questline in Skyrim, which would it be? (This answer is sooooo long btw)

Hmm... I'm actually not too interested in a lot of them, but when it comes to being disappointed in one, it's the Civil War questline. The entire thing amounts to "use your main character powers about 5 times in a dungeon or something and then go fight the oppositional leader." You can't even fix Whiterun, a place you specifically took for its geographical, strategic, and mercantile advantage. You just leave it in ruins???

There are two quests in the entire line that aren't just "awkwardly storm this place with a couple guys,' and one of them is optional. Both sides have a "steal/plant enemy orders" quest, but the "gaining intel/blackmail" quest is in both cases entirely optional. There's one non-combative "sneak and find this document/gather intel" quest, and no "root out a traitor" or "disrupt a supply line" type quests (technically this one is awkwardly tacked onto the end of the optional quest.) The Dark Brotherhood, Dawnguard, and Thieves Guilds have similar respective quests that we can compare to the 1.5 non-combative Civil War quests: finding intel on Maro's son, the radiant "vampire advisor" quests, basically the entire beginning TG questline (Honningbrew, Goldenglow hives.)

Each of these questlines involve non-typical quests, aka quests where you have to approach it a little differently than the rest of your work: the Brotherhood stealing documents and planting false evidence like thieves, the Dawnguard committing assassinations and pickpocketing orders like both the Brotherhood AND the Guild, the Guild quest where you engage not only in open combat with Mercer, but kill him, like both the Dawnguard and, well, the Brotherhood Brynjolf insists you're not.

While those questlines are largely the same sort of quests on repeat, it's because they're, well, specialized guilds. Built entirely around doing those things. That's their entire function. When it comes to a war (which is very NOT a guild,) you'd expect a bit more than just a few skirmishes, especially considering the only thing that changes when you join is, well. There's one more guy in the skirmish. But magically this turns the tide and the entire war is won through brute force when previously there seemed no end in sight. The questline lacks variety, is incredibly, oddly short for what's supposed to be a war, and generally just... lacks impact. Nothing really happens afterwards. Faction camps are still sitting around, and you still can't even clear them. Hold guards are replaced by the faction that won and Whiterun is permanently in shambles. Can't even fix Whiterun ffs there's not even quests for that.

* After leaving this in the drafts for a few weeks and thinking about it some more, I think ultimately the problem IS the brevity. "Do four battles and suddenly we win" is absolutely insane. The Dawnguard DLC and the Thieves Guild, even the one single time I played it, have spoiled me rotten with the never ending radiant quests. It prevents the Companions feeling of "I joined three days ago and now I'm in charge and everyone does what I say" that throws everyone off. Not only can you keep accepting them, the mainline quests don't get in the way of accepting them (... like the Companions only telling you to go talk to Aela.) This means you can keep accepting radiant quests that provide a feeling of integration and contribution (in)to the guild, and also avoids the Companions and Civil War feeling of "I did three quests and it's over and everyone is bowing to me" by allowing you to do guild things in-between the main quests.

Not only that, but they offer a variety the main line might not provide, especially with the Dawnguard. For example, siding with the Volkihar includes a quest where you're given Dawnguard armor and told to go cause a scene, striking down some innocent civilian in the name of "vampire hunting" to sow public distrust. This quest is cool as fuck conceptually btw, why is a Volkihar radiant cooler than the entire CW line???

Ultimately I think if I could change one thing about the Civil War line specifically it would be adding TG/DG style radiant quests that can be done between main missions and also include "milestone" type quests that really bring home the feeling of growth and contribution. I think it would make it feel considerably less jarring and I'd even maybe consider playing it again if we could fix Whiterun.

#asks #uh. i am. so sorry this took so long to answer alsnkwnswk i couldnt word my thoughts on the cw line satisfactorily #idk man the war before you join is this brutal slog that supposedly is severely impacting the entire population #no end in sight because no one has the upper hand #and then the quests just. are more battles. the ones that were getting no one anywhere besides a grave #like if the same battles in the same places werent really getting results youd think youd try literally anything else #sure you get the crown and whoever you bavk gets public support but i dont recall that really resulting #in like. any extra supplies or soldiers or anything #like the whole point is there ARENT any supplies left for ANYONE and people who can be soldiers are #on the basis of 'its literally a CIVIL war' it is an internal thing #and then you do the one (1) not open combat keep storming quest and divert some weapons #fr i think those are the only changes #idk it was super boring to play through and the reward for my efforts was a fucked up whiterun #like. thanks. i cant even fix it???? wtf #anyway this has been in my drafts for WEEKS im just posting this #okay coming back after that last edit actually i have one last thing to say #dawnguard 10/10 for not making you the leader at the end no one listens to you youre just some guy #which is soooooo. great. no one does it like dg im busy i dont wanna lead your fucking guild #and isran would never fucking let you. he would come back as a malevolent ghost if he died and keep running the guild #absolute dawnguard supremacy in cast quests and not making you god spin that fucking chore wheel boy #edited to add the ask game link rip

[triflesandparsnips]

Lot of takes going around the internets about certain "deaths" in the ofmd season finale, so, uh-- guess it's time for me to try and lose some followers on tumblr dot com with

Some Thoughts on Why I Am Not Particularly Bothered or Concerned about Izzy's Apparent "Death"

Laying the groundwork first...

1. Narratively speaking, Izzy's been a dead man walking since the start of the season. Babe shot himself and got a rebirth-- but he still definitely intended to die. Every minute he was still around was borrowed time.

Did he have to die? Maybe not. I know I could've written a version of the show where he didn't. But then that would be my show-- not theirs. I can't know exactly what themes, bugbears, bête noires, catharsis, or artistic Vibes are driving that writers' room, and until the credits run on the finale of the third season, none of the rest of us can either.

2. Izzy spent the season being in a liminal state-- and there's nothing in the story saying that he can't continue doing that. Izzy spent the season having one foot in one space, one hoof in the other, and himself halfway through the door, a chimera of mirrored things right up to his "death": pirate and ship, hard and soft, old ways and new, etc etc. But "the gravy basket" is a weird little liminal space between life and death, a place that both Ed and Buttons have found (and returned from) before. We don't know where Izzy "is" right now-- he could be there.

(tbh, I wonder how much poor feeling we'd be having about all this if we'd gotten a final tag of a blue-washed Izzy staring down at a bowl of soup while helplessly saying "but this isn't gravy, what the fu--")

3. I think there is an unfortunate belief that "it's not real unless you see the body" is a universal -- or perhaps inarguable -- "fact" of storytelling. But it's not. It's just a bit of narrative shorthand that got popular, and now we're too ready to fall into the trap of believing the inverse is true too-- that if there is a body, then there must therefore have been a "real" death.

This season has spent quite a lot of narrative time and effort telling us that its story is using a different model, with different shorthands; specifically, that magic is real, that there is at least some kind of existence after death, and that the dead can be resurrected.

And that brings me to the meat of why I'm not particularly bothered or concerned about what, at this stage of the story, could still very well be just a minor setback--

4. This whole show, and particularly this season, is a fairy tale. It's a story that works with fairy tale logic and tropes, and it's in conversation with other fairy tales too, ones that the OFMD audience is likely to know well enough to spot their narrative beats in action. So "Pinocchio" gets mentioned a lot? Cool-- the audience applies what is commonly known of that story to this one ("a real boy", the mirror-opposite being a puppet with no nose, etc), and finds some Cool Shit. Then they're primed to keep looking for fairy tales, even unnamed ones, in case there's another little nugget of reward-dopamine for finding a connection.

So the fact that we saw a mermaid? Suddenly, I personally am noticing "Little Mermaid" motifs all over the place. That Ed was in a "sleep like death" -- after fucking around with a spinning wheel -- until his prince came to wake him? Well fuck, man, that's Blackbeard playing "Sleeping Beauty" for us all.

And bringing it all back to a "dead" Izzy Hands... when I add up a "dead" body surrounded by a bunch of laborers mourning the person who nominally kept their living space nice AND who was wanted dead by an authority figure for the crime of being the "better" version of what that figure wanted to be...

...well fuck, idk about the rest of you, but to me that all adds up to Izzy's story being Snow fucking White. Waiting for someone to come pull the bullet poisoned apple from his body so he can live again.

5. This is a second season. Of three. And Izzy Hands is the writer's favorite chewtoy, so there is lots of time, space, and incentive to bring him back. If there's a third season, we have a pile of ways he could be brought back over the course of hours of literal viewing time and possibly months of in-narrative time. That's ages.

And the solutions don't have to be difficult! For instance, we still have canonical hallucinations from Stede-- that's one route. Or fuck it, we could have Izzy's (very solid-looking) ghost be the embodiment of their being haunted by the Sea, that would work too.

And even barring all that-- his grave is right there with our heroes. The ship is out there hunting down his murderer. Even if you're happy he's dead... bad news, friend. He's all over the third season landscape. (uh oh, it's GNU Izzy Hands)

But those are just a few options that leave his body rotting but his character still alive. I happen to think we could all dream a little bigger, darlings. For instance:

A. You cannot tell me that these writers, on this show, with these actors, would not absolutely go all in on a zombie-esque hand thrusting out of the dirt mere hours after burial. Look me in the eyes and tell me Con O'Neill wouldn't pull off an entire digging-out scene only to end with himself panting beside the hole, looking around, hearing Ed and Stede being weird in their haunted hut, and wearily say, "Are you fucking kidding me."

B. Don't like zombies? Want to stay closer to the Snow White vibe AND introduce a love interest for him? One hyphenated word: body-snatcher. Gotta dig those bodies up fresh for the Definitely Historically Accurate anatomists of the time! But oh, says this New Guy, this corpse is-- wow, it's weird that they buried him with a rose and really amazing makeup and a truly extraordinary number of whittled whales, plus what's with that horsey leg grave marker, this guy must've been fucking fascinating, man, I wish I could've met him-- --at which point Izzy's hand shoots out and chokes the guy half to death and the lads come tumbling out of the house and ta da, mission accomplished, Izzy resurrected in 5 minutes or less with his horsey leg conveniently beside him and an entire season for himself and everyone else to Deal With It, amazing, fantastic, no notes from me.

C. Come to think of it, there is genuinely a non-zero chance that the crew just. Fucked up the burial. I mean... even though I was just arguing why we shouldn't see it as Law, we didn't actually see the body. We saw a grave. What did they bury him in? Was it a box? Was it some canvas? Did they definitely pick up the right one when it was time to bury him? Or did they maybe carefully make him an ahistorical safety coffin just in case a cat demon came to bother him and his corpse wanted to make a fuss about it, y'know, very common, could happen to anyone, and Frenchie just so happens to have Blackbeard's old collar bell right here--

6. Here's the bottom line, imo: The only thing that would keep Izzy really actually dead and completely removed from the story is a lack of narrative time and space-- and we have plenty of both. Stories are like Lego. If you've got enough time and you're willing to play with pieces from a whole lotta different sets, it's not hard to put the same elements together in different ways to get new, exciting configurations. It's why I'm actually rubbish at predicting exact details of stuff-- there are a lot of ways something could go, there are infinite doors out of problems the narrative seems to throw at us, and no two people will come up with the same thing because we're all different.

That, to me, is one of the big ways I personally enjoy and engage with stories. And it's why I genuinely can't be fussed about Izzy's death, not when we're only two-thirds through the story as a whole; observing someone setup and then try and execute a complicated narrative trick is my jam.

But my way of engaging with all this is by no means the best or only way. How we all interact with art, and what speaks to us, is extremely personal. If how this season and Izzy's death went just didn't work for you, that's okay. I'm sorry it wasn't the story you wanted it to be. That blows.

I just know I can't say yet that it didn't work for me. I won't know until I can take in the entire picture, just as I can't judge a finished Lego set by the one piece I step on midway through construction. I can see different ways Izzy's death/rebirth could absolutely work, but will the writer manage it? I dunno.

But I'm willing to wait and see if the stupid puppet can pull it off.

#will it be the content or the length that causes the unfollows? #WHO CAN SAY #but every day is Unfollowing Amnesty Day #farewell and be free #our flag means death #our flag means death s2 spoilers #our flag means death seasons 3 rampant speculation #izzy hands #engaging with stories #and curating your own experience #(but for real - I had to stop myself at just the few possibilities I gave for a resurrection) #(real talk if you ask me for more I can just-- come up with more) #(it's my party trick) #(for very certain kinds of very nerdy parties)

[krnzysh]

FAVORITE NUMBER ?

SUMMARY where you finally say yes to your suitor in a creative way

CHARACTER kamisato ayato x gn!reader

CW very self indulgent, modern au, gender neutral reader, just pure fluff, angst if you squint, rushed fic, mentions of crying, overthinking, use of call signs, not proofread. lmk if I missed any

[ 💬 ] LOVE, AIKA ¹this is the result of my spin the wheel journey. fluff for now hehehe might post angst soon? idk depends on how busy/motivated I am. ²i got this idea after watching this tiktok wjdhfdndo

“I’m on my way,” Ayato spoke from the other side of the call.

Today marked the 2nd year Ayato had been courting you. Throughout those two years, Ayato had always been patient.

For two years he had been working hard to get that single word from you finally.

Every day for the last two years, he never failed to show you how important you are to him.

Ayato always said to take your time, and that he’s not rushing you to enter a relationship with him.

Despite this, you couldn’t help but worry. What if he got tired of waiting for you? What if he finds someone else to love? So many what-ifs ran through your head.

Ayato knew, he always knew about those thoughts you have, he did his best to quell your worries. It always worked.

Today, you wanted to finally answer the long-asked question. You wanted to tell him “Yes”.

But what's the fun in just telling him? So you concocted a plan together with his sister, Ayaka, who had always been supportive of you both.

Your train of thoughts came to a halt when you heard a knock on your door.

Grabbing your things, and making a beeline to the door, there greeted you the sight of your boyfriend-to-be, holding a bouquet of crochet flowers.

You swear you felt your heart beat faster at the sight.

He wrapped you up in his embrace before handing the bouquet which contained an assortment of flowers.

Returning the hug albeit a bit tighter, and giving his cheek a kiss as a thank you.

He chuckled, his ears turning a pink hue.

"Hi, love" Ayato greeted you,

"Hello" It was your turn to get flustered, he was truly a very unpredictable man, as mischievous as he is, you can't deny the fact that is one of his many quirks that you fell in love with.

Noticing you reddening cheeks, he let out another chuckle. 'Adorable', he thought.

Being the gentleman he is, he walked you to his car with a hand on the small of your back. Opening the door and helping you buckle your seat.

The drive to the location was a quiet one, you loved the fact that no matter how many words were spoken be it none or thousands, you never felt empty, his presence alone was enough to fill your heart.

"We're here," Ayato announced after parking the car.

The view was one you could never forget, it was breathtaking.

The setting sun made it more ethereal, it was like a scene from a book, it looked so unreal.

But to Ayato? You were the most breathtaking view, seeing you gaze at the unending sky with your sparkling eyes.

He fell in love with you all over again.

He uttered your name, beckoning you to come sit with him. He fed you the snacks he brought, and even cuddled you close to him.

After awhile of just sitting together and talking about what not, you gaze into his lavender eyes, you find yourself lost in them.

'Now's the chance' you thought. It was finally time to give him your long awaited gift.

"Ayato?"

He hummed in response, knowing he's listening you decided to continue on.

"What's your favorite number from 1 to 30?"

Though surprised by the sudden question, he nonetheless answered, "19, why?"

Still a bit anxious, you decided to stall more, so, you asked again

"Aside from 19?"

"26, my birthdate"

He answered despite the initial confusion.

"Do you want to know mine?"

"Of course, I want to know everything there is about you"

'Smooth.' you though to yourself.

"My favorite number is 6, ask me why,"

Without any hesitation, he asked "Why?"

"That would be our monthsary!" you replied, anxiously waiting for his reaction.

Pure confusion was written all over his face that you couldn't help but let out a small giggle.

It still hasn't registered in his head, 'monthsary..?' what could it ever mean?

Then it all clicked, you were finally saying yes to his courting!

His face glowed red, salty droplets of tears rolled down his face, he couldn't help it can he?

"Love, are you serious right now?"

"Of course I am. Today is April 6 right?"

"May 6 would be our first monthsary then."

"That's right, what am I to you now?"

"My lover"

"Let's make it official, Love"

That was the first time you ever called him Love outside of texts, he felt butterflies fluttering all over is stomach at that very moment.

"I love you so much," He said, the first to many more.

"I love you too" you told him, leaning your forehead against his, staring at each other with so much love and adoration.

© aiikalvr — do not repost, translate, or plagiarize any of my works on any platform !

#333 𓄳 「 krnzysh's anthology 」 #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin fluff #genshin x you #kamisato ayato #genshin kamisato ayato #genshin impact #kamisato ayato x reader #ayato x reader #ayato fluff #twilight-theatre

[kaiasky]

What was your salvia experience like?

Interesting. Drug talk under the cut.

I wouldn't recommend salvia w/o like, considering if it is Right For You, because I know a number of people who've had absolutely abysmal times with it, even when done in good conditions. That said, I personally really enjoyed it and never had a bad experience with it the ~10 times I did it (usually a few trips per night). I stopped doing it for the same "hmm, I feel like my beliefs are getting disconnected from reality and I don't want to continue that" reason I stopped doing other drugs.

I'm going to paste some shit that i wrote after the first time i did salvia, because i think it's really funny how unhelpful it is, and then I'll try and explain those more. This was written October 2021 after a night of taking hits of 5x concentrated salvia, and as you'll be able to tell i was fully in the swing of Narrative Bullshit:

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I'm not a fan of smoking any drug but. salvia smoke is hot and sucks. [AN: would highly recommend a bubbler of medium size to cool down the smoke.]

It's not a particularly euphoric high, so it definitely feels like it could be bad if you have bad trips. I think the easy way to think of it is, it's basically whippits but for ur brain instead of ur body. [AN: e.g, disassociative feelings]

The body high is a heavy feeling--you could move your body if you had to, but why would you? wouldn't it be better to drift away? It's pretty easy to trip kill by moving a bit. Touch, motion keeps you grounded, so if you want to come down you just wiggle your fingers, touch the world around you. if you want to get high you get comfy and relax. It feels pretty controllable, like I've pulled the ripcord a few times when I wanted the feelings to chill out a bit, which is pretty nice (compared to like acid you can't "get normal" at will, and why I don't think lighter doses would particularly need/benefit from tripsitting. Bear in mind that this may not be a universal experience idk)

[AN: Borderline effects: hands shaking, colors look flat, a strong urge to sit down and close your eyes. When I tried taking a dose and then keeping my eyes open, I just felt kinda weird and uncomfortable for a minute.]

[AN: with eyes closed:] Geometry folds in on itself and a strong feeling of being pulled sideways or backwards, wheeling around, or your body sorta smearing away from you.

Alright. we gotta talk about the clowns. Clowns and other circus performers do make an appearance, as advertised, but classy clowns, not scary ones. I think that's why people in trip reports call them jesters, but it's definitely a circus vibe imo. I don't really know why but like. it feels deeply correct that this is the clown drug. I know that sounds fucking stupid.

The feeling is very much about performing and interstitial states, and verbs being the base thing of existence (like. Normally you can have man, and you can have a man running. But what if instead, you could have "running" and "a man running" but not really "a man" without a verb) That's why clowns are so good because they highlight that existence is performance that "to be" is a verb with many layers. To be a clown (noun) is indistinguishable from clownery (verb).

If don't particularly approve of the gender politics of salvia.

Very common to feel like "oh I need to tell xyz" but multiple layers of people who need to be told things. (I need to tell yall about telling the narrator about telling the wind about the eternal farmers I saw, spinning their merry way around the field of the universe).

Sensory experiences feeling fresh and new. The comedown is full of feeling sensory things and thinking "I was maybe put on earth to think about touching carpet, this is what I am for, born anew as I am now, to explore the carpet and to tell myself about the experience of touching the carpet. And to tell myself a story about how I was put on earth to touch carpet."

Acid music isn't as good, it just feels so complicated that my brain tuned it out. I think simple music that carries you along narratively is what you want--soundtrack music and stuff.

Obviously like. These are impossible to separate from what I expect of salvia and who I am as a person so take with a heavy grain of salt. Narrativizing myself is a very me thing, clowns is something I read online to expect.

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So yeah. I think the biggest effect was feeling "lost" from myself and getting totally engrossed in what felt like many layers of a story. As an example like, I see a book unfolding and the pages start telling me a story of a fisherwoman on a lake, and she gazes into the lake and sees a delinquent teen smoking on a park bench, and the teen dreams of a giant switchboard that's alive. and the giant switchboard feels something grand and incredible and it [me] wants to hold onto it. we need to tell this to our husband when we get home from fishing--no wait, our friends at high school--no wait, who are we again??

It is definitely less euphoric than a serotonin psychedelic. As a baseline I'm uncontrollably euphoric on acid, and the pervading emotion of salvia for me was a kind of beautiful, contemplative melancholy. the dark souls of drugs, thematically. I would expect that if you're baseline less-of-a-happy-camper on other psychedelics then salvia might just be extremely unpleasant without the beauty or contemplation feelings.

Physically, it was a mix between stunningly pleasant and strikingly uncomfortable. The feeling of 'getting pulled apart' or 'reality flipping inside out' can be extremely weird and off-putting OR kinda exhilarating, but I liked the heavy relaxed feeling a lot.

The visuals salvia were really interesting to me. They're less detailed and pattern-y than a classical psychedelic (less whirling patterns and fractals) and more dreamlike. A lot of soaring over a landscape, or drastic changes of scale. It felt like I could control them the same way you might be able to lucid dream, by making 'suggestions' that my brain could run with. "We're zooming down endless green hills [conscious thought: but what's that? a castle on the horizon?!] we zoom into the castle, across it's countless parapets and towers, and into..."

(I'm happy to expand on anything or answer further questions, etc.)

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as a final part i will paste excerpts from things i have written about salvia experiences, shortly after having them:

I met the embodiment of capitalism it was offices and piers and shipping containers that formed into a face on a throne. the ground dropped away from me and I started falling/being drawn toward the face. my body was spinning but my sight was unchanging and locked on the shifting face. and I started to get pulled apart and turned into components but then my headphones said "low battery" so I lost the vision.

Then I saw like a really cool anime opening for a mech anime where mech was being assembled in orbit. pieces snapped together like magnets and hovered a few mm apart like superconducting magnets levitating. it was cool

hilbert curve dandelions. also i owned a haunted fungal mansion in the dandelion dimension but I couldn't find it. too many dandelions.

I was the primordial sports ball. like if u imagine every sentence you could write about sports it is essentially the same. the goalie blocks the shot. the hockey player slaps the puck. the archer looses the arrow. they're all subcases of the primordial sentence "the [sportsman] [triumphs upon] [the sportsball]" (we must accept that salvia as it exists in my head is a very jungian-by-way-of-jordan-peterson drug and move on. im working on it dw). U might think that it is impossible to be the sportsball but think of sentences like "the safety tackles the running back". sometimes you can slide into being the sportsobject even if you are a person. and that's what I did. i one-electron-theoried the entire narrative space of sportsball.

#kaia.mypost #drugs

[dovahqueene]

ok ok ok those who have finished the first 10 chapters of Nightbringer……. Who do we think is Nightbringer???????? My own random guesses under the cut because spoilers for chapter 10 of Nightbringer (EDIT: also I just added lesson 10A spoiler screenshots so spoilers of course)

so the “one sided” convo featuring Solomon in ch 10… again spoilers… implies Nightbringer isn’t a demon (EDIT: kind of. Tbh I’m not sure anymore and am leaning demon aka barb, but I’m leaving what I originally said here anyway. See screenshots below for spoilers). But the intro vid/teaser implies that they are a demon. Hence the confusion. I mean… we know angels can become demons and humans, but can the reverse be true? I don’t know. Have we been told at any point that the reverse is possible? To have a deal of some kind with Solomon though… I’d assume at the very least they are not human although that doesn’t necessarily mean they were never human. Ok now I’m just getting into the weeds with this. I also didn’t reread anything so this is straight up me rambling right after reading that lesson and being confused as fuck.

1. Barbatos from another timeline?? The intro makes you think it’s barbatos in some form, at the very least.

2. God??? Lol if we’re truly following the story of the actual king Solomon… but I don’t know if they’d really go there. But it would make the most sense in a way LOL though the pseudonym “nightbringer” seems wrong for this guess

3. Michael because idk he exists and I don’t know enough about him to decide either way

4. Lilith but that feels conspiratorial to say

5. Diavolo’s dad because why are they bringing him up this much… but again this doesn’t totally fit with what we’ve been told about this “demon” so it would need some explaining

6. Someone else completely who we haven’t met or maybe who was mentioned a few times in passing idk

I’m so curious 😭😭😭😭😭 like who tf 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 help

EDIT: ok I reread and y’all I’m 😭😭⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ big ol HUGE lesson 10a spoilers below

WHAT???? like Solomon… are you saying my man’s a demon or not a demon like please

“You sound just like a demon” @ nightbringer but then “you think I’m behaving like a demon… but that’s to be expected Bc you made me who I am today” 😭😭😭 Solomon pls explain thank you. Now I think it’s more likely nightbringer IS a demon rather than not but that “you sound just like a demon” line really had my wheels spinning like is Solomon being cheeky or 😭 why would he say that to someone he knows is a demon? Is he just saying “of course you would say that” or is he implying nightbringer isn’t a demon? I’m too deep in the semantics probably. It does seem like nightbringer has to be a demon though…. Right? Like it’s more likely Solomon is saying “you would say that” by saying “you sound just like a demon”? Dude I’m harping on this way too much I gotta stop LMAO it’s probably just barb or diavolo’s dad maybe I think I’m going too deep on this

sorry this post got so unhinged 😭 I lost the thread but at least the screenshots are worth looking at I think

#obey me nightbringer #obey me nightbringer spoilers #nightbringer spoilers

[ozymandiasdirge]

the most surprising part of reading one piece this far is funny enough…almost all of the few actual problems i’ve had with it (and not even really problems more like…idk things that don’t work as well as i think they could i guess) are all the opposite of the problems i have with other long running shonen.

which have always been story problems will completely make me lost interest in a show/manga and i completely lose the ability to enjoy most of it outside of fan content. dragon ball and naruto being the main culprits. but shockingly i haven’t really had any story problems so far with one piece??? (i’m only up to the end of thriller bark and while i’m galway spoiled up to the current arc i’m sure that could change in the future).

but, no almost all of my complaints with one piece so far are mainly structural issues. like if oda is really incredible at two things it’s setting up a story and then paying it off, like the man knows how to lay the ground work for a story and he sure knows how to write a fucking satisfying and cathartic climax. but….god help him sometimes there are parts in the second act where, you can tell he has an idea of where he wants the pieces to end up for the start of act three, but the process of having to individually move all of those pieces around can be a little agonizing. like you can hear the wheels spinning in place.

like i am a skypiea defender but oh my god i felt like we had 15 chapters more than we needed to be of being stuck in the fucking forrest running around fighting jobber villians. like you can feel oda feel like he has to tick off boxes, and on the one hand i’m glad he doesn’t forget to let his characters shine (coughs akira toriyama) but oh my god…i’m sorry women but when nami has a fight scene i feel my eyes start to glaze over because 9/10 I KNOW we are in fan service land until it’s over.

anyways this wasn’t even supposed to get this long it was mainly just an observation that i thought of in the shower, and i wanted to put it down to see if this persists since i’m getting close to the halfway point.

#one piece #do i have to tag this for negativity??? #i mean it’s not really supposed to be negative these problems are pretty minor #and it’s mainly just a taste thing #like i love the slower stuff when it’s character focused but…. #oh my god there do not need to be as many fights as there in every single arc

[chocolatebageltje]

I've just finished watching the Fear Street trilogy and I'm. I am living for these movies omg they've been spinning in my head like a hamster in a wheel for the past few days. They're so good, I haven't had a movie that kept me so fully engaged all throughout in a while and especially the sound design is what does it for me. I will be watching them all over again soon just to see if I didn't pick up on some things that were concluded later. Despite being a pretty rounded whole I'd almost wish they'd make more sequels about the individual Shadyside killers just to get more content out of the universe. The series is going into my favorite movie catalog for sure.

Also, I deadass need someone to do a thorough character analysis on Nick Goode specifically lol. @ me if you're that person bc I need to DISCUSS. (Spoilers below)

I found him sus on so many occasions throughout the series but every time I ended up letting my guard down regardless because he was just portrayed as so likable to me?? After he turned his back on Ziggy at the end of part 2 I felt he might've known something and that it was a dick move, but I also kinda felt that there might've been a good reason for it and that he'd get a redemption arc. But BOI that turned out...different. Deadass though, as evil as he ended up being, I kinda felt there had been some shreds of good left in there as well, just heavily overpowered by all of the rest.

Idk if this is supposed to be the actual meaning of it but, to me it seemed that as it was said the Goode's were able to get whatever they wanted through the deal with the devil, Nick desperately wanted Ziggy survive her injuries and so she did. (Like deadass the chick got stabbed big time how tf does one survive that??) And if that was the case, that they could technically wish for whatever they wanted, couldn't he technically also wish for Ziggy to stick with him regardless? But that could blow his cover so... But when they met again at the mall, I found his expression quite hard to read. I felt maybe he had a moment of guilt maybe? Feelings coming back to the surface? But then he deadass tried to human sacrifice her right after so even if so it was pretty meaningless in the end 💀 Maybe his ego was just too big to be fully real with himself? Am I giving this man too much credit?

Also what I found interesting is that it seemed like the dudes could pick the name of the sacrificed person themselves. Did they just pick at random given the killers ended up so random or was it deliberate in some way? Would they know when it'd happen? (Bc if so it'd be kinda stupid of Nick to choose Tommy, the boyfriend of the sister of the girl he crushed on, with a camp coming up where said girls both would be at. 😂)

I'll probably have more to rant about after I get some sleep, but his character was something that I found particularly interesting. Every character honestly was so layered to me with both bad and good perspectives to them and how they behaved. I'm gonna stop so this won't become endless lol, but pls tap in if you too want to gush about these movies!

#fear street #fear street part 1: 1994 #fear street part 2: 1978 #fear street part 3: 1666 #fear street 1666 #fear street 1978 #fear street 1994 #movie review #movie rant #nick goode #tagging him specifically my ass didnt even take the time to gush about any of the others yet #on that note i kinda found it funny tommy was the antagonist of the 3rd movie when he deadass was a golden retriever in part 2 #aside from the murder obviously #you get what i mean lol #i mean golden retrievers can still bite #fear street trilogy

[eemcintyre]

"Excessive Force" (1993) review

Bc ya girl finally got her fingies on a DVD and was able to watch it in more than 6 pixels 😌

I don’t care what the haters say- I am so very completely HERE for the hair and the earring 👏🏻

The fact I went into this the first time not knowing he wrote it until the opening credits and SCREAMING

Speaking of the writing, overall, I appreciate his attempts at humor and the good twist near the end, but at the same time hon WHY were you writing stuff like Terry’s dating a model (with NO personality or reason to be there- guess even he’s not immune to “men writing women” smh 😔😆) and “It’s game time, baby” making me absolutely cringe myself away AAAAAAAGGGGHHHHH 😤

But I might forgive him anyway bc **that one scene** (if you know you know); you have to be at least a bit of a kinky motherfucker to write smth like that and you can’t convince me otherwise 👀🫠

Plus the top-tier kitten content- in this house we love a man who loves cats

That one guy in the beginning complaining about his denim jacket getting ruined like BRUH maybe don’t wear it to a mafia drug raid?? But what do I know 🙃

I’m always a slut for the roundhouse and wheel kicks (don’t ask me which is which bc I don’t know, but I read somewhere that’s what they’re called and that person sounded like they knew more than me)

Also speaking of things I’m a slut for- the jazz piano has me melting to my fucking knees 😍💕 fun fact: jazz is also my favorite genre, so this inclusion to the plot, although wildly out of place and unnecessary, *chef’s kiss* 🤌🏻

Ok but can we please talk about how tiny girlypop Charlotte Lewis is in comparison to him?? Also I looked it up and she's 5'6 and I'm only 5'2 and the resulting mental imagery is making my head spin and my stomach do feats of acrobatics

Honestly this movie is such a guy-type movie to write, like I swear only a man could have written it. between the men writing women shit I discussed above to the cringe one-liners and the almost-constant gratuitous violence over anything resembling, idk, character development...? A+ fantastic content

It is so entertaining to me that Terry's emo ass in his all-black layered outfits drives a fkin pastel yellow car

Honestly, if you don’t overanalyze it and are solely there for a pretty 6’5 man kicking people, holding a kitten, and playing jazz piano, solid 5/10.

#excessive force #excessive force 1993 #thomas ian griffith

[naaicha]

so i am slowly watching s2 of good omens with my family and i suppose so far i’m.. lukewarm on it? it IS funny which is good but also i can’t help but notice how much it’s become the heaven and hell show and it feels very much like gaiman is sort of spinning his wheels with that. the zombie stuff was like you get some silly gags i guess but it kinda comes out of nowhere and i’m like i REALLY wish you would just get back to solving the damn mystery actually

the flashback scenes were a fun addition in s1 but this season it just seems like a rehash of the same stuff. ostensibly i guess it’s showing all the times crowley was nice but again. we already know he does that so it’s not really adding anything new. like leave that to the fanfiction writers actually bc that’s what fanfiction is for.

i understand why the them wouldn’t be in the show anymore bc kids grow up but the decision to have none of the human characters come back is really disappointing for me i guess. even if i didn’t LOVE the execution in s1 (newt…) i think anathema’s arc finishes in a really interesting place also she was like my favorite character when i was a kid and she’s a quintessential pratchett Sensible Woman Character so i’m biased. but i love her and i miss her. so yeah basically everything i said the other day is still true. good omens as a book is about how wonderful and unpredictable humanity is and that’s simply not what this show is about. which is fine i can judge it and even enjoy it on other levels as long as we all understand it’s a Different Thing

maybe with less detours it could be a fun tight little mystery because that seems to be the angle they’re going for? sometimes? i like that as an idea but eh idk if it’s working for me yet but i have 2 more episodes left.

cant weigh in on the romance yet and i haven’t been paying that much attention but i am somewhat. wary of turning the characters into the fanfiction versions of themselves? but also maybe i’m a bad person to ask bc i don’t have a hard stance one way or the other on making the old man yaoi happen. like morally i support the concept but personally it’s not a NEED. i do think it’s a bit retconny to have them consider each other friends pre-s1 because there is the humor of them pretending to associate just for work when actually they just like hanging out

i’m not sure if they’re spinning it like crowley has been actively pining for millennia but i will say. if i were going to write this as a romance from s1 it’s like, these two characters have always had each other around so they take that relationship for granted and the impending armageddon makes them reevaluate what they actually care about. that’s what makes something like crowley thinking aziraphale actually got taken out in s1 a big moment because it’s like oh wait, the idea of losing this person is the scariest thing to me. so like if you want you could dedicate some time to characters working through their feelings properly and hitting the romcom beats. i think they’re doing a lot of the relationship development in flashbacks but they should have just done that in present day imo. even though i know period dress is fun to do

#uhhh this is my mid season review. i guess #as a longtime good omens expert. (this is a joke) #milk tea talk

[majjiktricks]

all my thoughts during my flight because i couldn't look things up and wanted to remember

8:30am edt, before takeoff:

i am inside a large beast :)

do not like the sound of shit adjusting under my feet. loud. squeaky.

engine warming up is nice tho. low noise gets louder and higher.

i would like to see a top down of the airport tarmac and just look at all the lines

i wonder how different the controls are for taxiing vs flying

how does queuing for takeoff work? these planes are all following a very orderly system but i dont know how it works

very satisfying that the tail of a plane is parallel to the ground during takeoff

white runway is stained black by tire marks in the middle

you can see the grass being blown around by the plane idling over 100 feet away

planes taxi following the lines on the ground like those little track cars

an idling plane feels like its raring to go. kinda bounces forward and back slightly.

8:50 edt, takeoff:

probably my favorite part. when the wheels leave the ground and you pick up the wind ❤️

ears starting to pop

do pilots have to aim around clouds?

why do your ears pop in a pressurized cabin?

8:56 edt, at cruising altitude:

clouds are weird man.

anc headphones very useful for engine noise. since im sitting on top of the wing.

(started watching s2 on offline mode) i do not remember the first season of shadow and bone lol

someones dog got loose and wandered to the front lol

the crows book 2 is in this. this is weird.

matthias is hot tho.

11:50 edt, 2 hours left:

ive managed to smell citrus and onions this plane ride. and a third smell i couldn't identify but didnt like. guy next to me brought dumplings AND a salad to eat on the plane.

tried to sleep. seats not made for this. uncomfortable as fuck lol

1:55pm edt, prepare for landing:

MOUNTAINS

everything is BROWN

los angeles is fucking huge and FLAT

2:05pm edt, landed:

how do they keep a plane from tipping or spinning while landing at a high speed?

i wonder what the fastest safe land taxiing speed is?

we came very close to buildings during landing. i know its fine but 👁️👁️

it is now suddenly 11am lol

2:18pm edt, at gate:

I HATE THE CARGO NOISES

IDK HOW IT WORKS BUT IT SOUNDS AWFUL

like someone pulling a winch a bunch of times and then it screams for a moment and then its done. anc does little to help with high pitched noises sadly.

#jazz noises

[milkshakeeee]

So I was listening to this song I really love, “Hunger” by Amaranthe and realized it’s such a Kaneki song. I seriously would not be surprised if it’s about Tokyo ghoul. Parts of it even reminds me of the lyrics to unravel.

Here’s the song lyrics:

Hear me scream, it’s unreal what’s inside of me. Broken bones and the code that hunts me. Welcome home, i’m alone, is it gone? What i’m feeling is surreal.

(This part could be about Jason’s torture with the “broken bones (or maybe Ayato’s bones, idk, that makes sense too) and the code that hunts me” - code being 1000-7

World in flames, it’s a chase, i’m a cornered man. It’s a pulse in my veins, no delays. It’s rain, it’s a chamber of dust as i’m viewing the plains. Of the sorrow I lust. I have no faith in reality. No mirror can correct my destiny. One thing to rule what i’ve become, take it or leave it cause this my love song.

A drop of blood, a flood of anger for old times. (Of the sorrow I lust) Hunger, save me. One world depending on me. I have the force in me. The truth will be revealed. Higher, faster. I am the fuel to set you free. I am your destiny.

(I can just see Kaneki whispering this part to Haise or Rize to Kaneki)

Inhumane, i’m ashamed in the pouring rain. Disinform, set the norm, you’re to blame. Spin the wheel, break the seal to conceal, that i’m finding it so real. I’m ashamed, not the way that I want to be. Have to bare my own soul, unveil me. To discern, it’s my turn, have to learn, I have to face it.

That the world will burn. This message written for us on the wall. No need to correct the way I walk. One world, one lust, our dream. Ruined to pieces, a human machine.

(This part feels like it’s about the relationship between ghouls and humans, specifically the CCG.)

A drop of blood. A flood of anger for old times. (Of the sorrow I lust) Hunger, save me. One world depending on me. I have the force in me. The truth will be revealed. Higher, faster. I am the fuel to set you free. I am your destiny.

One raging anger, grows inside. From the sorrow I lust.

-epic guitar solo-

Hunger, save me. One world depending on me. I have the force in me. The truth will be revealed. Higher, faster. I am the fuel to set you free. I am your destiny.

I just think it feels a lot like Kaneki’s thoughts, like the savior complex, ominous vibes, self disgust and depressing world view. And the song kinda sounds like it describes becoming a ghoul, a ghouls hunger and what it’s like being a ghoul, which Kaneki struggled with :)

#tokyo ghoul #kaneki ken #sasaki haise

[comrade-bastard]

i took a large amount of edibles and am having an existential crisis and u seem nice enough to answer my question maybe? is a cis bisexual woman(me) in a relationship with a cis man considered cishet? i saw a post that said "cishet dni" and ive been trying to figure out if that me for like 45 minut es sorry if this is annoying

Lol i am not qualified to answer this considering the Cis are like aliens to me (I lost my gender). Does it matter, my Gamer? You yourself said you aren't Heterosexual. Your own relationship with someone else is just that: a relationship with someone else.

I feel like you shouldn't get so caught up in the Literalness of such statements and whether they apply to you, but rather ask yourself what the purpose of "Cishet DNI" serves to the Original Poster (OP) and why they might add such a tag.

I also think the whole "(blank) DNI" as a concept is redundant and Performative for the most part, as it's about the same level of effectiveness as a Confetti popper. If a "cishet" really wants to, they're going to just interact anyways? Also, using the term "ciehet" feels reductive and creates a predetermined power structure in mind with the CisHet person being assumed to have privelage over the LGBT+ speaker (which often alienates the very real instances where "cishets" are oppressed by non-cishets in other circles, such as race and disability ESPECIALLY in relation to White Gays being Racist under the guise of privelage/oppression Olympics) so like. Idk?

Ok uhhhh. If you *spins the wheel of Misfortune* peg your boyfriend it's *rolls a D20* hm. It's vegan?

#help desk #what the hell. #i am drinking a beatbox and i am so unhelpful ): jope this made senss! #JOPE!!!

[black-rose-writings]

Watching Shadow and Bone season 2: Episode 3 - In terms of book loyalty we have no book loyalty

For better or for worse

Okay, the intro's cool on this one.

Flying ships, flying ships, flying ships!

I have no complaints for now. Just plot happening, mostly normally.

Baghra doesn't know what compassion means.

Ah, yes, everything is the Darkling's fault. Definitelly no prejudice that needed the smallest push to start the pogroms again.

And Baghra definitelly cared for the Grisha. That's why she told him to leave them to die last time.

Fuck that blame deflecting piece of shit (Baghra).

Let's see if this works (it won't).

Alina has a PTSD episode, I guess. Or a Tether moment? Or a prophecy? IDK. Alina faints because she's a little bitch.

Volcra would like a snack.

Here come the First Army, come to kill all the Grisha for the crime of being themselves.

She's lucky everyone laid their guns down, or she'd have gotten shot.

Oh, yes, please, give me the Grisha loyalists, I need a pallete cleanser.

Genya is scared of the Nichevoya... which is why she will align with a person that supports her rapist, and the reason the monsters were necessary in the first place.

David is excited to do some science. Genya is somewhat scared he'll get hurt in the process.

Spinning wheel is not a remote hideaway in the far north mountains, but like, half a day's ride away from the Fold. I guess. Probably less given how not tired everyone looks.

Oh, so the shots with the first army getting attacked were from the spinning wheel? Okay, I guess. The timeline is all over the place on this one.

Zoya acts as if she wasn't trying to fuck Aleksander days before. Like she wasn't trying turn him against her. She acts as if they were friends.

Also they're putting the purges on Vasily. Because we haven't seen the First Army be very excited about murdering Grisha two episodes ago. Definitelly all Vasily and the Darkling's fault.

I mean, at least one character acts her age in this story, but like... Zoya, of all people? The least mature adult on whatever planet Ravka is on? Okay.

Little kiddo hates piano. Same.

Oh, look, it's that scene. The bathroom scene.

They're taking late-book scenes and putting them a lot earlier in the timeline. Either they're doing a bit of a switcharoo, or they have (more) original stuff planned for the later episodes. I don't know which would be worse, given their track-record.

Yup. Definitelly a whole lot of CK scenes. With a creepy original bad guy for Inej. Because I guess whatever-her-name-was wasn't fucked up enough for them. They needed someone more rapey.

And he's dead. Wow. Well, that went nowhere.

Wow, she's dramatic. I mean, that's kinda bad, but also like... it came out of nowhere? My man's losing it. A lot.

I'm not entirely following their logic... like... okay, he's made monsters, which are draining his life force and probably making him go a little crazy... and somehow all of their actions revolve around Alina... forgiving them.

I know the point is to make him seem more evil and unhinged, but like... what. What even is going on?

I do love how Baghra is clearly telling the audience what we're supposed to believe.

Ah, yes, the least romantic proposal in the history of... ever.

They're really leaning into the whole "Grisha need to integrate" thing, huh... asimilate, one might say. So long as you're like everyone else, nothing bad will happen to you, pinky swear. Because that has ever worked in the minority's favor.

Mal? Being the voice of reason?

Ew.

I see their angles. Malina, Grisha asimilation. I am not seeing the way the crows are headed, yet.

Oh, we're doing this one. This is late story Genya. Not the one who freely insulted the Queen in front of him. Not the one, who gleefully told Alina of the King's "sudden illness". She deserved better. She deserved to stay confident, powerful and more than a tool to tell us how awful the Darkling is.

Also, like, what does he actually need her for?

I think Kaz got his senses knocked out of him.

I think I prefer the book version of how Matthias got himself into the figthing. Gives him more agency. But I guess agency is a dirty word when it comes to protagonists.

Nina, you dumb bitch. You'd think a professional spy would be better at sneaking around than this.

What does she care? She literally just met Kaz. She's already betrayed her whole country for Matthias, what's one asshole criminal?

Sasha's powers are literally killing him and... I don't know what the show wants me to feel about it. I mean, I know how I feel about it, but this universe is very preachy. I'm guessing the message is "he should have let himself die in the Fold, when Alina left him for dead", which is would be very much in line with the messaging the books go for.

Yup, definitelly pushing the "Aleksander is a Grisha supremacist" angle.

"I've made my decision" And that couldn't have waited until the morning. You had to go tell him while you're both basically naked by the standarts of your era.

Okay I guess.

#shadow and bone #shadow and bone netflix #shadow and bone season 2 #review #grishaverse #long post #genya deserved better

[katierosefun]

For the fic writer ask, I'll say 1 and 10 and whichever two questions you'd really want someone to ask. <3

thank yooou for the ask!! | from these asks

1. What fic of yours would you recommend to someone who had never read any of your work? (In other words, what do you think is the best introduction to your fics?)

hmm, maybe oddly for a more convenient truth? which i know is odd because there's only like two or three people who still care enough about i am the night (2019) to write for it, but i feel like it's because of that quietness that compelled me to write something that felt most true to myself? in that this fic is very quiet and really more of this reflection on the kinds of ways that a person touches your life, and you're not ever going to be the same, and maybe you don't really know what to call that relationship, but you know that you miss them anyways--and i kind of hope that sort of emphasis on relationships/stuff that's unspoken kinda is a pattern in a lot of my other stories!

10. How do you decide what to write?

if i have a lot of ideas at once, it really might be as simple as like. spinning a wheel and seeing what lands. other times, it's really just. me listening to music (because i listen to music an ungodly amount, idk) and seeing what matches my mood + vibe.

but in terms of deciding what to write re: generating ideas, i think a lot about what's been eating at my brain lately/what last inspired me the most. just last night, i finished reading normal people by sally rooney, and so i've been thinking a lot about more stories that are very much so driven by just a single pair of characters/stories that are focused on a single relationship (which, see above: i was already incredibly fascinated by, but i want to see more of that stuff in books, rather than movies and shows, which is usually where i find them). i've also been doing a lot of contemplating in general about what it means to come back to your hometown/the strange feeling of belonging everywhere and nowhere at the same time, and i feel like that might make me think up a story at some point, whether it be a fic or something original!

24. Are there any easter eggs in [insert fic], and if so, what are they?

as part of the other two questions that i'd want to answer . . . okay, so i really want to start utilizing easter eggs/cameos more often in my fics/original works, just because i'm a girl who likes a good cameo every once in a while . . . so for example, in light years, which is a my mister fic, the protagonist meets a character from beyond evil . . . and in my beyond evil fic read all the books beside your bed, there's a character from school 2013 . . . because i just can't resist lol

35. What aspects of your writing are completely unlike your real life?

besides the obvious (i've never been to outer space, nor have i ever worked in a police station or a butcher's shop), i also. don't know how to drive. i also don't really know much about cars in general, and i also have pretty awful depth perception, so i feel like i'm always over or understimating car dimensions. so that's why i always feel a little annoyed whenever i get to a scene that involves talking while driving or something because even though it's not like i need to know how to drive in order to just write about a character driving, i still think, man, for someone who doesn't know how to drive, i sure do write a lot of scenes where someone's talking in a car while driving huh

#answered

[vintageghoststories]

What are your top five *throws a dart at a spinning wheel* tropes(please add commentary if you'd like)

FOUND FAMILY!!!! im suchhh a suckier for this one<333 tho i am somewhat picky w/ it [I Fucking HATE Adopition Tropes Sososoossoos much, also just. the found families that get thrown into the nucular family structure sucks as well like!!!! found family is abt breaking the norm and etc etc anyways] idk i just love affection given to someone by choice<33 like i CHOOSE to love you. I CHOOSE to be here is just soosoosoo comforting for me

2. QPR queerplatonic relationships r soooo<3333333 like what else do i need to say

3. crack treated seriously, idk man i just love buckshit insane premises played out w/ a straight face<33 i love well written crack fics soso much

4. non-sexual intimacy i just want to see my blorbos get washed by their lover/friend iughhhg<3

5. 5 + 1 oughhrhghh idk man just<33 i love seeing how this fics usually play around w/ parallel n shit and ive read some wonderful fics w/ this premise !!

#a ghost rambles #tbhtbh i dont. read alot of fanfics based on tropes as much bc allot of fandoms im in dont have as many fanfics so i just take what i can #get which. is fine!! but anyways lolol #also some othwe tropes i enjoy : stuck together ; time loops ; Road trip!!!! ;

[lonelyvomit]

I'm genuinely curious what's the 7 labels that fit you? 🤔

right so I started off as asexual (1) aromantic (2) and went by that for a good while until I kinda realized I was not that much of an aromantic as I just had some serious fucking issues lol. I've been using biromantic (3) since but also I can kind of turn those feelings off so maybe a grey-aro label isn't too far out of the question that I'd exactly cross the entire label out. and then idk I started questioning the asexuality too cus like I still have kinks and turn ons and I wasn't actively grossed out by sex (which I've later found out is also normal for an ace!), so I started questioning if I wasn't ace, I'd probably be a bisexual (4) then? but also I still kept running into situations where I just could not understand what the fuck sexual attraction was (I still don't know if I do) and I very clearly did not experience it to the degree that most people do, so I started thinking maybe I'm grey-ace, but also realized the only situation I could ever have sex in would be in a stable relationship which sounds kind of like demi (5)? but idk I just don't vibe with that word so I don't use it asdfghjkl. and then there's the "umbrella terms" of gay (6) and queer (7) because fun fact my gender identity is just as fucking confusing and I am officially a god damn mess and I'm just like. idk man I feel something to some degree towards kind of a lot of people (including same sex) but at the same time really few and selected so like. yes I'm gay, I'm queer, and I spin a fucking grey-ace-grey-aro-bi-something wheel of fortune every day and let god take the wheel on where, if anywhere, I'd like to stick my metaphorical dick today.

so I just shorten this to 'queer' cus it covers both the sexuality and the gender fuckshittery I got going on at once.

#asks