#idk. its just a bummer.

[scalpelsister]

also this isnt really proper shade at larian or anything and the writing of this game is SAURE good so dont take it this way but.

i sure do wish. Minthara was not villain batted as hard as she was. Her being locked to "evil" runs and being mutually exclusive with several party members. Her being nothing more than a miniboss for your average player- who does not even know shes a potential party member! Her being so chronically unloved by the community because... shes the "evil" companion. Hell, even the amount of people saying frankly really edgy shit about killing her or hurting her completely unprompted lmao. Like I genuinely think shes been pretty unfairly demonized both by the community and by the meta of just like... the game itself because she's really actually..... kind of, dare I say, sweet? if you get to know her. ugh.

#also if i had two nickles. shes sylvanas all over again lads i fear #idk obviously larian handles her character much better than wow ever handled sylvanas but its genuinely like #kind of eerie how similar they are and how hard they where both villain batted considering how evil they actually are #ESP compared to their male counterparts #like i would argue that neither of them are any more evil- and likely are even less evil- than a lot of the men in the same game that #are not villain batted at all. #like every character in warcraft is a war criminal so sylvanas is hardly uniquely evil on that front #and i have a hard time buying that minthara is anymore inherently evil than astarion lol #idk again larian handles trauma much better and it feels... inauthentic to accuse them of not treating minthara well because shes #traumatized. thats def not the argument im making here but it IS really sad to relate to / find catharsis in another traumatized elf #only for her to be. villain batted just like the last one :/ #idk. its just a bummer. #like again thankfully its not a thesis of larians like. karlach and shadowheart and laezel are all beautiful and wonderful examples of like #traumatized women allowed to be angry and validated for being angry #BUT im selfish haha i want my bestie minthara to be able to have a happy ending w the rest of us and i dont want to see her demonized for #idk being a traumatized angry woman like!! it seems outta place for that to be the message but #whatever im rambling ive lost the plot #my post

[carlarte]

Oh, Hazel, look! The field! It’s covered with blood!’

Fiver is my favorite character in Watership Down, he's just like me fr. I was afraid this wouldn't read especifically as Fiver, but alas... i liked my initial sketch a lot so i kept it as it was.

#my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #watership down #so just to make this absolutely clear.. this is fiver XD not an attempt of a book cover #even tho it looks so much like many watership down covers tbh #i didnt even realize until i was actually googling images for reference that i found a lot of wd covers have a rabbits profile and the fiel #what a bummer #but i still like this a lot #everyone and their moms thought about the same thing i guess #me included #anyway FIVER MY BOY #I LOVE HIM HES JUST LIKE ME #IDK WHY EXACTLY BUT I RELATE TO HIM SO MUCH #its like 'yeah i also have visions of chaos and death and despair its called having anxiety and depression' #ok no forget that

[itty-bitty-sunshine]

Did a quick doodle to cope with the fact that my cousin's cat screwed up a hand-made gift I was almost done with, so have some hurt comfort with sun and yn ig

I might take a time to make a proper yn design later

#sorry if the writing is messy i really did not put any effort on those doodles at all #wont tag it as dca cuz its just smth silly to make myself feel better #doodles #ig #idk if i need to put any cw to this #i'll add later it i think of any #man thats a bummer #so much for putting effort of making nice things

[ofswordsandpens]

To be fair 3/8 of episode is almost half way through so if the first half is okayish….welp

yeah that's my thought too - we've seen more than enough to understand how the writers/director are handling the book... which is just sanitizing the ever living hell out of it. So unless they pull something unexpected out of the bag in the second half (which I would love for them to), as of now we're set to receive a perfectly fine, fairly faithful adaptation that is just largely duller than its source story in most aspects. Again, the biggest shame to me is that the actors are just so good.

#I've lived through one shitty adaptation before I can manage through a blasé one #just a bummer more than anything #at least the movies are fun now #asks #pjo show crit #also I would have higher hopes for a more... higher energy action packed second season if people voiced their complaints #but the majority seem very content w/ the show? #... and I cant tell if its genuine or false positivity after years of begging for a faithful adaptation #idk im prob just too critical but oh well

[ink-asunder]

I know Dragon's Dogma really lets you live lavishly in terms of the limitlessness of its features. (The character customization is WILD, especially for 2012, you can romance any npc you want with only story-related exceptions, the armor sets don't have the "practical for man/skimpy for lady" variation bullshit.) But I really, really wish you had the option to gift ANY item you want.

I picked up some silk and I thought "oh, I'll bring it to the shop lady in Cassardis." Wrong. No gift, only sell. I would've liked to give The Dragonforged and his pawn some incense to enhance the Vibe of their underground cave. Incorrect. No curatives can be gifted apart from harspud and meats.

I understand that the giftable items are all classified as "affinity items" to increase favor but come on. You're telling me an item specific to your lifestyle or interests wouldn't hit the spot?? For roleplaying purposes etc??

#idk ive just been rping as a generous and hedonistic arisen and its got me thinkin. #and instead of fighting against the Fucked beloved system i wanted to go all in. just indiscriminately gift shit to everyone for no reason. #and who i get is who i get! #idk its just such a miniscule bummer that couldve been easily avoided lol #dragon's dogma #also occurred to me halfway thru writing this that maybe giving work or livingspace related items isnt as 'nice' #as a frivolous bouquet of flowers or whatever (idk why gofts arent practical??) but I'M AUTISTIC. SHUT UP.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Me, decorating my room: ...should I get a naruto poster?

Also me: If I search for naruto posters... they'll all make me angry in a way that's fucking unhinged

#and i was right. of course i was right. i wanna spit and bite #thry focus on the wrong things. why cant they just read my mind and make exactly what i specifically want? #why the fuck woukd i want an itachi poster??? i want a fucked up chakra tree sapping the people of their life force #i want naruto standing strong when everyones trying to tear him down. i want kushina telling naruto how much she loves him before she dies #i want iruka taking care of naruto when everyone else has turned their backs. but those make for bummer fucking posters #and i dont wanna hang my own art on my walls. maybe i need to go to an anime con. but i still feel like the artists would focus on the wron #things. ugh. i am become a naruto elitist. i just have too many feelings abt naruto >:-[ #also. i live in the middle of nowhere in the mountains now so like i dont thibk ill b going to any cons. #also moving across the country is fucking exhausting and idk when ill have time to properly draw yet #naruto ramblings #is it too much to ask for everyone to interpret naruto like i do? in opposition of the writer?? is it me who's out of touch??? #no. its the people who are wrong. lol me and my fucking naruto feels

[disastroboy]

i wish the go fandom (or ...even the show) would just abandon whole 'aziraphale hates bepop' thing, it just .. its not that funny + it smells tastes and quacks like racism .. i know hes supposed to be old fashioned and behind the times but i wish like .. specifically Black american art forms werent always the butts of those particular jokes :-) i know its just straight up textual that he doesnt like it, but everytime im reading a fic where 'eugh bepop' is mentioned or one of those clips is included in a compilation of his 'cute' moments i just ..

#:-/ #good omens #aziraphale #just uncomfortable and a bummer to see sometimes #like #idk i know the joke is even the things he thinks are modern are still old #why not make the joke: he hates a niche style of classical music that to non-az ears sounds exactly like all the other music he listens to #also im sorry but his character's aversion to modernity ALONE rides a weird line #the bepop thing is just 1 of the times it goes a bit too far into like .. straight up racism for me to think its cute or charming #also sorry if putting this in the main tag is like .. gauche in tumblr rules or whatever #but im not actually sorry cos i genuinely wish ppl would think abt this particular running joke a lil deeper

[elibean]

it makes me so sad how jjk is widely accepted to be better (in writing, in plot etc etc) than mha as someone who enjoys mha waaaaaaaaaay more lol

#text post #IT'S THE CHARACTERS YALL #i actually care about the cast of characters in mha #in jjk its like....a handful of them are neat #the rest i could take it or leave it #i'm anime only for both so idk if that matters #but like....man #such a bummer to be a fan of smth just for it to constantly get shat on lol #well. at least we can all agree that they're both better than kny #(right. right we can agree on that right. please.)

[nightytime]

ok so.

clown is allowing nsfw now and folks are losing their goddamn minds over it (esp on twitter, on both sides) and ngl it's kinda making not want to draw normal non-au wh art at all due to how big of a deal everyone's making it imo... like some ppl being like weird abt the 'way the posts was typed' and borderline babying him? (ofc that was only some, not all)

idk! i kinda wished clown didn't make this announcement mostly becuz it no matter what/how it was done was gonna cause a lot of flames... from ppl who think they know clown fr, the weirdos that were already disregarding boundaries, some that just hate nsfw period... etc idk!! i wish fandoms weren't this volatile about things but it seems fandom/communities nowadays are destined to be???? (that maybe my shitty memory at play or nostalgia or w/e but i dont remember this much stress back then?????)

so... i'm just gonna keep my doodle to myself for a bit till things cool down again (or clown makes another statement or something idk) which is a shame cuz i had some silly ideas for the lil switcharoo thing with an anxious barnaby reprimanding wally for not practicing good body mechanics...

and will I draw/post nsfw? probably still no? idk, i never wanted to draw that type of stuff for wh to begin with and ofc to respect clown. but idk for sure :shrug:

ANYWAY! i'm rambling now i'm just gonna draw other stuff and enjoy my weekend

#monabugtxt #like... man i think the separate tag is nice to have so ppl can block it but idk! its kinda a bummer ngl to see some much fightin about thi #also sorry to the folks that just followed recently for my wh art <:0(

[ghosts-of-love]

i love my friend so much but i don't like being a third wheel anymore i don't think

#just like. i was a third wheel all the time for a year and then their partner moved out. #but that means that its more pronounced when one of their partners is visiting #the the boyf stayed for the first time this weekend and ive not known how to exist really. physical affection feels off limits #but my friend is fine with it so has continued but it feels really awkward to have them be sitting in their boyfs lap while holding my hand #idk idk i think its because i basically have 1 person who im able to be physically close to #its then a bummer when theyre here but feel far away. on account of the presence of Some Guy. #sometimes i worry that im in love with my friend because several people have asked me if i am but i dont think i am #like i love him and we understand each other deeply but like. in terms of wanting to go on dates or have sex im like. no not at all. #but also recently ive been feeling like that about a lot of people. where i want to be close to them. but i cant tell if i want to have sex #with them. like fully how do you know? #i think my problem is that i would just die for my friends. #and people dont understand that bond ig

[gibbearish]

yknow i hadnt really processed how much the adderall weight loss has changed my face shape but then i found this slightly older selfie

<== old now ==>

like. aww look at ur cute lil squishable cheeks:3 i can see why bf did that so much i would too

#n like i know its not an extreme difference by any means but idk its interesting jenfksnfksn #selfie #origibberish #i think my jawline is where it shows most #given that i like. have one now? #like obv its still the same shape but its def a bit more pronounced now #it has been very weird having pronounced collarbones again though i dont know if i especially like that #and esp my thighs have downsized a lot which is a bummer #bonus however is some of it seems to have come out of my honkers as well bc i dont even really need a bra anymore much less a binder #idk its a mixed bag but yknow. ive never really been in charge of what weight my bodys at nor have i cared to change it #i just let it wander as it will #shit we didnt even have a scale for like. four years #altho i have to weigh myself more often now to make sure its still holding steady bc my doctor didnt believe me that i was still eating the #same as i normally do KEBFKSNDMSN #but like before any of the meds my body would generally had a 40lbs fluctuation range that it would just wander back and forth through #and now ive dropped an extra 20 off of the lower end of that and bottomed out like i knew it would once it adjusted to the legal meth #so. get dunked on emily LOL #/weight loss discussion #/weight discussion #also i hope it goes without saying but if any like. proa blogs or fatphobes touch this post i will kill you so very dead. #weight loss and weight gain are both morally neutral and just part of how the body works and you shouldnt force it to be any one specific #size and people should be able to discuss both without it being a whole Thing. do not touch.

[growbackyoursharpestteeth]

time for a tumblr purge

#this isn’t a sleep token only blog now. i just don’t want to theme my blog after a fandom anymore #usually my love for a fandom or blorbos slowly fade away #this is the first time ive ever had such a quick and sudden dislike for characters that i loved just a month ago #my heart will always be with stobin and i will definitely watch steve and robin compilation videos after s5 comes out #but somehow steddie has kinda turned into a squick for me and i just don’t like seeing stranger things on my dash anymore #kind of a bummer #even when glee was at the absolute worst of its worst it still was a slow fade out for me #idk ted lasso and specifically jamie tartt have a chokehold on me rn so just gonna ride that for a while #and sleep token posting. obviously. #idk. fandom has been a hard space for me lately. idk where i’ll be on the other side of all this going on

[luffysbasement]

hello, i'm finally distancing myself from mcyt :]

it's been really fun!! i loved drawing for everyone, for my interest and esp just interacting with you all. this fandom brought me my friends and different experiences and emotions that are rly unforgettable but i think it's time. thank you for everything, i appreciate you all! ♡♡ pls do stay safe and take care of yourselves!

(my art will remain here ofc but i will most likely be turning this blog into how it was before, multifandom, personal and just a bunch of whatever!)

#the shorter version is the post #ill be here in the tags to talk more :] #honestly im pretty grey on the situation and im just rly waiting for whats gonna happen #thats not why im leaving (mostly) i think its abt time to accept im getting tired of how the experience is of being a drm stan #i loved the man i rly do hes been with me for the entire pandemic him and his videos helped me get through it #but its kind of a bummer that just by being a fan u get exposed to antis and their nonstop scheme of just starting up shit #and that everytime something new comes up you keep hoping its just an accusation but at the same time u feel terrible and anxious anyway #ive alrdy distanced myself from twt and by extension even tumblr bc i thought if i just keep drawing and not looking at my socials those #dramas wont reach me (they still do and it sucks lol but i did get a peace of mind just being free of social media) #at some point i started losing interest in mcyt in general the only thing keeping me was drm not even mccs nor other ccs rly just drm #but then recent thing happened and yeah :/ idk what to think im lost and honestly just tired of stuff like this #thats the final straw i think i dont rly want my mental health tearing up over whether to worry abt things i alrdy stress over abt (w the #college and family stuff) and freaking minecraft youtubers fandom #i think whatever the outcome is im just over it if drm comes out innocent i dont think i can let go of him yet #so ill prob still be checking up on hm and watching him by myself #if not then thats that. #stilli cant deny the fact that it rly has been an amazing two almost three years #i hope you all stay safe and takecare of yourselves ♡ #if anyone still wants to see my art im just hanging out in my onepiece sideblog lol @/luffysbasement

[ahalliance]

every time i stumble onto a cool channel about folklore and other mythological topics i need to check whether op is a right-leaning conspiracy theorist, and unfortunately i’ve been disappointed yet again

#even if theyre not antis*emetic i don’t like how a non zero portion of their fans are #even if they are tolerant of different belief systems i don’t like that a non zero portion of their fans aren’t #it just . reflects on the type of content that those types of people are even visible to me at all #like i don’t mind watching channels by people who don’t share exactly the same politics as me . that’s whatever #but i’d rather know before getting attached to a channel’s contenr whether or not to expext a random ‘oh this pagan ritual is bad bc #it’s not christian’ type vibe and have everyone in the comments praying to jesus #i love history and its many many variations upon traditional religion #and though i do have some channels that Aren’t weird about it thank god it’s always a bummer to realise that certain content is gonna be #heavily biased towards Condemnation of certain religions instead #idk all content is biased in one direction or the other but i’d rather watch the content that is mostly tolerant of different beliefs systms #jay rambles

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ho hum they finally filled my prescription so ive now got the new medication #havent decided when im gonna start taking it tho. like i should start tomorrow bc i dont feel that great #i mean ive physically recovered from my allergic reaction debacle. my mood is generally just low. not like dangerously so. more like i #talk to ppl and im like oh im being a bummer. which i hate. so like i should start taking it #but im only here for like one more week before i fly home so im like. well ill b fine over the break bc no school #which is like yeah ill prob b fine but like even when im hanging out with family and being chill im not really happy. im just like not so #stressed but theres still like a cap on my mood so like maybe if i take it i can b like a human person. but like im still somehow resistant #which is dumb but like taking an old timey non ssri anti depressant feels different than taking an actual up and down mood stablizer #which is stupid bc im just getting freaked out by the word anti psychotic. and like grappling with the stupid voice #in the back of my head from growing up around the super health freaks in my family who r like: dont take medicine. dont trust doctors who #want to unnecessarily medicate u. but like im also worried itll work and ill just have to b on medication for the rest of my life #which is like fine but it feels weird to theoretically spend 30 dollars a month to be not miserable. bc idk the copay on this medication was #way higher than anything else ive had to get. but idk its dumb and i should just take it #but also a tiny bit a afraid of side effects after last time. i dont wanna deal with that :-[ #unrelated

[dbssh]

you can tell i think theyre actually interesting tho because i have things to say about them other than heehee cowboy funny evil lady sexy. like woahhhh an overwatch character thats actually a memorable person with interesting traits and lore? that im invested in seeing more of? that feels like there was effort snd creativity put into more than checking boxes on a flowchart? wow...

#red.txt #sorry i rewatched the sojurn and baptiste origin videos and its like such a bummer to me #baptiste at least is a very funny and charming character to be around and is sexy but sojurn feels so sad #her origin is very nothing her lore and gameplay feel very cookie cutter and its a SHAME because she COULDVE been cool #but like even characters i personally really like like cassidy and moira and reaper and orisa #are just honestly truly not that interesting as people. their powers are cool but lorewise its very nothing #the lore in ovw is so weak that its an active detriment to most characters; placing artificial limits on who and what they can be #and making a lot of them much more stale than neccessary for the sake of Involving Them In The Lore Of Over Watch #so like you get a character like brig who is really only defined by her relationship to other characters #even cool ones like ana. its still like. most of her stuff is about how she relates to 76 or gabriel and its like. siiiiighhhs idk #i just wish they were less concerned with an Interconnected Universe and more concerned with cool stuff #like. i dont want another ninja just because she Knows hanzo and genji i want her to be her own personnnnnnnn