#if her stuff's not for you and you dislike her as a person (i also think shes evil ftr) itll drive you to madness seeing the idol worship

[shima-draws]

So apparently my brain has decided to get back into Sonic again I say already 27 episodes through rewatching Sonic X. Anyway. I love my kids ESPECIALLY Chris to this day I do not understand why people hate on him so much. He’s baby

#Insert joke Chris haters DNI banner #Sonic #Sonic X #Chris Thorndyke #Sonic the Hedgehog #HE’S BABY!!! Cinnamon roll too good for this world too pure #Looking back on all the major reasons why people dislike him I watch the show and I’m like. Bro. There’s SO many things that disprove all #of the bullshit stuff people say about his character #It makes me so angry. My boy deserves better #Also can we PLEASE talk about how both Sonic AND Knuckles lost their shit when Chris got kidnapped. Ridiculous I hate them (lying) #Anyway you know what this means. You KNOW what this means. #It’s time for more GODDAMN ROOMIE AU SHENANIGANS BABY #I have SO many thoughts and headcanons. Please #Chris: I’m going to cause problems on purpose :) #Shadow: #He’s just there. Acting as Chris’ safety net for his crazy schemes. And impulsive decisions. LMAO #Also slightly off that topic but. I can’t remember if Shadow ever meets Helen. I doubt he does in canon but like #She’s literally…a carbon copy of Maria…I imagine Shadow seeing her and losing his SHIT bc he thinks it’s hee #*her #Shadow forever tortured by Maria’s lookalike copy (Helen) and her personality copy (Chris) #Shadow watching Chris accidentally blow himself up while inventing: He’s just like Maria fr 🤧 #I love them. Very much actually #Shima speaks

[themegalosaurus]

Just watched 5x20 for the first time in a while and can’t believed I missed this stellar example for my Sam-gets-blamed-for-his-own-violation set

#i also forgot how much i love brady #also had the thought #i wonder if ruby consulted brady to find out about sam's #um #likes and dislikes #let's say that #you know #not openly bc she had her plan going on #but maybe just some casual chat about the boyking #with someone who knew him up close and personal #if you get my drift #sam winchester #tyson brady #the devil you know #season 5 #my gifs #my stuff #also like he literally blames sam here for letting yellow eyes get close to him #sorry that sam as a six month old baby was apparently complicit #what a joke #z idk if u will see but i one hundo agree that the fun of sam brady is the creepiness

[grandorderconfessions]

#fate grand order criticism #tw loli mention #tw lolicon mention #to be fair I think it's less people forgetting and more people applying Romani's Law #like I personally used to really dislike Medea because of the Saber stuff in UBW but like #ultimately it feels more like 'takeuchi wanted to draw saber tied up and nasu incorporated it into the story' which is a thing #that happened more than once #The blackbeard thing is super yikes tho Idk when that happened but I don't doubt it knowing some of the writers :grimace: #but yeah I think a lot of people intentionally disregard this part of medea's characterization because it does Nothing for her character #and seems to be born as an extension of Certain People's obsession with Saber #also it's literally just the Predatory Lesbian trope like I'm sorry I can't fault anyone for opting to just completely ignore that #BUT ALSO you're valid for being grossed out anon it's ok if you can't ignore these aspects too everyone has a limit!

[mspaint-flower]

https://youtu.be/u6ub6IYuyqQ

OH GOD WHAT......FLOWER AI???

#asks #i remember i heard a cover with ''flower AI'' i suppose this is the same person #and i was like WAIT DID YOU JUST. RIP HER VOICE??? FOR FREE????? THATS WRONG RIGHT?? #then i found out they just got the samples from the bought vocaloid engine or sonmething #which is fair. i guess. i don't really see the point tho #i will forever dislike AI but also flower in her rawest sounds better.......imo... #ofc that's excluding the current gumi AI and teto and stuff that's made by the vocaloid engine #IDK i don't know much. about AI especially if it's vocaloids so um. my opinion is bare bones #i do prefer flower's natural voice tho

[mamanbou]

the thing of it is if we all just individually liked or disliked taylor swift, it would be normal, but as it stands there are people who are obsessively reverent (and defensive) over everything about her and those people are insane and insufferable and wrong. and there are people who hate her vehemently and refuse to entertain the idea of any value (or even acknowledge talent) in anything she makes and those people are generally not insane but they're also kind of insufferable and observably wrong. everybody needs to stop talking about this woman online until we can figure out whats going on

#txt #i hate swiftie-swifties as much as the next guy and yes this new album title is annoying but ouh my god #with the new tracklist drop (and also with midnights lyric leaks) people who hate her will be so vitriolic over #completely inoffensive lyrics and song titles that you wouldnt bat an eye at from like any other pop icon. I logically understand why #if her stuff's not for you and you dislike her as a person (i also think shes evil ftr) itll drive you to madness seeing the idol worship #but good god give it a rest like your hating is worthless when yr going after everything she does including the stuff that clearly works #energy better spent when you zero in on the truly indefensible stuff like 'i come back stronger than a 90s trend' or idk the carbon emission #s #theres no point to this but i just scrolled through a bunch of tags of circlejerk ridiculing the ts11 tracklist and it read like a group of #middle schoolers making fun of someone they dont like by just listing traits about them. like omg her shirt is ridiculous >a normal shirt #>they all nod about how the shirt is ridiculous and makes this girl uniquely cringe and they ignore the 40 other kids in the cafeteria weari #ng the exact same shirt #like guys. you are all SO ANNOYING.

[anarchomoop]

Really loving this year's summer event in FGO. Was not expecting to like it so much based on previews since there were a handful of servants involved whose plotlines I usually don't like, but even they're being utilized well here. And like... I can never get enough Mandricardo.

#FGO #Fate Grand Order #Fateposting #I am kind of now shipping Mandricardo and Sei Shounagon #They fit together remarkably well #They've been cute together and played off of each other nicely #More of these 2 together please #Also I really do not get Anastasia in this? #I haven't seen any of her stuff outside of her Lostbelt but like... her having a hopeless crush on MC seems... I dunno #It seems off to me? She had a thing for Kadoc Zemlupus and also seemed kinda 'aloof ice queen'-y to me not 'girl with hopeless crush'-y #But like I get that the version of her you summon doesn't have quite the same memories/personality as her LB self? #Does she just fall in love with whoever summons her? That kinda feels like it cheapens some of the emotions of Kadoc's storyline #But yeah other than her I've liked how everyone's been used #And even then Anastasia as like a rival/foil to Kama/Charolette Corday works in this story I just kinda dislike how it changes other storie #Also love Corday Caster as a stage magician who knows nothing about real magecraft. Super good. #And Goredolf as a camp counselor/scout master fits really well #Trying to be stern and in charge but he's a big softie who will ultimately go along with what everyone else wants #Even against his better judgement #And he brought Caenis along! #I love Caenis as sort of Goredolf's unofficial servant #He gave him a croissant and now they're bonded for life that's how it goes this is what happens when you give a dogboy table scraps #I don't know what's going to happen after these LBs but I do want OG Da Vinci to be restored/resurrected somehow. #OG Vinci deserves a summer fit like Hommunculus Baby Vinci got #But yeah good summer plotline #Maybe even a top 10 plotline overall we'll see how it shakes out #Not hitting the highs of Jalter's Manga Summer though

[stephantom]

what didn't you like about it, out of curiousity?

Hmm I’m gonna have to think on it it some more and come back to you when I’ve managed to articulate something

#I will try to get back to you later anon #I didn’t hate it. there were scenes that made me laugh and smile #but I think the prevailing feeling it’s left me with is… confusion/frustration/dissatisfaction? about the message insofar as it had one? #hmm and I think also because it made me remember how much I disliked and felt alienated by barbies growing up #not bc of the body image issues which the film makes some effort to engage with #not beauty standards but FEMININITY standards #and the movie doesn’t acknowledge that aspect of barbie as a cultural influence/reflection at all #except for maybe Allen if you squint?? #the assumption is that you want to be barbie at least to some extent. you want to be pretty. #but you’re too stressed to accomplish it or you’re too angsty to embrace your desire to be pretty #the angsty teen goes from wearing all black (and pants) to a purple skirt by the end. the girly makeover subtly signifies healing. #(I know that could just be me reading into it… but is it?) #it’s the way it holds up a specific kind of person as Woman and universalizes her struggles and calls them All Women’s Struggles #while conflating them and largely ignoring actual economic/legal/political issues faced by women as a class #and the whole ken storyline… ehh idk I need it to be more internally consistent or something. to have a coherent message and not just #‘it was like I was in a trance where I thought I cared about the Zack Snyder cut of the Justice League’ as a joke about… what? #male-dominant interests being somehow inherently toxic? cool women not being into nerdy boy stuff? #it’s the old men are from mars women are from venus thing #sigh. girl power. lol I don’t know! #sorry this rambling is all I have for you right now #I thought the critique in youtube by verilybitchie touched on a lot of good points tho so maybe that’s somewhere to start #on* youtube #but it’s ok if you liked or loved it. I saw it with my sister who was super psyched for it (which is why I wanted to like it too) #and she’s great so

[fma03envy]

Kyosuke is underrated I think

#I'm not trying to claim he's great disabled rep given that he does fall into the healed with magic trope #but I do feel people are like. weirdly dismissive of his character given that he's one of the only disabled characters in the show #(the other disabled character being Homura given her heart condition but ppl always seem to forget about that) #I've also seen ppl dislike Kyosuke for breaking Sayaka's heart but like. #idk how to explain to alloros that you are under no obligation whatsoever to like someone back if they have a crush on you #even if said person is nice to you #tbh probably ppl just don't like that he could get in the way of their ships #even though after becoming a magical girl it's not like Sayaka could date him anyway #(bc if she was honest to him he'd feel like he had to keep dating her as thanks even if he didn't want to; the power dynamic would b wonky) #and like Sayaka knows this full well a lot of her angst is about it #though said angst is also secretly about Mamis death but. that's entirely unrelated analysis #we're getting off topic; the point of this post wasn't to infodump about pmmm so I'm not going to let it turn into that #adrien says stuff #pmmm rewatch #Madoka Magica #Kyosuke Kamijo

[bumbleblurr]

I gotta hold myself accountable to when I'm making content that's not really based on canon at all, so I remain self aware & whatnot, but I still occasionally think things like "but blurr should be arcee's number one fan 🥺.... bc i said so........"

#🐝 could you repeat the last part? 🟦 #i make a good effort to stay self aware bc i dont want to lost in fanon delusion. i cant let that happen to me #also it would be hypocritical of me to go ''i dislike this fanon it has no basis in canon'' #when i also like making up shit if it's interesting #so i make it clear that im just picky abt hcs and stuff like that #for me to enjoy them they gotta contribute something interesting to the source material but not come out of left field #and i dont rlly care for edgy stuff if it doesnt rlly serve much purpose #so i dont rlly care for hcs like ''bee is ACTUALLY megatrons great nephew once removed !!!!!!!!!!!!'' #they do nothing for me i just go ''man i dont care'' and turn around #like thats just personal taste though and im a notoriously particular & picky person so. who cares what i think u get what i mean #though u should care abt arcee fanboy blurr bc its good and awesome alright /hj #IT THINK ITS FUN AND CONTRIBUTES AN INTERESTING TAKE ON CANON ... #bc blurr admiring arcee 1) makes sense bc arcee is genuinely a badass & literally worked in the same division he does #2) brings more focus to the parallel between them about how they got seriously injured in ways that impact their most notable qualities #(arcee having her memories wiped when her mind is one of her most important qualities as a school teacher & intel agent) #(blurr having his body damaged & handicapped when speed achieved by his physical athletic ability is a defining part of his character) #3) solidarity in that trauma baby. and arcee can be blurr's gramama (applause amazing brilliant we love to see it) #and also who doesnt love to see blurr having girlbosses idols. arcee inspires him to be a girlboss too #see this is how ridiculous i am i have to have these detailed thoughts abt hcs i cant just go stupid #no i cant change this about myself btw #i am pretentious at heart i have to be like this with media i enjoy #but still i always try to indicate that i am aware that my hcs are just fan interpretations of stuff so i dont like #accidentally come off as me forcing my ideas of canon onto other ppl like. this is just my lego city that im building i know of my bullshit #though i still do draw deep lines for things like . blurr being social (shudders)

[babisawyer]

very brave of the yellowjackets writers to be like 'hey, what if eating your friend was a bad thing?'

#🐇 #yellowjackets #I appreciate it though loved the opening scene love the aftermath of last week #I don't understand nat though like rip jackie you might be what helps us survive the winter #like maybe if you had kept some leftovers but you gobbled her up in one sitting #the whole bird thing happened but I doubt nat will make the connection there like lottie surely will #I'd also imagine now that ben can finally eat because of the birds but he might be passively suicidal like jackie was #and we know how that went. he should've quit his job and had indoor heating someone that loves him and gay sex #I still really hate the adult timeline. I love jeff and lottie's stuff is getting interesting but that's about it #I'm kinda wondering if lottie will start the cannibal rituals now after the hive vision at the end #idk I think I'm traumatized from other shows trying to shock people so I need to make theories #and I think maybe with this show the simplest explanation is the answer so I'm trying not to make theories #even though I think antler queen jackie would be so fun like it's probably just lottie #also needs to be said I dislike misty and showtunes even more now the girls should have probably had them for brunch already #and also I'm like convinced that shauna has a personality disorder like I won't say she didn't have feelings for jackie #but like she wanted to be jackie more than she wanted to be with jackie #there are many other reasons but yeah totally sure of it now #anyway I could probably say more but I have to start packing! so goodbye for now!

[the-busy-ghost]

My home is at risk of infection by mid-century modern inspired furniture and I’m being so brave about it

#Alright it's one chair from ikea but this feels like the straw that broke the camel's back #I don't dislike the whole mid-century modern thing by the way; nor the sort of stuff inspired by it you see in Ikea #It's just not really me (at least not as much as other styles) and also everyone else seems to be into it so I just look like a copycat #It's hard to explain you didn't just buy whatever was on trend and that it was actually because of the constraints of the space #I look like I have no imagination at all and I'm not even particularly into it so like It Does Not Spark Joy #But with every other furniture related disaster that has occurred over the last few months I think I have to cave #And get an armchair that will actually fit up the stairs regardless of its appearance #First world problems again I know but honestly I have no other personality except complaining (or rhapsodising) about chairs #I mean I also think I have a mould problem in the bathroom (not to mention the slugs fro the other day) but this is more fun #Ah well at least I'll always have Her to get me through (the walnut chair in my bedroom) #Earth & Stone

[davlucies]

remember when imbalance came out and people managed to be upset griffin handled dav's perspective about cycle 92 & his relationship with lucretia with sensitivity, nuance, and realism

#imbalance #discourse wank #i'm still upset about this... people don't ever explore/care about how dav thinks/feels... all they care about is hating on lucretia #this was such a moving thing to hear articulated too... imagine saying you like dav but not caring what griffin says about/as him?? #bc you'd rather see the sole canon woc vilified and insulted.. and all the complex moral and interpersonal issues in canon glossed over #i mean if my headcanons had been jossed more aggressively in imbalance maybe i'd be upset but idk. it's just more angst/meat to write abt!! #think of it as a good fun creativity-inducing thing!!! come write emotionally complex dav fics that engage w canon!!! please..anyone.... 🥺 #there is so much interesting there & it's the worst feeling being alone in thinking that... and having no one to write for & talk to.... #i miss when fandoms were fun & creative and like a positive thing. just liking the characters/story and chatting & making stuff about them #i still remember when imbalance happened and someone got mad at me for being happy about it bc of course... of course. it's a taz fan! #i couldn't even be happy about imbalance with anyone because my harmless ship is so bad and weird to every single taz fan! cool!! #they're fucking friends! he regrets not supporting her and letting her voice be heard! he thinks he shares some of the blame for it all!! #sorry but you can personally dislike a ship without collectively & baselessly gaslighting me that it's abusive bc of what you're projecting #i'd daresay after 100+ years of friendship davenport nd lucretia love each other deeply despite everything..imbalance propped that up a lot #but you don't even wanna write or read about that do you... #dav having emotionally grounded and complex thoughts and feelings? not in this fandom. lucy being treated kindly? banish the thought... #also davlucy is CUTE. they're nerds. they're hardworking and devoted to saving lives and to their friends. they care for each other !!

[softgrungeprophet]

tasm is my favorite spidey movie alongside raimi’s sm2 obviously but it definitely falls into a lineage of tropes that is far too prevalent, as far as dr connors is concerned

super frustrating cause i think that movie does a lot of things right in its writing, approach to peter and his relationships, to gwen and may specifically but also uncle ben and even flash in some ways, plus design language (i love sporty suits...) (prefer the eyes in 2 though) etc etc, even the skateboard as a really solid way to call back to the motorcycle— but the whole like “woe is me, nothing is worse than being disabled” thing is extremely obnoxious and mars an otherwise very good movie for me (also the voiceover scene in the deleted scenes is better than the final version imo, the version where it sounds more like a recorded playback fits better aesthetically and thematically imo whereas the final version mostly is just corny and is probably legitimately one of my least favorite scenes in the movie)

tasm2 also imo has similar pitfalls with max, though imo the electro aspect of that movie is by far the best part. i don’t really like the goblin stuff unfortunately lol—except i do think gwen’s death was like, very effective, especially in the context of the first movie and previous fakeouts, so it definitely did that well, even if i think the movie would have been better split into two and allowed more room to breathe for both

this is also a criticism i have of the batman’s depiction of the riddler once unmasked, though in this case the way he’s played onscreen is not the “wow being physically disabled is the worst” sort but rather the “wow look at this neurodivergent creature” sort that is, again, very prevalent in media especially in these genres and is nothing short of maddening as someone with a whole lot of both physically disabled and neurodivergent family members (and myself)

also appears in like.

SO many comic books lmfao

frustratingly widespread. either it’s weird inspiration porn or it’s weird self hatred, spanning all kinds of stuff from romance to horror to action, and it’s like YEAH there are difficulties in being disabled obviously and a lot of people get depressed or have rough patches or self-hatred because of that and because of not being able to do things they used to do but like... this one specific POV (usually a POV that is mostly held by abled ppl) is so deeply overrepresented in media, movies, games, comic books, novels.... where like... being disabled is just the worst possible thing you could ever be, and it’s worse than death, and so on and so forth, as though a man who’s been disabled a long time wouldn’t just be kind of used to it by then lmfao

reason number 454968549 why i find the agent venom origin SO frustrating cause previously, like, you had this whole really solid mini arc in web of spidey about flash coming to terms with his disability and accepting himself and understanding that he can both be loved and love himself while disabled without needing to “fix” that via weird secret government experimentation, and then like... a year or two later you have a comic that literally uses the exact thing that comic showed was not necessary for his happiness (aforementioned secret gov experiments) and said, actually, he IS going to do that, and also, i’m a bad writer who thinks flash is a fucking moron who doesn’t understand how friendship works between tWO PEOPLE HE’S BEEN FRIENDS WITH SINCE HE WAS LIKE 18 i’m sorry i just hate the AV origin so much it’s so contradictory to every aspect of this character

sure character regression happens but that just felt like contradictory writing and the usual lack of interest in character development, in favor of blatant military propaganda and a story the only redeeming aspect of which was, to be quite frank, the art

anyway what was i talking about

oh yeah disabilities aren’t the end of the world and it would be nice if media could approach them better. even stuff that’s otherwise good or that i really like often stumbles in this area, whether it’s various agent venom comics that ALMOST have it (this is often most noticeable in the fact that flash is using hospital-style wheelchairs or the wrong kind of prostheses) or a movie that does everything else just right but drops the ball on self-loathing and what that actually feels like over time (imo) or a game that inexplicably has an entire asylum based subplot for no fucking reason other than the fact that it came out in 2012 and that was en vogue then because of arkham asylum lmao

#it's funny tho cause for years and years all the criticism ppl flung about tasm was always shit like oh peter's too charismatic #or oh he's too confident or oh he rides a skateboard or— #it was never the ACTUAL things about that movie that CAN and SHOULD be criticized like its approach as a series to mental illness #and physical disability no it was always well peter has too much of a personality or too much of a handsome face or he's too jewish #or the soundtrack isn't danny elfman therefore?? it's??? inherently bad? that was a real weird take i saw once #and it's like there are real criticisms to be had but all you can come up with is that you took the eggs too fucking literally? #and can't understand their purpose and why they were included as a specific way to symbolize peter and may's relationship? #that's your problem??????????? #it's so fucking annoying #nadia rambles #nadia reads comics #kind of #there is a lot of media i really like that has these kinds of things that are very frustrating cause they end up dragging down good stuff #as an aside my movie ranking is that ITSV - TASM - SM2 are my number 1 tie #SM1 and TASM2 are about equal for me for complicated reasons #SM3 is mostly last because of the stuff with Gwen and the casting and writing for her I really disliked a lot #but as a movie i still find it fun to watch and gwen is basically the only reason it's lower than tasm2 tbqh #otherwise i think they'd probably be about tied for last in terms of messiness with characters i mostly enjoy #i also am just not a big fan of tobey as peter... like he's not the WORST choice but... like if i was casting a spidey movie he'd not be #on my list of choices #neither would everyone's little cinnamon roll you know who #andrew garfield was absolutely top tier casting for peter in terms of physique and physical appearance and body language and hair and #eyebrows and well his only fault is that his butt is flat. #and as we all know peter parker canonically has a fat ass #sorry about this #long post #idk what the point even is it would just be nice if people were a little more open to the notion that being disabled #is not like... a Fate Worse Than Death even when it sucks in a lot of ways #i mean it's a little complicated too though and depends on the disability like #how that ends up playing out. obvs. i WOULD like to be fixed actually. but that's my personal experience.

[navree]

totally forgot until now that a writer for season 8 of stupid bad stupid game of thrones literally said that it’s canon sansa doesn’t like daenerys not just because of her (incredibly dumb) suspicions (that only make sense if you’re the writers writing from the end backwards as well as also knowing you’ve already decimated sansa’s character for the last three seasons) but also because she thinks dany is prettier than her. 

god sansa and the writing surrounding her took such a fucking nosedive after season 4, it’s so depressing.

#personal #i could go on for ages about how much i despise show sansa once the show diverges from her book storyline #(which is also coincidentally when d&d started being in charge of her arc rather than just adapting george) #which is why we ended up with hashtag lean-in girlboss sansa and the stupid northern independence #and sansa vocally and openly disliking a ruler for NO REASON WHATSOEVER (in complete defiance to the lessons she learned in kl) #(you know that integral thing about knowing to watch and observe but keep your mouth shut with people you don't trust) #(so that they can't use anything against you like she did with cersei and joffrey? that major part of her story?) #like listen sansa in the book isn't my fave character by a looooooong shot #she kinda bores me and her personality just doesn't jive with me for my own reasons and there's stuff she's doing i dislike #cuz i think poisoning a child is bad and i think hosting a giant feast for no reason when winter's arrived is just stupid #but show sansa is just..........nothing makes me madder not only is show sansa insufferable but the DISRESPECT for book sansa #i don't even like her and i'm mad on her behalf

[superbluebirdgirl]

Shirley haters are soooo boring.

#okay to be fair if you grew up with a homophobic parent I can understand her making you uncomfortable #but whenever I see people acting like she's Satan or something it's just so absurd #like EVERY character in this show has done really bad stuff #it just doesn't make sense to hate Shirley over a few throwaway lines about her being homophobic #also Shirley may be homophobic but I don't see her as the type of person who would be a DANGER to LGBT+ people #like if she met me she'd probably be weird and make a not great remark but I wouldn't really feel unsafe around her per say #and I think she has it in her to learn to be more accepting #also I just legit think she's super funny and adorable #all in all I think it's usually really weird when people try to apply moral judgments to the actions of comedy show characters #like sorry my guy but comedy is kinda built off of people being messy! #like I dislike Pierce and s6 Jeff because the show actually expects us to sympathize with them a lot of the time when they do something bad #but the show doesn't really do that for Shirley's homophobic remarks which makes them a lot easier to swallow #community #shirley bennett

[be-good-to-bugs]

when i feel very lonely i get fizzled out of doing anything after less than an hour

#the bin #been feeling much more lonely since moving into this apartment and i cant draw bc of it #cause i have trouble continuing things i was drawing earlier. when i try im filled with this horrible exhaustion and sadness #its easier to feel better when im living more alone because i can play music or walk around and talk to myself and try to make things #brighter for me but when im living with someone especially someone who i really dislike its just impossible to do #and worse i have to hear them be here which just makes me feel even worse #ugh. my relationship with my sister has gone from bleh to awful. her absolute refusal to take me into consideration for anything including #bringing people over at nogjt without even telling me at all. the last straw. absolutely the last straw #hey yknow id love it if in the middle of the noght when i want a snack and dont wanna get all dressed id like to know theres someone here #cause id rather not them need the bathroom the same time and im just in my underwear. but noooo i dont have the need to know theres #some other person in my facking home. nope not my right #the thing where she insists she tells me that she was gonna have someone over when she didnt has been pissing me off a lot because she #uses the fact i have a poor memory to say why actually i misremembered..shes like well ur perception of reality sucks so u THINK u #remember correctly but actually u totally dont but like. im not having problems rememberi g other things like that right now. and i #distinctly remember these conversations and i always make not of when someoens gonna be here and when you tell me i remember #and theres so much proof that she also forgets stuff. but i honestly think she might be intentionally lying abt it because she forgot #to ask or didnt want me to say no. well i am saying no. idc if theyre already here. yall can go hangout elsewhere bc i wasnt told abt tjis #and i deserve to have quiet in my own home. its literally all i have. #ive been feeling like maybe shes not so bad. people grow and change and sometimes you dontjat in different directions #and you dont get along well anymore. i hear her say to other people that im still her favorite person so its very one sided abt this #honestly though its not just that we dont get along well anymore but nobody is at fault because she is at fault #its not like i never let her bring people over. i do. im just askingmthat im notified first. and her response to forgetting or choosing not #to tell me is to use my mental health things against me to say im just too mentally ill to knoq if i remember tnings cleatly #then how come tnis only ever happens with this thing or cleaning stuff? it ONLY rver happens with stuff that she wouldve needed to tell me #about that are important. oh an important bill i needed to know abt but u didnt tell me? i did but u forgot. #but never anything else. its only ever tnings that she would be in the wrong for not telling me about if she hadnt. thats it #so yonow im thinking maybe. u didnt tell me. which wouldnt blther me so much if she didnt just say actually i did but ur schizophrenia #made u forget wow ur so insano haha #ugh. she sucks. literally dont even wanna built legos with her even tho the set is cool as fuck bc being around her sucks #wow sorry for my many many many tags complaining about my sister. living with her is awful :/