#if it's BORING or I don't CARE or I'm TIRED then nO but in a BOOK THAT I AM WILLINGLY READING? shut the fuck uppppp

[jenaurr]

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you never cared for love. being in a relationship seemed too exhausting, too vulnerable and messy. you were okay with watching your friends fall in love from afar. as long as they were happy you were too.

and yet, everything changed after a project you had with a random partner for your statistics class.

na jaemin was someone you've heard of before. he was kind, smart and incredibly handsome. the last person you'd expect yourself to fall in love with as deeply as you did.

you remember perfectly the exact day when he went from a project partner, to a friend, to a crush and to what you call now your boyfriend.

"alright, i say we share the subjects of the presentation equally and then we meet again to put everything together, is that okay?" you asked with a small smile.

"yeah sure, that's fine by me. the only problem is that i kinda suck at statistics so it may take longer than a few days to finish all this." he says while checking his parts of the project.

"oh that's okay, i'm doing quite well in this class so i could give you my number if you need any help with something! you kindly offer, something that later became one of the best decisions you've ever made.

mark sat back on the sofa with a tired sigh in the apartement that he shared with three of his best friends, after one of the bost boring lectures he's had that week.

"dude i swear this teacher was a grim reaper in another life. how can you suck so bad at teaching at yet have the nerve to judge your students like that is beyond me" he complained to the other two.

"what did he say again? I told you you should've skipped this morning, who else other than you wants to see his bald ass head at 9 in the morning? said donghyuck while playing a game on his phone.

"there was barely anyone bro, the only person i knew was y/n. she was his victim today, I felt so bad for her."

jaemin was barely paying attention to the conversation, still half asleep , but hearing your name had better effect on him than any other coffee he's ever had.

"what do you mean, what did he say to her?" he asked, now fully awake

"he read her essay and pretty much called it shit in front of everyone. I can't imagine how awful that must be, especially for someone who takes their studies as serious as her" answered the oldest of the group

jaemin didn't waste a second after hearing that, got dressed as quickly as he could and ran to the nearby bakery to get you your favorite pastries and of course, a bouquet of flowers to cheer you up.

"oh jaemin, it's nice to see you!" says chaewon while letting him in the apartement she shares with you, her best friend. "y/n is a little bit down right now so I'm glad you're here, I have a class in a few minutes."

"thanks chaewon, don't worry, I'll try to make her feel better. I hate not seeing her happy" says your kind friend

"hm I wonder why" she shot him a teasing look "I'll leave you to it then".

jaemin made his way to your room, knocked twice and waited for your permission to come in. when you gave it to him, he opened the door and his gaze immediately found yours.

"what are you doing here, jaem?" you asked him while sitting up on your bed. your plan was to rot in bed for the rest of the day. being someone with huge academic validation, it was never easy for you to receive criticism towards your work, so on the rare occasions when it happened, your mood would be down for the entire day.

"what do you mean what am i doing here? my favorite statistics partner isn't her usual happy self and you thought i wouldn't come cheer you up?" he says while taking a seat on the bed " here's your favorites. for now i can only give you this but if you want i'll gladly give a punch or two to that asshole."

he brought you your favorite pastries and flowers? how did he even know they were your favorites, you couldn't have mentioned this more than once in the months you've known each other.

"jaemin you didn't have to do this!" you exclaim, feeling something you couldn't quite name yet.

"of course I did." he says while looking softly into your eyes "now move over, I plan on staying here for the rest of the day and I'd rather be comfortable" he lay next to you and started to look for a something to watch " what kind of movie are you feeling? I'm in the mood for comedy or romance."

"romance.." you say while staring at his pretty face, in a seemingly different light than you did before

oh...

"chaewon please, the last thing i want to do is see him today" you nearly cried while saying this to your best friend. ever since that day when jaemin surprised you with your favorites, you've noticed that you feel different around him. he's no longer a friend to you and you don't want to feel more things for him, so you avoid him as much as possible.

"y/n please stop feeling so scared about this. jaemin is an amazing guy who could make you so happy. why would you run away from this special something you have with him?" huffed the blond haired girl

"what if he doen't feel the same way about me,huh? then what? i just make a fool out of myself and ruin what we already have!"

"if you think that he doesn't ike you back you must be the actual blindest person on earth." she says while rolling her eyes "do all your guy friends treat you the way he does? i don't think donghyuck, mark, jeno or anyone else does!" she starts rumming through your closet despite your protests "i don't want to hear it, you're coming with me to the party! besides, you don't even know if he's going to be there."

you catch the outfit that she nearly hit you in the face, not forgetting to glare at her despite appreciating her efforts to get you out of the house.

"alright, we're going but i better won't have to drag your drunk ass out of there!" in spite of your original reluctance, you start getting ready.

"this is definitely the last party we're going to together" you mumble, not even on hour later while running after your lightweight chaewon.

"need some help getting her home?" you hear a deep voice ask behind you.

"shit jeno you scared me" you say, clutching your chest " i actually do though" you answer, offering a smile to one of your favorite friends

"sorry y/n" he return your smile "you don't have to worry about her, i'll take her home, you enjoy yourself here" he says while giving you a pat on the back

"are you sure? i don't want to ruin your night" you say

"yeah of course! i was planning on going home anyway. also, i think a certain someone wants to talk to you." he says, obviously pointing to his best friend.

"is it too late to ask for a ride home too?" you ask him with a desperate look in your eyes

"yes my friend, it is. he's already coming here. but don't be scared alright, i know you worry a lot but you two are good together." he says, already making his way to chaewon

you take a deep breath, already dreading the conversation you're about to have.

"hey you, it's been a while. i was starting to think you hate me or something" jaemin says with an unsure smile on his face "are you okay with going somewhere else? i missed you and i want to talk to you about something"

there he goes again. saying things that you wish he would stop saying, because you fall more and more for him

"yeah sure" you answer, trying to calm your nerves

you two drove around for a few minutes while listenig to music from a playlist that you made for him a while ago. you already knew where he was taking you. there was a park nearby where you two spend a lot of time together. he once called this his favorite place to go to with his favorite person. you tried to avoid how your heart fluttered when you heard that.

"so, are you going to tell me why you've been avoiding me lately?" he asks after sitting on the blanket he always keeps in his car

" i haven't been avoiding you, jaem. i've just been super busy with uni and work." you answer, trying to seem as convincing as possible. "you said you wanted to talk about something, what is it?"

there were a few second of silence, so you decided to take a look at him. he was already looking at you, love pouring out of his eyes

"jaemin.." you whisper

"i love you" he says

you could immediately feel tears in the back of your eyes

"i have for quite a while now. i can't tell you the exact moment i realised it, but i can tell you that i'm sure of it. everything feels so different to me now. there isn't a single moment of my day where i don't think about you. i know how scared you are of being in love, and i don't blame you. i've never felt like this before. i've never had someone consume every single thought of my brain the way you do" he pauses, takes a look at you and then takes your hand in his " i think the reason why you avoided me was because you feel it too. and i want you to know that even if you aren't ready for something more than the friendship we have, i would never hold that againt you. never. i'm happy with whatever you give me as long as i have you in my life"

you take a deep breath while squeezing his hand "it's so hard for me to put into words what i'm feeling for you because a few months ago it seemes like the most foreign concept to me,loving someone forever. i don't know how i would be like in a relationship, but if it's anything like watching bad movies with you , or staying here in this park talking about anything that goes though our minds, i want to try it with you."

at that, he offered you his beautiful smile that makes you weak to the knees, and pulled you into a hug.

"i'm pretty sure that i can love you forever, y/n" he whispered in your hair

#na jaemin #nct #nct dream #mark lee #lee donghyuck #lee jeno #chaewon #kpop imagines #nct fluff #nct imagines #kpop au

[scp-stuff-is-pog]

I'm bored

if this post gets like 200 notes I'll make an ask blog of site 102 on my 3rd blog.

#tired #bored af #and gay #but who cares #I sure don't #It'll give me a chance to improve my art skills I guess #never gonna happen. I'm too silly for te Internet.

[deuynndoodles]

so.. tired.. zelink shippers who insist only zelink can be canon block me pls

#rambles #god. i'm fuckgin. [yells] #sorry i think romantic botw zelink is a bit boring. like ok there's 'evidence' but there's 'evidence' for other ships too #i don't care if you like it (i like a lot of zelink takes myself) but can you stop insisting everyone who has a different take is an idiot #i'm so tired. lays down #idfk man maybe ppl have reasons for not wanting to ship every romantic ship in media. i'm bored of romance being the end all be all

[doesntseeyourbeauty]

today has been the most monday ever at it's not even 1PM

#personal #so tired of today #work has been slow and boring #not to mention tomorrow is my 6 month anniversary at work and i don't wanna be here anymore #mostly bc of the upper admin where I work (they all suck and only care about themselves) #and my headphones have been weird and glitchy all day so i can't even listen to music (my office mate won't let me listen to it out loud) #i'm just so tired of all of this #why must we all have to work until we die with no hope in sight? #honestly the only things getting me through today is shopping for an outfit for lizzy mcalpine and mahjong

[cowardlycowboys]

too many mutuals love to read where is my love for illiterate girls

#omg kiera no one cares #i say illiterate but really i just haven't been able to read since i graduate #literally the thought of reading makes me so bored and tired #and the thought of reading something I'm interested in makes me anxious and tired #school ruined reading and I'm never going back i fear (i also don't care that much)

[apatheticlexicographer]

to be completely honest, the stranger things fandom has damn near ruined the show for me lmfao

#and i don't mean in the 'i know too much i can never be satisfied as GA again' way #people are just soooooo fucking petty #and i swear to god nobody in this fandom seems to remember that it's supposed to be... fun??? #for them and for everyone else #like. bro. have u considered sitting down and maybe drinking a glass of *insert preferred juice* #people take the stupidest shit tooooooo seriously #also HEAVILY controversial opinion so i'm banking on nobody seeing this lest i get hashtag cancelled: #the vast majority of the characters are pretty bland and have middling chemistry #yes. this includes mike and will #i enjoy them. i like them. i don't think they're BAD. but sweetheart they are not that deep i'm sorry ToT #truly fascinates me how worked up people get over a handful of fictional pubescent suburbanites #yeah i'm losing followers if anybody sees this but i honestly do not give a shit #it might just be the mental illness but i barely care about any of it anymore even on a perfunctory level #i miss stranger things being a show i really really liked without being muddied by how fucking annoying fandoms are #(just in general but indo tend to fall into obnoxious ones and ST is no exception) #honestly half the entertainment i've gotten here has been from participating and half has been from watching other ppl squabble #i guess we all suck. haha #i'll probably be less of a holier-than-thou jackass in a couple weeks when i maybe get new meds #but til then i am honestly so sick of logging onto tumblr and having my dash at least half full of stranger things #i'm sick and tired and bored. i just wanna enjoy my blorbos in the peace of my own mind and then forget about them for a couple of years #maybe the hyperfixation is finally ending #honestly??? i hope so #lexi stfu challenge

[weed-cat]

#I'm tired as hell of being sick #the magnitude of the boredom that comes with being sick with a chronic illness is crazy #i have between 0.5-6 hours out of bed per day. usually around 3 or 4. i spend almost that whole time cooking and shopping and cleaning #and taking care of what needs to be done before time is up and i need to lay down again #when I'm in bed i don't have the energy for anything except watching easy to digest shows or youtube videos or scrolling on tumblr #maybe some writing or drawing if the brain fog isn't too bad #my life is just a haze of one million meds and supplements and doctors visit after doctors visit #and smoking weed so I'm not debilitated by nausea 24/7 and sleeping. so much sleeping. I'm so bored. I'm so desperately bored. #i miss having a shitty retail job and going out with my friends after work and going to events #and being able to go anywhere more than 20 minutes from my apartment #:( :( :( #im just so bored and tired on such a deep and painful level and i want to be well enough to feel like a real person again

[burkleswinifred]

My unpopular opinion is that I genuinely liked Angel in BTVS and thought he was an interesting character. Why else would he get his own spinoff? People are just quick to call characters who are stoic and reserved boring. If you look pass that, you find that he has a well developed backstory considering he was more of a supporting character during the show. I mean if I had been cursed with a soul and made to feel immense guilt for all the terrible things I did as a soulless monster for eternity, I would be broody and depressed too.

#btvs #angel #i also think it has to do with people hating b/angel #but i don't want to get into that #if you hate angel because of a ship that's on you #can you tell i'm tired of seeing the same angel is boring take in the tags even with filtering #i just want to find some angel content without seeing people misunderstand his character #or only caring about him in relation to other characters #cough *cor/dy* cough #this is why i don't want to be involved in the fandom anymore

[essektheylyss]

I am TIRED of hearing the whole "there is NO reason a paragraph shouldn't be more than four lines" writing critique. If Ursula Le Guin can write an asshole psychiatrist monologuing for a page and a half straight, it is FINE, actually.

You can have characters monologue, you can have a long bit of description, you can give exposition in chunks—the issue is when there's no PURPOSE to it and it's treated as a prerequisite dump of information rather than a curated telling.

As long as you're making choices about language and what is being conveyed so that it's relevant and matches the style, it's fine.

#I read body work by melissa febos yesterday and she was like 'unpopular opinion: every single thing in a piece of writing is a choice' #and I was like 'oh my god. a woman after my own heart.' #this is my DEEPEST HELD writing opinion #and also it's fine if you are NOT looking that specifically at every comma but like. #on a larger level you gotta understand why you're doing what you're doing cuz if it implies something you don't want it to? #you gotta be able to understand if that choice is more important to you than the secondary thing it implies #and like. I'm not interrogating every comma or individual word (and my aversion to editing is a flaw that I need to improve upon) #but like. where a paragraph ends is always a choice. always always always. probably the grammar thing I think about most actually. #often it is more of an instinct than conscious examination cuz I've been doing this a long time and there's a feel to it #but I know WHY a paragraph ended when and where it did. I can tell you exactly why if you asked! #and readability is one of the concerns there!!! but that is sure as FUCK not the only concern #nor is it necessarily the most important concern if there's a stylistic need that trumps it or must be balanced with it! and there often is #also. as an adhd person. if I have to hear that it's ableist to adhd people because 'they don't have that much of an attention span!' #I will throw the products of my twenty years worth of writing hyperfixation through your fucking window. #if it's BORING or I don't CARE or I'm TIRED then nO but in a BOOK THAT I AM WILLINGLY READING? shut the fuck uppppp #I don't need No long paragraphs I need VARIATION. INTENTION. STYLE. #I don't have enough attention span for your bullshit actually. #and my experience with adhd is NOT the only one but like. to use adhd to claim that as a stylistic choice is Bad is just. fuck you actually #like constant staccato paragraphs are actually usually WORSE for me cuz I cannot tell what's supposed to be emphasized. #I need the contrast so I know what gets the most weight. cuz NOT EVERYTHING SHOULD. there are LEVELS. #anyway I'll stop ranting in the tags but I was reading lathe of heaven and got mad about it all over again. #I didn't actually see this commentary today I just remembered it. with my so-terribly-short attention span. #so you can rip my long paragraphs out of my cold dead hands.

[grison-in-space]

dear friendly office admin: I am aware that yes, when I saw you three hours ago on my way to pee and assemble chambers downstairs, I lied and said Matilda was not with me rather than explain that she is expected to lie quietly in my office until I come back.

I am also aware that coming to show me YOUR small dog as I was packing up and getting ready to leave was probably intended to be a friendly gesture. it is just that after three hours contorting myself in a hot stuffy basement room to run wires and cut zip ties at improbable angles, I was not especially interested in anyone else's animals. I was going to retrieve my damn dog and gear, slink home, and vegetate quietly in a corner for a while.

and of course Matilda decided to cosplay a rabid badger because this is how she handles soliciting play. because she is a small monster. (no, really. it is bizarre. it confuses the hell out of me. but it does seem to be a desire to initiate play.) and now I feel like the weird disruptive one. I don't even know what that lady does.

#matilda #n.b. while tilda is a service prospect #which is a major reason she usually comes to work with me #to practice being quiet and bored by office environments #I have not really bothered to formally frame that because I do not really want to deal with Being an Educator #and! this is also! my opinion of pet dogs! #if she was just coming to work because she is a busy goblin and CM deserves to be able to sleep after a night shift #I still would not be especially interested in interacting with other people's dogs #genuinely I am at work TO WORK #and one of the ways I handle the privilege of being allowed to bring the puppy with me to work #is that I am careful to try and minimize ANY disruption to my working environment #or for that matter anyone else's #and I am tired and there is CONVERSATION outside my office #and I just don't want to bother #I was going to sketch out the basic tasks I'm beginning to lay groundwork for #largely related to executive function and timekeeping #but ugh too tired flat aggravated

[eluminium]

i swear to all that is wicked and sullied in the world if i read another fic thats labeled “Boatem Centric” but the fic is basically just Grian, Scar and Mumbo I am going to start spite writing “Boatem Centric” fics that are JUST about Pearl and Impulse because they deserve better then this-

#el ranteth #I MEAN COME THE FUCK ON #TAG YOUR FICS CORRECTLY PLEASE #BOATEM DOESN'T MEAN DESERT DUO PLUS MUMBO #BOATEM IS ALL FIVE #I WONT TOLIRATE THIS IMPULSE AND PEARL ERASSURE #G O D #just tag them!! tag those three #write all about your desert duos and your grumbos and your mumscarian #just don't lead people on thinking they're gonna get something else too! #I don't care if you write about your favourite scrimblos do it all you want I just don't want to read it #personal prefrence! #the day people stop writing Impulse as the boring braincell guy who just exists is the day i can die happy #as you can see this is a rant and i'm not sorry for putting it on your dashboard #anyways eventual rant post about how the prevelence of desert duo has made me tired of them coming 2022 #<- /j

[xcziel]

i seriously think maybe covid DID do something to my brain, but it was ... somehow winding back the clock to the time when i cared about music??????

cut bc of personal rambling

like i haven't listened to the radio in YEARS

i used to be all up on everything popular music as much as i could in my teens (no internet) and then in my 20s i had subscriptions to spin and alternative press and i worked in a store where i could access rolling stone or billboard at will etc.

(this is after i went through a period of being desperately poor, so like the mid 90s was just radio i had no money)

but like in the last ten, fifteen years i had just gotten ... tired of everything i heard, couldn't be bothered to look for more music really. i still lived my favorites but i hadn't added more than maybe ten songs to my library (other than cdrama tracks lol) in as many years it seems like

and then for some reason last year i started picking up the occasional new song i liked again

maybe it's having a place to live where i can play music out loud? but i lived the the same place back when i enjoyed music and dancing around the apartment and then when i didn't ...

i really don't know, but this spring/summer i have downloaded and *listened to* more music in six months than in the last twenty years probably

stuff that i *could* have heard the first time around but only now am i interested - i just don't get it.

maybe the thing about covid messing with the brain and memory storage is right and for some reason it like, cleared the cache on my music storage in my brain and now there's more room?

like i am still incredibly picky and not all listening to like *everything* but i am still enjoying it a LOT

it's just weird for me personally to hear a song and go 'oh hey i LIKE that i need to hear it again' and i find i worry that my interest will just ... turn itself off again

so far though it is SO nice

#aging is fucking weird #i loved music and listened to it CONSTANTLY when i was younger #and then just got ... bored of it over time #i still don't like most of top 40 stuff but i guess i've gotten better at finding avenues to stiff i do like #or maybe it's that i'm willing to give a listen to more new things? #ititerally could be just having a brief time of accessing utube without ads to drive me away #but like i could've found a work around before if i had cared enough i just didn't #hey world if you're listening what i would really love to get back is that sense of magical drama and possibility #that goes hand in hand with music and that i lost sometime in my thirties #that sense like that you are in a movie and the music is the soundtrack and the night is liminal and free? #where just walking down the street is a story and an adventure? #i think of all the things i've lost (health braincells skin elasticity) i miss that the most #it wasn't depression bc i had depression for ages and music was one of the best forms of relief actually #i just got old and tired and stressed but i'm still old and exhausted and stressed so . . ? #anyway thank you kpop and groovy songs i can dance to my phone is crying

[rubys-domain]

i might be terrible for feeling like this. but the sheer amount of schadenfreude i have after finding out that freminet is likely going to be a shit unit is through the roof lmao

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #> from watching the zajef prerelease video on him #so i main chongyun right? that means (despite me trying to minmax even though i know my f2p damage will never measure up to spenders) #i generally don't care if the numbers are bad if a unit feels fun to play #hell even if the character is op i would be 90% less likely to use them if i didn't have fun using them (looking at you kuki) #but his kit looks like i'm not gonna enjoy it too #which leaves me with zero motivation to pull on the childe/zhongli banner now #now to watch zajef's lyney video and see if i get tempted to pull for him or if my primos will be safely stashed away for future banners #yknow. i kinda wish i mained a meta dps. or was inclined to main any of the meta dps's #quite frankly all the meta dps's gameplay bore me to death #i'm not saying this because i'm starting to dislike chongyun #i fully intend to be the most obsessive whale solely to optimize this exorcist boy far beyond the boundaries of reason #(that day is not coming anytime soon but you get the picture right? i'm still very much a ride or die for this lil guy) #i'm just tired of people calling him a shit unit. even on r/popsiclemains ppl call him suboptimal or subpar #i know all of those things are true #but it's not surprising that hearing it basically every single time he's mentioned is going to take its toll eventually either，is it? #this is why i just don't bother trying to be part of any community. with any kind of media，i'm someone whom ppl would say has “bad taste” #i just wish chongyun had a niche but still decent playstyle that he's unarguably the best at #being the best shatter dps is not it since shatter's numbers are basically terrible no matter what you do #if they somehow buff shatter in fontaine (since freminet's kit wants to shatter) then maybe i'll make it my main playstyle. but yeah... #the only times i bring out my shatter team are when fighting against pyro/electro enemies，or farming mushrooms #i guess it'd be nice to have zhongli since layla does disrupt reactions that i want chong to be the one proccing #but i just don't feel like breaking my back for yet another 5 star after how long it took to get kokomi #and he's basically guaranteed a rerun in natlan anyway so yeah... #i'm gonna be honest. now that i have kokomi，my motivation to pull for anyone else is almost nonexistent #maybe nilou so i can use kokomi as a driver. but other than her... unless natlan characters are really fucking cool #besides albedo and venti，i don't think i'll ever pull for a new 5 star ever again #after those three i'd only be pulling for vertical investment #or begrudgingly pulling for utility like zhongli

[achaosmushroom]

Waiting for people to request random writing prompts for me is so stressful

Like I've never been this anxious about a notification before

#send me prompts #I'm tired and bored please #I don't care what it is but pleaseee #I literally have nothing else to do all night

[wildcard-rumi]

I've been wanting to make a P3 Arcana Swap for almost a year now because I had an idea for two characters in particular but even after all this time, I still don't have any ideas for the other characters...

#i haven't even made any notes yet because i mean... there's barely anything to write down #just a vague idea about these two characters and their dynamic #i just haven't been able to create anything in ages #no story ideas no character ideas no au ideas #i keep thinking that maybe i want to write again but i can't really do anything without ideas so i just give up again #then again the idea of sinking loads of time and effort into something and then getting ignored again is a big deterrent as well #i dunno it just kills any motivation or passion you have for something y'know? #like putting so much effort into something and trying your best to make it perfect and then no one cares #it's a bit deflating to say the least #i dunno where i'm going with this i'm bored and i'm tired and i don't have anyone to talk to i'm slowly going mad #delete later