#im not done with april 3rd yet

[starryo]

Okokok i have more questions about this au because I’ve been rotating it very rapidly in my head all day

1. How does everyone react to akiras betrayal? Does it hurt more or less than akechis? Because I’m assuming that he’s still an older brother figure to futaba based on how you said he still hangs out at Leblanc, but how would she react to learning that he’s a murderer?

2. Do they even suspect him like how they suspect akechi? Or are sumire and futabas good word enough to throw them off the scent?

3. How does the engine room play out? Does he confess everything or do they not realize what’s really going on until 3rd semester?

4. Interrogation room? 👀👀

5. How does sumire react when she learns what her sisters been involved in?

Ok that’s it for now I’m just… I’m buzzing thinking about this au

OH BOY OH BOY those are some 👀👀 interesting question 👀👀 you have there. i’ll try my best to answer the ones i’ve already thought about!! these answers are definitely subject to change further down the line though.

it would definitely hurt more than akechi’s betrayal, which is honestly a really low bar considering akechi pretty much only really talks to akira and sumire prior to him blackmailing his way into the phantom thieves. futaba is pretty chill actually with her older brother figure being a murderer part, she’s done actual criminal activity before and she’s super attached to akira. i’ve always kind of seen futaba’s beef with akechi to be more over the fact that he killed her mom than him killing in general? haru is the one you should be more worried about hehe.

they don’t really suspect akira! there isn’t a pancakes moment in this au and akira can’t help befriending ALL of the phantom thieves even despite their new roles. it’s a little funny that you bring up sumire and futaba here, because they (along with akechi but he is a new addition) are actually the ones that kind of know there is something going on. it’s a side effect of having a close relationship with akira. kasumi used to be part of that group too but she found out the truth already. the other two try to justify or turn a blind eye to whatever details they notice. the other phantom thieves hardly notice a thing though, and sumi + futaba’s good word definitely helps. i haven’t completely figured out exactly how a lot of the pt react to prince detective akira’s views on the pt yet though.

bold of you to assume akira would let goro get hurt in the same way he did in the original timeline. both the interrogation room and engine room scenes will be different from canon! it makes me giggle and kick my feet and im keeping it a secret for the full experience when i present it (which i hopefully will, if not i will describe what it would have been)

see above.

akira does a real good job hiding all traces of kasumi’s involvement (he is already risking a lot by even befriending some of the pt pre-canon, because they get on shido’s radar. he has the excuses of connections for the nijiimas and the yoshizawas at least, but he stayed away from the other pt for a long time because of this reason) so sumire doesn’t find out for a long time. kasumi is also a relatively new addition to akira’s team, since she only follows him into the metaverse in the beginning of april. sumire doesn’t find out until akira’s palace though, and with kasumi she is less upset about the accomplice part than the trust parts (also canon sumi’s complex about her sister shows its claws). she likely would have been more upset with the accomplice stuff if she had found out at the same time as finding out about akira’s role, but because she finds out after, she already had some reconciliation over that fact.

i’m so glad that you like my silly little self-indulgent au so much!!! i really didn’t think people would be that interested in it aldhlsjdk thank you for your questions!!

#white mask au #star speaks

[thenewblackcanvas]

20's ♡ she/they ♡ POC

⋆˙⟡♡⟡⋆˙ writing: stray kids, ateez, bts, seventeen, etc ⋆˙⟡♡⟡⋆˙

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directory ♡︎ fic rec page ♡︎ nsfw visuals

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March

Stroking him while holding him pt 2 (Feb 18th) ♡

↳ Changbin, Jeongin, Hyunjin, and Minho; nsfw

January

Stroking him while holding him (Jan 16th) ♡

↳ Felix, Jisung, Seungmin, and Chan; nsfw

Big Dick!Chan and Possessive Reader (Jan 8th) ♡

↳ small drabble; nsfw

2023 • Done ♡

[depression break]

December

Poly December (All month)

↳ masterlist for all 2023 Poly December writings

November

none

October

spooky season masterlist (All month) 🎃

↳ masterlist for all 2023 Spooky Season writings

September

#3: mischievous swaying with chan (Sep 30th) ♡

↳ chan mild public play; little smutty

#2: chan being a meanie nsfw (Sep 29th) ♡

↳ mild brain rot of chan going from sweetie to meanie in bed; smutty

#1: Chan comes home from tour (Sep 29th) ♡

↳ my feelings about chan coming home; fluffy and smutty

Siren 2 (Sep 4th) ♡

↳ Seonghwa shares something special with you

Chan comfort (Sep 3rd) ♡

↳ you bring Chan home from work and you can practically hear his racing thoughts

July

7 nurses, 2 patients (July 24th) ♡

↳ you and Mingi are recovering together with the most chaotic staff of nurses: your boyfriends

April (oops)

The Innocents: 01 (Apr 26th) ♡

↳ Jimin saves two innocents caught in the crossfire; Mafia!Jimin x Yoongi x Reader (8pm est)

Felix makes three: 01 (Apr 26th) ♡

↳ The morning after the ice is broken; Chanlix x Reader (6pm est)

Bang Chan masterpost (Apr 17th) ♡

↳ just a masterlist of my Chan content because im a whore for him :)

[10:45] felix ft. jisung, changbin, and hyunjin) (Apr 15th) ♡

↳ you get impatient; nsfw

[1:56] chanlix 2am tears ; suggestive (Apr 15th) ♡

↳ a late night visitor’s tears

chan draft drabble, mildly nsfw (Apr 11th) ♡

↳ chan unknowingly insults you, felix hears things he shouldn’t

just a finale (Apr 10th) ♡

↳ the finale, pt 7 nsfw yunho drabble (thank you)

don’t shut me out(dont shut your legs) (Apr 4th) ♡

↳ pt 6 nsfw yunho drabble

January

tourist fireworks (Jan 10th) ♡

↳ yunho new year’s drabble

private new year (Jan 10th) ♡

↳ bang chan new year’s drabble

it’s been a good year (Jan 1st) ♡

↳ woosan new years drabble

2022 • Done ♡

November

poly masterlist (Nov 15th) ♡

↳ masterlist for my polyamorous posts

imagine someone found your sex tape (Nov 9th) ♡

↳ woosan drabble (2am thought)

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October

spooky season masterlist (All month) 🎃

↳ masterlist for everything I released in October

Notice:// some haven’t been posted yet

vampire training: prologue (Oct 13th) ♡

↳ vampire!yunho mini series | series masterlist

request: demon!wooyoung x angel!reader (Oct 7th) ♡

↳ spooky season request (smut)

September

darkness falls across the land (Sep 30th) ♡

↳ Halloween masterlist 2022

chanlix and comfort skz reposts (Sep 23rd) ♡

↳ reposting of my poly chanlix and soft comforting skz drabbles from my old acc

just a room away (Sep 23rd) ♡

↳ pt 5 nsfw yunho drabble

woosan drabble add-on (Sep 17th) ♡ 

↳ something extra for the woosan one👇🏽 he’s gonna leave marks

woosan drabble (Sep 15th) ♡ 

↳ San hears screams and bursts in to scold woo. Bad timing?

just a mistake (Sep 11th) ♡ 

↳ pt 4 nsfw yunho drabble

Hard hours (Sep 10th) ♡ 

↳ a few asks

just a little thunder (Sep 9th) ♡ 

↳ pt 3 nsfw yunho drabble

Hard hours (Sep 9th) ♡ 

↳ a couple posts

July

????! JK

↳ finally posted this JK au

RIC ch 4

↳ the start of part two

TMIAOU

↳ the past and present

use me - bill withers (July 7th) ♡ 

↳ drabble based on use me by bill withers

perv!chan (July 7th) ♡ 

↳ lil thought of bestie perv channie

June

channie comfort during depressive episode (June 25th) ♡ 

↳ chan fluff comfort drabble

just a ride home (June 13th) ♡ 

↳ pt 2 nsfw yunho drabble

don’t hang up (June 8th) ♡

↳ nsfw yunho drabble

May

Random hard thought (May 31st) ♡

↳ nsfw yunho thought

please don’t regret it (May 31st) ♡

↳ angsty chan drabble

the monsters in all of us: one (May 5th) ♡

↳ vampire!jungkook story from my old blog (nsfw)

reconciliation in currency ch 3 (May 5th) ♡

↳ the interview (nsfw)

reconciliation in currency ch 2 (May 3rd) ♡

↳ tae’s pov

reconciliation in currency ch 1 (May 2nd) ♡

↳ sugar daddy! former bestfriend! taehyung

slightly insecure reader with comforting channie (May 1st) ♡

↳ bang chan drabble, slightly nsfw

♡ directory ♡  

#thenewblackcanvas #masterlist #directory #recents masterlist #ateez fanfic #seventeen fanfic #stray kids fanfic #bts fanfic

[divergent-one-1984]

Organized Crime Ring in Astoria, NY, in a neighborhood under the jurisdiction of 114th PRECINCT and in apartment buildings managed by CENTRAL ASTORIA, LLC. I have been the victim of TARGETED COMMUNITY HARASSMENT SINCE SUMMER 2016 because of my race and gender, I am an African American woman (because of a rumor / gossip mill started by staff at NYC DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION while I was employed there from 2014 to 2016 I was made the victim of targeted psychological harassment). Due to the illegal access and leaking of private, personal, confidential information by wiretapping / cloning / hacking of personal devices and illegal surveillance in my residence. This includes leaking of confidential medical information (HPV, strains that can cause cervical cancer and an Abortion) - STALKING / HARASSING / GASLIGHTING SISTER - MARCH 12, 2023

Sister's Shenanigans re VERIZON landline My sister came over late evening Sunday 3/12/2023, sometime around or after 5 PM; left sometime around 9 PM, to drop off some food and medicine for bed ridden relative. Again, the shenanigans with the VERIZON serviced landline phone that has been out of service since April 2022; a day or 2 after I told the Home Health Aide to use the phone to log in for her timesheet so I did not have to sign paper time sheets the phone mysteriously stopped working. I believe this was done intentionally, either by VERIZON, or some hacker involved in my harassment via the disruption / manipulation of technology, which is a common ORGANIZED STALKING tactic.

Some weeks prior to my sister coming over unannounced, I had unplugged the phone. After she left, I discovered she plugged the phone back in even though she knows nothing is wrong with the phone, it's apparently the line or VERIZON'S equipment, not the phone itself so plugging the cordless phone back in to charge it makes no sense especially since I did some trouble shooting months ago with an old school corded phone, the results were the same, NO DIAL TONE.

If the results on the CORDED phone are identical why are you bothering to plug in a CORDLESS phone to charge it when there is something clearly wrong with the phone line or VERIZON equipment, not the telephone itself.

You can further troubleshoot with the corded phone with VERIZON until a dial tone is present, then place the cordless phone back in rotation if desired.

After discovering she plugged the cordless phone in again even after our conversation re the line / VERIZON equipment being the issue, not the phone I yet again unplugged the cordless phone, this is the 2nd or 3rd time we have been through this nonsense.

The phone has been out of service for almost a year in April. I already conveyed the fact to my sister, who has been harassing me for a while now, that I plugged in an old school corded phone and the result is still the same. NO DIALTONE. When the landline number is called the call goes straight to vmail.

This supposed to be smart NYU grad keeps playing dumb illogical games, obviously to irritate, agitate, and GASLIGHT me.

As I explained in a previous post, the same thing happened to me in my apartment in MIDWOOD, BROOKLYN. My landline phone line just did not work one day. I went to make a call and discovered there was NO DIAL TONE, my Internet was still working so I had to communicate with FIOS customer service through IM, because I did not have a cell phone, the Internet was my only alternative form of communication in my apartment. The issue was resolved fairly quickly and entirely remotely.

This STREET THEATER performance has multiple layers of subliminal referencing to it I won't get into the details here including COLOR and NUMBER HARASSMENT, but the main theme is STREET THEATER and GASLIGHTING with all roads leading to the FORCED REMOVAL OF ME / HARASSING, ABUSING, & TORTURING ME TO MOVE OUT, even though I have no means to do so because I am a Target of GANG STALKING which has taken my work and professional prospects to zero because every job or apartment I go to I am MOBBED / GROUP STALKED & HARASSED.

Aside from the fact that my civil, human and privacy rights are perpetually being violated and no one should be doing what they are doing to me, after about 8 years now I have had enough of compartmentalizing to survive, compartmentalizing is not healthy and I can't and won't do it anymore. I will not be leaving voluntarily so I suppose the STALKING / HARASSMENT / ABUSE / TORTURE / TERROR will continue until these STALKERS / HARASSERS / TORTURERS / TERRORISTS stop or I die or get creatively / fraudulently evicted, which will ultimately mean death as well eventually.

If I cannot work, I cannot earn a living, therefore I cannot take care of myself, doesn't get simpler than that, straight logic.

As I expressed in previous posts this HARASSMENT CAMPAIGN since SUMMER 2016 is to FORCE ME TO MOVE OUT OF THIS APARTMENT and ASTORIA, NY (as was done before when this HARASSMENT began in 2016 and even after I moved to BROOKLYN in 2018, the same tactics were used there to HARASS me to FORCE ME to LEAVE).

The apartment I reside in in ASTORIA, NY, is the same apartment / neighborhood I was born and raised in with this same sister of mine, in which I have been a member of this community since 1976 without any issues or problems, a place where I developed lifelong friendships that I have had to cut off because they were turned against me and chose to engage in the COMMUNITY HARASSMENT, that began here in SUMMER 2016, a couple of short months after I quit working at NYC DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION in DOWNTOWN BROOKLYN, ADAMS ST, due to WORKPLACE MOBBING, which began in 2015, and reported the HARASSMENT to NYS DEPARTMENT OF LABOR in APRIL/ MAY 2016, shortly after I quit.

Another subliminal message directly references WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY and moving. My ex-fiance WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY and I shared an apartment in BROOKLYN, NY from late 2004 to early 2006. The abridged version is WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY broke off our engagement and asked me to move out in JANUARY 2006. In FEBRUARY 2006, I moved from the BROOKLYN apartment we shared to my own apartment in BRIARWOOD, QUEENS, NY.

Prior to me moving out I informed WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY of what he needed to do with applicable household bills to transfer the accounts into his name only, one of those bills was the VERIZON landline phone. I am the one who set up the service, my name would come up on the caller ID, etc. I did not live there anymore and just wanted complete separation of such things, ideally before I moved out.

By JULY 2006, WILFRED had still not handled this so I disconnected the VERIZON landline and closed the account so he would have to just set up new service / a new account in his name only. I informed WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY via email that I had disconnected the landline, WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY became irate, insisted I turn the service back on (even though I hadn't lived there in 6 months and had my own landline service in my apartment; WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY sent me threatening emails which prompted me to have my father talk to him to calm him down / leave me alone and me to file a DOMESTIC.INCIDENT REPORT with NYPD.

EXPLANATION OF ORGANIZED GROUP STALKING / GANG STALKING TACTICS I EXPRESSED ABOVE

GAS LIGHTING

Gas Lighting is a psychological technique used my members of these groups. The purpose of Gas Lighting is to make a victim question his or her sanity. Doing little things to try to make the target think that they are going crazy. Gas Lighting simply is trying to convince someone that they are crazy or “imagining things.” Example; If you mention Organized Gang Stalking to someone who knows about it and they tell you you’re crazy or paranoid they ARE Gas Lighting you. The term Gas-Lighting originates from the 1944 film “Gaslight.” In the movie, the character of Gregory Anton, played by actor Charles Boyer, attempts to drive the character Pauline, played by actress Ingrid Bergman, insane. The phrase Gas-Lighting has come to mean similar actions and behavior, as used in the film, against a victim.

STREET THEATER Street Theater is a term used to describe the odd-actions and behaviors that stalkers sometimes neighbors do in public, in an attempt to rile the victim. Such behavior often borders on the extremely bizarre and is aimed at a blurring of the boundaries between reality and fantasy in the minds of the victims. This is running into people that are acting very unusual, or people that are putting on a show or production, known as street theater. Eg. This could be as minor as public rudeness, or people acting out a harassment skit. There will usually be someone nearby to see how you react to it. This is again looking for weakness or reactions. If you show an adverse reaction, they will try to embellish on this and use it against you later on.

Street Theater is Harassment skits done by strangers and neighbors who have been ‘recruited’ into these Stalking and Harassment groups. Examples of Street Theater: Baiting, Brighting, Color Harassment, Convoys, Directed Conversation, Ghosting, Mimicry, Noise Campaigns, etc.

MOBBING Mobbing is a term that describes “Group Bullying”. Of itself, Mobbing is not equated with Gang Stalking. However, Mobbing may be a tactic used by the perpetrators of Gang Stalking.

ILLEGAL SURVEILLANCE This involves setting up audio and some visual surveillance of the target. Bugging the targets phone. Surveillance in the targets residence. Listening to cell phone and hard line conversations.

Hacking into their computers and learning all about what the target is doing, sites they frequent, or planting things. This also helps to build a profile of the target, and it’s also used for later psychological attacks against the target, via Parroting and Directed Conversations. Examples Of Illegal Surveillance -Illegal Criminal Electronic Monitoring -Illegal Criminal Phone And Computer Taps -Illegal Criminal Remote Neural Monitoring

COLOR HARASSMENT Color Harassment is literally the use of color to harass a victim. Usually, monochromatic color schemes are used, though this choice is pretty much up to the stalkers. An example of Color Harassment would be a line of stalkers, in red shirts, circling a victim. Color Harassment is often combined with other stalking tactics.

NUMBER HARASSMENT Number Harassment is literally the use of numbers to Harass a target and victim, This can include the brainwashed members of these cults driving by a victims home at a certain time, exiting or entering the neighborhood at a certain set time, or performing a Harassment task or skit, at a certain time of the day or night, for the purpose of harassment to the target and victim. The Number Harassment may be done in synchronicity with other members of these cults. For example a member of the cult arrives home at 7:07 in the afternoon and another member of the cult leaves at 7:07 at the same time. The next morning, one of the same members of the cult leaves home at 7:07 followed by another member of the cult. The individuals that belong to these cults are using local police 10 ham radio codes to harass and to convey harassment related themes to the individual being targeted for years at a time. The only logical explanation that can be drawn as to why these brainwashed cult members are using local police 10 codes to Harass other citizens, is that they have been deluded into thinking that they are somehow police.

The idea behind the Number Harassment, is to get the individual being targeted sensitized to certain numbers, so that they can be constantly Harassed by use of these numbers. Most importantly the members of these cults have already been sensitized, conditioned, and brainwashed to these specific numbers, and are constantly looking to their watches and clocks, to see what the time is, in case they have a Harassment skit or order to perform at a specific time of the day or night, that has been passed to them by their criminal leader and organizer via a cell phone text. That’s correct. These cult members are actually being given Harassment tasks and Street Theater Scripts to perform at a certain time of the day for the purpose of Harassment of another individual, despite the fact that the individual being targeted can easily document this Harassment and Cult behavior using a video camera with a date and time stamp, and sue the individuals for damages of Harassment and Emotional Distress.

In addition to the HATE CRIME element to the ongoing stalking and harassment there is a Religious Zealotry / Nuttery / Judgmental / Fundamentalism / Extremism element to my daily harassment as I am being harassed by mostly Muslim and Latino people. Based on facts / my observation, I would estimate that 9 out of 10 people harassing me on a daily basis are Muslim or Latino, with Muslims ranking number 1, Muslims who appear to be from Middle Eastern / Arab countries and countries on the Asian continent. All of the tenants in my apartment building are involved in my daily harassment, especially the 3 apartments surrounding my apartment. 2 of the apartments are occupied by Muslim tenants and the 3rd apartment is occupied by Latino tenants. Out of the 9 apartments in my apartment building. 2 of the tenants, including myself are African American, the remaining 7 apartments are occupied by Latino and Muslim tenants, with the Muslims being in the majority. IMPORTANT UPDATE REGARDING CHANGE OF TENANCY IN APT BLDG (NEW TENANT(S) AS OF FEBRUARY 1, 2023): 1 OF THE FAMILIES IN THE APT BLDG MOVED OUT TUESDAY, JANUARY 31, 2023. I BELIEVE THESE TENANTS WERE AFRO-LATINO OR BLACK FOLK OF CARRIBBEAN DESCENT (I HAVE KNOWN THEM SINCE I WAS YOUNG, PROBABLY LATE TEENS EARLY TWENTIES) IN MY MIND I WAS THINKING I BET THE NEXT TENANTS TO MOVE INTO THEIR APT IS EITHER MUSLIM OR LATINO, MOST LIKELY MUSLIM

[indigo474]

21623-

Today was the first day i didn't feel like i was drowning. My work days/weeks are starting to have a rhythm to them. Maybe there is hope- there is always hope. I've been filled with self doubt the past few weeks- no fun. I try my best to be gentle with myself. One thing i do know for sure and i tell myself is that these feelings will pass. they always do and i always feel better again. let them come let them go...get out of your head April..also give yourself time. My team is coming along nicely. I'm getting the results I want out of them. I don't care for one of the new people on my team. I can't let it show. there are a few reasons she gets under my skin but a big one is her inability to look me in the eye. Not all the time-just when she's lying to me.

i want to send my mom a copy of my promotion letter. the little girl in me wants my mom to be proud of me. I haven't sent it yet because i don't trust her. Im scared she will send it to X. I don't trust my own mom. She wanted to me come over on Sunday. I don't want to. It's my only day off and i don't want to spend it with her- plus its a long drive and my car is in need of repair. she texted me while i was watching the super bowl. she asked me to call her. the old me- the april who thought if just tried harder or did what she wanted me to she would love me would have called her. I would have not watched the super bowl and called her and then would have regretted not doing what i wanted to do. I didn't call her. I explained i was watching tv and enjoying it and i would call her at a later time. When i did call her the next day she sent the call straight to voicemail. she doesnt like it when i have boundaries. she will never see my place because she refuses to call before coming over. it was the same at Chatham- she stopped coming over when i told her i needed her to call before and not just show up. it is what it is- but the child in me still wants her to be proud of me. i am proud of me.

Mads is still vegan. I'm proud of her. 16 weeks until graduation. I can hardly believe it. it's been almost a year since she has spoken to her father. a year ago she didn't want to live-today she is excited about cauliflower.

i saw Kika tonight. she was ok. i wish i could bring her home and love on her. I benched 87x5 today- it almost seemed easy- almost- that last one was hard. i'm not sure if i should keep going 2x a week. i like it- i worry about money. i'm currently having cash issues because of switching banks. i have to do more banking tomorrow - i haven't food shopped and i haven't done laundry. i went and got waxed last night which throws off my whole week. Its going to rain tomorrow and im going to go for run.

I am proud of myself- i know i can do this supervisor thing. I have a girl on my team who has some issues- a few write ups-never on time. i'm her 3rd supervisor- we are working on her being on time- she told me she can't because it's too hard and this is how she is and on and on. she kept saying it's just tooo hard- i finally said to her i know you can do hard things. she looked and me and said your right i can. she hasn't been late since. it's only been 2 weeks or so but she hasn't been late and she is making all her punches. promising- we shall see what happens.

April,

I am proud of you! You are doing a great job. i love you.

[olives-life]

Anime + Donghua + Hanguk Aeni ive Watched

notes: - in alphabetical order

-finished unless marked otherwise

-linked to pages with who I simp over and other stuff (unless theres nothing yet)

-up to means including (ex: seen up to season 4 - means ive seen seasons 1-4)

-btw ill be going through the ones ive already watched and reviewing them

-im a completionist so ill be finishing everything if its not marked as done - the stuff marked as watching is stuff im actively / recently watching

-most donghuas are in the list by their mandarin name (ex: soul land is in the D section by "Soul Land / Doulou Dalu)

-P.S. names with ** or in caps are characters I really really simp for

-Ace Attorney

-Akame ga Kill! (watching)

-Angel Beats!

-Assassination Classroom (watching 2nd season)

-Attack on Titan (watched up to season 3 part 2)

-Avatar: The Last Airbender (not finished)

-Beyblade - 2001 version (at ep 10)

-Black Butler (up to season 2)

-Black Clover (at ep 65)

-Blue Period (finished)

-Bus Gamer

-Cells at Work! (at ep 7)

-Clean Freak! Aoyama-kun

-Corpse Princess (Kuro ep 10)

-D4DJ

-Darker than Black (watching)

-Death Parade (watching)

-Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (watched 1st season)

-Soul Land / Douluo Dalu

-Dr. Stone (haven't seen the new OVA)

-Erased

-Food Wars (up to 3rd plate)

-Free! (haven't seen the movies)

-Gamers!

-Gintama (watching at ep 100)

-Grave of the Fireflies

-Gurren Lagann (watching)

-Haikyuu!

-Hamatora (watching)

-Heavy Object

-HENNEKO - The Hentai Prince and the Stony Cat (at ep 4) (this is not a hentai btw)

-Hunter x Hunter (watching)

-Jujutsu Kaisen

-K (watching)

-Kakegurui (twin included)

-King's Game

-Kuroko's Basketball (I havent seen Last Game yet)

-Little Busters!

-Lookism (finished)

-Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid

-Moriarty the Patriot (havent seen the second season)

-My Hero Academia (up to season 4)

-Nanbaka (watching)

-Naruto (at 90)

-Parasyte -the maxim- (not finished)

-Pokemon: Indigo League (at ep 34)

-Qualidea Code (watching)

-Versatile Mage / Quanzhi Fashi (if youve seen this and dont hate it DM me)

-The Kings Avatar / Quanzhi Gaoshou

-Sanrio Boys

-Seraph of the End

-Shounen Maid

-SK8 the Infinity

-Spirited Away

-Spiritpact (I have to rewatch it)

-Spriggan (finished)

-SPY x FAMILY (up to season 1)

-Sword Art Online (up to season 2)

-That Time I Got Reincarnated as a Slime (not done)

-The Kawai Complex Guide to Manors and Hostel Behavior

-The Millionaire Detective - Balance:Unlimited (watching)

-The Pet Girl of Sakurasou

-The Prince of Tennis (not finished)

-Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun

-Tokyo Revengers

-Toradora!

-Tower of God

-Violet Evergarden

-Weathering With You

-Your lie in April

[actualbird]

Hello! Idk if you’ve done this already but personally, what’s your ranking on your fave Luke cards based on the side story of these cards or something else? Kinda curious to see what our resident Luke enthusiast thinks hehe

ohhh, i havent actually!! and thank u so much for this ask cuz YESS, I DO HAVE A RANKING FOR THISSSS :DDD so let's get down to business

my personal top 5 favorite luke cards (with rambling rationale ofc, by this point it's a standard in my posts kjbfajsfkf)

wc: 1.6k

before i start, i'd like to note that this list is only taking into consideration cards that are available on the global server as of april 28, 2022 buuuuut already including Secrets of the Tomb event that only releases tomorrow cuz kjbkHBH IVE ALREADY SEEN LUKE’S CARD STORY THERE AND IT’S GOT A PLACE ON THIS LIST CUZ I RLLY LOVE IT!! this list also only ranks cards with stories because thats what im basing my rank on, so that disqualifies all the SR cards that are only audio messages and the MR card as well

with that outta the way, let's go from 5th most fave one by one to my most favorite of all cards thus far!!

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5th place: SSR Alluring Gaze

this was among the first luke cards i ever watched and i was reeling from the sheer angst in luke's personal story 1 and 2. please, i said to this card. please be a lighthearted yet entertaining chaser for my angst drowned heart.

"you are safe now, my child," said SSR Alluring Gaze.

"thank you for my life," i replied

cuz this card is one of the VERY FEW LUKE STORY CARDS that does not have an HINT of sadness or angst. NOT A DROP!!! no sudden pain episode, no vague reference to "im dying soon and i hate myself for that", NADA!! im not saying that i dont like angst (if that was true, i'd have made a terrible choice having luke as my fave JHVSDFHKV) or that angst makes for a bad story. i Love Angst and it deffo can used for great storytelling.

but this card manages without it in a really fun and charming and eeEEeEEeee-butterflies-in-my-heart kind of way.

later on, i'd come to realize that my biggest criticism for some luke cards is that theres a tendency for the story to rely solely on the gut punch angst or to be oversaturated in it to the point it's hard to really enjoy what's actually going on. while the emotional ouchies are inevitable and also key to many of luke's stories, it's a disservice to him as a character to only ever be pursuing his narrative through the lens of pain. he is more than that and his stories can benefit from little less leaning on angst for emotional impact.

this card is 5th place because i think it's proof that his stories can shine real great even without any angst at all

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4th place: SSR Shape Of You

if the last card made it onto this list because it was a lighthearted delight, this card is on the list because it was the first luke card to make me CRY REAL TEARS. FUCK THIS GAME. FUCK THIS CARD. FUCK MY LIIIIIFFEEEE----//sounds of my voice getting softer and softer until i calm down

anyway, this card hurt me personally. but it wasnt oversaturated in angst; it's a very lovely balance of shenanigans, mounting tension, and heartfelt emotion. overall, it's a hopeful card actually. but it hurt me because it was among my first (and most long lasting) peek into the core of who i see luke to be. particularly, one of his key desires and the flaw that comes with it:

hes someone so devoted to doing good for his loved ones and simultaneously so scared of hurting them that he places himself at a lower value because thats how he thinks he can be a benefit to their lives

like, ok, i amend my first sentence in this card. it's not on this list cuz it made me cry. it's on this list cuz that crying was due to me getting a deeper understanding of how luke thinks, feels, and acts.

if i had to recommend one card to somebody who knows nothing about tot or luke pearce, itd be this one. its story is a blend of the good in him and the not-so-good in him and paints a really clear picture of who luke is.

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3rd place: SSR Overflowing Thoughts

hey, SSR Overflowing Thoughts, see how im hyping you up the night before u actually r gonna be available? do u see how much i love you? ur gonna repay me by coming home without causing me much pain, right? RIGHT???? //brbs to calm self once more

ANYHOO, this card. is Good. it's really frigging good. i will be scant with the plot details so people dont get spoiled, but i will tell you that this card's story is an AU completely different from the actual stories of both luke and mc.

and when i say different, i REALLY MEAN IT. luke and mc's dynamics in this card are frigging lightyears away from what we're used to and this is not to the story's detriment, it's to the story's extreme absolute strength.

basically, this story does what a great AU is best at: showing us how different circumstances, lives, and choices can magnify and emphasize the core traits of the characters that will stay present in who they are no matter what universe they're in.

luke's core is devotion. mc's core is hope. this card does a fantastic job at hammering those things home effectively in a really frigging great story.

pls come home, SSR Overflowing Thoughts. PLEASE.....

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2nd place: SR Star in the Palm

let's give it up for the only SR card on this list, Star in the Palm!!! //CROWD CHEERS (i am the crowd)

THIS WAS AN UNEXPECTED FAVE. i got the card in december thru the xmas partyland boardgame like everyone else but then my brain went offline for a while and i only watched it in like, january i think. why did i wait. it's so good. IT'S MY 2ND MOST FAVE CARD STORY!!!

and it's my 2nd fave because the story is a wonderful blend of funtimes and feels, both those things working together to, again, paint a really lovely picture of who luke is.

this card in particular touches upon his fear of returning to mc's life. when i say this next bit, i say it with love: luke was a goddamn coward for a bit. he was in stellis way before he had first told mc he was, he had stalled on reuniting with her, he ran away from her. and he was scared of her knowing that, so he deflects and changes the subject and then

heres why this is 2nd place: mc is Not Fucking Having It. mc shoves chocolate into his lying liar mouth to get him to shut up. this card shows how luke is scared, yes, but it also shows how mc puts her foot down lovingly and makes it known that she'd like clearer answers. she wont force him, but thats what she wants.

and luke gives. both the answers and himself as a more honest person making more honest promises about how he'll act in the future.

it's the card that makes me rediscover (as if i ever forget, kJBSKJBDKF) why i love luke/mc so much: their relationship is ultimately about accepting fears and flaws and then---however imperfect the attempts may be---trying to be better moving forward

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and now for my top fave //drumrollllllllll

//announcer voice: the card that did not come home after 74 fucking rolls and by then i had used up all my s-chips so i gave up and just forced my friends to watch this card with me via discord grp call

1st place: SSR Peaceful Place

why didnt you come home. WHY. WHY MUST U FORSAKE ME, LUKE PEARCE??????

this card is my top 1 fave for almost all the reasons ive mentioned before:

we've got well balanced story. like bruh, we get the cuteness of luke and mc ADOPTING A KID (that just so happens to be an elephant). we get 2 npc side characters, the Paige twins, who know luke from the NSB days and theyre the funniest faceless npcs ive ever seen in a card ever. we get the trope of oH NO, THERE WAS ONLY ONE BED! and then luke subsequently fuckin nerfs himself and doesnt take the oppurtunity (valid, respect women, but PLEASE DUDE, COME ON!!). we get the most heartwrenching scene on the planet when luke and mc have to say goodbye to their ELEPHANT SON. and then we fuckin get an action movie shoot out??? complete with the angst consequences?? WE GET MC KABEDON-ING LUKE!!!!!!

//wheezing. everything in this fucking card is my favorite part of this fucking card. theres fluff, theres comedy, theres excitement, theres sadness, theres a happy ending.

this card also is a great card that shows off a lovely picture of character, but here, it's not luke. like dont get me wrong, hes fantastic in this card. but everything we learn about luke here is stuff we know already. this card is good at showing off mc.

and it does this really well. it highlights what shes scared of, what she wants, and what she holds dear to her heart.

like, idk, now im going more on vibes here than anything that can be surmised from the story directly, but this card rlly feels...holistic. heres a full story jam packed with everything i love, filled to the brim with genuine character moments for luke and mc, and just such a lovely picture of their relationship:

filled with idyllic moments and dark uncertainties but at the end of the day, theyre both making their best effort to ensure each other's happiness, as their own happiness is entwined with the joy of the other.

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aaaaand thats a wrap! this got very long kBKJSBKFJ i have a lot of feelings about luke 24/7....

#tears of themis #luke pearce #tot luke #asks #xia yan

[technowoah]

if you're taking asks for the prompts, can you do 11 and 17 from the angst list with george but have a fluffy ending? she/her pronouns pls

I Can Make It Right

SHSJS I HAVE SO MUCH ANGST IN MY INBOX YALL!

Thanks for the request babe! The way it came out was gender neutral i dont think I user she/her, but it still works trust me!

George x reader imagine (established)

11) "It's not important apparently"

17) "You already made me feel like shit so might as well finish me off"

⚠︎ angst with happy ending, unresolved issue but they're gonna fix it dont worry 😌, angry George, swearing

*** = flashback

Masterlist

You had stood infront of your bathroom mirror finishing up your makeup for the night. Your hair was already done and you had a nice outfit on, not to fancy and not too comfortable. While listening to a playlist George had made for you, you had put down the brushes you were using. It didnt really matter if you cleaned up your makeup that was littered all over the sink right now, but right now you were feeling good.

Today was your and George's 3rd year anniversary and you couldn't be happier about it. Today you two were going to dinner and doing something else which was supposed to be a surprise for you. It was a night on the town.

George and you met 4 years ago actually. You two started out as acquaintances, the slowly grew into friends and then one day he asked you to join him to dinner. At first you were oblivious to his actions, thinking he was just being a good friend, but turns out the more dates you two went on the more you caught on. He officially asked you to be his girlfriend 3 years ago today.

His friends keep on pressuring George to propose already, they think it's been long enough. The only thing close to marriage is a promise ring. He put the ring on your finger as a promise that one day he would marry you, everytime you doubt that he will propose you turn your attention to the cute ring on your finger.

You had turned off the bedroom lights and sat on your bed finally relaxing after struggling to find a decent enough outfit for tonight. George said that he was going to pick you up around 6:00 and now it is 5:47 so you had some time to spare.

You had found yourself scrolling through tiktok because you had nothing else better to do at this moment. It was a guilty pleasure of yours even though you and george both joked around about hating tiktok.

Time began to tick away so you had checked the clock on your phone which said 5:57 pm. You had grabbed shoes that you set up against your bed, slipped them on and grabbed all of your belongings for the night. You stationed yourself in the living room waiting till George came to the door.

Nervousness always came up before a date, it was the anticipation actually. You were excited and nervous about the date as you always were, but today for you was special. It was three years worth of beautiful love. You remembered the time he first said I love you too, it was just like it was yesterday.

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"Hey y/n." George looked towards you. You both were sitting on a plaid, plush blanket with a brown woven basket ontop in between you two. It was just like the movies and that why you cringed because of how cheesy it was when George led you to it.

It was sweet, it was extremely sweet and you loved these dates that George always brung you too. You always felt special when you are sitting next to him.

You responded to George. "Yeah Gogy?" You laughed at the use of his nickname.

"Im trying to be serious right now and you call me Gogy." George smiled and shook his head. "Anyways, you know I love you, right?"

"Of course I do-"

"No I love you. I mean. I'm in love with you." George reached to rest his hand ontop of yours and repeated himself. "I'm in live with you y/n."

You wasted no time answering. "Im in love with you too."

***

6:03

George didnt show up yet, but there was no sweat. He was only 3 minutes late, maybe he ran into traffick. Your stomach was rumbling, but you didnt want to eat yet since you two we're planning to go to dinner. Patience is key, and it wasnt like he wasn't late before.

6:10

You started to get worried, it's been 10 minutes and still no sign of your boyfriend. You had gotton up several times to check outside of your door only to be met with no one. Your mind was jumping to conclusions about if he forgot your anniversary, but you shut those thoughts out for the time being.

6:19

Okay this is getting out of hand. You brung out our phone and began to text George, you couldn't believe that you had waited this long before texting the man.

Where are you? Ive been waiting for 29 minutes?!

[Sent: 6:20pm]

George what are you doing?

[Sent: 6:20pm]

You awaited his text message with your phone faced up on the coffee table infront of you. You didn't want to believe that George woukd forget, or overslept, but that was becoming truth the more minutes passed by with no call or text.

6:30

Calling him was useless, because he didn't answer. He didn't hang up on you he just wasn't picking up the phone, like he turned it off. You started to get worried if something happened to him, if he was in a situation where he couldn't call or text you. You wondered if he was safe at home and not out in the middle of the street.

In a flash all your worries subsided when your phone lit up with a notification.

ThisIsNotGeorgeNotFound is live:

Im Playing golf with my friends

That son of a bitch. Pissed off was an understatement, you were fuming. How could he end up streaming at home when you had constantly reminded him about this day, he knew damn well about this day too. How could he?

You ended up grabbing a jacket and your purse and ended up driving to George's place. It seemed like he was mocking you in a way, he knew you had notifications on for Twitch. You loved to support him and his career, but this was making a fool out of yourself.

Your hand tightly gripped the steering wheel as you tried not to run every red light you cane across. You finally came across George's home, you found a place to park and quickly got out of your car and sped walked your way to George's residence. Finally making up to George's door you knocked harshly on the door probably making more noise than what you intended too. You continuously banged on his door until you got fed up.

Remembering that George had given you a key to his house you dig through your purse to get your set of keys out anr unlock his door. You stomped inside his house and closed the door behind you.

"GEORGE! GEORGE!" You yelled through the house. You were being reckless and annoying, but you didnt care at this point you were fuming and needed to tell George how you feel.

You had made your way to George's recording room where he was talking to his friends on discord. George looked towards you in shock clearly not hearing the sounds you were making throughout his house.

"Y/N?!" George yelled and muted his microphone.

"What the hell are you doing?" You exclaimed back.

"Im streaming thats what Im doing!" George sassed back at you, not paying attention to his screen and the chat.

"Dont get smart with me. End the stream."

"What?! No!"

"You heard me, we need to talk." You crossed your arms across your chest. Your heart was beating too fast for your liking and you tried to calm yourself down, but George's comments were getting to you.

George was about to unmute himself and get back to the game. "No we dont-"

"GEORGE END THE FUCKING STREAM! This is embarrassing! Talk to me cause you have some explaining to do." You snapped at him.

A silence tell upon you two and he glared at you before turning to his stream and closing it out.

"Okay guys! Go watch the other boys streams I need to go now! Bye!" George quickly ended and turned off everything.

He turned around to you still sitting in his chair. "What? What do you want?"

"Do you know what today is?" You asked.

"April 30th." George answered bluntly.

"Thats all you have to say?" You asked in shock. "It's our anniversary dickhead!"

"I fucking know that." George said.

"You do? So why did you start streaming and we had dinner plans?!"

"I told you we were streaming! You weren't listening to me!" George stood up from his chair when he said that.

"When the fuck did you tell me this?!"

"A couple days ago! You didn't listen!"

"But you knew that was our anniversary! And we made dinnerr plans-"

George yelled over you. "A month ago! We made those plans a month ago so excuse me for forgetting!"

"So all these other years you remembered our anniversary and went out of your fucking way to cancel other plans around that date, but today you didnt because why?!" Tears were threatening to fall down you cheeks, but you wouldnt let him see you like that.

"Because I planned this already with the boys! And AGAIN you werent listening to me when I said that-"

"There were several other times that you could've told me too! But you didn't!" You sniffed trying to keep the frustrated tears inside.

"I already planned this and I cant go back on my promise-"

"But you can with me?!" You yelled and George stopped talking. He's just studying your face at this point and you hated this silence.

"Its not important apparently." You said while walking out of the recording room.

"You're being a bitch." He mumbled.

"Excuse me?! That is so disrespectful!" You spun around yelled at him.

"You already made me feel like shit so might as well finish me off." George said in a annoying tone.

"Yeah you should feel like shit! I feel like shit too so-!" You threw your hands up in exasperation and stormed out the room. You had made it to the door before George called out to you again.

"Y/n! Y/n! Please!"

"No! Just..." You paused before opening the door and ushering your way out. "Call me when you get your shit together.

You were currently curled up on your couch eating leftovers that you had in the refrigerator. That had satisfied your hunger for the night because the dinner was canceled that night. Your anger and sadness had subsided and you were only left with an unusual feeling in your heart. Your relationship felt incomplete, this fight felt incomplete. You didnt break up with him, but you were waiting for closure.

The TV was the only light in the room. It illuminated what it wanted to, you didnt care if it was too dark. Usually you would be cuddled up with George at this ungoldy hour, but you weren't and that made you tear up.

Your sadness was still there, your anger towards George turned into pity. You were sad about the actions he took, but somewhere in your heart you could forgive him. You could forgive and move on if he would come to you.

Speaking of, you had a knock on your door. You didn't have the strength to get up, but you did. Shuffling your way to the door you sluggishly opened it to find George standing there with his hands in his hoodie. The person you wanted to see, but at the same time you wanted to slam that door in his face.

"Hey." George spoke and you gave him a small smile, nothing more.

You turned around to find your seat back on the couch where you were comfortable, but also giving him a silent invitation to come inside. You had sat down on the couch not paying attention to George, but you knew he closed the door, took off his shoes by yours, and put his keys on the table by the door like he always did. It was like a routine to him.

George ended up awkwardly standing beside the couch as you ignored him.

"You know, if you didnt open the door I would've used my keys like you did." George tried to spark up a conversation, but you only hummed in response. You were scared that if you spoke, you would cry.

George ended up making his way to the couch sitting beside you and pulling you into his embrace. Your head was on his chest and you began to sob. You missed this it's only been a few hours, but you had felt that in those few hours you had lost everything. You continued to sob into his hoodie as he rubbed your back and shushed you, whispering sweet nothings into the air only for you to hear.

"Im here, and Im sorry. Im so fucking sorry that I did this to you and I only hope that you can forgive me." George said, his voice cracking a little when he said that. You kept crying.

That's what you wanted to hear all along, that's what you needed. You could forgive him in due time, you always will because you love him, you will always love him. You both can always make it right.

#mcyt blurb #mcyt angst #mcyt fluff #mcyt x reader #mcyt headcanons #technowoah! #george not found x reader #georgenotfound x oc #georgenotfound x y/n #georgenotfound x reader #georgenotfound fluff #gnf x reader #mcyt imagine #mcyt x y/n #mcyt x you #mcyt fanfiction #gender nuetral reader #mcyt imagines #im so slow on requests #i hope you like this #gnf fanfiction #georgenotfound imagine #im behind #dream team x y/n #dream team x reader #feral boys x reader #feral boys imagines #dream smp x reader #mcyt hc #writing prompt

[prettyoddfever]

February & March 2008

This includes part of early April too, but everything from the European tour this season is in another post.

Here’s a playlist with some videos & interviews from this spring and here’s a tag for pictures.

SOME EVENTS IN FEBRUARY

The video for Nine in the Afternoon premiered on February 10th on mtv.com. The Grammys were also that night. The next day the band did a webcam appearance on TRL and began filming the video for That Green Gentleman.

They were at Fuse on February 20th. (Their episode on The Sauce aired that day, but the SURS interview wasn’t shown until February 27th). 

PATD did a private show for their new Northern Downpour fan club on February 23rd and then left for their European tour. A lot of the American content this spring was filmed in February before the band went on tour.

SOME EVENTS IN MARCH

Each month Channel V Asia picked a different artist for 3 categories called “The Chosen One,” “The Spotlight,” and “Singled Out.” Panic at the Disco was the “Spotlight” band for March.

Here’s more about the spring break performances.

MTV leaked Pretty. Odd. on March 18th... here’s more about the Eight Days of Panic promo + the other videos with the red curtain backdrop.

The AOL Sessions stuff didn’t air until April, but it fits better in this post.

MARCH 24-25: DUNE BUGGIES + JIMMY KIMMEL

Panic at the Disco had some dune buggy adventures in the Nevada desert. The dune buggy rental place took a lot of pictures, so we knew that definitely happened on March 24th. It turns out that the photoshoot was for Q Magazine. That article talked about going with the band to their Jimmy Kimmel performance the day after the dune buggy stuff (but it said that performance was on March 27th, so the article was about as accurate as usual).

The Jimmy Kimmel performance was definitely filmed on March 25th. Tickets for the taping were free if you were over 16. The band played Nine in the Afternoon, That Green Gentleman, and IWSNT (but that song wasn’t shown in full on the actual show). Here’s an excerpt from the Q Magazine article:

“Backstage, the band choose their uniforms – Urie picks out a paisley shirt and waistcoat, Ross beige cords and cowboy neckerchief. Only Walker refuses to go along with the stage theatrics, instead preferring to wear a t-shirt and hoodie over his jeans. ‘We love dressing up,’ says Urie.”

Here are some cute moments from the soundcheck.

So the band was in LA for the Jimmy Kimmel taping on the day their record released. (update: the release date was definitely March 25th for the USA. And I know some fans in Ireland & the UK got their cds slightly earlier, but that wasn’t too big of a deal since we’d heard everything with the Leak anyways). Then the band did a signing at Hot Topic in Hollywood on March 26th, but cameras weren’t allowed.

SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE

Panic at the Disco performed on SNL on April 5th. They were in NYC for a few days for this, since their rehearsal was on April 3rd. Here’s a tag for pictures.

MTV ARTIST OF THE MONTH & WEEK

Panic at the Disco was MTV Latin America’s Artist of the Month in March (some interviews are in the playlist I mentioned at the top). Those videos were recorded in February at the same time this one was done. 

PATD was MTV’s Artist of the Week on April 7th (which was the week that the Honda Civic Tour started). Here’s more about the American Valley video.

RANDOM STUFF

Brendon brought up Shane in several interviews when the Pretty. Odd. era started until it seemed like someone maybe told him to shut up about his best friend and focus on the band’s new album ha. It was nice to see that he had someone that important in his life, though.

The majority of the early Pretty. Odd. photoshoots were done in late 2007 before the new era even started (Ryan didn’t have his British rocker haircut yet in those pictures).

Tom Conrad wrote on his blog on February 5th: “jon walker, the new album is huge and the video is even bigger. im stoked.”

Pete was getting a little obvious with how he managed to work PATD into sentences in early 2008 lol… I didn’t keep notes of them all but he was definitely hyping them.

some fans were working on a scrapbook & compilation of fan videos for Bden’s birthday. There were so many fan presents in 2007 that at this point I just ignored most stuff... so I’m only mentioning that the group presents were still a *thing.* 

here are some pictures from the Billboard photoshoot.

Panic had that Meebo IM thing on their myspace and you could enter any name for yourself… so of course random people were pretending to be a band member. Some fans pretended to be Adam and then introduced their own friends (or themselves) as one of the four band members. There was even someone pretending to be Brendon’s ex-girlfriend from 2006 lol (not Audrey). Brendon & Ryan had already made it very clear that there was no place online where they were actually communicating with fans. Pretty soon the band’s myspace was updated to say “PLEASE DO NOT BELIEVE ANYONE CLAIMING TO BE A BAND MEMBER IN THE ROOM. WE WILL ANNOUNCE IN THIS SPACE IF AND WHEN ANYONE FROM THE BAND WILL BE IN THE ROOM. HAVE FUN.” And some people interpreted that to mean that all of the fake band members who had been announced by fake Adams were real haha ughhh.

The guys did make a real appearance on VMTV on 2/19 though.

Brent’s brother Blake posted an update that said “Brent won the law suit against his former mates, has begun school and recently bought a new guitar to summon his creative wits. It looks like what goes around comes around. Thanks to all of you who have been keeping up with all of the hullabaloo.” The band had said they settled things with Brent out of court so I had no idea what Blake was talking about... and the “hullabaloo” had died down 1.5 years ago so whatever. Brent had been a dead weight and a liability – the band was so much better without him (which Ryan & Spencer had repeatedly emphasized).

fans could submit questions for a lot of different upcoming interviews with the band.

at this point I never wanted to hear about the missing exclamation mark or the scrapped cabin album again.

Fuse did a PATD marathon on March 22nd that included Live in Denver, the making of NITA, and The Making of Pretty. Odd. Those versions were edited down to fit a time slot, though.

There were newer fans now who didn’t know where some of the older P!ATD pictures were from. It was so weird to watch them try to come to an agreement about what they guessed was happening in the picture or what event it was from.

MTV did a contest where we could chop up the NITA music video and redo the visuals to make our own video... except the audio stayed the same so it wasn’t very fun.

There was an ebay auction for a chance to be part of the band’s crew for the day. The money went to charity and I saved a note that someone paid like $1,275... hope they had fun with that then.

Ryan told Billboard “You have to stand by the things you put your name on. I might do some clothing design with my girlfriend at some point, but it’s still mostly an idea.”

Jessica Alba’s lip sync video was posted shortly before March 25th.

The whole group was trying to push the image of “we’re all equal yay” in interviews, but Ryan & Jon definitely seemed like they were running the band. Some people were obsessed with the Rywalk bromance. Others were sick of it. I was mostly just happy for Ryan & Jon that they had such a strong friendship.

The media loved to focus on Ryan as the lyricist in the Fever era, but now they were trying to spin things into some kind of Lennon/McCartney partnership... except they weren’t always sure if they should focus on Ryan/Jon for the writing or Ryan/Brendon for the singing. Other times they just gave up and acted like Ryan was responsible for most of Pretty. Odd.

The band’s site launched with their new look right after the album came out. It was pretty, but it was also clear that this was a very different band than the one we knew in mid-2006. Jon had done a good job of making the massive Fever-era fandom feel connected with the band. Those personal pictures & journal entries were gone now. The band was on FOE  this spring, but that definitely wasn’t the same. Everything PATD posted online now sounded like it came from someone who worked for the band. Panic at the Disco was starting to feel like more of a distant, corporate product than ever... which was weird because that was supposed to be what this era wasn’t about.

A BIT ABOUT THE UNDERLYING TENSION IN THE BAND THIS SPRING

Some of us had started noticing in August 2007 that Ryan & Jon seemed kind of annoyed with Brendon sometimes and were rather dismissive towards him. I hoped that maybe they were having a weird month. Other fans found ways to excuse the tension as well, but by spring 2008 it had become an undeniable trend. Sometimes Ryan and Jon were kind of condescending, wrote Brendon off quickly, talked over him or tried to shut him up, acted exasperated when he talked, or treated him like an irritating little brother. More & more fans were noticing it and bringing it up (and this was even before the band started touring and fans who saw them irl would come online to ask if anyone else had noticed the way that Brendon was being treated, because maybe/hopefully it was just a misunderstanding or an off day). Most of us didn’t think anything bad about Ryan & Jon btw!! We just cared about all four guys equally and were confused. 

It was hard to watch how painfully eager Brendon was to make everyone laugh and to get approval from Ryan & Jon (ok mostly Ryan). He seemed the way that he used to be when he knew someone was annoyed by him and he was trying to get back on their good side and not rock the boat… except that was like his general personality now. I know some people who actually left the fandom this spring because they couldn’t stand the hints of underlying tension. There was also some small speculation even in spring 2008 that maybe Brendon might eventually leave the band to start his own solo project. But there were also some newer fans who couldn’t read the guys very well so they didn’t notice the shift even when it was pointed out to them (maybe you need to watch years of interviews & fan stories evolve over time in order to have a solid sense of the change idk). They seemed to think that everyone in the band looked super happy in video interviews so therefore everything was perfect. 

I’m def not saying that the guys weren’t getting along overall! There were absolutely moments when Jon & Brendon joked around again, and Ryan still seemed fond of Brendon... especially when Ryan was hanging out with Brendon alone. The band definitely looked like they were having a lot of fun this spring overall (especially onstage). They also did a great job presenting a united front in interviews. I’m only saying that there was a weird undercurrent at times… and fans had been noticing it since August 2007. 

Ryan and Jon seemed to want Panic at the Disco to be taken more seriously now (especially Jon after he’d been able to redirect the band more towards what he personally wanted out of his career). I tried to rationalize their behavior this season by saying that maybe they wanted to keep Brendon in line so the band could have a more mature image. There were definitely a lot of people close to the band who thought Brendon was immature. Even the band’s varying crew members in 2006-2007 had been rumored to say that Brendon was too energetic and acted like an annoying little kid. Maybe Ryan & Jon were only trying to distance themselves from that sort of opinion idk. I tried to understand & not think less of any band member.

Some fans were also upset that Jon & Ryan sometimes sounded like they were looking down in a condescending way on the songs that Brendon wrote. Jon forgot the name of one of Brendon’s songs during the NME interview and Ryan made it clear during the AT&T Blue Room performance that he didn’t even know the chords for Brendon’s song (yet Ryan got really strict about making sure that Brendon knew how to perform every bit of Ryan’s songs perfectly). People also pointed out that the way that Ryan & Jon introduced Folkin’ Around occasionally sounded like they were humoring a child or like the song was a little beneath them (or at the very least they distanced their own image from Brendon’s writing). I’m only trying to recap the kinds of things people talked about btw... these aren’t necessarily my own thoughts.

Ryan & Jon both said in interviews that they “allowed” Brendon to have his “little songs” on the album and Brendon also said that they “let him” contribute. I found ways to excuse most of that this spring, but I also understood why some fans were dismayed that it looked like Ryan & Jon thought that Brendon’s contributions to the band were somehow lesser… as though they were humoring him by letting him participate. That carried over to group interviews as well. Brendon did seem like he was monitoring himself, trying extra hard to be likable, and sensing for approval from the rest of the band sometimes this spring. Some fans were concerned that Brendon’s self-esteem was lower than normal this season, that he seemed uncertain about his position in the band, and that he was back to just being happy that he was even allowed to be part of the club. 

I agreed that Brendon was trying extra hard this season and seemed overly eager to satisfy everyone & be good enough again. I saved this comment from one fan in May because it was exactly what I thought and what so many other people had been trying to phrase, but she worded it so perfectly (she spent an hour at the TRL taping squished into Brendon & Ryan, so she was talking about what she’d observed between them when they were off camera):

It’s so obvious that Brendon completely adores Ryan. I’m not even talking about anything sexual. Just as friends, Brendon really looks up to Ryan and sort of needs approval from him. Even though he could obviously do it all on his own, he still needs that little bit of a confidence boost from Ryan. Someone he cares about to tell him that he’s doing good.

It had been that way even in the Fever era... and in spring 2008 Brendon still seemed like he was looking to Ryan to confirm that he wasn’t too annoying or what he said/did was acceptable. There was a history of Brendon being on edge until Ryan was happy with him (at which point Brendon would become positively giddy – here’s one example). So Brendon seemed extra happy in the moments when he did have Ryan’s approval (the interviews with just the two of them showed that the most). 

I’m not saying that the band wasn’t getting along overall in 2008. I’m saying that there were some weird undercurrents at times... that’s all. Every season was different too – this is just early 2008.

STUFF THAT’S ABOUT THE ALBUM

FBR’s webstore had a special edition of Pretty. Odd. that was green instead of purple. You could also get the deluxe edition that had the cd, vinyl, jigsaw puzzle, and a dvd with Shane’s documentary about The Making of Pretty. Odd. (here’s that video). Here’s more about the deluxe edition: one, two, three. The vinyl record that was in the deluxe edition was the only one available during the Pretty. Odd. era. The other record didn't exist until 2009.

There were a LOT of different promo bonus gifts going on for Pretty. Odd. preorders. Like some place in Australia had a deck of PATD playing cards, Newbury Comics and FYE had a signed booklet, there were various t-shirts & stickers, and some fans even got their wristbands to the Jimmy Kimmel taping through a local preorder. The itunes preorder came with a Mad as Rabbits video that Shane did (Shane as in Brendon’s Shane... not Shane Drake who did the Nine in the Afternoon video).

the new cd still had the exclamation mark in the band’s name when you imported it to itunes lol. 

Ryan said that the Japanese cd got bonus stuff because that album cost more.

The album had some underlined words in the lyrics that spelled out “so, for you, you don’t, you do, back to, wouldn’t, the same, Capricorn, to be with (you).”

some fans were upset that the band didn’t thank their fans in the album notes.

Jon said in an AbsolutePunk interview on March 25: “Today is the first day some of our family members have heard the CD and they’ve been calling me and saying they like it a lot. It’s fun to see all that work finally paid off.”

Pretty. Odd. was #2 in the US at the start of April and actually did quite well on the charts at first! It just didn’t stay up there for too long.

This is from Billboard later that spring:

The guitarist says that Panic is still stoked -- and surprised -- about the early showing of Pretty. Odd., which debuted at No. 2 on the Billboard 200 after its March 25 release. ‘We didn't really know what to expect from this,’ Ross notes. ‘There was this joke, 'cause we were No. 2 here and some other countries, and we weren't No. 1 anywhere the first week. So it was like, 'Always the bridesmaid, never the bride... But we didn't expect to even be that high, anyway. That stuff is far beyond anything we thought we'd have as far as success, so we just kind of have fun with it.”

THE MAIN POST

[onlysmagic]

🌌  ———  MEET CORDELIA .

hey hey hey! it's me, honey, back again. i've miss everyone so very much. how have you all been? good, i hope. for the time being, i'll be playing sweet cordy again ( nothing new  . . . nothing's changed . . . still the same old cordy! ) but noah could be coming back soon ~* and maybe some new muses *~ ooOOoOOh. as always, hit the heart for a new old friend and i'll im you to get the party started!

cordy’s stats 🌌 cordy’s wanted connections 🌌 cordy’s pinboard

thanks again for an incredibly warm welcome back! i've missed you all terribly!

🌌 —  THE STATS .

FULL   NAME *    . CORDELIA AMI WANTANABE . NICKNAMES *    CODY   ,   DELIA   ,   CORDY . AGE *    TWENTY-FOUR . DATE   OF   BIRTH *    APRIL   3RD   1996 . STAR   SIGN *    ARIES . HOME   TOWN *    NARA   ,   KANSAI   ,   JAPAN . GENDER *    CIS FEMALE . SEXUALITY *    (   CLOSETED   )   BISEXUAL . NATIONALITY *    JAPANESE . ETHNICITY *    ASIAN . FAMILY *    WANTANABE   TSUYOSHI   (   FATHER   ,   MAINTENANCE   WORKER   -   JAPANESE   )   &   WANTANABE   AMI   -   FORMERLY   ITO   (   MOTHER   ,   FLORIST   -   JAPANESE-CANADIAN   ) . OCCUPATION *   UNEMPLOYED . PLAYLIST *   COMING   SOON .  QUIRK *    STELLARKINESIS   ,   OR   THE   ABILITY   TO   CREATE   AND / OR   MANIPULATE   STARS   AND   USE   THEIR   STELLAR   ENERGY  . 

🌌 —  THE STORY.

           ONCE UPON A TIME , IN A FAR-AWAY LAND known as nara , an ordinary girl is born to two parents who love her ( but cannot seem to love themselves. ) they name her cordelia and, from a young age, there was always something a little . . . off about their sweet girl. now, many parents would claim that their child glows & a light seems to follow them wherever they wander, but the wantanabes would be right.

           it isn’t until the young girl turns 10 that she realizes that no, not everyone can bend space and time to their own whim. not everyone sees the universe as a malleable thing, able to be crafted in one’s own image should they wish. in fact, she is the only one she knows who can do anything of the sort. okay, her dad has superhuman-like strength ( in that he can help her open bottles and things of that sort ) and her mother is incredibly quick-witted, but neither of them can conjure hot balls of gas and light whenever they wish. cordelia can. it’s her mother’s idea to keep it a secret, out of fear that someone could find the young girl and exile her for being so . . . different. delia doesn’t see the harm in it. what’s the worst that can happen? at that age, all she tended to do was bring a bit of starlight to the light-polluted nara and its surrounding areas. it wasn’t like she was dangerous in her mind, it’s all fun and games . . . until someone gets hurt.

           and who should get hurt? why, her beloved parents, of course. a freak accident ( a rush, a blur, not knowing where her powers could take her. ) cordelia was swallowed whole by the guilt of seeing both of her parents in the hospital, doctors whizzing around them while not knowing what in the world had gotten to either of them. they couldn’t for the life of them guess; most thought lightning had something to do with it. if they only knew it was the little girl sitting at each of their bedsides, hot tears streaming down her cheeks.

           they both eventually got to go home -- becoming known around nara as the lightning couple, due to the belief that they both were struck by lightning, despite the outlandish odds -- but cordy knew that she wouldn’t be able to go home with them. she would never forgive herself if something worse ( and there wasn’t much worse that could happen to either of them ) so she found hosu and ran, ran, ran. of course, when she arrived safe and sound, she wrote to her parents, but she’s broken inside knowing that, well, it has to be this way. it’s breaking them all, but it has to be this way.

🌌 —  WELCOME TO THE ISLE.

          THE BROWN-EYED girl shows up on the island shaking. she'd never done anything so brash before, yet, here she was, so many miles away from everything she'd ever known and with nothing to her name . . . nothing other than that stupid quirk she'd been all but cursed with.

          stupid stars. stupid light. stupid gas. stupid universe.

          . . . so what if she's not exactly eloquent, she's too angry to care. what a wicked way to go, but cordelia figures it's better her than her parents. they do forgive her, eventually, but it takes quite a few conversations that last hours upon hours and some good, old fashion groveling. afraid of growing so close to someone that she can hurt them again, cordelia becomes a master of being seen and not heard; it's easier to not be missed if no one really knows you, after all.

          but it's incredibly lonely. living by a rule that an eleven-year-old version of herself created is becoming harder and harder with each passing day, especially when she starts having to lie to mom and dad when they ask about her friends ( cordelia never did like that sad sounding sigh that would always come across the line. ) so she creates these fanciful friends and their fantastic adventures across the isle. they all have their own quirks but they learn to live with them, learn to love them and, by extension, themselves. yeah, it sounds something out of a coming-of-age film that cordelia would probably love . . . but what her parents don't know won't hurt them.

          but it'll end up hurting cordelia. karma's been chasing not too far behind with its sight set on her and, one day, it finally gets her. a horrible accident, her mother exclaimed, so much blood and just -- what, what is going on? cordelia's heart was in her throat and she wanted to scream until she broke the sound barrier. she nearly went supernova ( quite literally, too. it took everything in her not to explode right then and there. ) her father was hit by some punk drunk driver and was announced dead on arrival . . . what? why would the universe do such a thing? why would those stupid stars that everyone swore by decide to take such an inherently good person away?

          it wasn't fair. cordelia fell into a deep deep depression. the stars didn't shine nearly as brightly as they once did ( there was no one to create new galaxies for anymore. ) every night, she'd watch the stars she'd created for her father, her mother, the old friends she knew in nara, die slow deaths. soon, there would be nothing left in the world with her namesake on it and cordelia, all at once, found that to be a crying shame. call it her father's optimism finally rubbing off on her, or just simply finding it hard to keep lying to her now-widowed mother.

          she was going to find some friends . . . anyhow, anyway. if karma, the stars, the government, anything or everything was keeping an eye on her, she’d at least give them a worthwhile show.

🌌 —  PERSONALITY TRAITS.

POSITIVE : appropriate, brave, balanced, sugary, polite, organized, practical.

NEGATIVE : co-dependent, stuffy, standoffish, aloof, lethal, anti-social, incapable, dishonest.

LABEL : the doll . . . beautiful but fragile / untouchable.

EASTERN ZODIAC SIGN : THE RAT . . . a clever, quick thinker; successful, but content with living a quiet and peaceful life.

WESTERN ZODIAC SIGN : ARIES / THE RAM . . . a fire sign.  a passionate, motivated, and confident leader who builds community with their cheerful disposition and relentless determination. uncomplicated and direct in their approach, they often get frustrated by exhaustive details and unnecessary nuances.

PERSONALITY TYPE : INTJ / THE ARCHITECT . . . highly analytical, creative and logical.

🌌 —  THE CONNECTION IDEAS .

AURIGA / THE CHARIOTEER  . . . you and cordelia live in the same building. you have the ( un ) fortune of living above her, and in the middle of the night, you awaken to so many odd noises. when you look outside your window, you see her in the middle of the field painting the night sky with thousands of sparkling lights. stars . . . and so many of them! maybe you like them, maybe you ask her to spell out a swear word in the sky, or maybe you just want to sleep.

CASSIOPEIA - THE QUEEN  . . . cordelia rubs you the wrong way. that emotionless void of a girl has gotten on your last nerve and you are going to show her. how? you're not sure yet, but she will rue the day she ever crossed you. wait, what do you mean she's not that bad? that's not fair! you're supposed to hate her . . . wait, did you ever?

CYGNUS - THE SWAN . . . you fell for a vision. no, literally, a vision. they say you only dream up faces you've seen in real life, and for some reason, cordelia is that face. maybe she visits you in dreams and messes with your head, or maybe she's that serial killer who runs after you down the never-ending hallway with a knife in her hand and a smile on her face. how do you deal with seeing her . . . all the time?

GEMINI - THE TWINS . . . something happened and you were both in a tough situation, with cordelia being in the tougher of the two. you two strike a deal to help one another, but you tell her that she owes you. whatever she owes you, that's the deal ( please don't be weird about it tho ) and, for as long as you'd like, she can run around and do your errands for you, tell everyone your blunt opinion of them ( she's pretty good at that ) or just have to listen to you sing the entire aladdin soundtrack over and over again at 3 am. your call.

LYRA - THE LYRE . . . cordelia's never been the type to truly understand people. she always thought that it was because she was so sheltered growing up, really choosing to spend her time with her parents and a select friends from school. however, as she's grown up, she's come to learn that she does want to understand people . . . she just can't. not for trying, but she's too blunt, too sardonic, too -- cordelia. which is why she enlists your help. you're the golden child and she'd like a little bit of that sparkle to shine on her, thank you very much.

ORION - THE HUNTER . . . call it fate, destiny, whatever you will -- something brought you and cordelia together for a fun summer romance. however, now that summer’s melted into fall and everything is getting colder, so did your romance. you broke it off in a way that you thought was amicable but cordelia would be quick to disagree with. she doesn’t want you back, per say, but she does wish that she could have had better closure than a single text message . . . then again, she wasn’t exactly an angel in the relationship either. after she drops off one of your hoodies, you find a crumpled up note stuck in the pocket of someone confessing their love for cordelia . . . during your relationship. seriously, it includes your name and everything! do you confront her, or do you try and get the pair together?

URSA MAJOR - THE BIG BEAR . . . she didn’t mean to, honestly !! you just so happened to be hit by that star and, oh god, it’s like the entire ordeal with her parents all over again. only except she doesn’t really know you. every day during your stint in the hospital, you receive a bouquet of beautiful flowers -- maybe they’re your favorites or maybe they’re the type you cannot stand -- with the same note. i’m sorry. you figure it isn’t from anyone you know; it can’t be, can it? on your second-to-last day, the apologetic message is accompanied by an address and a little, scratchy handwritten note asking to meet someone there. against your better judgement you do, but no one is there . . . until you look up in the sky to see an incredible array of different-colored gasses ,you’ve never seen a nebula up close, save for photographs. a tall, black-haired girl walks beside you and begins to explain that she did not mean to hit you with a shooting star. she was simply practicing but her aim isn’t where it needs to be. do you believe this girl, or run as far as you can away from her?

#quirks:intro

[preciouslilyaesthetics]

Things to know

Only accepting US/Canada based commissions atm❤️🙏

(1 head per slot, you can select 2 slots max. So if you wanted to commission two doll heads, you take two slots. 4-7 slots per month, depending on what I feel like taking for a month. )

Slots

These are estimated date slots. I won't begin new orders until I finish the all orders. I'll will message you when you can ship/make payments. ❤️

April/ May Slots:

1. Bjd_shiningsoul head + hands💲

2. Bjd_shiningsoul ⛔️

3. Dxgirly_likes_bjds ⛔️

4. Dxgirly_likes_bjds ⛔️

5. JessicaNorris💲2 heads + hands

6. Moriyarns 💲🚚

7. Bittersweet.bjd 💲⭐️

8. Zomb.doll 💲⭐️

9. Twistedwonderlanddolls 💲⭐️

10. Jemjoops 💲⭐️

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Received = 🚚

Paid = 💲

Not paid yet = ⛔️

Sealed/ready for paint = 🧴

Working mode = 🖌️

Faceup form received = 📃

Priority, paid sooner = ⭐️

On Extended Break. Reopen April, going thru waitlist first.

COMPLETED

1. Zianma Jan 30th 2021✨

2. CSL (3 heads Feb 4th 2021✨

3. Ink.wolff Mar 3rd 2021✨

4. Atomic.heartz Feb 2021✨

5. dxgirly_likes_bjds April 15th 2021✨

6. Melonpan.market April 16th 2021✨

7. Dollietokipoke April 22th 2021

8. 13_spoopy_lane April 30th 2021

9. Bjdkawaii May 6th 2021✨ (1 out of 3)

10. Lolitaari_bjd (2 heads) ✨ May 12th 2021

11. Kitty_mochiii popovy little Owl May 20th 2021

12. Sugarlacehearts May 31st 2021

13.Strowberrydolls June 3rd 2021 ✨

14.Harucasting 2 heads June 8th 2021✨

15.iguenn nose chip June 7th 2022 ✨

16.Deadflowerflorist June 12th 2021 ✨

17. Bjdkawaii head 2 June 15th 2021 ✨

18. CAY Oliver head June 22nd 2021 ✨

19.CSL head June 27th 2021 ✨

20.church_of_sagan June 29 2021 ✨

21. CSL Flick July 1st 2021✨

22. CSL Softie kittie July 6th 2021✨

23. Munecaspoupe.. 2 heads

August 3, 2021✨

24. Nights_treasure 3 heads Sept 3, 2021✨

25. Moriyarns 1 head Sept 3, 2021✨ trade 🌺 waiting for it

26. Poppyfleaur Sept 27th 2021✨

27. Furby_o_rama Sept 28th, 2021 ✨

28. Cosmic_Witchling Oct 12th, 2021✨ 2 heads

29. A_dolly_doll_world hands + head Oct 12th, 2021✨

30.lalaloodles 2 heads Oct 16 and 19, 2021 ✨

31.mymyiliana Somi, Kiera,blue Oct 22,2021✨

32.Kandy.doll Ery, Raspberry(3 out of 3)Dec 15, 21✨

33. Pasha full doll Dec 22, 2021✨

34. Bjdkawaii An Jan 6, 2022✨

35. SherryLynn126 two heads Jan 13, 2022✨

36. Puachi Benzon 1 out of 2 Boudi head, Jan 24,2022✨

37. Moriyarns Jan 25, 2022✨

38. Kandy.doll Feb 7, 2022✨

39. Puachi Benzon Feb 8, 2022 ✨

40.Allison Elle + Elf finished Feb 14, 2022✨

41.Maddybear Feb 15, 2022✨

42. Devinepins March 8,2022✨️

43. Vivian Hale March 14, 2022✨️

44. _Life.is.Fragile_ April 12,2022✨️

45.Summercourtcreations April 12,2022✨️

46.dxygirly morae April 17, 2022✨️

47.dxygirly Wind April 18, 2022✨️

48. Bjdkawaii 2 heads April 18, 2022✨️

49. Mimi Aurie April 23, 2022✨️

50. Andrea Millo OLIVER April 25, 2022✨️

51. Martin4451992 May 6,2022✨️

52. Himitsuais May 6, 2022✨️ 4 out of 4

+ 2 pair of hands and feet

53. Cherryblossoms.bjd 2 out of 2 May 18, 2022✨️

54. Furby_o_rama May 21, 2022✨️

55. Belinda May 27, 2022✨️

56. Bjdkawaii May 28,2022✨️

57. Zomb.doll June 4, 2022✨️

58. Bjd_shiningsoul two doll heads Sept 13, 2022✨️

59. Poppyflear Sept 19, 2022✨️

60. Samantha Dillard + hands Sept 20, 2022✨️

61. Allison Sept 24, 2022✨️

62. Jesre12 Oct 17, 2022✨️

63. Krysiscore paid

64. Dxgirly_likes_bjd (2 heads) Nov 4th, 2022✨️

65. Bittersweet.bjd Nov 5, 2022✨️

66. Summercourtcreations part 1 done Nov 10, 2022 part 2 done ✨️

67. Megan Burks two heads Nov 17, 2022✨️

68. Sharkiesdolls Nov 24, 2022 ✨️

69. VivianHale Nov 30, 2022✨️1 out of 2 done

70. Bjdkawaii touch up Dec 1, 2022✨️

71. VivianHale Dec 3, 2022✨️

72. Bjdkawaii Dec 9, 2022✨️ 5 out of 5 heads

How long does it take you to work on a commission?

Takes roughly 2 weeks to a month in a half. If it's longer for any reason (Weather, I do update you. Im always available to reply messages on IG. (Precious_lil_lily)

Prices:

All Head sizes $130 within US (you just pay shipping to me and this covers return shipping) shipping internationally only includes $10 of shipping price, so the rest is owed to me on your end.

Tattoos depending on complexity $5 - $25

Hands/Feet blushing $10

Piercing (included in price)

Eyelashes (included in price)

Shimmer highlight (free) basically its shimmer highlights on the cheek bones, nose, eye area. My special way of applying it.

Faceup Removal (included in price above, not artist choice its $5)

Artist Choice Makeup $72 + shipping to/from(give me a general idea of makeup you like and I'll come up with something)

No body blushing at this time.

Payment accepted via PayPal only as friends and family*

Once you're accepted into a slot, I'll send you my PayPal email and prefer payment upfront by my deadline. If can't make payment slot is given to someone else. Please pay friend and family or cover fee for good and services.

Side notes

I work on resin bjds

Vinyl dolls I don't paint, only at the moment

I don't do any modding

Commissions time could be delayed because of weather/my life, but I'll try my best to keep on schedule

No body blushing for fashion dolls at the moment; alot of work. Maybe someday in the future.

Anime style makeup still new to, so may not accept it or give discount price

If your doll has tiny eyesockets, there may be a chance I cannot install lashes, but I'll try at first before I decide I can't.

[beetlejuicebigbang]

everything you could possibly need to know

there’s a lot to a big bang, and plenty of things that warrant explanation! get your popcorn, this is a decently long post. beetlebabes shippers, you are Absolutely not permitted to participate, so you can skip this post and the popcorn. or have popcorn anyway, i don’t care.

what is a big bang?

a big bang is an event over the course of a certain period of time (for this particular event, about four months) where writers write fics of at least ten thousand words (10k) and artists make some form of art to go along with it. 

ten thousand words? that’s an awful lot.

as someone who has written fifteen thousand words in one day, it’s absolutely doable. im a 3 time nanowrimo participant, and i know the ropes of oa-ing (overachieving). 

to make this absolutely clear - i know someone who can write 5k in an hour. i know people who have written 50k in three days. i know people who do 10k days consistently (im one of them!) and a lot of these people have work, school, families, some, all three. so you can absolutely do 10k in four months. 

if at any point you need to hear that yes, you can do this - im your dude. i pushed my bff, who had never written more than 2k in one day in their life, to do a 10k day. if they can do it in one day, you can do it in four months. (or all in one day! i did my heathers big bang fic that way.)

i will say this multiple times in this post, but let me make this clear: you can start writing the second you submit the signup form. the only real regulation of how fast you write is that you need to have 1k for the artist pairings by february 23rd, and that you need 10k by april 24th. 

im not trying to make you do a 10k day, the point of this is that plenty of people have done it, so you can too. if you want to do it all in one day, by all means, do it, or go slow and steady and casually finish on the 23rd of april. 

how does the event work, exactly?

*cracks knuckles* okay, this’ll take a bit, get your popcorn refill now, if you ate it all during writer encouragement hour.

all signups open on december 1st. all signups run until february 3rd 

you can sign up for more than one thing! i myself will sign up to be just a writer and will end up doing art no matter what, you can sign up as a writer and a beta, an artist and a beta, a writer and an artist, or all three. go nuts! (within reason)

everyone will get both an email and tumblr message after they sign up, so you’ll know if it went through or if your internet sucks.

once writers submit their signup form, go right ahead and start writing!... or don’t! but you’re going to need 1k worth of whatever fic you’re doing done by february 23rd. on the 16th, writer check-in 1 will occur, making sure you’re at least ready-ish for the 1k submission and the next thing - pairings!

writers will fill out a form giving a working title for their fic, a summary, pairings, warnings, ships (again, no beetlebabes), tags, etc. this form is due by the 26th! im known to be relaxed-ish with dates/deadlines, and the next part doesn’t happen until the 28th in the event someone needs a bit more time. but do your best to have it done by the 26th!

on the 28th, a post will magically appear for artists to claim fics! this will have all the information the writers just submitted, with a magical number attached to it.

artists will then fill out a form where they will select their top 3 choices for fics to art for, which is due by the march 2nd. 

on the 6th, everyone will get a fancy message (an email and a tumblr message, to make sure you don’t loose the information!) telling them who they’re paired with! once that happens, writers, please send your artists a hello and a google doc/some sort of magical link leading to the 1k (or more) that you have done so far, so they’ve got something to work with!

while all of this is going on, the one and only beta check-in will occur february 23rd, and will be due by midnight on the 24th. this is to make sure anyone who signed up awhile ago is still there there will be a handy dandy post with the usernames of beta readers going up feburary 27th, and writers can refer to that if they’d like a beta, simple as that!

once that’s done, y’all are free range chickens, other than check-ins. artist check-in 1 is march 13th (this is mostly to make sure you’ve all gotten in touch with your writers). writer check-in 2 is march 20th, and you’ll need to show that you have about 50% of your fic done at that point.

the penultimate writer and artist check-in is on april 5th. this is when shit gets serious, because posting week is in two weeks and some change. this is also when i will begin freaking out and having to take over for people who have dropped out. 

on april 10th, there will be the handy dandy posting day form! basically a super quick form where you can select the date between april 24th-may 1st that will work best for you and your partner. if after you submit your form you find out you need an extension, don’t worry, just contact me!

the !!!!!final check-in!!!! is april 19th. if you are not done yet, **this is crunch time!** you will have at least 7 days before you post, maybe a little more, but this is when it gets extra serious if you’re not ready. now’s a good time to check in with your partner that you ghosted a month ago and make sure they’re all good. if not... good luck. (jk jk, just contact me to get an extension.)

POSTING WEEK is april 24th-may 1st. you’ll be assigned a posting date by april 12th, so you’ll have plenty of time to request an extension, or ghost me and force me to send you messages like a clingy ex-boyfriend, begging you to come back to me. this is also the time where i will *really* freak out.

and then you’re done! woo!! much accomplishment!!! now i will go take a stress nap for seventeen hours and get drunk off sweet tea. 

ill be sending messages & emails about every single check-in and deadline every step of the day, and there will also be reminders in the discord server.

TL;DR for people who skipped that giant block of text: just read the

#important #beetlejuice

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

This is the last human mimic alien we have to fight.

He's realized he's lost because you people aren't running wild having orgies and you're listening to the DNA4U

And further more You all don't want to share.

When i posted the video of Miss Shawntae telling snoop it was time to snoop her body up... And then Snoop went all seductive to the camera...

122895x1000= men that said "Nigga ima beat your ass you know my wo/man gonna see that. You ain't need to be showing yourself!".

76584284×1000= said "ew i hope i don't have my any asking me to do anything tonight after what i just seen. My imagination gonna kill myself! And i know that's just wrong wrong wrong!"

Now multiply the digits together before the multiplication sign and that is approximately minus 1000 That supported Snoops message.

I did all 3. I had to advert my eyes even. Although he couldn't even see me.

Now Snoop and i know each other over 8000zillion years. So i can easily put myself in his shoes.

So he would walk in and I be having sex and he just sit down and start having a conversation. Like we having BBQ ribs and not sexual intercourse.

His wife tho .... He would make sure "the white boy was covered" and tease her don't look. She look at the carpet... Eventually it kept going on so i took a picture off the wall and put it on the floor where she always sat.

She said "why you do that?"

"I realize the kids keep jumping on the bed and knock it off. Snoop stare at you If you move your face. And unless you're on LSD it's no fun staring at the carpet. So i gave it to you where it seems you always be looking although i had to take a pretty healthy guess. I just felt you was having the most miserable time of all and as my friend it was my honor to trip out and give you a gift"

She used the reflection to put on her makeup and slept in bed later.,Snoop quit being so paranoid. Cause she would face the wall and lean against him.

Point is... Snoop be all like he was watching sports to make sure we got the score.

I mean. Man. Earth. We tried everything we could to stop these aliens from wanting to habe orgies. Even,took,away,their dicks!!!

We did everything. Planet.

Y'all locked up with your soulmates made little difference on this kick of his.

I been doing it. I been riding like I been going around the world 500 times. I love sex.

82% of y'all all around the Earth been having sex.

4% have watched porno

18% have had 1 wild orgies of those 18% -- 32% had s second one. Of those 0.00004981% have gone onto a third.

Of those having 2 or more orgies 92% were aliens

Leaving 8% Of 18% of the entire world interested enough in watching or having sex with other people than their soulmate.

Who saved the world?

100% of humans.

You all get $5 and that includes children.

He's done all he could and he's failed. 100%

I think Edgar might be human... Looking at his alien structure in the film.

But he treated me like an alien. Im still a POW.

Alex had to sell a bed because he acted non human. And Alex worked hard on it to make it perfect for me.

I would been fine gloating from it. Fighting and being sassy to aliens.

But then someone claiming to care about me,most of all abandoned his son and law and daughter. And i hear stories of him being evil.

Some time ago they asked me "do you want a dad or mom?"

"No"

"We need to know because the future of the,Earth,depends on it. And the future of you. Now do you want a dad or,not?!"

"The question is will i remain needing a dad or father figure in the future. No i am fine. I have male role models to keep the species alive. Males. (Species not gender) I also have my mom in Mrs Harriet Tubmam. And if that fails then at that time i should be able to get the rest of me. But she's fine. I'm fine. I just got to remain stable. But adding a father or another mother i don't know just yet can remain disasterous."

Luckily Alex didn't burn the bed down. But it was,bugged and bombed by "Edgar", to me 'its just another one of those things we have to clean"

Do i care? Nothing. He doesn't affect me. I worry about Alex having to,deal with it. But,hes being,and,staying clean,and,then when he's,scared he stays by other cold turkey or non users. He was,around Crystal meth yesterday and he tasted 1/4 of a gram. Like when you would put your finger in the sugar jar. Then lick it. The other guy smoked 4.9876 ounces and blew it all in their faces including the babies. Thus Alex got 7.698 grams ingested via second hand smoke.

I didn't notice but we got in a fight with each other. Just like we always do.

Alex and i power punched him and his eye socket -- ocular bone -- was crushed like glass in 17 cracks.

His jaw I punched more alone but with Alex and total both sides he lost 9 teeth. And had to be wired shut after 72 stiches because i split his upper palate in two. I cracked his lower palate in 8072 places. So if you found a skull it would rest on powder of his lower jaw and then you'll find the upper. After decaying..

Then Alex on the top of his head had 49 stitches to repair his soft tissue from his frontal lobe when he crashed to the floor after the super punch to eye hit the coffee table.

He did get one "good" punch in -- his skull hit Alex right in the right eye.

It fucking hurt but it hurts in a good way. Its weird it's like "reward!" Pain. No suffering. Fucking got him good tho. We feel it every now and again. May be it is when he realises we will kill him for good. He keeps remembering that sudden silence of death.

He's currently on life support. "Medically induced coma" is our non panic code words. But it's basically life support but usually not full life support. It isn't 100% life support medical machines. Its 75% or less.

So technically it's life support and coma mixed. So we csll it medically induced coma. This way you understand if your family is the one on the machines -- it's only 25% body life.... However there's a 75% of recovery via healing machines.

The CIA. Willl decide when to pull the plug. Usually medically induced coma is someone evil or someone bad with the ability to be good. Usually aliens go straight to coma status.

If an alien will die it's 1st life support then coma. Your friend or family will die.

They said medically induced coma. But at this time. His brain is incapable of human thought so I am putting him on life support.

This makes it the family's wishes.

Most of the time "next of kin" is spouse then parents/siblings. Then children last.

Which is wrong. It should be the future. Thus Erica and Steven will ask the babies. And together they will decide.

Last night as a CIA operative while he was in a medically induced coma i was told by at least 1 child and 2 adults to pull. I reviewed. While they spoke from shock and relief their true feelings.

Knowing that the children escaped life with Eric once. I don't feel the right to allow Eric to live. I know the consequences of his actions caused two children to leave my planet in fear and terror and disgust because of Eric.

Erica was my 3rd pregnancy to abort and hold souls.

I hate Eric. That's why i punched him in the fucking face. I was happily surprised that Alex did it. Too in person.

Since the infants are involved and already resurrected. And had a nightmare of a time in less than 36 hours on Eaerth.

I allow them to be there to pull the plug, they can actually yank and pull the plug themselves.

So that is what i want and what the children need.

It will show Eric he doesn't belong here and has no,reason to,be at 25%

It makes life easier for all of us.

Eric was an outdoor kid. Like John and Jason and Greg. Etc. He never went into my school.

They didn't have to. And actually weren't ever enrolled. They liked the man work to learn to survive on their own.

While i taught the children the indoor stuff. The expansion of the mind.

I taught them the economy so the men working to increase their own economical structure could be helped to be taken in under their wings.

I left no one behind.

But he refused confirming.

1. Alcoholic system to drop other drugs. -- he uses crystal meth. Without cut backs. Without moderation

$5 if yoh remember and realized i said make smoothies without alcohol to share with your kids.

2. He blew it in their faces on purpose them injesting over 2.4 grams each.

Erica and Alex would cover their faces with thick blankets when the smoke came towards them.

It was quite a hostage situation. Knowing he could take the newborns and kill them in front of them.

Its happened to me 985 Point 2 times. I'm 35 years old.

875.8 times it's been with a knife.

Take the numbers and multiply by 10 million. For the last some kinda lots of 8 thousand zillion years.

It even happened to Alex. He he has the scars. From,this and last life., it,has happened.

So for me they're terrifying. Unless I'm there... I have saved 900 billion times 30 thousand. I those situations.

But i always remember the ones i lost.

So don't worry when I'm suicidal. Just leave me alone. Don't talk to me. I need silence.

So dead babies y'all.

Dead aliens.

It will be done

I seen that actually quite beautiful meme of April 2020 the clouds and UFO.

I don't get mad or violent because I'm stepped back to watch y'all cope.

But I say to y'all "fuck no that's not happening" I say to that UFO "Fucking try it you will all die" i just scroll on because I get so angry. I get so mad. Its a beautiful photo but i refused to repost it because it isn't something i support.

Most reposts of memes are supported unless i type something on the bottom. Saying it's not.

So my dad. I didn't care until i saw The Rock, "her dad is alive" all happy and in support.

Then i was bothered. Then I cared. Then i felt something about it. But until then i felt nothing.

I didn't feel shame..i felt that were all made of glass.

Because I was happy to have a dad.. One that seemed good. I was actually happy.

And it was kept personal to me... But then I saw the Rock felt it. Then I began to feel..

Broken. But Alex kept it together and started getting rid of the bed. Taking it down. Removing bombs. And fixing all that ass hole did "my dad"

I know the Rock.. He can handle. His dad just died. And we did a lot for him.

So for him to be elated. I get through the day thinking no one really cares what i feel and they don't pay kuch attention..but the Rock in that moment in time.

He was happy. And i knew then i had to Destroy a light of happiness inside him and he looked away from the camera to say "we are all happy. The while world"

DNA4U list one person as my father. He's my uncle..

Edgar claimed it was his 18th cousin.

You know, it doesn't matter.

Donate. Mr Lee Tubman. And more. They're my dads. They kept me safe. Taught me to be wiser and more caring about myself. Donte was 2 years younger than me. But he was a father figure. Guy was the fun dad. Fred Flintstone i called one friend's dad was the fishing buddy. We were not close but he was a silent father figure.

I stole all my friends dads. Borrowed them. Their moms, too.

I have 1800 moms that I call mom.

I know who my moms and dads are.

Just like Erica called me mom the other day and Brittany will too. And Alex my cousin's son. Candy. Brandy. Declan.

So i know i have a family that understands it doesn't matter how I got here. It matters who treated me well. Matthew McCognohey. Kid rocks. They're like my dad's and my kids. Uncles and Cousins.

Blood doesn't matter. Shit half the time Snoop is my God or dad or bother or husband or little kid i have to save. He's my friend.

Snoop is too much of everything. He is my co-nigger. My partner in many crimes against humanity (practical jokes)

I call him my Friend. But my family wouldn't be complete without him and Shawntae.

Harriet. I call her momma all the time. It feels natural. Sometimes i call her old lady.

So while i was joyful for a moment thinking I found someone that actually cared to find out he didn't.

I myself wasn't affected until i knew others would be

Its just a lesson in life. Don't trust people.

I told Alex abandon ship, fuck that place. Ain't no one can go in there!!

He understood and agreed then took the role "no,one is driving me and her from our home." He decided to defend the homestead. That is the role a man takes

Im all you gotta sweep the whole place,then,rest and do,it again,2 more times at least.,Then,again when,I,get there. If i get there.

But i feel good to know my lover isn't gonna let anyone drive him down. Just turn around. Learn a lesson. Clean the mess.

Why do i need a father when i have a man?

Clearly i am an independent woman and always have been.

But i need a family. Otherwise I have no point to live.

And that is why i am suicidal.

I don't see s point to live. Not when Alex and i fight and i don't want him to talk to me cause some alien got in our way once again.

He was double attacked by aliens.

So if their desire is for me to die... Then they should keep,doing it.

If,not they need to stay out of my way so i can,get my family,together again.,in,real life.

My family that I know is my family. Not aliens. Not fans. Not someone that needs to apologize to me or needs an explanation.

People that can think on their own and not be reminded they need to have love in their spirit.

Now Snoop sometimes plays the role of my brother. And we are competitive. It just makes us proud of each other and ourselves for surviving a challenge. I do it to him too but I play old hard skill. He plays old new remember when. I do ancient V-Ball and he does pop and country experience.

So his spirit is of an ego -- which salutes the fact we will grow.

Often we do the spirit of mischievous. To remind danger still exists but we will have fun and love in the end.

Friend. Someone that is gonna fry you but the end od what matters.

Sometimes we relax and chill. But them old cogwheels of the mind never quit rolling. Advance. Advance. Lets keep it going don't stop.

He's like me. Suicidal.

But he used to release his inner poison. Now he makes it not exist by doing something else ....

But me? Nothing helps but the mimic of death itself. Silence.

People are what causes it. Alien people.

So you humans. Keep on being you.

Its you that is gonna save the world

I gave you guidelines to help us out this mess.

Because I can't even see y'all because the aliens surrounding me trying to get my last breath.

Show me you. Save us. You're doing good

I got $5 on y'all that we make it.

[missallycat]

Did you know? - Gilmore Girls FAQs, trivia and curiosites

I’ve watched this show so many times, I stopped counting years ago when I reached double digits. Is my favorite show of all times and I’ve been told almost nobody knows it as well as I do, so I decided to put together all the knowledge I’ve gained over the years of trivia tidbits, although in that I’m nowhere near an expert ;) my deal is knowing these characters and their personalities and the lines of the show lol but I figured I’d give it a try and collect all the trivia and tidbits of knowledge I’ve gained over the years in one post that I’ll continue to edit to add more stuff (there are a couple that I didn’t get a chance to add right not that will add later on)

1. Yes, that’s Kirk in guardians of the galaxy 2 http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0348231/. And yes Sam Smith (depending on the photo) does look like Kirk (Sean Gunn). Sean Gunn also played the movements of Rocket the racoon.

2. And yes that is Jess dad's girlfriend Sasha now as April's mom (yes she was/is in Twin Peaks http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0000145/). Amy wanted to work with Sherilyn and rumor has it she was offered the role for Lorelai first but there’s no article yet to be found stating this directly from the Palladinos mouths.

3. And yes cousin Marilyn and Gran, Lorelai the first, Richard’s mother, are the same actress. (Happy Day’s Mrs Cunningham http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0005385/?ref_=nv_sr_1).

3. Yes the girl in SH high unnamed who asks Lorelai a question and Logan’s LBD friend Juliette are the same actress. Different character. Riki Lindhome played the unnamed student of SH high and Juliette

5. Yes the first episode looks completely different (not just in the diner) because it was filmed in a different location (Ontario, Canada).

6. Yes, that’s Luke in Seinfeld. (”sponge worthy guy”) and in Will & Grace, jerk guy obsessed with huge boobs, Grace wanted to impress with the water bra. Lauren was also in Seinfield as one of Jerry’s brief girlfriends. That’s also a young Lauren in Caroline in the city.

7. That’s Chris in friends (hums when he pees guy). Yes that's both Luke and Chris on Will & Grace (Luke water bra artist narcissistic guy, Chris cabin in the woods hot guy).

8. Yes that is Logan (and with Usher for that matter lol) in that scene at 7th heaven . And yes Logan. Matt Czuchry was in the good wife, and he has his own show now “The Resident” on Fox. Currently filming a second season (as in October 1st, 2018)

9. Yes Crazy Carrie was also the Stars Hollow High teacher (by a different name) in the pilot. Same actress that plays crazy Carrie but different name of character

10. No, nobody knows if the show will ever come back (as far as it’s been told everything points to a NO). The Palladinos don’t double book, they are happy doing Mrs Maisel and they devote themselves to one show at the time. The last interview they gave on the subject was to Michael Ausiello in the podcast you can hear in the links. 1. A direct link to the article from November 2017 but is important to listen to the podcast http://tvline.com/2017/11/27/amy-sherman-palladino-podcast-interview-gilmore-girls-mrs-maisel/ 2. This is a link directly to the podcast that opens right up and they say "it would have to be the right time , we don't know but we're open. We said no before and ended up doing more that's why we're open now but it would have to be in a different format", Daniel doesn't repeat the would have to because he already said it right before in the same sentence. Basically is nothing we didn't know. However is a very interesting podcast http://hwcdn.libsyn.com/p/b/8/1/b810a8eea76b5eb5/Amy_and_Dan.mp3?c_id=17932724&expiration=1526427435&hwt=95629606ee9caf86bc57bb8d2d70cf6a. Amy and Dan Palladino show creators and writers and producers, these are the people who made this universe, these are the people who the show belongs to, this is THEIR baby and they made a damn good one.

11. No, Lauren Graham did not have cancer and write a book about it. (different person, same name).

12. No, Lauren and Scott didn't hate each other's guts they just weren't BFFs. They have both said this endlessly, they have respect for each other. Scott had a crush on Lauren when he begun the show. But from what has been told and learned about Scott, it seems he doesn’t like to get along with the rest of the cast unless is for his personal gain.

13. NO Rory is not a surrogate. They never even discussed the surrogacy Lorelai with Rory neither did Paris with Rory and Gilmore Girls is a light dramedy not a soap opera it doesn’t have sudden hidden scenes that come to change the show completely, other shows, soap operas could do that, Gilmore Girls DOES NOT. She is NOT pregnant of the Wookie. She never slept with Paul (the actor even said it wasn’t Paul’s) Milo said Jess is not the father and doesn’t romantically love Rory anymore. Only Alexis and Matt were told who the father of the baby is. The Palladinos have said clearly that the father of Rory’s baby was never meant to be a mystery. The only person that fits is Logan. The only actors they have told are Alexis and Matt and told them they could do what they wanted with the information but they have chosen not to say anything because is Amy’s story.And the Palladinos have said IT IS THE OBVIOUS CHOICE. So, Logan is the father, is no cliffhanger is open ending. Yes it would be lovely to see more of them but the Palladinos don’t have the style of wrapping up things in a big pink bow.

14. Ace is Logan’s term of endearment for Rory, it shows respect and admiration, it comes from what they used to call top reporters in the 50’s movies, he first calls her that in a IM conversation at the Yale daily news in the episode season 5 episode 6 of Norman Mailer, I’m pregnant!. Not in the poker game, not in the LDB first gathering. Is a term of respect for her abilities investigating the Life and Death Brigade.

15. The love rocket. Rory understood the meaning because it was the same model, came from an episode of the Twilight zone that was Logan’s favorite. It didn’t need confirmation from Logan because Rory had already said she understood it and she explained it to Lorelai in the same episode: “When Logan and I were first going out, we were in the pool house one night really late, and we were falling asleep on the couch. And this episode of "the twilight zone" came on -- "the long morrow." There's this astronaut who was supposed to go into space for 40 years, but right before he left, he met this beautiful woman. But for those 40 years that he was going to be in space, he was going to be in suspended animation. So when he came back to earth, he was going to be really young, but she would be really old. So he goes into space, and when he does come back, the woman is still young and beautiful because she put herself in suspended animation to wait for him, but he's really, really old because he took himself out of suspended animation so he could be old with her. He spent 40 years alone in space just waiting to see her, and he was willing to come back as an 80-year-old man, giving up almost his entire life just to spend those last few years with her. The point is, that this is Logan's favorite episode of "the twilight zone." And when we watched it together, he said, "that's true love." That's true love! This is the most romantic gift I've ever been given.”.

16. Chris wasn’t at Rory’s high school graduation. He was however at her college graduation. The reason they give is he had to work. Probably the actor who was a guest star was doing another project and couldn’t be in the episode or they just didn’t want to write him in so they could develop more the arc between Lorelai and Luke.

17. June 3rd is the date of Rory’s court date AND the date chosen by Lorelai for hers and Luke’s wedding in the original show. Is the same date different year, coincidence as Lorelai herself says the date happened to happen. There’s a theory that is ASP’s best friend Helen Pai’s birthday. Since it was in an old interview we haven’t found the confirmation of it yet becaue there’s no data (at least on the searches we’ve done so far by various people) on Helen Pai’s date of birth.

18. Lane’s story is loosely based on Helen Pai’s, executive producer of the show and Amy Sherman Palladino’s best friend. HEP ALIEN is an anagram of her name (Pai’s name). Helen Pai’s husband is real life Dave Rygalski which was the character of Dave initially based on until the actor had to leave for a better offer.

19. The real life Dave Rygalski shows up in the troubadour’s “attack” episode, he was with Daniel Palladino who was singing a beaver ate my thumb Dan is singing and Dave is playing the bass. Daniel Palladino is also the town loner, the one who protests at the church and appears briefly in the pilot episode leaving Luke’s. In total Dan Palladino shows up three times in the show

20. Keiko Agena and Emily Kuroda are Japanese American that’s why when they speak korean in very few moments in the show is very difficult to understand for people who do understand korean. Also Mrs Kim’s real name, at least Korean’s name is Jong Ya. Lane’s is Hyun Kyung, without last names, which come first in Korean Culture so Lane would be Kim Hyun Kyung, Mrs Kim however would not be Kim as last name, that’s a westerner tradition, in Korea women don’t change their last name when they marry and they are referred as Madam, Auntie, or as mother of such (name of youngest child) depending on level of familiarity. There’s never a mention of Mrs Kim’s “westerner” first name.

21. There’s also no idea of what Lane’s father does or where he is during the original show. Amy Sherman Palladino show creator said she never saw the need to create or cast a Mr Kim because it was more to focus in the mother and daughter dinamics. No is not the unnamed Asian waiter at Luke’s. Mr Kim appears in the revival for a brief moment, never before. There’s a fan theory going around that he was never there because he had to constantly be traveling to supply antiques for the store. Lane mentions “my parents”, “my mother and father” in a handful of ocassions through the show. He WAS NOT the unnamed Asian waiter that is always at the background at Luke’s. The Palladinos had never made anyone pass for Mr Kim not even as the back of a head until the revival as a way of fan service and as a joke like saying “oh look, so maybe he had been there the entire time”.

22. The translation of the korean wedding ceremony is here: https://missallycat.tumblr.com/post/173812878159/i-got-a-sidekick-out-of-you (is a tumblr post) complete with before and after.

23. What does Lane’s grandmother say when she arrives at the house before the wedding? Grandma takes her coat and she sees Lane, she calls out her name Hyun Kyung-a (the a is an added sound they use for familiarity when they call someone's name) and tells her to come down. After Lane comes down she pats her in the cheek and says Lane is "oh so pretty!". Lane replies, "welcome, grandmother, I am very happy you came." The grandmother then says, "it's good to have come / I'm glad I came." She then talks to Mrs Kim (Yong Ja-ya Jong Ya is the name the ya the added familiarity informal sound), asking why is that Budha statue here in the room?. Mrs Kim says I was going to move it, mother (formal). Grandma walks through the house she's saying, "ugh, it's so dirty and stuffy in here - open a door." Then Mrs Kim says something that sounds sort of like, "rest first, please." When the camera cuts to Lane and Rory giving each other 'the look,' Grammy Kim is saying, "hey, why didn't you come out to the airport?" Mrs Kim maybe replies, "you said yesterday... that I shouldn't..." (and the sentence doesn't finish). Grammy Kim then says, "the atmosphere/karma is bad [in here]. It needs to be changed. Let's bow 108 times."

24. The episode of Jess in California “Here comes the son” WAS the backdoor pilot episode of what was going to be made into a spin off. But it wasn’t deemed interesting enough by the network to justify the expenses of shooting in the actual locations so it didn’t happen.

25. Miss Celine and Drella the harpist are the same actress. Alex Borstein. She was going to be Sookie, she was in the unaired pilot but due to conflicts with her other show she couldn’t be so she came later as other characters. She was also the voice in Dwight’s answering machine (especially my trivial pursuit!) and the woman’s voice in the museum. Jackson was married to her but they are divorced know.

26. Paris (Liza Weill) initially auditioned for the role of Rory, she didn’t get it but they liked her so much they created Paris for her.

27. Luke was initially going to be a woman but they figured the show needed more testosterone so they casted Scott. This has been the first and only major role Scott Patterson has had in his entire “career” as an actor, the one that led him to get a few more minor roles, rumor has it, he’s very difficult to work with and not talented enought to be worth the pain. He milks Gilmore Girls every chance he gets.

28. Sookie was going to be gay but the network put a stop to that, they didn’t want any openly gay characters in the show. The Palladinos were new at this so they accepted the network’s conditions. Is probably why Michel was always put as bicurious or closeted gay man during the original show and was only fully out in the revival as an obvious thing that needed no explanation or backstory because everyone always assumed Michel was gay.

29. Kirk (Sean Gunn) was initially just an appearance, Mick in the pilot episode, then swan guy, then Kirk new manager at Doose’s new in town who didn’t know Miss Patty or anyone and then became the Kirk Gleason we know and love. Sean Gunn was initially an extra but they loved him so much they created Kirk Gleason as permanent character for him.

30. Gypsy and Berta, the maid in AYITL are both played by the extremely talented, Rose Abdoo. She was hilarious in a reading when they hadn’t casted anyone yet so she was given the part. Her language is “berta-ese” lol She speaks mostly Spanish, a couple of words could be Brazilian portuguese (maybe?), is mostly nonsensical Spanish words in the kind of Spanish that wouldn’t make a sentence with any meaning or sense and Rose Abdoo said she had changed a few vowels of the words to make it more confusing.G

31. The unkown town elder (towel guy) is played by William Morgan Sheppard. He was never in the show before or after.

32. None of the elders were the same actors or characters of Richard’s two friends in the golf outing with Rory. But one of those friends was the reverend that buries gran, and in the revival is Charlie of the gazette.

33. Rory’s resident advisor Tess the girl who hands her the keys on her first day of Yale (SE04 EP2 “The Lorelais first day at Yale”) is a different actress than Sandee from Sandee says in AYTIL (a year in the life, netflix GG revival) Tess name is Joy Darash http://www.imdb.com/name/nm1384632/?ref_=ttfc_fc_cl_t17 Sandee is Julia Goldani Telles http://www.imdb.com/name/nm5065920/?ref_=tt_cl_t3 (if you ever saw ASP’s show bunheads that’s Sasha)

34. When they take the roadtrip to Harvard. The picture of the girl Lorelai stares at when she’s in the hallway is a stranger it has to do with the year not the girl herself. That's the year she would have graduated if she went to an Ivy league college as it was planned. It was sort of a “what if” moment.

35. Emily Gilmore didn’t go to Yale she went to Smith to study History. Women weren’t admitted in Yale at the time Richard and Emily went to college but it was usual that girls colleges and guys colleges would have parties together and visited each other when there were couples. First mention of Emily attending Smith was in season 5. How many kropogs to cape cod. Richard jokes how Emily got kicked out of the women’s softball team for elbowing another girl. In season 7 I’m a kayak hear me roar, Emily says she went to Smith and majored in History.

36. They talk about Richard’s mother in the first season in past tense but later on Trix appears. It was an error of the first season when things weren’t that defined.

37. Alexis Bledel and Milo Ventimiglia did date in real life, apparently it ended really badly. She also dated Jared Padalecki. She didn’t date Matt Czuchry at least not that is known but both are extremely private people, however they are good friends and trust each other a lot from every interview they have given and enjoy working together. She’s now happily married to her Mad Men costar Vincent Kartheiser and they have a beautiful boy together.

38. Luke’s diner has the sign of William’s hardware store and not Danes’ because as a fandom we assume William was his dad’s first name. You’ll see changes in the diner all through the show. However Luke’s parents names are never mentioned ever during the show. The pilot episode was filmed in Unionville Ontario in a building that was formerly Williams hardware. For continuity when they moved to the studio lot at Warner Brothers the name was kept. I don't remember them ever explaining the name on the series other than the hardware store belonged to Lukes father

39. Lorelai’s doll house is NOT the same dollhouse on friends but it is the dollhouse they show on sale at Kim’s antiques, in one episode where Lane is going to talk to her mom about the band and Mrs Kim cracks the joke “but is past their bedtime”.

40. Yes Gil from Hep Alien is Sebastian Bach from Skid Row.

41. Yes the “hug-a-world” that was in the garage in season 4 is on their couch in season 1! (Same as the scary clown pillow is in a number of seasons lying around lol)

42. Alexis Bledel is actually a Latina. She was born and raised in the US but grew in a Spanish speaking, latino, household, her father and paternal grandfather are Argentinian, her mother, like herself was born in the US, but Alexis’ mother grew up in Mexico. Alexis didn’t learn English until she started school. The episode where Rory speaks Spanish with Esperanza (Season 6 episode 2: “Fight face”) she anglicized her native Spanish BECAUSE Rory didn’t know much Spanish. There’s an old interview with Ellen Degeneres on set while filming season 6 or 7 that she’s asked to translate for Lauren, she doesn’t translate everything due to nervousness. (It also happens when you live your adult life in a country that doesn’t speak your first language, growing up bilingual, you tend to adopt the accent of the language you use most and tend to confuse some words when you don’t use your native language often).

43. People praised the chemistry and physical closeness between Lauren Graham and Alexis Bledel, but there is actually a very logical reason for this: Alexis was a model and was just starting out acting and had a tougher time making her marks, so as veteran, Lauren often physically moved Alexis to make sure she was in the right place. Lauren told “The Today Show” in 2015: "The camerawork on that show is very specific and we really had to hit certain marks, which especially when you start out, is just a foreign concept...I remember a lot of times just kind of grabbing her, just kind of leading her arm. So, in the beginning, people are like, 'You have such great chemistry.' And I'm like, 'I'm mauling her. That's why.'"

(check this entry from time to time because I’ll keep writing fun facts)

#Gilmore Girls #trivia #gilmore girls trivia #Lorelai Gilmore #rory gilmore #lauren graham #alexis bledel #matt czuchry #Logan Huntzberger

[gnrsly]

THE DIARY OF MY MOON AND HIS STARRY NIGHT EYES

NOV 1st, 2017 at 2:32 am

i think i’m falling for you. you make me feel better. like i’ve healed over. i know i shouldn’t feel like this but i do. god emotions are confusing.

NOV 12, 2017 at 7:34 am

you are officially mine. i’m so happy and in love. i hope this won’t end up bad. i trust us not to fuck this up.

DEC 23rd, 2017 at 4:23 am

i believe this is going well. i’m happy. you seem happy. i’m in love and i hope you are too. we’ve been fighting a bit but i think it’s going to be okay.

JAN 3rd, 2018 at 12:34 am

i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

you broke my heart. i hate you. but i hate her. she said i was bad. i’m not. she said i cheated. i never did. she said i was using you. i wasn’t. she said break up with me. you did. why? i love you. i trusted you...

JAN 8, 2018 at 3:24 am

i thought that if i threw it away it would leave me.

that the pain would maybe go away.

that the scars that where never really there would go away.

but i found your sweatshirt.

you probably want it back.

and i hate the fact that i don’t know how to.

because it’s the only thing to remind me of you. it’s the same cologne you’ve worn for the past 2 years.

ive been wearing for almost 5 minutes but each second is a different flashback and it hurts. because this once was a sweatshirt i considered home.

it felt loved and comforting

but now it’s empty.

i should probably give it back.

but i feel if i give it up i’m giving up you. and i can’t do that. not yet.

JAN 16, 2018 at 1:44am

fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.

you posted the letter, me being the number 1 reason.

“you poisoned my heart with you toxic love”

how was i toxic? i was the gave everything up for you. my sanity. my friends. my family. my love.

but i’m toxic. because i called you out on your bullshit.

even if i was toxic, i actually tried to make something out of the relationship. sorry that i didn’t want to be a midnight fuck for you.

but hey. at least i didn’t talk shit about people behind their back.

no offense but next time you want to call me a cunt, say it to my face not my friends.

FEB 15th, 2018 at 12:34 am

we are trying again.

it won’t last

well the relationship at least.

i was wrong per usual.

it wasn’t me, or maybe it was and you lied to my face. either way i’m almost happy.

thank you i guess? you gave me back some sanity, but they still blame me. but at least i’m with you.

MARCH 12th, 2018 at 2:37 am

fuck you.

maybe. it’s my fault. i always cause things to go down hill. i couldn’t compare to the girl with the long pretty hair, i’m just a dumb boy who’s fallen and can’t get up. she’s toxic. she’s going to hurt you, but it’s okay. not really but you don’t believe me.

i still love you, but it must be one side.

but how many times when i kiss you, i’m kissing a memory of her.

MARCH 23rd, 2018 at 11:21 pm

i’m drunk. you’re drunk in love, but i’m just wasted and angry. maybe i could’ve done something. she hurt you. but you hurt me.

i asked you awhile back how long you’ve loved liv, and you said never. she was forceful and cruel. i hate it, that agin i could’ve done something but instead i sat around and became a poet. well fuck.

APRIL 13th, 2018 at 1:01 am

you said you never meant anything. you weren’t on meds. that’s okay though because i trust you. i really do. you make me happy. we are healing. no longer together but healing. i still like you. a lot. i don’t know whether to start over yet. i’m kind of confused. but i know that i trust you.

APRIL 28th, 2018 at 11:34 pm

everyone says you like me. i doubt it. we aren’t ready for a new relationship. i don’t think so at least. but life is confusing and it kind of a love sick puppy. you missed me earlier. no one knew. i’m in love i think.

MAY 2, 2018 at 4:45 pm

you asked me to be yours. i said yes. i know that you truly love me and trust me. you said so and i’m taking your word on this. don’t hurt me again. i’m to close to breaking.

MAY 31st, 2018 at 11:54 pm

we were doing good. we had our ups,

our downs,

and our stay stills.

but you say one thing. one single thing and suddenly the whole world is down on their luck. it’s everyone else’s fault but yours. because you feed off your egos. take someone i’m close to and you use them against me. you lie, and lie. cause that’s all you do. at this point i’m questioning if you love them both more than me. because i’m doubting you even loved me.

JUNE 2nd, 2018 at 9:35 pm

this is the first time. this is the first time i’ve ever felt you physically hurt me. it wasn’t a slap or a hit. you just shoved me away. i walked next to you. that’s it’s. and you ran to her. why her? you told me you don’t trust me. you don’t know if you truly love me. told me that you don’t know how to love me anymore. and i hate the fact that i feel the same way towards you.

JUNE 9th, 2018 at 12:32 am

i want to text you. tell you to end it. i want to end it. i’m giving you 10 days. if it’s not fixed. it’s over. because this is toxic.

and i know why.

i don’t think i love you anymore. i don’t think that i feel the same butterflies. now they don’t flutter but churn. i don’t love you. i despise you. you hurt others and you know it. i hate you. there is no longer love in me. only hurt, anger, and heartbreak.

JULY 8, 2018 at 12:45 am

ha bitch. you thought. it’s over and i’m healing

(not really, because drinking vodka and going to jail isn’t healing)

SEP 10th 2018 at 10;56 pm

My best friends chose you. I’m now the outsider. Is this what you wanted? For me to be lonely? For you to be everyone’s favourite? Because now I’m alone in my room and I am crying. Begging for someone to listen, but you are standing with them. That stupid fucking smirk on your face. Is this what you wanted? Because you got your wish. You are truly a god. A fucked up, twisted god.

October 1st 2018 at 8:55pm

she is yours. she loves you and i loved you. i still do. i really do. but because of how shitty everything is in my life, i don’t want you to love me back. but hear me out. my best friend is in love with you. don’t break her heart because they already have been damaged enough. learn to love her for her flaws and her quirky attitude. i love her because she is my best friend and i love you as so much more. but i’d give anything in the world to see her smile at someone and be in love. don’t break her heart.

November 24th 2018 @ 17:42 (aka 5:42)

you are my soulmate. you’re my best friend

and i’m okay with that

january 18th, 2019 @ 11:15pm

rereading messages hurts. you broke my best friend. she thought she was in the wrong. you cheated on her. and now that she is talking to a new boy, you had the audacity to call her a whore? yet you’ve fucked everyone in the friend group. fuck you. i’m going to keep talking to you because my other friend is falling for you. stop doing this.

september 16 2019 @ 10:43 pm

it’s been years. i know im over u. at least my brain tells me i am but my heart hurts when i think of u. but u cant seem to stop hurting the people around me. we r older now. we are different people i’m not some insecure kid anymore, oh no. i’m an asshole who isn’t afraid to say u hurt me. and i hurt u. i played victim but so did u. but u r still my friend. one of my brothers. just listen to me okay? i love u. and it won’t ever change. and this may be the end to this letter bc i found a new love who i know will stay in my poems for years to come. i may never stop writing about you but i’m done giving it to you

#poetry #poets of tumblr #slam poem #slam poetry #letter to my ex #excerpt from a book i'll never write #abusive relationship #letters #poem #trauma poetry #poems to my ex #the diary of the moon and his starry night eyes

[itwasanangryinch]

JCM Projects -- 2019

My aim is to update this at least monthly, ideally weekly with all of the projects John Cameron Mitchell will be working on, debuting, or a part of in the upcoming year. If you know of a project not listed here, please message me thru inbox or IM.  | |  Updated June 19th

This Week (June 19th-23rd)

(DJing) Mattachine – Monthly queer dance party with Amber Martin and Ang DiCarlo at the Julius

The Origin of Love Tour (North American) (ongoing)

New York – June 27th, at The Town Hall (3 left!) New York – June 28th, at The Town Hall – sold out! New York – June 29th, at The Town Hall – sold out! New York – July  27th, two shows! at Fischer Theatre/Bard College (16 left!) Michigan – November 2nd,  at the University of Michigan, (tix on sale in Aug.) Austin – February 7th, 2020, at University of Texas at Austin/Bass Concert Hall (tix on sale in August) San Fransciso – February 29th, 2020, at Berkley University. (tix on sale in Aug.) Salt Lake City – April 3rd, 2020, at Kingsbury Hall (tix on sale in July)  Los Angeles – April 11th, 2020, at UCLA/The Theatre at Ace Hotel (tix on sale in July)

more dates to come!

MERCHANDISE: Junction City Mercantile (launched! all proceeds go to helping John’s mum)

Other Concerts

New York – June 22nd, John will be singing a selection of songs from Anthem as part of the first Topic Talks: Music concert. Tickets on sale now.

TV Shows

Shrill (series regular) – Hulu, first season available now! – RENEWED!!

The Good Fight (guest star) – CBS All Access Trailer  | | Sneak Peak | | Episode 

Movies

Hedwig and the Angry Inch (2001) – June 25th. Critereon Collection DVD/Blu-Ray release featuring a new 4K restoration of the film, a new chat with the original creatives behind the film, a talk between Stephen Trask and Rolling Stone writer David Fricke, and all of the features from the original DVD release. Critereon.com | | bbfc certification | | watch now

How to Talk to Girls at Parties (2017) – May 8th. Transmission Films. After almost a full year since JCM was there and told that there were no immediate plans for distribution, Australia is finally getting HtTtGaP on DVD and digital.

Podcasts

Anthem: Homunculus: A ten episode podcast series written by JCM and HtTtGaP collaborator Bryan Weller and featuring performers such as Glenn Close, Patti LuPone, Madeline Brewer, and Nakhane. All episodes available. Luminary Podcasts. Little Known Facts with Ilana Levine: Upcoming. John was interviewed on April 29th, episode presumably airs soon. iTunes | | Podbean | | Stitcher The Orbiting Human Circus (of the Air): New episodes dropping generally 2019. A fictional series set in the world of a radio show that broadcasts from the top of the Eiffel Tower. Season one, season one remaster featuring interviews with Julian Koster and JCM, and The Second Imaginary Symphony (does not feature JCM) available now. WNYC Studios.

Too Hot For Radio: 2019. John recorded a live reading of a short story for the NPR program. If it follows past airings, it will be included sometime when the new season starts streaming later this year.

Dreamboy: an ethereal monster movie told in podcast form. JCM guest starred in the finale, aired March 25th, and sang a song. NightValePresents Website.

More John podcasts  

Albums

Anthem: Homunculus (Soundtrack) – Out now. Full soundtrack currently available as a digital download from Ghostlight Records. Featuring John, Glenn Close, Patti LuPone, Nakhane, and others, written by JCM and Bryan Weller. Ghostlight Records 

T-Rex Tribute Album – John will be singing ‘Diamond Meadows’ as part of producer Hal Willner’s project. No release date yet. Variety, JCM ig

Interviews

For interviews that are not really part of a podcast or other thing.

Big Think: May 18th. Video. (Different from the 9th) [ YT, BT ]

Psychology Today: May 15th. Text interview with John about one of the key plot points in Anthem. More talking about the show than actual interview. There is a more spoilery interview linked off of it relating to ep 7, though the spoiler is something that’s been hinted at in past interviews. [ PT,  C ]

Big Think: May 9th. Video [ YT ]

BuzzFeed AM to DM: Daily webshow. May 2nd. [ Periscope, Twitter, BFN ]

New York Live TV/The Hub Boston: TV interview. Same interview ran on both programs. About 5 minutes. May 1st [ YT ]

Time Out Mexico: Text interview. Translated into Spanish. April 29th [ TO ]

Backstage.com: John answered questions from the people at Backstage and fan questions left on their forum and social media. April 25th. [ FB ]

Broadway.com Live at Five: John was interviewed to talk about Anthem: Homunculus and Hedwig. April 24th. [ YouTube, text write up ]

Other Projects

Come Back Once More So I Can Say Goodbye –  a theatre piece by Labyrinth Dance Theatre. About gay life in NYC 1965-1995. JCM is part of Julius' Honorary Host Committee for the show. $40 gen. admission. $25 student/senior/artist. June 14-17th.

Broadway: The Next Generation – documentary. No release date yet.

Time Warp: The Greatest Cult Films of All Time – documentary. No release date yet.

TV Series 1: John has talked about this in interviews. Something that he would be writting/showrunning as well as creating. (impending)

TV Series 2: Something that John would be creating, but not as involved in the day-to-day workings of. Has talked about in interviews. (impending)

Other Appearances

Mattachine, June 20th – a monthly queer dance party at Julius’ Bar in New York. Usually the 3rd Thursday of the month, but does vary. John usually shows up, but does not go to all Mattachines. @mattachineparty​ UPDATED!

Filmmaker on the Edge, June 15th – John is going to be honoured with the award, have a conversation with resident artist John Waters, and screen Hedwig. (press release)

                                                     ARCHIVED

After a certain amount of time, older information will drop here so that fans looking for recent, current, and upcoming projects will have an easier time. Things that have already been done will drop down here. And going into 2020, there will be a new list.

The Origin of Love Tour

February 8th -- Washington DC, National Theatre February 22nd -- Chicago, IL, Atheneum Theatre March 2nd -- Boston, MA, Schubert Theatre May 22nd -- Mexico City, MX, Auditorio BlackBerry June 8th -- Miami, FL, The Arsht Center/Knight Hall

Other Concerts

Drop down after performance unless there’s a stream or a downloadable thing for them.

TV Shows

Shows drop down here after three months for guest appearances and six months after the last episode airs for series regular status.

Movies

Movies drop down six months after last release.

Podcasts

Podcasts that John is in the regular cast for will drop here six months after the last episode. guest starring, three months. Interview, one month.

Regular Cast

Guest Starring

Interview

Adulting: an interview format podcast where JCM and another guest star were interviewed. Broadcast live April 12th as part of a celebration for the venue. Watch video on FB | | Periscope | | Youtube

Death, Sex Money: John is guest hosting and interviewing his friend Marilyn Maye while the regular host is on maternity leave. April 17th. WYNC Studios.

Katya and Craig/Whimsically Volatile: April 25th. Podcast hosted by drag star Katya Zamolodchikova and director Craig MacNeil. This week, Craig hosted the show and interviewed John without Katya. Soundcloud | | Libsyn | | iTunes | YouTube

Selected Shorts: April 25th. John reads Fox 8 by George Saunders. Recorded November 9th of last year. NPR | | Stitcher | | SoundCloud | | player.fm

Chapo Trap House: April 29th. Podcast where John talks about Anthem, Hedwig, Shortbus, “the end of sex.” Soundcloud

Stagecraft: April 30. Podcast about acting.  iTunes | | Player.fm | | Libsyn CBS This Morning: April 30. Talks about Anthem, how being openly out in the time of AIDS informed his work, and the benefits and detriments of working in a digital age. iTunes | | Google Play | | Spotify | | Stitcher | | SoundCloud

Laura Heywood Interviews: May 8. player.fm | | Libsyn   

The Frame: May 9. John has a segment talking about Anthem. iTunes | | player.fm | | NPR

Studio 360: May 14th. John and Bryan talking about Anthem and performing a live version of ‘The End of Love.’ Slate | | iTunes

Albums

If John is guest appearing on the album, it will move after four months. If it’s his project, it will move after six.

Interviews

Drops down after one month for text interviews. Three for video.

Rolling Stone Mexico and GQ Mexico: John is interviewed in both for his performance in Mexico City 

Mural: May 18th. Text interview in Spanish. [ M ]

Escandala: May 15th. Text interview with John. In Spanish [ E ] Open Revista: May 14th Text interview with John in Spanish. [ OR ]

TheatreMania: May 12. Text interview with John and Bryan Weller about Anthem. [ TM ]

Metro Source: May 10th. Text interview with John about Anthem. [ MS ]

Time Out: May 9th. Press release/info for Orbital DJing Event [ TO ]

Daily Beast: May 6th. Text interview. [ DB ]

Rolling Stone: Text interview with John and Glenn Close about Anthem. May 5th [ RS ]

Backstage.com: write up of the FB/IG live video that John did the previous week. May 1st [ Backstage ]

Forbes: Text interview about Anthem and transforming it from the Hedwig sequel. John also talks about his writing process, The Orbiting Human Circus, and which Broadway shows he’s excited by this season. April 26th [ Forbes ]

NewNowNext: Text interview. April 23rd. [ NNN ]

Observer: Text interview. April 23rd. [ Observer ]

Queerty: Text interview. April 20th. [ Queerty ]

New York Times: Text interview. April 19th. [ NYT ]

Other Projects

Unless John is featured heavily, these will drop down after a month or two. These projects might also be less available than some of the other programs.

Other Appearances

Too Hot For Radio – January 26th, as part of San Francisco SketchFest, John went out and read a story for NPR’s Selected Shorts radio program. Eventually it will air via streaming like iTunes, NPR’s website, SoundCloud....

JCM interviews Claywoman – March 17th, John participated in a performance art interview of a drag character reported to be the oldest being in the universe who has travelled to our planet from her own.

JCM screens Entertaining Mr. Sloane – March 19th, John screened one of his favourite movies, a British sex comedy called Entertaining Mr. Sloane as part of a Quad Cinema series.

Various Promotion – various times in January thru March, John was on location being interviewed to promote Shrill. These appearances include the Hulu winter TCAs, the New York Shrill premiere, and San Francisco SketchFest.

Jay Brannon, Joe’s Pub – April 9th, John announced attending concert. Presumably did not perform.

Club Cumming – April 15th, John made his first appearance at Club Cumming as part of a star studded benefit for New Alternatives, an LGBT Youth charity. Sold out!

SirusFM//Signal Boost Show – April 25th, interview about Anthem, Hedwig, Uber rides, and sex.

Tribeca Celebrates Pride – May 4th, John was interviewed his Shrill costar Patti Hardison about how his queer identity has affected his work.

Chocolate Babies screening – May 7th. John announced on ig that he was going to be attending a screening of Stephen Winter’s film.

Orbital – May 24th. John and Amber DJed at the Ortibal dance party in Mexico.

Tony Awards - June 9th. Guest.

Nahkane, The Illustrious Blacks - June 20th. John announced on ig he would be attended Nahkane’s performance before June’s Mattachine Party.

#john cameron mitchell #hedwig and the angry inch #hedwig #shrill #the good fight #anthem #hatai #mattachine #anthem homunculus #dreamboy #the origin of love #club cumming #orbiting human circus #the orbiting human circus #orbiting human circus (of the air) #wnyc #jcm

[bardovelho]

3rd Habitversary in 2019

Today , April 14th, I celebrate my 3rd year Habitversary. The second one was skipped, forgotten along with all my tasks and Habitica itself, by the time I was experiencing my longest, hardest, and most teaching burnout of my Habitican life!

I learned that burnouts happen to me when I take too much pressure on myself and have too many difficult Dailies that I can't face. So, I faced not a single one instead of trying to do the best that I can, by avoiding Habitica almost completely. The magical key to break this bad vicious cycle is to Rest in the Inn WHILE doing the Dailies that I feel like doing, with no pressure. Then, I will only leave the Inn when I'm able to reach one Perfect Day, maybe 3 to make sure. This way, I'll still be leveling up, building motivation, but with no stress. Because Habitica is not about adding all the tasks that I can remember and doing as much as (im)possible; it's a tool to build motivation, which will generate progressive productivity. It can be like a muscle\battery of will power (as I read in The Power Of Habit), if well designed and oiled.

The (other) problem is that I'm now noticing that each task is unique, and it only stays without change when I don't evolve in it. So, it's a good thing to constantly adapt (at least, the most important) tasks title and description accordingly to my evolutions and consequent adaptation of new techniques that I'm building. This means that I need, with great awareness, to periodically check if each task is working as it should, and edit it accordingly to how it should be right now, specially Dailies and Habits. I'm thinking about adding a monthly revision about this. Adding monthly summaries instead of only the weekly ones helps a lot, too.

I'm now facing 20 dailies and more, the double of what I could do in the past, and challenging my comfort zone every day, without breaking the Perfect Day streak (I'm amazed with myself every day!). The Big Mountain of ToDo's is still to be conquered, but I'm managing it slowly: I'm using a dedicated Trello board to manage this, but it needs a serious update.

Priority monsters of the past (that is, during 1st Habitversary): I'm getting much better with my passive-aggressive behavior (thanks to a dedicated Habit), and avoiding conflict like a stealth ninja. But the world is a mess, so I'll still find opportunities for better training. I'm also understanding others better, but there will be always room for improvement on this topic. Plus, I'm building positivity and optimism behavior. These all might look like simpler things nowadays, but after reading my 1st Habitversary, I noticed how I was really struggling with these. Evolving on these issues made my life significantly better.

Tools: Forest has become a game changer for my Pomodoro Technique: I now have a tree code: Starry Tree and Rainbow Flower - Frogodoro (priorities) Moon Tree and Ghost Mushroom - Work after midnight Cactus and Ball Cactus - Avoiding priorities, but working Scarecrow and Pumpkin - Procrastinating Treehouse, Rafflesia - Domestic tasks (previously Habitica Tasks) Nest - Nap Ginkgo and Sunflower- Professional Wisteria - Writing, paperwork Mushroom - Plan Still working on it (specially the tags), but these ones will probably stay. The rooms are specially motivating, since I can invite someone else to work at the same time as me, helping me to share the burden and avoid laziness. I have now a LOT of Forest friends, and I'm very happy that some of those are Habiticans. Some conclusions: The 1st Pomodoro of the day is always the hardest. Frogodori make the day easier and easier. Habitica public challenges improve my Pomodoro dedication.

Duolingo is my go to App to start learning a language, and I'm in a streak with more than 100 consecutive days. Anki is now also used for affirmations: very useful! Trello is used for several projects that involve several tasks, and I find this very organizing, especially when I add specific quality tags to each board. IFTTT adds some cards. RescueTimer is still running on the background, but I haven't checked it for months. OneNote has more detailed notes about how I play Habitica: after this big burnout I struggled a lot to remember what each symbol and task meant, so now I have a dedicated section with everything that I'm doing regarding game mechanics (plus extra notes from specific tasks), because I can't trust my memory every time. Stylish is my permanent eye saver companion when using Habitica site (added some personal styles too), and the Chrome\Firefox extension Dark Mode (#4 (pitch dark)) is very useful, also. WunderList is not perfectly configured and I'm lazy to make it work, but will probably be using it again. Productivity Challenger and Toggl are the only two tools that I stop using since my last celebrated Habitversary.

Future ideas (brainstorming): Hard Mode: Forest in Hard Mode (every second I lose a little bit of focus, a tree dies). Try first: tree dies after 2nd or 3rd distraction. Wardrobe limits: Thinking about paying GP + a negative medium Habit every time I want to change a piece of battle equipment. I'm always using the best equipment for the best Habitica points, and because now I can beat this strategy, it's probably making the game too easier, and less dynamic. Timeclock: if I don't do a Daily by x hour or x hours after waking up, press a specific negative Habit. Offline experiment: Going back to Wunderlist, or use another extension that syncs to Habitica Dailies (shouldn't be Habits because they don't have 21 streaks). Try other extensions to improve game mechanics, automation and time spent on managing Habitica tasks. I need to reduce the time that I spent with habit tracking: although it's giving me great results, it's also probably consuming more energy and time than it should, I suspect.

Other notes: Depression and anxiety still attack from time to time, but now I have tasks and list of routines that I can do to prevent and recover from it faster than ever before, and healthier! Adding the Morning and Go To Bed Ritual is being very difficult, so instead of risking to lose the Perfect Day streak, I prefer to use my second account to get familiar and test this new routine. I inserted a limiting cheat system for Dailies: to skip a Daily, I have to pay 100 GP for each 1000 GP that I own, I can't do this more than 3 times per day, I also have to press 3 negative habits, and a £ marker needs to be added as a checklist item. A Daily cannot have more than 3 £ markers, and every time I want to remove a marker, I have to pay the same penalty as before. This makes me delay the Daily (and pay a penalty) instead of really skipping it, and if a Daily has 3 markets then I know that I really have to spend special focused time on it! I also added a -£ option, for when I do twice as much of that Daily than I should on that day. This helps me to keep doing my daily goals around the time that they need to be done, instead of EXACTLY at the time they need to be done. It brings more flexibility to the daily routines, and helps me to not avoid them, because I delay them instead of skipping them. It also makes me be focused on several Pomodori for a specific task instead of a single one per day.

I'm now (30/04/2019, updating and revising this text) on my 3rd Adventure, at level 103. I'll make a better resume of this 3rd Adventure In the beginning of next month.

P.S.: I just now realized that I haven't published the Report of my second adventure yet! So that's why I was delaying this Habitversary update… Oh well, I have to deal with it next month too. More to come!!

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