#im quite literally losing my mind

[catrassingletear]

I’m just gonna leave these here while I go on spiralling

#im quite literally losing my mind #like...HELLO?? #why are yall blushing huh???? #anything you wanna share with the class???!! #bumbleby #rwby v9 #yang xiao long #blake belladonna

[mxcrayon]

losing my actual mind rn

i had this interaction in the dropout discord (i am the first and third person). short. simple. i only got the first year bc of a discount + a gift card i had, so i was planning on using this person's suggestion.

then, i got this.

oh my god!! how nice!! how sweet!!! how thoughtful!! i gave them my email and they sent over a subscription, i thanked them profusely. i was very grateful, very touched.

hours and hours later i was still thinking about it and i recalled how, in the email id gotten about it, it said "tao yang sent you a subscription" and id seen that and thought "oh haha like the tao yang" and then moved on

but now, thinking back, i was like.... theres no way, so i googled tao yang.

......

TAO YANG BOUGHT ME A FUCKING ANNUAL DROPOUT SUBSCRIPTION

#tao yang #dropout #dropout.tv #dimension 20 #AAAAAAAAAAA #losing my literal actual mind #i think hes so funny #i was already rly grateful and touched and now im just like flustered and starstruck #this is quite literally the most celebrity interaction ive ever had in my life #and i didnt even realize while it was happening #now i want to message him again but i feel like thatd be weird #sam responded to my question once and i still think about it now months latwr #bc THAT had been the most direct celebrity intersection id had #and this was like six levels above that #crazy world we live in #anyway. i have dropout again!!!! yippee!!!!

[hella1975]

you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

#THIS FIC WAS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY #BURN IT ALL DOWN BY DOROTHYCANFLY ON AO3 THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF MY TOP 5 FICS OF ALL TIME EVER #IT'S GOT THE BEST DABI CHARACTERISATION IVE EVER COME ACROSS IT'S GOT REALLY WELL WRITTEN DABIHAWKS #THAT FITS BOTH OF THEM LIKE THEY'RE MEAN AS HELL ABOUT IT AT FIRST #IT'S GOT STUPIDLY DEVOTED TOUYA-SHOUTO IT'S GOT PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER TOUYA #IT'S GOT MENTAL ANGST WRITTEN LIKE A DREAM THE WRITING IN GENERAL IS INSANE #IT'S ACTION PACKED BUT DONE WELL SO THAT IT'S NOT TEDIOUS IT'S FUNNY IT'S GOT TWISTS #IT'S KEEPING ME ON MY TOES I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING OR HOW FAR THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GO #IVE LITERALLY READ 300K WORDS IN TWO DAYS AT THIS POINT LIKE I AM ABSOLUTELY FINISHING THIS TONIGHT #WHAT THE FUCK EVEN AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS #EVERY NEW THING THAT HAPPENS LITERALLY HAS ME GETTING UP TO PACE ABOUT #I CLOCKED OUT OF MY MUM TELLING ME OFF EARLIER BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS FIC #DO U KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS BASO JUST SIGNED MY DEATH WARRANT BUT I DIDNT CARE #losing my goddamn mind respectfully <3 if anyone has read this pls yell with me about it #and if anyone knows mha and wants a fic rec PLEASE let it be this one it's my fav mha fic ever and ive read A LOT #it gets quite smutty in the middle but if that's not ur thing the author tws very well and u can kinda just scroll #so that u still get the important character developments without it being just pure smut lol #god this FIC. holding it in my fucking fist and squeezing the everloving life out of it im going INSANE #i cant remember the last time a fic got me this way im literally giggling about it all #HE FOUND A REASON TO LIVE AGAIN THEY TOOK THIS MANGLED BLOODY BOY AND SAID WE LOVE YOU #YOU ARE GOOD YOU CAN STAY YOU CAN REST NOW WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND HE CHOSE THEM! HE CHOSE THEM! #OVER HIS REVENGE AND HIS RAGE HE CHOSE THEM! IM GOING TO BE VIOLENTLY SICK #like the author LETS DABI BE A CUNT. the first chunk of the fic he's actively not a good person #and his coping mechanisms are shot to shit and we WATCH HIM GROW FROM THAT i have cried several times over the most mundane shit #goddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDAKSJFJKAGSFIUAHGJKAKG #mha #fic rec

[pepsicoughdrops]

SLUT ! HIM ! UP!

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#WE’RE SO BACK #this is young mokji btw ^_^ pre losing his mind #as you have probably noticed i have not posted art in quite literally a year #nothing like crazy happened i just got really really sad and kind of had to learn to be human again #but i think im finally over that wall!!!!! ^_^ #my stuff #my art #oc #monster oc

[nemiisnemisis]

AKAYONA SPOILERS. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNEDDDD

ahem...i was rereading the manga last night and promptly cried.

MY BOYYYYYY

I'LL FIGHT EVERYONE WHO SAYS THAT YOU'RE A MONSTER

AUWRHRHJRJ

I REREAD JAE HA'S BACKSTORY TOO AND IT MADE ME SOB EVEN HARDER

AUEHRHRHHJJHHH

and now pairing that with what happened in the most recent chapter, all i can say is THAT ITS SO FUCKING UNFAIR.

THEY DIDNT GET A SAY IN THIS!! I KNOW EXACTLY WHY ZENO DID WHAT HE DID AND SEALED THEM IN THE CHALICE BUT FUCKING HELL, AT LEAST LET THEM SAY GOODBYE.

we have 2 more days till the new chapter...akayona fans, stay strong for me bc im losing it over fucking zeno

rurhrhrjjsksn this is what i get for wanting zeno to explain to us what the fuck is going on. well, THIS ISNT THE EXPLANATION WE WANTED ZENO!! WE WANTED THE HAPPY HUNGRY BUNCH REUNITED, NOT LIKE THAT THO

#nemi is losing it #nemi rambles #itd akayona again #I'M GETTING ANTSY BC ITS ONLY 2 DAYS LEFT #Im in too deep to quit #my happy hungry bunch... #hak fucking shed a tear man.. #HE LITERALLY DOESNT CRY #I DONT REMEMBER HIM CRYING AB SOO WONS BETRAYL #BUT AT THIS?!?? ZENO YOU PIECE OF SHIT YOU MADE MY FAVORITE CHARACTER CRY- #aurgrhrjj #stupid eternal 17 yr old thats actually 2000+ years old and losing his mind #youre lucky we love you and that we love the shit you're doing to move the plot forwards #akayona #akatsuki no yona spoilers #akatsuki no yona manga #akatsuki no yona #yona of the dawn

[girlbosswalkedoutonme]

*sinks to my knees in devastation* nacho

#i am quite literally devastated #no fr tho this episode made me lose my mind #i was literally rolling around on the floor over it #and the fact that theres still seven more episodes in the season #im sorry but i literally do not give a fuck about jimmy and his shenanigans #i have more than once been tempted to fast forward jimmy parts to get to any other character #nacho is the main character to me #i wanna read fanfic abt him but i dont want to spoil the rest of the show #bcs #girlboss speaks #nacho varga

[gonedreaminggg]

I'm rewatching mystreet love love paradise and OH MY GOD IM LOSING MY MIND

If I'm gonna let anyone or anything profit off of homophobia and queerbaiting it would be love love paradise

#thinking about the daaron kiss #and losing my mind #AND ERIC X DANTE KISS HAHAHAHSISISIS #quite literally letting the queerbaiting happen #but im living for it #aphblr #aphmau #aphmau mystreet #mystreet

[chemblrish]

x

#ngl my mental health has been garbage lately #can the ex overachiever ever know peace? #im starting to think the answer is no #years of therapy and nothing has changed #this whole thing is so painful to me the only way i can bring it up irl is through jokes #i don't live in the us we don't have this gifted program stuff here #but i was so brilliant so excellent absolutely perfect #being mediocre now is like having my heart ripped out of my chest every single day #watching people do better than me has me on the verge of losing my mind #i know it has to sound whiny and ridiculous to people who never experienced this #but success was all i ever had #successful was all i ever was #and now i have nothing and i am no one #years of being used by teachers only to end up spat out by the education system #all this pain for nothing #my therapist used to say im quite literally grieving #how long is this supposed to last? #how long until i stop feeling so worthless and miserable? #im so sick of being like this but nothing ever changes #ill probably delete this later but i needed to vent first

[rosykims]

lvl8 assassin astarion just casually dealing 72 dmg to yurgir in a sneak attack. its actually so embarrassing for the rest of this party who are managing 40 dmg on an exceptional day 😐

#tay plays bg3 #man has straight up carried my ass thru every single fight the last 3 playthrus #i dont think i can take him out of my party even if i wanted to anymore. im too dependent on him for survival lol #it still blows my mind seeing ppl on t*kt*k complaining that he does no damage #bc well that has simply not been my experience <3 have u considered maybe he just doesnt like u and wants u to tpk <3 #KJGFDKF #anyways to tie this into lily lore #i can so imagine a post game conversation happening w him expressing some... wariness about how powerful lily is #in terms of being a warlock/noble #and she has to be like well babe if i ever lose my pact i am quite literally fucked. bc i am useless in a fight as u know <3 #she couldnt even fight off lvl 1 astarion on the beach w a cantrip let me tell u that shit was ALSO so embarrassing #oc: lily

[lastmayqueen]

neil what the fuck

#WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME #ME PERSONALLY BUT ALSO ME THE GAYS #I! AM! DISTRAUGHT!!! #HOW AM I MEANT TO EMOTIONALLY RECOVER FROM THIS I ASK YOU #IM LITERALLY ASKING HAS ANYONE RECOVERED FROM THIS YET #“i forgive you” in the venn diagram of religious trauma and internalised homophobia #im. jesus CHRIST #what fucking crack were you on neil i ask you this #NO NIGHTINGALES #NO FUCKING PEACE FOR ME EITHER #when your partner gets rehired/big promotion but now they are. a terrorist #aziraphale. sweetie. you just saw the head angel in charge QUIT for love of a demon. #HOW DID YOU THINK THIS WOULD WORK OUT #im losing my mind #good omens #good omens 2 #go2 spoilers

[delightfuldevin]

Idk what it is about splatfests but I always play so bad during them. I never lose as often nor as badly at turf war as I do during splatfests and it makes the game less enjoyable for me :/

#devin’s gaming logs #king sad sack #yeah this is kinda a vent #i dont understand why i do so badly during splatfests #i am bad at this game but i am not *this* bad #literally the only times ive won so far have been against my own team so they dont count anyway #like. yeah i do lose quite often at this game in general #but i know that its exponentially worse during splatfests and its so frustrating #the other thing too is that i lose by a lot which is very frustrating #i dont mind losing since i know im bad #but when i lose like 5 times in a row and its like a 30-70 ratio everytime it makes me feel really fucking horrible #and i dont want to hear ‘its just a game’ #i *know* its just a game i *know* that the point is to have fun and normally i do! #i just get really really frustrated trying to play and losing by so much multiple times in a row #when that normally doesnt happen #it is very rare for me to lose a turf war with a huge ratio like that yet it happens nearly everytime during splatfests #normally its like 40-50 at worse but most of the time both of our teams are in 40s #doesnt help that i cant run to another mode when i need to cool off #i usually go to turf war when i get tired of losing splat zones or rainmaker

[enevera]

okay now im annoyed like sincerely i am. how can a show with a budget of like 1 MILLION USD be trying to tell me that there’s some legit reason for male characters not having long hair. i hate this i am being so irrationally angry about this who let me give into temptation and finally look at the pics on the wiki i am living in a nightmare

#WHERE IS ELRONDS HAIR WHY IS IT SO SHORTTTT #I KNOW YALL CAN FUCKING AFFORD THE WIGS I AM LOSING MY MIND #sauron gets a pass bc blah blah fake identity blah blah his usual bullshit but. ELROND. CELEBRIMBOR. WHY SHORT HAIR #GALADRIEL HAS LONG HAIR I KNOW ITS WIG I HATE EVERYONE INVOLVED IN THIS SHOW SM AND I HAVENT EVEN SEEN IT JFC #this isnt even abt anything im just talking rn #sorry. online to rant about this bc it is a nitpick of a show im never going to watch bc quite frankly it sounds like a waste of time and #i hope amazon explodes wholesale before season 2 can ever come out pls and thx #but also im angry about the hair.. why would u ruin something as fun as men with long hair this is tragic #this show could literally not be less canon to me if it tried. i hope they never get to glorfindel coming back bc if they #give him short hair i will literally be so pissed like bro died for that shit at least let him keep it smh

[mefilas]

what sucks so hard is how life keeps me from doing what I love. I have so many games to play and things to draw and stuff to build but by the end of the day after school and homework I'm too exhausted to even think about any of that, let alone attempt it. even my days off are just energyless slogs as I try to recover from everything else and do the chores I couldn't do due to all the other work !!!!!

#im losing my mind i wish my body wasnt so tired all the time #i just want to draw and play judgement and build my silly model houses but i quite literally cant make myself do anything #that makes me happy anymore yknow. #wow two rant posts from me in a day thats crazy. so much new masa lore to be blessed with #okay bye im so so so so tired . 9:15 and i need to sleep

[strawberryseeded]

ok took me long enough to notice (+20 yrs) but apparently ppl usually change topics every few minutes while conversing with each other instead of wanting 2 keep going on and on abt an specific topic they care abt for 3hrs straight

#i mean i do know how to small talk Quite Well i.. think. im p sure #also i actually Do Understand Its Importance ! like.. u need 2 get 2 kno ppl.. cover the basics.. uuh. questionaires... #for most ppl is boring 2 talk abt a single topic 4 a long time. also its risky.. what if the other person isn't interested in it ?????????? #i GET it.. but whenever i lose focus i always end up babling 4 way too long anyways w/o realizng th othr person isnt that into it #im not kiddin when i say i realized this literally only a few hrs ago.. i always thought i was just 'bad' at conversation #whenever i wanted 2 keep talking abt smt VERY IN DEPTH i either felt like 'oh i lost my chance' or got direct 'thats over now's #i always felt like it was my fault. i know realize its just my way of enjoying conversations #i cant change how i feel just try 2 keep up w what most ppl like 2 do instead. as always #luckily i got som ppl in my life that actually dont mind me babblering for a long time :) ive always appreaciated that #di4ry

[the-kipsabian]

if i had a choice i would drop this job in a heartbeat im so fucking burnt out from this week alone holy shit

#almost from just this day alone tbh #i feel like im losing my mind #but i cant quit or i literally lose like at least half of my income with no recovery in at least three months #fuck this system tbh i need a vacation #night is an absolute mess on main

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#... all this god damn anxiety and idk everything else ive been losing my mind over lately has led to me smoking so god damn much #without realizing. i keep not understand where the packs of cigarettes are going its actually kinda scary #i bought like 3 yesterday?? yesterday?? (not that it feels at all like yesterday my sense of time is fucked) and they were gone by half #through today #.... and its kept happening. or id buy 2 packs at midday and by next midday id be like?? where the fuck are my cigs #...... my lungs hurt #i really really need to lay off or just quit. #the genetic disorder makes my skin/tissues/etc more easily damaged. and it takes longer to heal #...... so all the smoking has already led to. uhhh. wounds in my mouth and tongue. and my gums are hurting again because of it #not to mention my throath which is fucked..... and all of these were already in bad shape from the bulimia rip #im gonna consider it a miracle if i dont get cancer but also i should reallt stop literally playing with fire and literally burning my body #from the inside out #its a constant discomfort snd pain ive grown used to among all the others but this is too far #..... no idea how im not just gonna start cutting again the moment i quit tho #but tbh. maybe that'd be better???? literally does no long lasting damage. im already covered in scars and i dont mind them. and it wouldnt #give me fucking cancer