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gokubrain · 6 months

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hello!! i wanted to ask what you think about the cell arc and cell in general :-) it’s my absolute favorite arc and i just love cell so much, i don’t have anyone to discuss my dragon ball thoughts with so i’m excited to hear what you have to say😄

HELLO i have lots to say so buckle in LOL

overall, when ranking the Z arcs, i unfortunately have to put cell arc at the bottom. THAT DOESN’T MEAN ITS BAD BY ANY MEANS THOUGH !!! i love the cell arc, i love cell, i love gohan, i love trunks, i love the androids. its just that when i compare it to the other arcs, it falls a little short lol..

i think the reason i rank it so low compared to other arcs largely has to do with goku and vegeta’s (separate) character arcs lol. it’s both of their WORST arcs by far. neither of them are ever present, and when they are present… theyre not making the best decisions lmfao specifically vegeta man i cannot STAND him in cell arc he really really gets on my nerves. goku is more understandable and requires a deeper explanation but vegeta simply just SUCKS in this arc lmfao

this is gohan’s best arc tho by far. and if ur a fan of side characters like piccolo and krillin then cell arc is a great arc for u ! this is basically everyone’s best arc but goku n vegeta lolol

dont even get me started on cell himself.. >_< 💕 he’s such a handsome guy lol there’s a lot of weird homosexual tension between him and goku for some reason IM NOT COMPLAINING THO i eat that shit up im a cellku lover til death 🔥✊

also i love trunks so much omg literally one of the best characters in fiction period. full stop. i adore that boy 🫶

i guess i’ll discuss the goku senzu scene too LMFAO .. since it needs to be said…… people are incredibly harsh on goku for giving cell a senzu bean. like, TOO harsh. he wasn’t doing it maliciously and he wasn’t doing it out of stupidity, as everyone in this dumbass fandom claims. goku is smart okay if you disagree thats fine but ur wrong, he’s very smart when it comes to battle and he wasn’t really considering gohan’s feelings about fighting when planning to awaken ssj2 in him. like .. okay .. the way i see it is that goku’s whole existence revolves around fighting and battle and growing stronger. its all he thinks about all day every day. and to want his son to be as strong as he can be isn’t an act of selfishness, it’s goku’s way of trying to help and bond with gohan. his heart is in the right place seriously he isnt trying to be selfish at all its just… actually a very smart way to approach it, its just that goku wasn’t really considering what gohan wanted because he couldnt fathom anyone not wanting to grow in strength.. he is proud of gohan and wants him to be the best he can be.. idc idc goku is a good dad. we all fuck up sometimes okay he’s a way better dad than fucking vegeta by any and all measure i’m sorry its true tho lol i’d go into this more but i feel kinda weird having this whole analysis of one scene in the middle of this otherwise brief arc review so 😭 i’ll move on

all in all cell arc is rly great, theres constantly shit happening and everyone is in deep distress 100% of the time which is rly entertaining to watch lmao its also a great arc for a lot of characters, other z fighters who arent goku and vegeta get the chance to shine in this arc and thats epic. unfortunately tho vegeta is unbearable and goku is …. debatably questionable in this arc so it goes at the bottom for me 💔 still adore it tho

#thanks for asking hehe #sorry its so rambly #you know me… cant ever shut up #i think about the gohan and goku situation quite a lot #it sucks. its just a shitty scenario #what goku did had to be done but it still sucks #he was only thinking in terms of battle strategy.. cuz its what he knows…#no i cant i have to stop talking abt it lolol #ill ramble about it forever cuz gohan and goku’s relationship is very important to me #i have a lot of thoughts on it #anyway #dbz #answered

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quirkle2 · 1 year

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listen. i am here to listen about your au, please tell me more about the suncaster au. people will happily listen!

i am one of said people!

AAA CRIES . hmmmmmm i don't know what exactly to talk abt so im prolly just gonna word-vomit all over this post im so sorry

i rly like exploring their characterizations and they're the easiest for me to explain so let's start w that i guess. one of my fav things to think about is fig and it not quite being the hero that follows fantasy/fairytale standards

to sum it up, what i mean by that is, if he were put in a position to either a) save its boys, or b) save literally everybody else on the planet, he'd choose his boys. it's not going to sacrifice what it loves the most (and people that do not deserve that fate) for "the greater good." it knows that is selfish, and it knows that a lot of people would probably scowl at him if they were told his opinion on it, and sometimes even he is a little disgusted with his stance, but it stands firm in it

it knows it deserves better. he has already sacrificed enough—more than most people ever sacrifice in a lifetime. if the gods asked it to do it again, it would refuse. not his family. ganon can swallow the entire world up in its gullet if it wants to—as long as it means it does Not touch his boys

the meaning of "hero" gets a little bent after a hero is willing to do something like that, but that term no longer means very much to fig

hmmmmmm what else,,, i guess i could talk abt their dark world forms and how they work ? im thinking that briar is the only one of them that can willingly change between forms with an item—he has his shadow crystal, and the others have to use that to shift to their dw form. to switch out, they have to touch the master sword (or use a moon pearl)

usually that's not an issue for them bc their animal forms have bags n shit to carry that stuff, but for the smaller ones like wars and legend, it becomes a bit of an issue ? a little ferret cannot carry a sword. usually though, he simply sticks to the larger of the crew, who carry his sword for him

they each have abilities in their dw forms! wars' ability is to see through stuff (kinda based off the fact that ferrets like to burrow underground). lumen's (which i might add to) is the ability to freely mimic Any sound he has ever heard perfectly, regardless of whether or not her body would be able to produce that sound normally. briar's, which i think is prolly the coolest, is to sink in with the shadows and disappear. think how u can disappear into the ink in splatoon! he excels in combat in darker places

haven't thought of good powers for legend or fig yet. i have some ideas for fig, but we'll see :]

that's all i can think of rn but !! always happy to answer asks abt em eeee :)

#qktalks #autumnalchemist #suncaster au #suncaster effigy

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james-fun-in-the-sunderland · 11 months

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all main 4:

16, 35, 39, 44, 54, 62, 64, 69

for party q’s, u can either do just main 4 to answer or like full rebellion or like . main 4 pcs and npcs.. up 2 u!

omg hi zee 👋 obligatory link back to tha ask game post

16. What keeps them going?

Swords: not to be corny but hope and love :) she has hope that everything will work out in the end and is also very driven by the people around her!! helping them out, giving them hope in hopes that theyll give her the hope she needs in return almost... w2 moments

Wiz: WHAT DOES KEEP THIS GUY GOING????? LACK OF DEATH MAINLY I GUESS. and moreso honestly... its because of his inability to really genuinely step away from any self imposed duty that he has. if he has obligation, even if he REALLY doesnt want to do it, he will do his best to see it through to the end. sometimes these obligations are self made tho and thats where some issues crop up bc people are like u dont have to . and hes like I HAVE TO. but i will complain the entire time bc god i wanna just chill instead.

Daggers: the belief that one day she will figure everything out, things will make sense to her, she will get the love that she deserves, and she will be happy... even if she does get this though theres not much holding her back from not believing it and keeping going... shes a bit selfish but thats ok thats fun hehe. I think one day she will get it and be satisfied and then what will keep her going is ... keeping that up. u kno? gotta hold up appearances

Hook: justice. genuinely and truely, they want justice for the world and for themselves and for their brother. previously before the pcs got their brother back to them it would have been u kno, getting their brother back but now theyre like ok revenge time. i want everyone who made me suffer to suffer now thanks . they will not rest until the rebellion is successful and them and their brother can get nice little cottages out in the mountains and live happily :) no fear of anything ...

aaaand im putting the rest under the cut bc otherwise this post WILL be a million miles long

35. Do they consider themselves childish/mature for their age?

Swords: mature! she thinks shes more mature than most people she meets, the only exception would be any mentor figures in her life, like you know, henrietta, her grandmother, etc. but generally if she meets someone shes like i know more and am more mature than u. this especially applies to those in the rebellion

Wiz: he likes to think mature, or even just like on equal footing w people around his age, but he knows hes childish for his age :( really the only person he really genuinely thinks hes more mature than is his brother and even with him hes like 'ok but thats mainly bc i literally am older than him'. wiz has issues ✌

Daggers: mature, she puts on a front that seems more childish and naive but inside shes like all you bitches are so childish i care about REAL iissues. like . how i am soso mentally ill and have issues. and the govt and the world. sooooo im more mature.

Hook: TBH, hook doesnt rly think theyre childish OR mature for their age, they find themself on pretty equal footing no matter who theyre talking to bc theyre like pretty casual and prefer to like have equality between ppl theyre talking to and like dont care at all about filling in roles, like being more of a mentor figure OR being someone who is menteed you know? but theyre mature for their age, especially when they were a child, growing up on the streets with no parents and a little brother will do that to you ✌

39. What does your character believe their party lacks?

Swords: For the rebellion well . its a little obvious, theres no real direction to it still!! most of the other things the rebellion lacks though has recently been fulfilled since the pcs came back and picked out a lil hq location :) theres also a part of her that thinks the rebellion without henrietta will always be lacking something and all of that but shes !! working on it !!

Wiz: also thinks the rebellion lacks a clear direction, and that it lacks people who genuinely care about the cause and arent just doing this to puppet the old rebellions corpse to get it to success. hes WORKING on the direction part. being the leader and all . but its still hard since there is no real unified vision of the rebellion anymore, just anecdotes of the old one. Wiz would rather the rebellion either not exist at all or that people forgot about the old one. too bad its almost a requirement that the old rebellion be brought up and people from it to join for the success of this one <3

Daggers: being that she hasnt ever had experience being in a group like this before, idk if she has much of a thought on what it lacks! maybe people that focus more on details instead of the big picture, which is how it feels rn, everthings kind of vague and depersonalized, which worked back when it was small but now its getting bigger and people might get lost in all of this bustle... u kno?

Hook: basically a conglomerate opinion of all the previous ones. Hook honestly doesnt care too too much about the rebellion as a whole, and mainly just hopes that it never lacks the ability for the to have some independence, that they can do what they need to do and nobody will hold them back.

44. How do they hold onto people?

this is such an interesting q... many ways to interpret this...

Swords: GUILT!!!! swords is pretty openly a manipulator honestly when it comes down to this. its not even conscious honestly. she doesnt want people to ever leave her bc it makes her feel a bit worthless and stuff so she just tries her best to make sure people stick around :) in whatever ways she possibly can ! this all only really happens if she can tell people are like distancing themselves from her tho btw.. otherwise its business as usual!

Wiz: honestly. by being dependable. wiz only really knows how to exist when its deferential to another person. its partially why him being the leader has sucked but this also means that should he be shoved, he will get stuff done. and he knows that people need people who can get stuff done, thus making him kinda indispensable. kinda manipulative but ummmm u guyys dont even know he . is . a little bit lmao . (btw this is also why he was a terrible brother <3) (also regardless of whether wiz likes someone or not, he tends to try and hold onto them... kinda cringe)

Daggers: by trying her best to be loveable. trying to mold herself into someone desireable that people will see as attractive and worthy of their time and attention. this model is mostly based on her sister who managed to hold the entirety of her family but its . not successful at all <3 but that doesnt mean she wont stop trying to be her inauthentic self until her identity is purely based on what she thinks others enjoy. though, if she doesnt like someone, she wont try too hard to hold onto them

Hook: by taking care of them, chilling with them... being a good friend :) you can usually tell if they like you because theyll chill around u like a cat... and also like bring u thngs... again like a cat... theyre not too dissimilar from how wiz does but in a less like... deferential way and more of a parental way almost? it can ofc become deferential tho, and in most times if hook wants someone to like them, they will become very sort of... not subserviant but like... very obviously only doing things that will make them liked by that person and not caring much about themself? more selfless than selfish ! much like daggers, but going even farther, if hook knows someone doesnt like.. want to be held onto then they will let them go...

54. What is something they currently look forward to? What is something they dread?

Swords: shes looking forward to having the PCs back around and also getting this rebellion together!! shes excite to see where everything gets taken and their future victories, of course that also comes with the absolute dread of failure, of death and destruction happening to those she loves... so :)

Wiz: YOU GUYS ALREADY KNOW WHAT HES DREADING!! but for people who arent in this dnd game, wiz is soooososoo anxious abt his recent sudden multiclass into cleric bc he hates divinity and gods and everything and is like if i got possessed by a god its all over . and right when i was actually trying to be a good leader too 😭 I will say tho.. he is looking forward to the rebellion... maybe working out and having more people around... new people to meet and chat with... the pcs to be around and be silly... also he missed daggers <3

Daggers: She is looking forward to having more people around that she is much more familiar with, being able to chill after a long hard two missions in a row, and to be able to like... process everything in a more healthy way and like... u kno, having a support system instead of people she barely knows and who she knows dont like her very much... i think she is dreading a little bit like... actually moving past this all though? like who is she going to be when she actually moves past her grief and her fear of death and feeling like genuinely yes she is not a bad person for having accidentally killed someone... who will she be... shes a bit unsure and a bit nervous of that...

Hook: hook WAS looking forward to seeing their brother finally for the first time in like 10 years but then it happened and it was great!!! so now theyre looking forward to the past... looking forward to the rebellion being put together like it was before and being able to help people, fix things, be useful and not only to their siblings or to their friends! theres more people around, more things to do, more stuff to just get into... its gonna be fun ^-^ but i do think they dread losing people, probably are going to be very on people about like .. fortifying the hq so theres no chance they could lose their brother or anyone they care about ever again !!

62. Who does your character think is the most put together in the party?

Swords: in the rebellion? herself. She thinks shes mature, prepared, experienced, etc etc... the only thing is that if shes ever like... prodded on this or have to actually SHOW that shes most put together she will crumple <3 in the PCs party..... rushi probably! reminds her of her grandmother who was a big mentor figure in her life and so shes like :) she has it all under control :)

Wiz: in the rebellion........ probably nobody. in the pcs party ALSO NOBODY 🥳 he 1- has trust issues and 2- is very cynical and pessmistic, so not only is he like nah i dont think anyone really has it together, but he doesnt TRUST that anyone does. If you stretch . maybe at most he thinks jacques and talfryn both have something, but even then wiz is like theyre YOUNG theyll make dumb mistakes that show they have NOTHING together... but yea

Daggers: in the rebellion, wiz! shes very much like... hes the leader... ofc he has everything toegther... plus u know, hes a paternal figure to her and that makes her VERY biased in who she thinks to go to for anything or even just like... thinking about whos got it together. in the PCs party, probably talfryn. he reminds her of her older brother whos probably one of the most successful people in her family, plus hes got some like very good self assurance that really show her that hes got things under control.

Hook: in the rebellion....... themselves. and in the PCs party, nobody probably? I think that much like wiz, hook is a bit cynical, plus although they dont really show it, they are a bit self assured, they know what they can deal with, what they can do, and dont really trust that other people know that of themselves and that theyll easily overextend themselves u kno?

64. What is one thing they want each party member to know?

Swords: in the rebellion.... 🤔 probably she desperately wants daggers to know that she doesnt hate her, that she doesnt have any ill will towards her and in fact, would like her and hang out w her if she wasnt soooo touchy about things. in the PCs.... probably wants all them to really know that she wants to b closer to them and like appreciates them... i think swords really doesnt think people GET how much she apprecates them... or like enjoys their presence...

Wiz: in the rebellion..... you know what, i think both in the rebellion and in the PCs he wants people to know that he . is so sorry for being a lil shit <3 he doesnt really like ... talk in an earnest way so really any earnest feelings he has he would like people to know about and i think right now hes just like man. this could have been happening way earlier if i just had chilled out. like he doesnt recognize his mistakes in the moment and will often defend them but god forbid he actually apologize after the fact, he wishes he could just BEAM the knowledge of these apologies and everything into peoples minds.

Daggers: I think for both the pcs and the rebellion she probably would want them to know about her... to understand her in some kind of way so theres no real confusion when talking to them, and so maybe theyll be able to fully point her in the right direction when it comes to advice and stuff, bc she feels like ppl dont really truely KNOW her... or know HER u kno?

Hook: honestly . hook wishes that people would just . know how to communicate with them. im sure its probably really frustrating dealing with the PCs bc they have to do a less direct way of talking to them (through typing on their phone) bc like while theyre fast at typing they find it easier to just SIGN. and as far as the rebellion, they want wiz and probably swords too to know that theyre not like . going anywhere... even tho they have their brother back, theyre still there for wiz and swords... still able to be friends with them u kno?

69. Journey or Destination?

Swords: Journey! a very big believer in the whole dont cry because its over smile because it happened person, this isnt to say that she DOESNT cry because its over of course, she gets sad about the idea of the rebellion ending but is excited about it being successful! but ... of course she still does enjoy the thrills of victories and having people to support her through losses... etc... so she likes the journey more ^-^

Wiz: Journey, wiz dreads the destination always. the journey is more fun and everything is somewhat more stable somehow, but the destination is when everything ends, everyone goes home and the show is over.

Daggers: Destination, she values results more than what gets those results. plus most of the time she just finds journeys to be tedious and wants for any suffering to be over with immediately!! shes sick of it!! but also shes addicted to it so <3 even tho she desires the destination she may never get it bc she will always look for the destination u kno?

Hook: Destination, they just want to chill . please . plus journeys are dangerous and people do bad things and they do bad things and its just BAD. can we get to the part where we're all drinking margaritas with little umbrellas on the beach now? pls?

#FINALLY GOT THIS DONE . <3 #SORRY especially to the anon . i will answer ur qs soon... but for now.... zee gets a little treat 💖#rev lore #dnd comeback #DW . I WILL WRITE A BIG POST ABT THIS GAME SOON #probably right after i solve some silt verses cyphers #ignore any spelling mistakes also pls

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solskens · 5 years

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how do i pass time without being on social media pls let me know

#me and my girlfriend broke up. so i am... crushed. yes.#so being on social media where i still associate things with her sort of sucks #also i can feel my brain decaying from all fucking good omens i see on my dash #but its like.. i really dont want to do anything. at all.#i dont want to watch series bc im too sad for the plot n i watched some with her and i just dont want to #and i cant read bc it is so hard to concentrate #n im home mostly alone for three more days #n my friend said she could come hug me after work tomorrow but that is so far away #i went to bed at eight yesterday but thats bc i slept 2 hours the previous night bc i couldnt sleep n did the dishes at 4 am instead #also this is a genuine question #and yes im bathing in self pity but i think that sometimes i get to be selfish enough to do that. n also i already startd being rly selfish #n letting myself be selfish... about already being selfish... feels better #bc look the moods are elither im a terrible person and everyone hates me #oooor i did what i had to do n it wasnt ideal it wasnt great but it sure as fuck was needed n i needed to get things out. or like me sad.#i think ill delete some of these tags soon bc public journaling isnt great #but sEE this is also why i shouldnt use social media for a while!!!#i should go clean out a hairbrush so i can use it without crying bye #also i guess we have shared mutuals feel free to softblock me if u r gonna... take sides? which is weird to do but whatever. @ b99 fans

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minahoeshi · 3 years

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you were loved the most of all.

Ushijima Wakatoshi x reader | break-up angst

summary: You should've known that when Ushijima Wakatoshi found it easy to fall in love with you, it might be even easier for him to fall out of it. But who expects the worst when it comes to loving someone as seemingly perfect as him, anyway?

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He said it was easy to fall in love with you. He said he didn’t know when exactly, at which place, nor for what reason. Simply one day, Ushijima Wakatoshi found himself looking at you with the epiphany that maybe there’s something more meant to happen between you and him. There you stood before him that day, the person he could promise love to. (And there he stood before you that moment, the boy whose promises you found yourself believing in no matter what.)

So maybe that’s why it was even easier for him to fall out of love. When he told you he was no longer in love with you, it didn’t matter to you to ask when exactly, at which place, or for what reason. Even the universe itself is meant to fizzle out one day along with the death of the stars. Just one more person drifting away from you like a lone planet with no real orbit shouldn’t leave you broken. You are used to this. You won’t fall apart.

But you break anyway.

It was snowing outside when he decided to tell you to end things now before it hurts both of you even further. Not that the snow has anything to do with the coldness creeping up your chest threatening to spill out of you in endless sobs. You were glad, though. That at the very least, he remained honest with his feelings. He never left you guessing. Every time, he never forgets to tell you what’s on his mind. His honesty is something he thought was necessary.

“I understand, don’t worry. Thank you for telling me right away. I know you’re also considering me–” you tell him and choke up. There are tears running down your face but you’re not worried about that. Wakatoshi never let you mask your emotions around him. For the longest time, he reminded you to feel free to be completely bare with him. All the good and the bad, he said. Don’t be afraid to show them to me. I will always understand.

He steps closer and puts you between his arms. You feel his chin on top of your head as you lean your face into his chest. You’re sobbing now. “I’ll be fine, Toshi. We’ll be fine.”

He kisses the top of your head and lets you stay in his arms for minutes. “I loved you then, and I love you still. It’s just that they’re no longer the same kind. I will stay if you ask me to, okay? Anything you want.”

This only makes you cry harder. He’s always been too good. And even in breaking your heart, he’s too good. You want him to hold on. You want to ask him to stay with you for years and years. Even with a different kind of love, you’ll let him be as long he’s close by. But someone like him who has dreams beyond yourself shouldn’t ever be with someone like you who still lacks certainty toward anything.

“Just for tonight,” you ask, still crying. “Can I stay?”

“of course,” he replies. Anytime you want. Anything you want. It has always been this way.

Because humans are creatures of routines and familiarity, you spend that night the way you usually do when you’re at his place. You cook dinner with him and eat on the dining table, sharing stories and laughter. You keep adding food to his plate and he smiles as you giggle at everything you find funny.

It’s okay, it’s okay. You’ll be okay. You’ll be fine.

You clean the kitchen and stay in the living room. He leans on the couch as you lay down with your head on his lap. You keep talking and laughing. He goes along, sometimes adding things to make you laugh even more, sometimes simply agreeing, sometimes asking questions. You keep it loud and light, afraid of the silence. Inside you, it’s so heavy, your heart might just fall off. This will be the last, you tell yourself. You want to be happy for now. While he’s still here.

"Do me a favor, okay?" You tell him as you're nearing slumber. "Let me leave first tomorrow. Maybe stay in bed, maybe pretend you're asleep. But tomorrow, don't get out of the room until I've left the house." Your voice shakes, feeling yourself wanting to sob.

"I don't want to wake up to another empty bed but I don't want to see your face when I wake up too," you curl into him even further. "I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry I still don't really know what to do. And I know you wake up pretty early and you know, do stuff, but just for tomorrow, please?"

Wakatoshi didn't really understand why. He originally planned on cooking breakfast for you and taking you to the train station. He would watch you board the train and he'd make sure to smile at you as he waves. You always waved back. That's how it works. Even after fights, and even after especially bad nights, you'd still do the same. Watching you leave with a smile was how you both knew you'd still be fine the days after. That nothing much can affect your relationship. For years, this has been the routine.

But tomorrow, he knows he has to give way. He knows what he said hurt you. It would be wrong of him to do what he wants simply because he's used to.

Tomorrow's the last, he realises. And then if you want, he'd never see you again.

You wake up pretty early. The sky is a calm shade of blue, the world outside still waking up. You check the time on your phone and find it's 6 AM. Last night, you slept with your back on him. The sight before you is the other end of his bedroom and you notice just how much of yourself you've managed to leave around his place. Pieces of just one other person in his life, scattered in places around his world pretending that’s just where they belong. You didn't mind leaving things behind back then. You never really thought of the day that you might’ve to take back all of them. Just how does one pick up parts of themselves when they thought they’ve finally found a place for them to stay?

But as you stand up, you conclude that when things end, traces shouldn’t be left behind. He didn’t decide to break up only to be reminded of you even after you’re no longer close to him. So you go and pick every little thing that's yours. Even your jacket and sweaters and a few pairs pyjamas in his closet. You'll just take his things from your place too and hand it to Tendou's shop. Coming back here won’t do you any good. Him coming to your place instead wouldn’t either.

Collecting all your things, even the ones you can't use anymore, you leave the bedroom and enter the living room. You don't have many belongings here aside from some DVDs and books. You only take the books and leave the rest for him. You've always preferred reading anyway.

Setting your bag and things aside on the sofa, you go ahead and wash yourself in the bathroom and bring your toothbrush and some other products with you when you're done. You then head to the kitchen to cook him something light to eat for breakfast . You knew you didn't have to. He knows how to cook. It has always been him cooking breakfast for you. When you could, you’d rather stay in bed until the very moment you must start preparing to go to uni or work. But you did anyway. He's probably in his bed, awake. He has never been a heavy sleeper. With all the moving you did around his room, he was bound to wake up if he wasn't already.

You make him a simple omelette and write a small message on top of it with ketchup. "Good luck with practice today!"

You've already cleaned everything you used, preferring to wash and set utensils as soon as you're done with them. That way, when you're sitting down to eat, there won't be any cluster around to distract you.

You put the ketchup down and decide that should be enough. You'll stop here. You should go now.

Ushijima is sitting on his bed. He's been awake since 5 AM when he usually goes on his run. It isn't the first time he chose to stay with you instead of going out, but he can't help but feel heavy this time. He stayed in for you. But as the minutes pass by, it seems that he simply cannot find the courage to sit up and face you.

He wants to sink into his bed.

There's knock on the door followed by sentences uttered softly. "Toshi, I'm going now. There's breakfast on the table. Make sure to eat before you go."

There goes the heavy feeling again. Maybe if this keeps up, he might just actually sink and never get back up.

You've done that a few times. Leaving while he's still in the room. You don't even open the door. You simply knock and tell him you're about to go, always reminding him to eat before he goes too.

But this will be the last, he thinks. If you leave now, will he never see you again?

a/n

chapter 2 will be up soon not rly sure when tho. (it's up now the link is at the top)

also, im not entirely sure but i think i didnt use any pronouns or gendered nouns for this except "girl" in the 1st paragraph which i erased just now? if i'm right, then i hope everyone reading this get to feel as though theyre rly the person in the story. unless ofc u dont want that bc this isnt the happiest ushitoshi x reader fic u can find🥲. but thanks for reading!!!! m so sorry for typos nd other errors as well. i kinda cant read my own writings bc sometimes doing so makes me wanna smack myself in the head and never write again nd i hate that so now im leaving my mistakes to the gods nd hope they love me enough or smth. but yes thank u sm again for reading!!!!

#ushijima x reader #ushijima scenarios #ushijima angst #ushijima fanfic #ushijima reader insert #ushijima x y/n #ushijima wakatoshi

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latinozevran-archive · 3 years

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What do you think of Sentarō and Kaoru’s relationship as a whole ?

i just assume you are new here thank u so much for prompting me to talk abt kots if u have seen it i hope you liked the boy problems amv i made it for myself but also the brave few who are entertained by kots in 2021 so anyways lets get into it now isnt this the question well first of all it is like entrancingly toxic um i guess sometimes u just need that rep where u are sitting there the whole time waiting for sentaro to realize that he doesnt need kaoru like the world is bigger than your first real crush on your boy best friend u know there are other gay ppl out there but he was like no the only other man for me is the lord which i suppose u know. that was a choice. the list of occupations for gay characters written by homophobes is not terribly long. but im getting off topic.

the thing for me is just that to be blunt i kind of simply hate kaoru he is so deeply unlikable to me which just adds to the craziness of the show so it is what it is but riko i mean she liked him but i think w enough time she wouldve just been like damn okay shit just goes down so late but things happen w sentaro so immediately in the show where they meet and sentaro is like wow love at first sight and then kaoru proceeds to treat him fairly terribly for like the rest of the show he is so selfish and inconsiderate this boy would rly do anything for him and yet he is just jealous and cruel abt every little thing and its only on the scale of the damage a 16 year old boy can do lol but it sucks and well to answer your question in more concise wording i guess if this was more what u were wondering:

i find it hilarious for anyone to imply u were not intended to think they were gay and the layers of their feelings for one another were fundamentally wrapped up in that like u can call it a personal interpretation but um dare i ask anyone who says this to simply rewatch it because this brings me to the second half of my conclusion: its not like i want them to be gay their relationship is so fucking toxic my friend em and i the sentaro/seiji warriors of the internet. and yet

#o #sna #AKSJDBFN IN THE EVENT U ARE UNFAMILIAR WITH MY WORK #I APOLOGIZE IF U WERE UNPREPARED FOR THE FACT THAT I EXCLUSIVELY COMMUNICATE IN TEXT WALLS #its a genetic disease and its incurable #also like. this was not a true love situation barrier being homophobia #firmly believe that if they lived in modern day and it was less unthinkable to like #know u were gay as a teen admit it to yourself maybe be out to your friends at least #these people would have grown up and fallen completely out of touch as adults. lol #that was really simply gay teenager madness that god willing most ppl are able to leave behind as adults

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alanncs · 4 years

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hi my angels ! my name’s dani , i’m from toronto ontario aka best city in the worldt , & i’m 20 ! i’m the kelsey m on the main & i can’t tell u how excited i am to have wealthy up n running again ! i literally can’t wait to plot with all you beautiful peoples , so pls like this & i’ll slide in the dms , otherwise u can also hit me up on discord 𝒎𝒈𝒌'𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒆 .#1958 !! i’m gonna put all you need 2 know about alanna below aaand i hope y’all like her ! <3

new york’s very own alanna d'alessio was spotted on broadway street in gucci bee sneakers . your resemblance to hailey baldwin is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty first birthday bash . while living in nyc , you’ve been labeled as being reticent , but also gracious . i guess being a scorpio explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be anything pink , the lingering smell of weed , and a cigarette between her fingers . & ( cisfemale & she/her ) + ( dani , 20 , she/her , est . )

* / 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑠 .

full name : alanna marie d’alessio .

age : twenty - one .

hometown : new york city .

zodiac chart : scorpio sun , aquarius moon , libra rising .

character inspo : alyssa ( the end of the f*cking world ) , marissa cooper ( the o.c ) , hanna marin ( pretty little liars ) .

* / 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚 !! tw : kidnapping , ransom , drugs

alanna was born heir to the d'alessio family which came with the billion dollar dynasty that her parents created .

her dad is an italian government official but they grew up in ny basically bc her dad is an ambassador/representative for italy & her mother is a super model who also wanted to raise her kids here having lived here her whole life , and so they did .

she had everything handed to her on a silver platter and her parents expected nothing but success from her because of how wealthy they were, they knew they would never have to worry about providing for her and her siblings , and so they spoiled her with whatever she asked for and more

but that came with a price, she was expected to do everything they wanted of her, go to an ivy league college, follow in one of her parent’s career footsteps

alanna did just that, she got amazing grades in high school and was head of many student clubs, organized prom, got almost perfect on sat’s and exams, and busted her ass to get into a good college despite the fact that her parents could’ve easily gotten her a spot if she didn’t do as well as she did

her life was going so well, she had the perfect boyfriend, perfect group of friends, was on her way to brown university in a couple of months, her parents and her couldn’t have been in a better spot with their daughter

the last thing they expected was for someone, a stranger, to get their hands on their daughter . a week after her 18th birthday , she’s walking to school on a monday morning and before she knows what’s happening , there’s something over her head and she’s being dragged into a van and taken from her life

the one thing that was expected, was the $10 million ransom she was held for

basically her dad had some shady dealings with the italian mob & didn’t pay his debts to them for some time - so they kidnapped alanna in retaliation for that

they kept her for 3 days before her parents were able to work with the authorities to get her returned and pay the people in full

surprisingly, she was returned alive but she had to spend two weeks in the hospital afterwards with injuries

once alanna was returned, she wasn’t the same

she told the police what happened to her , but only barely . she didn’t tell her parents or anyone else about what they did to her when she was gone .

she didn’t speak , eat or sleep for two months after she got home

she spent the last few months of her high school in bed, she didn’t attend her graduation, deferred from going to brown in the fall, she didn’t see her friends anymore and she broke up with her boyfriend

the people who took her were never caught & she is still to this day completely terrified of going anywhere alone

she never walks anywhere alone

it took her months to be able to get back to doing normal things again and being who she was before

to this day , alanna still struggles with the memories and the ptsd from what happened to her , but she doesn’t speak to anyone about it and she refuses to bring it up in any scenario

she also has a horrible relationship with her father now , having trouble forgiving him for what happened to her

some people know about it as obviously, being as famous as her family is, it was on the news at the time, and everyone she went to high school with knew what happened so sometimes it can be hard to avoid it

she wants to forget - here comes her secret - she got into drugs after the kidnapping and it quickly spiraled out of control , now she can’t seem to function without them because they’re the only thing that make her feel normal and make the memories fade

anything she can get her hands on rly

but the media think she’s an angel , her reputation has been kept p much pristine her whole life . and her parents have no clue how much she’s struggling or how much she’s changed . so if this were to come out , it would tarnish not only alanna’s reputation but her family’s as well

* / 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚 !!

after deferring from brown , alanna knew she had to find some way to keep herself occupied and make money , even though she could live off her parents for however long she wanted

alanna wants to be . miss independent .

so she started getting into modelling , bc of her mom it was easy for her to book gigs

she was able to book gigs like adidas , guess , calvin klein etc !

so that was super exciting for her bc she got really into it and enjoyed doing it sm

she started acting about a year ago - started off in a few movies , & now she’s currently starring in a netflix series - smth similiar to elite or on my block !

oko so in high school alanna was super bubbly , and just like the really overly nice girl that would talk to literally every 1

but it worked for her bc she was voted prom queen and valedictorian ! even tho she missed graduation . yike

Anyway now ! she is not v much like that anymore , except when she’s super high .

since her kidnapping alanna has been closed off and aloof . in general , she’s not as talkative

she says what she thinks but it usually comes in one word mumbles

can sometimes b very entertaining . she’s kinda like paris hilton a little bit

also think Marissa from the oc !!

call her a spoiled brat she’s gonna be like “ yah… and ?”

she can be very selfish to a fault in certain situations

and very defensive if she feels attacked, judged , put into a corner , physically cornered , etc

she’s a hopeless romantic at heart and dreams of having an epic love story

but she has Hella trust issues which easily lead to commitment issues for her so … she will cheat “by accident” lol

that’s why she tries to steer clear of relationships but she also has such a big heart she falls in love 5 times a day sffsdkj

also w how much this girl can sleep around it’s not happening any Time soon 4 her ! she enjoys being single a lot

Bc she likes to get wild

shes like nicole richie on the simple life when she’s partying lmao

like she likes 2 fuck with ppl sometimes lol , like she will flirt w anyone and everyone just cus she’s bored

umm she lives in sweatpants n crop tops !

her hair is either in a bun or just down , she’s rly lazy when it comes to hair and makeup . like if her makeups done someone else did it lol

Unless she’s like fully in the mood

ooverall she’s a rly sweet lil bean whos just scared of humans ! :’(

um ya idk im always developing her but IF U read all this ilysm !

here’s her pinterest board for more of an idea !

* / 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 !!

EVERYTHING ! here is a link to my wc page & a link to my wc TAG which are both full of ideas so msg me & i’ll throw tons of ideas at u <333 let’s do it i luv plotting sm okay

#tw drugs #tw kidnapping #wealthyhq:intro #hehehe <3

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6ad6ro · 5 years

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Got tagged by @thequantumranger to do 21 questions. Thanks! I tag... uhhhh nobody... bc i can’t remember who likes doing these things. @yoshis i guess? WAH sorry send me a msg or do it anyways if we’re mutuals and u love this stuff! i’ll try and keep a list next time i’m sorry lol!

Nickname: robert Zodiac: fish Height: 5′10″ Last thing I searched: why google was ruining net with .webm/.webp format lol. also grandia 1 stuff. also pc88 stuff. Favorite bands: yellow magic orchestra, boards of canada, cibo matto, capsule, deerhoof, fatboy slim, boris, denki groove, rammstein, todd rundgren, towa tei, etc... Song stuck in my head: denki groove - mononoke dance If I had a time machine would I go to the past or the future: sometimes i think i would commit horrible acts to be able to go back in time and fix my childhood. i’d wanna fix other more important things but i’d be afraid to screw everything else up. it’s incredibly selfish but... Do I get asks: sometimes! i really love them like please send me asks! Following: hah idk i tend to grab ppl who post old pxel art/anime or who followed me and seem v cool. Rich or famous: neither? though with money i could help people and with fame i could point out places that need help... i guess rich tho i’d be giving most of it away. Amount of sleep: horrible. i have a major sleep issue. recently pills have helped a little tho. Lucky number: 42 (IM SUCH A DORK SRRY I RLY VIBE W HHGTTG), 2099. What am I wearing: just plaid pajama pants bc it’s so HOT. and black and neon yellow (ohh) silk (ahh) boxers (ooo) idk why i’m telling you this lol... Dream job: musician. artist. that whole not working thing is a good idea too? Dream trip: japan. or like? everywhere. i almost never get to travel but i love it... If you were an animal, what would you be: crow. annoying. smart n all but only uses it for dumb things that other ppl find pointless. Favorite food: pizza! fruit (even tho i’m allergic to many). actually my fav ever is just water. i genuinely adore water so much! What are some favorite books/films/shows/games:

Manga: air gear, monster musume, jojos, yuuna and the haunted hot springs, akira, love hina, bnha, goodnight punpun, ghost in the shell, cromartie high school, evangelion, knj, junji ito stuff, rumiko takahashi stuff, JUST A LOT MORE SORRY.

Books: the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, 1984, brave new world, discworld, i’m blanking srry...

Games: final fantasy vii, castlevania sotn, jet set radio future, earthbound, vb wario land, mario64/smw, zelda lttp/64, resident evil 3, mystical ninja, silent hill 2, sonic 3 and knuckles, snatcher, killer7, phoenix wright, hotline miami, undertale, shin megami tensei, etc etc etc etc etc.

Shows: peep show, arrested development, father ted, trailer park boys, curb your enthusiasm/seinfeld, the office (us/uk), star trek, twin peaks, more i’m forgetting. (anime): nichijou, evangelion, fist of the north star, jojos, flcl, kemonozume, azumanga dioh, tenchi muyo, etc etc etc.

Films: blade runner (and 2049), 3-iron, jurassic park, lethal weapon, my name is nobody, scott pilgrim, phoenix wright, toy story. (anime): ghost in the shell, akira, miyazaki stuff, a lot more i’m forgetting...

Play any instruments: piano/kb (not great but trying), guitar (worse), harmonica (who cares tho lol), drums (awful). just a lot of things but i never get good weh. Languages: sadly only english. i’ve tried japanese and german etc but i’m bad at learning em! Aesthetics: anime girl, pixel, techno, neo-futurism, old japanese computers, virtual boy, manga, vaporwavey, vhs, looks normal or even punky or “tough?” irl but goes home to a room covered in cutesy moe anime girl merch.

#thequantumranger #questions #ty!#i spent too long on this tho lol...

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coralstudiies · 5 years

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Botanical asks desert rose, primula and blazing star :))

Desert rose - do you like yourself??

really depends, i'm a very passionate person and i like that about myself because i know passion rly brings u place and it can motivate the people around u. at the same time the drive becomes a burden when i get too stubborn. sometimes i refuse to listen to my brain and other times i refuse to listen to my heart :"))

another thing i like is that i'm easygoing?? so many ppl out there complaining about trivial things but im like meh-_-" it rly does make life easier when every little thing stops affecting u because u see things clearer and you dont have to gripe and frown almost every moment.

Primula - What makes you sad?

idk ignorance. sad love stories. when dreams dont come true. when we can do something to help but we don't do it because we're selfish or 'too busy'. it's all the little things tbh, i guess tragedies hurt but sometimes it's the details that we often overlook - when u think about it there's a huge contrast between a minute action, thought or dialogue that really means a shit ton. it's the implied meaning that really strikes me and upsets me the most:(

Blazing star - share a secret

i once persuaded my friend to break up with a guy because that guy was the referee for my teammate's match and he was super bias and mean. naturally i got pissy and i thought it was gonna be a good way to get back at him i mean dudeeeee get a life u dont get enjoyment out of ruining another person's day -_-"

#coralstudiies #asks #asksgame

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unicyclehippo · 7 years

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omg can you please write a sequel/ part 2 to that supercorp fic you just posted where Lena finds out Kara is supergirl?!? It was so great but now I'm stressing that Lena doesn't react well. Only if you've got time of course :) also I love how you write supercorp in general, it's amazing and feels so on point

i have a fever & im hacking up a lung: this is, in my humble opinion, the time when my writing ability rly soars. rly comes into its strengths. rly just,,, fucjin rocks. enjoy, ur welcome :))/

kara has been waiting, and hoping - and stress eating her way through the kids menu - and more hoping, beyond the normal bounds of hope, that lena will turn up for the dinner date they’d set up before… before all that “i’m an alien blah blah specifically supergirl blah blah blah” stuff.

kara shoves her hand into her bowl of fries, pats around to find one as she checks the long row of windows and the two doors for any sign of lena. her face falls when all she encounters is the cool ceramic feeling of betrayal. and no lena.

she flags down a waiter.

“can i get another of the fries, please?”

he looks at her like he knows she’s already eaten her way through six of them. or maybe like he knows she’s been stood up. it makes her feel worse - slump back in her chair and try to keep from feeling like her heart is being crushed kind of worse - and he nods hurriedly and scurries away into the kitchen.

she pulls out her phone, taps on the second contact, aaalex.

>if after three hours someone hasn’t shown up to a dinner….

>u got stood up>or they’re dead

kara rolls her eyes. then has a minor panic because, well, lena is kind of a magnet for attempted murder. she strains her ears to listen for lena but it’s futile this close to the ground, this close to so many people.

>kara >lenas fine>dont break the restaurant or ur phone

kara blinks down at her phone.

>have you been playing with the telepath drugs

>no lol i learned my lesson. i just figured she’s the only one u have been going on dates with so…

kara glares down at her phone, taps the CALL button with furious precision.

“we aren’t dating, alex. they’re friend dates. dates between friends.”

“mhm.”

“and also i have been on plenty of dates lately!”

“sure,” alex allows, but kara suspects she’s only half listening.

“they’re not dates,” she mutters. “but she did stand me up.”

“yeah i know. you put your "date between friends” in my calendar so i was kind of surprised when she marched herself into my office tonight. she signed everything.“ alex waits for a moment. kara says nothing, just stubbornly munches through the fries the waiter puts in front of her. she’s relieved to hear lena is actually okay, and that she signed, but it’s all overshadowed by the fact that lena isn’t here, with her, eating something kara can’t pronounce and gushing about the science she’s been working on and the way she smiles when kara orders seconds and tries to pay and alex is talking again. "not sure what kind of damage control thats worth, if any. i mean, she’s a luthor. but i told j'onn not to even think about wiping her. or, i thought it really loudly.”

kara sighs.

“as is my right as a big sister, i get to tell you you’re an idiot,” alex says, far more mildly than kara expected. or deserved, really. “so what the hell happened? i thought we’d at least talk about it before you told her.”

“it wasn’t something i could deny. maybe i could’ve,” kara mutters, “if it weren’t for my too expressive face.”

“the too expressive face,” alex agrees unhappily. “you got us in a lot of trouble with that.”

kara rolls her eyes. “sorry twelve years late?” she offers and alex hums her thanks. “plus m'gann said hi. like she knew me, you know? she didn’t know someone was with me, it’s not her fault, but yeah. lena knew. i could see it. and then we were at her place and i realised she just knew i was an al- a foreigner,” she corrects, looking around the mostly empty restaurant, “and not supergirl,”

“hold up. she let you into her place knowing you’re an alien?”

“yeah.”

“huh, okay.”

“what?”

“no, nothing. let me guess, you told her.”

“dramatic reveal and all.”

“and this was…”

“last night.” kara checks her watch, lifts her hand to get the bill. she grimaces when she sees how expensive it is to eat her way through her feelings. but hey, if she’s going all out, what’s a little more? “can i get two of your pizzas takeaway and also four brownies? please.”

the waiter looks ill at the request but kara is too upset to care that she’s eaten way too much tonight. by human standards. she could still eat.

“alex, you still there?”

“yup.”

“are you free tonight?”

“nope.” she pops the ‘p’ with some relish. “day off tomorrow, maggie and i are taking our bikes down the coast, remember?”

“right, right.” kara hands over her card to the waiter, signs the bill he brings over. “what do i do?”

“about lena?”

“no, about the state of affairs in, ugh i can’t be bothered,” she mutters. “yes, about lena.”

“um. well, she hasn’t tried to kill you yet so…talk to her?” kara hears her step out into an echoing room - the parking lot, she guesses, and alex’s car beeps. “hold on, i’ll switch you to my hands free,”

“no, no, it’s okay. drive safe and have fun tomorrow.”

“we will. and i love you.”

“love you too.”

“hi, jess.”

“kara!” jess smiles over at her. “late night for everyone, hmm?”

“yeah, what are you doing here? it’s midnight, you should be home.”

“i’m just finishing up some work, i have the week off from tomorrow,” she explains. “do you want to see miss luthor?”

her phone buzzes on the side and jess glances up at kara after reading the message.

“let me guess, she’s not in.” jess gives her an awkward smile and kara closes her eyes, nods. “of course,” she says quietly. “okay, well,” she swallows around the thick feeling of tears and sets the brownies on the counter. “um. these are for her. or you. have a good night bye have a fun week,” she says very quickly and almost runs back to the elevator.

it dings open in seconds and kara rushes in, leans back against the wall of it. she holds herself together as much as she can, can’t really help sniffling but she can excuse that on a cold. she stares over at the shut box doors of the elevator and knows the second she gets home she’s going flying.

she wonders if she still has her aunts suit. she doesn’t feel like reds and blues tonight, wants to fly without the expectation that comes with her suit.

the suit, alex tells her, was quarantined.

kara shoves herself into some old jeans and a deep blue sweater and jumps into the sky. when she’s higher than the tallest building, she rolls onto her back and floats, staring up at the sky.

winn is still in the DEO headquarters. she doesn’t fly down, but she hears him typing away and watching some show on his second monitor. he’s been working late a lot lately. she doesn’t know if something is wrong or if it’s more guardian business but she misses him. she’d text him an invite, or ask him about a game night, only she left her phone at home.

james is on the phone to lucy when she flies overhead and they’re over but he still sounds adoring when he speaks to her, and happy.

alex is - doing things no sister needs to hear.

“kara.”

lena’s voice is small and kara jerks, almost rolls into the path of a bat, before she detects the slight slight whine of a voicemail.

“i know it’s late, you’re probably asleep, i just wanted to talk and,”

kara lands with a slight thump on lena’s office balcony and lena turns. the slight stutter of her heart comes not when she sees kara’s face, but her body. or, clothes.

“kara.”

she ends her voicemail, steps over to unlock the door.

“hi. i wasn’t - i was flying, i heard you.”

“oh.” lena’s fingers twitch. she folds her arms. “i signed everything.”

“yeah. alex told me.”

“i apologise for missing dinner.”

kara takes a step back, shakes her head. lena looks nervous the moment she frowns and it rips at kara. she takes another step back.

“you didn’t miss it. you stood me up.” lena doesn’t say anything. “why - what does it change?” she asks. “how am i different?” she tries to keep the frustration from her voice but whatever, she’s upset that her best friend is all wonky over this, fight her about it.

“you’re supergirl.”

“yeah.”

“i’m,”

“if you say a luthor i’m going to scream,” kara tells her, and lena’s teeth click closed around that exact phrase. “i’ve been telling you for months that i don’t care about that.”

“that’s from before i knew,”

“but i knew!” kara cries. “i knew, and i meant it, and i still mean it, and i just want,” she stutters to a stop, lifts a hand to her eyes. she’s not wearing her glasses so she just covers them with a hand and slowly drags it away when she’s contained again. “i’m sorry i didn’t tell you. i didn’t want things to change. i didn’t,” the reason, or a reason, occurs to her and she sags a little. it’s selfish but lena deserves to know. “i didn’t want you to leave me,” she tells her, in a small voice.

lena has been very quiet and still as kara spoke and now she nods. “i am sorry about tonight. sometimes, i do things like that. when someone’s upset me.” she rolls her eyes delicately. “i’ve been told it’s a defence. throw someone off balance so i feel we’re on equal terms again.” her eyes are dark, cool. “i didn’t know. that you were an alien. i keep thinking and thinking, and i keep picking out all these instances and i just,” she shakes her head. “i can’t believe i didn’t know. i don’t like that i didn’t know.”

“i’m sorry.”

lena nods. “i can’t promise everything will be as it was before.”

kara nods as well. things - this, them - have changed and nothing goes back to how it was before a shift like that. as much as something might look the same, it never is.

“but i can tell you that in a month, there is a restaurant opening. i have four tickets, i would like for you to take one.” kara blinks at her. lena doesn’t smile but she does soften, a little. “i can’t tell how this is going to go, which is freaking me out a little and in a week i’m sure i’m gong to do something drastic,” she says with an edge of warning.

“i’ll be ready,” kara promises.

“good. all i can really say is that i will still want you to be around in a months time.” kara feels herself light up at the words. they’re not 'i’m not leaving you’ or 'i’m not sending you away’ but they’re pretty damn close. “and i don’t know how i feel about this, i don’t know when I’ll figure it out, but i already miss my friend kara.” kara nods her agreement. she can feel a lena sized hole opening up inside her the longer lena speaks, making herself clear that there is going to be a distance, a time for them to figure this out. she’s sure it’ll be a good thing; she’s equally sure it’ll hurt like hell.

“tomorrow is too soon to hang out, right?” kara checks. “it’s just, alex is away and winn is busy and,” she holds up her hands, shakes her head. “no, nevermind, too soon.”

it grows a little awkward - lena thanks her for the brownies, declines when kara offers to fly her home.

but the next morning, kara opens her front door to lena’s driver, a box of cookies and a small pot of yellow flowers and a note with just a short message.

'our lives are filled with tomorrow’s. this one isn’t ours, but perhaps the next one will be. enjoy your day x’

kara tucks it between the photo frame on her bedside table and the lamp and brings the flower pot with her to the couch. she sets up her next season and pulls the pot into her lap, wraps an arm around it. she pats the pot fondly, sends a photo of herself with it to lena, and settles in.

#tagging my stories #supergirl #kara danvers #lena luthor #supercorp #part two

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dulldrops · 6 years

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Do all of the asks

Sorry Ive just seen this I didn't even get a notification oops nosy anons let's go0: Height- like 5'1 I think1: Age - 202: Shoe size - 3.5/43: Do you smoke? Yes 4: Do you drink? Yes 5: Do you take drugs? Yes increasingly so but tbh so are the last 2 6: Age you get mistaken for - like 16/17 7: Have tattoos? Yea millions 8: Want any tattoos? Yeah I want to b covered 9: Got any piercings? Nose , two holes in ear lobes and then helix 10: Want any piercings? Tragus, some other ear ones 11: Best friend? I give up with friends lol fuck everyone 12: Relationship status - in a relationship for the past 3 yrs 13: Biggest turn ons - just worship my booty and were good, don't worry its worshipable14: Biggest turn offs - horrible teeth , having no facial / chest hair haha idk why I like hairy guys 15: Favorite movie - eternal sunshine of the spotless mind 16: I’ll love you if... buy me food, pay attention to my art, make effort with me and make me feel like you give a shit. That's literally it. 17: Someone you miss - my dad atm18: Most traumatic experience - probs getting lost in the woods in the middle of winter thought I was gonna die 19: A fact about your personality - which one? 20: What I hate most about myself - body, how soft I am, how indecisive I am21: What I love most about myself - ?22: What I want to be when I get older - something successful enough to live n work to new York City i guess 23: My relationship with my sibling(s) - quite good, I'm th oldest so they all look up to me. Closer to my brothers 24: My relationship with my parent(s) - alright, much better since I moved out, however I have too much unresolved shit with my mother that affects me deeply like... Don't open that door lol25: My idea of a perfect date - like a cute Christmas market date or something, or a farm maybe 26: My biggest pet peeves When people take my stuff without asking, (sisters usually) , when someone agrees to plans but have no intention of going through with them(what's the point just say no) when you expect to do these plans and these people let u down and don't even feel bad about it 27: A description of the girl/boy I like - he leaves his clothes on the bed when he gets changed and it rly irritates me 28: A description of the person I dislike the most - full of shit, talks shit about everyone, legit everyone hates them, wouldn't piss on them if they were on fire 29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend - because no one cares abt the truth 30: What I hate the most about work/school - too much work, don't care about ur personal shit 31: What my last text message says - "Yeh I’m gona be heading back soon just trying to wake myself up xxxxx" 32: What words upset me the most - being called selfish 33: What words make me feel the best about myself - when ppl realise I'm sassy 😂34: What I find attractive in women - body confidence and a desire to destroy all men 35: What I find attractive in men - effort !!!!! Nd attention 36: Where I would like to live - New York City, sometimes I think maybe like a ranch with horses somewhere in America maybe 37: One of my insecurities - that people think im younger/ less immature than I am and I don't get taken seriously lol. Also my personality changes so much that I can be a liability sometimes 38: My childhood career choice – photographer but idk it changed every day 39: My favorite ice cream flavor - vanilla always im boring 40: Who I wish I could be - someone important maybe 41: Where I want to be right now - in bed toasty warm with Paul doing nothing42: The last thing I ate - nothing today just drank tea I can't remember yesterday 43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately - shut up 44: A random fact about anything - im cold n i bit my nail too short n it hurts Sorry I'm super boring and uninteresting

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everythingmustgo · 7 years

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Cancer sun, Capricorn moon, virgo rising with Leo sun, Pisces moon, libra rising ?? ((If I got ur riding wrong LOL AWKS)) but do us

OK so our sun signs r (despite what some ppl say lol) good together!!! so much love here!!!cancers need someone who will look after nd emotionally support then nd leos invest sooo much time nd energy into people they care abt. like we have a reputation for being self centred (which…….ya) but ppl look over the fact that leos r some of the most generous nd caring ppl nd will make u feel loved, which cancers need. cancers r ofc ALSO intent on caring for their partner but not in so much of a Shower Them In Affection And Gifts And Adoration way like more of a maternal, I care about u and ur wellbeing and I will Protect u !!! to sum that up I think leos r more intent on giving their partner IMMEDIATE happiness w BIG gestures all at once whereas cancers r more concerned w ur long term health nd happiness nd want to look after u nd care for u !!! HOWEVER that being said. we’re deeeeefinitely not entirely selfless lol a leo is a leo nd if ya dont treat them the way they treat u theyre like FUCK well guess they dont love me??? they wanna b treated like royalty nd its easy for them to overlook the way cancers love bc it’s more focused on maintaining their long term happiness nd leos r so. SELF INDULGENT HEDONISTIC INSTANT GRATIFICATION like we gotta calm tha fuck down nd recognise love in other forms (not to call myself the FUCKKK out). cancers and leos both love very deeply, and both need to be reminded often that they are love bc while they r similar in a lot of ways, the ways they express love is not one of them. cancers r also…….selfish lol theyre loving nd caring nd compassionate but they need sm emotional support man when they feel things they feel em DEEP and theres not rly room for anyone elses emotions in their mind when their own feelings r so strong. if ur both upset, the cancer comes First. leos might feel like their own feelings r often unnoticed. tbh I think other than both of us being inherently Needy and Selfish leo + cancer is good man we r so Loving nd caring nd good for eachother cuz different ways of showing love r important in relationships. as for our moon signs GDJAKAKFLS we could NOT be more difficult pisces nd capricorn CHRIST pisces moons r v emotional and empathetic and deal w problems and their feelings internally cap moons r v practical and balanced and deal w problems thru action and processed planning like our inner selves r so Wildly different ??? but its funny bc obvs from a personal point of view we hav a v deep connection w eachother which is odd when our moon signs r sooo different BUT my theory on this is that 1. we compliment eachother w it. pisces need someone to get them out of their shell, look at the issues realistically and put it into perspective, and solve their problems thru practical means. w/o an earth sign theres no WAYYY a pisces would do that lol. and a pisces will encourage a cap to take a more intuitive approach to the issues they hav that r emotion based. while a cap usually doesnt let their emotions “get in the way”, a pisces will encourage them to let their feelings guide them when necessary: sometimes even when smth seems logically the right thing to do, if ur gut says no it’s probably right, and caps need a water sign to help them see this. my 2nd reason is that u hav a water sun sign so while my inner self may relate less to ur less emotional inner self, ur core personality nd outward self hav more similarities which a pisces moon will pick up on Right Away. water moon signs w a water sun sign r GOOD combos, better than 2 water suns or 2 water moons. they r generally drawn to eachother. I cant say ur cap moon would b particularly drawn to my dumb leo personality but I do think that generally cancers do like leos nd leos do like cancers cuz they see a lot of themselves in eachother nd a lot thats also new and exciting. we’re not so similar it’s boring but not so different it doesnt work, we compliment eachother well!!! there will def b times we do NOT understand eachother whatsoever emotionally, but theres enough love in the relationship to just. give eachother the support we need nd do what we can. as for rising tbh I think this becomes less important the closer u get to someone so ukno, ur my gf of 3 years its not such a defining feature of u BUT the way u express urself when u want me to b impressed by u is by achieving ur own standards of perfection so ill think ur flawless and u have an appreciation of all things beautiful. u want ppl to think ur organised and have it together. u WORRY a LOT. ur always worried what ppl think of u. ur especially worried ur not good enough for me. im a libra rising so I just. want u to like me at All Costs what a massive suck up whatever u like I say I like too im terrified of ppl thinking im in some way outrageous I just want ppl to think im fair nd good. cuz we’re so close tho these r less important in our relationship? we’ve already made our impressions ukno we kno eachother so well its rly our suns nd moons (nd venuses) that count lol. at first u might have been annoyed by my Eager To Pleaseness nd not thinking for myself nd I might hav felt intimidated by ur high standards but ? these r things of the past ukno? anyway heres my #analysis do w it what u will

talk 2 me abt astrology, reblog my tarot post

#astrology talk

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tobelockedupmoved-blog · 7 years

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#sometimes its just rly nice to know that ppl like my harper #and that im not forgotten #even though my muse has been a little iffy lately #idk i just have low self esteem like all of the time #the fact that im so exhausted probably isnt helping i just #like being liked i guess #im selfish like that lmao #but honestly who doesnt like being told that theyre good and that people love them???#yall are lying to urselves if u say u dont like compliments #i love compliments #they make me happy and they make me feel like my writing is worth it #and im not just wasting my time lmfao

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alanncs · 4 years

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hello all ! my name’s dani , i’m one of the main admins & i can’t tell u how excited i am to have wealthy up n running again ! i can’t wait to plot with all you beautiful peoples , pls like this & i’ll slide in the dms , otherwise u can also hit me up on discord 𝟞𝖌𝖔𝖉♡#1958 !! i’m gonna put all you need 2 know about alanna below aaand i hope y’all like her ! <3

new york’s very own alanna deniro was spotted on broadway street in gucci bee sneakers . your resemblance to hailey baldwin is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty first birthday bash . while living in nyc , you’ve been labeled as being reticent , but also gracious . i guess being a scorpio explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be anything pink , the lingering smell of weed , and a cigarette between her fingers . & ( cisfemale & she/her ) + ( dani , 20 , she/her , est . )

☇ ❪ ˚･ﾟ ❛ backstory !! tw: kidnapping , ransom , drugs

alanna was born heir to the deniro family , which came with the billion dollar dynasty that her father created - hotels , stores , brands , cars , etc . anything u could think of really

she grew up accustomed to the spotlight, having no choice when it came to that considering her family had been in it for decades

but that came with a price, she was expected to do everything they wanted of her, go to an ivy league college, follow in one of her parent’s career footsteps

the one thing that was expected, was the $10 million ransom she was held for

they kept her for 48 hours before her parents were able to work with the authorities to get her returned and pay the people in full

once alanna was returned, she wasn’t the same

she told the police what happened to her , but only barely . she didn’t tell her parents or anyone else about what they did to her when she was gone .

she didn’t speak , eat or sleep for two weeks after she got home

the people who took her were caught about 8 months later on another charge and that was the first time she felt safe since . it took her months to be able to get back to doing normal things again and being who she was before

to this day , alanna still struggles with the memories and the ptsd from what happened to her , but she doesn’t speak to anyone about it and she refuses to bring it up in any scenario

anything she can get her hands on rly

but the media think she’s an angel , her reputation has been kept p much pristine her whole life . and her parents have no clue how much she’s struggling . so if this were to come out , it would tarnish not only alanna’s reputation but her family’s as well

☇ ❪ ˚･ﾟ ❛ personality !!

after deferring from brown , alanna knew she had to find some way to keep herself occupied and make money , even though she could live off her parents for however long she wanted

alanna wants to be . miss independent .

she gets her worth ethic from her father

so she started getting into modelling , first it was small stuff , then she got on instagram and things went really well from there

she was able to book gigs like adidas , guess , calvin klein etc !

so that was super exciting for her bc she got really into it and enjoyed doing it sm

i’m definitely gonna expand on her career as we move along in the rp bc i have so many ideass !! fnsds

oko so in high school alanna was super bubbly , and just like the really overly nice girl that would talk to literally every 1

but it worked for her bc she was voted prom queen and valedictorian ! even tho she missed graduation . yike

Anyway now ! she is not v much like that anymore , except when she’s super high .

since her kidnapping alanna has been closed off and aloof . in general , she’s not as talkative

she says what she thinks but it usually comes in one word mumbles

can sometimes b very entertaining . she’s kinda like paris hilton a little bit

also think Marissa from the oc !!

call her a spoiled brat she’s gonna be like “ yah... and ?”

she can be very selfish to a fault in certain situations

and very defensive if she feels attacked, judged , put into a corner , physically cornered , etc

she’s a hopeless romantic at heart and dreams of having an epic love story

but she has Hella trust issues which easily lead to commitment issues for her so ... she will cheat “by accident” lol

that’s why she tries to steer clear of relationships but she also has such a big heart she falls in love 5 times a day sffsdkj

also w how much this girl can sleep around it’s not happening any Time soon 4 her ! she enjoys being single a lot

Bc she likes to get wild

shes like nicole richie on the simple life when she’s partying lmao

like she likes 2 fuck with ppl sometimes lol , like she will flirt w anyone and everyone just cus she’s bored

umm she lives in sweatpants n crop tops !

her hair is either in a bun or just down , she’s rly lazy when it comes to hair and makeup . like if her makeups done someone else did it lol

Unless she’s like fully in the mood

um ya idk im always developing her but IF U read all this ilysm !

here’s her pinterest board for more of an idea !

☇ ❪ ˚･ﾟ ❛ wanted connections !!

EVERYTHING !! hehe . i have a wc page right here & there’s a wanted tag linked there as well so pls gimme all <3

#wealthyhq:intro

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